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melonteee · 1 day

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ok im anon about nami. firstly, im actually really sorry for spoiling you. i did not know about how you only read them while streaming them and i only saw streaming posts about anime episodes. it was not my intention, im sorry!! secondly, i understand everyone's arguments about similar instances pre-timeskips, nami opening up more and who wouldn't be scared of bugs, etc. i didnt mean to make it sound rude esp about sakura, it was just an emotional response bc i love nami sm. yes girls can be silly but its just one of those "vibes/feelings" grievances that when put to words doesnt make sense. yes nami previously ran away scared just like now but its just the way she does it now since timeskip feels so weird? like it felt almost comically stereotypical the way her face was and her being on the floor like that? i cant explain it well, yes nami would cry and run but the way she would is so different. "waah save me" doesnt feel like nami even an opened up one. and its not about a woman not being able to be scared, im not asking her to solo giant bugs. this is just one instance, ive felt weird about her post-timeskip, she feels more hollow. i want more genius navigation nami, in general, than "weak person of the group that always needs help" nami which is why i loved that scene in fishman island of her being complimented. i think this is more of a agree to disagree cause i cant shake the feeling. anyways sorry to everyone again!

sorry anon I didn't mean to be rude I was just frustrated since I quite publicly read the officials when they come out (livestreams and such) but yes I'd say it's an agree to disagree situation.

As someone who read through/watched all of One Piece in the span of 3 months (with no nostalgia for the original ig) I didn't notice a decline in Nami's character at all - all it feels like is she's just gotten more comfortable with the Strawhats. I seem to be one of the rare few who likes her ts version more than her pre-ts version and it's because, as I've said, she feels happier and more comfortable with her crew WHILE still navigating the seas AND being the witch that she is - as we saw with her laughtale discovery and her navigation at the beginning of Egghead.

I think it's a shame to think a character developing into a warmer person through the love they're receiving means they've become lesser of a character, while I'm not saying you do that anon, this exact same thing happens to Robin in the ts as well. Design aside (and yes I totally understand that issue) Robin's ts character is a lot softer and a lot sweeter because she's HAPPIER! Watching/reading One Piece from start to finish all in one go is how you can truly feel the joy in these character's hearts becoming something more imo

#ask #melonask #and as i said before she woke up in a random place with huge bugs #I think she's in her right to be stumbling around shit scared like she's done many times before ie little garden

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hellfire--hearts · 2 years

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idk how I should say "this was supposed to be me, I was supposed to be a beacon of joy for my friends, and I was supposed to have so many people I love that love me too, and I was supposed to actually bring people joy and lots of it, but then i came out of of my birthgiver autistic and proceeded to have every ounce of sunshine and any sort of social competence beaten from me by my own parents, my peers, and whoever thought they couldnt possibly continue life without molesting a 3 year old" without crying but

#and im just. too socially disabled. I hurt people because I dont understand them. theres only a 25% chance I make things better when im #trying to help cheer someone up. the other 75% I dont make a fucking difference or I get too empathetic and upset and snappy or I dont make #a difference at all and I just. im so scared of everyone #and the thing is I KNOW I have a 20% more chance of fucking up a social interaction compared to everyone.elae #I AM SO FUCKING AWARE OF MY SHORTCOMINGS I REALLY DO WISH I WAS IGNORANT BUT ITS HARD TO BE AFTER THE 15TH FRIEND THAT JUST FUCKING BLOCKS #YOU LMAO #I wanna be good. I dont wanna keep hurting my friends. but I dont know how to I dont know ive tried ive been trying for ten fucking years #I have been trying to be a pinkie pie for 10 fucking years. over a third of my fucking life bc I want to be that for people #cant stop watching the video. I wanna cry. I cant #Youtube

