#and its so like. lonely and scary and like

[lvdr-haze]

hii, can you write joost x female reader angst? they argue, he yells/says mean stuff but it ends with fluff? thank youuu 💋💋

here you go love, sorry for the late btw. :))

TW!! : mention of the death of a friend, angst with comfort ending

words : ≈1000

english is not my first language sorry if you can find some mistakes in the ff.

everything is fictional !!

REQUESTS STILL OPEN!!

NEVER FELT SO ALONE

Lately, Joost and you had been distant because he had a lot of work, and you knew that he didn’t like being disturbed while working, and you respected that.

But today was different. As you were walking home from work after an already bad and long day, you received a call from an unknown number. You usually don’t respond, but this time you felt the urge to pick up the call; you didn’t know why.

When the person on the other end of the telephone line announced the death of one of your dearest friends, your body just stopped moving, your eyes immediately filled with tears, and you felt quite dizzy.

You couldn’t believe it. How was it even possible?

You couldn’t even talk to the person who had called you, your body just moving from your sobs and your hands trembling.

The call ended and you stayed there, incapable of moving, just trembling and sobbing, trying so hard not to fall to your knees. You needed someone to hold you right now, and that someone needed to be Joost. You didn’t want anyone else because you knew that he would exactly understand how you were feeling right now.

You walked home with tears still rolling down your eyes, and after what seemed like an eternity, you finally entered your apartment.

You knew Joost was still working on his song in the room he had transformed into a studio, but you had to see him and you had to feel his arms around you.

You entered the room, but sadly for you, that clearly wasn’t the moment to do that because your boyfriend was so angry. He had just lost one of his songs and couldn’t find it anywhere on his laptop. So when he heard the door opening and felt your presence, he immediately yelled without even looking or checking on you.

“FOR FUCK’S SAKE, Y/N!! Just fucking leave me alone. Why are you pissing me off like this? Stop acting like a fucking child.”

His words were harsh, cold, and hurtful, but you didn’t want to fight. You didn’t have the energy for it. So you just stepped out of the room, crying even more.

You’d never felt so alone in your life.

You hated when people yelled at you, and Joost knew that. So after a little while, he came out of his room just to find you crying really hard on the couch. You couldn’t stop yourself, and your body was aching from sobbing. Joost immediately ran to you and took you in his arms to hold you tightly. He could feel that something else had happened, so he gently said with his calm and deep voice:

“What’s going on, lieverd? You can tell me everything… everything’s okay now…”

You looked at him; he was so comforting at the moment but yet really scary after how he had yelled at you five minutes before.

Joost could see the fear in your eyes, and that broke his heart. He never wanted you to be scared of him, so he held you as long as you needed to open up to him. And you finally did. You explained everything—the bad day at work, the call, the announcement of the death of your friend, the fight you had with him, and how you were feeling so lonely right now.

Joost’s heart ached at the mention of your dead friend. He had lost several people when he was young, and he knew how much it hurts and how hard it is to accept.

He sighed and played with your hair before finally speaking up:

“First of all, I’m really sorry that I reacted like this. I didn’t mean to, and I don’t ever want you to be scared of me. For your friend, you know I understand you perfectly, but the only advice I can give you is to let time do its work. Maybe it will take a while for you to heal, but I’ll be there to support you even when it’s not easy. You are not alone, Y/N… you’ll never be alone as long as I’m with you…”

Your sobbing had calmed down and your head was now resting on Joost’s chest, listening to his heartbeat as he was speaking to you with all the tenderness in the world.

Your eyes were feeling heavy and your body just needed some rest right now.

“Thank you, Joost… I love you…”

Joost kissed your forehead and smiled at the sight of you falling asleep on his torso.

“I love you too, Y/N… I love you so fucking much…”

[pansyfemme]

yeah i am straight up not having a good time lately

[piplupod]

my method of "getting better" has just been Do Everything Possible and latch onto whatever gives you any sense of purpose and/or joy. and i guess it's been working because i am definitely not in quite the same place that i was a few yrs ago

[coelacat]

the three ways to make me INSTANTLY dislike you:

unironically call an animal (or any living thing rly) "useless" because if it exists there is inherently use for it. thats how evolution works dumbass

"art is dead"/"theres no good art anymore"/i dislike modern art"/"i could paint/write/sculpt that"/any variation of some bullshit about how any sort of art is lesser than another

"i think anyone who believes in religion is stupid and should be embarrassed" and im especially deadass about this one. it puts you in such a bad mindset its not even funny. you can hate bigots all you want and the way bigotry may intersect with religion is always an interesting study but. genuinely. if you hate religion AS A WHOLE for just. like. being a reflection of a population. i think you seriously need to get your head checked.

