#and im fine w/ that lol im just so confused has to like. how ppl deliberately misunderstand henrys character

[wheelercore]

Babe get ready, another totally incorrect reading of henrys character by a billy stan just dropped

[beautifulpersonpeach]

BPP, I'm not one to cry over the hate the boys get because I truly believe they are resilient as hell and I try to curate my space as much as possible so that I'm not subjected to it. Im so bummed though about Hobi's JITB hope edition dedication and how he was concerned that his and armys relationship wouldn't be able to get past him not releasing a physical. Im disappointed that solo narratives were able to infiltrate army spaces and convince the boys to change their mind about something. Im really sending all the love and good energy to Hobi and all the members today and I sincerely hope this wont occur again in the future. Thanks for letting me use this space to vent a little

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Ask 2:

i'm honestly a bit confused about this hobi thanks to letter bpp. i went back to your post where you talked about jitb and you were right that this was his decision, but were people wrong to ask for a physical album?

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Ask 3:

People on Twitter keep whining about how ppl complaining about jitb album format made Hobi feel bad and I of course feel bad he was disappointed with the feedback but it's such a mind numbingly stupid thing to be mad about he's a professional musician. It's part of his job fans dont have to like everything all the time sometimes people aren't gonna like a song or even an album or the photoshoots or artist merch or styling or if you choose to release your album as a piece of colorful cardboard with no cd and everyone just has to cope with it. Hobi is a first day million seller and we got live versions of some songs now people need to take the w and be happy and everyone who wanted a physical physical better be over the fucking moon

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Hi Anon(s),

Anon in ask 2, since you're the only person actually asking me a question (lol), I'll work with your ask.

"were people wrong to ask for a physical album?"

Let's look at it this way. If Hobi released a song you didn't like, would it be wrong for you to say you didn't like the song, and mention instead the genre of music you'd like him to do instead?

The answer to that, is no. Obviously. As I've been saying, I think it's perfectly fine for you to not like something BTS /Hobi does, the music they make, choices you disagree with, etc, and it's not like there's a gag order in the fandom so of course you can say so and leave that feedback for the artist because they monitor fan chatter. You'd be right to do this, and it works both ways for positive and negative feedback.

Now, would you still be right if you:

Defaulted to asserting that Hoseok had no agency and that the choice of the song (or no physical albums) was forced on him by the company

Trended hashtags with your demands on him, asserting that he was a pawn the company was using and sabotaging to prop up maknae-line members

Threatened to boycott and actually boycotted his album

Review-bombed Weverse album app, Weverse shop app, and Weverse app

Reported and took down ARMY playlists for JITB that included other members' songs

Threatened to send trucks stating your demands for a physical album (or to continue the example from above, a song genre you prefer)

Became abusive to other members in the group, asserting that they are complicit in Hobi's 'mistreatment'

Took your frustration out on other members, disparaging them and their solo debuts

Threatened the other members, Bang PD, and PDogg with physical harm

Continued this barrage for months on end

Etc...

Would you be right to do this?

The answer to this, too, is no. Obviously.

Hobi akgaes who didn't get a physical album did all of the above for their 'feedback' because of what fundamentally motivates them.

The thing about akgaes is that at the crux of it, they don't actually think highly of the person they stan. Especially in the case of BTS solo stans. If you listen to akgaes talk about their 'fave' members... pick any member: Hobi, Jimin, Taehyung, etc, they all think said member is "too kind", "too humble", "too helpless" etc, to assert themselves to receive things they actually want for their careers within reason. Akgaes in general don't actually think the artists have any real say over their career direction.

They ultimately consider that artist a puppet who is supposed to bend or acquiesce to meet any demand made of them, and so when they see outcomes they don't like, the thought that it could be a choice the artist agreed to (talk less of it possibly being the artist's idea) is completely foreign to them. The only thought in an akgae's mind when they see outcomes they don't like is how to switch out who is controlling the puppet, how to force an outcome on and for the artist, an outcome that the akgae thinks is best for the artist's career in their own imagination.

They're delusional enough to believe that with their limited information of the artist's plans, resources, and limitations, that whatever they envision as goals for that artist aligns precisely with what that artist desires. They never really frame these demands as things they'd personally like or want, but as something that the artist secretly wants or outrightly deserves which the company maliciously withholds for *insert your favourite conspiracy theory here* reasons, that necessitates the akgae intervening.

So, where (some) ARMYs could look at the JITB rollout situation and think Hobi was likely involved in that outcome, even if we didn't like the outcome; where (some) ARMYs could see how even if Jimin didn't get all the MVs due to limitations unknown to us, that Jimin still has agency to effect any changes he wants in his career; where ARMYs could see how all these imperfect outcomes are still possible even while the members retain their agency.... akgaes instead default to catastrophizing any outcome they disagree with, and actively work to remove/change who controls manages the puppet artist to give them the outcomes they think is best for the artist.

As with everything else in fandom, the devil is in the details and it's unhelpful to talk in very general terms about fandom dynamics sometimes because we all know different factions could say similar things but have very different motivations. And that a lot of 'fans' are actually a bit insane. I mean, I know many of my followers are newer fans but you all should have seen by now that something like 90% of what happens in fandom is fans of various kinds criticizing things of all sorts, and that what counts as 'criticism' here covers a very wide spectrum, from abuse and slander to frankly insane irl/physical attempts and threats to change/control the artist.

Of course, ARMYs in true fandom fashion try to correct for this impulse by overcompensating, either due to

Their own guilt in joining in with mantis and akgaes at the time, or

Performative bullshit to make up for being hypocritical or to virtue signal over other ARMYs, or

As a natural consequence of how information is communicated in social systems, or

Some other reasons I can't think of at the moment.

Now the refrain from some ARMYs is that voicing any dissatisfaction with anything whatsoever is wrong. But at this point, after everything I've written above, I hope it's clear that I think fans can, should, and do express when they like and dislike certain choices, if they like. The difference between a fan and any other faction though, is that fans actually respect the artist, and recognize that even with the music industry as shady as it is, even if outcomes aren't always perfect or there are outcomes fans disagree with for the artist, that the artist is the person who ultimately knows what's best for them and has the tools to effect any needed changes. Especially in the case of BTS. BTS knows what's best for BTS and they have the ability to choose and work within their teams and the industry to effect any real changes or outcomes they want for the management of their careers. BTS does. Not Sally from Ohio, nor Jiwon from Jeonju.

In my opinion, at least.

[1eos]

its really funny you say the author drew from real life bc recently one of her negative reviews got a lil bit of attention on tik tok for that book & it just tears into her for basically writing a self insert among other things.

i got this ask a few days ago and didnt quite get it but finishing the book and reading the reviews i get it now......it seems that the more you know of rfk the more you'll hate yellowface 😭😭😭 which is interesting....the main valid criticism ive seen so far is that she's been accused of colorism and her self insert was too and it was hand waved away....like that's weird....that's suspicious. and i get what ppl are trying to say...rfk uhhhh poking fun at her critics is annoying and i guess i could see it as trying to change the narrative or point the finger in a different direction but the themes in yellowface aren't wrong? and i don't think an author having a self-insert is inherently bad? at least not in this case....

like. at the start of the novel athena is propped up to be a saint after death even tho no one liked her and then it was revealed she leeches off pain. not good. but she also was a victim of the singular minority thing in publishing but she also didnt go out of her way to uplift other asians in writing. she's a complex character with a lot of faults its not like rfk made her a mary sue that was confirmed to do no wrong. so ppl are mad that she drew from real things and is probably putting some of her real feelings into the mix but i feel like every character gets a HEALTHY dose of reaming and what's 'hand waved' away is real life. like? 😭😭😭😭 cassandra clare is a freak and a half and had a booming career. idk ive read ego inflating self inserts and this didnt really feel that way to me bc EVERYONE is painted as in the wrong you know? the critics are right but they also thrive on negativity. the writers are often awful ppl but theyre also victims of hate mobs. twitter hate mobs are trying to uphold morality bc theyre stupid and twist moral causes into reasons to be hateful. etc. its hard for me to say that rfk was poking fun at anyone specifically just the industry itself...and it is a fucking goofy racist mess lol but i guess it can be seen as hypocritical to critical of the system you're a part of even tho thats the only way u can get critique

scrolling thru more 1 star/2 star reviews i see ppl saying the quippy more fun writing isnt for them which is fine. totally valid. but im seeing a lot of ppl be like 'the characters are ridiculous' and l i think a lot of ppl hate that june is like obliviously racist towards asian ppl the whole way thru and doesn't 'learn'. but i mean that's real life. a lot of white liberals are racist and never want to admit it bc they believe they're good. i dont even think rfk went TOO overboard. that rambly compliments turning into racism thing is just what white ppl do 😭 i saw a few other ppl be like 'why is this book so confused w twitter spats' like?????? are u aware of how writers are now????? they are terminally online and they do weird stunts and actually a yter i like has a series called authors behaving badly and a lot of them are....terminally online white women

anyways reading the negative reviews has been interesting.............theyre REALLY mad abt the self insertism kalgklgkagklglkakglaklkglkgak like damn y'all better not lift from real life for a character or the readers WILL be mad. personally as long as its not egregious or playing the victim i don't mind bc im messy LMAO

