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queen-of-weird-girlboy-nation · 6 months

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Job. Oh Job. I’m sorry

#I wouldn’t be as strong #and you were #but at what cost job #you lost everything #everything #and we want to lose everything too #don’t we #we want to lose to prove ourselves #to prove we are holy #for what is holier than sacrifice #than martyrship #I’m sorry job #the book of job #bible study

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bakudekublogblog · 4 months

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kacchan really is so funny for being like BUT WHAT ABOUT BAKUDEKU CANON when he finds out izuku is quirkless

#bakudeku #bkdk #mha spoilers #bnha spoilers #mha leaks #he really is like WHAT ABOUT US #WHAT ABOUT EVERYTHING WE BEEN THROUGH #izuku is such a Gabriella too he DO be running away from his feelings every chance he gets #what about US IZUKU WHAT ABOUT OUR MARRIAGE #WHAT IS THE POINT OF THIS MANGA IF WE ARENT MARRIED #and Izuku is like oh no my baby is on too many painkillers hahaha he’s not proposing to me right now that’s silly #if he was proposing that would mean he loved me and I can’t accept that reality I’m too much of a burden #I can’t think of myself long enough to realize I am valued #two months ago Izuku was like :) I’m so blessed kacchan talks to me almost normally #how is he supposed to process he was just proposed to by that same boy #like he’s also just gone through almost losing him he’s probably like I’m lucky he’s alive and breathing near me #and kacchan’s like I LOVE YOU I WANT YOU FOREVER #Izuku is overwhelmed ok give him some slack

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azapofinspiration · 1 year

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Chuuya who doesn’t let himself want things because he has to put everyone and everything else first, who feels like his own wants shouldn’t matter because he has power so he needs to be responsible and prioritize those weaker than him.

Dazai who doesn’t let himself want anything because the moment he gains it he will lose it, who can’t handle opening himself up to that kind of pain and vulnerability because he’s been taught that that is a weakness.

Both Dazai and Chuuya whose experiences tell them that the moment they want, everything begins to go wrong and they’ll lose the things they care about.

#nakahara chuuya #dazai osamu #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd fifteen #bsd stormbringer #bsd dark era #skk #soukoku #I know we talk about how that line suits D a lot but it goes with C’s experiences too #he lets himself want to learn more about his past and he loses both the sheep and later the flags #D wants human connections and friends and then everything falls apart and his friends are gone #another connection between these two #meta #my meta #bsd analysis #my posts

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antiquepearlss · 3 months

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Tangled The Series would have been very different if Varian were voiced by John Mulaney, huh?

#“You want it? Go get it” *chucks the scroll into a gutter*#“ I told you I’m worried about Corona too you know like a liar”#*almost gets murdered by Andrew twice* “now we don’t have time to unpack all of that”#“Varian why didn’t you do anything when the Saporians took over?!?” “I was over on the bench”#“Is Frederic a good king?” “Whose to say”#*sees Quirin in amber in a red rock induced hallucination* NOO THATS THE THING IM SENSITIVE ABOUT #“Because this is Old Corona and life is a fucking nightmare”#“No offense Varian” “NAWT FUNNAEY”#“I am very small and have no money so you can imagine the kind of stress I am under”#*sees an automaton* “I smell a robot- prove prove”#*gets his fathers acceptance and pride* “THIS IS THE HEIGHT OF LUXURY”#@Andrew “beat it bozo”#Raps fights back against him using the rocks “YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY”#@the fear rocks “everything else is so goddamn weird this might as well happen”#Varian making that bottle rocket that explodes eggs #@Cass during Nothing Left To Lose “you have the moral backbone of a chocolate eclair”#“Eat ass suck a dick and sell drugs”#tts #tangled the series #rapunzel's tangled adventure #varian

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alluralater · 4 months

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hey everyone, i won’t be as active for a while. got home last night super late after being on the road for 20 some odd hours. dealing with some family things and as an older sister, my priority of taking care of my siblings comes first before anything else. being on here is amazing for me but i don’t think i’ll have much time for it. reminder to please treat those in your life who are battling addiction with patience and care. i lost my older brother (sweetest person i’ve ever known and he remained that way up until his last night) to suicide and alcoholism, trauma and ptsd, depression and his feelings of hopelessness. talk with the people you care about. another of my siblings is dealing with the same and i refuse to let it escalate to such a terrifying end twice in less than a fucking year. remind the people you care about that there are beautiful things to live for. show them kindness and love. there is all kinds of misinformation out there but know this, you can make a difference for someone. don’t let them suffer in silence.

