#UGHHHHH MY HEART HE NEEDS THIS!! <3

[blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk]

I'd like something with Alois, but I'm not sure what?! So I'm letting you choose (just make it fluffy, pls)!

aaaaaaa the world definitely needs more Alois fluff~

The night is usually quiet within the walls of the Trancy Estate. You and ALOIS sleep soundly in the master bedroom, and the servants take care not to disturb either of you unless it’s important.

It’s never a surprise that your lover is affectionate with you. He loves being able to touch, hug, kiss, just lie there and let his hands wander wherever they feel like wandering. Tonight, though, he goes a step further; as soon as you lie down next to him, his arms are around you. He nestles his face against your neck and breathes in your scent like it’s the last memory he’ll ever have.

“Well, hello, beautiful,” you hum in amusement. You run a gentle hand through his hair, stopping with your fingers curled at the base of his neck. “Are you thinking hard about something?”

He nods with his face still against you, though it feels like he’s relaxed a bit. No longer as desperate as he was when he first grabbed at you. “Yes. I’m thinking about how much I love you. And how happy I am that I found you before someone else did.”

You chuckle, and your other hand comes down to rest on his back. His muscles relax under your touch, his whole self cuddling in at the reminder that he’s safe with you. “I think even if someone else found me first, you’d have found a way to steal me. You’re good like that. And I love you, too.”

“Mmmh. You smell so good.” His breathing is even, delicate. The rest of the world is so quiet, anything too loud or harsh could break this moment into a million pieces. His fingers, balled into half-fists, stroke up and down your spine. “(Name)… this isn’t going to end, is it? It’s not some kind of dream?”

Your head tilts despite knowing he can’t see it. “What’s not? Our life?”

“Mhm. You see, sometimes… sometimes I’m afraid that’s all it is. A dream that my mind’s made up to make myself feel less lonely.”

“Hm. Well, I think I would know if I were a dream, darling. I feel very real.”

He chuckles and it’s a warm puff of air that makes you shiver a little. “Good.”

Another few minutes pass. It’s dark outside, you know, even with the curtains drawn. Alois is usually fast asleep by now, snoring thirty seconds after he drops down into your arms. You have to wonder what’s keeping him awake tonight.

Finally, he murmurs against your skin, “… Do you promise you’ll love me forever? No matter what?”

“Forever? That’s a long time,” you tease, scratching lightly at his scalp. “Do you mean until we die, or even after that?”

He lets out a small noise of thought before deciding. “No, after that. Do you promise that even when we’re dead, you’re still going to love me? When we’re just souls without bodies… will you find me and stay with me? Will you choose me even then?”

The way he speaks, you think he wants to believe the answer you’ll give will be a yes… but that he’s tensing himself up, braced for a no. You know there is something inside him, something that aches heavy in his chest, that thinks you’ll eventually get tired of him. That thinks at some point, you’ll stop seeing him as worthy of your love.

You comb his hair back, and kiss the top of his head. “I suppose so. If we’re just souls after that, it might take me a while to find you, but I’ll do it.”

“You will?” His grip suddenly tightens. “But… but what about… it’s ‘till death do us part’, isn’t it?”

You tug the covers up over the two of you. “It’s precious that you think death is going to stop me from loving you, Alois. You should really be more concerned with what happens if I die first. Because if I do, I’ll haunt you every day until you join me.”

He lets out something that sounds like a cross between a laugh and a sob, then presses himself against you even more. “… Fine, then. If I die first, I’ll haunt you, too.”

“Oh, dear, it seems I’ll never be rid of you,” you chuckle. You offer another kiss, this time to his forehead as he peeks up just a little at you.

Ah, that smile he gives is wicked. “Just as planned.”

[bunnakit]

your top five favourite soft scenes in bl <3

ask me my top 5 bl anything 🌸

AAAA I LOVE SOFT SCENES THANK YOU AL (and happy new year beloved!)

BE MY FAVORITE | PISAENGKAWI

i could just make this entire list scenes from Be My Favorite, to be honest. Pisaeng and Kawi are so, so fucking soft, but this is one of my absolute favorite moments. you just know Pisaeng's heart was crawling up his throat.

HISTORY 3: TRAPPED | TANG YI x MENG SHAOFEI

your former enemy now lover, one of if not THE most powerful man in Taipei, stopping in the middle of heated kissing to kneel at your feet and reverently press a kiss to the wound you received while protecting his sister? FUCK. i didn't consider this one of my favorite BLs but i literally can't get this scene or them out of my head, so i might be wrong about that.

NOT ME | SEANWHITE

Is that the sound of your heart beating? Thump, thump, thump, thump.

GAWD. what the FUCK man. i feel like crying just briefly rewatching that scene alone, it's such a gentle reprieve from everything going on in their lives, an impossibly soft moment captured between them. and seeing White so playful in love? AUGH.

MOONLIGHT CHICKEN | FINALE

i could also fill all 5 of these just with Moonlight Chicken moments but i wanted to include a moment that wasn't necessarily between a couple. i love this moment of family and peace at the end of everything, the way everyone comes together and things are different but that's okay. there's so much i always want to say about MC but i feel so much for it i can't ever really properly put it into words (shocking from me, i know.) this show is just so special to me.

SEMANTIC ERROR | JANG JAEYONG x CHU SANGWOO

I was so nervous.

it's Sangwoo's acceptance and Jaeyong's palpable relief. it's how Jaeyoung looks like he still can't believe this is happening. it's how they fit so perfectly together like they were always supposed to find each other. I NEED MORE OF THEM.

because it was so hard to pick just 5 here are 3 honorable mentions:

LAST TWILIGHT | MHOKDAY

i'm still here. i'll probably be here for a while. i'll probably never forget this.

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME | ZE RUI x ZONG YI

the reunion was so incredible and soft and UGHHHHH. the way i felt so fucking relieved like it actually affected me at all

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME | CHEN YI x AI DI

it was so nice to see them so soft after all the shit they had to go through to get together. they're so comfortable and at peace with just about the only people they can be that way with and it makes me want to bite someone.

[undergoing-mitosis]

OKAY EVERYONE WHO TOLD ME TO JUST WAIT FOR THE START OF SEASON 2 YOU ARE SO FUCKING RIGHT OH MY GOD

THE DARK ERA ARC OF BSD GOES SO FUCKING HARD I AM GOING FERAL I FINALLY SEE WHY EVERYONE LOVES THIS SHOW SO MUCH

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

THIS IS THE ANGST I LIVE FOR

ARRRRRRRGHHFFVBCKXGKCKBKHDHDK I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT

you guys have managed to make me think about something other than death note for once are you proud guys are you proud

my thoughts so far below the cut 👇

so i have just finished episode 3 and AAAAAAAA

i have heard vague spoilers so i know of Oda's unfortunate fate but I AM NOT READY

WTF THEY FUCKIN BLEW UP THE KIDS IM SORRY???? LIKE I KNEW HE WAS GONNA BE DRIVEN TO BREAK HIS PACT BUT NOT LIKE THIS!!!! also the sound design of that entire section was *chef's kiss* like i was nearly crying i was not okay

and the metaphor of oda giving up on writing his book ughhhhh i love how they addressed the idea of becoming a murderer being irreversible and changing your entire life, in a world so filled with bloodshed that can easily fall through the cracks. my heart was absolutely breaking when he gave up on that dream. THEY FUCKIN DROVE MY BOY TO THIS POINT I CAN'T I WILL KILL THEM I WILL MURDER EVERY LAST ONE OF THEM FOR HURTING HIM okay im fine i promise

dazai's speech about how everything good gets wrenched away from him was fuckin heartbreaking. especially given that i know that things obv don't work out between him and chuuya. god someone needs to give my boy a hug he is too tragic

OH ALL OF THESE CHARACTERS ARE SO TRAUMATISED AND SO COMPLEX AND SO 3D AND I LITERALLY WANT TO SQUEEZE ALL OF THEM AND HUG THEM AND

oh yeah also i have not given up on my vision of mello in the bsd universe currently i am thinking of having all three of the successors as a power trio who decide to take on the world (i.e. yeah the port mafia) together cause they can. but im kinda stuck on what their abilities should be. anyways that was a sidetrack

BUT YES I LITERALLY CANNOT WAIT TO WATCH EPISODE 4 but alas sleep beckons. i will probably be back here screaming once i watch it haha

ARFJFVBGVCXHY HERE COMES THE BSD BRAINROT YIPPEE 🏃🏃🏃

if you got this far, thank you for reading my absolute brain splurge! have a cookie 🍪

[wetcatspellcaster]

*same anon as before who mentioned that part in chapter 12*

I genuinely think about that moment multiple times a day since binging lmao it has seriously done something to me, and I know he's doing a *bad thing* during it, but my god it's so AHHH.

