#among other things that i can’t remember rn

[dexrlybel0ved]

why is it that i seem to attract people that are a) fake and use me over and over again (and i never learn) or b) literal damn stalkers

[filmofhybe]

Hi, requests are open right? Can I request what type of fanboys enha would be for idol!reader?

type of fanboys enhypen would be for idol reader

pairing : ot7! x reader genre : fan x Idol , fluff 400-500 words per member warning : none

a/n: first request in ages!! Keep them coming in would mean a lot! Icl this kinda turned into a send off / fansign typa thing so I hope you don’t mind and enjoy!!

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정원 jungwon

this guy is your biggest fan he just doesn’t show it

unlike your other fans, he’s really respectful which makes you remember him

and he’s cute and somehow always wins a video call or fansign with you

folds everytime you call his nickname that you gave him

“y/nnie can I give you something?”

“of course wonnie!”

hands you the cutest beaded jewelry and plushie ever

“oh my gosh thank you so much wonnie!!”

Would let you win in a hand wrestling contest

he would freak out when he sees you wearing the jewelry he gave you

He would also freak out when he sees you posting the plushies he gave you

Will post about it on weverse and you would thank him in the comments.

Goes even crazier after that

You both are like best friends 😭

He’s fr famous among your fandom

yk how some ppl in some fandom are so well known they get verified on twitter

Yea that’s him 🤭

#dedicationfr

희 승 heeseung

That fan that would cover all your songs (and the successful ones)

Gets shit tons of views on your covers

which you would notice his videos and talk about how talented he is on weverse

Bro freaked out

Probably be posting about it on all his social media for the rest of his life (even facebook)

“YALL SHE NOTICED ME!!”

“Watch me brag about this for the rest of my life”

Would thank you so much for the compliments when he goes to ur fansigns

“Aww no worries heeseung! Your covers are always my favorite! I listen to them everyday! I even subscribed to your channel as well!”

Are you meeting heeseung or is heeseung meeting you rn?

“What’s your dream y/nnie?”

“My dream is to collab with you!”

Luckiest fan on earth honestly cuz you both did a collab a year later

#successfulfanbehavior

박종성 Park Jeongseong

THE ONE WHOSE RICH AND GO CRAZY !!

buy like 40 albums at once just to win a fansign with you😭

AND he would buy like 5 of your concert tickets

Doesn’t matter if your going aboard for your concert

Watch him be there and in the VIP sections as well

Man he really doesn’t care if he spend all his health insurance on you

All he cares is that he sees you and your happy

Always catch him during send offs

You both have the chaotic yet causal talks ever

“Omg jay your here again?”

“Yup! Got another ticket to see you!”

“Your crazy for spending so much!”

“Is worth it when it comes to you.”

would buy you the craziest gifts ever

Branded bags, games , jewelry , plushies etc

Would 100% send you a food truck for good luck during your MV filming or comebacks

You would thank him on weverse cuz you knew is him who would do these type of crazy things

What he’s doing is all of your fanboys biggest dream

#thecrazyrichfan

심재윤 Sim Jaeyun

You can’t tell me he ain’t those funny ass twitter stans

#y/nselfieday 😝

“STOP WHY SHE ATE THIS COMEBACK UP SM?”

Would fight those antis on twitter

“You can’t even talk cuz your face be lopsided and elongated lmao.” - jake

“And what about you? Stop using Google translate for your Korean captions🙄” - anti.

“sis I’m Korean?!”

He will make edits of you and I don’t make the rules on that

“my fav stage of y/n but make it my edit for her xoxo!!”

Would go Borderline excited when he got tickets to your concert

ALWAYS POSTING THE SEND OFF VIDEOS OF YOU

“Y/N TOUCHED MY POLAROID CAMERA IMMA CRY NOW.”

“guys y/n mf knows my twitter. Imma die.”

gets embarrassed when you tell him you know him through his funny tweets and you secretly reads it for positivity

Man could die peacefully after that

#sillybillytwitterstan

성훈 Sunghoon

Another really respectful fan but he’s so shy when it comes to fanboying

More the quiet ones but he would be spotted so easy because of how beautiful he is

Please he stood out the most during your send off

Icl when you saw him you thought you were dreaming a cute fan boy?!?

When you walked over do him his heart stopped. Like omg YOUR MORE GORGEOUS IRL?!

“hi y/n~ can you sign my album please?”

“Of course what’s your name?”

“Sung-sunghoon.”

“Such a cute name for a cute boy!”

Bro your such a flirt💀

He couldn’t handle it and all he did with mumble thank you

“You want a picture as well?”

All he could do was nod and you took a picture of you both tgt

Posted on his social about it and everyone was saying how pretty you both looked

Which made him less shy the next time he saw you

“Omg sunghoon! Hi how are you?”

“I’m good how bout you y/n?”

“I’m good! Glad your less shy now! I was so excited to meet you!!l

He’s the pretty, handsome shy fanboys and will always be😝

#shybuthandsomefanboy

선우 Sunoo

THOSE REALLY HYPER FANS

And those fans who has a shop dedicated to their idols

I mean your kinda hyper so like I get why he would love you

Another chaotic twitter stan but make it weverse

Would pay for your me membership everytime

You would never see him without those little membership tags next to his name on weverse

He would be those fans to say “I love you” mid way while your speaking on stage

You would always react to them with a laugh cuz you find it really funny and cute

His cuteness really captures your attention and he would go insane after you mention about him on your weverse live

“I saw this fanboy during send off, he had pink hair and cute cheeks. Really high pitched voice and he gave me this cute plushie keyring that looks like me. So thank you whoever you are!!”

Knew it was him cuz he was the only fanboy in the crowd with pink hair and was the one who got you that keyring

Would 100% start gifting you clothes for the keyring and you would post about it from time to time

You secretly supports sunoo’s little keyring business after he started selling the one and only y/n keyring

#hypercutiesellerfan

にしむら りき Nishimura Riki

Trend setter fan and secretly hyper fan

We all know how good niki is at dancing so when you drop a new song he danced to it with his own choreography that has gone viral.

LIKE VIRAL VIRAL

and every fam girl of yours was like “omg y/n has a cute fanboy!!” “y/n needs to see this.”

And you did see it and posted about it on weverse as well as Instagram

“Look at him!! He’s so talented!! Time to recreate!!”

NIKI WAS IN HIS PREDEBUT ERA FR LMAO

kicking his feet under the blankets cuz he just got noticed by his idol

Would go insane when you did his dance

Man got to see his dance live as well cuz you performed it during your concert

During send off you can easily tell it was niki in the crowd

“Your the creator of my dance niki right? Your so talented!!”

Are you meeting niki or Is niki meeting you? 2.0

“Haha thank you so much! You did so well as well!!”

You continue to do covers of his dance which makes him go feral everytime

Post about it on insta but behind the screen he’s like :

“She’s about to hire me to be her Choreographer” -niki

“Stop the delusion.” - heeseung

“Watch me.” - niki

Bro predicted his future cuz now half of the your dance is created by him

#trendsetterfan

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[lovelyladyabsinthewrites]

Hi please can u write Edward Cullen x sick reader. Where the reader is stubborn and still shows up at school despite being sick. (I’m sick rn and can’t find any Edward fics) hope u have a nice day

Thank u :))

Nurse

Warnings: none really, sick!reader, potentially getting other people sick 😅, stubborn!reader, firm and patient edward, thank you for the request btw and sorry it took so long for me to get to it ❤️

Words: 1307

Edward knew immediately when you sat in the front passenger seat of his car that you were sick.

