#and my psychologist

[diviinaee]

SPOILERS FOR GEORDIS VIDEO AND TW FOR RANT

THIS IS HURTIMG MY CUTIE KINNIE AND MY GEORDI KINNIE BC I SEE WHERE GEORDI IS COMING FROM AND I KNOW THE PAIN OF SETTING THAT BOUNDARY AND ADMITTING THAT YOU NEED TIME AWAY

BUT THEN IK WHAT CUTIE IS THINKING BC IF I HAD THOSE POWERS I WOULD BE DOING THE EXACT SAME THING,, idk if its my mentally ill side speaking but im gonna analyze cutie rn:

ADMITTING YOU MADE A MISTAKE YOU REGRET TO SOMEONE YOU LOVE IS HARD. knowing that you consciously chose that mistake and having that decision on your conscience is a painful thought. AND THEN ADMITTING TO IT. i could never.

As someone who grew up surrounded by lies, I would've done ANYTHING for the power to hear people's thoughts. Cutie has empowered parents and we know there was a time that they were surrounded by telepaths without their powers. They know what it's like. Reading minds is a coping mechanism for them. For them, thoughts = truth. But then enters the argument of specific thoughts. For example, intrusive thoughts could be thought but the person wouldn't dare act on them or say them aloud. Cutie needs to learn that.

GOD THE WHOLE PART ABOUT CUTIE GETTING THERAPY.

Therapy is a hard thing to agree to. Especially when it's recommended by someone you love. This world has fucked up in stigmatizing therapy and saying it's for "crazy people". Anyone can go. Anyone has the right to go. But in this case, Cutie doesn't like talking about it. They'd rather bury it deep, ignore it, and move on. But emotions are the worse ticking time bomb to ever exist. At some point, even this point, Cutie was bound to break. Fortunately, if they do it correctly, Geordi is supporting them throughout this. They will have help both medically and outside therapy.

ERIK. YOU MADE ME SOB MY MAKEUP OFF.

We can infer that Cutie told Geordi that they would go to therapy for him. Geordi says they have to do it for themselves too.

IF I WAS TOLD THAT, I DONT THINK I WOULD HAVE GONE TO THERAPY. Admitting that your ill is hard. It's easy to slap on the excuse that you hurt someone and you don't want to hurt them again. Admitting that you hurt someone you love and that you want to be better so that you dont hurt yourself and another person is BY FAR THE HARDEST THING TO ADMIT. And I'm so glad that Erik brought that up. With including the subject of therapy, he included the fact that in order for it to work, you need to do it for your own self and well-being.

AND WITH THAT IM DONE

i desperately hope that cutie does receive the help they need and they find themselves healing after some time. And I also hope Geordi heals from this as well.

NOW IF YOU'LL EXCUSE ME. I NEED TO WIPE MY FACE BECAUSE MY MAKEUP HAS BEEN RUNNING DOWN MY FACE SINCE THE VIDEO STARTED.

[eatingfood]

the best thing that happened in the last few weeks, is how I freed myself from my thought process where I didn’t wanted to live anymore and didn’t know the meaning of life 

for the first time in a long time, I’m living and not surviving

[shellofhappiness]

The general dialogue between Eric and that AOL girl regarding his philosophy on love has always stood out to me. It's one of the very few moments of vulnerability we've been given / able to find on his character over the past twenty years.

Eric always had his guard up. We all mostly know this from his own writings, no one acts like how he portrayed himself naturally. But, also including the accounts given about him from other people in his life, important or not, before and after passing. Mostly commonly described as aggressive and irritable, yet closed-off and restrained.

Alongside that online exchange, the only other times I can think of were when he called out of work to be there for his sick dog, or the innocent adoration he held toward his older brother, alongside sincere respect for his mother, of course, Reb's "I wish I were a fucking sociopath" Tape, and (arguably) his undisclosed email to his childhood best friend.

He talked about love like he was an outsider. A still figure watching it & whatever shape it may take maneuver around him, but not having the ability to engage. Let alone even acknowledge the fact it could be something of his own as well if he reached his hand out to touch it, but that wasn't even a possibility for him at that moment. Feeling comfortable enough to bring it up, but never to address it directly. Mentioning what he believed, but never outright saying it, afraid to cross a boundary. Though, he was still very careful with his wording despite not feeling confident enough to state his opinion in full. Being just general enough so he didn't risk the girl disagreeing with his words because he didn't give her an opening to do so, but still baring just a bit of his self to her through his ego because it was just the two of them.

Everyone talks about the concept of "love" relating to the case in reference to DK, because it was something that openly consumed him in private, but in a way, I feel the same just might have applied to Eric as well. But, like many other things relating to him, he hid it all away inside of himself. To live is to be vulnerable, and the times Eric was, never ended in his favor. Hence why he conditioned himself to be so isolated from everyone else, emotionally independent.