[takamishinko]

hello ! can i request kaeya, diluc, childe and uh maybe xiao too ?? (sorry if there is alot characters,,) w/ male reader with huge white wings ? ( reader has good control over them and strong?) if not its alright !!

sure! i assume you want headcanons so here you go. sorry if this is a bit short i am quite tired rn :'/

kaeya, diluc, childe, xiao, and zhongli with a male s/o who has wings

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kaeya:

finds your wings really pretty

will definitely call you an angel

cuz wings and stuff

when you guys wake up together in bed he'll place gentle kisses on them

land and air duo combat!

he loves going on missions and fighting together with you

everytime you use your wings he thinks it's the coolest thing ever

would brag to other people about his boyfriend having wings

"he's quite literally an angel sent from heaven you know?"

i feel like he might ask you to carry him sometimes and fly around mondstat or around windrise during free time

diluc:

does not let anyone and i mean anyone touch your wings

very protective of you because he thinks it's such a precious thing to have

both you and your wings of course

when you guys are alone he would brush your feathers and massage your wings if you're comfortable with it

in public he'll never admit anything but when it's just the two of you he'll cuddle the shit out of you lol

he loves to be touching every part of you while sleeping together

(no not like that)

like your waist, hands, arms, and of course your wings

will compare you to his pet eagle

the 3 of you hangout together and the eagle is just looking at you with confusion cuz it's never seen a human with wings before

wouldn't ask you to fly around with him but if you offered he wouldn't refuse to either

but preferably he likes to do it at night where no one is watching

childe:

you already know this man is a combat freak

literally the first thing he asks when you meet him will be like:

"do you fight with your wings?"

"how good are you with your wings?"

"heh, i know how to fly- well maybe not fly but float as well!"

on his free time where he's not killing ppl and commiting mass genocide he will brush your wings while telling you stories about his family and stories about his hometown

he doesn't like to rant to anyone about his problems but he accidentally says too much sometimes and rants to you

he apologizes for it cuz he doesn't want you to worry

but you don't mind and just give him soft kisses on the cheek while listening to him

he couldn't ask for a better boyfriend

would buy out all of liyue's jewelries for you btw

like even if he thinks it looks slightly good on you he'll buy it

"oh it matches that one jacket he wore on thursday, gimme 2 of those."

i think he would definitely love to fly around with you

he would ask you to fly really fast

like wooooosh

he likes the thrill of it

dates ontop of the mountains in liyue

when he gets the chance to visit home he'll be super proud to introduce you to his family

especially his siblings, we all know how much he loves his siblings

"look guys! this is also going to be your brother from now on! he has wings, isn't it cool?"

the kids love you immediately

xiao:

ah yes my favorite

is super suprised about your wings

"how can a mere mortal like you...have such attribute similar to an adeptus?"

really curious about how you're so good with them.

will race you all around liyue

like whether it be the habour or the mountains

he wants to prove he's faster

he doesn't race you just for that though

the only reason he wants to prove it is so that you know you can always count on him when you're in trouble and that he'll always be a step faster to protect you

we all know xiaos a big fucking tsundere lol

doesn't admit he likes your wings but he thinks they're really majestic

loves to catch crystalflies with you and decorate them on your wings

he thinks it's literally the most beautiful thing ever

same as diluc but more extreme

if anyone tried to touch your wings or even get close to your wings for that matter

he will jump infront of you and take out his spear no hesitation

(unless its like zhongli but he's still protective about it)

all the time you go

"xiao calm down, im fine."

and then he just makes those eyes to the other person that's like

"i got my eyes on you -_-"

zhongli:

unlike the others he's not surprised by your wings

mans knows venti lol he's used to wings and stuff

however he still thinks they're beautiful

zhongli as we all know it is not the flirty type

but he will buy you stuff

like tea, souvenirs if you're not local to liyue, treats

all from childe and hutaos wallet ofc

like to take you to the top of qingyun peak

it's a really calm place and he just wants to relax with you while he drinks tea and as long as your beside him he'll be happy

xiao was incredibly cautious of you when you guys first got together

the second you get close to zhongli he's like basically on your ass

but zhongli will tell him to back off

xiaos also confused asf cuz he doesn't understand why zhongli is so friendly with you and attracted to your wings so much but he gets it eventually

all in all zhongli loves your wings but he's not the nesscarily the exciting type in relationships but he'll manage to express his love for you one way or another

[imkittyjustkitty]

For the st concept (the jane doe thing) it's really cool! Im invested too 😭😭 i do have a few questions:

(1) is the fic gonna be set canonwise or are u gonna do it outside of that(-canon, battle, dark stuff)? (2) And how would the characters react to the reader's existence?(i feel like they'd be bothered and surprised but "hey a headless, talking, human? Isn’t the weirdest thing we've encountered")

(3) how tall/big are they? Are they the size of a doll? (Im sorry idk what/who jane doe is 😭) (4) how old is the reader?

And for name suggestions, Hiram would fit bcs the reader borrows the head of a doll, and "hiram" is a word in filipino which quite literally means "borrow", But it would depend on if another character would be the one to give them a name.

And for their relationships with the other characters, i think it would be cute if they were all someone protective of the reader.(But at first they are obviously freaked out.) For love interests, i think it would depend on the age of the reader. Buuut i think a found family trope would fit a little better? Steve’s the mom, of course. Nancy's the dad (who teaches reader about all kinds of stuff, and scolds anyone who is scared of/insults the reader) and el would def be really curious abt the reader, and protective, too :P overall ur idea is so cool and cute i love it

ahhhhh omg yes hi im so glad ppl r loving this like i am !!!

under cut is a bit of season four spoilers bc im discussing when it might be set ! <3

(1) i was thinking its set season four because that has the dynamics between certain characters which i like, things like steve isnt awful and we have robin & eddie etc. ive been leaning towards moving away from canon and having less of the plot with the upside down/vecna/etc. (id also be fine with season 3 just bc id love for everyone to hang out at starcourt together)

but i was also thinking it would be cool to involve reader in all the events, and reader could end up helping them. im going to this with the idea that reader doesnt stick around in the end, and hopefully finds out who they are, which now im thinking about it could in some way be via being vecna'd, i dont know the specifics on how that would work for reader but its an idea that could be cool !!

so to answer the question im happy with leaning either way, id loooove to do it with everyone all happy and everything so we get cute dynamics with everyone hanging out together, but sticking with canon for the most part could be rlly interesting so yeah !! im open to both sides atm i havent decided

(2) i feel like at first their reaction would be like 'wtf am i seeing' honestly bc yeah theyve seen alot, i think it depends on when its set, bc if its set in s4 i bet at least a few ppl would be like 'thats wild am i being vecna'd rn?' lmao. but yeah i dont think most of their worlds would be like rocked or anything bc atp theyve seen so much they cant be toO like terrified

(3) im giggling at the thought of reader being doll sized omg /pos

these are some photos of jane in the show (shes the blonde one just so theres no confusion lol!) she has doll-like make-up and such, and she also moves a bit robotic like a doll. i would ofc describe reader far more vaguely for appearance so everyone can read this and see themselves in it, but this is the girl who inspired this whole idea :D !!!

in ride the cyclone, jane doe is normal human sized, and her doll is normal doll sized (its a porcelain doll but like where are we gonna find a porcelain doll in hawkins lmao so thats why i went w some sort of babie or other day). in ride the cyclone its kind of just one of those things no one explicitly brings up, someone gets a lil creeped out by jane's headless doll but thats about it, so its one of those things without like a full explanation, but i think its such a cute way to give them a head.

