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I...have to send... an EMAIL! *explodes everything away from me in a perfect circle with my mind*
#shitpost#quil's unholy underworld#goddd I don't like reaching out to people but I want to know this so bad#i gotta know#is this course only offered this semester#because it's got really low enrollment because it's more niche#there are literally only 2 people enrolled in the course rn#so they might only do it in the fall every year#in which case. I need to know#so I can completely rethink my schedule to accommodate it because I really want to take it#it would mess up like half my classes#but! i really wanna take it#so I gotta know. is this just in the fall#or. could I take it next semester in the spring#because I don't want to wait a year#this is. this is something it's better to start sooner#so now I gotta send! an email! to ask to department whether i gotta completely rearrange rn or if. I don't#and i'm on a time limit here#if only i'd know how to properly look up the course when I first registered...I didn't know how they categorized it#so I registered without being able to look it up#but now I found it#and OUGH#i wanna. I wanna take it so so bad
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The 2024 DCA Reveal-versary magma collab has been wrapped up and here are the final results! ☀️🎉🎂🌙
A super big thank you to all the amazing artists that attended the collab to celebrate! We've broken way over 2023's record of attendees with a overall number of 59+ artists! It really is a lively celestial party in there, they're probably going to need more cake!
An additional thank you to all who stopped by, shared the event, expressed their interest and to the Daycare Friend Pick Up mods for also allowing this in their discord server!
(Due to being over the tumblr tag limit for the full credit list, a reblog will be added onto this with the second section of credits!)
⭐Here's the list of all the artists that participated!⭐
@aquacomet - @crystalmagpie447 - @pure-plum
@thatmooncake - @flinxypie - @eggcromancer
@nexerist - @crabsnpersimmons - @zamjd
@darlingdeer21 - @agent-darkfest - @piowasthere
@nighternex - @gyxtar0luvs - @sulfadimethoxine
@pluck-heartstrings - @starshinenoa - @enduu115
@tvboxi - @tinkpumpkin - @marshmallowcat666
@luckyyyduckyyy - @m-mints - @sunshinehare
@ping-ski - @lil-artist-blog-fandoms-ocs - @sipnoot
@synthrobeat - @galaxysugarr - @alynwrench
(I took care to note down everyone who participated and added their credits, but if I missed someone let me know what you made and I'll add you to the list!)
#aqua events#dca fandom#fnaf dca#daycare attendant#reveal-versary 2024#reveal-versary art#reveal-versary#With so many artists it took that extra bit of time to set up the final post but it's here now! ^^#(I had to nab a fair amount of stray lines a-)#Give me a moment to reblog this with the second collection of credits (I would have them all in one post if it wasn't for the limit raaa)#I'm still astounded by how far this progressed over the days#Thank you all again for all the support!
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DAREDEVIL: BORN AGAIN | 1.09
Karen arrives.
#Daredevil Born Again#ddba spoilers#Frank Castle#Matt Murdock#Karen Page#Daredeviledit#Daredevil Spoilers#Kastle#Karedevil#Not Revolution#GIF set#Mine#This show ACTIVELY fights me in photoshop#And I had to move them closer together in that 5th one because they were trying to not in the same frame and it was annoying.#I can understand they had limited time - limited budget - but STILL this scene and#the one preceding it with Frank and Matt fighting together... could there not have been more of THAT?#GIVE ME THE THREE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE (that you've not killed so you can continue to torture them) AND LET THEM HANGOUT FFS#I like that one swing from a building was the limit for Frank. Give him a gun. A knife. Something to hit people. He's awesome.#Throw him off a building so he can land on a nice soft car - no thanks.#And were they just going to walk home (to Franks's)? Or like steal a car?#And there was a guy in the car they landed on/next to and nothing happened there. Was he just a bystander?#Does Matt have insurance? And does it cover his secret lair/costume room?#Did Karen drive straight from the airport?#And Frank just STARING at Karen is perfection. Like he needs to drink her in.#And THIS is the moment I thought Matt first noticed something was up with their heartbeats - just the way he swung around to Frank#I'm picturing Karen moving her seat forward to give Frank some more leg room. Her eyes flicking up to the rear view mirror as she tries not#to grin. Coz they're injured. And on the run. She can enjoy being home later.#And I imagine Matt's slowly assembling some thoughts here about why Frank didn't say Karen called... when that would be obvious.#But also being slightly distracted about now being homeless.#And the relief of Karen being back.