His brows draw heavy with concern. "You're-"

"I'm fine." You croak and buckle up. Moreso lying to yourself than to Edward. Your head felt like it was stuffed with cotton and you were pretty sure a small fever was beginning to rise on your forehead. Like hell you were missing school that day. You'd studied day and night for your test; was finally confident that you were going to pass.

Reading your thoughts, Edward sighs and leans back into his seat. "(y/n), a test doesn't matter when your health is in question. Your teacher will let you take a makeup test. You need to go back to bed."

There was no energy in you to roll your eyes. "After I take my test then I can rest. I just want to get it over and done with."

"You won't do well if you're si-"

"Edward, please. I know my body. I can survive until second period." Arguing did nothing to help you feel better.

He could just grab you and take you back to your room. Doing that would further enrage you.

"You promise to let me take you home after second period?" The pleading in his voice softens you.

"I promise."

Exhaulting another sigh, Edward nods to himself. "Alright. I'm holding you to that."

A part of you doubts that you'll be able to make it to second period, but you would try to.

Edward may not have fought you more, that didn't mean he was pleased watching you struggle that morning. You were bumping into other students and walls as you lost your balance several times.

Alice pulled Edward aside, her honey eyes narrowed. "Why would you let her come to school like that? She's obviously sick, Ed!"

"I know. Believe me I tried. She promised to let me take her home after her test in second period." Edward lowers his voice, he doubts you can hear him. His gaze is on you as Jasper helps to steady you.

"I don't think she'll make it." Alice frowns and folds her arms in front of her chest. "I don't have to look into the future to see that."

"You try telling her then. See how easy it is."

She wouldn't even try, having experienced your stubborness before. You always wanted to appear tough to the Cullen family as you were selfconcious of being the only human among them. Compared to them you were weak. You compensated by doing whatever you could as a human to appear strong. Including refusing help when you were sick. Edward knew it would wound your pride greatly if he forced you home. So did Alice.

You didn't share first or second period with Edward. He kept tags on you via his mind reading to see how you were faring.

Struggling to stay up in your chair, your eyes were fighting every second to remain focused on the whiteboard at the front of the class. You don't remember much of what the teacher was talking about. Conserving your energy and mentally going over things for your test the following period. You were fading fast. Chugging water helped a little.

When the bell rang, finally alerting of the end of the first period, you were slow to get to your feet. If you tried to move any faster than your current pace, the world would slip from under you.

You use desks to coast your way to the classroom door. Barely making it to the door, there appears Edward. Frazzled when he takes in your flushed face.

Before he could object to you continuing the school day, you stop him by placing a hand on his chest. His mouth closes as he quietly surrenders.

Help me to my next class. Please. You ask him via your thoughts. Doubting you could talk without feeling vomit rise up your throat.

Edward breathes through his nose but doesn't complain about you overworking yourself when you needed rest.

Ever the gentleman, Edward cups your elbow and guides you.

"The moment the class ends, I'm taking you home." He whispers to you as he helps you through the scattering of students running late.

You'd smile if you could. I love you.

You catch the quirk in the corner of his lips and the brightening of his eyes.

It cost you the rest of your strength, but you did it. You fucking did it. All questions answered to the best extent of your knowledge.

There were few steps that were between you and the teacher's desk.

You suck in a breath and stand, hand gripping the edge of your desk for support. Navigating through rows of kids bent over their paper's, you focus ahead of you.

When your teacher notices you, she pauses at the waxen sheen of your face. The moment your test is on the surface of her desk you quietly croak "Can I go to the nurse's office?"

Edward was right outside the door, prepared to take you into his arms. You wanted to laugh.

The thought of a mother hen pops into your mind, making Edward scoff. "If I'm a mother hen so be it." You were unable to protest when he easily scoops you up and dashes to his car. Alice is waiting, rocking back and forth on her feet until she spots the two of you. There's a plastic bag in her hand that looks overly full.

"I'll tell the office." Alice takes Ed's car keys to opening the passenger door for you. Then she places the grocery bag in the back seat. "I googled what made people feel better when they're sick."

"Thank you Alice." You manage to get out as Edward opens the door with just one finger. He sets you down and straps the belt across your chest but not before tossing your backpack into the back seat.

Wondering what Alice had bought you, your forehead presses against the passenger side window, you momentarily fall asleep.

Only waking up when Edward is carefully picking you up from the car's passenger side. He's so careful with you. Always.

You realize when he opens the door that he's brought you to the Cullen house when the front door doesn't match your's.

"I don't want to leave you sick and home alone." He explained while hurrying up the stairs.

And. . .

"Ed. . ." Are you scared?

His jaw clenches. In his room he makes sure you're comfortable with whatever you needed. Water. Pillows. Blankets if you got cold.

Then he settles next to you. His face unreadable. You curl up closer to him and just that mere contact melted him.

"My mother and I. . . we were very sick when I became a vampire." This was something he'd told you a while ago. They'd become sick during the Spanish influenza outbreak. "I know the medical world is much more evolved than it was during my time, but it still terrifies me when you get sick."

"Oh Ed," You sit up even when Edward urges you to lay back down. "I should have-"

He furiously shakes his head. "No. You didn't do anything wrong. Sickness just reminds me how human and fragile you are." Rolling onto his side, you copy him. Head comfortably cradled by a pillow.

Rest.

You could finally rest.

His fingers brush along your brow, soothing your warm skin. You shimmy closer against him. Edward's much larger frame conforms around you.

"I know you won't die from this. Not that I'd let you die from illness." Adding the last part a bit under his breath, you still caught it.

For a second, Edward pulls away from you to retrieve a bottle of medicine from the bag.

"Now be a good girl and take your medicine."

[astroyongie]

Astroyongie Podcast S1 EP2

Notes done by @killuachii<3

Censored Version

i have a question about felix and his new person in your reading you said this person isn't usually what he would go for and now i wonder what kind of person this is 

person has very feminine energy, def a girl, not much information, relationship seems very recent, there was something fishy → forcing himself

is she an idol?

Doesn’t think so, just a friend he had 

Who is Hyunjins crush? Or is that something you will never tell us? 

Kfc

Burger king 

yongie, will you give some tea about ateez member? (Anyone)  

jongho not with gf

seonghwa very laid back rn 

any tea ab txt? 

Yeonjun still with his girl, some issues 

beomgyu in complicated situation, mental problems 

kai: relationship

taehyun: balancing

not much on soobin

Can i ask why seonghwa & wooyoung get bad reputations among others idol? 

Doesn’t remember seonghwa having bad reputation, is just hot tempered 

wooyoung very open which can cause issues due to the culture in Korea

who is yeonjun gf?

Someone from Cencored

Oh! I wanted to ask about your Pendulum! I also have one and I kinda know how to use it, but how do you go about asking about idols partners? Also sometimes I feel more connected and sometimes I just feel nothing... Any tips? 

Can’t share, isn’t comfortable with sharing how she practices. if you want to feel more connected: pendulums have a personality of their own, doesn’t work by itself, spiritual guides and energy will connect and use it to communicate which can sometimes be dangerous, need to practice in a protected circle, set a safe space, always do pendulum in same space, yongie personally doesn’t have a close connection with pendulum bc it is very hard to manage energetically, sometimes pendulum is going its own way 

Is Sunghoon enhypen still with his 'Taurus' gf? Thx 

Yes

Can u give us some clue more about hyunjin's new partner? 

No information, but physical connection, wants to move on from kfc 

What did you mean in your readings with felix needs to be protected from the reality of his life with his idol image? 