so reader would be like normal human size and everything, and the doll head and the fact that reader might talk to the doll is something everyone is kinda just like 'ok yeah i dont have the energy to unpack whatever's happening there'. ooorrr we could always add some sort of explanation if we wanted to which i wouldnt be opposed to :DD

also above ties into that this isnt going to be 100% serious dark angst etc, ride the cyclone itself could be quite heavy if it werent for the fact that its a funky lil comedic thing as well, and i think thats a fun vibe that ill probably try to stick to a lil with this as well

(4) for age my original idea was that reader is around robin/steve/nancy/eddie/etc's age, early 20's or like 18-19, this is bc id like the dynamic between reader and other characters if reader was around this age. and also i dont want this to be like a shot-for-shot remake of when the gang found el in the woods, so making reader like dustin's age is less appealing to me.

omg i love that name idea and i loovveee how it ties back to the doll bc ik the doll wont actually talk back but i think its such a cute thing to include so i just gotta. so far ive been suggested gn variations of jane doe, but i also love this definitely putting it on the list for name options !!

and for relationships yess i agree !! i asked what people thought for romantic bc i was interested in what ppl thought but i am leaning towards stuff like yeah found family !! i cant explain why but i would loooove nancy and reader's friendship in this just soemthing abt it i love !! and omg yes ofc dad nancy and mum steve .

also i can totally see reader and el bonding over how el can relate to reader not rlly knowing anything about the world and how things work and such !!

for context, jane doe in ride the cyclone can speak and all (which i might alter a bit for reader bc depending on how long reader's been alone/in a purgatory kinda place in the upside down then they may be a bit out of practice with speaking) but doesnt actually know what most things are, bc she learnt what they were during her life, which ofc she does not remember, so yeah !

[spaciebabie]

me questioning if i'm aro below the cut lol

i have only recently learned that ppl don't actually choose characters/irl ppl to have crushes on and actually feel those emotions

i feel like....the normalcy of everyone having/needing a romantic interest all the time has fucked up my perception of my own emotions lol

it was especially prevalent when i was younger, but i would just choose random ppl/characters to have a crush on cuz that's what i thought it was. then i would partake in activities that ppl usually did when they were into them (drawing self insert, thinking abt being w/person romantically, reading self insert, etc), but i wouldn't feel anything romantic while doing it. if i was excited it wasn't b/c of the subject of my, "affection," but b/c of the actions performed themselves. i would just have fun imagining romance, less intent on trying to live/experience it.

and now any sort of affection i feel towards any character/person i think, "oh so is this romance?" but i believe im misinterpreting

and what sucks is that irl i am a rlly shy, blushy, socially awkward person so for the longest whenever i had those feelings i would chalk it up to "crushing on them," but again i don't think that's the case. cuz when i have those reactions, my intitial thoughts aren't romantic at all (by my own experience with feeling romantic attraction). i moreso question if i am experiencing romantic attraction as a first reaction, especially if i consider that person aesthetically attractive.

when i ACTUALLY felt romantic attraction for the first time, i rlly held onto it to an unhealthy degree lol. i had just never felt it b4 so i was like, "omg unique feeling this feels good!" and even when the feelings faded i forced myself to "continue" to like them romantically. so when i would say i had a crush on them for "years" that wasn't actually true i just kind of pretended it was

it's a bit confusing honestly, but makes more sense when i think of how annoyed i get when ppl talk abt constantly needing a romantic partner. i just rlly don't relate to that, even when i am romantically interested in some1 I've never thought to pursue a relationship and honestly would b fine if i went the rest of my life w/o one

and ive been questioning of I'm aromantic for at least a year now? maybe two? idk it was around the time i started to question if i was ace (which i am and was much easier to figure out lmao)

i just think im mistaking being socially awkward w/romantic feelings

anyways, ive gone back and forth w/if I'm aro or not for the past few weeks. if i am i am def greyaro or demiaro since i kno ive felt romantic attraction b4. as of now I'm operating under the mindset of when it comes to romantic attraction, "if i kno i kno" so if i end up questioning if I'm experiencing romantic attraction im probably not. i hope that makes sense? it does to me and i think it'll help when trying to separate feelings

i have MANY thoughts, and it's very similar to what i experienced when i questioned if i was ace. they're following almost the same path of discovery actually, so if things keep going this way....

im mostly just vomiting my thoughts onto this post lol what makes this difficult is that i have a handful of moments in my life where im rlly unsure of what emotions I was feeling and its throwing me off.

[hematomes]

(Electro Anon again) it was weird! Someone didn't like my Ningguang damage I guess so I let them know she was only half built and offered to switch to a different character, and then got kicked lmao, we had run it once already and it had been fine, and my damage wasn't awful (charged attack crits around 14k, so not great but still good!) but they were just so mad I wasn't using a fully built character akskfbdkk

But also I don't think I ever ran it w the same group more than once, if someone died they would just leave the world entirely or the host would kick them out after (multiple different hosts did it), it was just so bizarre!!

Like in hindsight it's really funny, but in the moment I was so confused lol

- ⚡ (ehe. electro)

wait but 14k crit charged is really good considering geo has no elemental reaction etc??? LMAO AND FOR A HALF BUILT NING TOO,,,, boy what the fuck

also im gonna say it even though ive kept saying it for the last few months but jesus, dmg is not that fucking important. as long as you all finish the domain, who cares how much dmg you dealt??? not everyone wants to ONE SHOT DOMAINS SMHHH especially in co-op sigh

they all sound so rude like 😭 when i did co-op for signora 2 of the ppl i played with decided to stay and we fought childe and the wolf and then we just... talked for like 30min, discussing upcoming characters and which we had etc,,, and on god i cannot kick someone out of my world unless they're being a dick, otherwise i just tell them i need to log off and WAIT FOR THEM to leave themselves ekdnzk idk i feel like being kicked is so cold PFRRRR

glad you're taking it this way tho, it's the right move! dmg obsessed/rude ppl don't really deserve any attention whatsoever, and at the end of the day it's just a game. but it's always more pleasant when players are KIND smh what is wrong with them

[outgrowings]

omg i saw u posting abt hating sak*atsu a few times n at first i confused the names n thought u meant suna x atsumu but then i was like wait u got the names wrong @ myself n now im just like ???? why is sak*atsu so popular i dont understand 😭 (also sakusa is like literally the only hq character i dont rly like i dont get the obsession w him jdndnd) its rly the kinda gay ship for straight ppl huh (also sorry for like randomly dropping by w this ive just saw ur posts abt the ship discourse n it reminded me of this situation again fjdjsn)

HI ALAN!!! naur its fine to ask! i never realized i bashed s*kuatsu so much in here lol but based on my very limited yet chaotic experience in lurking through hqtwt (since it was popularized in twitter), its popular because

1) its licherally imaginary yet spread by f*jos (like how christians try to ask you to join their bible study even though you're uninterested) since they find the appeal of two bantering assholes "hot". even though those two barely have any meaningful interactions in the manga. they didn't even talk in the u19 chapters.

2) shippers love the appeal of "enemies to lovers" that s*kuatsu exudes except the only thing they did is banter for less than 10 panels out of how many chapters during the msby vs adlers match (im pretty sure 2 panels of them interacting is sakusa ignoring atsumu). one time i saw someone compare them to sasunaru. i was about to bite someone bc of that.

3) they're both "handsome" and jerks and atsumu gave sakusa a nickname which means that it's OBVIOUSLY real and not made up and there's TENSION between them as rivals, when the only thing they have in common other than being in the same team is that they went to the same volleyball camp in high school that happens like. once a year. and it's canon that sakusa is OBSESSED with ushijima and their rivalry as spikers and barely cares about atsumu so. checkmate s*kuatsus.

4) blonde jock x emo nerd trope. thats it.

