#also can I just say that writing Lucifer's POV in a smut fic after writing Alastor for so long is SO fun

[prince-liest]

Jumping on the “about you wanting to write more lucifer” bandwagon, don’t mind me!

I loved your ‘How to Bag an Angel’ fic so much, I’ve never read an Angel/Lucifer fic like it (and was subsequently very disappointed to find that it wasn’t a popular ship); you totally sold me on that rarepair! Absolutely zero pressure, I totally get prioritising writing for your own enjoyment, but would you ever consider writing a continuation based on Angel’s “maybe you can call me daddy”? Because that line made me go 👀

HAHA, okay, confession: I'm absolutely writing a sequel (banged out 2k words today so far baybeeee, pun intended) but it's absolutely also not going to include any daddy kink because while there are few things out there that I find too personally silly to write in a not-joking context, that is one of them.

Have a snippet as an apology:

[spnfanficpond]

August 2023 Angel Fish Awards!

(Angel Fish design by @slytherkins!!)

Every month all of you fantastic writers work your asses off to post some truly incredible stories. Our Angel Fish Awards are the way for all of us, as a community of writers and readers, to lift each other up and give praise to those who have captured our attention and deserve a few kind words. (Click here to learn more about how to nominate a fic for an award!)

Nominated by Anonymous

Tangled Fates by @outofnowhere82

Nominated by @katbratsupernaturalwhore

Factory Reset by @talltalesandbedtimestories

The build up, the sass, the care she took, the pegging, the focus on description, the deliciousness... Mmmm I wanna eat him up!

Love; For the First Time by @dean-winchester-is-a-warrior

Adorable first time fic. Good build, sweet and fluffy and steamy!

Nominated by @mrswhozeewhatsis

An Imagined Life by @imagineteamfreewill

This is the fluffiest fluff to ever fluff AND IT HAS IKEA!!! I mean, I couldn't ask for anything more!! *heart eyes forever*

I'm So Sorry, Sammy by @bobwess

(AO3 link) ANGST!!! So much angst, man. Y'all know I love John Winchester, but even I can acknowledge he was not a great dad. Usually, I avoid fics with the "John's A+ parenting" tags because I have very strict ideas about his incompetence as a father. This story really shows a way that I can see in canon John would be especially crappy as a dad. No pairing, just a seriously angtsy genfic showing teenage Sam being a BAMF and Dean's heart breaking. (Sort of happy ending, though! You know me. lol)

Nominated by @dean-winchester-is-a-warrior

Why I Do It by @kazsrm67

This drabble and it's companion piece (from Dean's POV) is short and incredibly sweet. It's a lovely little slice of life for the boys and the reader. I always love when we get to see Dean happy, and he is, in this fluffy piece. Happy, loved and taken care of - us Dean girls can't ask for more. A highly enjoyable read!

Nominated by @glygriffe

Imperfections by @thewritingspot /@troize

Seeing Lucifer in another light, as an insecure middle child in a big family fired my brain cells! And of course, Gabriel being himself even as a kid. (And also: Art!!!)

Never Say Goodbye by @zepskies

It's a soulmate AU series, but it's also a reader insert that stays close to canon. Sweet and angsty and smutty... A little bit of everything all rolled into one satisfying story.

Untitled ask prompt by @sugaraddictarchangels

This ficlet is the only Jess!Lucifer representation I've ever seen and it's so refreshing to see early seasons' Lucifer under that light!

Nominated by @heavenssexiestangel

Between the Three by @lucibae-is-dancing-in-hell

This fic was written for me in all senses of the word, and I love how she characterized Arthur, Mick, and Dean and the different ways they react to being parents-to-be. Of course, the smut is great, but I also love how they clearly all love each other and want to be a family.

The Great 'Nah-Duh' of Dean Winchester by @ladyknightskye

I love this fic because it gave me Gadreel/Dean without having to write it myself, and also because it's well written and I love how soft Gadreel is... And the fact Dean has his Bisexual Awakening with him? LMAO!

Nominated by @iprobablyshipit91

Never Say Goodbye (series) by @zepskies

I’m an absolute sucker for soulmate AUs and this one was amazing. The reader and Dean's relationship was built beautifully and I loved how the ending ‘fixed’ things!

Baby Spoon (series) by @deanwanddamons

This really made me feel so many emotions. Seeing Dean so happy and having the relationship he deserves made me so happy despite everything.

The Prettiest One by @dean-winchester-is-a-warrior

This was literally so adorable and made me laugh so much. It’s such a good one to go back to and read over again.

Carry On (series) by @jawritter

This was just the perfect fix-it fic we all needed after *that* ending. It wasn’t rushed and it by no means sugar-coated what happened. There are some real struggles and a lot for both the reader and Dean to overcome but it’s damn worth it!

Pack (series) by @spnexploration

This is a story I’ve definitely gone back and reread a few times and it’s so close to the end, I can’t wait to see the final chapters. Overprotective Dean is always perfect but I really enjoy the pack dynamics in this and Maddie is a brilliant addition!

Heart of a Hunter Saga (series) by @muchamusedaboutnothing

Where to even start with this, every single stand-alone story in this saga is excellent in its own right and combined together this whole story is amazing. I love Dean and the reader's relationship and how they’ve managed to carve out a family life that works for them. Brilliant!

Baby, We’ve got a Problem (series) by @deanwritings

I love the unique concept of this, Baby getting turned human, and the implications this has particularly for Deans's relationship. I’ve read it a few times as it’s so easy to go back to and enjoyable to read.

Always You and Me by @deanwinchesterswitch

I just loved this story and how it built up. The dialogue is hilarious and while I did guess what was happening, it in no way detracted from how awesome this story is.

Hold On I’m Coming (series) by @ravengirl94

This was one of the first firefighter Dean fics I read and I loved it. The relationship the two of them have and the twists and turns are just perfect.

Captives of the Court by @impala-dreamer

This story instantly got my attention. I loved the way the story moved between what was happening now and what had happened to lead up to that point and how everything came together at the end. Amazing story.

The One That Got Away (series) by @pink-sparkly-witch

This story just hits you in the feels. It’s not finished but I’m so in love with Dean and the reader already and can’t wait to see how their relationship progresses!

Midnight Espresso / Devour Me (series)by @zepskies

There was something so sweet about these two stories that I instantly fell in love with the reader and dean in this. I connected with the plus-sized reader but Dean is so sweet and adorable. I just loved it.

Collared (series) by @spnexploration

I’ve been reading this story from pretty much when it started being posted and I’ve loved every second, I’m so excited and sad that it’s ending. It’s an amazing story full of protective Dean which I live for and it’s just perfect.

The Last Call by @kasimagines

I could have nominated so many of Kasimagines' stories but there’s something about this one that just really hits me and I’ve read it so many times. The loyalty Dean shows despite the years is beautiful and the effect John has on them all is heartbreaking.

Dream On (series) by @talesmaniac89

There’s something about this fic that I just absolutely love. It’s a comfort fic I’ve gone back and read so many times. Dean's overprotectiveness and worry and concern for the reader is just adorable.

Miscommunication (series) by @winchest09

This is another story I’ve read so many times. I love the story and the British reader really resonates with me being from the UK! I love the confusion between the same words meaning different things to British vs American, it makes for some interesting conversations!

If You Want It To Be (series) by @zepskies

This got me feeling so Christmassy in July! It was just such a lovely heart warming story, I adored it.

Nominated by @mariekoukie6661

House of the Rising Sun by @kittenofdoomage

MAFIA AU!!!! This has been a joy to read for the first time and it's always a joy to reread!!!

Nominated by @thoughtslikeaminefield

The Hero Always Gets A Kiss by @fandomoniumflurry

I’m a sucker for ChesterVelle, heroes, and kissing. This is one of my old faves I like to re-read every once in a while.

No Title by @stusbunker

This is sooooo Sam, and it's sooooo swoony and real. It's fucking electric.

Factory Reset by @talltalesandbedtimestories

This is so. well. written. So sexy. So good for Dean. He deserves this so much. This writer did their research but this doesn't read like a manual. It's thorough and intimate and exactly what Dean should have every day — someone taking care of him.

No Title by @dean-winchester-is-a-warrior

For the love of god, he’s just Like This, isn’t he? Like always. In canon, in headcanon, in fic — ALWAYS. And I love the way this writer objectifies him.

Nominated by @inenochian

Restless Wanderer by intothesilentland (AO3 only)

This story is such a beautiful soft romance set in 19th C Cornwall. Beautiful portrayal of Dean and Cas!

Nominated by @salt-n-burn-em-all

The Talismen series by Lochinvar (AO3 only)

Gives us insight into people who helped the boys grow up into the men they became. Not always Hunters, more like strangers who sometimes didn’t know exactly how much they helped until years later, if ever.

Nominated by @spn-fanfic-reblog-writes

Hunter’s Throne (series) by @ladyknightskye

It’s such a beautiful story and I love the angel-human lore. It’s so complimentary to each other and that bond is just so Cas and Dean. They have got to talk. It’s part of what’s we readers love about them because once they do, it only gets better and fluffy! I loved it so much I posted about it on my blog to advertise it because it is worth the read and keeps to the essence of the show.

THANK YOU ALL, KEEP UP THE AMAZING WORK, AND AS ALWAYS, HAPPY WRITING!

- From your Admins and Manta Rays, @manawhaat, @mrswhozeewhatsis, @mariekoukie6661, @princessmisery666, @thoughtslikeaminefield, @katbratsupernaturalwhore, and @heavenssexiestangel!

[quietwingsinthesky]

for the fic writer asks!!

5, 9, 13, 15, 29?

hi hi aayo!!

[questions were here]

5. So, a while back, I was spitballing with my friends about Pokemon Black/White & the sequel, because I love those games, those are my childhood Pokemon games, and the story is so close to brilliant I can taste it. It would just need a little touching up, I swear, adjust a motivation here, add some more scenes there... But see the thing is, doing that would take. A While. and I just don't think I have the patience to do a full rewrite of a Pokemon game from 2010 so it'll probably remain an idea.

9. Yes! I do! I try to do a few hundred words a day, every day. Depending on how bad my depression is, I can be pretty consistent about it and get a lot done. And I did manage to do a little today for that nsfw lucifer/raphael fic I'm working on! Let's see here. Ahem. "Waiting, a front of perfect obedience betrayed by how hard he’s clenching his hands together behind his back to keep from touching himself." :) I am. doing things. to luci.

13. It depends on the fic. Some of them, I want to say Last Call and could have been anyone, anyone are good examples, start writing themselves in my head with absolutely no warning, and I have to jump to the nearest thing to jot down the sentences before they disappear forever. Others, like Honey, Don't Feed It, have literally been turned over in my brain for more than a year, twisted and changed until I've gotten a fic I actually like out of it.

15. Sometimes it's a song title, sometimes it's a line from the fic, sometimes it's 'it is 4am when im posting it and ive already typed up the fucking tags and the summary and i am so so tired whats the closest noun i can think of' and then i slap it on there and call it a day.

29. asjklajdksld my first thought was 'oh you know what fine i'll post what i had of that samifer fic before it gets deleted but uh It Is Literally Entirely Porn. so lets. lets go with something a little more PG, yeah? Not exactly polite of me to throw smut at you without asking.

So instead, have this bit from the original draft of my next Sarah/Lucifer/Nick fic that got cut because I switched the pov character from Sarah to Nick for. Reasons.

Sarah has had a lot more time to paint in the last few months. Enough that muscle memory she thought lost has slowly reappeared, making her hand steadier. Her art hasn’t become more neat as a result, but it has grown purpose in its mess. Her mother always wished she’d take after her grandmother and paint lush green forests and pretty meadows, but Sarah’s brushes led her down a different path. Intricate strokes litter the paper, testing to see how close she can bring the painting to the being curled around her spine before it devolves into a jumbled mess. Lucifer is not an easy muse. Sarah hasn’t managed to paint a piece that does her justice yet.

This one is barely recognizable as anything, more abstract than Sarah’s committed to in a long time. A lot of her paintings of Lucifer start somewhere she understands, with Nick’s face or her own, fragmented to better show the angel that lives inside them, openings in the skin like bloodless wounds through which eyes and feathers and teeth peek through. Someone else might find them terrifying. Nick thinks her paintings of Lucifer are beautiful. Lucifer, of course, is flattered and amused. She watches Sarah paint, enthralled the same way Nick mentioned her being the day he built Teddy’s crib. She hasn’t asked for a turn at the brushes yet, but Sarah hopes she does one day, if only so they can see what she’s capable of creating.

Sarah stretches. There’s no satisfying pop to her spine as she uncurls from her art, but in exchange, there’s also no lingering soreness from staying in one position for too long. Lucifer’s grace pulses, buried somewhere deep, utterly content. Sarah shuts her eyes as though she could listen to her.

Instead, Sarah hears a cry from the other room. She lets her head tilt towards the clock on the wall. It’s been a while since she put Teddy down for a nap. Lucifer is on alert the moment the sound hits Sarah’s ears. She’s still not used to the simple fact that sometimes, babies cry, and it doesn’t mean the world is about to end. Impossible to fathom wings flex under Sarah’s skin. Sarah suppresses a chuckle into a small smile and sets her paintbrush down. It rolls to join its brethren of various sizes, the only commonality between them all the teethmarks at the tip where Sarah chewed when she got frustrated or distracted. Lucifer’s wings flap, a wave of power rolling through Sarah’s body that’s asking one question, whether they can fly to the nursery rather than take the minute long walk there. Sarah lets her consent echo back through Lucifer, bracing herself.

Flight is a cacophony. Flight is like learning what it is to be a photon and forgetting again as her body hits the ground, human toes curling against the fuzz of the nursery carpet. Lucifer recovers like they’ve taken a brisk walk up the stairs. Sarah needs a minute more, as though she’s been thrown under the waves at the beach and needs to figure out which direction is up in order to stand. In his crib, Teddy turns his head to look at them, brown eyes seeking his mother, and when he knows she’s there to hear him, he scrunches up his face and starts crying again.

It’s Lucifer that takes them the first few steps to the crib, but Sarah who reaches down and picks Teddy up.

“Hey, hey, fussy,” she says softly to him, “shh, we’re here now.” Teddy cries out one more time, like he’s making sure she’s not going to put him down and leave once he’s quiet. Sarah rocks him.

“We’re here,” comes another voice from her mouth, still hesitant but less than it has been in a few months. Lucifer raises Sarah’s hand to pet a line down Teddy’s forehead. There’s no more than the ambient hum of her grace beneath Sarah’s skin, but between being held by his mother and watched over by his guardian devil, (Sarah’s mouth curls at the thought, and she can’t tell if it’s her or Lucifer reacting.) he quiets. He keeps frowning, scrunched up eyes and a wrinkled forehead. “Hello, Theodore,” Lucifer says, and it’s at Sarah’s prodding that she finally says, “Teddy.”

He’s a baby, Sarah teases, no need to be so formal.

Names mean something, comes the quick counter.

And this one means you love him. Lucifer hums, finger still drifting in absent circles over Teddy’s face. Teddy latches onto it when it’s near his mouth, and Lucifer freezes. Sarah laughs, and with control of her body falling back to her, it comes out without a care in the world. Teddy makes a frustrated noise when she pulls her finger away.

“That’s better than you needing a diaper change,” Sarah tells him. Teddy babbles at her, sounds that are beginning to have more distinct shapes but mean nothing at all. She’s going to have to put him back down to undo her button-up, or would have to, only Lucifer proves for the hundredth time how much easier parenting is with divine power backing them up. Sarah shifts Teddy around in her arms, enduring the tiny beat of an impatient hand against her chest, until she has him comfortably settled to feed.

He seems so small in her arms. He’s growing fast and will continue to for years and years, a prospect both terrifying and exciting.

It’s a short enough walk to her and Nick’s bedroom from the nursery, and she’s careful not to jostle Teddy while he nurses. There, she can settle down comfortably against the pillows, the blankets tucking themselves up around her legs despite her not reaching for them. It doesn’t do much against the ever-present chill, but Sarah doesn’t want that to go away. Besides, they bundle Teddy up warmly enough.

She does wonder sometimes what it’ll be like as he gets older. If his first words will be ‘dada’ or ‘mama’ or something else entirely, a string of syllables that seem like gibberish to her and Nick but mimic the language that Lucifer sometimes speaks to him off-handedly, the one that makes Sarah’s ears feel like they might pop from pressure if she listens for too long, the one that Teddy reacts to with kicking feet and responsive babbling. If one day Sarah will get teachers telling her about Teddy’s imaginary angelic friend who raised him, both those impressed that he could come up with something so elaborate and those worried that the angel in question is Lucifer herself. Maybe the funniest thing Sarah can imagine is if Nick ever takes little Teddy to church and what kind of menace they might unleash with a child who loves the devil like a mother. That, if it ever happens, is a long ways off, and until then, Lucifer is still the secret held between the three of them.

