#and feels a lot more mean and alienating

[enigma-the-anomaly]

we all know I’m ill about ishimondo but even ignoring that I think the first danganronpa might be my favorite? Honestly the first and second are really close, but the first one just has a certain feel to it. Like it’s the very first, it was the guinea pig, the testing of the waters, so it has a sort of wildness to it, like “throw things and see what sticks”

idk, I just like that fuck it we ball vibe it has, and without the burden of past games it doesn’t feel the need to be more shocking and more out there than what came before it. It isn’t trying so hard to have every character be wild and exaggerated. It has problems for sure, but it also has an energy that’s just fun, like “this is new and exciting and weird and we know it, just follow along and we’ll see where this goes”

idk, it just has a really special place in my heart

[liquidstar]

i havent seen anyone else point out yet that ivan reaching for till's neck was already a consistent theme, strangulation aside

all the way back to round 3. in both that and after the karaoke scene, he's doing it specifically to release his restraints (post-karaoke specifically, it doesnt even seem to be for a real reason other than to bring him some temporary relief/comfort after that). even if its not shown in the other shots, i think thats what his desire is there too.

and with the strangling too, in the end i still think he was trying to save him through it, in whatever way he could at least. you could take that in the "it was a farce to save him" way or the "it was an attempted double suicide" way, but i think its just interesting. we see consistently ivan reach for till's neck to give him freedom, until the same gesture strangles him instead. isn't that ironic?

[sysig]

Wander Dr. Doran! Yeahh :) (Patreon)

[apostate-in-an-alcove]

I tend to be quite aloof and cynical towards men as I get older but I think the source of that cynicism and repulsion comes from living in a society that caters to and centres men to the point where refusing to participate makes you a pariah, with both men and women. Sorry not sorry but women and women's liberation are my priority; I'm tired of men expecting to take centre stage and be kowtowed to even in discussions about things that primarily harm women cause most are far too selfish and lack empathy to actually value women as people.

[dykedvonte]

The Khans - My Introspective

I don't like the Military and I don't support a lot of the actions the NCR does to the Mojave in New Vegas but in terms of the Khans I feel like the fandom infantilizes or diminishes the fact that they are or at least one of the most violent raider groups in the Mojave.

What happened at Bitter Springs was a tragedy, innocent lives were lost and the fact that the NCR swept it under the rug and continued to hunt down Khans that are truly trying to back down and resettle is horrendous, but there is a history to the NCR's aggression towards them.

The Khans first appear in Fallout 1, the main faction of raiders in the game besides the mentioned Vipers (who don't actually appear if I remember correctly). They came from Vault 15 along with the members that would form rival groups; The Vipers, The Jackals, and Shady Sands. They are a very large and foreboding raiding party, known for burning towns and encampments they attack and taking survivors as their slaves or slaves to sell. They are a big reason why the Jackals and Vipers are actually so small in New Vegas, they wiped them out.

Their main targets where Shady Sands and Junker town, the former of the two would be what became The New California Republic. This explains a big part of their animosity towards the Khans, only furthered by the fact the Khans kidnapped Tandi as a young girl, the girl that would go to offically found the NCR out of Shady Sands. When the dweller saved her and killed much of the Khans, this allowed the NCR to develop into what it currently is as they no longer needed to focus on fighting off constant raids.

When the Khans became the New Khans in Fallout 2, they barely resembled the Khans as they were led by Darion, Garl Death-Hand's son (former leader of the Khans). They were smaller and refortified vault 15, still planning to take down the NCR (at this time nowhere near as imperialist as they are in FNV) as mostly a revenge/power ploy. They manipulate The Squat, a group of y'know squatters, that lived in the upper levels, promising and lying about repairing the vault and offering them ransacked caravan resources if they kept the NCR away. Being their only life line The Squat had no choice. Still the chosen one got rid of them and they left New California for the untapped Mojave.