5) ok so WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED was that before s*kuatsu got popular (since it only happened after sakusa's chapter dropped, and atsukita was the main atsumu ship for years), ppl actually paired komori and sakusa together and there were many fanarts of them since nationals arc, until it got revealed that they were COUSINS because it was never indicated pre-brazil arc that they were related. so instead of leaving the man alone, the sakusa fans were like "we need to find sakusa another man NOW!!!" and saw atsumu. thats how s*kuatsu was actually born

6) the rest of the shippers don't actually read hq but got convinced by the fandom moms that they did interact

the thing is s*kuatsu would be fine as a crack pairing bc it had no in-text foundation but good god. it now has almost 5k fics based on content from nothing and on mischaracterization of two characters, most of it is written by horny ppl (f*jos), and most of the stans are annoying and love to ignore how much inarizaki meant to atsumu. although i think the pairing is more frequent with the more western/english-speaking side of the hq f*ndom? since atsukita still remains the dominating atsumu ship in east asia after the care package scene in the inarikara match and when atsumu had a flashback of kita in ch. 391. but if they seriously wanted a tall, cool, dark-haired spiker who also lives in osaka for atsumu, aran licherally exists. thats as far as i remember for extensive s*kuatsu origins tho! omg im so sorry you have to read all this

[childhoodgrave]

whats dtl about ifff ud like 2 talk abt it i see cute sprites & decide i wanna know things.. hehe the top hat n cape guy gif is in sync w my music hehe

IM SO GLAD U ASKED this game is probsbly my favorite game ever its been a special interest if mine since i was 7 and i dont think its a GOOD game per se bt i love it a lot and it impacted me a lot as a little kid w a mild interest in art :)

so basically the game is a little 2d adventure platformer where u get to draw and design the character u play as. its p clunky and the way ur character moves looks rlly silly bt again this game was released in like 2010 on the ds so its ok .. the game also gave u templates to go off of and use too just in case u didnt want to design a character from scratch

the story of the first game is abt this world that was drawn into existence by “the creator” in the book of life. u hav this little sequence where u get to draw the world, and the forrests and the creatures tht wld inhabit it. the creatures tht inhabit the world are callec raposa and they r little fox creature w funny ears :)

like this guy (his name is zsasha and hes a thief but hes like a bad one who ends up returning all of the stuff he steals and also watching over a little orphan girl who he basically adopts LOL)

in the universe if the game the “creator” eventually went silent and the raposa lost hope in them ever returning. the world was slowly shrouded in darkness and gradually all of the raposa inhabiting this little village were either lost or left on purpose bc it was slowly falling apart. the game starts when one of the remaining raposa, mari, prays to u, the creator, to come back and help restore her village, saying that everyone else has lost hope but she still believes you can return to her. u can answer, and either say that u will help or you wont, but either way u end up agreeing to help her and she goes to tell her dad, the mayor, abt it. you create a “hero” to be the vessel you will speak thru, and thats the character u end up designing and playing as. the game is abt going to various areas from the village and rescuing all of the raposa that are lost there, as well as restoring the village to what it used to be and drawing in bits of the landscape, like the sun and plants and stuff.

the villain of the story is a guy named wilfre, who was another villager in the town who ended up drawing in the book of life bc he wanted to create things the way the creator had. he ended up making these big inky monsters and got consumed by them, and when u meet him at the beginning of the game he tears up a bunch of pages in the book of life which get scattered across the land and you have to collect them in order to restore the village.

so u basically just go around saving villagers, collecting pages of the book of life, and redrawing bits of the town that were lost to wilfres shadows. eventually wilfre ends up like, killing maris dad (the mayor) and then after youve restored a majority of the village you enter his realm and kill him!! yay :)

throughout the game you also meet these two weird npcs called heather and mike. heather is a little raposa girl who has half of her face covered in shadows, and shes mostly mute. shes found early on in the game and is taken care of by another one of the main characters named jowee

mike is a character u end up rescuing later on in the game, hes p confused and doesnt know how he got where he is, and hes also different from the other raposa bc he doesnt have ears like they do and kind of just looks like a normal human (even tho none of the raposa know what that is and they just think he looks rlly weird)

in the first game heather is shown to take a liking to mike but it isnt explained why and she doesnt talk to its left unexplained

so yah the first game ends with you, the hero, defeating wilfre. mari takes on the role of her father and becomes mayor of the town, and all of the raposa (+ mike) live happily in the town youve restored. the hero goes dormant because theyre no longer needed and u get a scene at the end of the game w them sitting by the ghost of maris father.

the SECOND game takes place a while after the first game, in which wilfre returns and captures heather at the beginning of the game. he also kidnaps a bunch of the other villagers and transports them somewhere else, and he drains the color out of the village the raposa were in. they end up fleeing on a giant turtle with an abandoned town on its back that appears while the color is draining from the village. inside mari and jowee find another mannequin similar to the one the creator had drawn the hero on in the first game. they pray to the creator for help and thats when u draw the hero u get to play as for that game!! the hero doesnt seem to remember mari and jowee or any of the events of the first game, but they agree to help them rescue heather and all of the villagers wilfre stole.

jowee also has like, this magic pendant that belonged to heather that he found after wilfre took her, which seems to be leading them to where heather is. they use that to navigate the turtle thru the ocean to a bunch of other islands on the world. the second game is basically about traveling to different islands and helping them restore the color thats been drained out of them by wilfre. you also meet these two characters, salem

who is a villain in the first island u travel to, and sock

who is a villager on the first island u visit who ends up befriending jowee and traveling with them while they try to save heather.

so ur doing all of that but THEN, halfway thru the game mari is shown to be talking to wilfre, and then she dissapears. jowee assumes wilfre has captured her too, but shes later seen on the turtle again, and rips out a bunch of pages in the book of life the way wilfre did in the first game, and then wilfre appears to take her away and says that shes working with him now. jowee is heartbroken but resolves to get her back as well as heather

THEN, sock, jowees friend from the first island whos been tagging along and helping out, is ALSO revealed to be wilfre in disguise and he betrays jowee and steals heathers pendent, leaving jowee with basically no means of finding heather and wikfre and mari by extension.

so eventually they do end up finding where wilfre is and mari is like “jowee you dont understand wilfre has shown me the truth of our world and who the creator is and thats why im helping him” and jowee is like “i cant believe yoy are helping him how could you i cant believe you bla bla bla” and so wilfre is like “FINE ill show you the TRUTH of this world” and takes jowee and then the hero is kind of left ln their own for a bit to like wander around the world and try to keep rescuing ppl and such. and eventually jowee comes back and is like shaken up but kind of vague abt what wilfre showed him, but he still decides to side with the hero and the creator and eventually mari is convinced by him to join them again as well

so u fight wilfre again and EVENTUALLY wilfre reveals that if you defeat him basically the entire world will dissapear and thats what hes been trying to avoid by fucking w things and messing with the book of life. so all of the raposa have a bunch existential crisis abt them ceasing to exist if they go thru with this but then they decide to to it anyway bc the alternative is just as bad blah blah and u go and kill wilfre and he does this when he dies which is cool

[the gif was fuckjng broken im sorry but like look up his sprites and youll fjnd it 💔]

and now heather is back!! and her and mari and jowee are all talking about mike and how important he is and meanwhile mike has no clue whats going on and is kind of freaked out by all of this, but theyre all like “mike you need to wake up” as theyre all fading out of existence and shit around him and eventually him and heather are the only ones left and they dissapear too

and THATS when you get the ending and find out it was all like a dream mike was having while he was in a coma after a car crash anx this plays while the credits role lol https://youtu.be/Kur0qaYM1jM

^ they ended up releasing different versions oft he game w a less dark (but still w the whole ‘it was all a dream twist’) and thats it!!

there was also another game released for the wii that like gave wilfre a girlfriend kind of but i never played it to completion bc it used the wii remotes motion controls to like draw and shit and it was rly janky and hard so i never finished it and most ppl did the same. i kind of rlly want to try playing it again tho bc it was a p cute looking game even if the controls were fucked up

AND YEA thats drawn to life its a weird silly little series tht i was obsessed w when i was a kid and it still holds a special place in my heart :) i basicaly just spoiled the entire series i guess but if u have a ds or a 3ds (bc the game is backwards complatible ! ) id still suggest like getting a cartidge off ebay or something and playing it bc its honestly a rlly sweet and beautiful looking game and i think a lot of it still homds up even if the controls r rlly janky now

[lesbiancarat]

Lol its fine!! Reply whenever you can ^_^

But ahh true, true. Idk why I thought it would be a hint to the music lol but a sort og an evolution of the concept so to speak. Either way, am excited for the comeback because fresh svt is always iconic. Oohhh the concept photos are all pretty and idk which one to pick jfkshfjsjd. Like they are all very on brand for them but also unique and pretty. Very artsy haha.

Ahh yes, rabbitnwas forever iconic and it was what helped other places like discord to do similar things! But ah understandable!! Both seventeen and nct (when I was getting into kpop more) always felt like BIG well known groups due to their fandoms being so big at least to me. Especially when people always recommended their songs i just assumed they have been around for a while like bts when I joined only to realize they are still rookies. Monster rookies indeed!! The fact so many people love them is enough for me to say they are amazing, well respected and loved by many. Those comments annoy me, especially when people downplay their hard work by claiming 'bighit helped them get more famous' like what!? Yes bighit did help with getting more western attention per se but like downplaying as if they haven't achieved anything at all is confusing to me. Claiming how streaming fans aren't doing s good job to which im like one, mass streaming isn't healthy and two, fans who do try their best and we do beat records of our own. Seventeen isn't unpopular, just because they aren't you know who level doesn't mean they aren't big like do people forget what unpopular means?