#if you have me on snap then you saw the super gorgeous views and such on my way to idaho but what you did not see was me picking #up my little sister. propping her body up with pillows in a hotel room to make sure she didn’t aspirate on her own vomit in her sleep.#pouring out her water bottle of white claw and talking to her about drug use.#i never make her feel as though she has disappointed me or that she should feel ashamed. shame helps nothing. love helps everything.#i’m going to get her back into treatment soon- i just need her to know she has a home when she’s out. detoxing here first and being #positively reinforced for every single step of the process is so fucking important. it was terrifying to learn that if i had not gone to ge #her when i did that she probably would have died there in the next few weeks.#my fear of death for her is not what guides me though and there’s a huge difference between that and doing something out of love. being #there in dire moments is important yes- but being there through the mundanity of recovery is JUST as vital. it’s a process and it’s hard.#she’s moving in with me for awhile so i can help her through this sensitive time in her recovery.#she’s trying so hard and being recognized for that has literally been making her sob. knowing she has people who truly care for her is #everything. now that my stepdad is away from her like across the country i can actually finally help her. she’s starting to understand and #without me saying anything- she is starting to see what he’s done to her and our family. she needs love and support and stability. she need #reasons to live. sorry im kinda rambling a lot in these tags but i just… i can’t lose another one. the love i carry for my siblings is #unlike any other. i’ve treated them like my children since i was a child and those are my own issues but our mother is gone now too so it i #up to me.#losing my brother last september and my mom the year before that- grief has just been back to back.#in the hotel room i couldn’t sleep. she fell asleep so quickly and all i could do was watch her and think about all of the things i want to #do to make her feel like her life has value and worth enough to stay here and not go. my little sister is forever four years old in my mind #yes she’s an adult of 23 but she is a baby to me. she’s so young and she has so much ahead of her. she deserves a happy and fulfilled life.#our lives have been… very hard. 4 out of 5 of us are still standing and i plan on keeping it that way.#this is not the pain olympics or whatever but listen- if i put an adult in any of the situations we were in as children they would not #survive. we only did because there was no other choice. now there are escapes and we are old enough to try them all- every single one of us #has searched for some escape. it spirals and escalates and it doesn’t help but it is an escape. giving her love and affection and getting #her the help she needs and doing it the RIGHT way- it lessens the need for escape. there is nothing wrong with being an addict.#addiction ends one of two ways. life or death. unfortunately there is no in between. she’s going to feel everything- bad and good. i want #her to know there is so much good. that she is good. every move i make right now matters so i don’t think i’ll have time for tumblr or #much socializing.#just a heads up yk. thank you for your patience in advance <3