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WE ARE | EP11
#we are the series#weareedit#phumpeem#phuwin tangsakyuen#pond naravit#pondphuwin#my edits#we are#we are series#WHEN AM *I* GONNA GET KISSED IN A POOL BY THE WOMAN OF MY DREAMS????#i didnt even intend to post this#but i LOVE how the blues turned out so here ya go ig <3#also there are still quite a few things i would love to gif#BUT#it's almost 1am here#and i think i'm close to hitting my upload limit lol#so i might continue giffing the ep tomorrow if i feel like it and if it hasnt been giffed 3942309 times yet hakjsfhkajhg
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Female Guidance in Aventurine's Life
One thing I haven't seen discussed in much depth yet, but which I think is especially interesting, is the consistency of female guidance in Aventurine's life: Every single person who we have seen on screen offering Aventurine assistance or making a positive difference in his life is female (with one exception, yes, I'll get there).
Under the read more cause it's longggg:
Before even diving into his family, let's just get the obvious out of the way: Aventurine is, at least supposedly, blessed by a goddess. The very origin of his good fortune--be it actual blessing or curse--comes from the literal "mother goddess" who watches over him. This is one of the only instances in Star Rail where a god character is specifically given a gender, and Gaiathra is not ever ambiguous. She is the classic female fertility goddess with all the trappings of other famous triple goddess figures of the real world. Aventurine's personal belief in the goddess may be shaky, but he nevertheless continues to treasure his people's faith. Thus, at the core, we can say Aventurine is a character who is guarded by the most quintessential mother figure possible.
Now, with the most obvious out of the way:
We know that Aventurine's father died before Aventurine was even born, and therefore he would not have any memories of his father, leaving him to be raised by his mother and sister.
Both women clearly made an enormous and lasting impression on Aventurine; they haunt every single one of his memories of Sigonia and are the key elements of the family Aventurine longs to return to. While he flirts with the concept of death as a way to see his family members again, it was also his mother and sister who instilled in him any sense of self-worth and meaning to his existence, the only things keeping him from giving up on living. His mother believed him to be blessed; his sister insisted to his face that not even the only remaining remnant of their mother had any value in comparison to his life.
It is for his sister that Aventurine first begins expressing a self-sacrificial nature, and from his sister that this self-sacrifice is reinforced when she uses herself as a shield to help him escape massacre at the hands of the Katicans.
It is also from his sister that Aventurine learns many of the deeply meaningful actions he holds onto to the present day, despite having been so far removed from his own culture.
Conversely, every one of Aventurine's early negative experiences on screen appear to have been driven (at least primarily) by men.
Although the Katican tribe of course would have both men and women, the tribal societies on Sigonia appear to be on the fairly traditional side, with Aventurine's mother staying at the camp with her child while his father was the one to go out and hunt for offerings for Gaiathra. This is also supported by Aventurine asking Jade to take him to her "chief" later on. Therefore, it is likely (although of course not guaranteed) that a majority of the Katicans' army was male, and that Aventurine's early experiences with outsiders consisted almost entirely of indiscriminate pillaging and massacre at the hands of what the Avgin viewed as savage, invading warriors. In separate instances, Aventurine was traumatized by these warrior figures three times--first with the loss of his father, then his mother, and then finally his sister.
And even their hope, supposed to come in the form of the "men in black" from the IPC, completely abandoned them, leaving Aventurine once again betrayed by masculine figures that were supposed to be there to protect him. Led by Oswaldo Schneider, another cruel male authority figure, the Marketing Department of the IPC permitted the wholesale slaughter of Aventurine's people--something which we know Aventurine is now aware of.
Then, of course, the next piece of Aventurine's backstory we're given is his male slave master. I don't really need to say anything about this, do I? This man violated Aventurine's human dignity and bodily autonomy, and forced Aventurine's hand in a life or death battle for which Aventurine still punishes himself mentally, even years in the future.
In part to escape the difficulty of his situation and rise to a position where he would have enough resources to--he thought--help his people, Aventurine joins up with the IPC. But when he attempts to make contact with a powerful man in the organization, Diamond, he is instead met by a woman, Jade, who against Aventurine's own expectations determines that she will raise Aventurine up (or use him as a tool, depending on how you currently choose to interpret Jade's motivations), granting him wealth and status beyond his imagination.
(And this line in particular is interesting, because you can take it one of two ways: 1) Aventurine comes from a patriarchal planet that traditionally put men into positions of power [thereby making his own slavery an emasculating act, aligning him further with disenfranchised women]; thus, he is making the assumption that to get anywhere in this organization, he will need to work with a man; or 2) He actually was counting on Jade taking his bet and helping him right from the beginning, because Aventurine perceives women as inherently more likely to protect and aid him than men would be.)
In the end, Jade does exactly as she claims she will, launching Aventurine into a position of power while also closing golden handcuffs around his wrists. She positions herself not only as his supervisor, but as his advocate and ally. She entrusts him with her Cornerstone, a sign of significant faith in his abilities. She even seems to be keenly aware of his bias towards the mother figure, referring to him as "child" in their conversations.