The Great Khans, the most current iteration, continued in the path as the original Khans, regrouping and gaining information from the Followers who hoped they'd use their new medical knowledge to heal themselves. They gained more members and a substantial part of Vegas territory before they were run out by the three families. They were pushed to Bitter Springs where they first and foremost continued to pick off and attack NCR settlements, most of which consisted of caravans, towns, and camps as they saw them as easy like in their old days. It was the killing of four influential Republic members (non-military) that brought on Bitter Springs.

Bitter Springs was the result of years of hatred and animosity and likely the goal to send a final message to the Khans. It does not excuse the fact that innocent men, women, and children were slaughtered with few survivors. It does not excuse the fact that the NCR has yet to make amends for this and continues to try and persecute the Khans even in moments of surrender.

This post is not to defend what happened but to give a quick rundown of the Khan's history and their history with the NCR. It's to remind people that the NCR is not just their military power but an actual group/settlement of people that were also attacked indiscriminately by the Khans. It's to point out that the Khans were not a band of indigenous people (no matter the comparisons) driven from their homes but raiders who fed into the brutal cultures of the west coast wasteland and were in turn treated to the same things.

My frustration comes from the fact that FNV has so many comparisons to indigenous struggles but the groups it chooses are not comparable at all. Their oppression hinges on not being familiar with their past, which explains why they have the reputation they do in canon. The "tribes" are often not even groups of minorities or have goals/desires out of acquisitions of power and I feel like it is important to both acknowledge that this is bad indigenous rep because it is not supposed to be. It is supposed to be a comparison of the in-game groups and how they all do the same things and justify it in their own fucked up ways, some better at it than others.

FNV of all the Fallout games (in light of it being heavily Western based) distastefully uses indigenous imagery and theming for groups that are sad mimicries of American indigenous cultures at best and outright offensive at worst.

[handsomegentlebutch]

My 3 little cousins were baptized today. "Triggered" is kind of a strong word but being in a catholic church again... I'm a little fragile rn ngl.

[safekeeperscosm]

Azmuth will once casually say during conversation that Eunice isn't a "real person" and Myaxx takes offence when that wasn't the intention, she's upset he would even think that despite her having the same initial thought when she first met her, maybe even a bit salty cause Eunice became Azmuth's assistant so easily while she & Albedo had to work so hard to get where they are, and it's here she realises neither her or Azmuth had treated her as what she really is; a child, and Eunice wouldn't understand that which there isn't any problem with, but when Tetrax & Gluto treat her as she is, overtime it eases Myaxx into the same subconscious mindset, which makes her treatment of Eunice more mentorly (and potentially maternal), and she enjoys teaching Eunice new things and letting her discover the world, at first had a disdain for her innocent child-like wonder but that's exactly it, it's not her fault and Myaxx comes to terms with that, and she herself feels valued and appreciated to Eunice for looking up to her and asking her questions (especially about herself), and Myaxx grows to be proud of Eunice's fast learning and development, all cause she did that, not Azmuth, he may have created her (and actually maybe Myaxx too since she designed multiple DNA collection devices?) but he sure doesn't think of her as anything but a tool, one that can be used for dangerous means too, and Myaxx, having recently coming to terms with love — her experience with Tetrax's worry for her in the field, enjoying Gluto's company — finds herself in the same situation with Eunice, and to love is to accept the loss that could come with it, but to not love at all is miserable, and she chooses the former

and Eunice, learning of care & kindness from Ben, Gwen, & Kevin, she recognises these qualities in Myaxx, Tetrax, & Gluto, and she understands that not everybody is the same and that they act, respond & express differently, so it leads her to believe that even Azmuth himself deep down has these traits, but because he stuck her with Myaxx, she'd come to the conclusion after a while that perhaps he'd loss in the past too, for loving too much, and it hurt him, and he was put in grief, so he avoids her for fear of experiencing the same thing again, but she doesn't treat him any differently, she appreciates him all the same (though can be upset of his dismissals and such)

she may learn of grief from Tetrax too, having met him at his most (physically) damaged (self-indulgent canon divergence/AU/rewrite/reimagine/whatever lol), getting context from backstory, from the people around them, without needing to say much

plus if she & (gran)dadsmuth talked she'd understand where azmuth got the "absent father" trait from, which dadsmuth does regret and is making up for nowadays, and most importantly, sympathise with albedo & malware