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sskk-manifesto · 2 months

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!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#A great episode tbh especially given the low budget. I feel like they really did their very best #And even though what I'm going to say next is probably going to be all critic - because I nitpick things and that's what I always end up–#talking about - I still want to underline that it was a very solid and enjoyable episode!!!#Alright the ss/kk was so 💞💞💞 every scene I had to rewatch twice or thrice akhscbashfb they're so cute!!!#Except for the riding scene tho. That scene gives me massive second hand embarrassment every time I just wish it will end as fast as–#possible pffttt. Mmmmhhh... The drawings weren't even too bad all accounted. My main complain is about the quicksand scene...#I feel like that one should be a slow quiet emotional scene. I never licked the choice of using the song as background soundtrack :/#I feel like it ruins the mood of the scene (it was still good though)#I also... Generally don't like the direction they seem to go for with Akutagawa's character in the anime‚ he seems quite a bit flatter–#compared to how he is in the manga. He can't be angry and evil ALL the time you need to show that softness get through from time to time.#If not what even is the point of his character. Yet in the anime he's angry (and not distraught) when he loses the mine craft and he's–#angry when he's questioning Atsushi about his motifs and he's angry when he's bragging about Atsushi's abilities to Goncharov and he's–#angry when he makes the promise with Atsushi at the end of the episode and eventually he'll be just as angry even when telling Atsushi–#to run away as he's sacrificing his life for him. It is pretty flat at the end of the day.#If I can say something about K/ensho Ono without being killed I think they do contribute to making him feel angry all the time.#But that said it's all probably poor directing choices (or simply choices I don't agree with).#Also‚ about cuts. Usually I try to be lenient about it– I understand it's hard to fit in everything and b/sd already does a very–#good job by adapting the manga almost panel-by panel. It's just that... You skip Akutagawa showing compassion for Atsushi after the–#orphanage director died. You skip Atsushi sharing the same compassion when Akutagawa loses his targed in the mines chase. You skip the–#“Nothing special about that. // I suppose he's far crueler than my own mentor.” line. And sure each of them may be negligible by their own #But together they wave a consistent web of relationship between the two characters you know? And it's a loss to omit them all #Well no mind. Again it was still a great episode overall!!!!#I think the colors in the mines could have been prettier in the mines but we can't have it all #Off to season 4!!! Omg I can't believe we got this far :DDD #random rambles #FINALLY was able to catch up in time for the season 3 finale!!!!!!

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batsplat · 3 months

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casey also talks about sepang 2015 what do you think of that

oh in that podcast? uh... lemme listen again...

yeah idk it's not really anything new I'd say? he's said basically all the same stuff in more interesting and extensive ways elsewhere. I think casey inevitably has a very 'well feuding is bad and helps nobody' point of view, has expressed that before in the past, does it here again, and he's also drawn a parallel between himself and marc on several occasions. which... well, of course there's similarities in terms of public discourse or whatever, but the parallel really falls apart whenever casey argues the feuds cost valentino. like, I do think it's sometimes important to just. keep in mind. it's interesting that casey draws this comparison in his mind but that doesn't necessarily means he's right about this. I'm not sure how you'd argue that starting a feud with casey cost valentino anything competitively? you can argue it didn't help him I guess, and then we can have a debate about the ins and outs of the 2008 season. we can also have an argument that in a hypothetical world where casey isn't ill in 2009, valentino doesn't break his leg and casey isn't on a piece of junk in 2010, and valentino isn't on a piece of junk in 2011-12, then actually maybe valentino sparking open animosity with casey COULD have cost him. but we don't know that! didn't happen! I wish we could have found out, but we never got the chance! as it stands, the tally on this is pretty straightforward: casey won the title when things were reasonably civil between them in 2007, and valentino took control of the following season at the exact moment he worsened the relationship between the pair of them in 2008. obviously, it's all more complicated than that and casey would of course argue laguna didn't negatively affect his subsequent performances... but it certainly didn't help them. like, at the very worst valentino escalating tensions in 2008 is a complete net neutral. after 2009, them being bitchy to each other every other tuesday was completely competitively irrelevant beyond maybe affecting how they approached occasionally fighting for a podium position. hey, maybe casey used that feud to fire himself up through sheer spite throughout the later stages of his career, but that doesn't actually support his anti-feud stance - it's basically the exact same thing as what valentino does. they're both quite similar in that regard! always so hungry to prove a point, to show how someone else is wrong. kinda half the point with this feuding business is to get yourself going, get yourself motivated, yeah. he straight up openly admits to using yamaha's repeat rejection of him as a way of giving himself motivation, and at the end of the day that's really not all that different?