I need to know what Ascended Astarion was doing in his coffin, was he crying?? Will we find out?? And what is going on through his mind when he is paralysed? Ughhhhh Anyway. Thank you for gifting us this fic. Now I'm going to go and read literally every other fic you've written.

hello again, anon! :)

Ahhh, coffin-gate. It has been confirmed in other asks here that he was wanking (if this is about Chapter 8). Although, the three circulating rumours (wanking, sobbing his heart out, having a Lethandar-style panic attack) did make me laugh at the time, if only bc it proves how inept I am at writing anything vaguely sexy lmfao. All options (or a combination of all 3) are valid, such is the beauty of reader response, and an author who writes every vaguely suggestive thing out of the corner of her eye while averting her gaze from her own laptop.

What was going through his mind when he was paralysed?

Horny static. Followed by panic. Followed by the realisation that um. all of him is paralysed. Until a Greater Restoration :')

.....let's hope the commands his spawn operate under were comprehensive enough to help with that, huh?

[virgincels]

my mind has been full of chris lately like re8 chris?! it’s over. he’s like perfect old man material! and especially with a puppy reader? i feel like his patience is a lot thinner than leon’s, like u just want to play but he doesn’t have time for that and he expects u to understand! like no! u’ll sit at his feet and maybe get a pet or two within the span of a few hours and u’ll end up clawing at his pants, like please! put down those papers and pay attention to me :( he’s not afraid to spank you, AT ALL. his hands are huge and give you stings within seconds. it’s never one or two spanks, maybe twenty at least, he wants you to be a good pup and he can’t have you misbehaving! he’s a sweetheart though, he looks rough but he’s honestly a huge softie, he’ll sooth your skin after and kiss your tears away. he apologizes by fucking you nice, you babble about how he’s too big and you can see his imprint in your stomach, but he’s too busy kissing your face to notice. whenever he’s rough, he LOVES to yank your tail, he knows it’s sensitive and uses it to his advantage when you’ve been bad. he loves his little puppy so much but at his old age, he can barely keep up!

idk if it’s okay to send in chris stuff, if it’s not, u can ignore this ! :3

ughhh i adore chris seriously he’s got firm hands and the softest heart, he’s well prepared i think to train a puppy, knows how to dish punishment out but help them come down from it! how to soothe any discomfort both physically and emotionally, he’s attentive and i think he doesn’t get enough credit for it :3

when he was younger he probably wasn’t aware of his own weight, his own size, too heavy-handed when it came to handling things. but he’s older now, he’ll use a firm hand only when he needs to, and he’ll only be rough if you ask. ughhhhh he’s so huge, just dwarfs you completely, fucks you stupid and doesn’t know why you’re so tired afterwards! doesn’t even need to be rough for you to be tuckered out, he’s so big it literally pushes all the air out of you

[fyorina]

(uh, this is rlly long im so sorry qwq)

OMG THAT LAST CHAPTER HAD ME FEELING SM CARINA U CANT DO THIS TO ME !!!! LITERALLY THE FIRST FEW PARAGRAPHS IN I HADTA WALK AROUND BC I WAS SO OVERWHELMED I LOVED IT SM !!! N THOSE LAST FEW LINES. DONTDOTHISTOME I S A W THE "BEAST AU COMPLIANT" TAG ON UU IM GONNA SOB MY EYES OUT DURING IT I JUST KNOW !!!

gonna leave some of my fave few lines n my thoughts abt them from this chapter (ok these arent all of em, bc if i put all of em it'd be the whole 50k words of this series SO ITS JUST THIS CHAPTER)

"because how could he possibly belong amongst people who are so unfailingly good that it makes his tainted heart stick out like a sore thumb?"

STOP NO DONT DO THIS TO MEEEEEE throughout the whole fic u perfectly captured his thought process n how he denies his own capacity for change n how he HAS changed from when he was 18 BUT THIS LINE MADE ME TEAR UPPPPPP

"He is so completely and irrevocably in love with you that Dazai doesn’t think he’ll ever be able to live in a world without you. The thought alone makes his skin crawl and his chest cave in."

self-explanatory

“Are you calling me ugly?” 

u gorgeous, gorgeous man ilysm yes you look like a rat but i'll swaddle u up in blankets n clean u up

the whole graveyard scene. DO YOU WANT ME TO CRY HELLO

“You were a kid, Osamu. You’re not some incarnate of evil for ending up where you did, you were failed by all of the adults in your life,”

ok nvm crying this hit me like a truck

"Humans cannot live without a heart, so if he’s to give you his, it’s only fair that you give him your own—though realistically, yours has already been his for a long time."

i feel like this mightve been ur fave line, but if it wasnt IT STILL IS MINE BC OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD QWQ

ranpos lil rant was so funny he's literally me frfr

“Yeah… ha, look at us, in jail at the same time! Couple goals, huh?” 

i giggled

PLS READER INVITING EVERYONE JUST TO AVOID GETTING INTERROGATED UMMM RELATABLE LMFAO

these are just some of them BUT JUST IN GENERAL, UR WRITING IS JUST MAGICAL ITS EVERYTHING IVE EVER WANTED TO READ N I LOVELOVELOVEEEE THIS SERIES N ALL UR WORKS (n u /p) SM !!! I CANT WAIT FOR UNREAL UNEARTH, I JUST KNOW IT'LL BE AMAZING !!!

RED HOW MANY TIMES MUST I TELL YOU NOT TO APOLOGIZE I LITERALLY ADORE YOU IM GOING TO WEEP OMG

honestly the first scene of dazai’s pov was one of my favs to write because it pisses me off so much whenever he’s excluded from the ada panels in the manga fjsjdjsjjd so i NEEDED the opportunity to hit home that that is his FAMILY idc what asagiri says the ada is that boys family and he deserves it 🥹🤞

UGHHHHH STOP BECAUSE WHENEVER I WRITE CANONZAI ITS SO HARD TO KEEP ON THAT THIN LINE OF HIS INABILITY TO ACCEPT HIS OWN GROWTH WHILE ALSO HAVING HIM ACKNOWLEDGING ODA’S LAST WISH FOR HIM SO I REWROTE SO MANY OF HIS POVS SEVERAL TIMES BECAUSE I FELT LIKE I WASNT GRASPING IT ALL PROPERLY

the graveyard scene was one of the 3 scenes i started writing for 🥹 i literally was weeping when i finally got to it

AND ALSO THE YOU WERE A KID LINE UGHHHHHHHH BRO when i tell you that’s something that i literally want to scream at him and shake his shoulders like he was FOURTEEN WHEN MORI BROUGHT HIM IN AFTER HIS ATTEMPT !!!!! FOURTEEN !!!!! HE WAS A BABY IT MAKES ME SO SAD WHEN HE FRAMES HIMSELF AS SOME IRREDEEMABLE MONSTER WHEN HE ONLY TURNED OUT THE WAY HE DID BECAUSE HE HAD NO ADULTS IN HIS LIFE SETTING HIM ON THE RIGHT TRACK ugh im gonna weep again i will always be dazai’s #1 defender, i will fight him himself idc he was only a lil baby :’)

oh my god fun fact i actually almost deleted that line about the heart, i don’t even know why like i was rereading it right before i post and i second guessed myself because i was like ‘i don’t think it rlly flows’ but then i decided against removing it because i liked the line in general SO IM WEEPING AGAIB

bro ranpo needs a promotion for real the headaches this man must get because of people not listening to him 💀

HDOSJDJSJDJJD THE COUPLES GOAL LINE WHEN I TELL YOU I SNORTED WRITING IT HELPPPPP I WAS GIGGLING SO HARD

RED ILYSM IM BUNDLING YOU IN THE SOFTEST BLANKETS AND GIVING YOU A FOREHEAD KISS

i’m so excited for unreal unearth like honestly it’s my pride and joy, i’m so pleased with how my beast!dazai characterization has come out so far and i’m hoping everyone else is going to like it too 🥹 if not ill simply die HAHAH JK JK JK no but really i’m so very excited for it

[grahamcarmen]

Have a lot of asks and takes so just gonna dump them all here:-

opinion on chase and dexter.

you know i really want carlotta to meet the faculty and coach brunt and gray.

carlotta is gonna get such a biased version of gray that it cackles me up.

