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[deathfavor]

@ofsavior said: 🍻 + “ why are you always smiling ?” (Chifuyu & Hanma)

send 🍻 + a question for my muse's drunken (honest) answer

   The usual cheap beer that Hanma typically sips os has been traded for harder alcohol, which was a terrible idea on an empty stomach but Hanma didn’t have a record for caring about terrible ideas. Evidently Chifuyu didn’t care for terrible ideas at the moment either considering he decided to chit chat with Hanma while he was drinking. ( Although Hanma's never been a violent drunk.) He laughs at Chifuyu’s question like it’s the funniest thing he’s heard all night. Mainly because it is in his eyes. Always smiling? What a fucking joke. He lifts the bottle to his lips and takes a swig before speaking. 

   “ Honestly? I don’t really smile that much. I don't when it's just me. I just do it around everyone else ‘cause it unnerves them or pisses them off just like it pisses you off. “ Hanma answers with a snort, leaning back against the cold stone as it digs into his spine as he sits on the ruined steps. It’s a weird thing to have Chifuyu here, but Hanma can’t say he cares. When does he care? The list of times he does care is much, much shorter compared to the years worth of moments of not caring. “ It’s funny watching them get irritated. So I smile when I’m around everyone just because. “  

   Hanma regards Chifuyu got a moment before he grins and leans forwards like he’s sharing something top secret. “ Wanna know my secret, Chifuyu ~ ?  “  He asks, drawing out the blonde's name with a musical, gleeful tone.  “  I don’t fucking care. “ He loudly whispers, eyes widening slightly and his grin stretching wider over his lips.  “  About anything. I don’t care if everyone in the world hates me, I don’t care what happens five minutes from now let alone tomorrow. To me or anyone else. Life’s easier that way. Cause fuck, how’s someone to live day in and day out when its so boring that everything feels like a chore?  “ He stretches his arms for a moment, gesturing around them before letting his hands rest on his knees again.  

   A flash of gold catches his eye and provokes a new, drunken thought when it reminds him of gold rimmed glasses. The thought tumbles from his lips before he can think any further about it.  “ Sometimes I smile though cause some thing is surprising or fun. I like those times. I guess even that’s just ‘cause Kisaki makes things fun. I don’t mind him using me when I profit from it too. “ His shoulders rise and fall, lifting the bottle to his lips. “ Sometimes you surprise me though. Every now and then it happens with someone, or something really is fun. Like the look on Mikey's face when I caught his kick the first time." That had been hilarious. "  That helpful to you?  “  He asks, dangling the bottle between his fingers with raised eyebrows. " Or wanna interrogate some more? Maybe I'll entertain it." ....Chifuyu would probably look funny with a cop hat but it is a funny enough image that Hanma cracks an amused puff. " Don't normally drink this much, so nows your chance ~ " He sings. 

[ruporas]

your love returns in tragedy (ID in alt)

[qimir-the-stranger]

We get it, Disney. We get it.

Star Wars is not for women.

Star Wars is not for Black people.

Star Wars is not for Asian people.

Star Wars is not for Queer people.

Star Wars is not for anyone who is marginalized and has different lived experiences.

Nope. Star Wars is ONLY for cishet white men. We hear you loud and clear. We know you don’t care about us at all.

[teaboot]

One of the most bizarre feelings imo is finding out about a prejudice you didn't know existed

Like. I only recently found out that there's areas IN MY OWN COUNTRY where discrimination against Italian people is a genuine problem

Like

I definitely know WHY I always assumed Racism was a prejudice more dependant on differences in skin colour but holy shit damn yeah okay so there's also ultraviolet racism too huh, we're all just drinking the shitty bitch water then

[killjoy-prince]

House M.D. but it's when Wilson says House's name

[egophiliac]

still absolutely losing my mind over Lilia

[kaicean]

happy (late) nalu day 2024 ✨

[jesncin]

BruHarvey Royalty AU prompt for DC Gotcha For Gaza (requests closed)! I like this ship and this was a fun opportunity to draw fancy clothes~

[inkskinned]

i keep thinking about hobbies and how i often spill over myself to pick up new ones. i have adhd, i end up trying something for like a month and then just getting far enough in it that i move on, satisfied.

and that should be fine; but it's never fine.

i am a pretty decent artist; but i can't just make art for my dnd campaign, i should be selling dnd maps and character designs and scene setting pieces. i can't just make my friends matching earrings, i need to get an etsy and ship them internationally and take bulk orders. i make pretty good props and decorations and use them to throw my friends parties - but i should be running a party planning business and start taking paying clients and networking and putting my skills to actual use.

for some reason, i never figured out the specifics of pottery. it was a fun class and i enjoyed myself - and still, i'm embarrassed, years later, that i put in all that useless effort. everything i make has to be stunning. stellar. i should have applied myself more. maybe i'm too lazy. maybe i'm broken and selfish and needy. actually creative people would have kept going; they would be bettering themselves at every possible opportunity.

we find ourselves in this trap, even accidentally: we need to commodify our time, because it is a commodity. if we spend our efforts and our time not earning, isn't that the same thing as burning free money? and god forbid you ever take up a hobby that ends up being more expensive than you thought. you sit in your car and you look at the receipt and in your head you hear a conversation that isn't even happening - your mom or your friend or your partner all saying oh great. not this shit again. it's always something with you, and it never actually means anything.

i have realized this horrible thing, recently - i'll get excited to start a project, pick up a new hobby. and then i just... stop myself. i start thinking about the amount of time it will take, and how it'll look in my monthly budget. what if i can't even produce a good enough final product. sure, it's exciting to think about how i could make my friend her own custom dice. but i'm just polluting the earth if i don't get it right. better not bother. better not try.

restless, i get caught in the negative space. the feeling that oh god, i want to create. and that horrible sense - yeah, but i don't have the time to just put to waste.

[cosmicdreamgrl]

jungkook x black: pt.2 [ cr: 0613data, namuspromised ]

[stuckinapril]

how are you so in love with yourself...this is not me accusing you of narcissism or smth i genuinely am in awe of how much you seem to like yourself and be in love with yourself and I try so hard to be like you and do that too but i fail every single time...i really really want to know how I could be like this too because i know it is one of the biggest things stopping me from achieving happiness

Not sure if this is a ubiquitous experience, but for me personally affirmations can only go so far. There’s always been a direct correlation between me doing action-based things and my self-esteem increasing, so I try to keep my promises to myself (study at x time, work out at y time, just doing whatever I need to do even if I don’t have the motivation for it). Someone told me that self-esteem comes w doing esteemable things, and I’ve never forgotten that since. What someone thinks about me (including the gargoyle voice in my head lol) won’t faze me if I have tangible accomplishments under my belt I can refer back to on bad days

[chitinleg]

got him off-balance!

[tawnysoup]

game is good

[doe-prince]

Look what my partner found outside in the snow! The broken mother immediately reminded me of this drawing I made in 2022.

She's there but she isn't.

I love this sculpture! It's perfect as it is.

[wintergreenoreo]

“Maximum pain for my rivals 😁” confirmed that Fernando is a sadist.

[cometshift]