anyway, what else does casey say... oh yeah, that him and the other aliens were already kinda prepared for this and had learned vale's tricks. that valentino had only been able to get into the minds of the previous generation. welllllll *wiggles hand* sure, I mean, he did clearly have to change his approach... he couldn't just use the exact same playbook to get to them, either on-track or off-track. but that's why he did change up the playbook... again, whether you want to believe valentino won his final two titles 'in the head' rather than just through pure pace kinda depends on how you assess the evidence, but it is at the very least a debate. and, y'know, it's always worth remembering that valentino's most important mind games with casey didn't happen in a press conference... it was on the track. and the on-track stuff really is just embedded in how valentino approaches winning. speaking of aliens, this is what dani and jorge have said:

like, valentino's entire approach to his riding, even to the way he's setting his bike up, is deliberately about directly fucking with you... he's not actually always trying to be faster than you as much as he's trying to give himself the tools to make your life miserable, to pressure you into mistakes, etc etc... and again, especially with casey (if anything because he was so mentally sturdy), the off-track stuff was really just window dressing. (I know they bicker a lot after 2009 but it's just so fundamentally irrelevant to actual on-track competition.) so you can be aware of those tricks, but it also doesn't necessarily help you when someone's being nasty to you on-track in a way you just fully do not enjoy. which is what it was like for casey! for casey, a lot of this comes back to the truly unpleasant context of how he was perceived by the public, how he was treated as mentally weak or 'broken' or whatever partly because he had the misfortune of coming up against a bloke who had the reputation for breaking rivals. I think it's quite natural to end up with a bit of a hardliner 'actually I've never been mentally affected by a result in my life' stance - and of course casey is a lot tougher than a lot of people give him credit for. that being said. sometimes your rivals affect you, shit happens, it's part of the game. it's fundamentally a nice idea to think that valentino's tactics weren't just morally wrong but also ineffective, which is kind of the appeal of this narrative, right? you want to believe you're above that, you want to believe you were adequately prepared and wise to valentino's tactic. it's unsurprising and understandable that casey does tend to tell the story that way, but again it's *wiggles hand* also hard to describe it as completely factual

uh. what else. oh I'm thrilled casey does canonically know valentino and marc were friends, he has said he wasn't following motogp too much during that time period so you couldn't be sure of that. does this mean anything? does it tell you anything? well, no, but it's just a pleasing thought to me. I like that. oh also 'provoking particularly aggressive riders isn't a good idea' is kinda a funny take from casey? like, he of all people would hate the idea of being cowed by someone's reputation like that... casey's right that provoking fast riders can potentially be dangerous, but y'know I do think that's probably not news to anyone almost nine years later. um. that's all I've got I think

#i will say idm getting asks like this AT ALL but i do hope that's not like. the only bit of the podcast people are paying attention to #my thing with sepang 2015 takes is that like... when's the last time anyone has said anything genuinely interesting about that event #which yes big words from the feud blogger... but in fairness a lot of the sepang 2015 stuff is from old notes. that's my excuse idc #but that's kinda the thing... i feel like i haven't really had a new original thought about the whole drama for three plus years #u do kinda run out. basically the takes say more about the person saying them than about the actual event at this point #which. yeah. casey's comments on sepang '15 are primarily interesting in what they tell you about how he feels towards valentino #mind u he's actually quite nice about valentino in this one? casey call him let's finally organise that dinner #heretic tag #//#brr brr #batsplat responds #oh casey does go on another spiel against riders who win at all costs. ships that passed in the night of feuds i always say #also he gets the age he enters the premier class at wrong. i held myself back in the last post from pointing this out for tonal reasons #but if people want my podcast hot takes. i do simply have to mention it. just to set the record straight here #'they battle for podium places after 2009' genuinely. twice. like the alien era giveth but a lot of the time it really does just taketh #somewhat ironically casey wins the duel when he's on the shitty ducati and vale wins the duel when he's on the even shittier ducati #whatever that tells you idk #casey was always promising the laguna rematch would've gone differently and I love that conceptually but also we just don't know #he was like next time I WON'T play nice and it's like?? omg what does that look like. casey what were you cooking #for ethical reasons it's probably fine but for character arc reasons it's objectively ass that casey ended up being able to do all his -#- racing in a way he was entirely comfortable with for his second title in 2011. like it's just a complete waste of a year #you have this whole thing building for four years and then 2010 comes along and it's like. well that's enough narrative intrigue now! <3 #also casey/jorge are fundamentally too interesting as individuals to have had such an obscenely boring on-track rivalry and yet here we are #it KILLS me because if you rearranged it and made valentino's dogshit ducati years like. 2009 or something #and do a straight title fight between jorge and casey THEN I genuinely think it would've been way more interesting #the problem with valentino is that he is fundamentally the WORST imaginable character you could invent to be casey's foil #literally everything about valentino could have been designed to be a casey-specific nightmare #but unfortunately that also makes him objectively the most interesting rival casey could have gotten #like morally it's on the edge. but narratively? literally could not have gotten a better villain in casey's story #constantly dancing on this faustian line of having to imitate valentino to beat him while trying not to lose yourself... juicy