I can just imagine carmen telling her about gray and her response is "so you inherited my taste in bad boys".

you know, i understand why people think that if el topo killed someone he'll feel really guilty nut like he's the one to remind crackle that no witnesses should be left behind he's a cinnamon roll who can kill you.

rn i'm giggling at the idea of someone catching carmen and grey making out.

Commander is adorable.

1)i like them! Chase i maintain has the best line about the trufffles in his brain in s2. vivid imagery. poetic. and he gets such a solid and clear arc so congrats dude!! i really also like in s1 where he doesn't really buy that mimebomb is important but does have a tactic to keep tabs on him . tenacious, resiliant, and really intelligent sometimes. a lot of fun to watch and occasionally hear the out of pocket things he can say, he starts out abrasive but seeing him soften up and do what he can do best is fun and rewarding

dexter we don't get much but he was literally so!!! for getting only barely caught on cameras dating carms mom (which he refused to stop doing heck yeah <3) and doing his best to long con his way OUT of VILE for all of their sakes. and as a VILE agent? he was so smooth like steal those jewels, fly away, get paid for minimal teaching...ajsdnfasdkfn cool. RIPERONIS you were pretty cool

i really hope that carmen gets told by her mom that she has her dads eyes it was such an awwww moment when she said it. :( + just ugh can you imagine the conversations if she gets even more hints of similar things between them...ughhhhh carmen would really hold that dear...

2) hmmmmmmm like i really am into maybe her mom wanting to occasionally help carmen and that could happen VIA that (faculty and brunt) as for GRAY...

3) asdkjfnaslkfdjasd ok carmen gives literally all of gray's good points in such heart eyes and happy voice that the context of how carmen knows this just like makes her go "WAIT WAT" but lmao the idea of them falling for bad boys who are actually so soft and will do whatever it takes and actually turn over a new leaf <3 [i do think she might be a little harsher in her opinion on gray at first because thats her baby >:( waddyumeanyou! but like

:(it was everything...it was literally everything he held dear for carmen to exist and ugghhhhhhhhh i can't with them.

and like a changed person who her daughter has so much love for and obviously loved her enough to do that?? plus her mom runs an orphanage like i want to see him try to wiggle his way in the middle of respectful and being called out for old habits he can't shake yet and not being used to her brand of warmth. or her just asking him to keep watch the kids so she and carmen can have a day together mijo :((((((

and him being decent at corralling all those kids...not great he almost lost a couple but decent (he is good at charming distractions but gets snippy at the troublemakers if any...he's the only troublemaker allowed there<3) + always my evidences that he was the one who split up carmen and sheenas fights, the boys looked at him when they needed help at the tunnel, lmao he actually did have a decent distraction of codenames at the ready, and he's a head patter with a chill laid back disposition he projects...he can distract them with candyland for an hour...i think he can catch their attention like lmao he has such de facto group leader energy even if its not what he primarily does/the role he always wants...can he hold it tho...

or even a seriousish conversation after with gray realizing that was her trusting him lol + just long way round is still the way around conversation

5)...is that a thing? i mean el topo initially felt really bad about carmen because they were friends and might* have felt bad for shadowsan because he was his teacher but le chevre just tells him to focus on the bad parts of his class to get over it. old man in the desert who he has no attachment to? crackle remember to kill him + next time le chevre/ el topo both get over any lingering attachments and el topo even captures carmen with a smile and an ho-la. cinnamon roll who can kill.

6)I NEED THAT SO BAD ! NEED THEM TO BE INSEPARABLE AND INSUFFERABLE AND GET CAUGHT BEING ABSOLUTELY INTO EACH OTHER AND ABSOLUTELY SO HAPPY. askjdfnaskfjna and absolutely with only half an idea of what to do when caught

7) COMMANDER ...is cute <3

[sleepdeprivedsimp234]

So i was watching a bunch of funny GC videos on YouTube and I got the inspo and motivation to give the OG13 a GC. This will probably be very OOC, but I like to think of this as how they act without the other states. So um- enjoy? (Also yes I know that ME technically isn't one of the OG13 I just added him for fun)

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Yorkie: WASSUP F*CKERS

Masshole: Why do you have my phone?!

Yorkie: F*CK YOU THAT'S WHY

Papa (PA): Wtf is wrong with you guys

Yorkie: b*tch stfu

Masshole: fr

Papa: 😑

Joi-sey (NJ): why am I here

Maine: I would also like to know.

Joi-sey: Nobody asked you 😑

Maine: I don't remember anybody asking you either so stfu 🤫

Georgia: It is too damn early for this... Why must y'all always choose violence??

Mary: I would like to know this as well, but I've just stopped asking and accepted it as one of their traits hun.

Georgia: Ughhhhh

Respect Your Elders(DE): Why tf is my phone blowing up

Yorkie: Cuz we're conversing duh 🙄

Respect Your Elders: Silence fetus.

Yorkie: B*tch.

Respect Your Elders: Infant.

Yorkie: Old man.

Respect Your Elders: Toddler.

Yorkie: Old hag.

Mary: Aight let's stop fighting!!

Yorkie: Stfu <3

Respect Your Elders: Stfu Mary.

Mary: 🥲

Southie: Hey guys 👋

Joi-sey: Hey babes 😘

Southie: Hey handsome ✨❤️

Masshole: Ewwwww get a room 🙄

Joi-sey: Oh shuddap Masshole. We don't say nothin' when you and Penn are sitting together on the couch and lovingly staring into each other's eyes and sh*t 😒

Rhodey: Actually we do say stuff-

Joi-sey: Yea but not out loud.

Masshole: ....Stfu <3

Joi-sey: 😌

Nutmeg: Will y'all stop bullying each other for once-

Joi-sey: No ❤️

Masshole: Nah ❤️

Connie: *sigh*

Georgia: Yorkie wanna cuddle 🥺

Yorkie: Is that even a question- I'm on my way.

Northie (NC): Gayyyyyyy

Yorkie: Oh shut up ion say nothin' when I walk past you and TeNnEsSeE making out in the hallway, so don't start.

Northie: 😳 you saw that

Yorkie: Yup 👍 I had flashbacks to middle school when I would walk into the hall and see a couple playing tonsil hockey.

Masshole: Ok but FR THO

Yorkie: YEAH THEY ALWAYS BE GOIN AT IT LIKE BRO AINT NOBODY WANNA SEE THAT 🥹

Masshole: ONG. AT LEAST GO INTO THE JANITORS CLOSET OR SOME SH*T 😒

Yorkie: YEAH. IM JUST TRYING TO GET TO MY NEXT CLASS AND TRY TO GET THROUGH THE DAMN DAY WITHOUT GETTING DRUNK AND JUMPING INTO A BUSY ROAD FOR FUNSIES 😭

Masshole: ...Damn you alright bud

Yorkie: I'm fine <3

Masshole: Okay then...

Papa: Wtf was that...?

Georgia: Idk but I have my Yorkie with me so I'm fine with it 🥺❤️

Yorkie: Stfu-

Georgia: He's blushing rn

Mary: Hun if you don't send a picture right now then no more coffee ❤️

Georgia: Sending it rn hold on...

~georgia sent a photo~

*in the photo York has his face hidden but it's still quite obvious that he is blushing like crazy*

Papa: Pfft-

Virgin(ia): Awww how cute 🥺

Joi-sey: How long have you been here

Virgin(ia): T h e w h o l e t i m e.

Joi-sey: Alright then...

The Shire (NH): Ay Yorkie ya still alive?