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bunnihearted · 1 month

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#the thing is that even if i always long for a relastionship...#i've never even been in one and idk how they work & im so scared of many things #i have sm troubles and issues with touch. i've gotten to a place where i cant even stand my own sisters or mom bumping into me #and outside i cant stand when someone accidentally walks into me or touching someone's legs on the bus #i hate it. it's not only feeling uncomfortable i feel distressed and scared and sick #smth that seems very normal in like all couples is that youre 'allowed' to touch eo all thge time whenever #that scares me a lot. like touch is so scary for me. and when youre in a relationship theres just this silent agreement that you can touch #eo all the time and thats like... how it's supposed to be.... ://#thats so scary to me. that theres this expectation and demand that if im someones gf they should be allowed to touch me whnever #and like i've never been in love and been in a relationship and been touched by that person so idk #maybe it wouldnt be an issue. but just thinking that.. i dont belong completely to myself and therefore give up #the right to not be touched if and when i feel distressed or uneasy is too scary for me #maybe i could learn to feel safe with them and want their touch but rn it scares me skskks #what if they kiss me when im feeling extremely sex reoulsed and wanna kill myself bc of my inner agony #and they get hurt when i try to pull away?#bc regardless of what ppl say... it is a truth that in a relationship youre exoected to want physical touch at all times #and it is seen as an insult to your partner if there are other forces within u (like trauma etc) that makes u sometimes uncomfortable w it #but yeah idk... the problem is that... in humanity and society #consent is one of the least important and prioritized things. as a humanbeing living u will have your consent disregarded countless times #and for me personally consent is one of the most important things. & thats one of the reasons why its so hard for me to live in this society #like yes i do want to have a partner and touch and be touched #but what if we're in the store and im feeling particularly bad that day and feel like #i need to turn myself inside out and peel my skin off and feel anxious and scared #and they just casually grab my ass?? then i will go home and kill myself :) or have a breakdown in the store lol #i dont want to go thru this but i also dont wanna put someone else thru it #and like it would be different if they asked first if i was ok being touched and i said yes #and if i said no theyd respect me and not get hurt #but like be for real.... almost nobody does that. and almost everyone thinks thats lame #in most relationships nobody asks eo. youre expected to just always be ok with it. if u want to be asked youre silly and demanding #nobody asks their partner abt that. that just dont happen lmao. so idk. :((( i wish i was normal

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tamagotchikgs · 1 month

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my mom keeps listing off things i need to do and accusatorily asking why i never do anything like art anymore n i am just. so exhausted. ive never been more tired i just want to burrow myself in the earth n disappear in the cold dirt

#i dont have energy for art and i honestly never have #ive never been creative #drawing sucks everything out of me and it takes me hours what it does other people a few minutes #i wasnt built for it either maybe #everything about living is so difficult for me #i cant even b loose and doodle #it doesnt happen #how can i think i was made to live when i cant even make art #silly joyful moments everyone else can #nothing feels good to me #except being with my boyfriend #im scared im gonna ruin everything #if not already w the way i look #then with how useless n empty n just snapping at everything to go away i get when im lost those bad things #ive never felt safe with anyone before so maybe itll be different but still im Scared #& on my own . its always the same its always tainted w that ache that dirty stain on everything that hits like nails being driven into me #i cant go shopping #i cant listen to music #i cant feel the sun on me or listen to birds #i cant look at water #i cant go grocery shopping #i cant even hear the sound of metal cutlery #only 1 second and im gone #lost in the agony n dizziness #i want to think i can escape it i can get better #but i dont know if i can #or how much false hope i can keep forcing myself through #it always comes back to me #no matter how much i hide n avoid it all #because im the problem