One part can not speak on, he is someone who is very easy to influence, a lot of things impact him a lot, he is trying to protect his image → things of his past could have a huge impact 

do u have any tips on how to detach from a person? i find it quite hard to let go of ppl good or bad cause i feel weirdly “attached” :3 

will depend on type of relationship, it is not easy, not something you can do in a month or two, a lot of dedication, process relationship (What is the reason? Why do you want to detach? Etc.)  THERAPY

Why Jungkook, lee know & eunwoo suddenly hang out? I mean lee know with 97 liner 

doesn’t have an answer 

how to deal with disorganized attachment (leaning avoidant)  

therapy, can be very impactful on relationship with others, problem with connection

what CAN it mean when someone like is extremely affectionate and then avoidant, is it confusion? or insecurity what things could it be? 

Ambivalent attachment

Did you learn about numerology or matrix destiny too? 

Yongie’s not a maths person 

is it possible to read someone's energy through a screen? 

Yes, most goes from eyes, if they can see them it’s easier to read someone 

Yongie, can i heal my phobia? I have thalassaphobia (scared of ocean) even when i only saw that on the screen i feel terrified. And based on my parents i never went to the sea before, so is it possible that the phobia come from my past life? 

Fear and phobia have different meanings, phobia → impact well-being, should go to therapy, past lifes: phobia comes from something, if there is nothing in your surrounding that could explain your fear (like a person being scared of that exact thing) or it can be transgenerational. if not, then it could be connected to past life 

How do you interact with angels or start deities with them? 

Two of them very different, they start the interaction, angels: interaction are kind of limited, prayers to them every night and set candles in their honor. deity: praising and giving offerings, self love, energy as offering, offerings and not ask for something in return, deities aren’t there to serve they need to be served, lighting candles to communicate

what is your opinion on if a christian prays to someone else than god? do you think it's a bad thing? 

Depends on the person’s beliefs, personally doesn’t think it’s a problem, should stay in the christian pantheon 

how does connecting with passed ones work? i have heard of it before can u share a bit about purpose and how it works? 

Yongie doesn’t contact dead people, but a lot of cultures do, contacting them directly → you’ll never know if it is really that person, if you ant to praise/honour them → altars and such 

I meditate every day before sleeping. During deep meditation, I sometimes hear strange sounds like eerie laughter, whispers in languages I don't understand, or tinkling sounds like a cold bowl. Sometimes, I find it difficult to differentiate whether these are sounds from my imagination or actual messages or sounds from astral beings. What do you think? 

Shouldn’t meditate before sleeping since you are in a vulnerable state while sleeping

whats your opinion on haunted dolls? 

Doesn’t really believe it, one of her phobias, haunted object could be charms or could be objects that trapped energy of the previous owner

Could someone reincarnates as an animal? Or only and always human? 

Yes, they can, an animal can also be reincarnated as a human, has done a reading where someone’s cat was their great grandma 

i have heard of something called egg belief??? they believe that bad ppl will be reincarnated as the victim of the actions they did to other ppl but i personally dont believe it because it would like mean that victims are at fault if something happens to them 

tricky, karmic chains could be connected 

Do dreams tell us something we need to do or is it feelings we already have?

no, dreams are made up from your mind and tries to process something. they do have meanings but its the inner domain

what are like consequences ? when for example youtubers make content with ouija boards 

most things are made up/don’t do it seriously

what is a spiritual awakening, how does it happen? 

When someone starts being more in tune with spirituality, could be due to almost death experience or traumatic experience

what happens to us after we pass (after ur beliefs) im curious 

when we die our souls leave our body to get into the veil which is the bridge between the spiritual and the physical world. Then we go to the spiritual realm for a while eventually reincarnation

But how to break the karmic chains yongie? 

Difficult to answer, depend on what karmic chains you have 

i feel u once addressed this on ur blog but can it happen energies dont immediately reach the veil what happens exactly? 

They do because they have to, since they can't be on the physical world

Yongie, can cannabis, meth, and other psychedelic plants use trigger to awakening/ enlightenment 

personally doesn’t think it triggers it

can energies after they pass and leaves physical body, cant they stay as a spirit on earth or something like that? 

Hopes they just go to the realm, bc people who are stuck needs to relive death constantly which isnt fun

if yongie had to pick 3 idols to smoke with

jaehyun, wooyoung, chanyeol (to see how he acts) or woodz („maybe if he is high he would want me“)

so if a dead person appears in my dream it means something? 

Yes 

yongie how do i manifest a toji fushiguro build man 

camp outside a gym (and get Sukuna's number for me)

is hyunjin dating anyone from ateez/sunwoo?

nope

[loaksky]

Hello love, I'm so so happy for youuuu, i saw your 1k follower post and now this!!!! Ahhh I'm so happy, you really deserve this for your hard work, and i saw some angst prompts i can't decide between 19, 32, 33, 38, 42, and 48 with like neteyam, lo'ak or Jake, like cheats on the reader, Like they were forced into a marriage or something? Yeah no comfort, I'm in a sad era rn, i need some heartbreak 😭🤌🏼 and again a very hearty congratulations 🎉👏🏼🫶🏼💙

fourth installment for the party; thank you for participating !

jake sully x fem omatikaya!reader, angst w an open ending, prompts 32 + 42, wc: 1046

not typically fond of the whole 'neytiri's sister' trope, but tried to do something a little different and i think it works well enough in this case !

It’d always been like this, the burden of the clan’s future on your shoulders, yet the eclipse of your younger sister’s shadow looming like a snuffing darkness. You’d been born out of obligation, Neytiri born of pure desire, and out of all the things that graced the small moon to intensify this gnawing feeling, you hadn’t expected it to be the clumsy dreamwalker who stumbled upon your village. 

Jake Sully was a peculiar thing and, even more peculiar, you were tasked with showing him the way of the Omatikaya despite having other pressing duties to tend to. So as the sun sits high at its peak in the blue skies, until it disappears and shrouds Pandora in the glowing luminescence of the moon’s heartbeat, you toil with blood, sweat, and tears to make sure that Jake Sully won’t disappoint you or your people. 

But the biggest disappointment doesn’t come from Jake, though. It comes from you. Because try as you might to separate your duties from the ministrations of your temperamental heart, you fall hard. Can’t help it when Jake doesn’t make you feel the pressure your parents and the villagers do. When he makes you giggle, makes you forget that you’re doing this out of requirement. Especially so when his fingers brush yours and your skin lights like livewire beneath a cool surface. 

Jake Sully makes you feel and you begin to wonder if you’re willing to give in and lay yourself bare at the expense of everything you’ve worked hard for since you can remember. 

So when Jake tells you that your father and mother want him to choose a woman to solidify his place in the tribe, it makes your stomach lurch like the waves of the relentless ocean. There are women, far and wide, who fawn over the newcomer. Whisper the most decent and indecent things about your Jake. 

But most importantly, Neytiri is among those eyes, the quietest of those whispers because if there’s anything she hates more, it’s the idea of crossing her beloved older sister. Of taking away yet another thing that dangles just within your reach. 

“Have you chosen?” you ask with bated breath, stoking the dying fire at the center of the tent. 

Jake blinks at you like you’re stupid, a silent gaze that asks if you’ve been experiencing the same things that he has over the course of months flooded with an overwhelming yearn for you. 

“I have,” he opts to say, swallowing down the knot of fear that wedges at the base of his throat. He moves the smallest of spaces closer, pinky finger reaching for your own as he watches the flames cast harsh shadows over the soft contours of your stoic face. 

