#and im still scared to?

[holographings]

they got me. they fucking got me. jayvik nation hello

[wxvzkk]

one of my biggest pet peeves and shit that makes me angry is when people like point out things i notice, like when its about me, as if i didnt notice?? like it makes me angry and sad at the same time. like yes dude ive realized this and noticed it throughout my entire life why do you feel like you have to remind me or bring it up?? what i feel happens to me the most is the fact i look so white, like oh my lord yes i know. ive been accused of lying about being half mexican my entire life you dont think i realize i dont look hispanic? even my family says i dont look it and have by default, made everyone around me unknown of the fact because they feel ashamed and embarrassed of it. they can ignore the presence of the 'shameful' blood and just see me as european, but actually, they ignore that too. we're not allowed to speak our native language in public and we barely even use it at home or to each other. the only person in my life that has ever spoken french as a constant to me was my great grandma and shes been dead since i was 7. my family fakes to everyone that we're american and use the fact we're all white looking, can speak english without an accent or problem, and legal as a reason to say that it just never happened. my family will deny and deny even with evidence and proof in front of them. which is why it pisses me off because i already have to deal with this shit at home and then i have these people who think im fucking lying as if i have any reason to be. like do you really like that my pale, blue eyed, GINGER hair ass would be lying about being hispanic just for the fucking fun of it?? i try not to get upset or feel bad when people bring it up because i dont talk about it, and genuinely what else can you see when a white person is claiming to be mixed? i hate bringing up being mixed because i barely know the language and the fact i struggle so hard that i shut it down completely unless forced otherwise, i hate explaining to people that i barely grew up around mexicans who did anything other than drink and party, i hate the fact that i know so much about my own culture but yet nothing at the same time and i hate the fact im so embarrassed by it. i hate being around my dads side because whenever i am they shame me, my dad blames me for not being around them but he was the one who got arrested and disappeared until i was 13. i hate it all so fucking much but i dont blame anyone around me. i dont say anything and i laugh and i joke about it because its such a stupid thing to be upset about but when people constantly find out that im mixed and then start making jokes about how white i am, or how they cant believe me and i must be joking. like oh my fucking god you really think that i had any control of my genetics whatsoever?? you think that i wanted this?? like genuinely i wish i wasnt mixed at all because it shames my family and thats all i feel. i hate it so much. but its a part of me and i cant ignore it and it pisses me off that i cant ignore it because i wish i could. i dont even know, i hate everything about my physical appearance and how it causes such a controversy and how my family and friends react to it. i hate the fact my entire family praises the fact im so pale and the fact that they try to erase it entirely and i hate the fact that i have no control over it and they continue to do it and will lie to peoples faces just to keep it going. idk i just hate people bringing up things i already know

[pyrus-salicifolia]

“Normal” test results are not the relief people think they are. When you wake up in pain and continue to be in pain for hours every day and your tests come back normal you don’t stop being in pain.

[obsob]

i am a being capable of immeasurable love and whimsy print!!

[mellosghosts]

that one the pacifier 2005 scene but it's laura annoying logan just a few days before he fucking dies

[sucredemar]

breaking the hiatus for lesbian cookies (and going back into it, bona nit)

[hotdogmchiggin]

Company Mandated Fancy Fits on the Tulpar 😏

Also had to include the REAL star of the show (and a bonus)

Based off of this and this. Thank you very much joetastic for being inspirational 👍

The REAL reason this is late

[chloesimaginationthings]

Do you guys fuck with the FNAF books?…

[goryhorroor]

horror sub-genres: children horror

[stealingpotatoes]

i was so shocked when carth revealed he had to be way older than i thought but then i realised the game had also not given me much idea how old i was either

(commission info // tip jar!)

[iamenits]

The Omega Glory

[tomboyyyaoi]

[marmastry]

🐙 Moomers final volume cover 🦑

I hope you look forward to the finale in May 15 🧎‍♀️‍➡️

[deathricedrawn]

i'm ready to try

[tianhai03]

behold. my collection of arthur morgan doodles i kept telling myself i would post (some of these are almost a month old now)

[chemicalbrew]

friendship ended with <style> my new best friend is <span class=''>