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genekies · 3 months

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#i have to move back to my hometown due to a mistake. a misunderstanding. and being too trusting in others ideas #and my boyfriend is moving an hour away as well. neither of us have been able to get a car or license yet due to money and i dont know when #we can see eachother again after we both move. since we started dating weve been sleeping in the same bed because we were/are roommates #just being gone for the weekend in my hometown is hard because i cant stand to be here but its worse because hes not in my bed every night #ive grown so used to falling alseep in his arms that i dont know what to do at night. i dont feel safe without his arms holding me #ive never felt safe where ive lived before. ive never felt safe in a relationship. ive never felt loved for who i am. that was until him.#now i feel safe in our home. i feel safe in our relationship. i feel loved for who i am. and now we have to be so far apart.#ive done long distance before but this is going to hurt so much my cat loves him she is super cautious and scared around new people but #she loved him since the start. not to mention shes my esa so that really mattered to me. he wants to move with me but it isnt happening #he got definite housing an hour away for super cheap in a town where he knows everyone and i have possible in a town where im surrounded by #people i know but am terrified of. im scared to move back here but have no choice. unless i make that terrifying choice of going with him.#the apartment he is getting is a two bedroom. id only have a studio. hes offered for me to come but im scared to move that far away again #i want to be with him but im scared to move to a whole new town with him. i know hes an amazing guy but we'd be moving away from my friends #and family. i already have to move away from all my friends if i go back to my hometown but this would be a different story.#moving to a whole new town with a guy that i only started dating 2 months ago? like yes. i lived with him previously and knew him for longer #than we dated but im still scared. i think rightfully so. but still.#but there are some pros to moving with him. hometown has no music scene and his town does and thats really important to me.#we'd also be close to his family. but farther from mine. hed be around friends and id have none no matter where i go.#idk im just rambling but i really needed to vent. i lost my best friend recently to the point of them siding with strangers almost and they #helped them break and enter into the house to intimidate me and bf and then a few days later came with cops after saying repeatedly that #they were an anarchist and acab but only when they dont use them apparently. because i guess morals/values only matter when its convenient #im so tired though but i cant sleep so i might write some cringe poetry and try to chill out before going on a late night/early morning walk #tag vent #vent in tags

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aropride · 10 months

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i really dont understand studying at all like genuinely i don't know what it is . i know about "taking notes" and "reading the textbook" and that's it . quizlet doesn't do shit for me because i don't know what to. do. with the cards. look at them ? am i supposed to just look at them . No one bothered teaching me actual skills bc i got good grades when i was 8 and now i am so hopelessly lost . why did no one think to teach me this for when stuff got harder than four plus three

#text #ive never understood flashcards . like what to do with them. how is that any more different or helpful than just like... writing a list on #paper of vocab terms or whatever #and like conceptually i know 'learning' is like. not only committing things to memory but also being able to engage with it which #is why teachers loveeeee group discussions and essays. but like. you read the text and then you go to class and Discuss but how do you #Learn what the text is saying like how do you . put it in your brain and udnerstand and remember it .#i think im missing something very simple because everyone else in the world seems to understand this fine #like where does the part where you go oh! i understand this and can explain it in my own words. Happen #how do u force it to happen if its not something ur autistic about #Like the only example i can think of rn of this is when i hyperfixated on hpa axis dysregulation + trauma a couple weeks ago #so i was learning stuff about it for Fun and not for school so no comprehension tests or notes or anything #and basically i'd just put on a webinar while i sorted seaglass or worked on sewing or whaever #and i can explain the concept fine. ur brain controls ur body so if it gets too scared ur body loses its shit basically.#but i dont remember most of the words. i still can barely define neurotransmitter #i can apply this to my own life but i confuse the hippocampus and the frontal lobe and the amygdala etc #and i couldnt point out any of them on a diagram #i dont get it . like i know a lot and simultaneously nothing at all abt it #how am i supposedto be remembering words and numbers AND understanding the concepts AND im supposed to do that between #reading the book and engaging in thoughtful conversation with my peers i dont understand