You nod once, a long stretch of silence making the ache in Jake’s chest pinch tenfold. 

“You’re not going to ask me who?” he asks quietly. 

“Should I?” you reply, fixing the final pieces of your bravado into place. 

He blinks once, twice, in disbelief. 

“Don’t make me feel like I imagined this whole thing,” he pleads softly. 

You want to be selfish, want to push yourself into his arms, want to whisper against his lips that of course he hadn’t imagined this whole thing. That if you didn’t have your whole world on the line, that you wouldn’t think twice about giving yourself to him, of taking him as he is. 

“Perhaps you have,” is all you say, shifting to settle a sizable distance between you two. 

He’s incredulous, speaking to cover the sounds of his breaking heart. 

“I think I…,” Jake trails off. “I know that I’m falling in love with you. And I also know that you feel it, too.” 

You scoff out a humorless laugh, unable to meet his gaze because you know you’ll crack. 

“There are hundreds of other women you could set your sights on, Jake,” you say flatly. “Why me?” 

“Why not you?” he argues shakily. “I don’t care about other women, and maybe I’m being presumptuous, but I also don’t care about your sister.” 

That makes you look. 

It means that he’s noticed. He’s noticed that the same way he yearns for you, Neytiri yearns for him. It makes it burn all the more, that you’ll always be his first choice despite having to put an end to whatever this is between the two of you. 

“I have a duty to this clan, Jake,” you say, feeding more fuel to the fire. “My future has already been mapped out and you are not a part of it.” 

His face falls, ears flattening as he jerks away like he’s been burned. 

“I should’ve…” He shakes his head. “I should’ve already known I wasn’t good enough.”

Your eyes shake with tears, scalding as the flames start to lick the edges of the enclosure. Of all the things Jake could be in your book, good enough would always be one of them. 

“Don’t say that,” you whisper. “It’s not like that. It’s just–” 

“Then tell me what I did wrong!” he hoarses, chest heaving. “What’s wrong with me?” 

Your lips twitch into a frown and you hiccup as Jake unravels before you. You reach a trembling hand towards him, but he’s drawing farther and farther away from you. 

“I’ve been trying so hard,” he shudders, standing to tower above you. “To make you see that this is all for you. And I’d be a damned liar if I said that I went into this with the purest of intentions, but you made me fall for you. You made me want to be a better man for you.” 

The first tear slips and you’re dashing it away angrily. 

“Jake–” 

“I’ve fucked up a lot of things in my life, but I’m just now finding something actually worth living for,” he swallows. “So please, just be with me and let me live.” 

You’re blinking away the sheen that glosses over your eyes and pools at your waterline. 

He watches you with desperate eyes, watches as your fists clench and you sniffle over the roar of the crackling fire. It burns nearly as much as he does for you, but when you don’t meet his gaze, or make no moves to follow him after he leaves, he gets his answer. 

neng © 2023

[starjxsung]

My star,

You are a dream personified, how easy it is to get lost on conversation with you.

I feel like a 1930s housewife writing to her husband in war LOL, but I like typing like this, it feels like a letter.

How bold of you to assume that we're not married already, as I’m sitting out in the hallway of our shared home right now staring at the marriage certificate we hung on the wall next to our wedding photos.

I’m sorry to hear that all of this is causing stress to you, among other things as well. I completely understand, as I am feeling the same way. But remember, you are only human, and can only do so much for something. Try not to be too hard on yourself because of the stuff that you can’t do. There are a lot of good people that are doing their best to help Palestine and you my dear are one of them! All the things you are doing — talking about it, donating, creating a safe platform on here — those are more than enough and things that contribute to a goal of helping them. And to whoever is feeling like you’re not doing enough — this goes to you too! You’re doing the best you can, and we see it, just like you everyone else. Thank you for all that you do, and all that you will continue to do.

Don’t forget to take breaks every now and again from Social Media and Kpop. As important as these matters are, your mental health matters as well. You can’t be helpful if your mental health and your health overall isn’t good. That’s like going to war and you’re severely sick. Take care of yourself, take time that you need, and go back into things when you’re ready. You’re only one person, but we hear you and we see you.

I love you star, don’t forget that you need saving too sometimes.

— Cutie Anon 💌

My absolute dream of a woman,

It’s a pleasure to know you, and even more so to be graced by your presence in virtual letter format. How lucky I am. The moon has gotten sick of how often I tell her about you !

(I love you we are literally married rn)

Thank you for the kind words my angel 🫶 I’m trying my hardest and it’s such a daunting feeling that I’m either not doing enough or that people are somehow angered by my moral beliefs. I really do think a good break is in order for me. Just sucks considering I’m on a break from main blog™️ and now somehow we’ve swayed side blog™️ into the same fate. I wish people didn’t feel the need to keep me under a microscope. It’s very suffocating !

I promise I’ll be back in a better headspace. With more love letters and wisdom and definitely some 7/11 donuts. I love you, take care of yourself and know that I’ll be thinking of you so dearly while I’m gone ❤️🫶

[fluffallamaful]

Remember that old Punz and Dream Server Interrogation thing I had in the past? Well considering the mood you seem to be in rn, let’s bring it back.

Okay, so, new setup: the nuke/reset fails, Dream and Punz kick Tommy out immediately. Tubbo and Jack soon follow suit. Tommy explains his revelation to Tubbo and Jack and then they hatch a new plan — one to unite the server. They organize, talk, shit happens, yadda yadda yadda. The important thing here is that the open communication makes some of the members of the server — specifically Quackity, Sapnap, Bad, George, and Karl — realize that things aren’t adding up, and they need to have a bit of a real, honest to god chat about what the hell is going on.

Somehow they capture the two of them. And then the two of them are tied up so tight they can’t move, and the five of them are trying to figure out how best to go about this, because those two aren’t really in a talking mood. (Quackity is among them. Dream is panicking. Punz is spitting in rage, mostly on his partner’s behalf.) Quackity is the first to step forward, and of course he steps towards Dream. Punz is yelling at him to back off, switching between terror and absolute fury as he tries to find a way to spare his friend. And then Quackity asks Dream if he’s still ticklish.

Dream freezes at that. It’s enough of an answer.

The next five minutes or so are literally just Quackity finding ways to make him laugh. He squeezed his sides, scritches into his armpits, whatever he can think of. But there’s something off about this. He brushes his delicate wings against his skin, he nibbles into his neck, he backs off from the spots that legitimately seem to be making him upset. By the end of it, Dream is actually way less panicked than before, and a whole lot more confused.

Then Sapnap asks if Punz is ticklish, and he’s WAY less gentle, because Punz betrayed him >:( He thought Punz was on his side!!! No mercy. Punz is howling within seconds. After he’s gotten that out of his system, the interrogation begins for real.

Concepts:

- Dream and Punz are both told to volunteer areas to be tickled. And for a while they both pick spots that they know aren’t too horrible for them other, but then Dream picks ribs by mistake because he thinks it’s not a total death spot but — oops, it totally is for Punz. Punz then decides to get him back by asking for tummy tickles, which he knows Dream can’t stand. (Punz is also very good at not getting flustered, so he ends up adding a couple more details as to how he wants their tummies to get tickled. Dream always falls to pieces when raspberries are blown in that spot.)

- Punz doesn’t get flustered easily. Dream absolutely does. After Punz realizes that this isn’t really a dangerous situation — which takes a while — he starts joining the others in teasing Dream. This eventually ends up becoming a 6v1 when Punz manages to untie himself, which is totally unfair but also Dream hasn’t gotten any proper affection in literal years, so.

