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2025 reads / storygraph
The Undetectables
urban fantasy mystery
follows a young witch who formed a detective agency with her friends as teens, but they never managed to solve their first case (figuring out who killed the ghost who is now her best friend)
when they’re 20, the other witches have moved away and on with their lives, but she’s feeling stuck dealing with pain from her fibromyalgia
when they get a letter with a new case - the suspicious death of a human with seemingly no clues or evidence other than a haunting whistle, and they get back together to see if they can solve it this time
bi, lesbian, and gay MCs
#The Undetectables#courtney smyth#aroaessidhe 2025 reads#I enjoyed this a lot! Super fun characters#liked the fact that they’re magical detectives but still aspiring forensic scientists; entomologists etc#I liked the exploration of the unsurety of your early 20s especially when your friends are all moving on without you#and her experiences of chronic illness#admittedly I didn’t super care about the mystery tbh. but I enjoyed the characters and ideas#definitely has the tone and style of a lot of british YA I’ve read; and that style of quirkiness and humor.#I see a lot of reviews that don’t like the tone and I wouldn’t be surprised if they’re americans…#I definitely had assumed this is YA - I guess it feels like it’s on the YA/NA threshold. I mean that in the most positive way tho#theodore :( THEORDORE!#sapphic books#bisexual books
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Maria and her little alien brother sketchbook dump from the last few weeks
Minor spoilers for Sonic 3 ig
#my fav shadow and Maria art trope is making shadow about 30% smaller#live action Maria is so perfect in every way#I could talk about her for hours#SHE GOT TO EXPERIENCE THE EARTH#AND LIVING WITHOUT A CHRONIC ILLNESS#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#maria robotnik#space colony ark#shadow and maria#sonic 3#sonic movie 3#fanart#fan comic#traditional art#my art
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HC they first met a year or two after Yelan got her vision; post fighting the in abyss but when Kaeya was still navigating his identity from Kaeya, Brother and Right hand of Diluc Ragnvindr to Kaeya Alberich, Cavalry Captain and Quarter master of the Knights of Favonius.
#We know Kaeya's a bit of a sadist and does leave his men in the dark most of the time#Back when he he'd been newly appointed i feel he'd be quite reckless as to how much 'pushing' his knights could handle on missions#used to working from diluc's shadow rather than being the one to direct commands#And Yelan after her experience in the Abyss chooses to work alone and secrectively so that the lives of her comrades won't be in danger#She sees that Kaeya operates very much like her but he does not have the luxury to work as 'freely' as she does when it comes to official#missions for there are still people working under him#(ofc both of them do whatever they want when it comes to going of abyss side quests)#There's no way she doesn't feel some sort of kinship they're really similar in many aspects#she does not want to see a repeat of her certain mistakes#Yelan is also questioning how the actual fuck do the knights operate because why is a 16yr old beefing with her to get to a mafia boss firs#They come to 'good terms' as time passes where they have mutual respect for each other#both of them try their best to outwit each other form time to time of course#Kaeya being petty(er) and Yelan being 'i need to set this guy straight'#But back then after seeing Kaeya work missions for the first time Yelan's thinking that this kid is too smart for his good#additional hcs for Back In That Day#Yelan: -still hasn't gotten her signature bob. -often uses a crutch because Abyss did a number on her and her pre existing chronic illness#Kaeya- has a fuckass mullet#yeah.. my apolocheese for the ramble#genshin impact#genshin impact fanart#kaeya#kaeya alberich#yelan#yelan genshin impact#kms mention
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Andarna, to an injured Violet: I recently learned should rate your own pain on a scale of 1-10! Quick, Tairn, give her a scale!
Tairn: I can only rate this on a scale of idiocy.
Violet, wincing: 0 stars, would not reccomend.
#incorrect quotes#Violet Sorrengail incorrect quotes#Andarna incorrect quotes#Tairn incorrect quotes#Violet and Tairn and Andarna#dragon dynamics#spoonies#chronic illness humor#quadrant of sarcasm#sassy dragon squad#Xaden to Nolon: Mend her NOW or experience an even lower rating with only Malek to complain to.#Sgaeyl: I’d like to be recognized on this scale now he’s a pain in my ass and the protective coddling is giving me a migraine.
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honestly i'm just so glad that my mom's okay and out of the hospital
that was THE SCARIEST EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE i literally wouldn't know what to do if the worst happened
i wanna thank everyone who supported me during The Mess you guys are the best
#ooc#definitely an eye opening experience because for years i've been like#oh my mom? my mom's INVINCIBLE there's no way anything could happen to her#and now it's like oh yeah she's 58 with chronic illnesses i need to adjust my expectations
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Storytime with mod 🍂☘️, I've had my cat for a long time (she's actually my childhood cat) and she's learned a lot about me. She has often been able to warn me in advance about things with my health, such as when I'm going to have a worse day with my PoTS. I'm not exactly sure how she does it.
