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narzissenkreuz-ordo · 10 months

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me, wondering why ive been having panic attacks at night recently

#cancer cw /#your mom has cancer you idiot of course youre gonna have episodes of anxiety and panic #we wont know until after she has major surgery if its spread anywhere else #and even if it has spread elsewhere it should be manageable #shes not gonna die suddenly from it but like #we still had to have the 'if something happens this is what i want to happen with my remains' talk #and holy fuck that shit is scary man #and its completely reasonable to feel this way #but ive been working on emotional regulation & accepting reality stuff in therapy lately #to not make myself go through prolonged suffering and worry #but also not to ignore it completely and go right into fantasy escapism #i need to be able to feel the thing when i need to but not shut down #and let it out reasonably before doing something more productive #maybe i should make nightly posts on my dreamwidth site #since i do find it helpful now to dump out my thoughts in one go and leave them there #i used to have full on panic attacks almost nightly and liveblog them the past like 10 years on tumblr #which isnt good good but i find it helpful to stream of conscious type stuff like this and feel it #and leave it there and go on to my next task #yappin

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unluckedtj · 2 days

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something bad’s about to happen to me

why i feel this way, i don’t know maybe

#tgaa #tgaa chronicles #tgaac #art #great ace attorney #the great ace attorney #dgs #fanart #herlock sholmes #sherlock holmes #dgs sherlock holmes #dai gyakuten saiban #lyric quotes #dark red by steve lacy #idk i had this visual stuck in my head for a couple of days #dgs2 #dgs2 spoilers #i feel like after really marinating in whatever the fuck happened in 2-5 i have come to realize how scary this man is #i’ve been watching a play through to see if i can catch anything i couldn’t on my own play through and like #dude he drops so many hints and foreshadowing it’s fucking crazy how the fuck do you know all of this mr sholmes!!!!#he will always be a silly character but i cannot help but remember how genuinely unsettled i was by the way he acted at the end of 2-2 #and also the time in the waxwork museum where he was questioned by susato and ryunosuke #where his trolling characteristics were basically implied to be a bit of an act #and i was like. damn. holy shit. because i almost fell for that act too. i almost believed him until he said smth like #‘but that won’t fly with you’ or something and ryunosuke affirmed it by saying that anyone else could’ve made a mistake but not mr sholmes #augh. he’s just a really good character ok

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viva-la-bohemia · 2 years

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SORRY WHAT THE FUCK SCARY’S DAD IMAGE OF HER DAD IS, AFTER ABANDONING HER FOR 16 YEARS, HE ASKS FOR MONEY??

#dndads #Holy shit fuck this man #Scary baby have a hug that was awful #I’m gonna think about this a lot #Bc my headcanon is that scary grew up poor and with not a whole lot of money #And that’s also one of the reasons she hates terry bc he swooped in with all this inheritance from Ron’s business #And “saved” them and she’s pissed about it #I’ll get back to y’all with a fanfic or character study in a bit #dndaddies #dungeons and daddies #dungeons and daddies season 2 #dndads spoilers

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b0nelessdoodles · 8 months

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started off the new year running a randomly generated dnd game and this bastard was something like a big bad and now he lives rent free in my brain

#dungeons and dragons #dnd #dnd lich #dnd tabaxi #tabaxi lich #dark secrets my beloved #i wasn't sure if my friends were gonna find them scary or cute 'cause skeleton cat!#but no apparently i nailed the intimidation factor with this guy which i am so happy #i had 0 confidence running this thing but we were all itching to play dnd #and i love randomly generating characters so i suggested they do that for fun #and they all rolled such fun characters that i just went fuck it #and now im trying to casually expand the setting and shit cause id love to play again #one of the players named their hexblood after a noble gas and now there are covens of hags that name their little buddies after elements #and the science kid in me is fucking vibrating about it #then there is the vampire whose dad is like “WHERE THE FUCK DID MY SON GO”#he sucks so bad and dark secrets hates him more than anything its funny af #god and then the water genasi holy shit just wants to be a gardener man #i love them all so bad holy shit

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killmymind · 6 months

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i don’t think i’ve ever felt this lost in my life. tbh