Whether this is genuine or a manipulation tactic can certainly be debated (and I'm not inclined to think at this point that Jade is a genuinely good role model or selflessly supportive person in Aventurine's life), but whatever the case, women are the only people Aventurine even remotely considers to be "in his corner."
We see this even earlier, in Aventurine's call to Topaz. Like with the example of his mother and sister, Aventurine trusts in Topaz's ability implicitly, and considers her above anyone else when it comes to completing the mission in Penacony.
Although of course we don't know if Aventurine has any other friends or allies among the Strategic Investment Department, it seems very likely that Topaz, yet another woman, is the one he is closest with. At the very least, she is the only IPC character (so far) that Aventurine has a complimentary voice line for, one that shows his respect for her talent:
Over and over again, the story aligns Aventurine with female figures in positions of authority, and demonstrates that he is comfortable (although maybe not too comfortable, in the case of Jade) with relying on them and trusting their judgment, just as he did with his mother and sister.
And this pretty much goes off the charts in Penacony, where Aventurine has more involvement with the female cast than virtually any other non-female character (even the Trailblazer!). We set the pattern off right away, with Aventurine immediately being placed into a negotiation situation with Himeko, respecting her role as the Express's leader and working to get himself aligned with the Express by acquiescing to her request for support.
Then there's the fact that Aventurine is the one who finds Robin's body, an event which, although he didn't let it show too much, was almost certainly traumatic for him, given the violent death of his own sister.
Next, twice in Penacony's story, we see Aventurine seek out Sparkle for information. He may not personally like her and her comments may be both racist and dehumanizing, but Aventurine does rely on her--being the only character explicitly seeking her aid, which no one else in Penacony seems to want.
In 2.0...
And in 2.1.
Now, say it with me, guys: Aventurine built an entire portion of his grand plan around the idea that if he looked pathetic enough, a female character would absolutely come and help him. And sure enough, the women come through for him, always! Sparkle gives him the exact last clue he needs to confirm his belief that he could use "Death" to reach the true Penacony, sealing the deal for the rest of his plan.
His plan which also hinged significantly on Black Swan's involvement too, another woman that he views as, if not trustworthy, then at least intelligent and hyper-competent.
Contrast all this, of course, with the treatment Aventurine receives at the hands of Sunday, the lone opposing male character he faces in Penacony.
Sparkle implies that Sunday would humiliate Aventurine in an unmistakably sexual and degrading way, and Sunday himself professes this same desire to see Aventurine humiliated.
Then we're "treated" to the moment in which Sunday uses the Harmony's (or perhaps actually the Order's?) power against Aventurine, in a scene which is supposed to reflect an interrogation but is also, very clearly, another nonconsensual violation of Aventurine's bodily autonomy and dignity by a man. While ostensibly seeking confirmation of the Cornerstone ruse, Sunday instead subjects Aventurine to unnecessary questions about his past on Sigonia, which recall and force Aventurine to re-endure memories of his trauma.
Even if this is what Aventurine prepared himself for and planned to have happen, the pain he experiences is very real, and he suffers both the physical and emotional consequences of Sunday's assault all the way up to his "Death" and possibly even beyond.
(Also, Sunday fans please don't get too up in arms with me for this; I also like Sunday! It's okay for characters to be morally grey!)
I think there's one other interesting example I would bring up here too, and that's Aventurine's conscious decision to weaponize his own masculinity against the Trailblazer. Through the 2.0 and 2.1 Trailblaze missions, Aventurine deliberately acts in an off-putting manner to the Astral Express crew, particularly the Trailblazer, in order to build up to the 2.1 climax where the Trailblazer is supposed to view him as an unrepentant villain and attack him without hesitation.
In order to achieve this uncomfortable, villainous effect, what does Aventurine do? Exactly what other men have done to him.
This is especially apparent if you're playing Stelle because of the ingrained societal taboo of a man entering a woman's personal space without consent, but even as Caelus, it is very clear that Aventurine is leveraging behaviors typically used to show dominance: In a complete 180 to all Aventurine's other body language in the game (normally quite withdrawn, frequently in defensive postures with his arms crossed or hand behind his back, almost always standing several feet away from other people), Aventurine violates the Trailblazer's personal bubble, looming over them (Caelus was sitting in this cutscene, lol), forcing eye contact, and commanding the space while informing them that they will have no choice.
For someone who was hunted, enslaved, had his movements restricted with chains, and due to his own slight stature has very likely been towered over by others who were intentionally asserting their power over him all his life, it is clear that Aventurine associates dominant, typically more masculine-coded physically-imposing behaviors with discomfort and even villainy.
Any girl who has ever had a man loom over her like this will realize very quickly: Aventurine wanted to make himself scary so he made himself act more like a bad man.
(Yes of course I know "not all men." I'm not saying every man behaves in this domineering way or that women cannot be domineering too, obviously, just that Aventurine had a very specific image in mind when constructing a "villainous persona," and the physically controlling tactics most typically used by aggressive men toward women was his immediate go-to.)
