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angryborzois · 6 months

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man my old school was weird and all but i miss it 😭

#i miss my biology teacher #she was amazing #she was so good at teaching #she didnt just teach biology #she would always teach us meaningful things too #like lessons about how difficult things can be and how life isnt so easy at all even if we're still kids #and about the future things like we don't need to pressure ourselves so much about our future #there were so many things i cant list here #she went above and beyond #and everybody loved her sm #she really took the time to teach us valuable things #and she actually put a lot of effort and time into getting to know everyone #she taught us so much #she was also the first adult i really opened up to even if it was only a little #i think the most memorable event was when I was going through a hard time and I accidentally cried #and she actually reached out to me and made sure I was alright and gave me words of support #and it was just so sincere and kind that i cried all over again #and i decided i could open up to her #and she listened to me as someone who also experienced something similar when she was younger #she was so kind fkjkjsd #i want to go back to visit the school someday (avoiding the weird people of course) but I'm scared she won't remember me by then #but damn #not me crying rn #gotta rethank her someday #i should write her a letter when I'm ready to rethank her #idk how letters to teachers work but im assuming if i mail it to the school and put their name then they'll receive it #maybe ill draw her something when my art skills improve more #or maybe i should just do a holiday letter on those seasonal greeting cards #angryborzois rambles #this ended being such a long post in the tags lmfaoo

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kindaorangey · 3 months

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im a firm egg pilgrim believer and also that if scollace were to ever be a thing they would Never be endgame. which works out pretty nicely

#scott pilgrim #thunder rambles #the timeline is ramona is trans woman and after months of being with her scott starts to question his own identity #less like 'what if im trans' or 'what if im bi' and more just 'what if i could be queer in literally any way'#which hasnt occurred to him in any conceivable way #and he experiements with ramona and then they decide to have an open relationship and maybe #maybe!#during this time scott hooks up with wallace #and maybe theyve kissed once or twice while drunk before this in college but w/e #and they have a thing for a month or two and its nice but not all that serious and actually it does more to bring scott and wallace together #as friends #than it does anything else #because scott is gradually more and more open about the way hes been questioning #and also in general because this is post-canon scott is a better person in general and sure wallace was awre of this theoretically #but now hes seeing it firsthand and they become the closest and most genuinely friends theyve been in ages #and then they kinda stop hooking up and then a while later scott's egg cracks #and its like the umbrella academy car meme. what if ur egg was slowly cracking and the overlap between ur experimentation #with ur identity and the egg fully cracking finally allowed u to mess around with ur cool gay roommate #for a limited period of time before your identities no longer line up for that anymore #anyway yea also ramona realises shes kinda nonbinary and has a sort of transgender 2: electric boogaloo moment #gives all her leftover estrogen to scott😭😭or something

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problemswithbooks · 11 months

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With the tentative and rough translations out, i have to say, yeah, Hori really doesn't get what he's actually writing and if he was trying to make Toga's entire deal a metaphor for queerness, he's ended up being quite offensive.

Like first off it seems he has Toga say she falls in love easily with boy and girls and...animals. Which, I always felt the bird thing as a kid could have negative connotations, but wrote it off as 'she was a little kid and this was before her desire for blood was wrapped up in her romantic feelings' type things. So having Hori reinstate that yes, she does still love animals to the point of blood drinking desire--a desire Hori coded as sexual/romantic is not a good look.

It also just makes me question if she could ever own a pet or if she'd end up killing it because she loved it to much and she needed to drink it's blood.

Also getting her perspective on the boy she attacked isn't great either. The translation is rough and basic so it could change, but I don't think there's any translation that could make the situation not read poorly.

In the rough translations she says something along the lines of "I didn't ask to drink his blood because I was afraid he'd hate me and think I was a decent monster."

I could see an alternative translation being "I asked for his blood and he called me a deviant monster, and I sucked his blood."

Again if Hori is trying to make a queer metaphor with Toga, this is a huge issue. Her attacking the boy was always a big problem, but if he didn't bring it up again I think a lot of casual readers would have forgotten it. But now it's front and center again and brings back bad connotations for Toga and a queer reading of her character.

