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maniacal laughterrr clocking out todaay at 8:30 pm with 8.5k writtennnnnnnnn!!!! WHO AM I! whaT IS thIS! I did it all at home too. I started at like. IDFK 2pm???? I am a monster!!!! Kyoshi Island chapters have only 3 scenes left!!! I'm so excited :D
#jam talks#writing progress#im honestly inshockkkk#it did not feel like i wrote that much but stares atwordcount it dont lie!!#but also let me tell you my bluetooth keyboard is driving me crazy#my spacebar either double spaces or doesnt space at random#i should get a new one but also this one is cute and its mostly just the spacebar that glitches out...#and it has problems connecting sometimes#but still! Its too cute to get rid of...#anyways#do i share a snippet? ill decide after i get ready for bed lol
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A rough start to Suns day, then back at home some delivery people had the audacity to talk shit about the park
Yeahhhhhh Suns learned to have a lot of patience but once thatās crossed⦠oh boy
#Moon better hurry up before it gets ugly#sometimes all it takes is just a crappy day to bring out the worst in you#Sun is really not the type to get angry and on top of that heās put the work in to be able to take alot of crap#he hates that when it gets to that point he has a lot of trouble getting that anger under control#unfortunate for Moon when situations escalate he wonāt just walk away from it either#heās a problem solver and that has both positives and negatives#sb dca#dca au#waterpark au#Waterspark Bay#crunch art#dca x y/n#I also want to add Sun loves the buisness side of running a waterpark#heās spent a lot of time trying to build connections and become apart of a community#unfortunately heās learned the world doesnāt work that way for his kind#not yet#itās rather disappointing for him but for the events and confrences he does get to attend that doesnāt stop him from getting his hopes up
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tv show: this teenage boy is sex crazed to an ungodly degree. sex is a core part of his characterization. he is never not fucking cuz hes so cool and popular and ladies love him
me: this is a trauma response. i need you to understand this is a trauma response please tell me you know this is a trauma response...
#tim riggins billy hargrove fp jones.... many such cases#tv shows will be like 'this teenage boy has no parents to speak of or the ones he does have are horrible. his home life is in shambles and#he has many behavioral problems. hes also constantly falling into bed with strangers. sometimes women twice his age. these things are not#connected.' AND I COULD KILL!!!!!
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i know it's a running bit that people treat their tumblr blogs like diaries and overshare and i don't have a problem with that (i overshare myself once in awhile) but i really think people, especially young people who grew up with social media, need to understand that not every thought needs to be a public thought. sometimes you need to work through shit on your own. you don't have a keep a formal diary ā you can write stuff in a note and delete it or throw it away, you can keep things in a private conversation with a friend, you can use drafts to type up a thought and not post it, anything that doesn't involve broadcasting your innermost thoughts so anyone with an internet connection can see it.
it's not healthy and it shouldn't be the norm to broadcast Every Thought in public (and as much as you can pretend social media accounts and blogs are private, they are still public places) especially if you're working through a mental illness or trying to unlearn bigotries or something. it's a pretty common OCD thing to feel like you need to "confess" or publicly admit to "sinning" (talk about cultural Christianity...) and you really don't have to do that. if anyone gets weird about needing to know personal info or your "true" private thoughts to prove that you're not a bad person, then that should be a major red flag and they either need to work through some stuff too or are trying to glean information to manipulate you.
#this isnt about anything in particular just some thoughts ive had for awhile about the way people are using social media as a confessional#if you want to overshare or connect socials to your public identity then you do you but it shouldn't be normalized#the whole āif i cant see your likes/know things about you then youre secretly a bad person bc youre hiding thingsā#that is a form of social control and im not taking part in it#if the thought of interacting online with someone who has a kink you dont like or an opinion you disagree with is that distressing to you#then thats your problem not mine#sorry this is a bit more serious than i usually get on this blog but i really am worried about how a lot of people act online#as much as i am chronically online it can be really helpful to step back sometimes and reassess your relationship to social media#social media#my posts
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If the first season was about Jayce getting pulled every which way by his allegiances to those closest to him, then next season will be about Viktor doubling down on his isolation and refusing to listen to outside opinions. Viktor's already on the path for that. Viktor would have never gotten as far as he did in a society that's as hostile to Zaunites and the disabled as Piltover is if he didn't refuse to listen to the opinion of others. It's largely been in his best interest to disregard avoidable rules and social conventions because they otherwise barred him from not just advancing in society but participating in it in general.