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running-in-the-dark · 2 months

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my niece is staying with us for the whole weekend for the first time. until now it's always been one night only, not two.

it's the second night now and I have already decided this is not happening again anytime soon. I'm so fucking exhausted. it'd be less exhausting if it was my nephew, I think - he's older and also doesn't need as much help (even when he was her age).

I love my niece but she just asks so many questions. like when we're watching a show or a movie, even if it's one she has seen before (even multiple times), she doesn't understand what's going on and constantly asks me to explain everything. I don't mind it, really, but it does take a lot of energy. plus tonight it took over two hours for her to fall asleep because she was scared by the noises of the house and the nearby road. I get it, but damn I'm so fucking tired, I just want to sleep 😭

#my nephew will get to stay for two nights soon so that it's fair and everything #but then I think we'll go back to one night only for a while #I just can't sleep when someone else is here. and I do not handle being tired well. or rather being even more tired than usual #so yeah no this is too much #I'm so glad I don't have children. I literally would not survive #we played board games with her today. her idea. she chose the gsme #but it was so fucking difficult.....#I think most kids would have understood this game at like. 10 maybe. probably before that really #she's 12 and a half and just did not get it at all #she's got difficulties learning and she's finally getting (more) help for that in school now but I'm really.. a bit shocked that it took #this long for her parents to accept that #she's a great kid but it's been obvious since she started school that she needs more help #so anyway yeah it's 3am and I think she finally fell asleep after I put Charmed on for her #I've got a massive headache and I'm so fucking tired I feel like I'm losing my mind lol #couldn't sleep last night & I hope it's better tonight. but having someone else here is stressful.#ugh I wish this wasn't so hard for me. I want to be the fun aunt (I'm their only aunt.. aunt-like person... whatever) but I know I get more #and more impatient when they're here. I hate that. but I can't change it. I've tried! for 10 years! but it didn't work #don't get me wrong - I'm never mean or angry with them. I just get somewhat annoyed and I know it's noticeable and I hate that #they don't seem to mind. they love visiting us. but I don't like it because I hated the way adults treated me when I was a kid so I want to #be better #:(#anyway I have to sleep now or tomorrow will be hell :)#personal

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ectonurites · 9 months

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SUPER DARK TIMES (2017) DIR KEVIN PHILLIPS