Georgia: No he's asleep.

Masshole: Good. He needs it.

Rhodey: Aww Masshole does have a heart :)

Masshole: Stfu before I come over there and kick you like a football out the window :]

Rhodey: 😶

Masshole: Damn right.

Mary and Papa (at the same time): Your cute when your mad 😒❤️/🥺❤️

Masshole:... Stfu ❤️❤️

Virgin(ia): I'm so lonely 🥲

The Shire: You and me both 🥲

Connie: I feel y'all :')

Rhodey: There's an emoji for that y'know 😒 "🥲"

Connie: Idc 😑

Rhodey: Whatever

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(the next day)

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Yorkie: Guys guys guys guys-

Respect Your Elders: What did you do now child?

Yorkie: Ok first of all, f*ck you. Second, I found a rat snake :)

Masshole: Put it back where you found it.

Yorkie: Why tho 🥺 He's cute 🥺

Masshole: Okay, what do rat snakes eat 😒

Yorkie: Birds, bird eggs, squirrels, rats- Oh. OH-

Masshole: Yea dumba$$. Knowing that it eats squirrels, it would probably eat your long rats too.

Yorkie: B*tch they're called ferrets.

Masshole: Point still stands.

Yorkie: I'll put him back 🥲

Masshole: Atta boy <3

Yorkie: F*ck you <3

Joi-sey: Knowing him he'll probably abduct some random garter snake he finds in the woods

Connie: Probably 😑

Papa: Yea that's accurate

Everybody else (-NY): ^

Yorkie: Man I feel betrayed 🥲 F*ck all of you ❤️

Georgia: Even me darling 🥺

Yorkie: Yes you too traitor ❤️

Papa: DAYUM-

The Shire: Dang no hesitation 😭

Georgia: I- Love you too I guess 🥲❤️

Yorkie: ❤️

Yorkie: EEK I FOUND A GARTER SNAKE 🥺 IT'S SO TINY 🥺

Joi-sey: Yup thought so.

Masshole: Goddamn it- New York stop abducting random animals

Yorkie: But-

Masshole: No buts 😒 Put it back.

Yorkie: It's cute tho 🥺

~Yorkie sent a picture~

*in the picture the snake's snoot is right in front of the camera*

Yorkie: 🥺

Masshole: Dangit it is cute- Y'know what? Fine. Tell me when you get home.

Yorkie: YESSSS :D

Masshole: 😒❤️

Respect Your Elders: Awww does the big bad Masshole have a soft spot for his little brother 🥺

Masshole: Del istg I will kick you out the window

Respect Your Elders: Pfft- yeah right 😒

Masshole: ....

Respect Your Elders: Uhhh guys?

Papa: Hm?

Respect Your Elders: Why do I hear footsteps approaching my room?

Rhodey: That's probably just Mr. Bay State coming to kick your ass out the window.

Respect Your Elders: Uh oh- Baby are you not going to help me 🥺

Rhodey: Sorry Love, but I ain't gettin' in the way of that

Respect Your Elders: Babe 😭

Rhodey: It was nice being with you <3

Respect Your Elders: Jersey? Penn?

Papa and Joi-sey: Sorry Del/Ha nope.

Respect Your Elders: Traitors 😭

Respect Your Elders: Oh god he's knocking on the door-

Respect Your Elders: HE JUST KICKED MY DOOR DOWN-

Respect Your Elders: GUYS HELPHDKGSKADHSU-

Yorkie: Damn he got him 😔

Joi-sey: 😔

Papa, and Rhodey: 😔

Mary: Y'all I just heard a thud outside my window 😥

Joi-sey: Probably just Del.

Mary: WHAT?!

Papa: Backread.

Mary (after backbreading): OH GOSH- WHY DIDNT YALL HELP HIM 😭😭

Yorkie: Ya really expected us to get in the middle of Death's work?

Mary:... Fair enough 😭

Georgia: Is he still alive??

Mary: Well- he's groaning in pain so yeah I think so 👍

Georgia: At least he's alive.

Masshole: Hey I'm back :)

Mary: Hun why did you kick Del out the window 😭?

Masshole: He was running his mouth 🥺

Mary: No books tonight, youre sleeping <3

Masshole: Nuuuuuu 🥺

Mary: Sorry Hun 😘

Masshole: 😔👍

Yorkie: 😎🕶️🤏🙂🤭

Masshole: 💥

Yorkie:👀🏃🏃🏃💨

Masshole: Damn right 🙂❤️

[kitkatwinchester]

GUYS I DON'T EVEN NEED TO SEE THE REST THAT SEASON WAS PERFECT!

I mean, obviously I need to see the rest, because I want to see the rest, but GUYS THAT ENDING WAS SO PERFECT OMGGGGG.

Like, okay, am I sad that Stiles didn't end up with Lydia (...yet?)? Yes. But am I SOOO freaking happy that Jackson is alive? Absolutely. And, like, as much as I want Stiles to be happy, and as much as we can clearly tell he appreciates the real her more than anyone else, that scene between Jackson and Lydia was freaking BEAUTIFUL OMG.

And then the scene with Allison and Scott was so amazing. Like, obviously, I'm sad that they're not together right now, but I also totally get it, and Scott totally does too, and the fact that they both love each other enough to trust that they'll maybe end up together again someday is so cute.

And then don't even get me STARTED on the ending scene with Stiles and Scott. OMG STOP MY HEART CAN'T HANDLE THEIR FRIENDSHIP AHHHH!!!

THEY'RE SO STINKING CUTE AND HILARIOUS AND ADORABLE TOGETHER I'M SO GLAD THEY'RE STILL BESTIES I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AHHHH!!!! <3 <3 <3

Anyways. I think choosing to finish the season tonight was a good idea. It ended beautifully, and with JUST enough of a season three set-up (pack of alphas?? That's a thing?? Also did we ever actually figure out what Alan Deaton and counselor lady ACTUALLY are? Cause we seem to keep glossing over that....) to keep me intrigued, BUT enough wrap-up that I can maybe get myself to focus on school for the rest of the week and save the episode watching for the weekend.

...maybe.

We'll see how long I last. XD

All I'm saying is, if the show had ended there, I'd be happy.

However, I am even MORE happy that it did not, 'cause then I GET MORE OF MY BOYS AND AHHHHH!!!

This show is quite easily a 10/10 for me already. WHO LET ME GET OBSESSED AND INVOLVED IN ANOTHER FANDOM GOSH DARNAT! XD

You know what? I regret nothing. I welcome Teen Wolf with open arms lol.

Okay okay. I'm actually done now. Will I make it more than 24 hours without starting the next episode? I guess we'll find out tomorrow. XD

(UGHHHHH I LOVE THESE TWO SO MUCH!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3)

[life-of-a-dinosaur]

Current On Rotation: 03/23/23

"Please" by Daisy Jones & The Six

I assume we are all on our Daisy Jones & The Six ride right now? I love that the Aurora album feels both new and old. A nostalgic Fleetwood Mac inspired ride that brings both familiar and brand new. I love it.

I know other songs have a higher listen count and place on the show, but this one has always stuck with me. I love the stomp at the beginning and Billy's voice, just aching in the lyrics of trying to be a better man, as he fights against the worst parts of himself, but his heart lies with Daisy. I love it. I love how each song is a story to one another.

"Please, I'm down on my knees I have a family Please, it's an awful disease And it's gettin' me Merged with a terrible urge every night Please, if it's only a single bite

I'm in the terrible trees at the edge of it Please, man, I'm down on my knees like a Jesuit And I need what I can't unsee to disappear Ah, c'mon, man, I know what I'm doin' here"

I love that the lyrics are both about this alcoholism and his addictive love for Daisy. Obsessed. Especially the line, "down on my knees like a Jesuit," ugh so great after Daisy's song before this about how she's "more fun to miss than to kiss," just ughhhhh. I love the placement of the songs on the album, the story unfolds beautifully from "More Fun to Miss" to "Please" and then them coming together to fight against one another in "The River." Truly, chef's kiss.

I got some issues with the show and the differences from the book, especially with Billy's character, but more on that later because the music really is wonderful.