Anywhoo, a day late but happy late birthday to our tiger King. May he forever rule the tiger land and take over the world with his tiger agenda lol.

yes! one side fits my aesthetic the best but all the concept photos were nice ^^

and yeah it is annoying but at the same time those people are so detached from reality that I'm just sort of like whatever djflgj like 'it's obvious to anyone who knows what they're talking about you're wrong so I'm not going to bother arguing w you' is sort of my mindset when i see those comments dhfkj bc if i don't think of it that way then i get angry easily. the way i see it bh/hybe definitely is helping SVT with western promotions but like. i don't think SVT/pledis would have been incapable of expanding into the western market on their own if they wanted to. but it's a given that it will be easier and faster with hybe bc they have connections and a reputation in the western market already established. honestly I'd guess that was one of pledis's main incentives for agreeing to the acquisition. but at the same time hybe and western media wouldn't give SVT the time of day if they truly were the flops some ppl try to claim they are lol

and yeah agreed, streaming culture can be super unhealthy. it's one thing to do it if you want to but at the same time don't be losing sleep over it or prioritizing it over your real life responsibilities. and definitely don't guilt trip and say a bunch of toxic things to others to get them to stream... i feel like it would be a lot healthier if fanbases just stuck to simply explaining, hey this is what streaming is and why it can be important (for like music shows etc) and here's how to do it properly if you choose to stream, and then just let people decide for themselves. there would still be people more than willing to do it, and without the guilt tripping maybe even more people would just find it enjoyable. but hey, what do i know? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i also think most kpop stans underestimate how many views from from casual listeners and fans vs hardcore fans/streamers. like streaming does make a difference, but not 100M views difference like some people try to act like it does. tbh there are a lot of groups that have a smaller core fanbase than SVT but get hundreds of millions of views bc they have a lot of casual listeners. you can even see it internally too: don't wanna cry is SVTs most viewed MV by a mile, it's the only one to pass 100M views, let alone 200M. and it has nothing to do w carats streaming dwc extra hard, it's bc it's arguably SVTs most well known song outside of the fandom. i see reactors all the time who react to it and say "oh i know this song! i had no idea it was by seventeen" and you can look at the comments section and see a bunch of people saying the song has a fandom of its own/even if you're not a carat you have to know this song

kpop stans also put too much emphasis on views imo and also equate views to popularity, which on the surface might make sense but isn't always the case. actually in terms of profit, groups/companies make the vast majority of their money off of album, merch, and ticket sales than they do off of views. but those are all things that are a lot harder to "sell" than views, because they actually cost money for the consumer, while you can watch an MV for free. hence why it makes sense that there are a lot of groups with hundreds of millions of views that get relatively low album sales. it's easy to convince casual fans and and listeners to watch an MV than to get them to buy something

and I'm not trying to diss other groups at all or try to say groups that consistently get 200M+ views are flops, they're absolutely not. I'm just trying to point out that kpop stans completely underestimate the amount of casual listeners that exist

but this is why SVT is honestly such a fascinating case. their MV views are nothing to write home about, and yet they're the second highest selling k-act at the moment and are in the top 10 if not top 5 highest selling k-acts of all time, their album sales are literally insane. a lot of people chalk it up to carats being bad streamers but like i said before, streaming isn't going to make a difference of hundreds of millions of views. this indicates to me that seventeen have a bigger core fanbase (ie people who call themselves carats and actually keep track of seventeens activities) but a smaller audience of casual listeners compare to other kpop groups. and i think a lot of people, carats, and non carats alike, pick up on this in some way or another but don't realize that's what's going on and it manifests in kind of weird ways sometimes

and this fact isn't something that bothers me, i actually think it's super important more than anything for SVT to have a strong core fanbase if what they're shooting for is longevity. but i do find it strange bc as i said, groups that do better with digitals than physical sales make total sense from a consumer standpoint!! so how did SVT end up like this!! it's so interesting for me to think about. i think i would have a better idea of why this is if i had been around since debut but alas

the only thing i can come up with is that SVT is better at retaining fans or like... getting fans invested in the group so people who become carats are less likely to be multistans? bc multistans play a huge part in both being and attracting casual listeners. they're the ones making video compilations and edits and content that includes multiple kpop groups, which is how a lot of non-fans get interested in other groups. whereas if someone is just a carat and making content for SVT the people most likely to watch that content is ppl who are already carats. i know im not the only one that's noticed it's kind of rare for SVT to be included in multistan edits and videos. which i don't blame anyone for, i think most of those people genuinely just don't stan SVT and they shouldn't be expected to include a group they don't know we'll or at all. at the end of the day ppl can make what they like. but it's interesting to observe as a general trend. but idk SVT potentially having a lower percentage of multistans still isn't really an explanation for why SVT doesn't have as many casual listeners bc those things kind of just go hand in hand. like either one could be the cause of the other one if that makes sense

ANYWAY sorry for the long reply but as i said the ratio of SVTs core fanbase vs casual listeners is a topic i find endlessly fascinating dhfmfj

[matoitech]

is there anything about the character designs you would make? like changes to their outfits build etc? (not including aina's whole outfit i think most of us wanna change it)

ohh good question.. i don’t think or know a whole lot abt character design (tho i’d love to see other ppl who r smarter abt it talk abt it 👀) but hmm.. lets think abt this.. im prob gonna miss some things ive thought of in the past buut heres a few

id change varys and vulcans designs for obvious reasons. esp vulcan god. i guess i get what they were going for w varys trying to go w ‘american cartoon’ style thats a common character design but that doesnt make it NOT racist, esp when both main Black chars look similar like that.

i’d decide on like heights and builds to Stick With and draw them looking the same way mostly lol. galo as relatively muscular like hes drawn in official art but like 5′8 maybe (thats what he is in my head) compared to lios canon 5′2 (short kings need rep <3). and aina is taller than galo in my head at like 5′10 to 6 ft smth so i think thats a good idea :) the women r typically drawn w less extreme shoulder to waist ratios than galo and lio which i find funny and kinda transgender so id keep that in lol

and give them organs. like i know its stylization but can we get some fat on these people

top surgery scars for galo (and lio if u wanna have some explanation for how he got top surgery on the run lmao? fire surgery? or he just has tiddies) bc theyre a rly obvious easy way to make a character trans. just like, stuff like that for various characters whatever way the gender transes. if /i/ was making promare anyway. if trigger was then i dont trust like that beyond post op scars tho

i think some of the outfits aren’t rly cohesive but that’s kinda part of the charm. especially for lucias since she looks like she stole from a hot topic which fits her character. id give her baggy pants though, like, if u keep her running around in a sports bra at work, big baggy pants would b a fun contrast, like winry fma style. also why is she wearing goggles and a gas mask. im like, okay with it, you do you lucia, im just confused <3

yes galo runs around half naked but its not treated the same way aina is treated w her outfit so yeah like. outfit changes w that. if the women all wear like crop tops then so should the men. equality.

actually thats a good idea. consider galo and lios shirts (lios under the jacket) but theyre like crop tops. genius. maybe if men showed a little more skin (i say as galo dresses like That)

but yeah can we like talk about how ainas outfit makes no practical sense. neither does galos but again, difference in treatment. i like her leather jacket though!

galo would have a prosthetic arm instead of a sleeve just cuz it would b better imo <3 also other ppl have mentioned this but he would prob realistically lose his arm after getting shot w the ice gun on it

if galo has a prosthetic arm i dont mind kray having one too honestly since both the hero and villain do, BUT i still think making kray b a disabled villain was shitty so

heris and remi have kind of boring basic designs to me but since i think thats like.. intentional maybe? its like. Fine. neither of them deserve cool designs.

there was one version of lios design where he had an off the shoulder shirt and a corset and im not like saying he should wear that bc it isnt rly practical but at the same time. what a look

honestly idk i mostly like the character designs beyond just some things to change up a bit! i like what they did with like the mix of anime and the american cartoon palettes they were going for. theres probably some things im forgetting, but just in general i dont RLY want to change anything, bc i think the designs of galo and lio in particular are pretty good and they look good together. one time i saw someone say they were gonna redesign galo to make him look not boring and then he looked like an asshole and i was upset -_- he is perfect leave my man alone

[a-d-u-r-o]

love headcanons for any oc? :)

 ty for the ask!! <3 rat bastard love hcs below

When they discover they’re got a crush:

90% of the time he’ll just ignore it, or probably not even admit it to himself. he gets crushes really rarely, mostly on strangers or people he barely knows, so there’s not much to do anyways. if it’s someone he’s close to, he’ll just start annoying them on the regular bc that’s just his love language lmao, especially if it gets a reaction out of the crush in question  

How they confess/hint:

he doesn’t<3 Lavan’s got some self esteem issues, so he pretty much convinces himself that he’d just get rejected anyways. if someone is trying to figure out whether or not he has feelings for them then that’s simply their own problem. good luck.