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b4kuch1n · 2 years

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OOOUGGHAAAAAAA I DID IT I MANAGED TO DO INK WITH A DIP PEN

NEXT COMICS MEDIUM IS FUCKING SETTLED. YUUTO YOU WILL BE FED

#bakuspeech #hi I am Fucking Excite #litcherally. the last time I tried using any kind of dip pen it was a bamboo calligraphy pen #and I was. 18. the previous time I was 15 and even worse at it than then #fully went into this attempt already accepting I will probably be maybe marginally better #but!! it was pretty fun I did much okayer than expected!!!!#I need to be more confident with the pen but I can do that. I just need to do this a Lot #but like. I was Really scared. I didn't remember how a dip pen behaves at All #I tried freehanding some stuff before but it really is very different from a fineliner #half relieved my 200k vnd wont go to waste lmao. man. I was ready to bruteforce it #but I wont have to!!! as long as I have a decent concrete sketch!! itll be alright!!!!#yuuto origin comic is a fucking go. I WILL do this. mom I AM going to be a mangaka #well. a doujinka perhaps #dgsjdjjs sorry Im just. this is 13yo baku's unattainable dream!! part of why I #turned to wholesale digital art and eventually brush inking was because dip pens were #deeply scary and messy to me back then. I got ink Everywhere #now I didnt even make a spare fleck on this one!!! I can do it now!!!! dreams do fucking come true!!!!!!#literally bringing this piece of scrap around showing everyone like a kid who got perfect score on a test lmao #Im just. Im happy guys. Im so!!! auuughghhhh #I'll practice more tonite. I will Get Better At This. I will scribble a bunch more of yuuto #to get used to the style. I need a buncha outfit refs anyway #have a good day!! holds u hand everything is possible. try something u didnt have the chance to be good at as a kid again #life is fucking good sometimes!!!!!

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kuruk · 5 months

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why'd my adderall xr kick in so late I fell asleep after an hour and woke up feeling it after a 2 hour nap 😑 jm wasting it by being asleep the first half.. I do love waking up feeling rested and not confused at least but come on

#still such a lifecbanging difference sorry #i donr know if the constant sleepiness or the fatigue is what's worse but whatevevr it is just lifts so much easier like this help #i love thinking i can hold on to so many tboughts and care enough about them to even write or say them..#or even just staying in my head just that it's clearer and i have energy to even think at all #i get scared of the way my brain feels so disorganized and mixed up like i forget how language works and i cant remember anything anymore #everything feels like the same constant slush like someone turned the contrast down ans the information the world sends me is sanded down #none of that information ever hits i feel like it's never actually me reacting to it i feel like im watching myself on autopilot.#like km just so tired in every way i cant even relieve myself of boredom anymore because it takes too much energy to even think #and i know everyone on stimulants loves to talk and say things and whatever sorry help but i missed thinking i missed actually reacting 😭#a lot of the time i dont feel real just extremely uncomfortable for no reason. and that's the strongest thing there everything else is dull #like i funally feel awake and conscious and such. like things in this world happen to me and i interact with things and irs real...

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mimir97477906 · 6 months

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im so sosry for ranting abour this again but auhgufhgh im making a ref sheet of my ocs for myself beacse EVERYTIME I DRAW THEM THEY LOOK SOOOSK DIFFERENT os i thoguht maybe this can help me memorize their faces but EVEN THO IM USING GUIDELINES THE SAME CHARACTER LOOKS LIKE DIFFERENT PEOPLE ITS JUST A HEAD TURN AROUND I CANT DO THIS I FEEL SO VIOLENT WHY IS MY ART STYLE HAVING AN IDENTITY CRISIS HOWWWWWWW DO I FIX THIS