“You think he’ll still like me,” Lucifer says, dipping her hand into the stream of Sarah’s thoughts, welcomed but nibbled at by the fish that think she really should have asked permission first. Maybe a little hypocritical when Sarah has already let her in, “when he grows up.”

There is, always, this expectation of rejection that lingers in Lucifer’s words. A surprise when she finds connection instead that breaks Sarah’s heart.

“You look after him. You sing to him. You feed him.” Sarah looks down at Teddy, who takes his fill and rests his tiny fist against her skin. This caretaking is a communal effort, after all. “Of course he’ll love you.”

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pls share some of your spn fic recs 🥺🥺

ok, a few things first:

followers and mutuals who do not have supernatural brainworms, kindly avert your eyes

i don’t normally rec or even read much fanfic any more but this is a CRISIS ok (cont.)

there is so. much. content for deancas out there and i have incredibly high standards, several ancient ao3 bookmarks, can speedread, and want to spare you guys the experience of wading through it all.

i also have a section for spn femslash since I was pretty into that back in the day (sadly a lot less fan content for this :/)

I don’t really like au’s or pure smut (I honestly usually just skim or skip those scenes) so if you’re mainly looking for that kind of thing this probably won’t be very helpful to you. jsyk.

i’m not great at describing stuff but i’ll do my best, i’ll also try and add tw’s when neccesary.

i wil try and keep updating this with any other decent fics i find, feel free to rec stuff too since i’m like 7 years behind.(edit 1/25/21) this is getting looooong so i’m going to start making another list on my spn blog rather than update this one

(edit 1/3/21) since this has gotten pretty long i’ve added rating/approximate word counts and marked my particular favorites with an asterisk.

Dean/Cas fic:

So Says The Sword*** - explicit/85k. FUCK its good...au/time travel where dean is not pulled out of hell by cas and says yes to becoming the michael sword. honestly could serve as an alternative to actually watching the show, if you want to get into dean/cas without actually doing that to yourself.

Fata morgana.*  - teen/6k, pst s9 finale. very bela centric and i love it, she finds cas looking for dean in hell.

Redemption Road -misc/600+k. an incredibly long fic from a collaborative writing group back in the day. canon divergent from the end of s6 on, has a cool take on godstiel and the leviathans, as well as the lovecratian mythos connection. ngl when i reread it i only made it about 28% in but imo the casual reader can actually stop around there, the rest concerns a lovecraftian apocalypse that is still good (i think i don’t remember it very well) but not required to enjoy the first half. if you prefer i have an ebook version i can send you on gdrive.

Someone Who's Feeling For Me* - mature/45k, s12. they run into lisa braeden and dean thinks cas is into her while cas thinks dean still likes her. treats lisa way better than the show ever did and the miscommunication is pretty funny rather than annoying.

a turn of the earth - mature/95k. time travel fic where cas from s10 keeps showing up in deans life from a few years before s1 to right before the hellhounds take his soul.  slow burn, good character study, and at one point cas punches the dad in the face and it rules.

On the Wings of War - teen/85k, canon divergent s5. dean accidentally becomes the Horseman of War. plays fun, fast and loose with biblical lore, michael has some rights.

Named - mature/95k, alternate s5. EXTREMELY blasphemous in a fun sexy way. manages to predict metatron almost to a T. there’s one major character death and its literally jesus christ, everyone is very sad about it and it sets the rest of the story rolling. an alternate interpretation of cas’ mission to raise dean from hell which had me on the floor. ngl its kind of misogynistic at points, but its from 2010 and tracks with late oughts-2010 spn (sorry anna the author did you dirty here:/).

The Girlfriend Experience - explicit/15k. uhhh i don’t normally rec or even read smutty stuff unless someone i know is specifically asking for it but this has stuff like sam trying to be a good ally and dean thinking holding hands with cas is ‘kinda gay :/’ minutes after having gay sex with him.

i crippled your heart a hundred times - explicit/19k, s8. cas confesses his feelings and dean spends a long time getting his head out of his ass about it. truly hits different after the actual confession, despite being written six years early it feels like its actually what could have gone down more or less if the writers weren’t talentless demons who hate us.

My Roots Take Flight** - mature/125k. reverse au where cas is a hunter and dean’s an angel...OR IS IT???? an alternate retelling of s4. tw for briefly being set in a psychiatric hospital/the hospital being mentioned somewhat frequently throughout the fic, plus more references to torture in hell and heaven than usual.

The One Thing You Can't Lose* - teen/4k.you know those posts about how cas is a super-strong super-tough ancient warrior but he just lets dean tug him around because he likes it? thats it thats the fic.

Hands, From Which All Things Are Built - teen/14k, post s8′s ‘goodbye stranger.’ cas is on the run with the angel tablet but keeps in touch with sam and dean by text, he and dean still manage to be terrible at Actual communication.

Autrement, Danger - or, The Account of an Exceedingly Long Day - mature/30k, post s11. a monster that takes the appearance of your soulmate leads to some wild miscommunications and dealing with years of repression, also dean gets to see cas’ true form which is always cool. tw for non-graphic mentions of underage sexual assault/sex work.

Down to Agincourt - mature/explicit/900++++k, endverse continuation. endverse!cas survives his encounter with lucifer and discovers another time-displaced dean from s7. i’ve only read the two of four parts but its really good, veeeeery slow burn, has a lot of fun oc’s and takes a rather surprising but (imo) entertaining and intriguing turn into Hellenic history and mythology. usual tw’s for endverse/endverse!cas but nothing graphic, it’s actually pretty light-hearted (relatively speaking of course).

Nothing Equals the Splendor** - explicit/8k, THEE finale fix it fic you’ve been waiting for! posits that the entire final episode was just a (very bad and lame) djinn’s vision.

like moses and batman and james dean - explicit/31k, post s8. explores dean’s trauma and internalized homophoba from his technically canon experience with sex work and its impact on his relationship with cas. the sex work itself isn’t really shown in any detail but it’s still a relatively heavy fic.

Crazy Diamonds - explicit/25k, s4/alternate s14. fresh-out-of-hell dean and dean from 10 years in the future are displaced from time and sent to each other’s present.

where the weeds take root - explicit/30k. au where the men of letters kick them out of the bunker and they accidentally move out into the country, get over their codependence and semi retire. featuring chicken coop building, sam volunteering at a dog shelter, gardening, and blissfully mundane domesticity.

No Resting Place - teen/6k. djinn dream fic, switches back and forth between cas’ dream of being married to dean and retired from hunting to the aftermath when he wakes up. tw for brief mention of suicide since, y’know, djinn dream.

any port in a storm - mature/52k. post s8 finale. cas and dean have to pose as a couple going through a rough patch for a case and actually deal with their emotional baggage, cas struggles with being human and metatron is up to stuff.

all this and heaven too* - explicit/7k. in the author’s own words ‘...a love letter to every trans person who ever projected onto Dean Winchester.’ absolutely unzipped me emotionally and theologically, its just. so good. tw for very brief mentions of internalized transphobia/dysphoria.

Because it is* - mature/6k, finale fix it. killing chuck does not bring back anyone back and the winchesters spend a very long time dealing with what they’ve lost, cas and dean SOMEHOW still manage to have signifigant communication issues even after the confession. tw for suicidal thoughts/brief attempt.

Vena Amoris and Other Old-Fashioned Bullshit* - teen/4k, s6. when cas fell for dean it automatically soulbonded/angel married them, shenanigans ensue when dean finds out during the angel’s civil war. funny and actually written back when s6 was airing so cas is still (or at least pretending to be) kind of an OP asshole which is fun.

Rinse, Repeat - teen/3k, s8. angsty character study of cas as he’s reprogrammed and trained to kill dean. not really dean/cas since its just cas’ pov of canon events but its beautifully written and ends with him snapping out of it through the power of love (also now a canon event!).

Emergence - explicit/59k, canon divergent after s11. dean meets a hunter he only recognizes as their friend claire novak’s missing father, but soon realizes he might be the answer behind the mysterious void in his memories and feelings (aka everyone’s memories of cas are completely wiped away for three years).

Cuckoo And Nest - explicit/10k, early established relationship/character study, cas tries to figure out how he fits into dean’s life and space in the bunker.

Build a Home* - teen/20k, canon divergent s12. sam and eileen are cute and turn the bunker into men of letters/hunters hq and everyone but cas moves in, mutual miscommunication issues and pining ensues.

Down in the River - teen/5k, early s8, cas prays to dean in purgatory while sam and dean try to figure out a way to get him out.

Teaching Poetry to Fish* - mature/52k, ?? BC through the entire series/canon divergent s14 and 15. retelling of crucial scenes throughout the shows timeline from cas’ pov, feat. actual fish and poetry.

the minor fall, the major lift - gen/4k, post confession/finale fixit. dean goes into the empty to save cas and runs into several old friends (and enemies).

With the Kisses of His Mouth* - teen/3k, gen later seasons. dean and cas keep kissing by accident.

Remaining Grace - explicit/109k, alternate s6. au where cas asks dean for help with raphael and dean, of course, does. tw for temporary major character death/semi-graphic depictions of alcohol withdrawal.

The face of heaven.* - teen/10k, au, dean is a regular guy and cas is a fallen star (think ‘stardust’, kinda).

Stories Are Made of Mistakes*  - teen/5k. newly human cas has trouble getting used to a human body and humanity in general, but still figures out that he and dean are A Thing before dean does.

Hurry Up And Wait - mature/21k, canon divergent s12. a fairyland and quite possibly LOTR related case comes up and dean goes full fanboy, mary is introduced to the wonders of the peter jackson adaptions, many references and comparisons (including between cas and dean’s ‘friendship’ and arwen/aragon). also charle is still alive and has just been doing fairy stuff this whole time.

There Are Many Things - explicit/28k, s9. cas is extremely lonely/touch-starved and trying to figure out this whole human thing, as well as where he and dean stand after being kicked out of the bunker.

It's A Long Life to Always Be Longing - teen/40k, post s11 finale. amara helps dean by putting him in a magical coma so he can finally get some much needed rest and show him possible futures for him, sam and cas. meanwhile sam and cas go on a roadtrip (or several) to find componets for a spell to wake dean up. really good sam and cas friendship, they actually talk about their shared lucifer trauma and stuff.

Non-Photo Blue - gen/2k, s4/5/alternate s5. fifty moments from cas’ memories of dean.

Tall Grass - explicit/57k, canon divergent post series. cas becomes the ultimate plant dad. feat the wayward sisters gang, cathartic character growth, fun oc’s, domesticity, and lots of actual botanical info-dumping.

on vessels - no rating/gen/2k. established dean/cas, cas tells dean about how he used to imagine what it would be like to have him as his vessel.

search for tomorrow on every shore* - teen/11k, post-finale (extremely derogatory). some angels in jack’s new heaven act out and dean gets temporarily resurrected in 2003 and runs into his younger self.

Architecture of the Minotaur’s Heart - explicit/45k, very canon divergent post s1. dean’s new house seems to have a life and mind of its own, while in his dreams he sees glimpses of a world and apocalypse that never came to be and an angel that looks strangely like his mysterious neighbor, cas. loosely inspired by the book house of leaves (which i highly recommend for fans of weird horror).

The Distance Of The Setting Sun - explicit/17k, post s5. established dean/cas relationship, team free will finally takes advantage of cas’ abilities to go on vacation around the world.

diamond star halo - teen/5k, s11. dean lets cas use him as a temporary vessel while he recovers from rowena’s spell, sam is a long-suffering third-wheel.

Make Known** - teen/16k, s6/7. dean struggles to understand how cas could have become his enemy and whether he ever truly knew him in the first place.

blunt little instrument* - mature/1.4k, post finale. dean finally confronts his father in heaven, very cathartic.

my heart a compass*** - teen/10k, post confession. the empty forces cas to re-experience his most regretted moments while dean tries to snap him out of it and bring him home.

A Crash Course in Someone Else's History - teen/11k, s6. cas from the very start of s4 is brought forward in time by s6!cas to distract the brothers from his and crowley’s plans.

The Cuckoo Father - mature/8k, s7 au. the woman who found cas in the river post-leviathans does not marry him bc he was sent to her by god or whatever, but actually identifies him as jimmy novak and sends him back to claire and amelia.

The Dead Dean Clause* - teen/5k, post alt s5 ending. team free will celebrates surviving taking down lucifer by getting blitzed, cas lies to a cop and gets an impromptu driving lesson. title/description sound dark i know but it’s actually very funny and light.

Suck It, Judy Garland - mature/20k, s12 (after the ‘i love you...i love all of you’ episode). cas and sam have to pretend to be a couple for a case and dean is NOT happy about it.

By Daylight and In Dream - teen/16k, s5. pre-dean/cas, dean invites cas to use his dreams to hide from the other angels. tw for very brief mention of a memory/dream of alastair sexually assaulting dean.

The Five People You Meet in Heaven - mature/22k, post-canon. an actually happy (if sometimes bittersweet) heaven endgame written several years ago, though some details are rather eerily similar to the show’s ending.

heaven is a place on earth* - teen/2k. dean’s pov of some of the times cas left him behind throughout the show, and one alternate ending where he finally gets to stay.

I Cleanse The Mirror - teen/20k, alternate s6. dean’s body is stolen by an ancient elemental and his soul has to hitch a ride in cas’ vessel.

an exploration of gender; angelic*** - mature/4k. *oscar isaac voice* lets get into angel gender politics!! aka cas is trans.

Zenith - explicit/33k, s9. after 9x06 an angry witch curses cas with the ability to see supernatural beings and human souls.

La cucina. - gen/3k, alt s9. dean goes wild helping a newly-human cas find out what kinds of food he likes, or the early s9 domesticity we deserved!

Dean Winchester, Cocksucker at Rest***** - teen/7k, post-finale. john and mary finally come over for dinner and john reacts to dean/cas in a rather predictable fashion. SOOOOOOOOO good omg, its so funny and a little sad and very very cathartic. part of a series that has a few other really good short fics.

The Way You Didn't Go - teen/5k, s15. coda to 15.09, dean has nightmares about the moc!cas timeline.

On Drowning - teen/28k. dean saves cas after he nearly drowns, they both try and deal with the physical/mental fallout (aka the fic where thee iconic “you only touch me when you think I’m dead or dying” originates). tw for realistic depictions of drowning/triage/misc medical information.

The Thirty-Six Questions That Lead to Love* - mature/13k. claire has dean and cas pretend to be her gay dads for a case and they play the titular 36 question game, get mistaken for swingers, and birdwatch, among other things.

Assorted F/F stuff:

Deep Breaths* - mary/ellen, au where mary said no to azazel’s deal and let john stay dead, still becomes a milf.

Like Rebel Diamonds - krissy/claire, they become hunter gf’s on the hunt for cas to kick his ass for taking jimmy. not-so-stealth dean/cas as well.

To Ash and Bone - anna/ruby, same author as the previous fic (p much all of her stuff is good from what i recall). au where ruby is a witch and helps anna when she’s cursed.

Holy Clockwork Angels - jo/ruby, STEAMPUNK au with very cool worldbuiilding.

At Day's End - jo/anna (my fucking KINGDOM for more jo/anna content, the dean/cas parallels are allllll there), au where they are both at the camp in the endverse and gfs.

these posts - ok so not actually a fic but i’m now obsessed with this hannah/meg dynamic.

Tagelied - mary/ellen, the true story of how ellen got into hunting before angels interfered.

Hell's Bells** - meg/abaddon, alternate s8/9 where meg survives crowley’s attack with sam’s help and teams up with abaddon (who she has a sk year old crush on) to take back hell.

The Ecstasy of the Rose - anna/ruby, anna travels back in time to escape heaven and becomes a signifigant part of ruby’s old human life.

Angel Underground - anna/jo, kind of an urban fantasy au with a very intriguing premise (sadly its very short, i’d love to see more if this ‘verse).

Clover, Flame - billie/mary, billie was always the reaper that showed up to take mary after her death(s) over the years.

Drag Me To Heaven - anna/ruby, a variant on the ‘last night on earth’ thing with dean.

Come Home* - jo/anna, canon-divergent au where anna is the new waitress at the roadhouse and helps jo set up a (probably not really) haunted house for halloween.

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[OM!] Distraction (Lucifer/MC) NSFW

Summary: Despite knowing how busy Lucifer is, you seek him out for company. Predictably, he’s not willing to be distracted by you, but he proposes a pleasurable compromise instead. 

Alternatively: Lucifer tries not to be distracted by you, but ends up being distracted anyways. (And some of it is your fault.) 

Notes: NSFW; thigh riding smut; GN!MC + AFAB so read only if this is okay for you!

@ohbbobeyme wrote a lovely Lucifer POV mirror fic to this so please check it out! :)); this has been in the works for a while so I’ll get to writing the requests soon! 

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It isn’t often that you’re the needy one. (Both you and Lucifer know that he is, but he will never admit to it and you’re not enthused about revealing that secret lest it discourages him from seeking you out so endearingly.) You know when Lucifer is busy-- which is often-- and you don’t like to bother him unless it is necessary. But it seems that for today, the heat of arousal clings onto you, no matter what you distract yourself with. 