Big gestures of love:

Lavan is the type that will absolutely sacrifice his own comfort/safety/health for his s/o’s. he had/has a period in his life where just keeping himself sane/alive is really difficult in itself, so placing the emotional & physical wellbeing of another person above his own is truly something that he only does if he’s just about ready to take a bullet for them

Little gestures of love:

again, teasing/generally being annoying, accidentally brushing his hand against theirs, offering them cigarettes when he’s smoking, making them various little gadgets, paying for their drink, actually making an effort to remember their birthday- genuinely little things (probably the bare minimum), but then again, he only bothers with these for the sake of very few people 

How to win their heart:

honestly, there’s rly not much someone can do to make him interested if he hasn’t got feelings already. even if he does catch feelings, it’s really hard to make him believe that his feelings are reciprocated- actively endorsing & showing interest in his inventions/projects, looking out for his physical safety, and maybe even occasionally making him coffee is a good place to start tho

How to break their heart:

at any given moment he’s already convinced that he’ll eventually get hurt in some way, so it’d take a lot to actually get him to be heartbroken instead of just him going ‘’oh yeah lmao i figured that’d happen’’ i honestly can’t really think of anything in particular, his standards are nonexistent. the bar is on the floor 

Tiny little turn-ons:

ppl putting their hands on his waist when they squeeze pat him, getting his hair played with, ppl resting their hands on his thigh....honestly you just have to touch the bastard and he’s already going “👀👉👈”

Big turn-ons:

actually quipping back at his teasing in a witty/flirty way is IT. bully him in a gay little way that turns him on pisses him off 

Things that make their heart flutter:

casual romantic affection confuses & flusters the hell out of him, im pretty sure his brain would just shut down if he got his forehead kissed or sumn the same applies for verbal affection/praises too, he hasn’t really received much of it in his life (nor does he really crave it per se,) but if it’s coming from the right person it can have a huge effect on him

Their type:

none, tbh. he likes pretty & witty people but that’s really all i can say lol

Ideal date:

bar hopping on Nar Shaddaa or like, arson

Past relationships:

none! as i said above, he’s not easily convinced that he’s loved, and therefore never really deepened any of his could-be relationships. in his current canon Maul is his first and only serious relationship, and even that takes years to actually develop

How they might affect current relationships:

he’s inexperienced as hell. can’t really tell romantic advances from other types of affection, not really sure when the relationship qualifies as a relationship relationship, has no idea how to actually show affection at first, just generally very clumsy and sort of awkward about it all

‘Goals’ in a relationship (marriage, kids, a house, etc):

Lavan is perfectly fine just knowing that he has a place in the galaxy next to someone & that there’s someone for him to count on, really. they do eventually get married w/ Maul, but i’m pretty sure they elope in some way instead of like, making it legal and the like. they probably just do a gay little dathomirian ritual and that’s it dkbfhjsbd in a few aus they also adopt kids, but that’s not really a ‘goal’ for either of them, it just sort of.....happens lmao

[salamitod]

parenthood headcanons (helens household) 🐛🐚🍊🌈

After helen remarries with garry's biology teacher, (george) she now has help around the house, and isnt completely busy all the time trying to support her children (she had to work 2 jobs w rly long hours and its just a really emotionally and physically exhausting mess but she quit one of them after getting remarried bc now they have dual income) Anyways she still does a ton but its not nearly as overbearing !!

with this new freetime she takes on new hobbies like making crafts and stuff like pottery, knitting, cross-stitching and embroidery, etc !!

one day garry gets interested in how knitting works and she teaches him

they attempt to knit a whole blanket

Garrys end has big ole gaps in it but its okay !! Hes trying

One day he finally gets it and makes julie and tod a get-along sweater lol

tod and julie married bc julie got pregnant (the babys not even tods,, but hes convinced that packers can get ppl prego) but immediately after the baby was born they divorced

Helen helps julie be a mom and they bond over being stressed together

They all still live in helens house and get along really well EXCEPT FOR THE TIME tod almost burned the house down tryna make them all a giant surprise breakfast as gratitude for letting him live there

He started making it at 3 am. 3 AM.

needless to say the household wasnt very pleased waking up at a cursed hour trying to extinguish an oven fire

Helen still says hes only here temporarily but everyone knows thats not true lol

George ends up being a really good dad to garry and gives words of advice to tod whenever tod is about to something reckless then tod will pause and then completely ignore the advice due to lack of impulse control

tod is a raw chaotic entity

Garry is completely unaware of the negative repercussions of tod doing whatever until it actually happens

and THEN he panics

tod and garry @ walmart:

Tod: *pointing to the 10 ft tall cage holding the beach balls* im gonna climb this

Garry: aw yeah !

Tod: *climbs to the top* *cage tips over onto garry*

Garry: *is crushed*

They dont learn from their mistakes andll do it again next week

julie quits the cheer team to start a garage band with her friends and tod. Garry is their tech crew/roadie

Their band name is Cherry Barb !! like the fish

They never make it big but they play in a few basements and even got one of their songs played on the local radio

julie starts going out with another girl in the band and they hang out at night in the streets and kick dumpsters and hold hands and get malts really late at night from ur local 24 hour diner 😳😳

Eventually helen finds out and her reaction is just: I thought u and tod were still a thing ?????

[Julie voice] mom n o

julie takes an hour off from school to focus on. Yknow. Taking care of her child

But most of her free time is spent doing band stuff (free time doesnt include taking care of the baby)

Tod only works when someone calls him to have their house painted, so most of the time he can care for the baby when julie's at school

When he gets a work order he'll drive over to one of the other households to have them watch over the baby OR he'll just wear one of those baby carrier things and paint with his baby just. Chillin there

Tod is 17 and is trans n queer and kinda Stewpid ngl

Garry is 15 and hes just. Forever questioning (crazy take: helen was right abt the vhses. He DID just want to explore filmmaking.)

Julie is 16 and questioning !! she dont know yet but shes getting there

When tod and julie got together it was kindof just a Mess and they were both in questioning and THEN A BABY HAPPENED but its fine; theyre really open towards each other and go to each other when they need like ADVICE Advice u know the kind 😔

anyways garry has a camera and films tod doing stupid stunts. Such as the walmart ball pit thing conundrum

U know the one vine where the rocket thing launches and the guy filming is like Oh Damb and then it hits him? Thats garry and tod

Helen is a super supportive mom even when she doesnt understand most things her kids are going through and shes learned to be aware of their privacy and respect their hobbies (as long as it isnt anything harmful, tod being stupid dont count)

George questions the kids actions a lot but not in a malicious way, hes just kinda confused most of the time

As a lot of ppl would be, dealing w these three kids

They all go out as a family to burger king and sit in those giant round corner booth seats and garry and tod fight over who gets to wear the burger king crown

While theyre busy arguing george takes it and wears it lol

Anyways thats it for now !!