Because again if we read her blood drinking as queerness, and Hori has already coded it in the past as lust while just last chapter confirming that Toga sees it as kissing in the very least we get two equally bad reads.

A) Due to fear of rejection Toga did not ask for consent and decided she'd just make sexual advances toward someone she had a crush regardless.

or B) She got rejected and told no, and then made the sexual advance anyway.

With a queer reading this only becomes worse because it pays into the really negative and even dangerous idea that same sex attracted people will go after anyone regardless of consent or the other persons orientation. It continues to perpetuate the idea that queer people are sexual predators, who target straight people or in the very least do not care about consent, or are unable to control themselves long enough to get it.

But even without a queer reading what Toga did is wrong. It sucks that people don't get her way of showing love, but consent is still needed regardless. You can't just do what you want to someone because you were to afraid to ask them out. You can't just do what you want with someone after they tell you no. Even if the boy had called her a monster that would not make it ok for Toga to, essentially sexually assault him (yes, kissing someone against their will is sexual assault, which is what Toga sees her blood drinking as).

And I think that's why Toga's character is really hard to get behind for some people--because at the end of the day she's literally just saying "I can't help but sexually assault people (and animals apparently)', and the solution to this is to give her exactly what she wants and apologize for not seeing how much pain she was in when she was actively trying to sexually assault people.

#bnha critical #anti toga #anti himiko #bnha spoilers #bnha 394 #this isn't me saying all queer stories or romances have to pure #but it's not framed as toxic or negative and Toga is the only openly queer character we have that's still alive #(Tiger was confirmed trans in a character blurb not in the text. Any one who only reads the magazine wouldn't know he's trans)#it's also just hard to get behind because the way Hori draws and frames them it feels more that he does it because he thinks it's hot #like the way naked toga is hugging ochako with her legs spread is bad #I mean he could have drawn it with ochako in front to hide toga's body or have toga with her legs closed #or he could have not had Toga's power remove her clothes to begin with #it also doesn't help that we don't get much build up for these characters #like i don't believe either of these girls actually understand or genuinely care about each other #like there was an opening with Twices death for Ochako to start to care about Toga and feel genuinely bad for her #but instead she just kind of decided to care for toga and her smile because Hori said so #like she thinks of her during the speech #but wouldn't it have been better and made more sense if she saw dabi's vlog and heard Twice died and then she understands why Toga was sad #not just randomly think 'man i want that girl who tried to murder me with a smile to smile again'#it also would have helped wrap up the twices death better too

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binch-i-might-be · 2 months

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also my most useless coworker got into light trouble today because she didn't listen to me. felt good <3

#see i TOLD HER that she should take her till and relieve a specific person so she could go on break #like not just close her register i told her to specifically take over that register because the girl was in a double with our new guy #who i don't want to be alone yet. and what does she do? she closes her register and opens a new one #so i was like 'umm that's not what i said. the new guy can't be alone yet' and she proceeds to misgender him and then says she doesn't want #to be in that register because it's too cramped in there. our supervisor notices this some time later and i tell her what i WANTED to happen #and what actually DID happen. aka that my Most Useless Coworker just decided to go rogue and ignore me even when i told her TWICE MORE #that this person is new and needs to have someone with them #and then she had the GALL to try and tell our supervisor when she brought it up a second time later that she didn't know he was new #when i told her no less than three times in that conversation alone. and also what do you mean you can't tell when someone is new #do you remember having worked with them for the past few months??? no??? then they're probably new!#anyway she got scolded and told to listen to me 💕💕💕💕#rayrambles

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dreamcast-official · 4 months

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genuine question am i just a bitch for being upset over something .