But now this defense mechanism will only serve to further push him from others as he crosses morelines. Sure Viktor will be able to do some good with the hexcore and even gain followers, but a cult isn't a reliable source of criticism, it's an echo chamber to reinforce your beliefs. Viktor's true resolution will be allowing someone, maybe more than one, to tell him to pull back and he actually listens.
Tldr: Mr. "If you want to change the world, don't ask for permission", needs to learn life is a team project and nothings wrong with a little peer review.
#arcane#viktor arcane#arcane meta#jayce talis#cijtor and jayce are such an interesting pair of opporsites#jayce is so tied up in other people's ideas bcuz he was raised in a way that allowed him to trust the system to trust piltover#he was able to survive and advance based on the kindness and support of others almost#nearly every situation jayce has been in there was always someone of something offering to help him in a pickle#sometimes it's a councilor a wizard or a yordle but they're there#viktor is the complete opposite#from what we know so far viktor has had to rely on himself to get anywhere in life#he has no money connection a name and everything about his origins puts him at a disadvantage but sheer force of will#(a little arrogance) and genuine talent is how he survived and now it'll be the source of his problems next season#arcane loves dramatic irony
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The fun thing about creating a bunch of "next generation" ocs is that you start out with all the ships you care about, but in order to have fun playing with your new dolls you need antagonists and just more kids to hang out with in general. This is how you start really making fun ocs bc then you have kids who are children of pairs you don't even like or think should have had kids.
#talking point#i need to make polished design refs of all my kids#but im mostly thinking about descendants au antagonist and my creacher akito#hes so cute and so full of rage bc his parents (ayato and miko) absolutely should not be coparenting#they arent thats part of his problem (he lived exclusively with ayato before he starts living with ayaka to attend school in fontaine)#anyway akito has many problems but hes also not even 5 ft yet and blue with giant ears#and he cant hide his tail like mama so hes trying so hard to be menacing when you just wanna pet him#which he hates!!!#theres also a few concept kids floating around in the universe with no relation to existing characters. bc sometimes it aint all connected
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Fuck my stupid lonely gay life
#AUGHH. AM I EVEN CAPABLE OF CONNECTING WITH OTHER HUMAN BEINGS#gun to my head. am i even a real person anymore#i dont even like talking to other people is the worst part#sometimes i wonder how my life would be if i hadnt developed insanely severe social anxiety in high school#never trust how you feel about your life after 8pm <- repeating this over and over#how do people even make online friends. like. i guess i would have to actually talk to people#but even then what if i say something wrong. what if i dont have anything to say. scary#i think a new hyperfixation would fix me (haha ) but i havent been able to enjoy anything on that level recently and its kind of#PISSING ME OFF but whatever. is this what neurotypical peoples lives are like. how do they do it#pacing in a circle zoloft takes 8 weeks to work zoloft takes 8 weeks#i guess i use this account as a vent mostly but thats because i have no where else to . LOL#whatever. another vent post for the ages. this ones not even coherent. im so good at talking about fucking nothing dude#vent#talking#i like going through my own vent posts and analyzing my character development like im from a story#hey past me i hate to zay it but stimulants did not fix your problems. in fact they sent you into a major dissociative episode#got put on ritalin now but i dont think its gonna help probably. but maybe thats because the last two adhd medications were so terrible#but i think my adhd too bad for weak stimulant and my anxiety too bad for strong stimulant . my mental illness cocktail untreatable#im so glad you cant see views on tumblr that shit made me so anxious on twitter i deleted an entire account lol#bro cant make friends and he cant maintain the friendships he has š what a loser