I've had her yell at me until I sat down on my bed and pet her (she doesn't usually do this, usually only yelling so I can feed her or put her on my desk), only to discover that my heart rate was 130+
On worse days, she often hisses at me (and has batted at me, both of which are not usual behaviour) just to stay close to me. This is the same cat that used to be shy of being in the same room with a person. She literally sits on top of me to make me feel better (it works)
So yeah, service dog who? I have a self-taught therapy cat
#i do genuinely have no idea how or why she learned this#she learned how to comfort me through experience but i didn't teach her (not consciously anyway) that my heart likes big numbers and i don'#tales of misadventure..#postural tachycardia syndrome#postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome#pots#pots syndrome#potsie#chronic illness#chronically ill#mod 🍂☘️
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I love when i do physical/occupational therapy exercises and I can feel them helping and making a difference in my symptoms or pain levels yayyyy I love you therapy professionals mwah mwah mwah
#very cool when I can feel the tension or pain ease up in certain places as the exercises tone and relax the right muscles#it’s funny because my little niece does OT + PT + speech therapy#and my brother will tell her ‘aw see sweetie even big people need therapy to help with their muscles :)’ when I mention mine. which is sweet#she’s just a baby rn (so most of her sessions focus on things like feeding/swallowing)#but I hope that as she gets bigger it’s kind of nice for her to have an aunt with some similar experiences!#cape town rambles#chronic illness capers
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i keep feeling guilty about the like. state-sponsored employment counseling/resources i'm getting. (i basically have a case manager for job-hunting or continuing education, a work-health counselor to help me balance my disability/health needs with whatever work i end up doing, and uhhhh maybe a couple others i forgot.) but then i remember of the 10 years i've been out of school i've actually been full-time permanently employed for roughly 3 of them, and fully unemployed for about 3 of them as well. and i'm like oh yeah okay. i do actually need extra support & assistance.
#keeping it fun and funky fresh#personal#tales of work#matty's mental health#i need a chronic illness tag#(the remaining 4? years (that feels too low tho) i've done various part-time or full-time-but-seasonal work)#tbh when i think about it like this especially if i compare to. pretty much anybody else i know. it is very depressing#(thief of joy i KNOW but. how can you avoid it.)#like. waow. my older sister did the disney college program and then got hired at her current job where she's been for.... 12 years...#my younger sister worked at chipotle for like a year and then got hired at her current job where she's been for idk 5? 6? years?#grayson had to switch to part time for their health but they've been at their job for 7 years.#meanwhile the longest i've held a job is just under 4 years and it's a no-experience-required bottom-rung customer service thing#that i got pretexturally laid off from. and now i can't get rehired Anywhere.
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It can be really isolating to be someone whose disability made them drop out of school before I even got the second half of my education. I dropped out at 12 years old. I had been in secondary school for just one year. And even when I meet other disabled people who left school, all of them either left for non-physical reasons or eventually went back to school and continued their education.
Its such a specific trauma I have that no one else’s experience can really resonate with.
I was in severe pain during the most vital parts of my development.
I was completely isolated from all peers my own age and any other human that wasn’t immediate family for years. Not one single friend for the majority of my early teen years and for years after that, the only friends I had were online. I’m 20 years old now and the only irl friend I have is my boyfriend.
I have zero education past the very very very basics. I barely even have the education of a 12 year old because I was dealing with getting diagnosed and was barely in school for a few years before dropping out.
No qualifications, developmentally stunted, isolated, mostly house bound, uneducated, and still in severe pain every day of my life. And theres no one I’ve met that can really relate to what I went through.
#i could write a novel about my experiences#there was one person#a very close friend i met online ofc#we had different conditions but we had very similar lives#we dont talk anymore#i worry for her#she was experiencing bery serious health issues before disappearing#i wonder.#chronic illness#disability#chronic pain#disabled#cripple punk#ugh!