#everytime when im drawing any of my ocs and someone mixes them up with another oc my heart shatters to 7463874693 pieces #that either means everyone i draw looks the same or the same oc i draw looks so different every time #at that point they just went with whoever they think is the closest #im having the hardest time making my sentences right now what is going on my talkşng abilites have went down to zero #no like also ive always struggled w same face syndrome without realising #all my art life i had ocs that looked exactly the same from an outsiders view but they looked sososooo different to me #like i just erased my ocs frrom existence when i was 12 cuz everyone mixed them up and it frustrated me so bad #and i look back at that era AND THEY REALLY ARE EXACTLY THE SAME I CANT TELL WHO IS WHO #AND THIS KEPT HAPPENING until i got into sims which pushed me to egt out of my comfort zone #this is why its very important to be obsessed with the ugliest character u can find ^_^(NERVOUS SUBJECT)#and now im scared i once again convinced myslef that my ocs look very different when they actually arent #ok maybe this is a transitional period from having a same face syndrome to being able depict different kinds of people #and im in between rn cuz since im nnot used to this i just cant draw the same face again #and everytime i draw it loks like a dfifferent stuyle whatfevrrrr whatevr #wow writing down your feelings really do work maybe i should get a journal #ramblings

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guinevereslancelot · 5 months

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most fucked up thing at my new job is there's only zero calorie sweeteners at the coffee station in the break room. three different kinds of zero calorie sweetener but no regular sugar because the assumption is that literally everyone is on a diet?

#is this because its a job dominated by women in particular??? idk #that's so weird #like sorry i can taste the difference and i prefer naturally occurring sugar from nature how is that not even an option #drinking nasty bitter af coffee bc i am So Sleepy but i refuse to use artificial sweeteners #they Do taste different and they're not even good for you im not doing that lol #also they got mad at me for telling one of the parents that we took one of the kids temperature and it was 99 and he threw up a little #when his dad came to get him yesterday and all of the other teachers were nowhere to be found #they were like tou shouldnhave had colleen do that #ma'am colleen went home before that and so did you #i should have left already too but waited bc the ratio on the playground was bad #anyway i did NOT say he had a fever i said it was 99 and to talk to the teacher inside #but the dad didnt yalk to her clearly then went home and scared the mom that he had a fever and threw up so she texted my boss freaking out #i literally just said he threw up a little and we took his temperature and it was 99 and to talk to the other teacher #which was all true and there was no one else there to tell him #anyway #apparently the person who had my job before me was a wacko who scared the parents with fake medical information or something #but that is not my fault and nobody told me that or not to tell the parents anything medical until this morning #ugh #also my supervisor is kind of a weirdo #she wanted to show everyone ~cute~ pictures of animals she has killed while hunting???#and i said i didnt want to see #and she was like ~oh it's not dead yet in the picture~#like okay but its dead now???#she traps them first so its a cute little fox in a trap about to be killed 😭#like wtfff #i know trappong predators is a reality but why take pictures like ohhh so cute then kill it #THEN show everyone the cute pictures like yeah isnt he adorable i killed him btw <3 #huh??????#she has a bobcat tail on her keychain too she was giving it to the teachers and kids to pet like ohhh its so soft <3

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zarovich · 8 months

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pretty sure things from my past fucked me up so bad that nobody will love me. and even if they do, deep down ill still be afraid they may be lying

#personal #platonic or romantic. im too fucked up for a human to love me. animals do but thats different animals are easier for me to understand #i mean animals dont look at me in digust for being covered in scar tissue cuz cutting myself is the only way i can keep myself alive #or look at me with pity. to them im just a big creature even the wild animals who run away. theyre just scared i understand cuz i am too #i often feel like i am a feral animal. idk how to socialize i isolated myself so bad that everything isay seems wrong and foreign #im losing time lately too. ill realize days have past and i dont remember much of the on between this happens often and its bothers me #idont remember making that post yesterday at all my brain is like perpetually foggy #i feel as if i shouldnt talk about this tbh like even just on my own blog i feel like a burden and everyone wants me dead idk #im veryconfused

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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#smth abt grocery shopping fills me with so much anxiety and loneliness feelings #bc im there and i look around at all the other ppl #who have fulllives with friends and partners and ppl they are connected to #i see couples and friends groups and families #and im not connected to any of them...#and i get so scared bc idk if i will ever find someone who wants to be connected to me #i dont wanna be alone...#but im different in a bad way and i dont fit in and i dont belong anywhere and im all alone #i dont belong to anyoene or belong anywhere #i just want one person im close with and can just fkn exist with #being lonely is just so goddamn awful i hate it sm #i also wanna go grocery shopping w my partner or best friend or whatever #i dont walla float through this life being worthless and unremarkable to everyone #i dont wanna be different and unable to connect and be unlikable and not belong to anyone #i hate it i hate it sm