Happy Spinz Everyone. May you find a little love to consume you for a bit today with this song. <3 <3 <3

[dxncingwithastrxnger]

hc (because the two days later is my villain origin story) ♥︎

— after el woke up after the fight against vecna she fell into mike's arms and when she calmed down a bit, mike carried her to the van with a piggyback ride. he didn't care if he got wet or not. mike kept el warm with a woolen blanket that argyle found in the surfer boy's office.

— they stayed at the nearest motel and while everyone was asleep, el and mike had been talking. not much like mike said to will, but definitely it was also about their feelings towards each other. they fell into bed together in each other's arms. mike kissed el several times on the head and forehead and she was the one who fell asleep first. she was totally exhausted. (and mike promises himself that they will never be separated again.)

— and on the second night, mike and el definitely lay in each other's arms on the back seat of the sufer boy van. for breakfast they shared a pack of eggos that they got with their last money at a gas station.

Bro, yes, these are absolutely amazing 🥺🥺🥺 And yes, I agree, that 2 days later haunts me, dude. There's so much potential within all that and they gave us none of it. Like what was that for, that's not fair at all 😩😩😩

Yes, El definitely needed to be held by Mike for a long while after she came out of the fight with Vecna. The poor baby probably sobbed and cried for like a whole hour after all that 😔 And Mike didn't even care, he didn't mind it at all. She woke up, gasping, immediately using the hand that was holding hers to pull herself to Mike before she just wrapped her arms around him and broke down as he pulled her close and held her. He half carries, half guides her back out to the sitting area of the restaurant and sits back down in one of the booths, El halfway in his lap as she clings to him and cries, the other 3 kinda just watching from afar, trying to give El some space to just let it all out. None of them no what really happened, obviously, but they know they can't ask her in the state she's currently in. And Mike is just holding her and trying his best to reassure her without knowing what happened, saying things like, "I'm here, I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere. Whatever happened, we'll get through it. We'll figure it out together. Just let it all out, I'll be right here the whole time." Until she eventually calms down for now and manages to tell them how the fight went and that they need to get back to Hawkins soon and she definitely clings tight to Mike throughout that entire 2 days, but especially for the rest of that night.

They have a very much needed conversation that night while everyone else is asleep about things and they both may or may not end up crying a little bit during/after the conversation because they just love each other so much and so much is going on for them right now, the poor babies ☹ And Mike definitely clung to El, too, it wasn't just her. When she started choking while she was in Vecna's lair, he was absolutely fucking terrified, no doubt about it. And he definitely had a long conversation with himself in his head that night about everything after El fell asleep, just holding her and thinking about everything. Boy makes a whole ass vow to himself that they will never be separated ever again. It's happened way too many times by now and he will literally attach himself to her in order to make sure it never happens again. His poor little heart can't take anymore of that worry and anxiety and sadness from it. He just wants to be with El and be able to love her and be loved by her forever and ever, that's all he asks 🥺🥺🥺

And yes 😩😩😩 They would've been cuddled up together almost that entire van ride to Hawkins and they would of been all cute and shit, ughhhhh. And yes, El would get so excited when they found the eggos, too. She would be extra happy about it because it's such a small thing but holy fuck, it's been a long week and they have fucking eggos hell yes thank you universe and they immediately grab them and buy them without looking at anything else and then they just munch on them in the van, cuddling and talking quietly and being all cute and shit and ughhhhh, I need it so bad, it's so not fair 😭😭😭

But anyways, thank you so much for sharing your headcanons with me!!!!! I love them so much!!!!! I appreciate it greatly!!!!! I hope you're having an amazing day/night!!!!! 💜💜💜

[chryzure-archive]

I’m sorry today was not great :( as a consolation/prize for making it through, here’s a ✨FREE RANT PASS✨ for any topic you like 💖 let’s hear about it 👀

thank you ;;;; it was just overwhelming and exhausting on top of stressful events. but i’m resting now ;;;;

HONESTLY, i’m kinda glad you mention this bc!!! i’ve been thinking a lot abt chrysi and archibald’s story rn and how i want the events to unfold after archie shows up on selene. i was experimenting with a fic where archie uses his ability to teleport via closing doors to find chrysi—except he finds her in the washroom, frantically trying to scrub off blood from her hands. which is. awkward, generally, but archie doesn’t think much of it bc she is the executioner of selene.

(actually, when he shows up to selene in the first place, chrysi’s like “are you stupid? you’re not registered as a visitor and selene takes any deviation from its laws very seriously. i should know—i kill a lot of people because of it.” archibald suddenly realizes that while the pole may have been cutthroat, selene is a lot more difficult for him to best. BUT, he was the ambassador once, so he has the skills necessary to survive selene.)

((this is also another side note, but i’m going crazy going wild over my snippet from when chrysi realizes archibald used a compass rose to get onto selene—bc she quietly mutters, “archie?” to herself, but when she talks to him, she exclusively calls him “mr. ex-ambassador”. like… she can’t admit that she still has feelings for him, despite everything. ughhhhh i love it when chrysi has her walls up to keep ppl out but they sneak in past her defenses anyway))

anyway, back to the washroom—archie takes the chance to help chrysi clean up + he sneaks her out through the washroom closet (since that’s the door he used to sneak in) since she seemed pretty rattled (at least, from what he’d gathered). then they have a fun convo where chrysi goes “i wish…” “what?” “i wish i could trust you again.” because she wants to let him in again, but she just… is still too broken up to trust him :((( plus, when she starts describing archie to himself, he quietly goes, “but i’m not a good man, then?” —bc chrysi used descriptors like “smart”, “determined”, “charming”, “honest”…. and then she’s like, “no. you’re not good.” OUCH. but she also said that he’s not a bad man (she does mention that she’d define jacks as a bad man. sorry <///3 but it is true.) so archibald’s happy for the participation award, i guess.

sadlkfjasdlf but ANYWAY, later, jacks and archibald are having a fun little cat fight over chrysi (jacks is being a BITCH, but archie is fucking mauling him every time he gets the chance to talk. archie’s winning, obviously.) —only for eris to show up and laugh at jacks, saying, “no need to fight so hard for your master. don’t you know what they do to loyal dogs after their owner dies?” uhhhh WHAT (also, everyone on selene will refer to jacks as chrysi’s little pet. they’re not wrong.)

turns OUT, chrysi is accused of the murder of one of the elite of selene. this man and her were famous for always being on opposite ends of pretty much every issue. it’s not hard to guess why people think she killed him. a lot of ppl are also very eager to get rid of chrysi as executioner, since she’s scarily good at finding everyone’s crimes. it’s similar to how thorn was going to be put to death bc everyone hated him.

((also, the title “executioner” isn’t entirely about killing people. chrysi is also an investigator of sorts. she spends just as much time in a court of law as she does tracking down criminals.))

anyway, both archibald and jacks rush to her holding cell, their fight put on hold. maybe they don’t get along with each other at all, but they both care about chrysi, so that counts for something.

when they get there, chrysi’s studying the holding cell thoughtfully and comments that they took her suggestions to heart, in order to make the cells harder to escape. then she says that the killer must’ve waited until her changes went through before they killed the guy, just so she would be further trapped.

jacks is desperately trying to find a game plan for chrysi’s defense in the courts, and archibald’s feeling real sick to his stomach right now, because—he saw her hands covered in blood. he doesn’t think chrysi did it, but he can’t lie. if the court knew he had been there, he would be put on the witness stand and either tell the truth (‘cause he can’t do anything but tell the truth), or he would stay silent and condemn her anyway.

add on top of this that, when jacks asks chrysi why her hands were covered in blood, her response is a very soft, “i don’t know.” “well, you didn’t kill him, at least?” “i don’t know about that either.” “…….what?”

chrysi is fucking pleading with jacks to stay silent w her eyes, bc a symptom of her faetelle worsening is blackouts. she sometimes will find herself in a different place with no memory of how she’d gotten there or what she’d done. plus… she doesn’t want archie to know that he’s in love with a dying woman :((( (meanwhile, archie doesn’t want chrysi to know that she’s in love with a dying man lskdjflksjdfklsdjfklsjd. get it TOGETHER, you two)

they go into court completely unprepared as a result. or so archie and jacks think.

when chrysi’s put on the stand to plead her case, she announces that she wants to be released to investigate the murder. she’s the only one qualified to do so—and when everyone says that she’ll make up evidence, tamper with the crime scene, try to escape—she points right at archibald and announces him as the ex-ambassador of the pole, once a member of the web, and completely unable to lie. she’ll investigate and he’ll come along with her, observing her every moment, and coming back as an unbiased witness to the truth.

archibald’s like “:) you know, i’d feel a lot more confident about this if we knew for certain that you didn’t kill the guy :)” jacks is SEETHING.

but YEAH, i decided to add this to my chrysiarchie storyline and i’m alskjdalksjflsdkjfsdlkfj about them… they were my saving grace while i was at work.

