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[schnaf]

22 days until gaon's 22nd birthday

day 9 - "cheers to your beautiful eyes!"

bonus: gaon showing off his beautiful eyes right afterward

[arielluva]

its just a burning memory

(version without extra effects/textures under cut)

[sniping-sharko]

just remembered i know how to use sfm. hello lgbt community

[thisfairytalegonebad]

Hey do me a favour and help me out with my current dilemma please (more elaboration below the poll)

The main two arguments I've seen here are:

In favour of the / : Queerplatonic relationships go beyond "normal" friendship, so it might be too much for someone who only wants to read about friendship

In favour of the & : Queerplatonic relationships are not explicitly romantic so they should not be tagged as such/someone who wants to read a shippy fic will feel misled

In a similar vein, I've seen people argue that you shouldn't use both tags simultaneously because that'll make stuff harder to filter.

Reblogs are appreciated!

[srasdoesthings]

*＊✿❀Day 2: Slumber Party/Sleepover❀✿＊*

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Our beloved HiKaRi dorm!! I love the idea of them being besties and having special dorm sleepovers where they chill together (◍•ᴗ•◍)

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[erstwhilesparrow]

hey does it ever make you kind of crazy that post-reunion, c!owen introduces himself to us as owen agarci? agarci as in the name of the demon he shot in the chest during his trial? we know that's not c!owen's real last name -- he tells us so right then and there -- but i think it matters that of the last names he could have chosen for his lie, he took this one. his last name might have been the only thing he still carried with him of his family, of his past before the attack, and he refuses to use it or admit to it.

because it is an introduction, y'know? his narration, after the reunion, is a way of remaking himself in our eyes -- he is not the person we thought he was, so he needs to introduce himself again. and here, the thing he claims as his originating point, as the moment from his past he wants to carry around with him in something so fundamental as his name, is the moment he first killed a demon. this is the most important piece of his past. this, he is telling us, is where he comes from.

i think a lot about how we never actually see owen's parents. i don't even think we get their names? we get their voices in flashbacks over shots of empty fields and unpopulated streets. there is a kind of blankness to owen's past, or to what owen will reveal to us of his past, that forces us to take on faith that he is telling the truth when he talks about his own history. there is no one who could say otherwise; all the people who might have known him before he was a soldier and then a general are almost certainly dead.

it grants owen a fascinating degree of control over his own history. of course he can remake himself in this way, of course he can tell any story he wants of himself in this way; there's no one left to dispute his claims. in a way, he is his own origin -- as he tells us the story of his life, he is also creating that story. he came out of those woods with nothing but a bow on his back, no history, no one still living who could call to him by name. whatever life he lived before that point doesn't matter -- the thing that fundamentally made him the person who walked into town and demanded to join the army wasn't the life he lived with his parents, it was the violence he'd been exposed to and the violence he'd discovered himself willing and able to engage in. or so his story goes.

do you think when he woke up at the bottom of that elevator, memories wiped, nothing left to him of his past, there was some strange sense that he had done this before? do you think he rose up toward the light of the clearing above, empty-handed and alive, his entire life before this point a history waiting for him to tell it, and wondered why it felt familiar?

or maybe it's that he's refusing us. because following his turn during reunion, there's almost a sense that he has tighter control of the camera now. he addresses his 'voices' nearly antagonistically, wishing we/they would go away, responding and talking to us/them in a way that feels harsher than how he's addressed chat in the past. he's frustrated with us/them: why are you still here, i thought i was done with you. he accuses us/them of only pretending to care, of lingering not so much out of concern or any desire to do something as out of some morbid curiosity. there's a degree of access to him that we seem to have lost. it's as if he's finally certain that there is an audience, and what he's willing to show us shifts.

