#and it's wrong

[polar534]

You know what isn't talked about enough? Bellara's companion questline. And just how devastating it is. Do me a favor and really think about it. Think about a person in your life that has effected you greatly. That maybe influenced you more than you've realized.  

I think we all have someone who could fit that bill.  

Now imagine that person left your life. Uncontrollable circumstances, or maybe they were controllable. Maybe it was something you did wrong. Or maybe it wasn't. Either way, they're not in your life anymore. He's not in your life anymore. Not like you'll ever have a chance to ask him. Or that you'll ever get a chance to be forgiven... 

You try and keep moving forward but you've attached so much of yourself to this person that it feels like with every step forward you're being torn in two. Will you even recognize the person you might be when you get to the other side? When you turn back and see the tattered remains of yourself lying in a trail left behind?  

Nobody seems to fill the hole left where he once was. The tear that is slowly destroying you down the middle. Others just don't understand. They'll never understand, they didn't know him like you did. They'll never know you like he did. 

You try and live for what you think he would've wanted. The idea you've created of who he was. Maybe you can keep him around just a little longer by continuing to search for what you both searched for together. Living on so you might never let anything slip by you ever again. Because that has to be the answer. That has to be what fixes what's broken inside of you without him. 

And then, that thing you were searching for? That he was searching for all those years? You find it. Against all odds, you find it. It falls right into your lap. And then it breaks. But that's ok, that's good news actually. Because it's longer you get to keep him around. Working on fixing it, late into the night, it feels like he is back with you, even for a moment. Every late night, aching back, aching hands. It keeps you focused. It keeps you grounded.  

It keeps him with you.   

The small family and life you've built up in the wake of his disappearance is under attack, so you do what you've always done and go to fix it. To triple check that they'll be safe. That you don't lose anyone else. But there's a dreadful feeling to this rescue. A familiar feeling. If it's familiar, if it... him, why does it feel so wrong? It's impossible that it's him. It's impossible that he would be tied to the horrors that are around you. So it's not him. He can't come back after all. He's gone.  

Then the impossible becomes reality. He returns.  

And he's come back wrong. 

Suddenly your entire world shatters all over again. Those crippling doubts return. Can I fix this? Do I fix this? What went wrong?  

The torn parts of who you are after he left separate further. Why does part of you want to stop him? Isn't being together what you've always wanted at the end of the day? If he's always been the one who knows you best, why don't you trust him in the way he is begging you to? If he loved you as much as you thought he did, why doesn't he trust you that this is all wrong?  

Why does accepting that he's back, that the thing you have wanted for so long, come at the cost of the world he left you alone to rebuild yourself in? 

You are Bellara Lutare and in a world full of gods and demons, dragons and nugs, your story feels so overwhelmingly human. 

[possibly-in-wonderland]

This isn't our scent.

Wtf

Why does our room smell like our great grandma's sheets or clothes.

This isn't our den. Not with it smelling like this.

Where's the cinnamon smell that makes us feel safe-

[tighnarithebotanynerd]

Not a lot of love in the world for scavenger species, I'm noticing.

[great-and-small]

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[heresylog]

I don’t care if you make fun of Catholicism as long as it’s accurate! The best humour has its roots in the truth.

[andisupreme]

At the company retreat, one extremely drunk girl asked what my pronouns were. (Eventually, it took her a while to word the question.) After the whole conversation was done, she goes- "YEAHHH GURL, Get on with--with THY bad self! See what I did?? They/them/thy."

I was almost holding back tears from trying not to laugh as I told her yes that's great you nailed it honey. Thank you very much I am feeling the love.

Anyway I've been assigned Thee/Thine at Supportive Drunk Girl

[chronurgy]

[donnieisaprettyboy]

“what if kids identify with something and it ends up just being a phase-?” good. stop teaching and expecting kids (and adults honestly) to formulate permanent traits and ideas of themselves. everything in life is a phase. that doesn’t make it any less legitimate while you experience it. let people explore themselves and know it’s okay if what you think about yourself changes.

[yeepof]

I understand that tall men are our POV characters, but surely being like a foot taller than everyone around them would have some occasional consequences

[heartbreakincident]

nothing but respect for our troops (smut writers) but listen. i dont want to be the person to tell you this, but not every character is going to be a dom or a sub. some people. and i know this is hard to hear. but some people do have vanilla sex. and some of those people might even be The Character.

[stafsar]

my muse and I

[dn-838]

Luigi Mangione could be getting the death penalty…

This man is innocent, his appearance and build doesn’t match that of the killers, the only “motive” he had was a convenient written confession showing that he supposedly viewed healthcare companies as “parasitic” and too expensive (which does somewhat contradict the actual killers actions) he had said note and the murder weapon conveniently on him while living his ordinary life, the killer held the gun in his right hand while Luigi is left-handed, Luigi and the Killer were potentially seen simultaneously, they wore slightly different coats.

The NYPD KNOW these are different people, they know the evidence is lacking, this isn’t a mistaken identity, it’s framing, they are trying to make themself appear to still be control by catching this man, humiliating him, killing him, when they know full well that the person they are prosecuting ISNT EVEN THE RIGHT GUY! This is an injustice! This is not a fair trial! This is downright tyranny!

[vamprisms]

kill 'character did nothing wrong'. nurture 'character did everything wrong and i was whooping and cheering the whole time'

[color-ns]

Sometimes tweeter people know their stuff- this is the right kind of toxic angst I want to read.

[toss-a-coin-to-your-stan-account]

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