#and I can still find the little joys

[traumasurvivors]

I often see messages about how “one day you’ll be thankful you didn’t give up”.

And I remember reading these messages years ago and dismissing them. I’d even feel bitter at them. I’d feel annoyed even. I thought there was never a chance they would be true for me.

I was wrong. I constantly feel so glad I stuck around.

This morning, I laid next to my husband and felt safe in his arms. And I thought about how glad I was to be here with him. I’d have never met him if I hadn’t tried to recover.

While writing this post, my dog stretched in the bed before circling and plopping herself back down. Her head pushed into my side, snoring so quickly. And I was so thankful to be around to hear her little snores and feel her next to me. I’d have never had her if I hadn’t done the work to heal.

Yesterday, my best friend and I made plans to see each other. She told me she loved me. It made me feel warm inside and so thankful I was around to see her get married and have her at my wedding.

I enjoy the little things now. I enjoy the way my husband always gives me a forehead kiss before he leaves. I enjoy the way my dog comes running when she hears me go lay on the bed because she wants to be with me. I enjoy the tea I have every day, being able to be outside in the sun. I enjoy excitedly waiting for music from my favourite artists to drop.

All these things I’d never enjoy if I gave up.

I am thankful I stuck around. I am thankful I didn’t give up.

And I hope that if you aren’t, that one day you are too.

[ruporas]

cheers to the future of humanity (and the future of us)

[ID: Digital illustration in color of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun. The illustration takes place during the ship/home arc, specifically chapter 21. At the center, Vash is grabbing Wolfwood by the collar and pulls him into a kiss in the middle of a celebration. The pair is colored in vibrant warm hues while their surroundings are colored in cooler colors like green and teals. Luida, Brad, Meryl, and Milly are shown amongst the crowd, occupied in the celebrations as Vash and Wolfwood share a moment by themselves at the center. END ID]

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

[vroombeams]

amazing oscarmark fic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 ive been well fed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! do you have any tips on writing and getting work done? ive been in SUCH a fanfic writing burnout and i've been wanting to start with rpf writing but im SO scared to get any inaccuracies etc etc. your stuff is super inspiring and you're literally carrying oscarmark rn and ill be joining the train soon bc we need more commitment to this pairing.

hope your summer went well:) -that one oscarmark anon thats cheering you on always

AH THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! so glad you've enjoyed your meal :')!!

tips-wise!! burnout fuckin stinks but it's important i think to let your brain chill when it happens. like if you're sitting there staring at a doc and no words are coming out or feeling good/right and all you feel is Miserable it's massively important to take a step back from it. it's so hard to have a healthy relationship with fandom creation. but remember we are here to have FUN this is a hobby, we're not getting paid, we're not on a time crunch and we don't have deadlines we are just simply mashing the blorbos together and GOING!

i think it's also hugely beneficial to consume as much non-fandom content as possible? watch a series or a movie play a video game read BOOKS i can not overemphasize the importance of putting words in your eyes!!

re: inaccuracies!! again this is fandom, so trying not to take it super seriously is helpful. but as far as accuracy goes, all you can do is focus on your own perception of the characters? everyone's going to have a different opinion on how each character should be handled and more often than not those opinions won't all 100% line up, so really just find what feels right to you!! watch interviews, read other fic of the characters that you want to write, figure out what bits of them feel Correct to you and incorporate it!!

on the productivity front i do want to note that like. i personally have popped out a pretty large amount of fic lately, which is an exception and not a rule. i'm not always going to be hammering out minifics, i will definitely dip in and out of inspiration and burnout myself. i want to make sure that what i've been doing isn't setting any sort of standard? everyone works at their own pace and sometimes you'll have a rocket-boost of inspo and sometimes you won't and both of those things are okay!!

tl;dr, try not to take it too seriously, remember to take breaks, eat a balanced media diet, remember to have FUN!!

i hope that some of this is at least a little bit helpful!! thank you for asking and thank you for cheering and i'm looking forward to having more little freaks in the oscarmark tag :]

[basu-shokikita]

maybe i have not seen the content people complain about but when i see talks about the fandom infantilizing toki i'm confused cause like...didn't canon start that...with every passing season toki become more and more child-like until age regression was essentially confirmed in aotd...