there's something really lovely and horrifying about a lot of the more scripted sections of owen's pov after the reunion. how it shows us things only he knows (the knife in his hotbar for much of his dinner conversation with guts, the beat where he grabs his backpack and reaches for a weapon when it seems like ayngel is about to recognize him, the interaction with puddy in the second clearing when he visits with krow), but we are nevertheless shut out of his interiority as he starts talking less to others, starts favouring third-person camera shots and narration where he gets to step out of the moment and talk to us directly. you can even think about the 'scripted by owengejuicetv' segments after each kill as signalling this: he has such visible direct control of the story we get to know now. he is the one who gets to tell this story, who gets to move the pieces on the board. here's what happened, he says to us. this is how it went. this is what i do and who i am and here are the parts that mattered. do you ever think about how rasbi's ending wasn't streamed from her pov? do you ever think about how the only witnesses to rasbi's death were rasbi herself, and owen?

[secondbeatsongs]

I love being someone's science experiment

[quaileggsystem]

Look, it may be shitty of me to do this but I've scribbled out his name and he deleted his discord so I no longer care we're making fun of him kids. Keep in mind that this entire time he knew I was freshly 15 and he was, wait for it, 24. His frontal lobe was nearly developed. Also I don't have the screenshots of the constant trauma dumping, telling me how people my age kept ghosting him (WARNING SIGN WARNING SIGN KIDS) and other weird shit because honestly I do not need that brain rot invading me even more. Also don't worry I'm pretty much chilled out now we're just going for one last mocking session before we bring this to a close because I just realized some of these have never seen the beautiful light of day. More context I met this dude on Yanblr which is why I no longer engage there except for my lovely partner and why I didn't run nearly as quickly as I should've.

Remember guys, point and laugh (I don't know what trigger warnings to put here so just proceed with caution y'all, take care of yourselves <33)

Ignore Missy in the corner I refuse to go back to our discord messages again. Let's break these fuckers down merely for my entertainment.

1. I don't know either I was creeped out but didn't want to start problems so I just went with it. Also we're going to see this a lot so just know I was calling him "big brother" to try and establish that I only wanted platonic shit because he got mad when I kept calling him a good friend 🚩🚩🚩🚩 also I'm pretty sure I was partially regressed but I didn't know that at the time so he gets a pass on that and that alone

2. "I'm addicted to you"... Some kill me I'm going to book a flight to Canada and castrate him. I mean, this one speaks for itself and I was literally terrified but this was my first real friend in about a year.

3. Adoption. I don't remember why I screenshoted this exactly but I guess it just gave me the heebie jeebies for some reason? The bad vibes, the beginning of the end.

4. I had sent him a fit check in a large tee-shirt because as I said in the texts I have sensory issues which causes properly fighting clothes to overstimulate me. Why you trying to share clothes with a minor my good bitch?

5. Another one of I don't remember why I screenshoted it but knowing what I knew when taking the photos it just was weird to me.

6. I talked about having another mutual on Tumblr. And then called him a grown man jokingly. Uhm, anyways skipping over that one

7. This was after I blocked him on Instagram and Tumblr because he said his girlfriend was going to get jealous and murder me.... A girlfriend who I met and is the sweetest human possible for the situation she was in and I'm literally tweaking for her.

Yeah uh, so... Weird ass bitch who would beg me for voice messages and pictures for some reason. Idk, not the worst I've seen even with the stuff I don't even want to screenshot but definitely a weird ass dude.

-Milo

[redgoldblue]

so @itwoodbeprefect tagged me in what was originally an ask game due to a chronological series of events and i wanna talk about songs so: shuffle your favorite playlist and post the first five songs that come up.