[6ad6ro]

just a lil warning this post is a journey and gets a little dark. as in i will be making fun of some pathetic dude who wrote some rly offensive stuff. enjoy.

sooooo i recently was revisiting the dead or alive series. i played thru doa dimensions (it’s like a best-of abridged compilation of the first 4 games) and had a ton of fun. it’s been forever since i payed attention to doa, and i had forgotten how much i loved 2 and 3 way back when! i’m prob gonna get doa5lr next time im out, and 6 looks rly cool w all the changes! um i should prob say that i actually like the cute girls n char designs etc? but i could also care less that tittyanime element was (allegedly) toned down for 6 (it looks same to me lol). they went overboard w that kinda content in 5 so it’s a smart idea tbh. anyways it still looks v fun and this isn’t even the point of the post. see i was lookin up stuff about the content in 5 bc it has all these dif versions and it’s confusing? and suddenly i found this rly obnoxiously clickbaity title in one of the results. much like videos of people roadraging on youtube, i’m ashamed to say... cleeeek.

at first i was like “wait did they actually remove content”? i know 5 went way too far w that stuff lol but i didn’t know this kinda stuff went down? did sony ban costumes for bein too pervy like that’s crazy!

oh no no no nm. this was written by a liar and was titled specifically to trick ppl into thinking what i thought. in reality it was just some post whining about how a private tournament requested (not even forced) ppl to tone down on a few specific overly sexy costumes. so that ppl took it more seriously as a competitive fighter, rather than keeping the reputation as waifubuttonmasher.  and most of the costumes were still fine to use too! like there’s... omg are there over 1,000 outfits in this?? what the heck... anyways pretty reasonable and nbd right? but err no bc this article was written by a dude who literally typed out  “muh-soggy-knee istic”. like yes he actually wrote that out and emphasized it with italics like wow. i’m starting to get an idea of the type of person he is. and why something so minor as this would hurt his feelings so much.

oh my god is this a parody article? is this a joke?? i’m...

well tbh the sexy stuff def wasn’t the only appeal like it was just an aspect of an otherwi..................... HOLD THE FORT what the fuck did he just write!? wowww that’s like suuuuper offensive holy shit lol. no no fuck this dude. and oh god there’s one of the famous telling buzzwords too: “females”. christ.

listen. i’m a very devout pacifist. i’m passionately against violence. but i want to kick the shit outta this dude.

ahahah okay okay that made me laugh. i’m back. these fucking weirdo incel nazis are just so robotic? parodies of human beings with a four word vocabulary. u know the ones: CENSORSHIP! SJWS! FEMALES! ANITASARKEESIAN!

there he is! he looks sad tbh... i mean i don’t feel sorry for him bc he took all his his sadness and anger and... instead of seeing a therapist? he decided to be mortally afraid of women and “the gays” etc. and *laughing as i write this* become a serious video game journalist ehehe. great job, dude. seriously tho i hope u get actual help bc ur very confused about a lot of things... wait actually why the fuck is he talking about anita anyhow? err how old is this article? oh oops. stupid google. i rly need to start filtering stuff by date........ march 2015. god wasn’t that when the gamergaters were in full swing? and still pretending they cared about “journalistic integrity” rather than just openly hating any and all minorities? even so this article is pretty extreme for some poorly designed noname game website.

NEVERMIND! this whole site is a toilet. wow like this sucks. like suuuper ew. thanks google. like i’m sorry i’d better write a lil warning at the start of this post bc this shit is fucking gross........... annnnd done. apologies to anyone reading this. anyways THANKFULLY one of the top 5 posts ended up being a really really exciting and interesting one!

thank you jesus. um i didn’t want to look into this site anymore bc it was clear it was some long-dead edgelord clickbait dumpsterfire and there wouldn’t have been a point. also i didn’t wanna depress myself any more. so like the good smart person i am (def not dumb), i did exactly the opposite and started reading that goodbye article.

oh so you were “surprised” your “vision” didn’t go over well? maybe don’t make a hate site dipshit. maybe don’t exploit prejudice to make ur money. fucking imbecile. slug. and AHA see see i fucking knew it. gamergate. lol. god damnit...

...”masculine men” lol what the fuck OH WAIT OH NOOOOOO OH GOD it’s THIS fuckin dude? NOOOOO what the fuck this guy is like one of the biggest pieces of shit on the planet! i can’t believe i accidentally was on some site by the return of kings guy. oh goddamn... no fucking wonder. i have nothing else to say. this journey couldn’t have ended any worse lol. post is cancelled.

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(this came out way longer than I intended im so fuckgkdsdf sory)