But where does that leave Dr. Ratio, the one male character actually on Aventurine's side?
Frankly, I don't want to derail my post about how intensely Hoyo chose to hammer on the message of "Women will protect you" in Aventurine's story with a discussion about a mlm ship, but the take-away here is going to lead in that direction anyway--so yes, Dr. Ratio is the exception.
What is interesting is that he does not come across as an exception at first, and in fact initially appears as another male character being rude and dismissive to Aventurine. Like, there are still people out there calling Ratio an unrepentant racist for this one.
Of course, it's later clarified that this is an act--likely even these insults were scripted specifically to give Sunday's spying ears the "insight" he needed to exploit Aventurine during the interrogation.
But even though it is an act, Aventurine still has noticeable trouble putting his faith in Ratio. He does genuinely doubt him a few times, despite knowing that they are working together to fool the Family.
Even his voice line about Ratio confirms that he doesn't think Ratio particularly cares for him; rather, he thinks Ratio simply tolerates him because he's slightly less unintelligent than those around them.
Ultimately, the entire act with Ratio ends up being a mirror of the real scenarios Aventurine has been experiencing with men his whole life (at least as far as we are shown his life). Men abandon him to fend for himself (unwillingly, like his father, or willingly, like Diamond leaving Aventurine to deal with Penacony alone on the inside). Ratio keeps leaving Aventurine completely alone. Men attempt to humiliate him and violate his boundaries (like Sunday and his slave master). Ratio insults Aventurine's appearance and intelligence repeatedly. Men betray him (like Oswaldo Schneider and his men leaving the Avgin to die). Ratio "betrays" him.
I'm not saying when Aventurine devised the plan for their act, he consciously drew up a list of all the ways men had hurt him in the past and had Ratio re-enact them one by one, but like... that's what happened, whether or not Aventurine intended it.
And okay, the shrinking scene in Dewlight Pavilion was just for fun and probably only slightly fetishy, the devs promise; yes, it was supposed to be a joke! ...But it's also not a mistake that this is yet another instance of a male character in a glaringly metaphorical position of power over Aventurine. Aventurine's tiny in this scene! He's completely vulnerable! He's in a dangerous position and the male character could very much hurt him in this moment.
But Ratio doesn't. (In fact, his line here is supposed to be sarcastic, very ha ha--but also, what is Ratio really saying? "I won't do anything to you without your express consent." What a good guy.)
Virtually everything negative that we see in 2.1 is Ratio doing these things as an act at Aventurine's own request. He doesn't actually disdain Aventurine; his own voiceline about Aventurine reinforces that he sees Aventurine as talented and intelligent.
Whatever you think he was apologizing for in their early scene, he's the only person we're ever shown in-game apologizing to Aventurine at all.
He worked hard to "betray" Aventurine but only as he was instructed to do, and immediately checks in on Aventurine's well-being afterward, even urging him to give up the plan if it becomes too much to handle.
And then, of course, there's the note: "Do stay alive. I wish you the best of luck."
After this point, it cannot be denied that Ratio is unequivocally on Aventurine's side, wants to help him, and is not doing so out of any sense of self-gain but largely because he is a good person who simply cares about Aventurine's fate. By the end of 2.1, it can no longer be doubted that Ratio is the exception to the "gender rule" of Aventurine's life, which--the story shows us again and again--was that guidance, protection, and care for Aventurine come from women, while men repeatedly represent dismissal, betrayal, or pain.
Ratio is, at least as far as Aventurine's story shows us, the proof that men can be good, that things are not as black and white in Aventurine's life as they might appear, and that--if you do choose to ship him with or see Aventurine as attracted to men--his attraction could be validated (and potentially reciprocated) by a male figure who would not bring additional harm to Aventurine's life. Aventurine makes the final decision to live after seeing Ratio's note--the exception to the rule ultimately proves to be the last piece needed to keep him alive.
But I promised I wasn't going to derail my own post about w o m e n, so let me get to the final point, and the one I really wanted to talk about: Although Ratio gets virtually all the credit for "saving" Aventurine in the fandom, Aventurine was actually saved by, you guessed it, another woman.
Not going to lie, the reason I started this post was specifically because I wanted to talk about how Acheron and Aventurine's dynamic was completely unexpected but actually fits flawlessly with the theme of feminine guidance in Aventurine's story.
Despite the fact that Aventurine made Acheron's life much harder and actively used her as a chip in his grand gamble, she doesn't blame or chastise him for those actions. Although she expresses some incredulity that Aventurine is actually that lucky, she then turns around and congratulations him for his ingenuity, immediately supporting him despite the fact that they don't even truly know each other.