(the playlist i've listened to most is as it often is my on repeat but i'm taking 'favourite' as leave to go to my next most listened, which is:) springsteen songs that make you gay and/or trans

Racing In The Street - this is inherently a butch cassidy & the sundance kid coded song, which i don't mean in the sense that it's necessarily a ship song for butch/sundance/etta (although far be it from me to say it's not), but that it is fundamentally telling the same story. It's also one of the many songs on here that speaks to my thesis that the overlap between working-class and queer experiences is one of the major reasons Springsteen's discography resonates so much with queer people in its simultaneous disenchantment and hope. Also taking Martha & The Vandellas Dancing In The Street and making it into a melancholic ballad on living in transience and recklessness and the effect it has on your relationships and loved ones is just. there’s something gay about that whole concept. tonight my baby and me we're gonna ride to the sea / and wash these sins off our hands

Growin' Up - most of the songs on here I can classify into 'makes you gay', 'makes you lesbian', or 'makes you trans'. this is one of the few that I can only say 'makes you queer'. I do think it's underrated in general as a song, and I also think there's a full low fantasy queer found family story in there. but it's also just something about building a life in private you can't bring yourself to share, until you can. had a jukebox graduate for a first mate / she couldn't sail but she sure could sing

My Lover Man - I mean, i really don't need to say anything about My Lover Man, it says it all itself. it is quite explicitly singing to a male lover who, my interpretation, was trying and failing to perform comphet. come into my arms and fall / my lover man

Thunder Road - this one makes you lesbian. honestly i could just leave it at the Melissa Etheridge video, but the point is. he has songs that are subverting masculinity (Cover Me, also on this playlist, comes to mind, or Because The Night), and he has, somehow, songs that are subverting femininity. this is the latter. (i also wrote a wlw roadtrip romance set to thunder road quite a few years ago. it wasn't good but it is still a vibe). now i'm no hero that's understood / all the redemption i can offer lies beneath this dirty hood

Bobby Jean - oh i love bobby jean's inclusion on this playlist! this also does not fit into the aforementioned three categories, but only because as far as i'm concerned it's very firmly a wlw/mlm solidarity song. just... private but joyful teenage solidarity, and escaping for yourself, and not holding it against someone that they needed to escape for themselves. we liked the same music / we liked the same bands / we liked the same clothes

[glitteringdepths]

had some brainworms about transfem furina.... can anyone hear me.

i feel like this would have really interesting implications in her story, much as she loves acting, but struggles with it due to the 500 years she spent being forced to act, would being a woman be the same for her? she doesn't know where the act ends and where her actual identity begins. is she a woman because she wants to be, or just because she had to be one. even if she enjoys it more than the alternative, does she actually enjoy it? or is it just because she was one for so long that she enjoys it?

i can imagine that focalors likely didnt care much about her identity/presentation as archons have been shown to be able to change their forms at will basically, but furina is the human counterpart of focalors. she doesn't have that ability to change herself just like that. i imagine gender identity would be much more important to a human, especially one that must keep up an act at all times, than a god, and thus something that would affect her. something she would think about. a lot.

maybe post-prophecy, she would experiment. figure out if femininity is in fact something she wants. maybe she would try to go back to being "cis" and then realize it wasn't right for her. and i imagine that she would flourish more being able to properly express her femininity rather than doing it just because it was apart of the role.

[faunandfloraas]

Nothing funnier to me than a fansite that horrifically white washes pics of the guys until they genuinely look like walking corpses but then will have DO NOT EDIT in all their captions like baby.... if there's anyone here who should have the editing software taken away, it's you...

[sgt-celestial]

to the person who left critical feedback on my bob dylan study I love you . I do plan to mention that in the discussion following the results section because it was SUCH a blunder that I was kicking myself for midway through collecting results but I didn't want to change horses in midstream so I just left the survey as it was. But there were so many little gender-related caveats I forgot to consider to be honest so I'm just rolling with the punches

[schnaf]

how to flex your muscles when your bandmate asks you for help without making it obvious

[triglycercule]

it may be mother's day but that doesn't mean that i'm not gonna mtt it up 🙏 (i drew my mother's day gift for my mom in mtt colors LMAO)

[naenaex0xx]

okay NOW I will actually try go to sleeb .. goodnight ^^

[hsslilly-blog]

sebastian failing a class because he's terrified of hunt is a good bit and this time it's not even that man's fault