When Eric did openly talk about his doctrine on love, it was that degenerate & exploitative journal passage in which he wrote in depth about the idea of forcing himself onto certain women in his life alongside gaudy band lyrics. Considering how hesitant he was to directly speak to another girl about love, even under the context they were both being open with each other, the passage was likely written out of some kind of complex frustration. To compensate for how he felt like such a stranger in the face of it, but remarkably knowledgeable when speaking objectively. He wasn't being honest with himself, but still desperately needed some kind of liberation as an attempt to stop whatever feeling of desire he harbored from further stirring inside him.

The passion that stems from hatred is something I'm sure we all know Eric was well acquainted with. I think the hate inside of him masked the love, being overshadowed and making it appear small. It was definitely there, but seldom did it get a voice to speak in comparison to the amount of steam he let out on a general basis.

Eric cared a lot. When you look past the ego he presented to the whole world, he wasn't an individual with ASPD by any stretch of the means. He wanted not to be independent, but his life made him feel that was the only option he could truly rely on with the social instability he faced growing up. He wanted to be seen. I'm sure many people have voiced this before, but it's truly heart-wrenching to think he was doing this big finale act with his best friend, maybe because he had his best friend there to do it with him, only to find out post-mortem that DK didn't hold him to the same high regard. Maybe close, but not at all on the exact same level.

Putting the fact aside both of them expressed fantasies of doing NBK with their own respective "dream girl," DK wanted other options for someone to go through with the date, other actual people in his life, but from Eric's point-of-view, it had to be Dylan. Dylan was one of the very few people in his life, the only one still present with him, that aided his desire not to be alone. To be seen as an individual. To be vulnerable. Under the impression Dylan felt the same way he did, or at least something similar ... and while I won't deny it was there, it just wasn't as significant to the other party.

"What one person calls true love (EH) can be just another cheap thrill to another (DK)."

I'd like to specify that my goal with this post isn't to send the message that they were "gay," nor point out any form of "romantic chemistry," but rather to emphasize how languished love was overall in Eric's life. Also, I think there's an absurdist humor that comes from the irony of him saying this with what we know would follow half at his hands (you know who the other half is).

They both loved each other as friends, without a doubt, but it's so tragic to think that Eric's closest bond, a connection of love so intimate yet unrelated to direct societal romance, which created a strength so abundant that it started a ripple effect worldwide that still persists to this very day, wasn't quite requited the way he thought it was. Just like every other published bond of his, in his sad little existence.

[t0bey]

Show me the bliss of insanityyyyyyy

[conditioned-to-obey]

Does conditioning actually work with edging only? What chemical release would assist in the conditioning if no orgasm takes place?

Of course it does. Conditioned mutts will salivate to the sound of the bell, regardless if they are actually fed or not.

With the right training, praise can feel better than an orgasm.

It's not about the orgasm. It's about how good it feels to please. How good it feels to serve. How good it feels to not think.

How good it feels to just obey.

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

i am fascinated by Ken Tennyson

-appears in one episode to get traumatized

-is loved by every family member

-does not elaborate more

-leaves to not be percieved by ben 10 writers/producers

[hypewinter]

Jazz wasn't crazy. People might argue that burning her childhood home to the ground with her parents still inside would be an indicator of insanity. But how else was she supposed to react after coming back home from college to find out her parents had brutally killed her brother via vivisection?

Dying her hair blonde wasn't crazy either before anyone asked. Plenty of girls dyed their hair when they needed a change. Besides, she could never live with herself if she kept the same hair color as that vile woman.

Admittedly Jazz would have to secede moving to Gotham had been a little crazy but it was the perfect place to start fresh and blend in despite her "quirks". She had even picked out a nice new identity for herself.

Clearly Jazz was not crazy as she had managed to land a job at Arkham Asylum as a psychiatrist. If she were really insane would they have ever hired her? No they wouldn't have.

Jazz was not crazy. She was very much sane. Just like her precious Mr. J.

[phoenixyfriend]

I have begun watching The New hbomberguy Video

There's some fun bits, like "Where does--and I mean this as a compliment--the most fuckable twink I've ever seen in my life get off telling me how to manage my T-levels?"

But like... man.

I think one of the things that bother me about the Internet Historian case is that it seems like, if the guy had just reached out to Mental Floss, it could have been a really cool collaboration.

He could have just. Fucking asked. Cross-advertized it with the magazine telling their readers "Now this fan favorite is narrated by [internet famous person] with some amazing animation, based on the writing of [our guy.]"

[deityofhearts]

happy 4th birthday to the most batshit ask I’ve ever received on this webbed site!!

[red-wind224]

[rinavatrix]

mesmers my beloveds

[fubuyaka]

gummies

[hadeswearsprada]

I think about this image every day

[t0bey]

if it’s the end of the world

if it’s the end of the world

you and me should spend the rest of it in love!

[wiverly]

Scarecrow: How are you doing this? How can you resist my fear toxin so much?

Batman: I can do this because I live my entire life as I am under the constant influence of your fear toxin.

Scarecrow: *worried* Are you okay? Do you want to talk about it?

[ddarker-dreams]

there needs to be a name for the emotion you experience when you can tell a guy's about to turn a normal convo into something real awkward