[davidtennantpussytulpa]

okay west side story complaints will follow if u love me you should red and agree and kiss me abt it if u dont then scroll past i guess 🙄

okay this will prob be a little disjointed but whatever. first point: the direction style…… aka kill yourself spielberg. if you hate musicals its the easiest thing in the world to not direct one but here he is. officer krupke is one of my favorite parts and they were doing so well moving between verses using the set for each character but he just HAD to cut to the woman looking at all of them like they were acting weird like UGHHHHH. the whole point of a musical is that the audience suspends their disbelief that people dont just randomly sing and dance for a few hours so they can see a story told dynamically in that way. but people are so fucking embarrassed by musicals that he put in a character to YANK us out of that suspension and be like hey!!! isnt this dumb!!! musicals are sooo silly and dumb and so are the people who like them, im making sure you guys know that even though im directing one im still one of you normal people who thinks this is all weird. the absolute fucking disrespect towards your whole audience for that…. this is extended to the one hand one heart scene as well. the original in the dress shop captures their youth and excitement so well, dancing around with the wedding dress and tux and imagining the window of the shop as stained glass. but again its just taking any of the interesting things you can do with the musical format and not giving your audience enough credit to have any whimsy or suspension of disbelief in a set that isnt the LITERAL location

next largest complaint: ANSEL ELGORT??!!??!3??3!2&@1!;?; AGAIN this feels like the producers not having enough faith that musicals can bring in an audience (despite adapting one of the most beloved musicals of all time, even nearly 60 years later) and trying to expand their audience with a face everyone knows. at least this wasnt another beauty and the beast and he could actually sing reasonably well, but his acting and dancing were HORRIBLE. the fact that he was the only mainstream famous person combined with some weird costuming choices made him feel out of place and even anachronistic at times. maria looked young (and her actress was abt the age she is meant to be) while hes pushing 30 and he really looks it. and his energy doesnt help either. instead of tony being a naively optimistic man in giddy love, he just seems like he decided to be like okay whatever i like this girl i guess. definitely not that he would DIE FOR HER. also combined with bad direction the original has them being pulled together across the dance floor almost magically, and everyone around them falls away, and it makes their romance instantly powerful and believable. in this why did they just go behind some bleachers it was SUCH a weird choice and it just never felt like they had any real chemistry with this styrofoam block of a man

okay and now for the story itself…. WHY did they feel the need to shift SO MANY THINGS AROUND. i liked the change of doc to valentina i thought that gave a good new element to the story, but they shifted all the songs in the middle around and changed the whole meaning of some of them. im on the fence over cool being changed to the fight over the gun i think its kind of interesting and i probably would have had an overall positive opinion if it werent for elgorts stiff ass dancing, but for now i think it offset the pacing with the rumble in the rest of the story. what was most offputting was removing the dress store entirely. now anita and maria only interacted at home, and there was no buildup of conflict between them with tony meeting maria there, and i feel pretty was performed without a dress of her own and to a bunch of characters we hadnt seen before and never saw again. why did they do that???? they sectioned off all the characters in scenes so oddly to the point where important people were missing from half the scenes and nobody should have known what was going on ever. tony was literally so disconnected from everyone else and in conjunction with elgort being literally the ONLY non-theatre person there it felt like tony wasnt even a main character

the police were also weird as fuck. like theyre gang members. they hate the cops. and in this one the added element if gentrification makes the cops worse. but THEN they tried to make krupke like… super well-meaning? like hes talking to the boys in a semi-supportive way and not threatening any violence and even COMFORTING ANITA AFTER BERNARDO DIES??? (also the morgue scene. why. that was stupid) like sorry disney u literally cant be like omggggg cops bad we get it guys 🥰 while STILL being like but also….. cops good 🙈

okay finally the ending. what the fuck. circling back to weird ass directorial decisions. tony dies, maria is crying and waving the gun then back to crying holding him and they could have ended there but they added them carrying his body away but there were too many fucking people so anybodys is just wandering ahead of them and maria walking behind them like 😐. THEN THEY DONT EVEN CUT THERE….. they have chino and valentina walking together THEN picking up the gun slow as hell THEN walking some more THEN the cops show up THEN they start to hand the gun over and FINALLY a fade to black with them obscured in the distance with the fire escape in close focus like WHY. in the WORLD. is that your powerful final shot. the whole thing just felt so rushed in the first place, and then being jumbled up and elgort just not even making me care a little about the romance, and then the ending being just awkward altogether what a fucking weird ass production from all angles

okay but the actors themselves other than ansel elgort all did amazing i wish i just could have directed them i literally could have done a better job. xoxo gossip girl if u read this all youve earned a sloppy makeout session with me 😘

[amiaboyoragirl]

alone

i dont have any friends. i live at home with emotionally unavailable parents and my brother, who is my only semi trusted person. we are really close and honestly if i didnt have him i wouldnt be alive but we definitely butt heads and i feel bullied by him even though he doesnt mean to hurt my feelings hes just a blunt ass bitch and 6.5 years younger than me but the dynamic is basically im a big baby he feels the need to take care of. and were codependent with weed nicotine and money/food. im a mess and cant get a job, he does instacart when hes not stoned af at home. hes the only person i interact with during the day other than awkward convos with my mom complaining about something and at least once a day i have to hug my dad which makes me very uncomfortable because 1. im autistic. 2. i have sexual trauma 3. he has traumatized me so bad but either doesnt remember or doesnt think it was traumatic (didnt involve incest but he was too involved in my personal business and forced me on birth control that fucked up my health for a while when the incident that caused him to flip was asault but my mom just slut shamed me and yeah anyway my relationship with them is fucked) but i have ocd and if i dont hug them i feel like theyre gonna die after that thinking idont love them because they cant see any other reason why i wouldnt hug them. and honestly im touch starved so a hug is nice here and there but my body is so uncomfortable here. ive lived here my whole life and i feel helpless. im sure it is learned helplessness because of trauma but still i cannot fucking function outside in the world alone.

i also have tits that make me uncomfortable and im currently trying to figure out if i feel this way because im trans or because of trauma and the general sexualization of the female body and social dynamics idk. i also just got out of a 3.5 year relationship with someone i thought i was going to marry and shit but i felt like i was a lesbian and broke up with him even though i didnt want to lose him i knew he wouldnt love me the way i loved him or if i was a guy inside he wouldnt love me anymore. i know he loved me. but a lot of it feels fuzzy and i cant decipher what was real or if it was all chemicals cuz we fucked and smoked and ate and watched tv and talked all the time. the sex was fucking amazing. sometimes i cry about it still. and i still cant touch myself without thinking about him and just forcing myself to dissociate through it and sleep immediately after. ive always been a sex addict since i was way too fucking young but before this relationship i was sleeping with multiple guys all the time, i needed it to get through going to school and work and keeping up the mask. but then covid hit. met my ex. realized we are autistic. i couldnt keep pretending and forcing myself to work in a fucking restaurant that was sensory hell and triggered my eating disorder. ughhhhh god dammit i know im just romanticizing my ex relationship because im missing the sex and affection and talking to him but realistically we werent going to last and i still feel like we both were hiding some feelings or thoughts we had idk i think he couldve been a narcasisstic asshole but my heart doesnt feel that way, maybe im the narcasist and hes just audhd and traumatized just like me. idk fuck. i miss him so much. we were doing so good like finally things felt peachy again and looking up for us even tho in reality it wasnt we were and are still broke addicts too stubborn to get help. but it was fun while it lasted i guess.