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sleepysuburb · 24 days

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I'm rlly worried that people are gonna think me exploring my gender and presenting differently is coming out of nowhere or me being "faddy" bc I don't really talk to anyone about it apart from my gf for fear of not being taken seriously. why can't I wear a placard saying "this was a long time coming"

#i cant tell everyone i meet my history with my gender and thinking i was trans for a long time. but god i wish i could #because outwardly to everyone i know in my life ive been quite a feminine girl this whole time. and im suddenly switching up #but thats not the case #im also scared to start presenting more masc in certain ways like cutting my hair. binding etc #because my family is uhh how you say. a bit transphobic #and i just know my mum is gonna freak out on me if she believes even a little bit that im erring into presenting as a man #idk its ughh. i work with and know trans men whove only known me as a girl and they obviously dont know ive been confused for a long time #bc i dont discuss my gender with anyone apart from my gf!#so i dont want anyone to think im switching up on a whim and taking any of this lightly. which im not.#going by a more gender neutral name would be super confusing for everyone too i think #i already go by a different name to my birth name and my family still insist on calling me my birth name #so id end up with different people calling me 3 different names and itd be so weird. but my current name is so steadfastly a girl's name #sorry sorry i know this is super venty im just. all these feelings ive been having for a long time are finally breaching the surface #and im struggling to deal with it all and put it into words

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get-more-bald · 26 days

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the thing about X6 is that he's essentially a slave given to the Sole Survivor by the Institute. and I think that the fandom's treatment of him would be different if the game addressed it or even just said it

#forever crying cause x6 has no companion quest #i mean like. would be cool if fallout fans could read implications but also i think im one of the very few who actually think about x6 #like. what the hell.........#also obv the institute synth slavery plotline was incredibly mishandled and also bad but like. everyone knows that #fallout 4 would be SO good if it was good #one thing i think about the synths. is that there are different divisioms of gen 3s #the common one: normal artificial human-cyborg basically. BUT has a short life expectancy (like... 10-15 years? short in general)#for the coursers i cant decide whether theyre upgraded commons (which would make them 'a class above' with some 'gifted' individuality)#or if theyre just. made to kill. superior physically and mentally. proficient with weapons. uncommon. even shorter life expectancy tho #and the impersonators made specifically to inflitrate the outside world. who have a life expectancy much closer to a real human #but theyre uncommon (usually community leaders) and theyre hard to make. so the commons are also sent up a lot of the time #and the institute goal in all this is to secretly control the commonwealth societies AND to use the synths (with 'a shorter life anyways')#to clean the commonwealth of radiation and create safe spaces and generally make it good and safe. and also perform eugenics on the humans #so that after the commonwealth is safe and non irradiated etc. the institute humans can actually come out and have the world ready for them #and they'd be provided for etc etc. which would make a convincing goal for a vault-like society AND have the ss actually consider joining #but with obvious flaws in their plan (maybe not even their grandchildren would see the outside. the synth slavery obv (with disregard for #their lives). the basically slow genocide of the outside humans and ghouls and all mutated life. like itd be so good #also the short life cycle of a synth (especially a courser) would make an x6 story so tasty. like. hes probably what? 6 or 8? not a lot #is he a child? not really. an adult? i dont think so. hes just here and hes going to die soon and theres nothing you can do #could be a nice ground for a companion quest where hes free and learns how to live to the fullest for his remaining years or smth #also the short lifespan (finally remembered thw word) could actually be a reason for synths to be considered less than human #cause in the base game its just like. theyre just some guys with metal in their heads and i guess they were made in a lab (noone could tell)#coming back to the institute. they would be so full of themselves and scared of the outside and pretty pathetic that thered be no way #to talk them into changing their plans and working with the outside world. but youd have to think about it a bit cause their supplies #WILL run out. its a matter of time. and they will NOT work with the other factions no matter what. so if work against them youll doom them #which is why we could use some innocent institute npcs too. or like... show some children there or whatever. make them human too #but you also see how much destruction theyre causing in the outside world (insert quest about synths like... the mcdonough quest or smth)#damn and i thought i wouldnt go on a tirade in the tags again.... alas #well here are my almost 2am thoughts about the institute and that its stupid in base game #fallout 4 would be so good if it was good