#feeling sad? sure. hopeless? been there done that. anxious as hell? at least once a week. but lost? no. not really #and that’s really fucking scary because i’m not familiar with it and i just don’t know how to deal with it #i can’t stop thinking that i’m running out of time because i’m 25 and i don’t think i can afford feeling this way #taking a break from uni sounds good in theory but in reality? again. i’m 25. i need to at least achieve one thing in my life holy shit #it’s SO hard to see the good even when it’s right in front of me or someone points it out. like having a job or studying or getting to #travel or even just having friends ARE achievements but i always want More More and More i am addicted to wanting more cause it feels like #nothing i do is ever enough. and now i’m adding feeling lost because i’m finally acknowledging the fact that i don’t know what i want to do #with what i’m studying or how to get a different job in the future when i almost have no experience and everything is just so frustrating #because i simply don’t fucking know. i just don’t. i can’t afford not knowing!! everything is so messy rn you would think i’d be thriving #after seeing louis and meeting aria and traveling to germany and i am genuinely so happy those things happened but fuck man there is always #the Bigger Thing taking over and it makes me feel like an ungrateful brat i just don’t fucking know man. maybe i am an ungrateful brat #but it’s just so hard to be happy when you’re feeling so lost with everything in your life and yourself #anyway i just. needed to let that out #negative #effie talks to the moon

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catamaurrr-star · 6 months

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i think hsr is a horror game just for this fucking trailer alone

#the snake eating a bird in the background of red acheron and black swan “dancing”#and how directly afterwards it shows that birds skeleton. hmm #and of course the predator and prey imagery in black and white. with that Damn art style like holy shit #also black swan falling in that weird red and black swirling abyss. as someone who is scared of heights Thats pretty scary #also can i just say. that scene at the very end with all the people falling down from the sky while ahceron is just walking (in the pic)#was the most horrifying part to me. like holy shit man. who used a potion of slow falling on those guys #its just so ominous to me. gives me the creeps #fucking great music choice as well btw #maurposting #i have many thoughts. as you can tell #honkai mumb rail #this trailer really feels like. abstract horror? i dont really know the right word for it #in the best way possible: this feels like something 9 year old me wouldve spaced out thinking about in the middle of class

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nspolaris · 5 months

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read the sunshine court and have never been more impatient in needing a second book my god

#tsc #tsc spoilers #tagging bc im talking in the tags but holy fuck im ngl i came into the book as a jerejean shipper but now im shipping him with EVERYONE #him and renee were so sweet god i cant #him taking her photo and thinking about rainbows 😭#but also excited for my man Jeremy bc he's got layersTM like an onion #need to know why he doesn't like his family and if he ever confides in Jean to convince Jean to confide in him #but also them oggling each other was hilarious #jean said his name once and had jeremy kicking his feet and twirling his hear #jean's braim shutting off whenever jeremy is shirtless avdhdj #need them to get together but i love Jean and his story and im so glad i reread aftg before reading this book #obsessed with jerejean as individuals and i love how much Jean appreciates the othrler Trojans #GAAAAH #also heart was in my ass when Grayson attacked Jean and thank god my boy neil sent out a hit on that fucker #also people realizing neil looks insane to other people like um yes...literally everytime he opens his mouth even in his POV #he says some scary shit bro 💀#adding more tags bc i forgot to talk about kevin but i also can't get over their angst its just so good #their time together at evermore and jean teaching him french only for it to be the used against him by accident #they're too fucked up to ever really be friends again but they've both got their own support systems now #thinking about them meeting to do the interview ... chewing on glass #i have to go ravage ao3 now

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defness · 9 months

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JUST WATCHED MINUS ONE. SOBBING SO LOUDLY AND CLAPPING AND EHERHRHRHRRH

#SCREAMS SO LOUDLY #THEY ACTUALLY MADE YOU CARE ABOUT THR HUMANS #OH MY GOD #the writing was so good #koichi; man :((((( SHALES HIM #adopted an adoptive mother and her adopted child and AUUU HE LOVES them sm;;;#and fucking. the 2nd main star of the show;;; gojira himself!!!!!#his design was a very touched up look from the original movies and AUUGGHHH #and his atomic breath??? HOLY SHIT????????????????#SO FUCKING COOL #EVERY SCENE JES IN IS SSO SCARY #AND THE ORIGINAL GODZILLA SCORE ONCE AGAIN GOT ME NOSTALGIC BRO U WAS TEARING UP. RAAAHHH #I LOVE MINUS ONE WUAAUUUY