Then it gets even more interesting. Acheron, who frequently hits her companions with deep and sometimes very emotionally fraught questions, asks Aventurine: "Have you never wavered?"
We as players know for a fact that Aventurine is constantly wavering, constantly doubting himself, his luck, and whether he'll even live--or even wants to live--to see tomorrow. But we also know that Aventurine is not forthcoming about those truths, refusing to express them to anyone, even himself. The only way we hear those dark truths is through his "future" self (who by the way, is once again another male figure cutting Aventurine down--of course it's himself but it's also, from the player's perspective, once again reinforcing the message that he isn't going to find safety or kindness in an adult male presence). Aventurine almost constantly deflects and diverts when his emotions or struggles are brought to the fore (unless he's divulging them for the specific purpose of allowing someone else to weaponize them). "I'm fine," he says, like a lying liar who lies.
But he doesn't lie to Acheron.
He chooses to be completely candid with her, to lance open the deepest wound of his life--that he can win and win and win and still have lost everything. The glitz and the glamour has all been stripped away here, at the end of everything, and Aventurine finally feels safe enough to admit that he fears he has absolutely nothing in his life worth living for.
And then, we get this direct parallel: Aventurine looks to Acheron, the woman now before him, for guidance, for explanation, exactly as he looked to his sister in the past.
He needs help, he needs answers, and he is continually seeking that help from the female figures in his life, whose support and kindness echo the lost care of his mother and sister.
"Go where you should be," Acheron tells Aventurine, guiding him across the river of death just as his sister insisted that he flee through the rain toward life.
Look guys, Acheron's even the one who reminds Aventurine to look at Ratio's note in the first place because apparently being an emanator of Nihility gives you x-ray vision, but my girl just gets no credit at all for being Aventurine's real savior, come on now!! Yes, Ratio's note was the final reminder Aventurine needed that someone would be waiting for him on the other side, but Aventurine would never have even gotten to the point of being willing to read that note if Acheron hadn't stepped in and provided him an answer to his question.
She feeds him back his own answer: "Why does life slumber? To rehearse the death for which we are not currently prepared." It is Acheron who reminds Aventurine that giving into the Nihility is pointless, and that rather than simply embracing a meaningless death, it is up to humanity itself to find and make meaning by living. It's this, not Ratio's note, that Aventurine gives as his reason for choosing to go on when asked by his own younger self. It's Acheron's words that finally give Aventurine an answer--why do we live just to die? Because there are people we can still make proud. Because when we go into death, we should do so with our heads held high, having achieved our own sense of purpose in this life.
Ratio gave Aventurine a promise: Someone is waiting for you to come back.
But Acheron gave Aventurine a reason: If life is inherently meaningless, doesn't that just mean you are free to give it meaning yourself?
She saved him, as women have been saving him all his life.
Anyway, this has already been horrendously long, but really what I wanted to say is that I think it is absolutely fascinating how consistent Aventurine's writing is when it comes to portraying where his support comes from and who he seeks guidance from. (Psst, just in case you still haven't figured it out, it's women!) In virtually every instance we are shown, we see the message reinforced that women are Aventurine's greatest allies and role models, while male figures are continually positioned to intentionally or unintentionally let him down and cause him distress.
"But women playing the supporting role to a male character is nothing new, Star, why are you so excited by this?"
Because the role women are playing in Aventurine's life is not the subservient supporter and emotional crutch role that female characters all too often play to male counterparts. None of the women in Penacony or Aventurine's past were there to do the emotional labor for him, to be a trophy or prize, or to cater to his needs. They don't exist solely to help him fulfill his character motivations; they aren't following him around waiting for his next request as their only role in the plot.
Instead, with Aventurine's story, we almost have an inversion of gender roles, where the male character eschews the stereotypical "men are leaders, fighters, and stoic heroes" archetype. Instead, no matter how hard he tries to hide it and keep a stiff upper lip, it is clear from 2.0-2.1's story that Aventurine is a deeply insecure, lonely, and explicitly traumatized survivor of genocide, slavery, and exploitation. Unlike most male characters, who are very rarely portrayed as genuine victims--because come on, shouldn't men be strong enough to fight back? Shouldn't men be able to shrug it off when they are hurt, emotionally or physically? (Of course I'm rolling my eyes here!)--Aventurine is belittled, humiliated, emasculated, and victimized on-screen, roles almost exclusively reserved for women, for whom surviving victimization in fiction is seen as noble.
Meanwhile, the women in Aventurine's life take on the roles traditionally given to male characters. They're both emotionally and physically his protectors. Aventurine's sister gave her life to guard his safety; Acheron ensured he could safely pass beyond the river of Nihility into the Primordial Dreamscape. They give him the tools necessary to succeed where he could not succeed on his own. His plan could never have gotten off the ground without Topaz and Jade entrusting their Cornerstones to him. The knowledge and capabilities of the women around him--not their "feminine charms"--are what allow them to help keep Aventurine on the right path even though he does waver. Even women who disrespect him, like Sparkle, still play a positive role in his life, able to provide him insight gained with their own intellect and talents.