How I feel about this character: EVERYONE WHO KNOWS ME KNOWS I’M IN LOVE WIHT RATCHET. I love him in all iterations of Transformers because he’s always the tired, pragmatic one of the group. In contrast, he’s also almost tiredly optimistic in some ways. He won’t get out of bed, but if someone gets shot in the head he’ll spend however long and beyond to resuscitate them. There’s 2 halves to this--the me who identifies with the beating exhaustion he exudes, and the me who’s in awe that he’ll still fight his way through life.  I won’t... get into each continuity...because that’s too much, so I’ll stick with probably the most unpopular version of him and that’s IDW (my impression, anyway). IDW Ratchet gets a lot of flack for being way too sour and like, maybe not selfish, but uncaring. He cares! A lot! He’s always thinking about everyone in really surprisingly thoughtful ways. Like when he’s 90% sure he’ll die due to Overlord and his last words are to promote First Aid to CMO (he’s ready!! god that’s sweet), and to give his hands to Whirl (though maybe a bit blindsided, he’s paid attention to some roots of Whirl’s trauma). Or yeah he’s hella mean to Drift in the beginning, but when Drift is dying in his arms he’s scREAMING at him “you’re gonna make it! You’re gonna be fine because I’m gonna make sure you’re gonna be fine”. He can be an asshole, but he knows the time and place. Death isn’t something to play with--he’s seen probably countless friends die, and he doesn’t want that to happen again. Even now, even after the war.  So I feel very confused when ppl act like he’s this mean, cold person. He’s exTREMELY emotional. He’s probably way too invested in everyone’s lives, honestly? He interrupts a round table story for Rung just to reminisce on the veery last time he, OP, and Roller were together in the same room (not even hanging out or anything, just being together one last time. who remembers that after 5+ millions years??). He started an illegal clinic in the bad part of town because he wanted to put his skills to better use! Like! LOL.  ALSO, a point that i think is unfair is that ppl think his atheism is just really mean. IT is! But I think it shows just how much of an emotional and extremely, deeply hurt person he is. It gets aggravating when he’s condescending of religion, because there’s no simple logic to it. He reacts the way he does because he’s a hurt person who’s gone through years of trauma and this is his way of coping. Is it healthy or right? Nah, but it’s humanizing. It’s why when he becomes closer to Drift he occupies this weird between space where he snarks but also tries to indulge more in perspectives outside of his own in his own dumb old tsundere way. He’s a person who believes in justice, ultimately, and religion to him doesn’t fall under justice.  ALSO, can I say that his inability to say good byes is so.. like relatable? I have rly bad social anxiety, and so I’ve definitely ghosted people who’ve been nothing but really supportive for me. It’s not because I wanted to burn them, but it freaks you out needing to, not even say goodbye, but communicate with ppl. And for Ratchet--how many times was he FORCED to say good bye to friends + patients who were dying beyond his help? Maybe, if he could help it, he doesn’t want to say goodbye. And it’s tragic the times he’s just left, these were people who ended up either dying for falling astray into insanity, i.e., beyond his help. But he learns. He chases after Drift, who he actually said, in a way, good bye to (helping him off the floor after being attacked, also I should point out that a very tiny handful of people were comfortable interacting w/ Drift at all, and how much Ratchet just doesn’t give a shit abt how other ppl think abt him. he’ll help drift off the floor bc t’s the right thing to do). He says goodbye in his old dumb way--First Aid calls him out on it. ALSO his trust in First Aid is super cute. ALSO he’s like.. genuinely nice to Ten (he helped him get a date with Minimus!!!). And he’s not afraid to call out on other ppl’s bullshit (telling rodi straight you dont deserve to be captain which, at the time, was really true). He’s also SUPER smart. Also there’s that post on tumblr that pointed out that Ratchet immediately goes to deescalate conflict. He’s willing to put aside pride and anything if it means ultimately coming to a resolution where EVERYONE involved is safe. The only time he doesn’t is FUCKING OVERLORD who he rightfully, immediately, tries to briefly incapacitate to lockdown his medibay (protect patients/information). Ok I gotta stop I can go on forever just going page to page. Also, despite my love, I can totally point out his flaws. He’s grating when it’s unnecessary, he’s abhorrently bad at communicating, he’s privileged, he’s narrow-minded at times, etc. ec. But again what I love about him is that despite all that, he’ll throw his own self out the window for others’s well-being bc he genuinely, genuinellyyy cares about other people. If only he could care for himself //cries All the people I ship romantically with this character OH god... everyone. He’s my bicycle.  ok look, ya’ll know I’m an intense dratchet shipper and I could literally write a god damn essay. ... here’s another essay???!! So, I’ma be real, I wasn’t a super dratchet shipper before. I wasn’t anti (i have no notps), but I was just “yeah they’re cute i guess haha”. But 99.99% the reason why I ship anything is all for super cute adorable fanart. and I kept drawing them because 1) ratchet’s my fav, 2) drift is super popular so I figured I should learn to draw him. And they became the only 2 mechs I could draw. I used to be way more into Scavengers + megarod. I used to only like 1 dratchet fanfic and that’s bc it was less romantic and more plot centric (still a fav tho). Then I kept seeing cute fanart, I would read posts by other dratchet shippers too about what makes them so nice? And I was yeah.. oh yeah. And it doesn’t help that in Lost Light, drift is CONSTANTLY by Ratchet’s side. He’s constantly checking up on him and holding him and touching him, like as if Ratchet is the thing that he needs to make sure, at all costs, is safe.  In Drift’s life, Ratchet is the one who appears to him when he needs support the most but is in the most denial of it. When Drift is at the brink of death, overdosed and about to be broken apart and Orion brings him to Ratchet’s clinic. Ratchet patches him up pro-bono and tells him that he sees something special in him.  like??? can you imagine how that feels? To have no one believe in you--you don’t even believe in yourself, and yet here’s this person who tells you “you’re gonna be great”. And it totally doesn’t hit Drift in anyway, at least in a way that’s tangible to him, until much later in life. Or maybe it does (hey, how do you weave character narratives when it’s been written by like 3 different ppl shrugs). And that statement means 2 different things to them. To Drift, it’s a reminder that he’s worth something, even if it’s a sliver of nearly nothing to hold onto. To Ratchet, it’s a reminder that the greatness he saw led to the deaths of thousands of people.  HEY can you imagine this person you saved, patched up, tried to encourage, ended up being a mass serial killer in the future? (have you ever read Monster by Naoki Urusawa). Ended up killing people you loved?  So it’s no wonder that a good part of Ratchet is absolutely mad at Drift. And I think if that was all, they probably would’ve ended up being amicable. But Drift also ended up being super religious and seeing the hand and primus in everything and oh my god is this person really waxing poetry on the value of life when he, himself, shot several bullets at me at one point?  I also believe they are uncomfortably similar as they are different. The reason why they constantly butt heads is they’re two people trying to escape a past they don’t want and found complete opposite ways to cope with their losses. Drift found religion, Ratchet is gratingly pragmatic, and they see each other and go “how could this guy choose to be this way?”. I’ve heard ppl like to cite the annual as the reason why they could never work out. BUT, can I point out, that they act around each other in a way they don’t with anyone else? Drift gets SO MAD. Ratchet gets extremely talkative and incredibly personal (pulled out an electro slug from someone’s spark, holy shit that fucking traumatized you didn’t it??). They challenge each other emotionally, and it’s so fucking difficult bc they’re both extremely depressed and suffer from PTSD and would probably rather just go on their dumb space adventure and look at stars--take 2 emotionally constipated idiots and you get them. And hell no, don’t tell me Drift is in-tune with his feelings bc he’s 10000% not. He uses religion to cope with a past and life that he doesn’t want to think about. He tries to re-contextualize himself because he hates who he is. OUCHHH. And Ratchet MAKES him confront the parts of himself he hates--bc Ratchet has seen his worst traits and isn’t afraid to make him think about it.  So why do they work out eventually? They realize how important they are to each other. Delphi, Drift saves Ratchet’s life while he’s barely holding onto his own because he probably feels like he owes Ratchet his own life. And that’s a huge turning point in their relationship--Ratchet sees that... Drift tries really really fucking hard. My friend Zig pointed out that post-Delphi, Drift is eating energon w/ chopsticks (what a fucking nerd), and you can see in a later panel that Ratchet (who chose to sit next to Drift) is using those chopsticks too. IT’s such a small thing, but they’re becoming closer by sharing and learning from each other. And then Drift takes the fall and leaves. And Ratchet realizes just how important Drift’s presence is in his life. I mentioned it already lol but the scene where Ratchet helps Drift up off the floor and it’s superimposed with the love message Rewind left for CD. They care about each other so much!! And Ratchet chases after him!! HOLY SHIT. If that isn’t romance, what is?? lol I kid, but it’s obvious just how important Drift’s presence meant to him. IT’s really because they became so so so close in a way that can’t be described as just friends. They deeply understand each other in really uncomfortable ways and bring out the absolute worst and absolute best in each other. And this point is where Ratchet again appears when Drift doesn’t realize he needs someone in his life. Drift thinks he can be a loner and just float aimlessly and voicelessly--hell no! He needs friends, he needs community. He NEEDs belonging, because he wants to belong somewhere. And Ratchet helps bridge him back to friends and found family.  And Ratchet slowly changes the more he’s with Drift. He reads religious text and tries to brag about it bc he’s a dumb tsundere lol but he’s trying to understand Drift’s interests more even if it takes a decade and more to get there. And Drift values him for being his rock. That’s why he’s constantly making sure Ratchet is safe and unharmed, because he owes at least that much to him. And yeah they eventually fall in love because they value each other in a way they haven’t anyone else. IM EMO I CAN GO ONE, this all probably didn’t make a whole lot of sense but yeah. I’m just so soft to the fact that they’re horribly hurt people who don’t know how to redirect their pain, but by being together they come out healthier and more confident. IT’S RLY ROMANTIC IDKKK My non-romantic OTP for this character As much as I also love OpRatch, they are also great best friend platonic ship. They know each other best, they’ve been through SO MUCH together. It’s honestly a shame they barely interact in IDW bc the small tidbits we have, they obviously deeply respect each other’s opinions and deeply value the relationship they’ve had over the past millions of years.  I’m also all for non-romanceOTP for dratchet because I can totally imagine they go to each other to talk about things they feel uncomfortable sharing with others (they’ve seen the absolute worst of each other afterall).  My unpopular opinion about this character I don’t... think I ahve one. Some ppl view my love for his as grating lol.  One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon. Medic spin off.

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in all my crazy self realizing ik its been time again to ask: Is It Kin Or Hyperfixation? a fine line when u greatly love n connect to things. i heard aziraphales voice all day after the last time we watched good omens but that went away, so i kno it was me - but also amethyst started as a confused voice in my head so im never too careful

my muses r their own entities n i discovered murdoc n 2d thru rp originally at age 11; i can tell when muses start typing n talking for themselves, so.. until i Feel palpable proof, im not worried

but being majorly attracted to connor n rping every aspect of his complex potential for personality + the fucking occasional lucid dreams make me wonder as my formula is "if theres no memories of the ppl there, its not kin. if its not separate thoughts outside my own, its not soulbonds." but as someone that often accidentally soulbonds thru my own writing (it makes sense, rly, when i look back on it) im always.. double-checking

my experience as mettaton was v different from dbh androids as i was built so differently but used a pretty human chassis anyway thx to my robo builder fangirl; theres def sth abt being a Real Fuckable Robot i can get behind

but theres so many aspects of connor ive latched onto i joke my soul Is Him, even if its a great irony. i kno souls cant necessarily transfer thru technology cuz that argument is legit + humans n social beings attach personalities to inanimates all the time. russian duolingo man voice is hot. cars have a certain attraction to em, the buses r creaky old women doing their best. my computer is a confused scared sheltered beast like me. r they really? nah, but i 'feel' them anyway

the game is abt nonbiological beings realizing theirselves with free thought, from THEIR point of view, so ofc its a confusing, upsetting mess no matter how i deal. i still securely think connor would b what tumblr might have called copingkin; ive picked up his lil habits n attributes, facial expressions, etc that all come w the new journey of cosplay. im excited for halloween

so i think i may not remember but maybe i experienced? maybe not. either way connors kept me going for ten months in an adventure of Rebirth But Never Dies, w that morbid n sexual fascination of aspects i was too scared to explore before. rping smut w a friend where con has a vag setup for 'exploration' is a great opportunity im glad to have! rp friendships r weird n open n its nice to understand my sexuality n body without using this vessel as thats often too personal n im getting over my bad history but i kno, as connor does, to always question; hes nosy to the point of annoyance, his cadence is awkward n he scoots too close to ppl, yet is always capable of being a callous, cold-blooded killer; i see n acknowledge every parallel over the months of replaying dbh n picking apart his character, as writers do. its important to keep that line clear lest i fall into escapism again which im not trying to inherently avoid but make a habit of time-n-place w moderation as ik i get my head in the clouds way too often n i need to stop that

but in order to i have to finish this journey which is connor, even if im still trying to expand my interests n finding other things to enjoy, media or otherwise. being new to the world no matter how old u r is just a Big Mood n he feels that too, lol