[toastsnaffler]

weekend melancholy is starting to kick in >~<

[pennyserenade]

the heartbreaking part about fox mulder believing in everything except for god is that it most likely stems from feeling of abandonment and anger. mulder refuses to believe in a god that could do the things he sees. not only samantha, but with every person he could not save or help. the monsters that aren’t monsters but people. he worked in the violent crimes unit, was an excellent profiler capable of replicating serial killers’ thought processes. he shines his flashlight onto the new unspoken, undiscovered horrors every day. if fox mulder were to believe in god it would to be believe in something genuinely evil, far worse than aliens and the shadow government. he is mean about it because he can’t, won’t, believe in it

[autistic-bashir]

manifesting the willpower to expel covid from my body so my throat starts working again and i can go back to talking about how one of deep space nines biggest strengths as a show is that they don’t go anywhere out loud

[ratinthevoid]

why can't i do anything

[bumblingbabooshka]

More fics should have Vulcans thinking that human kissing is kind of gross but slowly getting a little into it while still also thinking it’s weird and gross. You get me?

[evansbby]

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[sysig]

Alright well that was fun and all but I gotta go like right now bye (Patreon)

[dullard]

im feeling chatty.

i dont currently plan to get more isopods but dreamy species (that are actually within reach. So none of those adorable spiky ones like shiny gators, ancient gators, thai spikies... Just absurdly expensive and hard to get) are uhhhh:

armadillidium cf espanyoli “marbelized”

(pic source) i just loooove the patterning its so pretty ive seen some really stunning ones in pictures too. theyre really tiny apparently. i already think my cappuccinos are tiny and theyre like twice the size of the marbles from what i can tell. itd be cool to have more Sizes u kno. these are the most tempting to me like if i was looking for another species to keep or if i had more room. itd definitely be these. great combo of beautiful pod and not so expensive or notoriously hard to work with or anything.

porcellio expansus “orange”

(pic source) theyre BIG fuckers!!!! not as big as hoffmanseggi but preddy big and very flat and i like their big exopods/uropods (?) (the funky tail things the guys have longer ones of) allso. isolated from the general porcellio expansus from spain which is sometimes calld the beetlejuice isopod and i have brain rot. They do have such cute little striped black and white antennae though, see? 

A strain like autumnal equinox is also tempting but..... idk 

cubaris sp “lemon blue”

(pic source) arent they stunning. ok so i want one of the yellowy ones i think theyre cute but it could be lemon blues it could be jupiters it could be some rendition of the bees. rubber bees, emperor bees, bumble bees.

armadillidium vulgare “gem mix”

(pic source) this is actually a really commonly available mix and was almost my first set before i got that absurd deal on my cappuccinos. I just love how rich and deep the colors are and they all complement each other so well. there are other mixes of other species like ‘lotto ticket’ and ‘party mix’ but the gem mix is so pretty to me

honorable mentions

armadillidium nasatum “peach” - absurdly cute to me. such a pretty color and such nice markings. not SUPER up my alley in terms of what id want to keep but just so nice to look at. if i had space and saw a good deal. itd be tempting.

cubaris sp. “pak chong” - they are also. so cute. they were actually one of the other ones i was considering as my first isopods, the reptile store in my area has some (as well as that gem mix) but i had been worried they would be too hard to care for (and then i went for the theoretically Harder to care for cappuccinos anyway so i had to level up my isopod keeping really fast and early for those little thangs) anyway i like their little red face and butt.

venezillo parvus “kumquat” - maybe i just like the food names especially. bc i have cappuccinos and chocolate zebras at home. but also a lot of morphs have food names. They are just so so cute conglobated and they are teeny tinys. i like their coloration and markings. this section is kind of repetitive now that i think about it

cubaris sp “white shark” - literally would be on the list but theyre just so tinys. idk why but them being tiny seems like a big L in this case but in other cases a species is tinys and im like. epic....

thenks for reading :P :)

[afarthestarsarewaiting]

One day I will stop looking up triggering things on the internet I promise