#tragically had to skip the 'are you afraid of me' exchange i love at the start bc. this scene is Long #super dark times #josh templeton #zach taylor #sam edits #btw i'm firmly in the 'Josh didn't kill John' camp. bc to me THIS scene is the point that... makes the most sense as Josh's breaking point/#'villain turn' if that's what you'd want to call it. because this is really when Josh... sort of 'officially' loses Zach. from early on in #the movie it becomes clear how much Zach is like... an anchor for him—the way Josh is just fucking *chanting* his name in distress during #the Daryl accident. The way Josh begs Zach to believe him that it was an accident. The way Josh turns to Zach for answers/clarity/direction #Like even if we want to take a cynical approach and think of it as Josh just latching onto Zach in the Daryl situation because he was There #rather than that being an established thing w/ them... in the aftermath of that same incident Josh is still looking to/depending on him!#Josh self isolates at first... but after they talk & Zach tells him they shouldn't act weird Josh goes back to school. (yes #he lashes out there because He's Dealing With The Crushing Guilt but *all* of 'em are acting off then—Charlie specifically calls attention #to the idea they all probably are) Josh goes to the party just like Zach said they should and is *visibly confused* when Zach seems mad to #see him there. He goes to Zach's house to talk and you can SEE how caught off guard he is by what Zach says. Even though the script version #of this scene is VERY different from the final version I do think this one bit of description from it is... insightful: 'Josh seems sincere #almost vulnerable. But Zach is too focused to see it.' LIKE in this scene Zach is already convinced Josh has lost it! He's trying to act #more neutral about it (claiming they could just 'draw a line') but we saw his phone call with Charlie. Because of his own guilt-fueled #paranoia—something shown pretty clearly through the assorted dream sequences and like tht scene of him walking in the hall hearing people #gossip about Daryl—it seems like everything lines up too well! that '*of course* it's Josh and what if it's *been* Josh all along and well #then the role *I* played in the situation really isn't *my* fault because it was all *Josh* and...' etc. even if that's more subconscious #But like... this scene is really when it hits Josh! from the moment he asks if Zach's afraid of him now like... there's a shift. although #Zach says he isn't... i mean he fucking stumbles on the word 'afraid' (like... he hangs on the 'f' sound a moment too long to sound natural #its very subtle but like Noticeable). But Josh sees right through him. Zach doesn't trust him anymore. Zach thinks he's the bad guy. the #monster. Josh feeling like he lost the last person he had in his corner feels like the most realistic thing to... push him over the #edge. like that's a compelling tragedy to me—the idea that these two poorly coping with the Daryl situation in these separated ways where #they *aren't* talking/communicating ends up CREATING the feedback loop that makes everything get worse and worse.#But for that to be the case... it wouldn't make sense for Josh to have just randomly killed John before this scene. I think it's a more #interesting story if certain things really ARE just coincidences but it's that Zach's paranoia won't let him see that 🤷

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atomiclace · 2 months

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who knew that some agere people would be the worst type of people to exist (talking about you spinny)

#dont get your toddler army to do your anon hate and unblock me on discord if u want to talk #ik you act like a baby and thats fine but if youre bold enough to try to get me paranoid (and fail) then u should be bold enough to dm me #yknow without hiding yourself #either do that or leave us alone girl!! move on #like why do you preach about moving on to a new era and then actively seek out trouble ????#get a job or something #trying to make me think my bf is cheating on me is such a weird thing to do and a big low for you spinny. it's actually sad #the worst part youre not even good at doing it. youre making shit up from what you THINK you know & hiding behind ur friend #its okay to fall out of friendships and im not even trying to meddle with your life but you are literally actively seeking out problems #and thats so pathetic. especially when you paint yourself all high and might over us ??? clearly we tried everything for you #until we got to a point where we were literally drowning because we have other shit in our lives too #you keep losing friends and complain about it. maybe consider why??? because of lack of communication and empathy!! youre just mean!#especially to those who've always tried so hard to have your back and defend you! (buka and me!!!)#yet you didnt care. you dont communicate and expect us to read minds & you demand things #and u say that a real friend should know when to reach out & ya but when it gets to a point where i feel like im drowning? no thanks #im prioritizing myself and my mental health im sorry #not to mention i was ALWAYS IN THE MIDDLE IN YOUR BULLSHIT #so grow up. actually. and if you wanna dm me then unblock me and we can talk #if you want to keep hiding behind your toddler friends acting like youre all small and sweet and babies then go ahead but leave us alone?#at least ill have closure and finally come to terms that you're not rlly a good person and u use your illnesses to excuse ur behavior #because i still think about you and wish you were our friend but after everything thats happened (this being the cherry on top for ME)#then maybe you really just are a shitty person and you do more harm than good #soz to everyone else reading this just continue scrolling LOL #its drama cus an ex friend is sending their toddler militia on me for some reason???#delete later

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ajxrn-archive · 2 months

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I need to be put in a waffle iron or something