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snekdood · 1 month

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remember when it was the norm on here that if someone said they wanted to kill themselves, people would try to convince them not to and anything other than doing that was seen as fucked and wrong by default no matter what?

yeah.... i miss that

#personally i try to keep that energy going. but ppl are too scared to express their pain on here anymore bc some of yall normalized #being waste of space fuckshit bully ass mf's w no life #and im not entirely unconvinced it isnt alt right 4channers fault- tho it could just as well be because this site has become more hostile &#vitriolic bc ppl decided their political leanings give them license to kill and that naturally lowers your empathy and fucks for others #its so sad how this site has tumbled down (no pun intended) from being a haven for weirdos to being just like any other normie site #where people suck in all the same ways they do everywhere else #like thanks we brought and allowed bullies over here..... if my eyes could roll anymore they'd go into the back of my head.#everyones just so mean spirited and irony poisoned and its such a boring thing to decide is your personality #wow cool you're nihilistic and insufferable to be around. gonna go look for different ppl to be around now idk what you expected #might be an in group/out group kind of thing. whereas 'unless you're a Perfect Pure Progressive Of The Lord Who Is Unsinning #then you dont DESERVE sympathy for your suicidal ideation' *said in the most pompous way possible*

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dwemers · 1 month

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I’m so excited I’m like literally shaking

#so I work at like seasonal job multiple stores and shit some more far out and in the boonies than others #and like before I was at my current job I managed this shitshow camp store #literally was so horrible but only bcs my boss sucked and pushed all his responsibilities to me while I still had to do MY JOB #like darkest time of my life trying to keep that store from falling apart until eventually I was like fuck this #transferee to a different property in a different state and like stalked this lady who would come help us and she hired me as her assistant #like truly amazing I love her so much my boss is the fucking best #but now at my property we have a camp store with no manager being run to the ground #so they asked me to go manage it…#and lLIKEEEE ITS IN THE HIGH CIUNTRY #SOOO NO SERVICE LIVING IN A TENT SHARED SHOWER DORMS #IM SO EXCITEDDD #and also I’ll be at 9k feet elevation SO ILL SEE STARSS!#im at 5thoussnd feet rn and it’s just not the same #my shitty store was at 7 thousand but the year before I lived at 8 thousand feet and the stars are so magical #but everyone else I work with feels bad I ‘have to’ go up there and run the store for a few weeks #I’m like literally MY PLEASURE #working in a camp store is literally summer camp vibes #and I’m such a retail girl boss they didn’t even brief me they were like you know how to open and close a store #AND I DONT HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF INVOICESSS #that was my nightmare at the last place like they taught all the managers how to recieve and pay invoices but no one else really understood #sooo like a day before months end when invocies HAVE to be paid I’d get stacks from every store on property #and like just my store was already a lot to go through bcs we did groceries and gas and beer and retail merch #but lol I came to my current place and they have a whole office just for that lotta sweet lady’s in accounting I’m like damn??#they did me so dirty????#best part about being a warehouse girl with previous retail management experience is thissss #pray for me though I haven’t managed other humans in 2 years and they’re union employees so I just have to follow all the rules #love the union but I’m scared of breaking any labor laws since I’ve never managed humans in the state in living in #last state was horrible there was no lunch break laws

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