#my mom decided to open some of my dads batman figurines. figurines dad never got to open.#theyve been unopened on a shelf since dad died. i THOUGHT we agreed to leave them unopened.#apparently not! because the second my niece decides she wants to play with them (THEY ARENT TOYS BTW) she just. opens two of them.#without even asking me. she wouldve pressured me into saying yes either way so i guess it doesnt matter but.#im. am i just a bitch for not wanting my four year old playing with my dads stuff. especially stuff he never even got to open himself.#am i genuinely just being an ass because seeing that made me want to cry.#i dont care that she put them back in the box SHE DIDNT EVEN ASK ME.#THAT WAS *MY DADS* STUFF. I SHOULD AT LEAST BE ASKED RIGHT? AM I CRAZY.#it wasnt mine but it wasnt hers either. its dads. its his. we shouldnt be messing with it. any of us. no one should be messing with it.#we should leave it alone. its not ours. and its definitely not ours to give to a TODDLER who might BREAK IT.#NOT TO MENTION SHE COULD HURT HERSELF IF THOSE THINGS BROKE.#idk. i. im really shaken up. maybe im just a bitch.

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maraeffect · 11 months

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okay today was like the first time since surgery that i've been able to exist as a human outside my house!! and i had a great time even though i am PAYING FOR IT. HEAVILY 💀

#god my ribs are KILLING ME SLOWLY #anyway i had a good day 🥺🥺🥺 last night my partner and i woke up at the same time #bc we both had to pee. and i totally forgot but when we laid back down i told her ''i'm hungy..''#bc it was like 3 am and i didnt wanna get up. so i just wanted to complain lol #but she woke me up to a big breakfast she ordered in like ''hey it made me sad that you were hungry jn the night-#so i got you and i a big breakfast 🥺👉👈💖'' and UGH it made my heart so happy #and then we chilled out before i decided i could handle leaving home and wanted to go to the mall #and i had a really good time existing in public!!! im getting a little depressed from being bed bound #i FINALLY got after laughter on vinyl after wanting it for like almost 5 years 😭😭😭#and some cute stickers!!! anyway yeah i had a nice day w my baby and it made me happy 🥹💖#as much as im hurting badly rn it was worth it for the lil date 💖💖💖 pain meds should help soon anyway #im just glad to have finally gotten out of the house #chatter #round 2 #also let me just say my previous thoracotomy did NOT prepare me for this one.#turns out the open version is VERY DIFFERENT. which i knew but god its so stark when youre living it #p sure by 2 weeks post op last time i was relatively fine!!!! almost back to normal #oh and uh #autumn

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arolesbianism · 1 month

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I’ve been having a rough few days, but I’ve been feeling a bit better so I decided to make some lil thingies for some spiraling upwards kitties :3

#keese draws #warrior cats oc #spiraling upwards #I’ve posted art of ratstar and pigeonbillow before but the other three I haven’t I think #but yeah these are some more of the minkclan founders #and by that I mean two of them are and one of them was a kitten at the time #lightning is haveniris’ mom but she didn’t trust herself to raise him so her clanmates sort of collectively raised him #and by that I mean mostly pigeon and two other old ppl that aren’t included here #light did end up opening up to him more and acting as more of a mom after he chose to become a medic tho #the two have a complicated relationship for sure but they still care abt each other a lot #oh yeah and literally all of these guys are dead by the time murtle rolls around except for haven #pigeon died about two years before the other two and raincinder has been dead since before minkclan was properly founded #which is unsurprising given she’s such an old withering woman #she mostly made it that long because she was given a guide sponsor life #so long story short not all starclan cats actually get to use the cool starclan powers and those who do are usually ‘sponsored’ with an #extra life and a cool star like marking #this isn’t a well known thing tho and even within starclan only higher ranking cats rly know anything beyond knowing that every now and #then new guides are chosen #now usually what’s supposed to happen is that the sponsored cat has a close eye kept on them and if they are deemed worthy they’re allowed #to keep their mark and become a guide once they die the second time #the main flaw in this system is that the cat who sponsored them has to be the one to revoke it #so if they refuse to revoke it for whatever reason there’s not much that can be done about it #or in raincinder’s case her sponsor ended up fading before they could judge her fully #so even though by all means even the most rebel friendly guides would revoke it easily she managed to keep her mark til death #this was ofc largely helped by her living til 19 fucking years dear god woman #but hey I guess it means minkclan gets a guide even though she’s a rly shitty one #rly that mostly only matters for the sake of nine lives and the sake of travel between starclan and the living territories #which actually does cause a lot of problems when all the guides decide to go haunt a child instead #oh also guides also pass on their mark to leaders who’s life ceremony they hosted #not the guide role tho each guide gets a new mark

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i-bring-crack · 11 months

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Jinhae Exes AU not in the "ones of us cheated" or "it was all a big misunderstanding that separated us" kind of way.