Which is why you pop your head into Lucifer’s room that night as he writes on his desk, papers organized into neat piles and a pen dipped in an ink bottle.

Lucifer hardly bats an eye when you come waltzing into his room, restless as your fingers trace at the bottles of Demonus in his room and feet meander around the room before they come to its intended destination behind Lucifer.

“Lucifer,” you say, hugging him from behind and propping your head up onto his shoulder as you watch his hand deftly sign his name (presumably) in his demonic language. When you receive a hum as a response, you continue, “How busy are you right now?” 

“Quite so,” he replies, much to your disappointment. He huffs in amusement when you let out a sound of annoyance. “What is it, my love? Are you feeling lonely tonight?” 

“Yes,” you say, taking the chance to be as blunt as possible. Something in you curls in pleasure when you see Lucifer shoots you a glance, his cheeks pink as a natural response to your brutal honesty about your desires. You slide your hand down to his chest, carefully fingering the buttons. “So I was thinking--”

“I’m busy,” Lucifer tells you instead, and your hands freeze. With his eyes focused on the document in front of him, he says, “Why don’t you entertain yourself while you wait for me?” 

Knowing a dismissal when you hear one, you sigh and slide your hands back up to Lucifer’s shoulders before squeezing them once like a promise for ‘later.’ You walk around his seat, wondering if you should just wait on his bed when you feel his hand grab your wrist.

You blink at him when he tilts his head at you. “Where are you going?”

“Somewhere else?” You ask, confused. “You said you were busy.”

“Yes,” Lucifer says casually, “and I also said you should go entertain yourself for a while.” He looks up with you with half-lidded eyes, in that seductive gaze you are all too familiar with. “I didn’t say you had to leave.” He curls his fingers on your wrist, coaxing you towards him until your legs are on either side of his thighs. And when he lifts his legs to press his thigh against your core, you feel your face flush at the invitation to something you weren’t aware was even on the table.

(You suppose there was never a dismissal after all.) 

"Lucifer, I--"

"Am I not a medium satisfactory enough for your entertainment, dear?" Lucifer purrs, and you shiver when his warm breath hits the curve of your ears.You settle yourself onto his thigh slowly and feel a thrum of anticipation course through you at the feeling of your arousal on the cloth of his pants. Unconsciously, you curl your fingers into his school uniform and breathe out a shaky sigh just at the thought of getting off on Lucifer alone and making a mess of his clothes. 

"Be a good dear and wait for me while I finish up, will you?" Lucifer tells you, placing a hand on the curve of your back with just enough pressure to remind you of his presence.

You bite your lip and nod obediently, much to Lucifer's pleasure. You place your weight on both of your feet only so you could slip out of the underwear that served as the final barrier between you and your anticipatory pleasure. You barely let it fall to your ankle before you brace yourself onto Lucifer and grind onto his leg, letting out a soft moan at the friction.

You feel Lucifer's gloved hand press harder onto your back just for a moment before he chuckles lowly. "Were you really that in need of a release, darling?" He asks, making your ears burn red. "I do wonder how many times you'll finish before I'm done with work considering how excitable you seem to be."

"Sorry," you mumble almost automatically, though you know your words are insincere as you roll your hips and gasp again when the rough cloth of his pants rubs against your clit. You revel in the sensation, uncaring of the drool your cunt leaves behind on his normally impeccable attire, and you hope-- for as smug as Lucifer can be-- that the sounds you make as you repeat your grinding motions are making it unbearably difficult for him to resist the urge to look at you, lost in the throes of pleasure.

"Lucifer," you whisper almost reverently, feeling your hips move asynchronously as you reach closer to your climax, and you arch your back when you feel his hand dig into the skin of your back.

"Are you coming already, love?" Lucifer says, lips pressed against your wrist. "Do I really feel that good to you?"

"I'd think you would know," you say, burying your head into his shoulder, "considering how your eyes haven't left me since the beginning. Ah--" Your hips jerk forward as you grab a hold of Lucifer, rolling over that peak and riding out the high that follows. Your cunt clenches over nothing and gushes out more slick to wet Lucifer’s black slacks-- and you vindictively hope that Lucifer can feel exactly how wet you are.

You close your eyes against the rolling pleasure and barely bite back a groan that comes from the back of your throat. 

“Maybe I should have specified that you were to entertain yourself quietly,” you hear Lucifer drawl after a moment of silence as you bask in the warm aftermath of your climax. And you would have otherwise thought he were truly unaffected-- if you hadn’t known him well enough to know the way his hand inches down your back and the way his lips ghost over the nape of your neck are signs of his restraint slowly tearing away. 

You hum in response and move your thighs, only to feel the hardness of his arousal against his leg. “I thought you liked listening to music when you worked.”

You bite down on your lower lip, hiding away the mischievous smile before Lucifer can see, only for your heart to leap again when you glance at your demon lover and see his eyes glow red. You gasp again when he lifts his leg and presses his palms against your back to pull you flush against him, swallowing your gasp with his lips. 

“Do you enjoy riling me up?” He asks, though the way he glances for a moment at your half-lidded eyes before gripping at your hip and grinding his thigh against your core again seems to answer his question for him. Your eyes flutter at the pleasure that curls at the pit of your stomach again as Lucifer trails kisses along your cheek, murmuring, “Whatever shall I do with you?” 

If Lucifer notices your smile when he brings you close for another bruising kiss, he doesn’t comment. His right hand, that was previously preoccupied with holding a pen, is now busy pushing you down onto his desk as the other hand lifts your legs up so he can properly place you flat down, surrounded by papers and ink bottles alike. 

You know much later when hours have passed and the two of you are finally spent, he’ll shoot you an exasperated look and you’ll only laugh and grin at the fact he can never seem to resist you, regardless of whether you tried to be alluring or not. But right now, as Lucifer traces his gloved hand along your open, trembling thighs and shows you the strand of slick that stuck to his fingers, you know that all Lucifer wants in the heat of the moment is to have you sing his name as if they are the only lyrics you know. 

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Fanfic Recs That No One Asked For

We're sliding into day ?? of quarantine and I thought I'd recommend some of my favorite fics that would totally violate social distancing rules.

Lucifer

What You Deserve by Darker_Side [Complete]

Summary:

An angsty one-shot of the interrogation room scene between Chloe and Lucifer in 3x20. I just couldn't get that tension out of my head, and this happened in preparation for season 4 in just a few days! AH! I hope you enjoy this angsty smut.

What I like:

It's HOT idk that's it y'all.

Happy Detective Day! by violent_ends [Complete]

Summary:

Now that Lucifer is in Hell, Chloe has completely forgotten that it's the one-year anniversary of that stupid surfer case in which Lucifer decided to focus entirely on her. That is, until a surly demon turns up on her doorstep, thrusts flowers in her face, and tells her, “Happy Detective Day from His Infernal Highness!”

Or: the marvellous top-side journey of Saleos the peace-loving demon.

What I like:

I love unusual POVs and Saleos is adorable 😉 I like the bittersweet ending the author chose to go with, it felt super realistic.

Crystals by OkamiShadou98 [WIP]

Summary:

After seeing Lucifer's scars, Chloe searches for the truth about her partner and his shadowed past. In doing so, she comes face to face with the psychological demons he shields himself from. Recovery is a long, twisted road for the Devil and his Detective. Eventual Deckerstar

What I like:

WING SCARS! I love me some wing scar angst. I also really love the inclusion of Dan in here. He and Lucifer have some nice brotp moments in here.

can we surrender? by dryadfiona [WIP]

Summary:

Marcus Pierce shoots Charlotte Richards. She doesn't die. They've gotta take down the Sinnerman somehow.

What I like:

It's a fake marriage trope guys 👀 need I say more? Also I just really liked what they did with their post s3 canon divergence.

the nicest angel you have by TotallynotRemus [WIP]

Summary:

In which Trixie prays for a friend, and the Devil answers. Or, Trixie makes a deal.

What I like:

I kinda dig demon summoner Trixie tbh. I like that Lucifer and Maze keep missing meeting Chloe and the fact that she thinks that Trixie now has imaginary friends named after the Devil and an object just doesn't even phase her.

Other Fandoms:

This may be a Lucifer blog but you guys know I like other fandoms right? 😉 Have some bonus recs.

Overheard by leiascully [Complete] Welcome to Night Vale Fandom

Summary:

Cecil accidentally broadcasts a private moment.

What I like:

Listen why are there not more accidental voyeurism fics in the wtnv fandom?? This one is perfect. The writing is absolutely beautiful and I could just fall into anything this author writes in this style.

Perhaps A Sign by Thia (Jennaria) [Complete] Welcome to Night Vale Fandom

Summary:

Carlos keeps waking up in Cecil's bed. This would be great, if he knew how he got back there from the Desert Otherworld, or if the timeline wasn't screwed up. Maybe he should work on that.

What I like:

The Christmas scene!!!! Oh my god I absolutely loved the concept of Cecil just going along with The Thing (which I won't spoil for you) and I just LOVE his line after it's all done ("merry Christmas indeed"). It cracks me up every time.

Home for the Holidays by messyfeathers [Complete] Welcome to Night Vale Fandom

Summary:

The invitation to spend Christmas at Carlos's brother's house seemed as good an excuse as any to introduce Cecil to the family. If only years of Night Vale holidays hadn't left Cecil absolutely terrified of jingle bells and Perry Como songs. It's a transition to be sure.

What I like:

I love "meet the family" tropes! I also love Cecil outside Night Vale and this one is really well done.

The Consequences of Dreaming by NoPondInTheForest [Complete] Doctor Who 2005 Fandom

Summary:

Years have passed since the Doctor walked away, leaving the woman he loved behind with his double. Now, traveling with the Ponds, his broken hearts are an old secret, hidden away under the guise of the manic, dynamic alien. So when a mysterious threat arises, compelling him to return to Pete's World, it means risking everything- including his hearts, his secrets, and his sanity. But no is never an option when Rose needs his help.

What I like:

I'm always a slut for Eleven/Rose what can I say? This is extremely well done and I thought how the author handled the whole Eleven/Rose TenTwo/Rose tension arc gracefully. Also Amy and Rory meeting Rose 👀

Coming Out by flutterby_cupcake_26 [Complete] Supernatural Fandom

Summary:

It was a typical love story. They met in college. It was love at first sight, or close enough, and it wasn't long until Dean and Castiel were married. It was pretty close to perfect.

Fast forward seven years: Dean teaches at a high school in his home town in Kansas and Castiel is better known as Jimmy Novak, internationally best-selling author. They spend months apart, and all their time hiding who they really are. But their way of life is threatening to unravel completely, and Dean needs to choose what is more important; his privacy or his husband.

What I like:

I absolutely LOVE established hidden relationships! This fic is amazing in that regard and I felt like the relationships and characters were fleshed out really well.

Blind Marriage by inspiration_assaulted [Complete] BBC Sherlock Fandom

Summary:

Lt John Watson, 25, will do just about anything to stay in the Army, even if it means marrying a man he's never met. It's only for two years, and he'll probably be in Afghanistan the whole time. How much can his life really change?

Sherlock Holmes, 21, is just entering rehab, at his mother's dying request. He can't receive the money she left him, the money he needs to live, unless he gets married. He signs the papers to shut Mycroft up. Besides, it's only for two years, and his husband is on a different continent. How much can his life really change?

What I like:

What do you mean I have a type?? Nahhhh. But haha yeah this is another secret relationship fic. I thought the johnlock in here felt super natural and even though they're apart for most of the fic, I got a lot out of this.

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Aria’s Long List of Lucifer & Deckerstar Fic Recs (Part 6)

Hello, all!  It seems like it’s about that time again to continue my fic rec series!  I haven’t had a ton of time to read since the S4 finale because I had a pretty hellacious summer, after which I’ve been so focused on writing.  Hence why this has taken so long.  

DISCLAIMER: These recs are organized by author, and the order is not meant to imply an order of preference.  All recommendations are completed fics unless otherwise noted.  If anyone knows the @ tumblr names for any of the authors I missed tagging, or if I got anything wrong, please let me know.  Lastly, this is just a list of things I’ve read that I really enjoyed, and I want to spread the love.  That’s it.  Period.  It’s not politics, and I have no ulterior motives, okay?  

NOTE: You can find my previous five rec posts here (part 1), here (part 2), here (part 3), here (part 4), and here (part 5).

And, so, without further ado!

The Devil Goes to Shul by @arlome.  Deckerstar.  7k words.  Post-S4.  In which Lucifer meets a Rabbi.  This is such an interesting commentary on the differences between the various Abramahamic religions’ perceptions of the Devil.  Rabbi Schulman is a well-drawn, fascinating, fantastic character.  A fic that’s great food for thought, with a dash of good humor, and a little smut thrown in for good measure.

Of Honey, Sulphur, & Bone by @aryanightshade.  Deckerstar.  35k words.  Post-S3.  In which the end of 3x24 goes a little differently.  Cain captures both Lucifer & Chloe and takes them prisoner, absconding with them to his bunker in the desert.  This fic has some graphic blood and gore scenes, so be wary if that’s a trigger for you, but the revelation; Chloe’s dueling panic, doubt, and empathy; the beautiful hurt/comfort; and the emotional pulse of this story makes for a riveting read.  

The Ghosts of Picnic Table #29 by @elleflies.  Deckerstar.  Maze & Chloe.  ~50k words when completely posted.  Post-S4.  This story is technically a WIP because it’s still in the process of being posted, but it’s already completely written, and I know it’s good because I betaed it and got to see how it all ends up, so I feel confident recommending it, now.  A year after Lucifer departed, Chloe is still grieving his loss, when an unusual case at a haunted picnic table crops up, and she enlists Maze’s help to investigate.  Lots of female bonding and fun in this story.  And a ton of emotional intimacy and mutual pining for Deckerstar when Lucifer mysteriously starts showing up in Chloe’s dreams.  

Boom by emynii & @obliobla.  Lucifer & Dan.  4k words.  In which Lucifer & Dan get trapped under an exploded building, and the only thing that’s stopping Dan from being crushed are Lucifer’s fanned out wings.  Cue revelation.  Cue platonic Douchifer stuff.  And have some hurt Lucifer and hurt Dan to top it off.  A lovely mix.  

Trouble by Design by @hiromystory.  Deckerstar.  Lucifer & Dan.  76k words.  Originally recommended as a WIP, now it’s done!  A post-S3 Deckerstar scenario told in novel form. My favorite thing about this story is actually the author’s in-depth exploration of how Dan might react to a Devilish revelation.  Hint: not well.  Hiro deftly tackles Dan’s feelings about some of the questionable stuff he’s done through the lens of him now knowing the punishment that awaits him, and it’s both captivating and heart wrenching.

Guilt by liannabob.  Deckerstar.  22k words.  Post-S3.  In which Chloe doesn’t take the revelation of Lucifer’s devil-ness all that well, and dire consequences ensue.  This fic.  Was.  So.  Angsty.  The idea of Lucifer slumming in Hell loops for things he loves about Earth is just ugh.  So good.  And awful at the same time.  But in a good way.  And I promise the payoff for this angst is so touching and very worth it.  

Patrick the Bartender Is Not Paid Enough for This Shit by liannabob.  Patrick.  15k words.  Canon-compliant S1 fic.  I know, I know.  Patrick, you’re saying.  Who the hell is Patrick?  Remember way back in the S1 pilot, when that bartender pops up from behind the bar, after having given Maze some head, and Maze is all cat-caught-the-canary, “You can go, Patrick.”  Yes.  That Patrick.  This fic basically takes that character who never got a single line and gives him a whole personality and backstory and POV.  The premise of this fic is that pretty much every employee at Lux low-key knows (and is fine with the fact) Lucifer is the actual Devil.  And it’s.  AMAZING.  HYSTERICAL.  And PERFECT.  If you never read another OC fic in your life, at least give this one a shot.  You won’t regret it.

Smoke & Mirrors by @theleafpile.  Deckerstar.  80k words.  An all-human mobster AU.  In which Lucifer is the Devil of Los Angeles, and Chloe is still a homicide detective for the LAPD, who gets involved with him against her better judgment.  This fic manages to maintain the integrity and essence of the characters we know and love, while simultaneously transporting them to an entirely new premise, and I loved it.  I love theleafpile’s lyrical writing style.  And I love the little bits of mythology she injects that suggest … this “all human” AU might not be what it seems on the surface.  It takes a special kind of writer to pull off this kind of transformative AU, and theleafpile does it aplomb.

The Free Parking Jackpot Rule by lilith_morgana.  Deckerstar.  3.8k words.  Interstitial, canon-compliant S3 fic.  Offers a little bit more context for the unicorn Trixie painted on Lucifer’s cheek in S3 on monopoly night.  A concentrated shot of angst, with some lovely characterization to boot.  