[ravenwolfie97]

all pokemon games are good but they are not all equally as good

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[walker-lister]

I just have to remind myself sometimes that no matter what anyone else says, the way a piece of media makes me feel and the positive impact it has had on my queer identity is valid, and that tearing myself apart thinking I have to defend it or questioning my own place within queer communities is not at all important when compared to the almost tangible sense of 'rightness' that piece of media helped me to feel about myself.

[ambreiiigns]

btw rick and morty makes me insane bc no one Gets it people who don't wanna watch it (like me! before my brother made me watch it in exchange of him watching sk8 the infinity w me!) are like ugh problematique bad #edgy dark humor adult cartoon for reddit bros 🙄 but then the reddit bros who watch it & became the main representatives for its audience are like haha pickle rick wooo you need high iq I Relate To Rick Sanchez Deeply and he's like the joker to them and he's a king and an icon of alpha males somehow???? but like. neither of those people understand that rick and morty is actually about Nobody Exists On Purpose. Nobody Belongs Anywhere. Everybody's Gonna Die. Come Watch TV?

[koa-z]

literally standing in my kitchen crying bc this is the same thing that has brought me joy since I was ten years old

[miazeklos]

As it turns out, there are still few things that make me as happy as posting a fic/chapter hour(s) past midnight, switching off my laptop and basking in the glow of my silly little creation the next morning at work. <3 I will not be depriving myself of it again.

[mariocki]

All Passion Spent: Episode 2 (1.2, BBC, 1986)

"You really must not speak as though my life has been a tragedy. I had everything that most women would envy; I had position, comfort, children, and a husband I loved. Truly loved, Mr. Fitzgeorge. I had nothing to complain of."

"Except that you were defrauded of the one thing that mattered, face it, Lady Slane: your children, your husband, your splendour... were nothing but obstacles that kept you from yourself. Perhaps you were too young to know any better, but when you chose that life, you know, you sinned against the light."

"You're right, of course."

"Course I'm right, old Fitz may be a comic figure, but he retains some sense of values."

"Don't scold me any more, Mr. Fitzgeorge. I assure you that if I did wrong, I paid for it. But you must not blame my husband."

"Oh, I don't. According to his lights, he gave you everything you could desire. He merely killed you, that's all. Men do kill women, and most women enjoy being killed - so I am told."

[bredforloyalty]

can't stop thinking about lisa normalbrothers (<3) under that post mentioning the magical fictional father that you can understand and save and that the fantasy is also that he feels sorry for what he did to you. mainly the last part cause i kneww that but also i don't think i was doing it that deliberately and it's like.. now when i read certain parts i just see the bones of the fantasy,, cartoon x-ray style and i'll even tell you whose skeleton it is

[fideidefenswhore]

things that make you go hmmm.

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

okay i was curious where that quote that laura reads in s2e12 from carmilla's book was from ("those who prefer their principles over their happiness refuse to be happy outside the conditions they seem to have attached to their happiness") and unsurprisingly it was camus so i downloaded the book it's from and ctrl+f'd through to find the quote and havent found it yet but did find this one:

[dogearedheart]

8i've been thinking about the last asks i got today. and i think it's better for me to take a step back from this account. i know the anon didn't mean anything by it, but i still feel like i am being a negative presence on here and weirding people out with who i am is nothing i want. so, i am not deleting or anything. i am just gonna be less present with sharing personal things or leaving tags. I'll probably be more active on my second account where i don't have that many followers :)

[crescentfool]

i think something that is important to me to remember is that there are small ways i can do things to spark joy for myself and others without waiting for someone else to do it... (conjures up little sparklies from my hands) life is so whimsical!!!