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unpopular opinion, me projecting and definitely not what the writers intended but I still don't forgive shiho and especially honami for how they treated saki.
they were her childhood best friends, ones had been by her side since very early childhood and then when saki was going through one of the hardest times in her life they just ditched her. I know the story gives us their reasons for it, but honestly those reasons are bullshit.
shiho didn't want saki to be affected by her bad reputation and the bullying, but that falls apart real quickly. shiho didn't visit the hospital at all, which, what, are the bullies hiding in the bushes? she also didn't text or call and gave saki total radio silence. how do you justify not even texting your decade+ old best friend while they're fucking hospitalized? bullying is horrible and deserves to be taken seriously, but these are high schoolers, they're not wiretapping her phone.
furthermore, it should've been saki's choice, not shiho's. the bare minimum she could've done is tell saki she didn't want to talk right now, even without a reason, but no. not a word. you can argue shiho didn't want her to worry about her, but how is never responding or showing up NOT going to worry her even more? she also should've trusted saki and not babied her.
honami's reason is even worse. nobody deserves to be bullied, and her fear of it getting worse is entirely understandable. throwing your friend under the bus to save your own skin is not. honami pushed saki away and hurt her because of honami's own problems and that's the literal definition of selfish, no matter the reason behind it.
this is coming from someone very timid and terrified of rejection or criticism myself, but if you can't stand up for your friends, you don't deserve those friends. no excuse. I just can't buy any of the other stories portraying honami as someone so kind and caring and selfless when she completely abandoned saki for her own benefit, regardless of how sympathetic that benefit is. no visits, no calls, no texts, no support, nothing.
when saki does come back to school, finally getting to experience the life she's wanted so badly, having to work so hard to just get the chance to be with her friends, they abandon her. again. honami and shiho ignore her, avoid her, and shiho even tells other students saki's not her friend WITH SAKI STANDING RIGHT THERE. that's bullying! you can't pull the bullying victim as an excuse card and then do that to your dear friend!
saki would give anything for her friends, and they spit in her face. she desperately wished more than anything to just be with them, to spend time with them. when saki's sobbing in her bed alone, hating herself and the life that she'd been given, she comforts herself with her family and friends.
friends like shiho and honami, who weren't there for her. who neglect her, and when she finally can leave the fucking hospital - we don't even know the extent of her illness, she may have never recovered/had a remission or even died for all we know - treat her even worse. she had to fight so hard for the simple dream of getting to just go to school and see her friends again, and they decided that just wasn't important enough.
saki deserves better friends
#illia original#is this very biased on my own experiences with chronic illness and friendships fading? yes absolutely#but that won't stop me#shiho is at least trying to be better but honami is a shithead and I hate her#I just cannot get invested in a deep special childhood friendship story when half those friends did something like that#saki was going through a deeply painful time and they just went hmmmm nope can't be there for her literally at all#project sekai#proseka#character bashing#saki tenma#leo/need#AIRI provided her more support and they hadn't even met at that point#saki deserves to be angry and bitter and not prioritize others feelings over her own trauma
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Channeling that high vibrational energy for three doctor appointments the rest of the week and my echo next week!
It's frustrating everything had to be scheduled so close together...but I am a little stoked to see my endocrinologist tbh. Hopefully, she'll be able to help me with lowering my prednisolone process and tell me if the amount of fludrocortisone she just prescribed is enough. With how much the fludro has helped, it has really convinced me of the Addison's Disease diagnosis. I am still really struggling with accepting my adrenal glands have shit the bed. At minimum, the endo is going to get me a full thyroid panel for the first time since my first crisis hit. I also get to see how my liver is doing with its damage.
#LETS DO THIS POO#beans beans the magickal fruit#service dog#off duty#dogblr#dogs of tumblr#spoonie#chronic illness#i am so grateful for her shes so good and helps me so much#i would want to go even less than i already do if she werent there with me#Bean isnt meant to be there for that reason but i had too many bad experiences with docs when i was young not to be traumatized
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Love it when older women think I'm lying when I say that I know hot flashes,
and I get to break out the hypoglycemia anecdote where I left my jacket in the lab, went to the dining hall in a T-shirt (lovely breeze, great weather for December),
ate food,
got seriously fucking cold,
checked the temperature and it was 23°F (-5°C)
and I had to walk back, suddenly aware of the cold and hating that I left my jacket in the lab every time the wind blew
#weaponizing my chronic illness against the menopausal#hypoglycemia#reactive hypoglycemia#this happened in the drive thru and it was kinda funny watching her Express#expression***#young people experience symptoms of things#lmao
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I'm telling myself it's never too late to start.
But why do I feel like I'm falling so far behind?