The Delusional Devil by @maimat2.  Deckerstar.  25k words.  Late S2 era.  A casefic case-study on Chloe’s empathy.  Based on the premise that she naturally assumes Lucifer’s wholly human self has some kind of mental trauma or disorder.  When Lucifer starts acting more … more, she assumes he’s losing his grip on reality.  I loved the touching way this story delved into Chloe & Lucifer’s friendship, and of course I loved all the hints of Lucifer’s otherness, which were tempered by Chloe’s human perceptions.    

I Will Fear No Evil by @miahclone.  Lucifer & Dan.  18k words.  An interstitial S4 piece, arguably canon-compliant until proven otherwise.  In which Lucifer & Dan are taken prisoner by some cultists, and Lucifer is subjected to an exorcism that goes horribly wrong.  WARNING: if you suffer from emetophobia, this fic will be extremely triggering.  I don’t have emetophobia, and I still got a bit queasy.  There is also some pretty graphic blood & gore.  This is quintessential whump.  But this is well worth a read if you’re a sucker for Dan & Lucifer platonic bonding, hurt Lucifer, hurt/comfort in general, endings that make you go, “Whoa! New head canon!” and humor in the face of shit circumstances.  Which I very much am.  So.  There you go :D

De Profundis by @mswyrr.  Amenadiel & Lucifer.  3k words.  Post-S4.  Amenadiel offers Lucifer a solution to the problem of Hell needing to be ruled by an angel.  A beautifully written brother-bonding fic, and, honestly, I think it’s the most straightforward way to fix how S4 ended. 

Time Heals All Wounds by @notonelineff.  Deckerstar.  23k words.  Post-S3.  Fills in the blanks for how things could have gone after S3.  Lucifer is in dire need of medical aid, and Chloe tries to help.  Satisfying hurt/comfort, and a lovely resolution.

Ouroboros by @pandainthestars.  Deckerstar.  3k words.  Events happen slightly differently in 4x09.  Chloe & Lucifer chase after Kinley.  Lucifer goes full-Devil when they’re in pursuit, not when they’re at Lux, which prompts some very interesting/poignant discussion between Chloe & Lucifer.  I loved Chloe’s assertion of the ouroboros metaphor.  A quick, angsty read.  

A question of faith by @pixelbypixelfanfic.  Ella & Lucifer.  2.1k words.  A post-reveal fic for Ella, in which Lucifer & Ella discuss her faith.  A poignant, thoughtful little piece that I really enjoyed.  

Soup Kitchen by @tarysande.  Deckerstar.  1k words.  Speculative scene-replacement, S4.  A heart-wrenching little interstitial scene for 4x03 that looks at how things may have gone if Lucifer hadn’t already been pushed by Father Kinley into doubting Chloe’s intentions.  

my definition of holy (changes with each loss) by @thewollfgang.  Deckerstar.  3k words.  Post-S4.  So … this fic doesn’t end happy.  At all.  Beware if that’s a problem for you.  But if you want some delicious, cutting, heart-wrenching angst to roll around in for a while, this fic is your jam.  The concept of Chloe praying to Lucifer intermittently, giving him updates, sending him her love, as she lives her life on Earth, and he’s stuck in Hell is just … oh, my god, my heart.  

drunk in love by @thewollfgang.  Deckerstar.  4k words.  Post-S4.  This fic isn’t in alphabetical order with wollfy’s other fic on this list, but I’m doing that intentionally, because if you want a happy ending for the previous nuclear angst bomb, I recommend head-canoning this as your ultimate resolution, where Lucifer & Chloe are reunited, and everything is gooey and perfect and the world is puppies and kittens.  I live to see tipsy Lucifer & Chloe at Lux through the perspective of their friends/found-family.  I hope we get something like this in S4.

The Trouble with Brittanies by @theyahwehdance.  500 words.  A hysterical little ficlet in which Lucifer calls Chloe and asks for help with the Brittanies.  I saw this ficlet evolve from a live discussion that made me laugh so hard my belly hurt.  I mean, it’s an honest misunderstanding ….

[destieltropecollection]

Destiel Trope Collection 2019 Day 15: Fallen!Cas

The Art of Sleep | @wingsdestiel Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1631 Main Tags and Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Human Castiel, Dreams and Nightmares, Sharing a Bed, Cuddling & Snuggling, Fluff Summary: Castiel has trouble adjusting to being human, and has a particularly hard time sleeping. Dean helps him with his sleep issues, and if he thinks he's being subtle, he's not.

A Love of All Things That Grow | @rustling-pages Rating: General Word Count: 4909 Main Tags and Warnings: Miscommunication Summary: What Castiel does, after over a year of drama that didn’t give him time to get used to being human, is start a garden.

A New Beginning | @breathingdestiel Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1452 Main Tags and Warnings: s14 canon divergent, angst with a happy ending Summary: After they admit their feelings and share a passionate night together, Dean is heartbroken to find that Cas has left in the middle of the night.

a walk in the park | @breathingdestiel Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1236 Main Tags and Warnings: s12 canon divergent, fluff Summary: Dean and Cas go on a walk. It's a date, but Dean doesn't know it yet.

If Tomorrow Never Comes | @jupiterjames Rating: Explicit Word Count: 97806 Main Tags and Warnings: fallen Castiel, paramedic Dean, graphic depictions of violence, soul bond, hurt/comfort Summary: Doctor Sam Winchester and paramedic Dean Winchester work at one of the USA's most prestigious hospitals for supernatural beings and victims of supernatural occurrences. During an especially busy shift on a full moon night, Dean and his partner, Benny, respond to a dispatch for an injured celestial being. There they meet Castiel, an angel with a broken wing and a story he's not telling anyone about. After all, governmental agreements between Earth and Heaven have kept uninvited angels off of Earth for more than a century. But Castiel has willingly Fallen to Earth in order to stop a Disaster of divine proportions before it happens. And to do that, he needs the help and supernatural connections that the Winchester brothers possess.

Broken Wings | @pherryt Rating: General Word Count: 1627 Main Tags and Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Canon Divergent, Season 9 divergent, human!Cas, fallen!cas, Hurt!Cas, dean asks him to stay Summary: Sam succeeded - Crowley's cured and the Gates of Hell are closed and somehow he's still alive. It should be cause to celebrate, but all Dean can think of is getting back to the bunker as fast as he can. He's gotta find out if Cas is okay.

I Found | @cr-noble-writes Rating: No Rating Word Count: 1645 Main Tags and Warnings: fluff, angst, song fic Summary: Dean finds himself missing Castiel, and eventually comes to terms with his feelings for Cas only to find him again and wonder if he feels the same.

Worth the Fall | @DesiraeLovesDestiel Rating: Explicit Word Count: 25138 Main Tags and Warnings: Teacher Dean/Fallen Angel Cas, True love, smut, fluff, humor Summary: The angel Castiel was stationed on Earth to observe, not interact. When he takes it upon himself to intervene in an accident that would have claimed the life of Kindergarten teacher, Dean Winchester, there were consequences. Stripped of most of his powers, Castiel is forced to live as a mortal for one year. But after getting to know the man who led to his fall from grace, the angel soon discovers that he has a choice to make. Return to his post when his punishment is over and never see Dean again, or give up his near immortality to take a chance at a life on Earth with the human he has come to love.

Making love out of nothing at all | @marian-elisa Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 12758 Main Tags and Warnings: Canon divergence, human Castiel, friends to lovers, love confessions, slow burn Summary: A graceless Castiel realized he was in love with Dean. After asking Sam for advice, he decided to tell Dean the truth. From there, things didn't turn out as he would've wanted them to.

A Case of The Grumps | @lemonsorbae Rating: General Word Count: 1073 Main Tags and Warnings: Fluff, Canon Universe Summary: The angel is grumpy.

Home is With You | @thursdays-fallen-angel Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 6911 Main Tags and Warnings: Fallen!Cas, Alpha!Cas, Omega!Dean Summary: News of Heaven's forced exodus reaches them, but for the most part, it doesn't do more than graze them. They stay in the bunker, and as long as they're there, rumors of angry angels remain just that-rumors. Inside the safety of their bubble, Sam slowly begins to heal, and as Dean fusses over him and nurses him back to health, life returns to normal. An altered sort of normal, sure, but normal nonetheless. And thankfully, Dean keeps busy enough with his brother that most of his other stresses can remain safely on the back-burner. Well. All stresses except for the biggest one.

Endings Are Easy | @mittensmorgul Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1569 Main Tags and Warnings: Episode: s14e10 Nihilism, Coda, Future Fic, Happy Ending, Everything is Beautiful and Nothing Hurts Summary: They all finally get a happy ending.

His Leather Jacket | @babybluecas Rating: Explicit Word Count: 10549 Main Tags and Warnings: canon divergent, bittersweet ending, first kiss, first time, fallen!cas, biker!cas Summary: Kicked out of the Bunker, Cas left to live his human life on his own. A few weeks later, he and Dean meet again to solve a case together and Dean can barely believe his eyes. Cas in a black, leather jacket, riding a motorcycle - that's a thing Dean's never expected to see, but he's surely not gonna complain.

There's a rule | @flurryflair Rating: Explicit Word Count: 15209 Main Tags and Warnings: Case fic, Explicit sexual content, Alternate Canon, Human Castiel, Road trip, Angst and feelings, Introspection, Denial of feelings, Mild gore, Canon typical violence, Past Dean Winchester/Lisa Braeden Summary: "He can see the sunburn blooming on Cas’s nose, the messy stubble covering his cheeks, the wet dip right above his lips, his eyes, blue and clear and staring at Dean with a longing that feels like it’s primal and raw and everlasting. And Dean wants to have him, wants to keep this, all of it, but he can’t say it. He doesn’t know how to love him in daylight, doesn’t know how to love him honest." ---- Sequel to "There's a nail", where they take the road trip and try to figure it out.

A Few of My Favorite Things | @zenmuppet Rating: Mature Word Count: 1764 Main Tags and Warnings: established relationship, blowjobs, smut, fluff Summary: Castiel has been human for seven months now, and he has found it increasingly annoying. The endless “maintenance” his body requires is his primary complaint, but he also resents the tedium of being polite, the physical weakness of the human body, and the extreme limitations of his five senses. There are a few tangible things, however, that Cas has found make his humanity bearable. These things make him happy, and he will indulge in them at every opportunity. These things are, in no particular order, coffee, cheeseburgers, driving a car, hot showers, blowjobs, kittens, and day spas.

Just a Sniffle | @almaasi Rating: General Word Count: 2027 Main Tags and Warnings: Canon Universe, Fluff, Schmoop, Hurt/Comfort, Romance, Warm and Fuzzy Feelings, Sick Castiel, Human Castiel, Affectionate Dean, Foot Massage, Light Petting, Sharing a Bed, Castiel and Dean Watch Television, Dean Watches Castiel Sleep, Sam Knows Summary: Cas is feeling under the weather. Dean skips a hunt to offer some gentle care – which apparently includes foot rubs.

Hold Your Breath | @anupalya Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 2462 Main Tags and Warnings: POV Castiel, Human Castiel, Domestic Fluff, First Kiss, Light Angst, Father Figures Summary: Castiel has the hiccups.

indisputably human | d_e_marcus (AO3) Rating: Mature Word Count: 5659 Main Tags and Warnings: Fallen Angel Castiel; Sad Castiel; Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence; Emotional Hurt/Comfort; Castiel Learns to be Human; Depression; References to Depression; Anxiety; Happy Ending Summary: When Castiel’s grace was stripped away, leaving him shockingly, indisputably human, the overwhelming number of sensations that flooded his body brought him to his knees. Or, the one where Castiel loses his grace, becomes human and is Bad at Feelings.™

I've Got The Scars From Tomorrow | @babybluecas Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 3404 Main Tags and Warnings: canon divergent, fallen!cas, first kiss, fluff and angst Summary: A slight change in Cas’s appearance triggers Dean’s memories of his short trip to the year 2014. Luckily, it’s nothing that can’t be dealt with, with a right amount of shaving cream and a razor. Cas is stubborn, Dean has a story to tell and they both learn something important.

Fall & Rise (WIP) | @blazeeblake Rating: Mature Word Count: 67714 Main Tags and Warnings: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Canon, Fallen Castiel, Dark Castiel, Mary Lives, John Winchester's A+ Parenting, Canonical Character Death, Minor Character Death, Slow Burn, Angst with a Happy Ending Summary: During the war in Heaven, Castiel falls to earth and ultimately joins Lucifer as a Prince of Hell. Centuries later, he finds himself reluctantly ruling Hell in Lucifer’s stead, embittered by both his circumstances and the decisions that brought him there. But when a plan to to reignite the war surfaces, Castiel is launched into a battle of a different kind, one that pits him against those he once commanded and has him protecting the very beings whose existence led to his exile. On the night of November 2nd, 1983, Castiel’s interference in Hell’s plan brings him in contact with Winchester family, and from that day forward, as they struggle through the repercussions of circumstances that irrevocably change and bind them, they are each of them forced to reexamine their understanding of their place in the world, what they are willing to fight for, and who they truly are.

Your Story Isn't Over Yet | jscribbles (AO3) Rating: Mature Word Count: 75443 Main Tags and Warnings: sam's POV, sex swap, temporary female Cas, pregnant cas, grace baby, mentions of losing a baby, pregnancy, morning sickness, temporary character death, canon divergent, angst, grief, human Cas Summary: One morning, Castiel wakes up suddenly very lady-shaped, and Team Free Will discover that a nephilim grows inside him. Sam has no idea how this could have happened considering Cas was supposed to be human, and Dean seems uninterested in finding out how or why their friend is pregnant and female - but he seems goddamn excited. Castiel retreats into himself, seemingly more depressed than usual. Sam is determined to get to the bottom of this mystery, though the others seem reluctant to discover the origin of the nephilim. Could the answer be right under his nose?

[whopooh]

Author Interview

Tagged by: @firesign23 @lechatnoir1918 @aurora-australis-tumbles -- thank you lovelies, and sorry I’m so late at responding!

Name: I’m whopooh, sometimes called pooh. Or ‘damn you, plot bunny whisperer!’ 😀 I love to prompt other writers.

Fandoms: I have loved things before, but it wasn’t until Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries I actually dove into fandom. And a few years later the show Lucifer grabbed me and showed me I’m not a single fandom gal after all. These are the ones I am actually in. Lowkey I’m also enjoying several other fandoms, but they haven’t triggered me into fanfic.

Where you post: AO3. For a while I also double posted on ff.net, but I stopped. I love AO3, for many reasons, and I love the commenting culture there.

Most popular oneshot: In MFMM: Five Times Mrs Robinson Comes To Stay (And One Time She Says Goodbye). This is a view of Phryne and Jack over time from Jack’s mother’s point-of-view, and I can see why a fic with that kind of fun POV is my most kudosed one. In Lucifer, I have written much fewer fics, and the most popular by far is my one smut fic in the fandom, Slowly Claiming the Devil, developing Chloe’s reaction when Lucifer comes back from Hell. Popularity isn’t always the important thing, though. I got a comment on my Maze character study (my least popular fic) that it had made the reader see Maze’s headspace more clearly, and I treasure that so, so much.

Most popular multi-chapter story: I don’t write super long stories (I’m more of a sprinter than a marathon writer) but if simply counting fics with more than one chapter, the most popular is Appropriate, a fic about what would happen if Aunt P didn’t interrupt Phryne and Jack until after the kiss in “Unnatural Habits”. It tries to keep up that slow burn tension of the show, even as they had that kiss.

Favorite story you wrote: This is such a hard question! In one way it may be my crossover between Miss Fisher and Lucifer, simply because I was so happy to be able to combine my two infatuations. But more seriously, it’s probably The Unintentional Eloper and The Inspector is in, because they are so much about the relationship between Phryne and Jack, and contrasts the bond between them to an outside view of what is “proper”, which is a part of MFMM that is very dear to me.

Story you were nervous to post: Nervousness is just normal every time, to me, and the first fic and then the first smut fic were extra nervous, for sure. But, to be more precise, probably The Importance of Being at The Wilde Cats Club, because it’s a bit more cheeky and had as a goal to put Jack in women’s clothes, lingerie, and make up -- while still keeping him in character. I wasn’t sure if this would feel right to anyone else than myself, but since @kidnthehall even made art to it ❤︎, I will deem it working out okay.

How you choose your titles: Titles are so hard! Most often I discuss with other people to get suggestions and opinions. I tend to not go for super poetic titles, and I particularly like when the understanding of the title changes a little bit after one has read the fic.

Do you outline: I don’t outline my short fics. I have an idea of what I want to happen and then I kind of put myself in the right mood and write from there, and with banter one line kind of leads to the next. Usually my fics aren’t overtly dramatic, but rather strives to tease out some nuances and tensions from the relationships.

Complete: On ao3 I have around 50 fics. Most are MFMM, and there are everything from short flashfics to slightly longer and more elaborate ones. I love to use tropes, and to try to subvert them, so for MFMM Year of Tropes I managed to write for every month plus a meta collection about the whole challenge (which was so much fun).