anyway i feel like a rabbit in a hole running out of food and water while the world dances in the snow covering the exit. idk. i havent eaten breakfast yet and i already smoked twice so im sure ill eat and sleep this shit off but idk the thing that gets me everyday is i wake up from a dream i feel like im with my ex and then wake up alone and sad as fuck and it just ruins my day because i let it, i dont want to let go of the pain, of him, i fucking miss him and wish things could be different. we always said we wanted to die holding each other in bed like that couple preserved in pompeii. my chest is on fire right now and if i could just have one more night together id do anything. we have the same birthday so that sucks. i wanted to say happy birthday but it felt way too soon and idk if itd ruin his day or not but iwas def sad all day. we broke up 2 months ago now and havent spoken since but i saw him twice waiting to cross the street while i drove by and my heart sank to my ass. he looked good af. but i have to be honest with myself its not my responsibility to try to make him not angry and act like a man child sometimes. and its not fair tohim to feel responsible for my moods all the time we just couldnt take care of eachother the way we needed because we are both depleted of what we need idk. im going back to sleep. im just feeling emo we shouldnt get back together but i feel like i cant trust my brain because im bpd and pmdd and i always feel this way around my period, we break up then my periods over and im sad as fuck about it and regret it. its too late now im sure hes lost any interest in me and has moved on.good for him. he should. i actually really hope hes happy right now. but i know i didnt feel completely right with him so fuck it ill just try to move on. i just wish i could be normal and have a job or school and friends stuff to distract myself and have new memories but im so isolated rn and depressed idk. i might feel fine tomorrow so i wont kms lol. bpd is sooo fun. especially with gender and sexuality ocd and just wanting to be loved but feeling so unlovable ayyyyy.. i could feel hot after breakfast who knows.

[daechwitatamic]

Ok I'm fully rested and ready to tell you all my favorite parts of the last chapter.

1) "I never felt like I didn't know you." YES! We all really needed to hear this. I was worried initally Taehyung might confirm Nina's comment. I felt so frustrated bc even though she was hesitant I thought there were so many genuine moments we saw OC fight against her survival instincts and push herself out of her comfort zone to share parts of herself, and I'm so happy Taehyung saw that. It's ok to not feel comfortable opening up to someone until trust is established and Davis and Nina proved that they were not worthy of earning OCs trust so they have no right to gaslight her into thinking she was the cause for their treacherous actions. Do you see OC and Nina ever making up or do you think she will learn its best to let Nina go?

2) "An outline of the boy who sees you, knows you, loves you." Ugh this might be favorite line of the whole series.

3) "Since Strindberg!" Omg the way I can picture irl Taehyung doing the exact same thing in this moment. It reminds me of the "medic! medic!" moments from Run BTS. I remember you saying you only write for Taehyung right now bc you feel most comfortable writing in his voice and this was a moment where I felt your ability to capture his playful but earnest spirit really shone through.

4) The smut scene at the end was so good! When they first went to the basement I was like really? On the pong table? After that sweet love confession? But then per usual you surprised us with a switch up and a steamy but still very sweet scene! I love how you pepper in realistic moments of silliness or awkwardness during these scenes, like OC getting a leg cramp a few chapters earlier. It makes them feel so much more real than so much of the smut out there that sometimes describes things that are not even physically possible lol.

5) And lastly Taehyungs final words. Just the perfect ending moment that was romantic in all the right ways while still being authentic. And don't get me started with the fact that the first thing he called her in that list was smart. Swoon.

And yes 😱 you totally had me going for a moment! I was like girl did you not just say "what was it all for??"

I'm so sad this series is over but so excited for more CF drabbles and Trip! I can't wait to reread the whole series again once I start missing it and find more of the little threads you've woven throughout that I probably didn't see the first time. And in the meantime will start making my wishlist of WWH drabble requests.

Ty author for the wonderful story! I hope you are not overwhelmed by my long and frequent messages, I just love your work and want to give back even a fraction of the joy you give us readers! 💕

🌴

Ughhhhh 🌴anon i love you 😭😭😭😭😭😭

and 2. kind of go together. Something I wanted to convey in WWH is that he REALLY *knows her*. Bad, good, he GETS it. And that’s partly him, but it’s partly her LETTING him, despite everything, despite every instinct telling her to throw up walls. And as you talked abt last time - how she extends so much grace to him? Once he’s cooled down, in his heart he extends the same grace to her and that’s something that makes me SO emotional abt these two.

Honestly, as an adult person who has walked away from MULTIPLE toxic friendships and came out stronger for it, no, I don’t see oc and Nina reconciling. OC deserves better from her friends, and she’s learning through this story to realize her worth. I made my ride or dies in college, and i see that future for oc, kiko, and brig.

bless you for saying this 😭😭😭 the taetae i know and love is SILLY and him teasing her up through the last second feels so true to me 🥺🥺🥺

4. Ty for complimenting the smut bc it still feels so difficult to write 😭🫣🫣🫣 jimin voice, I’m shhyyyyyyy 🫣🫣🫣

5. Fr fr i feel like if you asked wwh!tae what attracts him to oc his #1 answer would be that big sexy brain!!!!! Also of course he has to tease her even then “look how easy this is” I LOVE HIM 😭😭

6. POV requests go up tmrw morning! Looking forward to it! Thank YOU for these amazing reviews. I could never be overwhelmed, i wish every reader did this. I think most authors would agree, getting to talk with ppl abt their thoughts and reactions to what we create is honestly the dream.

[dangerousstrawberryshark]

Yandere Tubbo x Male Reader

Warning: little violence (not that detailed). 

This one is going to be short.

Requested from Pokadeathpony

Backstory: You live in Brighton, England, United Kingdom. (I don’t know where Tubbo lives nor do I know where Tommy lives) One day you were walking to go get some breakfast. Until you bumped into George one of your favorite Minecraft streamers and content creators. You were a small streamer, not that many viewers. You and George began to talk, he later invited you to see the dream SMP world, and you meet the other people of the dream SMP. You then got to meet Tubbo. You thought Tubbo was normal until it took a turn. A big turn. 

Btw you are 17. (Tommy will be turning 17 this year and Tubbo will be 18)

M/N: Male name

Y/T/N: Your Twitch Name.

M/U: Minecraft username

H/C: Hair color

S/C: Skin color

F/D/P: favorite donut place.

Sorry if this is bad.

You were sleeping peacefully until I heard the most annoying sound ever. 

*Beep, beep, beep,* “Ughhhhh.” You were trying to turn it off but you kept missing until you finally got it. ‘Finally got that stupid thing off!’ you thought to yourself. “What time is it?” I looked at the clock. “7:35 am. I might as well get up,” you said to yourself as you slowly got out of bed, stretching your muscles. 

You went to the bathroom to do your business and brush your teeth. After you were done, you grabbed my keys and went to go get breakfast.

As you were walking to go get your daily donuts and coffee, you suddenly bumped into someone causing me to fall. “You okay there?” the voice said, ‘I know that voice!’ you thought to yourself and looked up to see George, George Davidson!!

He handed his hand out, you grabbed his hand. “You alright,” he said, you couldn’t process anything, you just stared at him. You snapped out of your daze. “Yeah, I’m okay. I’m a fan of you by the way,” you replied with excitement. 

“Oh? Really?” he said, “Yes! I’m a big fan of yours! I’m actually a streamer just like you,” You replied. “Oh, really what’s your twitch name?” He asked, wondering maybe he’ll check you out. “Oh, Y/T/N!” 

“Okay, maybe check it out later today. Hey, wanna talk and get some food?” you couldn’t say no to that, how many get to eat with their favorite celebrity? “Yes, I would like. Either way, I was going there before I ran into you.” “Alright, let’s go.”

Time skip (You and George went to go eat, and later he checked out your Twitch channel. 3 days later, you got a DM from George saying; “Do you want to tour the Dream SMP world?” and you gladly accepted the offer. And this is where it all began.)

Y/N POV 

I recently got a message from George saying, “Do you want to tour the Dream SMP world?” and you (Or should I say “we”) know I accepted it. He said tomorrow is when it's happening. 

Time skip to tomorrow. 