- The Lers have competitions to see who can make either one of them laugh harder. Sometimes they do it 2v2. Dream gets teamed up on by Sapnap and Quackity at least once.

- Punz does actually get flustered at one point. It’s adorable. But then he realizes just how flustered DREAM is and snaps out of it to tease him.

- etc.

wwweeeehehehehee a new auuuuu!!! :0 :D !! i’m unbelievably excited to explore punz and dream’s relationship in this one coz holy moly. is this the first AU we’ve had where dream isn’t entirely alone? the first one where he actually has a buddy??☹️ my heart sings. and you’ve got punz being so protective that’s so incredibly adorable

(more more more below!!!)

🦙🦙🦙…

ok so lemme just make sure i’ve understood the timeline here,,

so tommy dream and punz have had their chat in the prison,, and have come to the realisation that maybe they actually all want similar-ish things on the server after all? tommy finally sees dream as more than a crazed villain and dream finally has a moment of remembering his original motives… but the nuke still flies towards them and the sirens still blast and they all have the horrifying moment of realising that they’re all going to die and that their no way around it.

and then the nuke fails.

tommy is promptly escorted out by the sleeve of his shirt and punz and dream are left in the prison — hearts still racing and ears still ringing from the nukes warning siren

it’s cute coz it kinda offers the opportunity of exploring drunz being emotionally vulnerable with each other? like punz would be able to question why tommy’s words got to dream so much,, and they’d both be able to help each other through the nightmares and flashbacks should they have any about the nuke. i can imagine that they’d both be feeling more alone and motivated to continue with their reset plan than ever,, particularly the immortality aspect of the plan… i also imagine that dream would be far more affected than punz by tommy’s betrayal.

it’s interesting that from dream’s point of view, the minute he tried to see tommy as more than just an annoying brat who can’t forward think in the slightest,, he tried to drop a nuke on his head. whereas from tommy’s pov, he’s left thrown out of the prison with a new humanising light shed on dream — a halo of hope. he runs to tubbos arms and exclaims that they’ve possibly got dream wrong this whole time!! he new about the nuke and still didn’t kill him??

the comparison between tommy and dream/punz’s thoughts on each other post-nuke are super exciting to me. tommy has been left with hope that his and dream’s relationship could improve, whereas dream has been left with the bitter remind that he should never trust anyone on this server… thankfully it’s tommy who’s on the outside of the prison, and therefore tommy’s side of the story spreads faster than dream’s.

now this manhunt with punz and dream both being caught is HECKIN EPIC. i LOVE!!! the way you described punz getting all protective over dream coz he knows how much prison and quackity had shaken him eeeeee that’s so cuteeeee

so does the interrogation start because people aren’t understanding/believing tommys explanation? so like they’re interrogating them to try and determine their motives? (as well as working out why the hell tommy is suddenly wanting them all to give drema a second chance,, it has to be some kind of trick!)

but regardless ahhhhhh gosh the chosen method of persuasion that quackity uses is tickles :((( that’s adorable. it’s adorable that punz is so angry about it, as well as the comparison between quackity and sapnap’s techniquessss 😭 dream is practically given comfort tickles that for once arent just being used as yet another way to break him,, and punz is getting absolutely wrecked until his learns to ‘use his manners while sapnao os speaking to him’

the little game they play is also heckin adorable and i absolutely adore the trope so much. like where the two lees have to pick spots for each other and accidentally end up picking each others worst spots ☹️ and punz being able to say all these flustery sentences to mess with dream and dream just being hopelessly embarrassed by it all

i want to go into these tickles moreeeeeeeeee. i love love love that they’re both just tired to a tree getting tickled silly until they explain their motives

also i’m thinking so hard about dream’s reaction to hearing that the reason that he’s not being murdered right now is because tommy had somehow convinced them all that he may actually have a side worth helping.. like that’s so exciting to explore coz i feel like he’d explode when he hears that

🦙🦙🦙…

[sullina]

In Glass Onion, the entire movie couldn’t have happened if it weren’t for Miles’ stupidity and I mean it. The entire thing happens, because Miles is dumb. Let me explain:

So we start the movie with the mysterious box, right? And others have already said that the puzzles weren’t really solved by the “disruptors” themselves, but by the people around them, so I won’t get into that. The part with the box where Miles was stupid was the part where it’s revealed that he had them made and shipped immediately. No prototypes, no testing, at least none that’s ever mentioned, no nothing. Just made the box and shipped it. That’s one point on where he was dumb.

The second point where he was dumb was where he sent it one to Helen. Thing is though, if I remember correctly, he didn’t send them himself. He HAD them sent, meaning that someone else sent them too his friends. As for why he had one sent to Helen i don’t know, but it could be justified with “everyone knows who my friends are, if I don’t send one to my former partner, it’ll look suspicious”, but he could’ve reasoned just as well with “i don’t want her at my get together after what happened”, which is actually pretty reasonable. But Miles is stupid, so he sent the box anyway.

The third point where he was an idiot was the part where he seemingly didn’t know the first thing about how the box worked. Someone else made it, after all. And there were no prototypes or extras of any kind made. Miles likely never saw the box and at best just came up with the little puzzles, but didn’t implement them, and there’s a big difference between just coming up with something and actually making it, trust me. So when Benoit Blanc suggests that the box could’ve been reset, he believes it. I mean Benoit lied to him about recieving the box intact, sure, but it’s obvious that Miles didn’t actually know if it could be reset. He also had no idea that the box could also be opened by smashing it with a hammer.

Two pieces of evidence that Miles doesn’t give a shit about security or safety, because both security holes with the box could’ve been fixed (if the box can be reset, we don’t actually get to know if it’s possible and defense against a hammer? Don’t use wood that can easily be smashed. Like idk, make a case out of metal underneath the wood if you don’t wanna sacrifice the aesthetic. It may have made the box heavier, but it’s not like it was supposed to be solved while holding it. Unless he wanted to pay less for shipping or something, but he’s rich, so that still makes him a fucking idiot.

The box is also the first clue we get to everyones disposition towards Miles. The “disruptors” make the puzzles. They play along with Miles. Except for Helen. She literally smashes the box, because she refuses to play along with Miles’ games.

More evidence to Miles’ stupidity has either already been mentioned or talked about in the movie itself, but what I have yet to see is the Mona Lisa security system.

Miles brags about the security system for the Mona Lisa. It’s fireproof and sealed at the slightest noise. Something that is repeatedly heard throughout the movie. And after explaining his amazing security system, he brags about how he also had a button made for unlock the Mona Lisa. And it’s not something he carries around with him on his body or anything else that would make that not just anyone can override the system, no no.

It’s a button.

In the middle of the room.

And I can’t remember the exact layout of the main room rn, but I’m pretty sure it was among the glass statues, too, but it was the only thing that wasn’t made of glass. And it looked cheap and out of place in the whole room, so he barely even tried to hide it.

And it’s a simple push down button. No lock, no case, no anything.

Any kind of security system is only as strong as the weakest link, and in this case, the weakest link is a button in the middle of a room that anyone can access and press. So the Mona Lisa might as well not have a security system at all.

In the end, the Mona Lisa burned, not because of Helen, but because of Miles and his arrogance and stupidity. And a glass onion is a perfect metaphor for it as well, because the security system may seem complex and high tech, but it can be completely undone by the press of a button that is not secured at all.

A button that Miles himself had implemented.