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#Unariko and nikoā¦ā¦..#Woah. Suddenly I am a dastardly wanted criminal.#My ma and me man.#I donāt know if I really see her as my ma#Sheās my ma by title and by obligation. But she acts more like a friend. Not the best one#I wouldnāt go to her for anything besides doing shi for me or accompanying me#She outright said she doesnāt know how to guide me in life#And it just feels like itās my fault for stepping away from my parents#I feel like itās to late to stop lying to them about my life#Every time I tried to be honest they took it as a joke or played it off#Especially my ma#Every time I tried being real with her and talking about my feelings and whatās going on#She just said sheās been through something similar but in Cuba. And that just automatically makes her a bigger victim apparently#She mustāve gone through a handful of things too when she was my age#She probably just doesnāt know itās not normal#I donāt feel a strong connection with my ma#Sheās just my ma because she happened to give birth to me. She just so happened to be the one who somewhat takes care of me#Otherwise sheād be my friend#But I donāt feel like she fulfills my emotional needs#Sure she gives me kisses sometimes. And thatās nice.#But I donāt crave validation from her#I crave it from older people who seem like good parents#Jesus Christ a lot of things are starting to make sense#Moral of the story Iām becoming like my ma and thatās scary because why am I starting to understand why she is this way#Sheās caused 20% of my problems in life and yet Iām starting to get it#Following the same steps in the snow during a storm but my pants are still getting wet#Weird thing to say but. Exactly my situation#This has got to be mommy issues bro š#The worm conference#I donāt think this is a vent itās more of a rant
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Tmw Finale was rough last rehersal and you know DAMN well you've just been vaguely going with what the ppl around you are singing so now ur looking at ur script hoping that you'll suddenly be struck with the knowledge on how to Actually Read sheet music and that will fix everything.
#look just guestimating based off higher/lower and vibes has gotten me This Far#this sounds kind of insane bcuz Finale for ansemble is just āAaaaahā and looks pretty simple so I should NOT be struggling like this...#and yet...#its that EXACT vagueness to it thats the problem#its my most annotated song in the whole script šš#cuz the notes seperate into higher & lower ones right?#diff notes for the sopranos vs the altos and all#but its not every note#and thats FINE that just means we sing the same thing#except theres these ARCS that theyre sometimes inbetween and not connected to#and like early on I THOUGHT i had it but noticed that was Not how it was being sung so#it doesnt help that those are usually Lower notes (I'm a soprano)#look guys I SWEAR I tried I asked things but idk it just never clicked#I probs sounds soo silly to ppl who know how to actually read sheet music lmap#gem stop yapping in ur tags#batb#beauty and the beast#batb musical#sniffer adventures#ramblez brambles#and look I THOUGHT I had it again thats what the ANNOTATIONS are for#but now I'm second guessing mayn so
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Thinking about how Haruhi absolutely screwed over Asakura.
Because like.
Haruhi makes the club. The club goes looking for trouble and finds nothing and also the straws were not in her favor and she didn't get to go looking for trouble with Kyon.
Haruhi gets depressed because nothing has happened in the club in its one week of existence.
Five minutes later, Asakura: Hey. Kyon. Let's play stabby!
One day later, Haruhi: HEY KYON ASAKURA DISAPPEARED YOU AND ME GONNA TEAM UP AND LOOK FOR TROUBLE.
And like. Asakura is stated repeatedly to be the prettiest girl in their class other than maybe Haruhi, and Haruhi can't go after Mikuru because Mikuru's part of her gang.
What I'm saying is Asakura suddenly being stabby is entirely Haruhi's fault.
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And, as a result, it is highly likely that Yasuke should be concerned.