I woke up earlier than usual, even beat my alarm clock before it could ring. I went to the bathroom and did my usual. George said he will invite me at 10:30 AM. “What time is it now?” I grabbed my phone and checked, “It's 7:10 AM. Will looks like I’m going to have to wait a while.”

Time skip (3 hours and 20 minutes later)

I hopped onto my PC and started it up. After it started, I opened up Minecraft and checked my Notifications. I received the invite I quickly joined in.

Tubbo POV

I was on the Dream SMP world with Tommy, Corpse, George, BBh, and Dream, when an unknown player had joined the game. That shouldn’t be possible since this server is private nobody can join be us.

“Hey who joined?” I questioned. “Oh, I met this small streamer while I was walking to go get breakfast 3 days ago, and I invited them over to give a tour of the place!” George enthusiastically over discord. 

‘Mmm, so they’re a streamer? Maybe I should get to know them.’ 

Time skip (To be honest this one is rushed. It’s currently 1:08 AM where I live and my mind isn’t functioning right now) 

After I introduced myself and the others did, we began to talk about random things. Apparently, M/N is currently streaming right now, and I went to go check it out. 

After I introduced myself and the others did, we began to talk about random things. Apparently, M/N is currently streaming right now, and I went to go check it out. 

M/N has a facecam on, and I get to see what he looks like. He had looked pulchritudinous. Absolutely exquisite. He had soft fluffy H/C hair, his nice S/C, and how his dazzling E/C shine brighter than the sun. I’m going to say it again, he is ravishing.

‘Wait, why am I calling a guy beautiful?’ this boy is triggering something in me. Something I never experienced before. Something in me wants me to protect him at all cost. ‘No stop thinking about that!’ I pushed these unfamiliar thoughts and feeling down.

As time went on my thing for M/N increased. I don’t know why I’m so infatuated with him. Tried ignoring the thoughts and feelings but they keep coming. 

‘Something is coming out of ME.’ 

Time skip ( 2 months after the meeting)

It’s been two months since our little meeting, M/N is officially part of the SMP world. I’ve been binge-watching M/N streams, his YouTube videos, and I also follow him on all his social media accounts, and sometimes I’ll search the internet to find small information. 

I was currently on a website about M/N. it listed all of the information about him since meeting George is grew rapidly on Twitch and YouTube. ‘I already know all of this!’ I thought to myself as I kept scrolling down until I came upon something interesting. 

“M/n current residence in Brighton, England, United Kingdom.” my eyes widen as I read this, ‘He lives close to me!’ I yelled in my mind. 

I was fanboying until I heard my notifications sound. I stopped what I was doing went to go check who it was from. M/N invited me, I immediately accepted it. The world was loading. “Hello!” M/n yelled.   

It was me, M/N, Tommy, and dream on the server. I noticed that Tommy has been getting close to M/n, really close to for my liking. Tommy would sometimes even flirt, this obviously made me jealous for some reason. 

We were minding our own business until “Hey M/n! Are you from Tennessee? Because you're the only 10 I see!” that was the most terrible pick-up line I have ever heard. “Oh my God Tommy?! Really?” M/n said but he was Laughing at that. 

This only made me INFURIATED.

M/n POV

I was minding my own business trying to build my home since I joined 2 weeks ago. The only other people on the server were me, tubbo, Tommy, and dream. Anyway, I was nearly done until Tommy said something, “Are you from Tennessee? Because you're the only 10 I see!”

That has to be the most dumbest and funniest pick-up line I heard. “Oh my God Tommy! Really?!” I said while laughing at his attempt at flirting with me. 

Then Tommy went on to say more stupid pick-up line. Some of them were like, “Hey, my name's Microsoft. Can I crash at your place tonight?” and “Are you related to Jean-Claude Van Damme? Because Jean-Claude Van Damme you’re sexy!” Just to name a few. 

I noticed that Tubbo hasn’t been talking as much. I wonder what’s wrong with him. I didn’t take note that was going to lead to something atrocious. 

Anyways we still had fun, Tommy kept trying to flirt. “Hey M/n, I was wondering if we could meet up since you know, we both live in Brighton,” Tommy with hope in his voice, hoping you accept his offer. I began to think, ‘Mmm, should I? Or should I not?’

“You know what? Sure. What time do you want to meet?” I accepted his request. “Uhhhhhh, Maybe on Thursday at 5:30. Meeting place F/D/P.” Tommy replied. “Alright! See you there,” I replied.

No One’s POV

Tubbo was fuming with anger as he was listening in on their conversation. ‘No!!!!! I can’t let this happen! I need to do something.’ Tubbo was thinking to himself, but he didn’t notice that M/n and Tommy had stop talking.

“Hey, Toby! Are you okay? You haven’t been talking,” Tommy said with concern. “Yeah, I’m just fine you know!” Tubbo said with venom and anger in his voice. “Wow there calm down, I was just asking. Geez,” Tommy backed knowing that his friend is anger. 

‘Why is he angry? I did nothing wrong!’ Tommy thought to himself, wanting to know what he did. “You know what, I think I’m going to leave,” Tubbo said as he left the game and went offline. 

“What’s his big deal?” M/n questioned. “I don’t know,” Tommy replied, “I gotta go. See ya later M/n!” “Bye Tommy!” Tommy has left the game. 

Meanwhile. 

“I need to find a way to prevent this meetup!” Tubbo said to himself. Then an idea came into mind. An extreme idea. 

New Messages 

Today at 4:23

Toby: Hey, Tommy. Sorry I lashed out at you today.

Delivered at 4:23 

Tommy is tying…

Tommy: it’s alright mate.

Delivered at 4:23

Toby is typing…

Toby: How about we meet up, so I can apologize in person.

Delivered at 4:24

Tommy is typing…

Tommy: today or tomorrow? Cause I have a meeting with M/n. 

Delivered at 4:24

When Tommy mentioned the meeting toby had to act fast. 

Toby is typing…

Toby: today at my place.

Delivered at 4:25

Tommy is typing…

Tommy: sure thing! When exactly?

Delivered at 4:25

Toby is typing…

Toby: 5:30 

Delivered at 4:25

Tommy is typing…

Tommy: Okay, see you at 5:30

Delivered at 4:26

‘And that WILL be the last time you see.’

Time skip (1 hour 4 minutes)

Toby heard his door knocked. Toby went to go open his door, and there he sees his target. “Hey, Toby!” Tommy let himself in. “So where are your parents?” Tommy questioned. 

“Oh, they’re on their anniversary vacation,” Toby answered. “Ohhh, okay. Wanna head to your room?” “Sure I just need to go get something.” “Okay.” 

While Tommy went upstairs, Toby went into the kitchen. He grabbed the knife and slowly began to walk, he hid the knife behind his back. Once he walked into his room, he locked the door and slowly began to approach Tommy. 

“What are you doing Toby?!” Tommy yelled as walked backward, but then he hit the wall. “It was never meant to be.” those would be the last words, Tommy would ever hear as Toby shoved the knife into Tommy’s heart. 

Toby cleaned up the body by putting it into the trash bag along with the knife. He quickly disposed of the body. 

3 days later

Tommy was reported missing by his parents and the police were on the search. M/n was worried. Toby called M/n to do a cooking stream. M/n was suspicious about this cause this came out of nowhere. But in the end, M/n agreed. 

A few hours have passed and M/n arrived at the residence of Toby. m/n knocked on the door waiting for an answer just then the door swung open revealing a smiling Toby. 

“Hey there M/n! Glad that you arrived!” Toby sounded a bit too happy for your liking. “Please come in!” he invited you in. But as you walked, you heard the door close and lock behind you. Just as you turned around you got knocked by a heavy object. 

You slowly began to wake, you noticed that you were tied up. You looked around until your eyes landed on Toby. He had a wicked smile plaster on his face. 

“Why are you doing this?” you asked desperately wanting to know why. ‘Did he cause Tommy to go missing?’ You thought to yourself until you hear Toby coming to you. 

“You know, I always reject this feeling inside me. This feeling caused me to love you. Tommy was getting in the way of us being together, he had to be dealt with.”

“You’re a monster! You killed Tommy and you think I’m going to love you?!” this angered Toby but didn’t show it. “You’ll learn to love… cause you’ll be staying here…

Forever…”