#career family politics everything#I'm seeing everyone move on and I'm just stuck#I say I want to go to grad school because I don't want any of my experience to go to waste#but I am not lucky enough this round#I want a job but I'm still working on staying awake more than 8 hours a day#I miss my 17 year old self#she wasn't so tired and sick#she'd probably be in vet school earning a PhD/DVM now#and be taking care of her chronically ill mother and grandmother#also being on the front line of mutual aid#first trump administration I was fighting and protesting and everything#second time round I am too sick and tired to do anything#I archived some NOAA USFW data so I guess there's that#I don't know why it's all hitting me now
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#🪶 • anya | she was fire and light and ash and embers •#// before she was anything she was just a little girl#thanks Pinterest for making me think about baby Anya this morning#and how she was pretty much chronically ill and/or in pain for the first two to three years of her life because of all the genetic#experiments abuse and neglect she was subjected to before she was old enough for her father to start seeing her as useful#of course it didn’t stop then but thinking about this silent sick little baby particularly breaks my heart for her
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Also from what I've seen, most people can't cope with the idea that a person can be sick and never get better.
My best friend of like 6 years couldn't understand it, despite the fact that we'd talk every day. She didn't like seeing me happy while using my wheelchair because it meant I wasn't trying to walk. From her point of view it meant I wasn't trying to get better.
We stopped being friends after she invited herself into my uni acom to scream at me about how I wasn't being positive enough and how if I just tried harder and was more positive I would get better. She yelled at me about how I think it's worse than it is and I just have to push through it to get better (like full on yelling at me). It got to the point where I had to call my carer for help because she refused to leave or stop.
As fucked up as it was, she wasn't being malicious and she didn't think she was being cruel either. She genuinely just wanted me to get better. I think that's when it clicked for me that people just really can't cope with the idea that people they care about won't get better. She wasn't yelling at me for hours because she hated me, she hated seeing me hurting and wanted it to stop. She lashed out because she couldn't cope with the idea that it would never stop.
when people tell you to get well soon they genuinely do mean it. It's not necessarily that they don't know what to say to someone who won't get better. They just don't know how to believe that you won't get better. They aren't able to cope with the idea that someone they care about will always be in pain and there's nothing they can do about it.
what is it with able bodied people saying “get well soon” after you say that you’re chronically ill?? like? i am not gonna? and i once literally responded with “i’m not gonna, it’s chronic, as in permanent.” and they went like “oh well, hope you get better!” like bro 💀
#its just like there's a mental block#and it's one that is very difficult to get past#this is just from my experience and overthinking interactions ive had so i could be wrong#i feel like for strangers the point about it being the default script is right#this is more for like friends or people you know better#anyway .. yep#my friend does hate me now because of the fact that i kicked her out and called my carer ''like a 4 year old''#which kind of makes sense#but that doesn't seem relevant here#chronic illness#chronically ill#actually disabled
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“I hate how they regressed Daniel after Armand turned him. Hes just so immature now”
My dudes,
If suddenly I wasn’t living with a sickness that slowly deteriorates my motor functions until I die, and I was able to feel like I did when I was a drugged up 20 year old with no worries of chronic illness hitting me again, you bet your sweet ass I would have zero fucks, I would be telling everyone to suck my dick and wear cool jackets and sunglasses.
Oh no one can touch me because my maker is a 514 year old ancient vampire who has never made any other fledglings?
I can see better than I ever have? Move like the wind? Have no pain? Have no fear of dying? Suddenly my hands don’t shake and my body isn’t in pain?
Oh everyone can suck my dick. Everyone can fuck off. I’m gonna wear my fuck you leather jacket like I did at 20 when I was a counter culture upstart journalist, I’m gonna be a cocky shit head again because guess what? I don’t have pain in my back and body, I don’t shake, I have no issues with my motor skills suddenly failing me.
I’m basically 20 years old again. I’m gonna be such a menace for at least a few years.
Ya’ll act like Louis would have been any better if Lestat wasn’t there to help rein him in.
Or Lestat? Bro broke the vampire laws the second he was turned.
Armand I’m gonna assume was no better then his fledgling is.
Let’s not forget Claudia as a fledgling? Baby girl her first hunt took down like 2 whole police officers.
Let my old man have his wild fledgling years! Let him stalk random men to drain, let him experience being young again. This is like being 18 in college. His first few years of vampire life should be wildly immature and stupid.
Because finally, his body isnt hurting. His brain isn’t deteriorating his motor functions. He can actually do things he used to.
LET MY BABY GIRL BE A MESSY BITCH OF A FLEDGLING. Why?
BECAUSE HE FUCKING DESERVES IT.
Look at this man. Pure cunty ass sass coming off him in waves. As he should be allowed, being in his fledgling prime years.
#interview with the vampire#armand#amc iwtv#daniel molloy#iwtv#lestat de lioncourt#louis de pointe du lac#what#yes#eric bogosian#iwtv spoilers#assad zaman#the vampire armand#i love him
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