[andromedasummer]

you know what i would love to be an option in bg3? making your own party member. like Icewind Dale style. choose their class, voice, appearance and travel with them. obvs i understand why they didnt, but it wouldve been so fun to have the option to make your own member, esp if they could be incorporated into your backstory. a sibling, parent, spouse, adventuring buddy, best friend.

[eelo]

It's aweird thought but, all that I have ever known as my status, I'll never have it again and one day I'll have been an adult more than I have been a kid and one day I'll be further from my kid years longer than I have ever been a kid,

Till you become an adult you switch statuses like once every few years, you're a baby for a year or two then a toddler for a few years after a child and then a tween and and teen and alllll these happen in 18 years

Think about it tho then like the middle aged period lasts like 20 years after that you're old just old till you die

The change never stops but it slows down so so much that it feels permanent

[backseatloversz]

i dont know what under 18 teenager needs to hear this but. listen i say this with the utmost kindness & concern. you can absolutely do whatever you want and watch/read/look at whatever you want in your own time but please. PLEASE. if you're exploring your sexuality/engaging with fandom, please do NOT publicly share your explicit writing/drawings/fantasies/etc......... again im not gonna say u can't do that in ur own time or like, share it with people you're 1000% sure are your age also (+ w their consent obv lol, and still be careful with that -- make sure its ppl u trust not to share it further). also don't directly engage with adults making/sharing explicit content, whether they're your friends or they don't have an age limit on their account (honestly, if you have adult friends/mutuals that are lenient about minors accessing their explicit content, please block or at least unfollow them. that's weird). + again idgaf if you look at/watch/read pornographic stuff in private cuz like. sooo many teenagers do i get that its so easy to just click the box and lie and say you're 18. im just saying PLEASE don't directly engage with adults posting sexual material, post sexual material for adults to engage with, or lie about your age and disrespect adults' do not follow/interacts on their personal, adult-aimed accounts, & to be wary of the adults that are lenient about teenagers on their accounts that host 18+ content, even if its infrequent none of that is safe for anyone involved. + if you do start to get uncomfortable/weirded out by adults online, please, please just block/report, don't engage with them any further that's NOT your responsibility, if you need to, talk about it with someone you seriously trust

[oars]

its all okay though because the past month is the happiest i've ever been im close to completely forgetting what it all feels like and im just full of the desire to just live. im so unsure of what i want to do in the future and i've been putting off a lot of things i should be doing but ive been so happy and at peace all of january i can't even be bothered to worry about anything.

[davidtennantpussytulpa]

being chubby means there are wars going on in my mind every single day with millions of soldiers dying

[clownpassing]

i feel. so deeply unhappy these past few weeks all i do is work and sleep and get high. and my relationship w jonathan is slipping a bit

[recapitulation]

I haven't really talked about it but going to a performance of mahler 2 was without a doubt the most intensely I've ever felt anything in my life. like clamping my hand over my mouth bc I felt like I suddenly had no control over my body. I felt like I was going to burst out laughing or start ugly sobbing for no reason other than pure intensity of emotion

[senseiwu]

One of my favourite freaking things is when you're scratching a cats head and they move their head into your hand so you get the Best spot

[dockaspbrak]

Its. Frustrating to feel like im always waiting for it all to be over

[thickest-slimiest-malware]

ofc ive always had adhd, but personally what really fucked up my attention span is agar.io (and being depressed enough to play it for hours every day. people whose lives are ok dont do that shit)

[blissfali]

they hate jesus for his opinions

[chaos-and-cookies]

Btw would u guys like a tumblr live apartment tour once everything is built and we're like officially in? The bed is done, most furbiture is made, so im hoping this week is true move in week and i can officially live on my own 😎