But in the "one of us realized the world is significantly different than what we were thought to believe and now we are fighting in different sides of the war and I still love you but I think I'm right in this ideology game and just want the other to understand and come back please—"

#i just remembered i also had that idea before in a oneshot wip #never truly finished even though it was going to be hella fun #i also kinda made the fic be platonic in ao3 rather than romantic #i mean i like my jinhae #but #platonic AND soulmates AND m/f friendships are just 'MA HEART'#anyways the whole love wouldnt have been different.#like they still love each other minus the kissing and secc #Anyways the plot was about Haein recovering her memories of the past timeline and looking for jinwoo in order to help him defeat the #denizens of chaos aka beasts and their monarchs or just the monarch and their armies #Jinwoo wasnt looking for any help but was kinda lonely that he just kindof accepted the company from Haein and gave her a system on her own #so that she too could become just as strong as her. At this point they also like 'know'they both like each other bc they both did go on a #date but they never truly met one another so they do have a crush but they decide to take it slow and just become friends first. I mean they #have literally have 27 years in this world to spend so might as well try to know each other first.#Haein isnt quick to open up about her problems tho and neither is Jinwoo quick to say ALL that he suffered for the past 4 years as a hunter #including the system's mess #so they often explore more about the world and talk about the monsters than their problems first #That is until Haein is like 19. both have passed like 6 years toguether only trying to find where the monarchs are hi #hidding as well as destroying possible civilizations that could be useful inside the shadow army.#most of the beasts are agreesive towards them too so they kill them without any regards.#and then they finally get to find the first intelligent beings in this world. The demon race. Haein already from the name alone knows they #(also yes the demon race is still alive in this AU)#but jinwoo stops her and she is just huh? we arent killing these demons?#'nope we are killing all of them except this clan'#and Haein obeys but. like. is so confused.#hen when the radir family throws them a banquet. pretty things and events happen and Haein gets the chance to talk to Esil who in turn is #very chatty so she gets to hear a lot about the story of demons and their lives outside of it.#solo leveling #jinhae

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actually-eldritch · 5 months

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It's all me it's aaaaalll me it's all people all the way down you know my best influence my strongest influence comes when I don't mind not receiving credit and my second strongest influence comes when I'm not afraid but the problem is that I'm always terrified and most of all, I'm starving.

#And it's by design #And I'm always thinking about how if I could just get my bloody foot in the door I could get better #I could get so much better #but I'm not gonna get my foot in the door #there is no fucking door to try propping open with my foot so I can reach the whole #everything I've come across resembling The Door I Need has been manned by someone that already decided to help someonelse #Someone who didn't even work out #I try not to think about the fact that my mother spent years and thousands of dollars on helping her niece only for her to return to her #abuser in brasil with her kids and wind up homeless of her own volition. she had a new life made.#my mum helped Her instead of setting me up for life and it was literally all for naught #those kids are no doubt developing DID because they are almost the exact same position I was #meanwhile I had to run away from home and run away three more times and barely scrape by and barely scrape by and barely scrape by #like I'm so glad the little girl got to have a princess bedroom for??? idk how long it was #like a year????? only for it to be taken from her anyway???#I just wish I'd received the diligence she gave those kids #she put more effort in to their bedrooms than she did me when I was young lmfao #and for what. and for what. and for what. and for what.#Showing them how to make stuff too #Is it because they spoke portugese? is it because I wasn't brasilian enough for you? isn't that literally your fault though?#You were the only brasilian in my life and you were my godamned mother how could it not be your fault that I wasn't brasilian enough how #could you shun me for that lmfao