In-progress: I don’t post WIP’s, and I usually don’t have many things in progress. When fancy strikes, it strikes and I write it out.

Coming soon/not yet started: I do have an idea for another crossover between my two favourite shows, but I haven’t started it.

Do you accept prompts: Since I’m such a slow and patchy writer, I don’t tend to do prompts. I’m more into prompting others, to be honest 😀.  

Upcoming story you are most excited to write: I am curious about what will happen when Lucifer meets Jack Robinson.

Tagging @arlome @heavyheadedgal @flashofthefuse @rubycaspar​ @obliobla​ @elleflies and whoever else wants to do it! And feel free to ignore if you don’t want to do it!

[thisweekingundamwing]

This Week in Gundam Wing 10-16 February 2019

Here’s this week’s roundup!

Remember to give your content creators some love! And join in on the events at the bottom!

~Mod Hel

Fanfiction/Snippets/AU Ideas:

@anaranesindanarie​

Happy Not Valentine’s Day https://archiveofourown.org/works/17776349

Trowa Barton/Duo Maxwell

Valentine’s Day, Gundam Boys use Heero as a pain measurement scale, Teasing, SO MUCH TEASING, Just do it already - Freeform, tiny bit of smut at the end, fluff?, gw valentine event 2019

Duo doesn’t see the point in Valentine’s Day.

@burningwreckage​

Lucifer https://archiveofourown.org/works/17777351

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy

Duo Maxwell, Heero Yuy, Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner

Cats, Sappy Ending, Valentine's Day, Post-Canon, GW Valentine’s Event 2019

For Valentine's Day. Duo wants a pet, but Heero is hesitant.

@doctormegalomania

Eldritch Holiday (Creature of the Night) https://archiveofourown.org/works/17802668/chapters/42002303

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy, Trowa Barton/Quatre Raberba Winner

Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell, Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner, Chang Wufei, Lady Une, Sally Po

Horror, Body Horror, Occult, Comedy, Eventual Romance, Post-Break Up

There’s something wrong with Happiness. Duo doesn’t know what, and he’s determined to find out. The rest of the Gundam Pilots tag along to make sure he doesn’t get himself killed.

@duointherain​

Beneath (Ch. 2) http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182706019769/beneath-2

disclaimer: I don’t own ‘Gundam Wing’. I also don’t own ‘Beneath’ which is a Syfy B movie I just watched and this story really doesn’t go with that one much. Monster in the water… it’s a common B movie trope.  Corvis is mine though. He gets a copyright date of 2018

Note 1:  So it’s a get together. There are elements of 1/R, ¾, and ½, there might even be a 2/R kiss in there, but in the end it’s ½, cuz that’s where my heart is.

Over a bullhorn, ancient ass technology, someone asked, “State your name and intentions!”

Beneath: An L2 Girl http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182780760504/beneath-an-l2-girl

Notes: This was just a sudden thought. As will all my work… canon? What canon? Though I hope my characterizations are good.  And I think I need a bowl of ice cream. I’m nervous to write a female pov. Also! I got up to 51 subscribers on my favorite original work today. So… Let’s see if I can do this thing! And now that I’ve done it… I hope it’s okay :)

Warnings: Graphic violence and death

Notes: beginnings of 1x2, this is set at least half a year after Beneath

She crouched behind a file cabinet, heart racing, her phone pressed to her cheek, a hand over it to hide the light. “Come on, come on! Answer the phone.”

Small Thing based off of clip http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182754323059/optimysticals-lyrangalia-tflatte

Oh man.. this is going to be a story.. .and it’s Duo in a prom tux and Relena in that pink confection of a dress that are going to do it!

Then I can see them sitting on the roof as he teaches her how to smoke and they talk about Heero’s ass…

Beneath (Ch. 1) http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182702825024/beneath-1

disclaimer: I don’t own ‘Gundam Wing’. I also don’t own ‘Beneath’ which is a Syfy B movie I just watched and this story really doesn’t go with that one much. Monster in the water… it’s a common B movie trope.  Corvis is mine though. He gets a copyright date of 2018

Note 1:  So it’s a get together. There are elements of 1/R, ¾, and ½, there might even be a 2/R kiss in there, but in the end it’s ½, cuz that’s where my heart is.

Note: If  you want to see my original stuff, it’s at www.themoonspermission.com

“This isn’t a ship,” Duo said, staring down at the rowboat. “It’s more like one of Q’s tea service bullshit things.”

@gundayum​

Courage https://archiveofourown.org/works/17776919/chapters/41945657

Duo Maxwell/Hilde Schbeiker, Relena Peacecraft/Heero Yuy

Duo Maxwell, Hilde Schbeiker, Heero Yuy

To Catty her father is a legendary hero, at least the version of him in her head. When war breaks out in her own backyard she defies her parents wishes and joins the rebellion, forcing Duo and Hilde back into combat to try and get her back.

harotype

Hearts In Space, Mk-II https://archiveofourown.org/works/17788157

Quatre Raberba Winner/Heero Yuy

GW Valentine’s Event 2019, Snark, Tea, Canon Compliant, discussion of consensual violence, references to things that happened elsewhere, Angst and Fluff and Smut, Empathy, Newtypes (Gundam Wing), Newtypes, Newtypes (in general)

On the first February 14 after the formation of the ESUN, and having very little awareness of Valentine's Day on a personal level, Quatre R. Winner receives a few things even he had no idea he was getting— all courtesy of one visitor.

@helmistress​

Curious Quat https://archiveofourown.org/works/17804942

Quatre Raberba Winner/Heero Yuy

GW Valentine's Event 2019, Cocktail Friday, Valentine's Day, V-day dates, Fluff, Snark, really bad jokes

Quatre takes his new boyfriend on a date for Valentine's Day.

@lemontrash​

If It’s Raining https://archiveofourown.org/works/17788334

Trowa Barton/Duo Maxwell

GW Valentine’s Event 2019, Sex, Kissing in the Rain, Friends to Lovers, Sex Is Fun, Accidental Relationship, Emotional Warmth, Fluff and Smut, Feel-good

It was not that they had intended to sleep together, it was just boredom and, in part, the weather. Interminable rain. Days of it, ruining the holiday. It makes the trailer a claustrophobic little tin but going out is too much of an effort.

Sprawled out full length on the couch, the resources of their four magazines and the deck of 51 cards exhausted, Duo says, as a by the by, “Hey. Do you wanna fuck?”

@lifeaftermeteor​

Saturday Snippet https://lifeaftermeteor.tumblr.com/post/182857318662/winner-family-compound-l4-v05001-30-december-210

Winner Family Compound

L4-V05001

30 December 210

@miss-m-muses​

Why Duo Does Not Like Valentine’s Day https://archiveofourown.org/works/17814422

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy

Duo Maxwell, Hilde Schbeiker, Heero Yuy

Valentine's Day Fluff, Cliche, Drabble, GW Valentine's Event 2019

“...it’s just a pointless commercial holiday designed with the intention to sell chocolates, greeting cards and flowers,” Duo complained as he picked at the remains of the crusty cheese on his plate.

@offspringchick29​

An Imperfect but Perfect Valentines Day https://archiveofourown.org/works/17790569

Duo Maxwell & Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell & Original Character(s)

Valentine's Day, Valentine's Day Fluff, Single Parents, Heero tries to be a good dad, Father - Daughter bonding, Valentine's Day plans fall apart

It’s Valentine’s Day and like most people, Heero has plans for the evening. But, what happens when your plans get thrown out the window because your child gets sick at school and you need to play the part of dad while your “date” made plans elsewhere because she felt you were taking your dad duties too seriously for her? You take it in stride and spend it with who actually is the most important girl in your life.

Fanart:

@cedesdraws​

http://cedesdraws.tumblr.com/post/182693915575/that-moment-when-you-suddenly-find-yourself

Duo Maxwell

http://cedesdraws.tumblr.com/post/182744044895/did-anyone-ask-for-modern-versions-of-the-gundam

Trowa, WuFei, Duo, Quatre, & Heero

@chemicalcrush​

https://chemicalcrush.tumblr.com/post/182821076715/now-i-am-become-death-the-destroyer-of-worlds

Deathscythe, Model

@christianmswanson​

http://christianmswanson.tumblr.com/post/182418492074/heavyarms-build-pt-1-saying-bye-bye-to-the-red

Heavyarms parts, Model (WIP)

http://christianmswanson.tumblr.com/post/182703653579/heavyarms-build-pt-2-i-havent-touched-this-thing

Heavyarms build, Model (WIP)

@duointherain​

http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182862729059

Duo Maxwell

GW Valentine’s Event 2019

http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182755273884

Beneath - Duo & Relena

@gundayum​

https://gundayum.tumblr.com/post/182773919146/youre-gonna-regret-giving-her-that-pop-tart

Duo Maxwell & A Kiddo

https://gundayum.tumblr.com/post/182793650851/uh-happy-valentines-day-i-guess?is_related_post=1#notes

Duo & Hilde

https://gundayum.tumblr.com/post/182841289551/so-im-writing-my-fic-with-the-intention-of-having#notes

Duo & Hilde

@heytherechief​

http://heytherechief.tumblr.com/post/182713562646/operation-meteor

Quatre, Duo, Heero, WuFei, & Trowa

@noartificialfruitjuice​

http://noartificialfruitjuice.tumblr.com/post/182855375886/zechs-is-not-a-consistent-man-by-anymeans-but-he

Zechs/Noin

GW Valentine’s Event 2019

@seitou​

http://seitou.tumblr.com/post/182749381130/heero-fidgeted-with-the-box-behind-hind-his-back

Heero/Trowa

GW Valentine’s Event 2019

@vegalume​

http://vegalume.tumblr.com/post/182835162485/clear-picture

Duo/Heero

Cosplay:

@lifeaftermeteor​

https://lifeaftermeteor.tumblr.com/post/182852730504/yeah-motherfucking-gundam-wing-skit-at-katsucon-to

KatsuCon, some random lovelies LAM saw.

Photosets/Screenshots:

@ransomedbard​

https://ransomedbard.tumblr.com/post/182775984828/incorrectgundamwingquotes-zechs-look-noin-you

@incorrectgundamwingquotes​

Zechs & Noin

https://ransomedbard.tumblr.com/post/182751527088/incorrectgundamwingquotes-hilde-manga-lied-to

@incorrectgundamwingquotes​

Hilde & Duo

Head Canons:

@lifeaftermeteor​

https://lifeaftermeteor.tumblr.com/post/182835578194

Quatre Raberba Winner

@offspringchick29​

https://www.pillowfort.io/posts/497749

Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell, Serena Yuy (OC)

Chats/Discussions:

@lemontrash​

https://lemontrash.tumblr.com/post/182707931319/ms-gundam-a-different-side-of-the-story

MS Gundam: A Different Side of the Story

World building things.

Quotes/Dialogues:

@incorrectgundamwingquotes​

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182702396231/sally-lets-talk-about-wufeis-birthday-i-think

Sally, Quatre, Duo, Heero, & Trowa

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182715086566/duo-leaving-for-a-mission-i-got-a-mission-wish

Duo, WuFei, & Heero

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182720770959/quatre-nudges-trowa-awake-at-3-am-pretty-messed

Quatre

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182730050777/wufei-duo-can-i-speak-to-you-for-a-minute-duo

WuFei & Duo

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182787161965/quatre-i-mean-its-one-banana-duo-what-could

Quatre & Duo

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182799667168/trowa-looking-at-his-wedding-photos-i-remember

Trowa & Heero

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182809255131/duo-when-he-first-stayed-at-the-maxwell-church

Duo & Father Maxwell

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182820926110/trowa-im-mysterious-but-not-on-purpose-trowa

Trowa

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182698431287/wufei-so-is-this-thing-between-barton-and-winner

WuFei & Heero

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182838526620/zechs-walks-in-on-heero-and-relena-making-out

Zechs

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182851855808/trowa-i-might-have-depression-and-not-function

Trowa & Catherine

No Idea What To Put This Under:

@idkmybffflamingo

http://idkmybffflamingo.tumblr.com/post/182864441940/gundam-wing-episodes-re-titled-in-the-style-of

Gundam Wing episodes re-titled in the style of It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia – Episodes 41-49, plus Endless Waltz

There are 5 parts in all, this is the first one. (Hint: don’t try to actually go to their tumblr, tumblr hides it. Just use the ‘dash view’ thing if you can. You get the option to view it there.)

@lemontrash​

https://lemontrash.tumblr.com/post/182846384084/radio-meteor-episode-six-party-night

Episode 6 of Radio Meteor

Calendar Events:

@acworldbuildingzine​

FANDOM ZINE: RHYTHM GENERATION is accepting contributor applications through February 22!!

The collection will include a wide array of world building meta, articles, art, and graphics focused on science, politics, socio-economic matters, as well as art, aesthetics, and edits from the fandom’s resident experts and enthusiasts which highlight the creative dynamism that underpins the A.C. universe.

@gwcocktailfriday​

Cocktail Fridays!

Post responses on Friday, during Happy Hour between 3 & 5 pm in your own timezone.

Here’s the prompt for Friday February 22nd! https://gwcocktailfriday.tumblr.com/post/182846644749/cocktail-friday-post-responses-on-friday-february

For those going to Pillowfort, find us here.

@our-summer-of-zechs

Summer of Zechs 2019 Ideas https://our-summer-of-zechs.tumblr.com/post/181628092091/we-appear-to-still-be-up-and-running-folks

Come let us know how long this summer’s event should last!

What Month is it? https://our-summer-of-zechs.tumblr.com/post/182355135746/what-month-is-it

Come vote on a month for the event to be hosted in!

Here’s the Pillowfort discussion.

[starscreamloki]

Must reads

This post contains fanfiction written by other writers I just loved and wanted to share with you. Hail to all my fellow-writers!

The summarizes below the title are my personal opinions.

--- Safe to read anywhere ---

Compression by NamelessDragon on AO ( @anamelessdragon on Tumblr)

Bucky finds a secret lab in Wakanda and what he finds there shakes him to the core. Written from Bucky’s view with a lot of Loki. The angst and whump are amazing. Thus far this fic is SFW but that might change in the future.

Tapestries (series) by Lise on AO ( @veliseraptor on tumblr)

So, if you are down for angst, this is the story to read! After the events of Avengers 1 Loki is badly hurt and brought back to Asgard where his family tries to confront him. But the God of mischief doesn’t give in and has enough troubles of himself. A story where Loki and his family clash.

A Dagger a Day Keeps the Feds at Bay by @silentwanderlustfanfiction

As the daughter of Tony Stark it maybe wasn’t the wisest idea to start something with the God of Mischief, especially not when Loki has his own plans.

Frostbite written by Maiden of Asgard on AO ( @maiden-of-asgard on Tumblr)

If you ever needed a Jotun!Loki in your life, this is the fic to read! A Loki x Reader where you suddenly end up on a very cold realm and two red eyes stare back at you. Maybe you should have stayed inside...

The Missing Asgardian written by Tandirra on AO

This is actually written from Thor’s POV (but most of the time it doesn’t feel that way) where they set out on a mission to find Sif (post ragnarok and ignoring the mid-credits and stuff). There is also a lot of Loki in this story and Val as well. I’m a big fan of all of her work, Tandirra understands the characters so good and is such an awesome writer. I highly recommend reading this.

Loki’s speech written by: asimo74allmyworld

As the title claims, Loki’s speech. An absolute must read if you’re feeling down and need an upper.

Of Nightmares and mischief written by: iguessyouregonnamissthepantyraid on AO

A conversation between brothers we much needed to be honest, after the events of Ragnarok.

Old series Redux written by: Tandirra on AO

So, drop your social life and start reading this series, it will not disappoint! Loki joins the Avengers after some minor troubles, but what happens when a powerful enemy almost gets the best of Loki?

Bold and Roll the Dice written by Finalizer on AO

Two stories about Loki and Valkyrie which can be read separately but somewhat belong together. Loki and Valkyrie have to deal with their own torments but meet in the middle. What could possibly go wrong?

Put out the Flames by Finalizer on AO

Loki and Thor get to Earth with the ship (so, ignoring the mid-credits scene), and some of the things still unresolved. An interaction between brothers as it should be. In my opinion, after all that has happened.

Un/Hurt by PoorYorick on AO

Loki got injured in the battle against Hela and tries to hide his moment of weakness from different people for different reasons.

Punishing Loki by Donya on AO

Warning for torture and violence! Thor takes Loki back to Asgard and punishes him for what he has done in New York. This story is violent, dark and raw and not for the faint hearted!

To go on living by Lokiscribe on AO

Very, VERY firm warning for trigger elements, read the tags on AO! As punishment for his crimes on Midgard, Loki has been forced into slavery on Asgard. Being only a fraction of who he ever was, someone enters his miserable life and turns it up side down, changing Asgard forever.