[albonium]

can i ask, why do like majority of f1 fans hate carlos? like a lewis blog posted for fun like if you could get rid of 3 drivers on the grid who would it be and literally 99% of the tags were carlos. im like really new to f1 so i don’t know if he did something that people hate him for or he’s like a bad person but some fans really can’t stand him. i know some charles fans have an issue with him but i don’t get what the problem is with the rest of them…? obviously barring what happened in yesterdays race

during the first lockdown he had to tell a funny (travel i believe?) story for the estrella galicia ig. he told a story about being in a chinese restaurant in china, it feeling too chinese and said that the cat he saw roaming around might have been served as food. it's a racist joke we can all agree on it, it's bad. but it's the only time he ever said something bad like this. also it's (sadly) a pretty common joke among white people so it might not represent his entire moral compass on a single bad joke he told 3 years ago.

when the season restarted in 2020, the black lives matter movement was getting a lot of coverage after the murder of george floyd. some drivers chose to kneel before the national anthems in support of blm/against racism. a lot of them didn't, including carlos. i don't necessarily agree with what i'm about to say but it can be taken into account that drivers represent their teams and sponsors and they can't always do what they want. i think they're privileged enough to risk a bollocking but 🤷‍♀️

now there's another thing, and that's really stupid imo: he has far right family members (apparently his dad), just like most white people have (again, sadly but it's just facts. far right parties like front national in france aren't doing the numbers they're doing for no reasons)

apart from this carlos hasn't done anything bad that i can think of. obviously it's not my place to tell people what they should be ok with or not but it's important to consider facts and not just what random tumblr users say in posts that are more ~banter/hate.

on the "good" side of things i remember, it's not much but he's one of the drivers that posted an actual explanation as to why he'd participate in the social media blackout in 2021 (i think it was 2021? or was it last year? time flies). i think there was other occasions where he did/say some more "positive" stuff but i can't remember rn.

[yikes-00]

You made an impression with your Golden Boy fic. That's the one that made me remember your username and expect each of your later fics with much excitement.

I didn't even finish the story. You know why? Because I want to savour it. And I read it when I'm in a particular mood. But I want to thank you for writing it. I remember the context in which it was written - Gen decided to mention it in a Hangster way and 0.5 second later you offered us this amazing gift!

I also read other works of yours that I LO-VE too! I realise I'm not up-to-date with your fics and that cannot be, goddammit!

The timeloop demon one, among others... But truth is I'm waiting for the story to be over so that I can check if the end is happy. No matter how tagged it is, if I feel a fic is going to be angsty, I always check the end to be sure. [I do that with books too. XD]

Sorry for that rambling. I've never talked to you before, so I -very sadly- don't know you very well, besides your writing. Nevertheless, I wanted to tell you HOW MUCH JOY [AND ANGST SHIT- gotta be honest here, but it's okay] you gave/give this anon.

Have a lovely day or whatever it is for you! *mwah*

Oh my god, this is the SWEETEST thing to wake up too!! Thank you so much for all the kinds words.

GOLDEN BOY!!! I honestly can’t describe how much I actually love the Notebook. It was such a wild fun fever dream and I’m so glad you enjoy it!!

Hehehehehe THE DEMON TIMELOOP!! Ok so in all honesty, the chapters are going to slow down soon only because I’m home sick rn and have time to update/write. BUT!!! It’s a very happy ending. (I also read the endings of books🫣)

Ahhhhhhh💕💕 thank you so much for all the lovely words and if you ever want to just say hi, feel free!!💙

[iwannawritelots]

upset ranting under the cut

I literally hate the US so much. I can’t stop thinking about how upset I am, and even though on Monday I have my top surgery consultation (finally, after fucking being uninsured because my sperm donor refused to give me my medical insurance and only being insured through my current job) I am just unable to stop thinking about how much I hate that I have to be here. I hate that other people have to be here. I remember my senior year my fucking civics teacher was mockingly like “if any of you don’t like the US, then you can leave”. Like FUCK YOU. Most people can’t leave! I live a five hour public transit trip away from Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada and I can’t leave and start over there no matter how much I would like to! I’m very fortunate to be in a state that is very liberal, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to leave with the way things are going. If that’s how I feel in a liberal state, i can only imagine how others are feeling right now in a conservative state! I wish anyone could leave if they wanted! Especially those who are in a state that will now have abortion bans, among other awful things. This country is only safe if you are a white cishet man. It’s disgusting and I really hope the Supreme Court drops dead. I’m livid. I can barely even focus on obey me rn which makes it even worse because usually I can distract myself with it! Everything is gross right now. Anyone else in the US I hope you’re staying safe. Unless you are against abortion or a queerphobe or racist or ableist or anything else fucking awful. Drop dead.

[pctaldrunk]

Bio drop in list format bc I can’t take myself seriously enough to write in paragraphs rn - 

Her father was a duke posted to the northern border and took her mother, a jianghu healer, as a second wife, because she saved his life after a particularly tough siege. She has an older brother and a few other younger siblings, and before everything bad happened she would’ve been happy to live out life just like that.

Then the emperor decided that their family held too much fame and military power in the far reaches of the country. They were a threat. So her father was wrongfully accused of colluding with foreign powers and committing treason after a lost battle, and her family was taken, imprisoned, and eventually executed.

She was spending the summer with her maternal grandfather, the head of the largest medicine sect in jianghu, at the time. Having escaped the massacre, her grandfather raised her as if she never had ties to court in the first place. She doesn’t remember much of her previous life, only that she loved her family dearly. 

Once she was old enough to understand...she thought about revenge. She doesn’t know how she feels about it or how she intends to do it, if she does want that, yet, but she figures building a name and a living for herself first can’t hurt.

She grew up learning the medicinal arts that her grandfather had developed over the years and traveled with him everywhere from one place to the next,  helping with treating patients as her grandfather’s assistant. Develops a special interest in acupuncture and some fame among female patients who she took care of mor conveniently.

When she comes of age, her grandfather finally gives her permission to travel on her own - and the silver needles that have been passed down in their family through the generations.

She’s been on her own, drifting around jianghu ever since, building up a patient base,  saving strangers and making herself a little bit famous. Though she pokes her nose into most of the cases she runs into because she can’t help it and anonymously gifts prescriptions to treat widespread diseases to different pharmacies throughout the country as she’s going past, if a patient is coming to her specifically, she’ll only take the case if she deems it to be interesting enough / a challenge.

Fun trivia things!!

Most of the time she customizes prescriptions and oversees their making herself. She especially likes to (and it becomes a staple in her clinic/style) make the medicine into candies - because medicine c a n be sweet, so why shouldn’t it be, especially when the ill are miserable enough already? Also, she likes sweet things  - the dosages of the medicines are adjusted taking into account the added sugar.

Please tell her she’s clever. She doesn’t absolutely live off praise ok maybe she does a tiny bit but she gets very giddy/perks up a l o t off of it.

She loves!!! Good patients!! If you take your meds on time and follow doctor’s order you have now become Her Favorite Patient!!! She’s very agreeable toward good patients!!

Ok she may just be very agreeable in general. When she’s thinking about other things / her mind is occupied / she’s very pleased, she’ll blurt out honest answers to almost any question / agree to almost anything before her mind catches back up. 

Her favorite nickname is Tang Tang (it is a homonym for candy).

Not an innocent baby who could be taken advantage of by any means - but sometimes she plays it up. One of her advantages is looking relatively harmless and like she could be intimidated. 

In truth the girl is fearless and slippery and lives by the motto “if you can handle the consequences of your action then you can do your action.”

Doesn’t know martial arts / can’t really f i g h t but has cultivated a very thick qi base since she was very young, which she lends very freely to those who need it and those who c a n actually fight in the necessary circumstance. Will and has joked previously that she’s like a “qi bank.”