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mars-ipan · 10 months

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man. strangers you don’t know but have heard stories about are wild

#marzi speaks #my brother has 3 roommates right #i’ve never met any of ‘em #but i’ve heard stories about them and they’ve heard stories about me #they all have a solid case of young adult man syndrome. aka casual bigotry and self hatred that they’re hopefully working through #and i am an incredibly queer person with radical values #so they think i’m crazy. and i want to meet them So Badly #bc 1. i don’t scare a lot of people. i am harmless. i want a power trip #and 2. one of the best ways to teach people to overcome bias is to introduce them to the ‘enemy’ and have them realize they’re actually-#-super chill people who don’t mean any harm #but i just found out. a few hours ago. courtesy of my brother #that one of them has made jokes along the lines of #‘if your sister comes around let me know i’ll defend us’#and MAKING A HAND MOTION LIKE HE IS HOLDING A METAL PIPE WITH WHICH TO ATTACK ME?????#so now like. NEW FEELINGS #1. holy shit i’m scary enough to this dude to be considered a physical threat??? it is gonna be SO funny when i meet him #2. BRO WHAT THE FUCK?????#like man. my brother’s going thru some self confidence shit so i’m not really mad at him but BRO. DEFEND MY HONOR A LITTLE BIT MAN???#anyways. i do not think my brother would introduce me to someone who would follow through on that threat #so! i’m still excited to meet them :3 #i might wear my leather jacket + doc martens though. gonna be so queer #maybe bring the army hat as an olive branch lmao. but i’m gonna keep it lighthearted in general

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littlegildedswallow · 11 months

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had a dream I was pregnant and my family were suddenly all pro life. woke up terrified and nauseated and sweating from places I didn't know I could sweat from.

#mine #holy shit my sister turned against me and was ashamed of me #my parents were adamant i give birth #seeing the ultrasound was horrific #it was a fucking horrorshow why did i have this dream #i am one of those cuckoo people who looks for messages in dreams you know what that means #I'll be panicking over this for a couple days #i know i CAN'T be pregnant #1) last time i was with a man was half an year ago and all we did was make out and that's around the time #i became firmly anti dating or being with men #2) my muscle content is too high compared to my body fat i literally do not get periods anymore #i woke up like a minute ago I'm still reeling from the dream which is why I'm trying to justify myself here #fuck I'm haunted that was terrifying #I'm not going into details but the visuals of the foetus and my family's intense reactions were SO SO SCARY #like the editing of the dream was like something out of nbc hannibal it freaked me the fuck out #I'm gonna go try and calm myself down holy shit

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princemick · 1 year

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if yall send those asks thats fucked just so yall know. its rlly just, not funny.

#holy shit man wth #we dissagreed on smth doesnt invite harassment like that my god #i fucking messaged them n i hope their good bc this shit can be overwhelming n scary.#kyle.txt

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precognitor · 2 years

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me and my roommates just had to stop a domestic dispute in the hall and nearly got in a fuckin 3 on 1 with some guy on something so how is y'all's night goin :)

#TAPPIN' OUT ; OOC )#This breaks my personal creed of no personal irl bs but holy fuck yall #never been closer to having to kick some dudes ass scary shit man #ask to tag #WE'RE ALL SAFE THOUGH just a bit rattled

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magioffire · 2 years

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when u almost follow a bug blog but then see their pinned post is full the most contradictory tiktok level discourse, some sort of terf/baeddel-ish hybrid ideology and im just like....are you REAL?????

#they said they were against terfs in one breath and then were like men evil trans men evil in another breath #like.....you realize thats radical gender idealogy --#and not the fucking good kind holy shit #thats a kinda brainworm i havent encountered in the wild before #scary shit man #ooc.#if you call mlm 'toothpaste flag users' thats the biggest redflag ive ever seen #just please...just fucking post bugs #except youre so stupid i wouldnt trust you to post facts about bugs LOL

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computerpeople · 1 year

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my mom got very very drunk yesterday and she's an aggressive drunk, not physically but it amplifies her anger and irritation by like 6, and she's already a very very explosive and volatile woman. she got in a fight with her boyfriend and was screaming and drove off to the middle of nowhere and that's why my sister called and im so proud of her for reaching out and asking me to call, and i think she is too, she said she wants to call me more for sure and wants to ask more, and that she felt a lot better after we called. that feels good for me, even if im worrying about it now, at her age i didn't have anyone to turn to or call, so im glad i get to be that for her. i fucking hate my parents man