When he has no one to rely on and doesn't know what to do, Aventurine is able to continually turn to the women around him, asking for and receiving not servitude or fawning, but their genuine wisdom and guidance.
tl;dr: If nobody else has him, Aventurine knows this random woman he met two minutes ago on the street will have him, because the women in his life literally never let him down.
(It's just so, so good, and ultimately, it should be very clear why Aventurine's story is as popular with women as it is! A+, Hoyo!)
#honkai star rail#aventurine#acheron#topaz hsr#honkai star rail meta#character analysis#there's a bit of#ratiorine#in here too#but mostly I ramble about WOMEN#thematic parallels#thematic parallels everywhere#it's long#I'm sorry but not really#sometimes you act like a normal fan#other times you're me#and write essays that wouldn't be out of place in gender studies class#also I hit the '30 images per post' limit and had to make do#please ignore the terrible merging I did of the photos#don't perceive my MS Paint job
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Do you even know whether you're running toward or away from something anymore? I guess it's all just running, all the same.
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#the sims 4#ts4#ts4 screenshots#ts4 alpha#ts4 edits#ts4 story#The Journey Forward#ch: Sabrina#so i'm def not committing to full time storytelling again bc I SIMPLY do not have it in me#HOWEVER#i'm going to get this damn book done one way or another#and if that means recreating every major scene in the sims to do so then SO BE IT#if anyone remembers any of the many iterations of this scene i've played around with over the years (including the original)#let me kith u#this is my first real utilization of the increased picture limit on here and lemme tell u#i'm about to be a PROBLEM#where was this when i was in my storytelling prime#anyway i'm v happy with how this came out#although i am not happy to retraumatize Bri once again#the story's changed a lot but there's still a ton that remains the same#bc honestly the bones of this story are still etched into my soul#it just need a little...refining#and i rly hope if i have any former readers that are still around that you guys like the changes i've made#and i'm really excited to have y'all along for the journey forward#har har see what i did thar#i think that's my cue to skedaddle#i'll see myself out
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You know you can always come here if you're in need, son.
#iwtv#iwtvedit#interview with the vampire#louis de pointe du lac#jacob anderson#sorry these gifs are low quality i'm obsessed with the acting choices here & had to try to capture them#despite my limited abilities#god. it's so painful.#he's doing so fucking bad! the rage the sorrow etc.#the smile and look away. it breaks my heart every fucking time.#anyway. agony that i have inflicted upon myself.#😭😭😭😭
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ISAT & Dungeon Meshi swap!
#in stars and time#ISAT#Siffrin#Loop#Dungeon Meshi#Thistle#Mithrun#This is incredibly self indulgent art but I've been doing commissions for other people - I can have this treat.#Two series that have me in a death grip right now and boy did the realization of the parallels between these characters hit hard.#Siffrin and Thistle are the ��Forgot what it was all for” duo. The “I'm scared to let it go (it must be let go)” duo.#Loop and Mithrun are [REDACTED] [GO CHECK OUT THESE SERIES SPOILER FREE]#God I have so much to say about the Loop and Mithrun parallels. I won't here because I refuse to spoil people on ISAT.#What I *will* say is that both these characters had a similar curve in my interest in them.#Which is “I was ambivalent until the near end - where they then shot up to become some of my favourite characters ever.”#We love characters with an incredible arc that reframes them so intensely that you the reader will never be the same after.#Anyways! (rotates both these crossovers in my head at a rapid orbit and gazes at them fondly).#This is my sandbox and I get to eat the sand!!!#I've got some MDZS/ISAT swap content coming soon as well. My sand eating knows no limits apparently.