#musings#dr haruhi crossover#i know what happens with yasuke actually#i've known what happens with him for A WHILE now#but also this is why the rest of melancholy hasn't happened#with haruhi making a new universe and transporting herself there with junko#there are TWO pressures that cause haruhi to do that#one of them is boredom because the brigade is not doing what she thinks it should#(haruhi you had this club for five minutes sorry that sometimes this takes longer give it five to ten business days)#the other is kyon obviously crushing on mikuru more than haruhi#which is really better put as haruhi being insecure about how kyon feels about jer#*her#it's not even wholly mikuru although it's most blatant there#she gets frustrated when he goes off alone with yuki too#and the asakura example abovw#*above#she doesn't have that problem with junko for two reasons:#one - junko doesn't care about anybody else that way (other than yasuke) and so there's rarely a visible threat#(this will come up just not until the endless eight rewrite)#(at least that's where it's planned to start showing up)#(but you can retroactively see it in the sigh rewrite - in point of fact mukuro showing up is a result of it)#two - haruhi hasn't made the connection between ghost girl and junko#(i would argue she DID on some level make the connection between kyon and the guy from three years ago)#(that's where the 'do i know you from somewhere maybe like the past' line comes from)#junko's not officially a love interest consciously in haruhi's head yet#and won't consciously be for a while#haruhi is still chasing down ghost girl#junko has to usurp ghost girl before that part of melancholy can happen#and what happens with yasuke probably won't happen until after that#because junko might have two hands but haruhi is pretty sure they should both be hers thank you very much
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ngl itās genuinely kinda crazy how much of my life i have lost to mental illness :3 lol
#purrs#not time wise necessarily but like⦠aspect wise. like talking to my friends and pursuing hobbies and doing things that give my life meaning#and the very nature of the mental illness reinforces the detachment and fills me with so so so much shame for having lost these things that#it deters me from fighting to get it back. i feel like my life has gotten so gaunt since covid hit and sometimes it occurs to me how many#terrible things ahve happened and how im still pushing forward and everything is fine except for when i Remember. im feeling it now mr krab#delete later#like i used to be someone who hung out with my friends at least once a week and texted back and wrote poetry and played piano and kept my#room clean and took great care to stay organized and connected. and now at my own hands i am spiralling through space. im fighting my way#out of the quicksand i really think i am trying to but im still very much in the quicksand š»#side note idk if anyone else is having this problem but lately tumblr has been adding two hashtags to tags which keeps knocking off an#extra character to the end of my tags and itās fucking annoying. i meant *krabs not krab lol
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Apart from slamming the door open, Susie entered the classroom rather calmy (that isā she wasnāt yelling or making a fuss. She just asked if she was late)
#susie is so very clearly one of those students who tried when they were little but quickly learned the school system did not care#and the fact that she lives in poverty in that tiny town does not help#like. if she actually has a family and isnāt homeless then those parents are constantly working to pay bills and debts and things#so there not around. and then she has like no support save for any teacher that tries to help her#and while toriel would absolutely help her toriel teaches the little kids#alphys is the only other teacher shown in the building and sheās terrified of susie sheās not going to try to connect with her#and then bc itās a rinky-dink tiny school in a tiny ass town thereās not a lot of funding for it either#so the teachers donāt even have the materials they need and thereās not enough teachers and no after school programs#except any clubs that are completely student organized and that would just be like a dnd club or a book club where all they need is a table#and even then those might be forced to relocate to the library bc the school might just close after the day#bc thereās no extracurriculars and they canāt pay for an after school childcare program#and bc sheās ādifferentā susie would be kinda forced out of any spaces where the other students spend time bc they give her the side eye#and expect her to be bad bc sheās failing the class and in their eyes surely that is Morally Bad#and her clothes are sometimes dirty and sometimes just worn out and so they think sheās weird and ignore her#and any adults that see her like a librarian would be able to tell whatās āweirdā about her that the kids canāt seem to name (sheās poor)#but they see her struggling or trying to get any sort of attention and even if they can see whatās wrong they just brush it off#as ��not my problem to fix her bad mannersā#or āpoor kid. surely someone will come along that can help herā#and then do nothing!! the entire town does nothing! susie was let down by the entirety o#of the town!!#and im not sure where im going rambling like this but can you tell that i love susie very much and want to give this poor kid the world#susie deltarune#deltarune#liveblogging
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I get that by radical feminist analysis looks shouldn't be important and the concept of body neutrality and shit but boy do I wish I was a bit less of an uggo sometimes.
#ladyalienist has problems#useless ramble#I am slightly angry because it means less connections#even platonic#friends will legit favor better looking friends#and also favor taken friends while I will never have a satisfying relationship EVER#it means less opportunities at work and being taken even less seriously#and it does get lonely and frustrating sometimes#also I'd really like to have sex but not with someone who just wants the quick and easy fuck you know? I'd like some decent sex.
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every now and then when we say something in-sys we DO still hear Allan's voice but barely so
and sometimes. they're like "QUIT TELLING EVERYONE I'M DEAD??" when,
We never DID explicitly tell anyone that, and
He is dead? He's literally a ghost. He honest to god legit for realsies died in 2019.
and he's like..,,,, "oh right! lmao sorry I forgot, carry on" JDJSMSKDMFCN??