#my mom is so.#shes just not well man. she isn't healthy #neither is my dad.#working on myself away from them has gotten so scary because. holy shit. holy shit they are. like. broken people. not in the sad way but #like in a 'how how the fuck did you get this far in life without dying. how. how did you fucking do that'#my dad aparently hates his job and wants to quit because and i quote 'the teenage workers wont clean up after themselves'#and now he 'has to' deal with that at home AND at work #and i swear hes makingf it up in his head because literally he is a hoarder and insane and expected all of us to keep the house with him in #it cleaned without him actually putting in any effort. so i assume thats what happening at his job too but thats so baffling because its li #llike how are you a grown man fucking acting like this at your minimum wage job #how .#youre fucking inane #anyways everyones scared he might kill himself too so now ive gotta worry abotu BOTH parents killing themself #and even when i moved he was lkike we need to talk about where my moneys going if i die before youre twenty four #and of course i was like. huh!? i dont think youre going to...?#and he was like yeah we just gotta make sure though #HUH?!#but i assumed thats bexcause fucking everyone has us brainwashed that hes going to die of a heart attack #i brought that up with my sister too i was like. i swear its not even a real threat but everyones always freaking out about it but hes #literally never had heart problems and has fantastic blood tests other than slightly high cholestoral. its literally just because my step #moms dad died of a heart attack and she proojected it onto him and said i was going to give him one #and now my entire family is convinced thats how hes going to die #but my sister said my mom took her to my dads house at one point and he didnt answer the doorbell for HOURS #he was asleep but while drivbing away my mom was like 'phew i thought we were going to walk in on him dead'#BROOO WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT TO YOUR 16 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER WITH OCD AND PTSD FUCK OFFFFFF #I HATE YOU #txt

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arolesbianism · 1 year

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Mizuki vc calling all besties, survive

#rat rambles #sekai posting #in other news I am NOT ok #read the new story. oh baby.#ok ok look at me look at me. this gave me so much that I wanted and more #the big thing is that Im so so happy that they had mizuki relate to mafuyu the way they did #and Im also so glad that they tapped into the mizuki being the token good homelife haver here #Ive always felt that theyre the one with the most reference on what a healthy family looks like and as such felt that theyd best recognise #the true horror of mafuyu's home life #their home was their only safe space for a long time so the idea of losing that hits especially hard for them #also the whole thing abt them realising it was them 'running away' from their problems that ultinately saved them hit me hard #it just hits rly close to home for me. cause thats how shit really is sometimes. sometimes the best you can do is survive in the moment #and I think mafuyu rly needed to be told that. that sometimes you just need to survive moments. its not much but its the most they can do #godddd I love mizuki sm this was such a good mizuki event #also mafuyu. god. mafuyu. fuck man. mafuyu #all the scenes with them broke my fucking heart. and the scene with their mom. I wanted to kill that bitch. holy fucking shit #mafuyu is so so scared rn. theyre in a rly rly scary place. their rapidly losing the only comfort they had and its genuienly rly scary #its also so magical to me watching how far theyve come. they love 25ji so much. they have gotten so much better at expeessing themself to #what rly gets me is just how much their growth shows even outside of 25ji. as they grow closer to a self thats theirs it becomes harder to #hide that self and that in particular is very relatable to my own experiences #god. fucking hell. Im going to kill a man

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scattered-winter · 1 year

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i know this blog isnt generally political because i try to keep that stuff away from funky fresh fandom times but holy shit. that restrict act is some scary ass stuff

#ive been following it for a while now and man.#all i can think of is how nazi germany had their freedom of speech and contact w the outside world cut off bit by bit?? just like this???#and people are just letting it happen now. what the fuck.#(that comes to mind because ive read a lot of ww2 books/taken classes abt the history in that era so its what i thought of first)#its genuinely scary living in america rn like. ik it's not a cakewalk being on the receiving end of this country's shit either #but holy shit. its so terrifying right now.#anyway if you live in the us and havent already this is ur psa to lobby the fuck out of the representatives and congressmen #to get this shut down before its too late #politics #current events #restrict act #winter speaks

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