Also knows the right acupoints to temporarily paralyze people to buy herself enough time to run -

Has studied meridians since a very young age. Has self-devised a set of acupoints to preserve and stabilize the heart and meridians and can generally hold a patient out of th clutches of the reaper for a few hours in case of emergency, though it’s a tricky and intensely laborious process.

Her older brother survived! I don’t know how yet but I’m faintly interested in him so I may pick him up as an oc later too but fjaklsfj;lksf he’s gone back to court with a false identity and made his way up to be one of the heads of the emperor’s secret service. His plans include...toppling the empire.

[the-groblin]

found a poem I wrote a while back, I don't remember which but I was either very high while writing it or tripping on mushrooms, figured it might as well be the first writing i post here (tumblr might format it weird because i'm copy-pasting from the original document i wrote it in, i don't have the time to write the whole thing back out rn) also just kinda wondering if theres a limit on how long i can make the title because dang it just seems to keep going. anyway heres some poem for you.

Let me take my sunglasses off so i can live in the light

I can’t see through the darkened lenses i have

Dig deep in your crates for a forgotten transcendence

But do not forget that what was done, can be repeated

You have cut deep in my heart

A well of sorrow and joy

That can spell my doom or my ecstasy

A place of both Is and Is Not,

Deep beneath the skin that girds my flesh

And beneath the flesh within

And thus we have become like sisters

Life comes to me from distant shores

Wild, primal, and free from worry

Yet refined as well, beyond rage or mindless hate

Beyond the void of Is Not, in the verdant fields of Is

It's very soul, blood, soil, roots, stems, and blossoms

The vital organ of love

But I find myself in a field of poppies and morning glories

Where i may lay in comfort and grow warm

A journey i will take someday there

With one whose eyes are like blossoms

And fall together into the meadow

Among the poppies and morning glories

Finding stars far above the sweet scent of the flowers

Basking in the sun, shaded by passing clouds

Waking in the glory of a morning of new life

Walking in the flowers and feeling life beneath our feet

Breathing the air, thick with poppies and morning glories

As the sun hangs low and strikes a spark against the horizon

The flame of life we bear roars to life

In the dance and crackle of the flames, we find heavenly wonder

Which i have only but tasted of before

But we must arise at dawn, and leave behind the poppies and morning glories

My soul cries out to those who have come before

Those who have left this plane of life

Just as they have left me wondrous things

And brought me joys beyond any other

They fly, like her, about my mind and spirit

The angels of melody and harmony

The hands that guide mine to create

The arms that lift me up from despair

Joined with those pierced hands that did save my life

They bid me bring beauty to this world that does suffer so

As they do us all, if we will listen for their voice

Dulcet tones that ring from the beyond

The angels of Is, the perpetuators of true beauty

The glory indescribable

The peace that passes all understanding

(as it has been said)

I cry for your pain that is suffered for me

I fail you many days

I am weak of will, though strong of heart

When i may find my strength, i do not know

When i need it, i think, i shall know

But i cannot speak of you and lament so

For far more than i have earned you have forgiven

And far more than i deserve have i been given

And yet i know that this is not a burden to carry

But rather what i must bring to the world

And bring it i happily will

For nothing can bring greater joy

Than bringing joy to another

And this opportunity you have given me

Along with many others, as you have given to all the people of the world

For you are the glory indescribable

The one who is like jasper and carnelian

I am the diamond formed from coal

A more pure form than what i once was

A statue cut out from a chunk of marble that looked like a man

The battered blade that must be reforged anew

Though i must do these tasks myself

I must place the pressure on the coal

The chisel to the marble, and the blade to the forge

These must be done by my hands

I relish the gift i have been given

To try my hand at a deeper creation

To work as the maker did

Though never so great

Our own creations are the image of that which came before

And that which came before is the image in which we are made

In my own being will i write my opus

And thus will i come ever closer to that glory that shines celestial upon our souls from above

[spynorth]

i know you’re logged out rn but i want to leave a little something for you to log in to (a cat leaving a dead bird at your doorstep, if you will). i’m so glad we got to know each other! you have made the last couple of years so fun both on and off tumblr, and it’s such a breath of fresh air to meet someone so genuine 😭 from when we first started chatting and immediately sending each other inappropriate memes we have gelled so well and i am so proud and happy to count you among my close friends ❤️‍🔥 you are such a force of nature and i can’t wait for our next movie night so we can chat shit and laugh for five hours straight 🏴‍☠️ 🐊 🧅

man this choked me up when i read it and made me go down memory lane and get all nostalgic. I have never laughed at something someone has said to me on this site like I laughed at that ask you sent (domestic bliss, baaaaaby!). I still remember being on the phone and checking my notification and I lost it in the middle of my conversation.. and the way you threw me back a completely well written reply to that stupid bake off starter just sealed the deal for me. I've always found it so easy to write with you and you're one of those people I just *chinhands* at whenever I see something on the dash .. I gotta read it. I can't help myself. That experience of switching from absolute crocodile vs hook crack threads to exploring immortal enemies and the idea of you're my only friend has always been just top-fucking-tier. The life you bring to aegon is astounding and I love talking headcanons and listening to your opinions and thought processes on discord. You're one of those people who take characters so seriously (thank you!!!!!!) but also know how to have a grand ol' time without erasing flaws etc... your talent and passion and creativity have always blown me away and it's so interesting to see how we've gone from what we were a few years ago with writing and become what we are today. I love watching growth. I love watching things develop.

As a person, my dear crocodile, you are one of my favorites and someone I consider one of my closest friends. From that first message of Idk if we're close enough for this, but three years ago (how???)... to the fact that we talk basically every day now, I can't imagine this world without you. You are hilarious, yes, but more importantly you're someone who is so loyal to your friends and you know how to check the fucking source material before you accuse someone of something .. a wild concept on tumblr in the year of 2023. I dunno mate, we have so many memories and it makes my heart go all pitter patter when I think of them. There's no one else I'd rather watch the musical episode of once with or every single shrek with. I'm glad I was able to help you be a little hacker with my hulu and I'm grateful for the way you turned me onto duolingo (but uh. I've been slacking big time lately lmao). Can't wait to go to Shrek World in London together so we can be obnoxious and I can wow you with the Irish accent I've been practicing. In short, my Irish onion, I will love you as long as sinuses exists and as long as salt is a thing and I will never stop giving you daily life updates from my diary. Thanks for understanding that anything and everything under the sun is only ever related to me and mine and supporting me no matter what I do to other people. You're one of my favorite sheeps, mate and there are so many layers to our friendship.

Fuck the [redacted].