--- NSFW below! ---

Screaming Mute and Seeing Blind by Noymos ( @naomisalman on Tumblr)

Clint gets thrown down the rabit-hole when he is given Loki as his slave. Loki on his turn is just being a little shit but dealing with his own problems. An angsty fic with enough whump and twists to keep biting your nails until the end.

Some Say In Ice by Noymos ( @naomisalman​ on Tumblr)

A Loki x Bucky fic where Loki’s snarky humor is amazing and the insight we get in Bucky’s mind is equally awesome! Loki is after his scepter but hadn’t counted on the Winter Soldier meddling with his plans.

Every moment we Teeter by NamelessDragon on AO ( @anamelessdragon on Tumblr)

Warning, this thing is dark, full of whump and delicious angst. Read the tags on AO! This is possibly one of the darkest fics I’ve read thus far and it is so good. A Valki fic combined with Frostmaster. I’m not going to spoil this original and delicious plot. If you are in for whump and dark stuff, read it!

The Gladiator written by Maiden of Asgard on AO ( @maiden-of-asgard on Tumblr) 

Another wonderful slow-burn. Loki ends up on Midgard in the Roman Empire and is put in the arena. At multiple corners plot just slams you in the face unexpected and Loki is portrayed amazing!

Off to the races by Lise on AO ( @veliseraptor on tumblr)

This one-shot is amazing. It is written in second POV and from the Grandmaster’s POV which makes it really dark, twisted and delicious. A fic that feels like one of a kind and definitely worth reading!

Fire and Ice by @geminiloveca

One very hot fic of a threesome between reader, Lucifer and Loki.

Read Each Other in the Dark by darlingred1 on AO

A slowburn fic between Valkyrie and Natasha that turns into a Valkyrie/Natasha/Loki with Loki as sub. Amazing characterization and very hot scenes! I wish there were more fics like these!

How to love a writer written by @winterheart17

Written from first POV and a fic to fall in love with. A struggling writer is suddenly bound to Loki by a cruel twist of faith and they enter a game of love and seduction. If you seek to have your heart go through every possible feeling, read this!

Viking Wellness by @tilltheendwilliwrite

This smutty fic is more than just porn. It is expertly well and classy written, and above all there has been put thought and effort in the actions of the characters. One might consider this a Thorki, but it doesn’t read that to me because of the female reader that is put in the mix. So, search yourself a new massage therapist in this fic and let yourself be carried away by magical hands (and actions).

Flecks of Gold by Tandirra on AO

I’m just a big fan of her work and writing style and this one does not disappoint. Loki has an emotional breakdown after everything that happened on Sakaar. The Grandmaster leaves vicious scars...

And I've loved in shades of wrong by ginnyweasleys on AO

Loki and Valkyrie smut, but damn it is so well written, so classy, so damn hot and good plot as well: there are benefits to sparring with Valkyrie. Loki is a fast learner.

Touch written by Mastre on AO

Loki ends up with the Avengers, but something has gotten to him and he is broken beyond recognition. I’m really curious where this story is going!

Nothing that is not there by ragnasok on AO ( @ragnasok on Tumblr)

Loki finds his way into the Grandmaster's good graces, and a lavishly gilded cage. This story is also a little Angsty which I loved.

Concentrate by days4daisy on AO

Loki meets the Grandmaster who teaches him some more about his magic. But  the Grandmaster has his own ways to teach. I especially loved the conversations in the first half of this fic!

Burn and fade by TheOtherOdinson on AO ( @theotherodinson on Tumblr)

I just love the playing with memories and this fic is right up that ally. Loki wishes to escape his horrible memories and the Grandmaster is all to willing to provide that.

A golden cage written by: imyourliquor-youremypoison

What happens when you keep two lovers apart for to long, torment them, and bring them back together? Well, this very good story!

The Queen’s consort written by: Freudenstein’s Monster

You take one arrogant prince, and one queen who is very dominant, and put them together and add politics and a lot of smut. This story will not fail to make you want more.

Oil on Water written by: Tandirra on AO 

Sakaar, the Grandmaster, Frost Giant Loki and a lot of shame and some smut. Not for those faint of heart, but so damn good! And it’s nice it’s a once shot, perfect for an evening on the couch.

With many teeth, he smiled written by: Courgette96 on AO

What happens if Frost Giant Loki truly is a monster and he succumbs to his desires? A raw but very delicious, of course somewhat smutty, story!

Vices are for Mortals written by: TheOtherOdinson

Loki has landed on Sakaar and has to set himself, and his brother free. But the Grandmaster isn’t very eager to let him go... Good story with some good smut!

Disk of Obedience written by Mastre on AO

Non-con! What happens when a mortal is found on Sakaar and the Grandmaster decides to gift her to one of his special guests? This story is not for the faint hearted.

[louandhazaf]

Hi! 23, 32, 37 please ? x

Thank you!!

23.    If you were to revise one of your older fics from start to finish, which would it be and why?

Oh boy. This is a hard one. I guess I need to choose one, huh? I guess I’ll say my only working remedy even though I’m like 95% happy with it. I know I’ve said this before but there’s just ...something... about it that I wasn’t able to put my finger on when I was writing that I didn’t love about it. The pacing maybe? There’s a niggling thought in the back of my brain that keeps me from re-reading it as well, so I’m not sure now, with some time, what I’d change about it. I like the concept and I like the characters and I like their struggles but if I could, I’d probably go back with a critical and objective eye and try to figure out how to make it better. 

32.    How do you feel about smut?

I love smut, both reading and writing. Sex is such a personal thing and I really do love exploring that aspect of character’s interpersonal/personal relationship to it, both in regards to themselves and their partners. Smut with Feelings is my number one favorite thing to read ever -- especially if the characters are conflicted and possibly making Bad Choices. 

37.    Talk about your current WIPs.

Okay! (you’re going to be sorry you asked) the current Love Of My Life is the fic I’m writing (tentatively called Not Your Only, but mostly still referred to as ‘my poly fic’). I’m, like, obsessed with it, which is a really really really good feeling to have about something I’m creating. It’s rotating 3 POVs as a couple in an established relationship both fall in love with (the same) someone else. I’m currently 20k in and they haven’t even asked Louis to join them for a threesome, so it’s going to be a really long one. 

Would you like a little snippet? Here you go:

Louis was tense until Liverpool scored and Elgar jumped to his feet, upending the bowl of crisps. Louis couldn’t stop giggling at Elgar’s celebration dance, and then at his dawning realization that he was grinding the crumbs into the rug. Elgar threw one at him when he was on his knees sweeping the rest of them back into the bowl, and Louis cheekily smiled at the disgusting look Elgar gave him after he had popped it into his mouth. 

After that, he relaxed back into the sofa and they bantered their way through the rest of the game. Elgar turned it off as soon as the ref blew the final whistle, not waiting to hear any of the post-game commentary. He sat back with his hands behind his head, elbows out to the side. Louis wanted to curl into his side. 

“Staying for tea?” Elgar asked, eyebrows raised. 

Louis scratched the inside of his knee. “Where’s Nick?”

“Oh!” Elgar looked at his watch. Christ, he wore an actual watch, even sitting around watching footie. “Um, should be home soon, actually.”

Louis’ knee bounced. The day had been a lot and Louis wasn’t sure how much longer he could sit and look at Elgar without reaching out and touching. Having him make tea for Louis would probably push him right over the edge. If Nick was coming back, to their house, soon Louis needed to not be there. 

“Promised my mate Zayn that we’d study together tonight.” Louis gave him a weak smile. “But thanks for today. Was loads of fun.”

“Sure you don’t want to stay a bit longer?” Elgar asked. “Could do a bacon sarnie?”

“I really should go.” Louis stood up, if he allowed himself he’d be eating out of Elgar’s fingers. “Can I use the loo?”

Elgar stood. “Yeah, course. It’s right off the foyer.” He put his hand on the small of Louis’ back and led him the first few steps. “Right here.

Louis didn’t even have to go once he got there. He put his hands over his face and silently screamed. Life was so unfair. After he took a few steadying breaths he flushed and then splashed some cold water on his face. He used one of the plush hand towels to dry off. After rolling his eyes at his reflection, he headed out. 

Elgar was leaning up against the opposite wall, phone in his hands. “Sure I can’t convince you? Turns out Nick’s going to be later than I thought.”

That was even worse. He had to get out of there. “Thanks. I shouldn’t.”

“Okay.” Elgar shrugged. He licked his lips and Louis’ knees almost buckled. “Maybe next time.”

Next time. “Sure yeah, okay.”

Elgar stepped forward and enveloped him in a hug, patting his back a few times. Louis inhaled, committing his smell to his memory, then he stepped back and opened the door, feeling only a little bit guilty that his only plan for the rest of the night was to go home for a thorough wank.

The other fic I’m a good ways into in a Lucifer AU with Zayn and Louis and I have a lot written but I’m stuck a bit about how exactly it’s going to end. When I get back to it, after I finish the poly fic, I’m going to be begging for people who have any sort of crime-love to help me out with plotting the final section (or replotting what I have and then plotting a middle section, which is a thing I think might need to happen. siiiigh.) But I also love this fic, but at the moment it’s a bit like a problem child that I need to figure out how to best handle. haha. 

*FIC AUTHOR ASKS*

[flames-bring-a-ton-of-ash]

Writer Interview

I was tagged by the lovely @sherrybaby14 and @jeffreydeanneganstrash <3

1. What inspires your work most? (The show it is based on, the actor who portrays a certain character, maybe the character itself…? It could even be an experience.)

I would say the character and then my ridiculously active imagination. A character has to really intrigue me for me to want to write them, especially more long-term. They can’t just be amusing or attractive, they have to have layers to them, and live in shades of grey. I’m not much for the “good guy” or “hero” type, unless they’re really tortured (like Daryl), and prefer characters who come off as “villains” but who actually have so much more to them, and the lines are blurry of which side they’re on. Case in point, my love of Negan, Crowley, Peter Hale, and Severus Snape. They all have so much depth to them that isn’t necessarily shown in the show/book/comics, or if it is, it isn’t until the end of their arc, and they end up dying a hero, of sorts. I love trying to psychoanalyze those types of characters, and imagining what it would be like to put them up against a female OC that sees past their rough exterior to the man beneath, and how they would react to such a woman...and eventually fall for her. Basically, I write my own fantasies, of how I would love to be transported to that universe and interact with the characters myself haha. Hence, how ID was born.

2. What is your favorite fandom to write for?

It has most DEFINITELY been Negan’s Thirst Squad. I still can’t believe how far this fandom has come in the past year and a half. From literally only a small handful of fanfiction existing for him on any fanfiction site, to now multiple fics being posted daily; from a small handful of thirst squad members who huddled together against those judging us, to a huge thirst squad full of love and support...this fandom amazes me so much. It’s one of the most positive and supportive fandoms that I’ve ever seen on any site, and I love y’all so much for that.

3. Which perspective do you prefer writing in? (First-person, third-person)

I actually prefer second person now. I had never written in a “you” perspective until ID, but after creating a novel in that POV, it’s now become my default, and weirdly, even though it’s supposedly the most difficult POV to write, I find it the most enjoyable. 

4. Do you prefer writing reader fics or OCs?

Reader fics. With those, I can literally make myself the character, without having to name her. Reader fics are still an OC of sorts, it’s just that they’re typically unnamed and it’s a different point of view. It’s definitely not as easy when it comes to not giving physical descriptors and not using a name when interacting with other characters, but it feels more personal to me, and I enjoy that a lot. 

5. Do you prefer writing longer works or one shots?

Hmm...I guess it depends on the idea. The only longer work I’ve written turned into a BEAST of a novel, and I’ve really loved the journey of writing it, because it proved to me that I can indeed someday write and publish a novel someday, if I so wish. Writing ID has taught me a lottt about not only my writing, but about myself, cheesy as that sounds, and it has been so fun to finally write down one of the huge stories that I create in my head, because I create a lot of them lol.

However, there’s also something exciting to be said for those smutty one shot ideas. Once in a while, I get an idea so arousing that I’m literally obsessed with writing it down, and spend days totally focused on that idea and transferring the fantasy from my head onto paper (or word Document, I guess haha). And then, once it’s finished and posted, I get such a sense of accomplishment, and it’s like I can then purge that fantasy from my brain so that it doesn’t drive me up a wall anymore...plus I can then transfer the thirst to others, which is always fun.

6. Do you take requests?

I do not. I took commissioned requests once earlier this year, and while it was a lot of fun to expand my writing skills by forming ideas from others, it was also stressful. I realized that it’s much harder for me to be passionate about what I’m writing if it’s not an idea that I already created in my head. Luckily, the three requests I got were already fantasies I had considered before, so I was able to draw on that, but if I got requests that weren’t something I found sexy or fantasized about myself, I don’t know if I could do those ideas justice and write them properly. Or maybe I could write them...but I just wouldn’t enjoy it nearly as much.

7. Do you enjoy getting random Asks?

I do! I’ve gotten so many amazing random asks since joining this fandom, and I love them all (minus the hate). Anons have started topics on my blog that snowballed into these amazing conversations, particularly in regards to sexuality topics, and I LOVE those interactions with anonymous followers so much! My ask box is always open to y’all :) 

8. What inspires the names for OCs (or extra character names) in your works? Do you pick them from real life or just select them at random? A mix?

When I do have secondary OCs, the names aren’t really based off anyone I know in real life. For ID, I was trying to find names of characters that didn’t exist in the show or comics (which was why I was screaming when the show introduced a young character named Ben haha). And for Trixie, I tried to think of a name of someone who would be young and annoying, and that fit for me. Maria might’ve been subconsciously based off the old lady named Maria who lived above me in my old apartment haha, although I don’t think my OC Maria is anything like her. Basically, they’re kinda random but also names that I feel fit the vibe of the OC’s personality. 

9. If your story(ies) have OCs, are their appearances based on real people or celebrities? If so, who?

I don’t actually describe my OCs appearances in ID too much, because I want readers to make their own mental picture of what they look like. I realized that their personalities are more based off real people I know, even though I wasn’t consciously doing that in the beginning, but looks-wise they don’t remind me of anyone in particular. When I first created Ben, I saw him as a younger, blonder Jared Padalecki, but since they introduced TV Ben, I’ve kinda morphed him with Padalecki in in my head and created a totally new image. 

My first OC, in a Dean Winchester story I wrote years ago, I totally based off myself, though. That was my first time writing a fanfic, and I made the main character, Amy, look like me, and her friend, Robin, I made look and act a lot like one of my hometown friends. I think that’s why I stick to “you” OCs, because I know if I made an actual OC with a physical description, my vain ass would make her look like myself haha. I wrote the first chapter of ID with an OC character, who was going to be a curvy blonde (like myself) and named Lexi, but then I changed it to a “you” character at the last minute. It’s interesting though, to think where the story could’ve gone and been different, if I had stuck with that OC. But I’m glad that I made the switch.

10. How long have you been writing fanfiction?

My first fic was a Dean Winchester 2-chapter smut fic. I think I started writing it in 2013 and published it in 2014 (it took me forever to write). I then decided that was my one-time foray into writing fanfiction, and didn’t write any again...until April 2016, after the season 6 finale of TWD, when Negan showed up on my screen and ruined my life. So consistently, I’ve been writing it for a year and a half, minus that one story a few years ago.

If anyone actually takes the time to read these rambles, thank you, because holy shit am I good at rambling.

I tag (if you want to) @opheliadawnwalker3 @mamapeterson @faith-in-dean @winchesterswoonathon @kittenofdoomage @hannibalssweaters @bamby0304 @vizhi0n @wickednerdery @wheresthekillswitch @lucifer-in-leather @crzcorgi @purplemuse89 

(I tried to tag some authors I haven’t seen tagged for this yet, so apologies if you already did it!)

[yourewelcomeforbeingmyfriend]

“You Have No Idea Who I Am, Do You?”

Summary: Sam and Dean learn they have a sister and she helps them hunt a siren. I’m already super great at summaries

Characters: Dean, Sam, Castiel, and sister!Reader

A/N: So this is my first ever attempt at writing fanfiction, so everyone please go easy on me. This is for @casbabydontgoineedyou​ ‘s 1K Follower Celebration. I’ve had the idea for this fic floating around in my head for a while now, so when I saw this prompt on her challenge I knew I needed to just take the leap. I’ve tagged her and a few of the other fic writers I follow just to get feedback. I hope that’s ok. Any feedback (but especially the positive kind) is welcome. Also, it’s kind of long. Sorry, my hand slipped. 

Warnings: Angst, language, canon-level fighting. Also no smut (sorry?)

Prompt: “You have no idea who I am, do you?” 

(gif from google) 

Sam’s POV

Dean pulled the Impala into the bunker’s garage. It felt good to be home after the long drive from North Dakota. You, Dean, and Cas had just finished up a run-of-the-mill vengeful spirit. You couldn’t help but laugh a little at the thought of a vengeful spirit being “run-of-the-mill.” What a weird life we lead.