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a few months ago giffy was like "haha hear me out, what if tattoo au" and then we blacked out and talked about nothing else for like three weeks
#my art#one piece tag#zosan#if you've been here since 2012 then a) i'm sorry. thank you for your service. b) PLEASE have a Sensible Fucking Chuckle with me about this#honest to god the ufnniest possible thing that i personally could have done in the year 2023#if you're wondering what happened in 2012 then please leave that stone unturned. tghank you#anyways this whole thing brings me INSURMOUNTABLE joy ask me any question about anyone and i am sure i will have an answer#we have meanings or reasons for just about everything visible here and uhhhhh soooo so so so much more (ask me questions.. ask me....)#fitting the general fuckbonkers insanity of one piece into a modern au was both challenging (fun!) and INCREDIBLY hilarious#giffy is the funniest fucking person on the planet for coming up with half the situations that we shoved everyone into#(i did these in.. october i think?? maybe earlier? during the time i limited myself to sketches only)#tattoo au tag
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releasing my fav whore officially into the world yay! his one goal in life is to make everyone into catpeople too
#and doneeee i forgot to save the first time so i had to redo the portraits#finally an official page for nicola my... not really my son that feels too familial he's my homunculus#but yea he's here in better detail!! i finally have a good ref for him!!!#most pc-like of all my pcs so he also gets the limited expressions. he's great at compartmentalizing#and just forgetting the bad stuff 💥💥💥 my parents forgot about me? my bfs just wanna use me? who cares#i'm happy rn and my stress is low so obv i'm fine -w-) <- nicola#well that's all! i love nicola and i hope my catboy touy can play w everyone here#my art#dol#dol pc#nicola the lovesick#intro page#whitney the bully#kylar the loner#alex the farmhand#robin the orphan#catboy
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eugene sledge & robert leckie // "station to station"
it's too late to be hateful the European canon is here
-> WATCH ON GOOGLE DRIVE
(i've been thinking about this video for a long time, but this gifset by meg @ww2yaoi really inspired me to finish it. i also drew a lot of inspiration and themes from where to begin by ama @warriorgays. thank you both!)
some content warnings under the cut:
i wanted this video to be a really comprehensive dive into both leckie’s and sledge’s arcs, which meant including the particularly horrible parts of the war: namely the dehumanization of japanese people, the way the marines used that dehumanization to justify their actions, and how it eroded their own humanity in turn. as such, i included a lot of elements of the show that i wouldn’t normally put into a video and that i don’t often see in visual fanworks, so i wanted to content warn accordingly. this video includes (in addition to the usual canon-typical violence and discussion of ptsd):
canon-typical racism including racial slurs, desecration of corpses, animal cruelty, frontal nudity, and suicide
#(google drive link included in case it gets pinged off youtube for any number of reasons eek!)#for a little bit there i REALLY did not think i would finish this before the deadline#and then the setback of realizing the tumblr video time limit is 10min................LMAO#kbsd.amv#kbsd.hbow#kbsd.tp#robert leckie#eugene sledge#sledgekie#hbowaredit#hbowardaily#hbowarsteal#so uh. obviously many things to say about this lmao#this took FOREVER to storyboard. i literally made two different spreadsheets about it lmaooooooo#but i'm very very very proud of how it turned out#i never thought i'd make a video longer AND more complicated than destiel bat out of hell. yet here i am#i've had the idea forever to do a video showing all the parallels between them as well as the places where they contrast in really interest#all in the pursuit of illustrating why i think they'd be such a compelling ship if they did have the chance to meet again#(please read the fic i linked in the caption ahhhhhh)#and i wanted to do a last 5 years sort of thing where one arc goes forward and one goes backward and they meet for one moment in the middle#for several reasons: 1) because it would be a VERY fun editing/logistical challenge#2) to suggest that leckie could perhaps regain some peace/faith after the war with gene#hence paralleling leckie in the church to eugene in the field (nature as his sanctuary/place of worship)#3) so i could get a little sickos with the sid/vera parallels#(obv they're not EXACTLY sequential but i think the places where i deviated make sense for the buildup of the video)#as i said in the read more i didn't want to shy away from the shittier parts of their arcs/the war#because that's a huge part of where i think they'd have really compelling differences to work through#i also wanted to get Critical with it and address the way they all talk about the war/their enemy/their cause#('the European [western] canon'). i tried to be purposeful with how i used those scenes so i hope it wasn't excessive#ignore the youtube caption if you click through. it was some overly academic note i typed up to hopefully avoid a takedown LMAO
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that news just completely tanked my mood and now i'm literally just sitting here like this forcing myself to draw funny starfish. WB give me Porky and Daffy's adoption papers WB give me custody rights WB i will pay you.
#genuinely don't know the last time i've been this pissed#AND LIKE#i knew it was gonna be limited anyway#it's a miracle this exists at all#there will be a bluray#but god i'm so mad and upset like earth shatteringly so#i'll be fine but 💔 it was nice seeing everyone get a taste of my world for a change#have been told a lot of kind things and been loving hearing peoples reactions#and i just aughhhhhhhhhhh i selfishly dont want it to end#im so madddddddddd#IM SO MAD GUYS#it is pretty funny though sitting here at my desk needing to draw funny starfish and just brooding and angry crying while the TDTEBU#soundtrack loops in my headphones#i need to like stick my head in a freezer or something <????????????????????????????????????#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!IM SO MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ill be fine in like a half hour its fine its fine but oh man i just had to get this out#😍 fuck#i gota work on my own pig and duck stuff i gotta i gotta
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While my friends were getting high and chasing girls down parkway lines I was losing my mind Because the love, the love, the love, the love, the love that I gave Was wasted on a nice face
#braime#valyrianscrolls#jaime lannister#brienne of tarth#joanna lannister#EYE hope this doesn't come across as very 'cersei is the devil on his shoulder and brienne is the angel'#bc the joanna dream imo really shows that both he and cersei act like devils to each other#they are man made monsters but they also help each other along their monstrous paths#and tell themselves they have no choice but to get worse. but joanna looks him dead in the eyes and goes#'no. that's not true. you had nothing but bad choices at times. but you also made bad choices freely. look at you both now.'#i almost put the 'so i put a bullet where i should have put a helmet and i crash my car bc i want to get carried away' on here too#with the tommen dissociation scene & the sept scene but i was like this is already too fucking long i'm gonna hit the image limit#also tbc 'wasted on a nice face' is about aerys and the kingsguard lol
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did i really cry at the end of an (maybe) isekai where the answer to prevent a doomed narrative is a fix-it fic ( or in that case a rough animation sequence) because i did.