[dropxdead]

you know what fuck that i missed my ocs ill answer all of those questions with no context

(i’ll update from time to time, not doing everything tonight)

1 - Your first OC ever?

either linda or kay can’t remember precisely

2 - Do you have a personal favourite among your OCs?

rn (and for more than a year) it’s been adrian but it’s tight fight between adrian, noah, linda and lucas

3 - Have you ever adopted a character or gotten a character from someone else?

i adopted milia from a (now deceased) artist i really liked on instagram, and bought shiromoon from someone else on twitter but never used HER but made a specie out of her

4 - A character you rarely talk about?

most of my « media » ocs (aka the ones i created as self inserts but evolved after), most of them don’t even have names (or i can’t remember them)

5 - If you could make only one of your OCs popular/known, who would it be?

probably linda i think she’d be the most interesting, and she’s the most stable of my ocs so no risk of changing my mind about how i want to represent her

6 - Two OCs of yours that look alike despite not being related?

linda and kay before i remade kay. same hair (long, black, with a red strand across the face), vampire/werewolf eyes and pointy teeth

7 - Are your OCs part of any story or stories?

they all have their whole fleshed out stories, but no actual story is being written or anything. and half of them were created from medias so they’re part of my version of the story

8 - Do you RP as any of your OCs? If you do, introduce one of your RP OCs here!

used to, in middle school, with one of my best friends. not so much with her anymore, but all the time in my head, it’s like i’m roleplaying 24/7 in there

9 - Would you ever be willing to give any of your OCs to someone else?

no, even if i don’t use them anymore they’re my babies and no one understand them like i do. i let my friend borrow them for her drawings and stories but that’s about how far as it goes

10 - Introduce an OC with a complicated design?

i don’t really do complicated design ? i used to draw but not that much and i was not patient enough. i guess linda because of all of her royal outfits and stuff ?

11 - Is there any OC of yours you could describe as a “sunshine”?

Kay for sure they’re just a little furry ball of sunshine

12 - Name an OC that isn’t yours but who you like a lot

all of my friend’s ocs they’re my babies too, i have a soft spot for anya and linae

13 - Do you have any troublemaker OCs?

so many of them. noah, kay, mizuki and alice. to name just a few

14 - Introduce an OC with a tragic backstory

all of them honestly, but i’ll talk about hannah’s because i miss her. she was the daughter of an english rich family around the 1900’s (i don’t have a date fixed), she was bullied at her school because she was rich in a school of middle/working class families. one day, some kids pushed her in the river « as a joke » not knowing she didn’t know how to swim. she drowned and came back some years later as a ghost (to seek revenge ? maybe, if the occasion present itself, but who knows)

15 - Do you like to talk about your OCs with other people?

not really ? idk i like doing these kind of things but actually talking with someone is weird to me

16 - Which one of your OCs would be the best at biology (school subject)?

is want to believe mizuki would be good if he bothered

17 - Any OC OTPs?

so many.

strictly my ocs : adrian/david, pandora/david (pandora is adrian in one of my aus where he’s a cis girl), noah/harry

with my friend’s ocs : erwan/linae, gerald/montana, niernen/anya

18 - Any OC crackships?

not really

19 - Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why)

rn, i’d say adrian because i project every insecurity and things that are wrong with me and he still get a happy ending and a good family and a lover etc

20 - Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)?

yuna since she’s a mermaid. i guess she mostly listen to rock, i feel like she’d be really into green day

[sullina]

Indura being part of the demon race is Canon, since Deriere and Monspeet canonically almost turn Indura, I think the despair part is the fanon part as they'd been doing it intentionally. As for whether they'd be sealed or mot, I imagine that mot every demon and underworld creature was sealed, it's entirely possible that a few escaped and managed to live limg lives in the demon realm and possibly escape into the human one. Case in point, the Red that killed Elaine.

So imagine how freaked Meliodas would be if an entrance to the Demon Realm was discovered right near Liones and a fucking Indura walked out.

Meliodas, for all his strength, probably isn't strong enough to solo an Indura at that point, for all we like to think he's op. And he sure as hell isn't gonna let the Sins or even Zaratrus go toe to toe with the single most dangerous creature in the Underworld next to the Dmeon King himself

I thought a demon-turned-Indura was different from a non-demon Indura. Think of it like birds or fish or marine animals. Some animals may look similar and have similar traits but not be related at all, if you get what I mean.

(I did a lot of lore analysis here, if you don’t care enough to read through all of that or don’t have the time rn, skip to the last two paragraphs where I get back to your ask)

And the Indura we've seen were also pretty different from what Derieri and Monspeet turned into. There's also the difference that the canon Indura produces babies, so it's not farfetched to assume that's how Indura are born. Derieri and Monspeet on the other hand turned Indura by sacrificing six of their seven hearts to the darkness inside them and forming a contract, which also leads be to believe that the darkness is more of a symbiote than their actual magic, unless magic itself is a symbiote for ALL races, but the demons magic took on a very unique form, likely due to the influence of the demon realms environment or the DK himself, which might also be the case for the other races, and then different strands of magic evolved alongside the different races.

What if a native Indura was a demon-turned-indura that had been turned for so long they became unrecognizable as demons? But when a demon turns (successfully) Indura, they use their life force and fight until they literally drop dead. So that's unlikely, too. There's still the possibility that a natove Indura is born of a demon who tried to do the contract to turn Indura but failed due to lack of strength. We know that even among the commandments, only a few of them can turn Indura in the first place, if I remember that right. Though this also depends on whether or not if the ritual for turning indura is a secret only told to someone once they're strong enough or if it's common knowledge among demons.

Back to the first theory that native Indura and demon Indura are two separate things. What would also support this is that the native Indira we see is shown to make offspring as a biological process. So that's how more Indura come to be. Ban kills all but one and that one makes it to Liones, but is defeated there by I think Escanor and the Trio? They struggled against it though. I’m mentioning this because when an animal produces loads of offspring, the general survival strategy is “they can’t get all of us” with the assumption that most of them will be eaten or otherwise killed before they can produce new offspring (fish do that for example, I think specifically salmon? Correct me if I’m wrong though). So this means that while some particularly strong holy knights of Liones struggled against one Indura baby (I think the Trio all had a power level of around 1000 or more, so pretty strong, but weaker than a Sin), then who or whatever took care of Indura babies in the underworld 3000 years ago, was probably significantly stronger on a general scale. So either the average demon was way stronger than the average holy knight, or the demons had dedicated people to take on a protector role similar to human knights or there were specialized Indura hunters. Other possibilities are that most Indura were killed off by the environment or other non-demon animals of the underworld that we haven’t seen.

Out of all those theories, the demon hunter one has support in the cursed by light movie when we see the demons wrangle an Indura and it’s strongly implied that they keep it how humans keep farm animals (the demons tried to poison Dalia, the poison was said to be some sort of ‘Indura excrement’ if I remember correctly) or like how Elephants were used in war once. I tend to not take the movies as absolute canon though, this mainly due to the fact that in the first movie, Mel makes more than four clones with Lostvayne even though canonically, Lostvayne can only make four clones, not more. It’s a small thing, I know, but it’s important to me.

All of this being said, I do not know if I was going anywhere specific with this, but enjoy the lore analysis^^

And now back to your ask but now with all of this new information in mind: if the attacking Indura was a native one, there must either be an absolutely gigantic hole leading to the underworld or it must be a demon Indura, because if it was a young native Indura, there’s not really any reason why it couldn’t be defeated. If it was a fully grown one, well, the Sins defeated a (presumably) fully grown Indura in the prisoners of the sky, but that one was immobilized by Solaad. I don’t remember if at that point in the movie, Meliodas got his powers back already or not tbh.

But either way, solo-ing an Indura is probably pretty hard, even for a fully powered Meliodas. Though what if Mel was just not at his full power? Like, if the Indura appeared, someone close to Mel tried to fight it, and Mel got hurt when saving them from the Indura? Then again though, I mean Mel could kinda ‘cheat’ using Lostvayne and his Full Counter until the attack is beefed up enough to kill the Indura. Unless he was unable to use either one for some reason... If or when the Indura is either defeated or dealt with somehow, there’s also the revelation that here is now a known entrance to the underworld very close to Liones. And humans are humans, you KNOW they’re gonna wanna explore, so cue Meliodas trying to keep either the Liones holy knights away from the entrance or some kids or teenagers who are gonna wanna jump into that new huge hole.