“Cas, you’re welcome to hang out for a bit. I’m going to hit the sack,” you stretched out satisfyingly. The familiar halls were comforting, and your bed was calling you. You shuffled through the war room towards the library. The walk from the car to your bed always seemed laboriously long.  

Quickly and silently, a figure came out from behind the wall to stand at the top of the library steps, gun raised in a practiced stance. Behind the weapon was a (tall/average/short) (y/h/c) stranger. Just as quickly, you were awake again. We raised our guns in reply and Cas’s angel blade was in his hand.

Suddenly her shoulders softened as her gun lowered.

"Oh thank god you're here," she sighed. "I was in the hotel room when some grey suited guy came up to me and painted some crap on the wall. There was a bright light and next thing I know I'm in this Cold War hideout. I think we're underground. Are we underground? How’d we get here? Where's dinner?"

We exchanged glances again as our guns stayed up. A demon, maybe? But how did it get in here?

"Oh god –" the stranger’s voice wavered – "you guys have no idea who I am, do you?"

"Enlighten us, kid," Dean snorted.

A look of grief washed over her (y/e/c) eyes, "I'm your sister."

Reader POV

"Listen, kiddo," Dean began. "We don't have a sister."

You felt sick to your stomach. Your older brothers and some trench coat wearing stranger were standing – guns still drawn – looking between themselves and back at you with utter confusion. You were just as confused as they were. Less than an hour ago, you were in another crappy motel in Oklahoma hunting a ghost. They had just left for the usual beers and burgers.

The confusion must have shown on your face. Sam showed his hands and began to lower his gun, "okay, okay... let's all just take a minute here," he suggested. He was always the one to calm your fights.

"Thanks, Sammy," you cracked a relieved smile before a sudden splash of water hit your face. You blinked a couple times and spat out the bit that landed in your mouth, "Was that… holy water?"

"Just a precaution," Sam shrugged. He seemed a little surprised you guessed holy water.

You breathed a slow calming breath out your mouth as you bent down to reach for your ankle. You lifted up your right pant leg to unsheathe the small silver blade you kept there.

"Hey, whoa whoa whoa," your eldest brother said with his gun still trained on you.

You held your hands up to show you meant no harm. Then, with a quick move, you sliced into your hand and held it back up. "Not a monster either," you said confidently.

“So you know about monsters?” Dean questioned as he stole another glance at your other brother and the stranger.

“Of course,” you gave an exasperated sigh. This was all bordering on annoying. “I’ve only been hunting my whole goddamn life.”

That answer seemed to make Dean feel better because he finally dropped his gun and holstered it. There was an awkward silence as all four of you attempted to find the right questions to ask. Sam found it first.

"Wait – you said a guy in a grey suit came up to you, drew something on the wall and you saw a bright light?" Sam looked at Dean and the dark haired stranger, "Sound familiar?"

"Alternate universe?" Dean said more calmly than you thought those words should sound.

"An alternate one where you have a sister, apparently," the stranger's voice was gravelly. "But what would angels stand to gain from bringing her here?"

"Angels?" that word caught your attention. "Like halos, harps, and white robes?"

"More like assholes in suits," Dean scoffed.

"We're not all –" the stranger hesitated at his next word – "assholes."

"We?" You made eye contact with him and noticed, for the first time, how blue his eyes were.

Sam clapped a hand down on the man's shoulder. "This is Castiel. He's an angel, too, uh..." he looked sheepish at his realization, "I'm sorry, but we don't even know your name."

"Y/N. Y/N Winchester," there was a strange formality in your voice. How bizarre to introduce yourself to the two people who knew you best in the world. You rubbed your hands down the sides of your thighs. It was a nervous habit your older brothers always made fun of you for. But there were no comments about it today. You waved an arm towards your taller brother and added, "I'm two years younger than you, Sam."

Sam and Dean looked surprised at that statement. "S-so mom didn't die?" Sam stuttered.

It was your turn to be confused. You spent the next hour sitting with the boys, each taking turns sharing your stories. They told you how your mother died when Sam was a baby and only recently came back to life. Your dad died after years of seeking revenge for her death. Apparently the boys themselves even died a few times each. They were also legacies for some secret group called the Men of Letters and you were currently sitting in their bunker. Dean killed Death and this Castiel guy killed a reaper. Also God was real – or at least realer than church had always led people to believe. He was short and had a beard, a sister, and a love for crappy folk songs.

You always thought you lived an interesting life, but compared to their stories it seemed so normal – boring almost. You took your turn to tell them about the three of you being raised as hunters, and how Mom retired as best as possible after your dad was killed by a werewolf pack.

"Now it's just the three of us hunting down the things that go bump in the night," you shrugged as you finished.

"The family business," Dean chuckled weakly and swigged the beer he had fetched for himself.

"Yeah," Sam breathed out as he took a swig of his own. Mid-sip a realization seemed to dawn on him. “Oh god –” he gasped – “what if they need another vessel?”

“A what?” you took a hard gulp on your own beer now.

“For what?” Dean asked at the same time as you.

“It could be possible. It’s the one thing that makes sense,” Castiel stared at you intently as if you held the answer on your face.

“A what?” you ask again.

The boys proceeded to tell you all about angel vessels. About Michael and Lucifer – as in the devil himself – and how they stopped the apocalypse. According to them, the Winchesters had something special in their bloodline, at least in this universe, which made you guys the perfect vessels for them.

Before the conversation could go further, there was a ping from Sam’s cell phone. He looked down at it and frowned, “We’ve got another case. The Hobbits found a possible siren problem in Illinois.”

“Hobbits are real, too?” you sighed exasperatedly as you slapped your hands on the table in front of you. “What sort of Twilight Zone shit did I get sent to?”

Sam and Dean chuckled softly at the fact that your limit seemed to have been reached. At least Castiel seemed to take you seriously. If you didn’t know any better, you would almost say he seemed just as confused with the name as you were.

“No,” Sam explained, “it’s a nickname for some guys we’ve been working with. I can tell you more about it when we get back.

“Oh no, I’m going with you,” you said above the loud noise of the chair scraping along the floor. You stood from your seat, “Alternate universes and angels? I might not get those things. But monsters? Monsters I get. And the last time you guys…” your thoughts trailed off at that phrase. These weren’t your guys. You collected yourself fast, though, “…well, the last time my guys dealt with a siren, I had to save their asses.” You chuckled at the thought that Dean’s perfect girl was apparently a lot like the girl from a pie commercial you would always see on TV.

“Was it at least a girl siren that time around?” Dean asked. Sam laughed at his brother’s question.

“O-of course it was. W-why would it… not be –” for some reason that was the question that threw you off the most out of everything you had heard over the past hour.

“– no reason,” Dean stood and cut you off before you could finish inquiring. “Alright kiddo. If monsters you get, then it’s monsters you will get. We leave in five,” he announced to the group with a rap of his knuckles on the table and walked down the hall.

Sam’s POV

I have a younger sister, you thought to yourself. The thought just kept washing over you like waves on the beaches you always dreamed about. You had a younger sister, who had a mom who lived to raise her. That meant you had a mom who lived to raise you, too. It was like finding out someone else lived out your dream life and that someone else was also somehow you.

You couldn’t help but keep stealing glances at Y/N, this woman who didn’t exist just a couple hours ago. You could see bits of your mom and dad on her face as she spoke. She moved like Dean, too, which was strange to you. They swigged their beers the same way; she even had the same annoyed look on her face when you splashed her with holy water. You wondered what she did that looked like you.

You had so many questions to ask her, but you knew now wasn’t the time. After you finished this hunt, you would help her get back to her universe. Back to her brothers.

Once you had arrived to the small Illinois town, it was evident that Y/N could handle herself on a hunt. She knew what to ask and how to act. You would even dare to say she was better than both you and your brother.

Three husbands and one boyfriend killed their wives and girlfriends. After talking with them all, you discovered that they had all been frequenting the same restaurant – the type of restaurant with a proclivity for hiring beautiful waitresses to wear tight shirts and short shorts.

“Another breastaurant with you two. This is definitely something that feels familiar,” Y/N said wryly as the four of you entered and surveyed the scene.

You looked at her with a confused expression. “We go to these together?” you ask her.

“Well, it’s not always my turn to pick dinner. I had to work at one of these before for a case, too. The worst week of my life…” her voice trails off as she walks toward a table.

“Ugh, things like this aren’t as much fun with a sister,” Dean grumbled as he goes along with her. You and Cas followed in their wake.

Reader’s POV

After spending the day talking with the local police and vetting leads, the four of you decide to split up. Sam would go talk to the victims again while Dean and Castiel would go back and check out the restaurant. You decided it might be best for you to just take a short walk and collect your thoughts, maybe even pick up a change of clothes, since you weren’t sure how long you would be in this universe.

After about an hour of walking aimlessly, you decided to head back to the motel room for a quick nap. You hadn’t slept for the past 24 hours and it was now hitting you like a semi.

“Hey kid,” Dean said as you entered the motel room.

“I thought you were going to go check out the restaurant one more time,” you questioned as you peeled your jacket off and threw it on the bed with your shopping bags.

“I thought it’d be easier for Cas to go it alone. He tends to not get as affected by seduction crap like this since he’s you know…” he waved his hand in a circle in front of his face signaling you to fill in the rest of the thought yourself.

“Right, angels and all that jazz,” you rubbed your palms on the sides of your thighs again as you sat at the end of the bed closest to the door.

“You’re just in time for a drink, though,” Dean held up the motel tumblers and a bottle of whiskey. He flashed a toothy smile, “Join me, little sis?”

You nodded and closed your eyes in quiet contentment as he poured the two glasses. You wouldn’t be able to explain it to him, but this was the most at home you felt since you were sent to this universe: drinking a couple fingers of whiskey in some crappy motel room with your oldest brother.

He proffered your glass with another smile and you sipped happily. The burn felt good as it made its way down your chest and settled at your core.

“Thanks,” you chuckled weakly. You lifted your glass and nodded towards it, “this was definitely much needed.”

“Stop doing that, Y/N/N,” he pointed his glass at your hand that was still rubbing its palm up and down the length of your thigh. “You’re always doing that when you’re nervous. You don’t have to be nervous here.”

The familiarity of the whiskey and the motel room had thrown you off your senses. You didn’t flinch when Dean called you by the nickname that your Dean would always call you, but this universe’s Dean wouldn’t know about your nervous habit like that. You realized something was wrong, but just as quickly, you could feel your brain giving up control. You felt like clay: malleable and soft. You knew you’d do anything this Dean would tell you to do.

Dean stood up and stretched his arms out above his head, “oh Y/N, you should really pay more attention when people give you drinks.” He walked in front of you, bent at the waist and met your eyes. “Someone could put something in them. Didn’t your brothers teach you better than that?” he frowned and tucked a stray strand of your hair behind your ear.

“W-what did you do?” but you could feel yourself not care about the answer. You just wanted to hear him talk. No, you needed to hear him talk.

He sucked in a quick breath through his clenched jaw, “well, technically speaking… I spat in your drink. I know – gross. But then, what are brothers for?” he sat on the opposite bed and leaned back on one elbow with a smug look. “You know,” he pointed at you, “I usually only go for men but you…” he sat back up and placed his elbows on his knees as he leaned towards you, “you were just dripping with longing. It radiated off of you. It was so… so…” he waved his hands around as he struggled to find the right word, “…intoxicating. Once I saw you I just knew I had to have you.”

You couldn’t focus properly. Every cell in your body just needed to be around Dean. Your insides screamed out their desire to have your brother back. To have more of those simple moments like the ones you shared before, drinking whiskey in motel rooms or singing along to Led Zeppelin in the Impala. Something was telling you that this Dean could give you that.

“Come on, Y/N, think about it. It could be just like it used to be. The two Winchesters against the world,” it was like he read your mind. “We’ll get Sammy, hop in the Impala, and just drive,” he extended his arm out beyond him with a little whoosh noise. “Doesn’t that sound good?”

“Yeah, that sounds great,” you smiled. Relief washed over you. Happiness flooded in. It was like sinking in to a warm bath. You had your Dean back. He got to this universe, too. You thought. We’ll get Sammy and be a family again. We’ll be normal again.

“But kiddo,” Dean pouted, “there’s one thing you got to do first.” He leaned forward to whisper in your ear. “You’ve got to kill this Sam and Dean. Otherwise, they’ll stop us from being a family again.”

Your blood began to boil. No one was going to stop you from having your family back.

Suddenly the door opened and Sam’s tall figure filled the doorframe. He stopped short at the sight of the siren’s Dean.

“What the –” it took Sam a moment to process what he was seeing – “Y/N, what’s going on?”

“Sam, you’re just in time,” you smiled up at him. “My Dean is here. He found me. It’s all going to be okay again. We’re going to be a family again. There’s just one thing left for me to do,” you dropped your glass, stood up and simultaneously grabbed your knife from your ankle.

“Y/N, please don’t make me fight you,” Sam walked into the room with his hands raised.

His words made you laugh heartily, “oh Sam, we’ve been fighting each other since I was eight. I can kick your ass.” As you finished the last comment, you quickly spun under his outstretched arm, hopped on the dresser, and had your knife at his throat. You gripped his hair with your other hand to bare his neck for the attack.

“Do it, Y/N/N,” the siren Dean encouraged as he stood up. “We’ll be together again. Think about it: you’re nothing without your brothers. You’re nothing to these three.”

“That’s not true, Y/N,” Sam gasped from under your blade. “He’s not your Dean. Don’t listen to him. It’s the siren just trying to use you.”

“No, it’s my Dean. He’s come here to get me because he loves me,” your voice was bordering on madness now. “You’re not my Sam, so you don’t know. We’re going to get my Sam. You, Dean and Castiel can’t get me back to them. You don’t even know what you’re doing, and you certainly don’t love me.” Your words had venom in them as gripped onto his hair tighter. Your blade nicked his neck and drew a small bead of blood.

“That’s it, Y/N, take him out and you’ll just have two more to finish,” siren Dean was beaming with excitement. “Where are the people you love now, Y/N? Kill him and you’ll be that much closer to having them back. We’ll be back together. You’ll be with all the people who love you.”

At that moment, the real Dean and Castiel were at the still-open door. Dean took in the scene and yelled as he ran towards you and Sam.

You answered back with a yell of your own and shoved your brother at Dean to stop him. There was so much commotion as you dodged and weaved from their fists and attempted to slash at them. Years of practice fighting with them along with the passion to end their lives made it easy. You were high on the adrenaline of the fight and finding your real brother. Nothing was going to stop you.

You swept at this universe’s Dean’s legs and pinned him down once he reached the ground. There was a mad grin on your face as you reached your knife above your head to plunge it in to his heart. Before you brought down the blade, a sharp pain radiated from your shoulder and you screamed out to the ceiling. Castiel had stabbed you in the shoulder and threw the knife to Sam just in time to sink it deep into the siren’s chest.

“No!” you screamed as you watched your Dean sink to the floor then, almost in the blink of an eye, turn into its true form. It was a pale and disgusting creature with teeth bared in a lip-less mouth. You could feel the siren’s hold on you release as you realized your knife was still poised to attack Dean.

You pushed yourself off of him and began shaking with sobs. “I’m so sorry!” you wept and crawled backwards towards the wall. “I’m so sorry!”

The ride home was silent. You sat in the backseat of the Impala and willed yourself to go to sleep, but to no avail.

“Well we both had sirens that wanted to be our siblings, so maybe we really are related,” Dean chuckled in an attempt to ease the tension.

It didn’t work. You gave a half-hearted laugh out of politeness as you brought your knees up to your chest. You could feel Castiel staring at you as you focused on the horizon beyond your window. You felt sick to your stomach for what seemed like the millionth time in the past two days. You were disgusted with yourself for being so easily won over by the siren.

Next thing you knew, you were back at this strange bunker. Your mind must have finally quieted to allow yourself some rest.

“I’m going to drink a liquor store,” Dean mumbled as he walked toward the kitchen.

Castiel and Sam sat at a table in the library and Sam rubbed at his temples. You could see the dried blood on his neck from your cut and it both enraged and sickened you.

“Who’s hungry?” Dean had returned with a plate of sandwiches and a case of beers.

Sam gave a groan of approval as he reached for his own. "Join us, Y/N!" Sam patted the chair next to him invitingly.

"Thanks, Sammy," you flash a weak smile, "but I think I'm just going to hit the hay." Waving a weak goodnight, you made your way down the narrow hallway to your new room.

You were in a new universe. You thought about the one you came from just a couple days ago. With the siren hunt, you were able to push the thoughts out of your mind. You were in a universe where almost everything was the same. Everything except the most important thing – you didn’t exist here. There were no traces of you. You thought of your brothers. Not the ones sitting down the hall together with their best friend, laughing and enjoying the lives they built for themselves here, but the two you were taken from. What happened when they came back and saw you missing? You were sure they were looking for you. You knew more than anything else they tried to protect you from the horrors of the life you three led. They would be up worrying themselves sick. Your mother would be broken with grief.