i've seen a lot of people giving their own thoughts and interpretation of the finale, which made realized that THIS! is what media does to fans. We consume it, we digest it for a while, and then we move on. But not for a majority of us. There are, and will be, media that stays with us forever.
Take Natsuko, atop impacted her in such a way that it influenced her life. From the choices she made and people she met, that movie (and Luke) as with her through. in her highest and her lowest, but was always by her side, reminding her why she's pursuing this dream. we may never know if she would have taken the path of an animator if she never that movie, but we can assume her life would be different either way. that's how important it atop is.
Sometimes, you will come across something, for the first time, with fresh eyes that is engraved forever in your mind, heart and soul. that you love wholeheartedly, that love is real because it makes you happy. So that's my take on Zenshu, a beautiful love letter to artists who'd been inspired to take a pencil to draw, to write, to mold, and it blooms into passion and commitment towards their future of what inspired them to pursue the career that brought them so much joy and love in the first place.
#my thoughts#zenshu#natsuko hirose#luke braveheart#mappa studio#What truly broke me was destiny assuring the kids while being disintegrated and Natsuko realizing how much Luke and atop truly saved her#And the twist with little Natsuko telling her to draw#How many of us drew a what if scenario wto fix our fav movie or situation#I could tell you I did#I've seen this show being compared to princess Tutu and I couldn't agrees more#Defying the narrative trope is what I live for#Honestly I'm kinda torn between wanting another season but also being content with this being a limited series#But also it give us#The fans!#To decide what happens next#Whether be in artform or writing or any form of multimedia we want to create more content of it#I'm kinda spitbaliling here don't mind me just a girl with too much time on her hand as she hyperfixate on a piece of Media
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VARGASTOBER - day 1 : memories

#vargastober#vargastober2024#HELLLO#HELLO HELLO IM EUPHORIC . GOD#it ended up looking even better than i expected !!!!! hhhell yeah !!!!!!!!#i'm like LOOK GUYS ( pointing at the screen ( I MADE THIS#i had to work on this one yesterday actually#i won't be home today . so i had to make sure i could actually get this one posted on time#it's currently 3:40AM . this will be posted idk at 1PM#i need to write a whole entry of the process but i didn't take any screenshots of it . great#i banged this one like in 5 hours . LIMITED TIME#NO TIME TO TAKE SCREENSHOTS OR WRITE NOTES#anyway don't want to talk too much here . I ENJOYED WORKING ON THIS ONE#vargas#scriabin vargas#vargas zarla#scriabin#zarla s#sunny's art#I HAVE A BUNCH OF EDGAR / JAKE DOODLES AND I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO POST THEM RIGHT NOW#two posts in a day is that too much#i'll save them for later . maybe i can make more in the meantime
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"You were born inside your head / And that is where you'll be when you are dead / You are just a boy, you are no man and / Nobody you know will understand" - Things to Do by Alex G
#ESRMT AU :>#Limited caption this time around because I like it just being the song lyrics#so that song has just been in my head and just I had to draw it with the Witchcraft SMP Duo I love the most#scott smajor#smajor1995#smajor fanart#zombiecleo#Zombiecleo fanart#fanartist#fanart#also didn't want to fully render this cause I liked how it was so I just did simple shading and damn this drawing in particular fucks#witchcraft smp#<- but like not really but like kinda it's an au that's why scott doesn't have black hair#Madi's art :>#also you can not tell like you absolutely can't but Scott is supposed to be wet. Wet Pathetic cat of a man. but obviously that doesn't come#through super clearly here- oops-#also didn't want to do like a full background so I gave the impression of a background okay okay#dangthatsalongname#just Shakes them god I love the platonic soulmates and their best friendsisms okay okay and yes it is in my au because if it wasn't I would#simple perish like goddamn#anywho I should stop rambling BUT YEAH NO I'M JUST HAPPY TO HAVE THIS DOODLE FINISHED SJDVNDFJVNDF
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