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grinchwrapsupreme · 1 year

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i'm not saying this to make any sort of point but as someone who works in canadian theatre, the wga strike is going to have an interesting effect on live entertainment too, like i know multiple people who have lost their jobs or will lose their jobs soon because so much american television is produced here and obviously the iatse union is standing with the wga which it should and i also know that when film crew are out of work like this they often turn to theatre because it's a different local of the same union (and a lot of them started in theatre) and they wind up pushing permits out of work because film crew are usually members which means they get first dibs on all calls even if they don't have much live entertainment experience and even though attitudes in theatre and film are VERY different. And i really really hope the wga gets everything they want, they deserve that and more, but i also hope it happens quickly before young iatse permits get priced out of this city and we get into into another situation like the one right after the pandemic

#when the pandemic hit and live entertainment pretty much died for a few years #most established theatre iatse guys moved into film so when theatre started up again there was this huge crisis #and iatse was so desperate for permits they were literally advertising for them on facebook and weren't requiring advocates or anything #which is a massive fucking deal and also how i got my permit #but it also means theres a ton of experienced film iatse members who aren't averse to jumping ship to a familiar field #and all those new permits who found their opening in that crisis are now in danger of being out of work #in the most expensive city in the country #and as someone who works at a theatre that's labelled a learning theatre by the union (we get all the green permits)#it's going to be very interesting to see what happens next #fortunately we don't pay as well as many of the other venues in the city #but we're more likely to offer steady work #so film guys who want cash will take the jobs at the high paying venues doing dailies and weeklies #and the ones who just want to keep busy will wind up here #i have two very good friends who work for the film union #one decided to take a vacation during the strike (good for her) and the other was let go from star trek and intends to go back to theatre #but knowing the attitude of the well established members and people who got used to film there are going to be Problems #so depending on how long the strike lasts this could actually have some serious ramifications for a lot of people outside of the wga #again i'm not trying to make any sort of point here just getting my thoughts in order in the wake of all these tumblr posts about the strik

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aromanticasterisms · 1 year

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actually. realizing the god that died in the oasis was in fact the previous hydro archon and that focalors in fact had nothing to do with her death. i'm crushed

#personal stuff #delete later #because. the oceanids make pilgrimages to see her dead body. yea #also fucking. okay. ALL of the previous archons died at the cataclysm????? is that what we're going for???#like except the previous pyro archon cause they were already dead by vanessa's time which was WAY before the cataclysm #but makoto and rukkhadevata and the previous hydro archon?#that's just half. and the tsaritsa was probably around for the cataclysm too. but you get what i mean #unless she was particularly attached to her predecessor and venti had something to do with their death. which i doubt #but like. everyone dunking on nahida for being the youngest archon while focalors took over around the same time???#unless she was immortal beforehand like how zhongli was an adeptus first. how much older could she really be #AUGH. anyway. i'm excited for fontaine and i want to keep my expectations low and my mind open so i don't get disappointed lmao #like i'm expecting one (1) thing but i Could absolutely be wrong #if they decide to use the honkai character i'm thinking of as the basis for someone else cough cough sandrone #but if focalors ends up taking insp from [redacted] i'm blowing us all up. if they do it right i'll be appeased but like auuguh #it would seem like such a waste </3

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gh-0-stcup · 2 years

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Awww Andrew!

#his reaction to seeing spike ❤❤❤#they should have just made spike & buffy start an off screen long distance relationship-ish thing #would have resolved the character weirdness with spike and kept things ambiguous to please fans #make it a spike talks regularly with her over the phone but doesn't want to discuss it with angel and co #because it's his private business and he doesn't need it mocked or scrutinized #keeps it open for audience interpretation and doesn't force smg into the show if they can't get her #this could have been the opening for it - andrew knows so the cat's out of the bag and spike has to talk it out w buffy #which again doesn't need to be shown - it can be left mostly up to fans to decide how she reacted #i just love the idea of them quietly supporting each other while they're an ocean away #very in keeping with their s7 relationship and could be taken as platonic or romantic #spike #spuffy #ats s5 #5x11 damage