#pk;m electrochemistry����#no idea where Rosie got off to and what connection Allan has rn isn't enough to ask them#his whole 'voicing other people's thoughts/what they're saying' thing is an autopilot thing he does & at this point#since he's been doing it for over a decade he's barely aware of it now#but w Rosie it's like. Ok. Well. There's a ton of similarities between hir & I. what if sie.... um.#and I'm like WELL THAT'S PROBABLY NOT THE CASE AHAHA [<= in denial in case that Is the case.]#but also like Actually logistically that's probably not what's happening here#cuz that doesn't FEEL like what's happening. hir & Allan r probably in some weird void somewhere#There's also The Horrors that ce sometimes Reminds Me Of Against My Will so I think if ce DID integrate into me#that would not Happen. it feels very 'I am forcibly receiving these memories from someone else'#and not 'I Myself Am Suddenly Remembering These Things And It Sucks' it's like ce's shoving them into my brain remnants#so aNYWAYS! THIS IS FINE [it's not but it's like on the levels of 'I keep bumping into shit' on the Annoyances Scale#very Low but still mildly painful and Annoying.]#idk how much awareness either of them have rn or have had for the past Ever since they stopped being able to front#like we Have tried asking and we get nonsense or nothing in response#so. ??????????? cool?????????????? well anyways. if that changes and they come back and they don't like any changes we've made to things#that's their problem then ig! jxjaksskxj
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human beings are not meant to be lone individuals; we are a collective, or perhaps more accurately, a family. when a family member is down on their luck, you don't expect them to pull themselves out of it by themselves; you help them, you support them, you give them the resources they need to get back on their feet.

#this is one of the many reasons why reducing religious institutions to a form of entertainment has caused so many problems#religion provides the glue to keep a community together#and the motivation for the community to help each other#sometimes this connection is abused#but it is still important#you don't stop giving sick people painkillers because someone decided to use them to get high#also this is one of the reasons i often don't see eye-to-eye with other conservatives even as a trad#it just seems so obviously contrary to how humanity is wired to pretend that everyone can just go it alone
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Thereās this guy in town who owns this little house, and a while back he rescued a street dog that was going to get put down. Turned out she was pregnant.
Problem is, he has mental health & drug issues and couldnāt afford to get them all spayed & neutered, so now there are 6 grown bitches with 15 puppies total, and theyāve dug under his fence in multiple places but he canāt afford to fix it so they go roaming all around town. (When I say canāt afford it, I mean his house is currently running on a generator because he canāt afford his electric bill.) Heās also a day laborer so he cannot take multiple full days off work to take them to the vet an hour away. Heās in a really rough spot.
Heās not a bad person. Heās just overwhelmed.
And this little conservative town with 6 churches for 300 people, have they tried to help their neighbor? Have they adopted the puppies heās been trying to give away? Have they offered resources?
NOPE! All they wanna do is talk shit about him and complain about the dogs but never lift a finger of their own. And they come to his house to yell at him and cuss him out about the dogs, which does not exactly engender in him a cooperative attitude, as you might imagine.
So after a while of this going on, my mom gets fed up with all the NIMBY bullshit and starts talking to the guy, because sheās done animal rescue for 20-odd years and has Connections. Heās resistant at first, but when he realizes sheās not being an asshole to him on account of his addiction or the dogs, he decides to let her help.
She gets to work organizing and networking. Finds a non-profit that will cover vaccinations, spay/neuter, and flea treatments for all the dogs. Talks the next-door neighbor into paying for materials to fix the fence, since this guy can do the work of it himself. Gets him in touch with another non-profit that will adopt out the adult dogs.
Less than 2 weeks after she decided to do something, all puppies have been to the vet, 10 puppies and 4 adult dogs have been adopted out, and the second non-profit is coming by next week to pick up the remaining 7 dogs to ship them out for adoption.
Iāve learned a lot of things from my momāsome good, some badābut I think the most important positive message she lives as an example of is this: sometimes, when something needs done and no one else is willing, you gotta stand up and say āIāll do it.ā
#dogs#animal rescue#liveblogging the texas hill country#pets#dāye like dagss#true story#blog together queue alone
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