You were taken from them for god knows how long and you still didn’t know why. You felt used. The siren’s words kept creeping in to your thoughts. You’re nothing without your brothers. You’re nothing to these three. Where are the people who love you now?

You could feel the heat on your cheeks and a lump grew in your throat as you closed the door to this foreign bedroom behind you. As you turned and leaned your back against the door you choked out a quiet sob. You covered your mouth quickly so as not give away your secret as you slowly slid down to the floor to continue weeping.

Where are the people that love you now?

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[roxy-davenport]

My Future

Pairing: AU Endverse Dean x Reader

Word count:  2,737

Beta: The awesome @raspberrymama :D

A/N: This was written for @paigeinastory Paige’s Country Song Fic/Sentence Prompt Challenge with the prompts, “When She Calls Me Baby” by Jason Aldean and “I don’t know what it is but damn.” This was also written for @jessica-bones-winchester’s Dating Dean Writing Challenge with the prompt, being called sweetheart. As well as for @dancingalone21 Lau’s AU Funny Quote challenge with the prompt,“That was scary!” AU slightly with Future!Dean. Romance, smut vaguely referenced. Hella fluffy. These are snippets of moments between endverse Dean and the reader. This is told from Dean’s POV

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Some days it’s tough just gettin’ up

Throwin’ on these boots and makin’ that climb

Some days I’d rather be a no show

Lay low ‘fore I go out of my mind

When Balthazar first came to drag me out of the future, I fought him off fiercely. First of all, in my time he was dead. So I was quite confused how and why he was here. He said some bs about wanting to give me some happiness away from “heaven’s drama”. Of course I looked at him like he grew two heads. But can you blame me, really? I growled, spat at him, even shot him but in the end, I was so happy he did it. I owe my happiness to him. I surely would have died in that timeline either by the Croatoan virus or by how hard and cruel I had become.

Balthazar placed me back in my previous timeline before there was any talk of Sam being Lucifer’s vessel, back to the good old days, just me and Sam hunting like we used to. No more apocalypse, Lucifer Sam, no more virus, just simple cases. Of course, I remembered the other timeline but I had a chance now to change it, maybe even get out of the life.

Naturally it took a while to conform to the “real” world but Sam was very understanding. Balthazar explained that he rescued me from a different timeline. Sam took it in stride because I was his brother after all, timelines or not. Sam taught me how to act in the world again with civilization. I could tell he wanted to ask which timeline but he didn’t and I didn’t tell him. There was no sense in burdening Sam with the truth.

I got right back into hunting like riding a bike. I guess a hunter never forgets how to hunt. And through hunting I met Y/N. I never thought I’d love anyone. I never thought I could. Y/N thawed out my cold heart and reminded me what it felt like to feel.

I love calling girls sweetheart. That’s my MO in relationships and dating. Some girls liked baby but I liked that used for me. I’m baby, she’s sweetheart. On rough days, I would close my eyes and remember our first date, the first time I called her sweetheart. It was after a hunt actually. We ran to the motel to clean up and then went to a dinner together.

I was shaky and about to back out when Sam urged me to go and gave me the mother of all pep talks. I sat across from her, my leg shaking underneath the table. I offset my nervousness by being extra cocky. The second I sat down I felt butterflies in my stomach. My eyes were on her almost the entire time. Y/N wore a dress and I got to see her shapely legs. She looked amazing in that dress. I could tell she was nervous, too, because she was fidgeting with her sleeves. I could stare at her all day.

Clearing my throat and tearing my eyes away from her for a second to look down at my menu I said, “You look a lot better without-.”

Y/N cut me off and smirked stating, “So do you, handsome.” I blushed - actually blushed...  like a girl. How embarrassing.

“What can I get you two?” Y/N looked up and I saw her frown. I followed her eyes and looked up at the waitress. She was definitely my type, well before I met Y/N that is. My eyes quickly returned to Y/N. A cocky smile appeared on my face as I shook my head and very obviously looked Y/N up and down. I took in her blushed face and the way she bit her lip. I wanted to make sure she knew the waitress while attractive, had nothing on her.

“I’ll have an omelette.” Y/N replied.

Nodding Dean added, “Same with a beer...Sam Adams if you got it, if not then a Guinness will be fine.”

The waitress nodded and left. I saw out of the corner of my eye, a longing look from the waitress but my attention was on Y/N. It would always be on Y/N. No girl would ever satisfy me again. No more one night stands and that’s one of the reason why I was nervous to go on this date. But once on it, I couldn’t wait to claim Y/N as mine.

“So sweetheart how did you get started in hunting?”

“My father is Crowley.”

My eyes went wide as I spit out my water all over the table. Y/N giggled and offered me napkins.

“Never got that response before.”

Curiously and tentatively I probed Y/n, “What’s the usual response?”

“Really? You? Or just running away but not spilling water everywhere. That’s a new one.”

Y/N spoke again answering the unasked question.“I hunt because I refuse to be my father’s daughter.”

Her past, like mine, doesn’t define her. She isn’t her father, she’s my light in the darkness, my rock. She pulled me out of myself and showed me that I deserved to be happy.

That night we started with no lies. I told her how I got into the business, the timeline I came from, everything. By the time we finished eating, I felt like I had known her for years. I put my arm around her as we walked back to the car. I called her sweetheart every day since. I feel lucky to hold her hand and call her mine. Sam is grossed out by the massive amount of PDA but he’s happy I found someone I love.

But when she says baby

Oh don’t matter what comes

Ain’t goin’ nowhere

She runs her fingers through my hair

And saves me

Yeah that look in her eyes got me comin’ alive

And drivin’ me a good kind a crazy

When she says baby

Oh when she says baby

She’s still asleep. I always wake up early just to watch over her. She looks so peaceful. On days away from her, I get no sleep. I need to feel her body against mine. I need to hold her.

She stirs before her alarm clock goes off and she turns in my arms murmuring, “baby.” She nuzzles into my chest as i reach over and turn the alarm clock off. Slowly she lifts her head up and looks into my eyes.

I reach down and stroke her cheek. “I don’t know what it is, but damn. You had me at hello.” She laughs at the corny but true line. God, do I wish I could make her laugh all the time. Her face crinkles in the most adorable way and she has the cutest dimples.

I hug her close to me and kiss her forehead. Her fingers cart through my hair and I moan happy to have her hands on my body. I’m happy to have made it back to her again. I’ve had a bad hunt, deep cuts, a worried Sam and one hell of a fight to gank that mofo but here, I’m saved. Here, none of that matters, it’s only me and her. I can be the real me. I can tell her what really happened on the hunt and she takes it all away. She eats the pain and suffering and replaces it with love. She’s my own personal sin eater.  

I look down at her and see her eyes are filled with such love and a hint of mischief. When her lips find mine, she kisses me without abandon. I melt into the kiss and hold her tight against me. She knows what I need without me having to say it. She’s determined to remind me how much she loves me. Every touch, every word, every moan she releases from me reminds me that I am hers. Her tongue, her whole mouth is like magic. She has hardly any gag reflex and can take me inside her warm mouth all the way to my pubic hairs. She licks the underside of my cock and I’m already fighting not to cum. Even if I’m trying hard not to come, she’ll make me come in a matter of minutes.

She’s a goddess in the bedroom. She knows how to read my body and I know how to read hers. Whenever I have a bad hunt like today, she gives me free reign over her body. She lets me take her anyway, in any position, anywhere I want. Nothing is off limits. How can I resist that? How can I focus on the hunt with a proposal like that? Which is exactly the point.

I missed her soft skin, her delicious curves, the way her body responded to me. It all drew me in. I‘m a breast man. I like asses and she has an amazing one but breasts are infinitely more fun. I can play and fondle them to my heart's content and watch her writhe and moan under me, begging me to fuck her. I love teasing my sweetheart. And when she cums, it’s the most gorgeous look ever. She says my name over and over again along with the word baby almost reverently like I’m everything to her. And in truth, she’s everything to me. 

Every time I’m on a hunt or in a motel room, she’s on my mind.

Some nights I come home fightin’ mad

Feel like runnin’ my fist through the wall

Is it even worth what I’m fightin’ for anymore

Feelin’ torn, oh the hell with it all

I came home again, another bad hunt. She could’ve told me to stop, I was making quite the mess but she didn’t. She let me get out my rage. She started throwing things into the center of the room; a bunch of pillows, some papers, a lamp she always hated and a couple of knick knacks. She just let me tear things apart. She gets that sometimes I need to just destroy, vent, and scream, especially on hunts where Sam and I nearly die.

She took a pillow and held it up to her mouth screaming into it. I copied her screaming into mine over and over again. I felt better. She always makes me feel better. I offer to explain but she puts a finger on my lips.

“I don’t need to know, baby. The point is that it bothered you to the point of rage. Tell me one thing...is Sam okay?”

“Yeah he is.”

“Good, then let it all go, baby. Forget the hunt. You’re with me now and nothing else matters.”

I get lost in her embrace, her kiss and just submit to our desires. The trigger to let go is always the way she calls me baby. Some might think that’s ridiculous but if you heard how she said it, you’d understand.

But when she says baby

Oh don’t matter what comes

Ain’t goin’ nowhere

She runs her fingers through my hair

And saves me

Yeah that look in her eyes got me comin’ alive

And drivin’ me a good kind a crazy

When she says baby

Oh when she says baby

I had to go on a hunt with Sam. I really considered just getting out of the life, I was married for Chuck’s sake, but as much as I tried to deny it, hunting was in my blood. I would sit and eat breakfast with her and read the newspaper and see people in pain, suffering knowing what monster it was and that I could help. She understands. She knows I have to be the hero and she’s okay with it. This hunt goes without a hitch. Instead of calling her or facetiming, I just barrel out of the hunt like a bat out of hell. Sam is holding on for dear life while I make sharp turn after sharp turn till I get to my baby.

Everything gonna be alright

Just lay down by my side

Let me love you through this life

She’s a perfect shot of faith

When every bit of mine is gone

Somethin’ I can believe in

A best friend, a heaven sent

Love to lean on

When I get home, I find her looking at the wedding video. It was simple. Elegant with only close friends and fellow hunters there. Jody Mills helped document it. The camera work was on the shaky side but Jody caught all the quiet moments, all the moments I whispered to a nervous and happy Y/N about how much I loved her and how much I wished I could take off her wedding dress and make love to her right then and there. In fact, I made her cum with my tongue five minutes later in the woods. I watched myself and her on that video and remembered all over again why I loved her. We looked so young and idealistic then.

She looked like an angel in that dress. I looked amazing in that suit. I had to hand it to Crowley for letting me borrow his new tailor. No one questioned that the King of Hell was our officiant or that Y/N was his daughter. Everyone just accepted our happiness and left it at that. 

Y/N got up to a segment where me and Sam were talking about her. I didn’t know Jody was filming us at the time.  

“Hey congratulations, Dean. You found your soulmate. After everything, you deserve to be happy.”

Clapping Sam on the back I added, “Thanks Sammy, now we gotta find you a girl.” Sam smiled at me and nodded before giving me a bear hug.

When the hug ended, I took a deep breath out and confessed, “That was scary!”

Sam looked at me confused, “Scary? How so Dean?”

“Well she’s my everything and I don’t do chick-flick moments.”

“Or so you say.”

“Not helping Sam, anyway, It took me a week of staring at her. We stumbled into the same hunt and every hour we did research, my eyes went to her. God, was I creepy. Finally she helped me out and gave me her number. After the first hunt, we kept hunting together, flirted with each other and man did we have a bunch of sexual tension.”

“Had sex, finally. You waited for two months for it, remarkable really.”

Ignoring Sam’s comment Dean continued, “And then we just moved in together. We never talked about it, it just happened-”

Sam interjected, “Or she basically showed up with stuff and you beamed at her nodding.”

“Same thing.” Dean stated quickly.

“Anyway it was scary asking Y/N to marry me. I’ve been with other girls but never felt a connection like with her. She was my tether to this world, my reason, my life, my everything and so it took me days to get the courage up to ask her. Right after she killed a werewolf to save me, I just bent down on one knee and whipped open the ring box. I wanted it to be romantic but with the adrenaline pumping, my fear was gone, I didn’t trip over my own words they just spewed out. She cried and chanted yes and baby so many times. I really am the luckiest man in the world.”

“And I still am,” speaking loud enough for her to hear me over the noises from the TV.

She looked away from the tv and ran into my arms. “I have more good news to tell you Dean.”

“What’s that, sweetheart?”

She stepped back and put her hand on her belly. My eyes widened and she nodded. I cried, not able to stop myself. I finally had a family. It wasn’t just me and Sammy anymore. I had a life, a future. I had no idea what would come next or whether I would keep hunting now that Y/N was pregnant but I knew that whatever did happen, we’d do it together.

But when she says baby

Oh don’t matter what comes

Ain’t goin’ nowhere

She runs her fingers through my hair

And saves me

Yeah that look in her eyes got me comin’ alive

And drivin’ me a good kind a crazy

When she says baby

Oh when she says baby

Yeah that look in her eyes got me comin’ alive

And drivin’ me a good kind a crazy

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Forevers: @purgatoan, @killerofthesouth, @charliebradbury1104, @chaos-and-the-calm67, @chelsea072498, @everyday-supernatural-af, @kalliravenne, @toogardenenthusiast, @winchesterprincessbride, @one-shots-supernatural, @take-me-tonirvana, @hellsmother, @ellen-reincarnated1967, @faegal04, @deals-with-demons, @mamaredd123, @atc74, @hamartiamacguffin, @donnaintx

Dean Folks from my list: @buckysmetallicstump, @faith-in-dean, @bennyyh, @ruprecht0420 @supernatural-jackles, @jesspfly, @webcricket

@aprofoundbondwithdean, @thing-you-do-with-that-thing, @mrswhozeewhatsis, @dr-dean, @nichelle-my-belle, @leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid, @thegreatficmaster, @salvachester, @blushingsamgirl, @bkwrm523, @whispersandwhiskerburn, @lipstickandwhiskey, @impala-dreamer, @samsgoddess, @frenchybell, @scorpiongirl1, @for-the-love-of-dean, @jelly-beans-and-gstrings, @fiveleaf, @deansleather, @curliesallovertheplace, @whywhydoyouwantmetosaymyname, @waywardjoy, @imadeangirl-butimsamcurious, @kayteonline, @supernatural-jackles, @idreamofhazel, @wevegotworktodo, @ilovedean-spn2 , @quiddy-writes, @wi-deangirl77, @deantbh, @mysaintsasinner, @chelsea-winchester, @sinceriouslyamellpadalecki, @fandommaniacx, @teamfreewillimagines, @deanwinchesterforpromqueen, @castieltrash1, @supernaturallyobsessed, @memariana91, @writingbeautifulmen, @captain-princess-rose, @plaidstiel-wormstache, @idreamofhazel, @revwinchester, @supermoonpanda, @ageekchiclife, @i-dont-know-how-to-write, @vintagevalentinexx, @ohwritever, @ruinedbydestiel, @winchester-writes, @mysupernaturalfics, @thinkwritexpress, @sammit-janet @bowtiesandapplepie, @itsemmyb, @ezauraemmaline, @matteson-crazed, @castielspahdehrah, @charliesbackbitches, @crzcorgi, @gryffindorable713, @deerlululucy, @walkingencyclopediaoffandom, @MrsJohnSmith, @manawhaat, @growleytria, @thegleegeneration, @samtomydeanwinchester, @sinceriouslyamellpadalecki, @i-never-said-a-pilot, @thewinchestielboys, @supermoonpanda, @sis-tafics, @amaranthinecastiel, @kittenofdoomage, @samanddeanwinchester67, @prettyxwickedxthings, @ferferelli @lilyoflothlorien, @myfand0msandm0re, @olitzisbae, @iridianuniverse, @the-morning-star-falls,  @shortandlongstories, @strange-inhumanity-blog, @ackleslaugh @noisilyyoungpuppy, @fangirling-instead-of-working, @eyes-of-a-disney-princess, @chrisatplay, @kayteonline, @spnsimpleman, @faith-in-dean, @gimmethepieandnoonegetshurt, @for-the-love-of-dean, @mamaimpala, @zanthiasplace, @sleep-silent-angel, @pada-ackles-reads, @thing-you-do-with-that-thing, @gadreelsforbiddenfruit, @trenchcoats-and-bees, @curliesallovertheplace, @jencharlan, @not-so-natural-spn, @skybinx-blog, @thebunkerismyhome, @feelmyroarrrr, @beachy2014, @fandom-book-nerd, @tia58, @sams-little-toy, @sunriserose1023, @saving-things-hunting-family, @winchesterswoonathon, @jotink78, @lucifer-in-leather,  @babypieandwhiskey, @howmanytuesdaysdidyouhave, @supernatural-jackles, @avasmommy224, @angelwingsandsupernaturalthings, @mysaintsasinner, @chelsea-winchester, @besslincoln-bruh, @wheresthekillswitch, @maraisabellegrey, @notnaturalanahi