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inseparableduo · 10 months

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#wow brain go brrr tonight #but if I am too annoying rn unfollow me tbh #anyway #kinda wanna write more abt Amy #as she is a normal human who respects twins so much #she damn near idolizes then tbh #when her family had treated her like shit her whole life and had planed to sell her off #into potential sex slavery at 14 it was twins who saved her #who told her what was going on and gave her the choice to get revenge #she did. she doesn’t regret it and is glad she had the chance #what’s more she was given that choice and twins have never judged her #never pushed her to open up or join their gang #she decided on her own to do that because she was so grateful and happy someone 2 people even #we’re respecting her. giving her freedom and choices #showed her how to be strong #mentored her protected her shelter her #all at their own expense she knows they were punished for never collecting a debt from her family #she was never pushed to pay off that debt but hopes following them could #but that’s also an excuse because she loves them and doesn’t want to not help them #because of twins she got a found family and can protect others #but little did she know it’s because of her they decided to try harder and save others #;dl

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lesenbyan · 1 year

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you ever just be saying shit and suddenly realize that 13yo you was actually kinda really goin through it?

#personal;#was bitching about the shitty adoptive narrative that so often shows up in books to the (adopted) gf #(aka the moment they find out they decide the family they loved and cherished until that moment was just lying and manipulating them)#and it shifted to the fact that Eve's adopted and never ONCE did I consider her NOT thinking of her family as her FAMILY #even when it's dysfunctional (their Original Fiction had parental abuse I've since scrapped)#And just realized This Evening that I was trying to explore like three different traumas all at once #with a complexity I did not know or comprehend at that age #and I can suddenly understand why I never managed to write much of it at all ever #it's STILL hard for me to write anything to do with my Issues from being mixed race-#I've had a blank gdoc for it with Eve in ffxiv for 2.5 years now and every time I try to open it I get a lump in my throat #and 13yo me didn't even know I had that issue. I didn't know until today that I had that issue by then #I was writing a narrative where I could damn myself but at least there was someone who refused to give up no matter what #even if they damned themselves in the end #damn no WONDER i kin Homura #I've made myself feel things I think it'd bedtime

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ablednt · 1 year

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Being a systeen in an adult system while also being the host is such an experience because like yeah there's the obvious "I have to act the body's age most of the time bc singlets don't know how to interact with systeens" thing but like you'll end up playing therapist for your headmates toxic girlfriends who tell you to call them mom like ok points for accuracy but ma'am I am 15 and I do not want to bear the brunt of your relationship problems. You know this all of our dynamics hinged around the fact a systeen was frontstuck why are you talking shit about me and putting all this pressure on me I am internally a child come on

#vent #i guess?#also if any of said exes see this fuck off idc abt u anymore im allowed to talk abt stuff like this #but like it was actually insane how much they stressed my being a systeen and acted supportive #only to freak the fuck out when they decided their gf sucked and instead of breaking up with her and gauging our reaction #they gave the whole system 'the silent treatment' for months and the shit talked me to friends bc I was 'too nice to be genuine'#and 'guilt tripping them' by repeatedly reassuring them that their boundaries are important and getting anxious around them #like just POV you tell a teenager to call you mom and talk about being family but then you have beef with one singular adult headmate #and you're like mmmmm i will focus all of this on the teenager I think #like god I thought I had a space I could be myself and not worry in but no turns out im too vulnerable lmao #so it's like well now I'm definitely not opening up to people abt the reality of being emotionally and mentally stuck at 15

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reallifepotato · 2 years

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Apparently I've trained the baby to sit on a little stool in the kitchen when she wants a snack. Also she's still talking about that fly.

#she's so smart???#ok and she's walking now like totally without help and a lot #which i guess means she decided she can do whatever she wants #because she walked into our kitchen #opened the cupboard and started taking things out #??? hello??? we didn't say you could do that???#luckily it was mostly plastic containers #and some pots #gave her a wooden spoon she had a hoot #then she got up walked over to the stool and sat down and looked at me like #well where's my snack #i thought she was saying mama until i realised she wanted bamba #i love herrr

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