#i am. really stressed!!#i hate being online i keep losing friends #Majority of them did shitty stuff to me and it makes me so sad #I already have trust problems so when people come and say theyll always be here for me and then the next thing i know im blocked because i #Expressed my discomfort about something shitty they did it makes those trust issues even worse #We were pretty close and now i regret telling him shit because he could use it against me #And im starting to fall out with my “best friend” irl. Everything is making me sick #I can’t do this anymore I really want to disappear #There has to be something about me so repulsive to people #That i just turn them away #its gonna be like that for the rest of my life isnt it? I probably wont even get a partner in the future #I just don’t know why I fuck up every friendship so bad even if it wasnt. My fault #I shouldve kept my mouth shut even if i was uncomfortable #my last friendships ended like this too #I caused a huge server fight by saying I was uncomfy and I’m pretty sure everyone hates me now because of it #even though some said they werent #I am just really lonely and feel like a piece of shit #Because I am one #I don’t really know if I want to keep being here anymore #I genuinely think nobody likes me #Even when I was in school nobody liked me #I was the “weird girl”#I just wish I was normal and likeable and then maybe I’d have friends irl #I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I’ve considered suicide over it multiple times #I ruin everything #My friendships. My life. My parents marriage. My art. Everything.#I doubt anyone will read this or gaf so just. ignore me

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brionysea · 5 months

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love this shot. it's like mike is inviting them into his mind/game ("alright, wheeler, i think we found your hub") + max and dustin are the ones who step into frame. i am staring at the implications

#with the dustin death foreshadowing #possibly the two party members who dived in recklessly despite the risk and proceeded to pay the price #lucas was wary #el came in pre-traumatised from how dangerous it is #will obviously went through All That and became traumatised about it #dustin was like HEY I'LL PLAY and max was like WHY WON'T YOU LET ME PLAY #and then they die #because it's not a game which is what mike is constantly talking about in s2 #it's not dnd it's real life he's from the upside down maybe he should be dead it's the brain if we kill it we kill everything it controls #brings it full circle to mike being willing to sacrifice himself for dustin too #he'd choose any of them over himself #these two are the ones reckless enough to show why it's a reasonable choice to make #it could be viewed as a necessity when you're inherently dangerous and you're friends with blind risk takers like max and dustin #who get themselves killed because you failed in all attempts to do the same #if you make the audience love these characters and then kill them #then asking if killing mike is worth it becomes a weighted question #because we love max and dustin. we don't want them to die. neither does mike #nancy didn't want barb to die #joyce didn't want bob to die #max DID want billy to die which is a whole other beast #but his dad sure didn't #everyone matters to someone and mike has decided that everyone else matters more than him #as long as you ignore max and dustin and karen all losing their minds when he's in mortal danger and possibly dead #it's all so complex and yummy i want to EAT it #anyway #cool shot 👍#st posting #manifestation theory

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toontownportraits · 6 months

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i don't get a choice in the matter / why would i? it's only the death of me

#the lyrics in caption is from doomsday by lizzie mcalphine #the bagel draws #fanart #hannibal #hannibal nbc #hannibal tv series #hannibal fanart #hannibal lecter #blood #eye contact #(s2 spoilers from this point)#i hope its not too grainy i ran it through a remove background thang bc i drew it on a canvas with other doodles so #lol! hannibal writers you're sooo funny!!! mizumono you're soooo funny!!!! (tears in my eyes snot dripping face red)#me and my cousin got to aboutttt. season 3 episode 3 before we had to stop and im watching the rest of s3 except the finale on my own #and im rlly excited......#she said that s3 is kinda boring but it has chiyoh in it so. i disagree!!!!!!!!!!!#ALSO. i find it incredibly interesting how hannibal handled everything. beat the shit outta jack chased alana.#the implication of him making abigail almost kill alana :( and then will coming and seeing her only to lose her AGAIN #hannibal really likes stabbing doesnt he... freak #he wanted to run away with will and abigail. there was room for abigail in will's world. fuuuuuck man #i wish abigail had been given the same ''mercy'' that will had been given of the surgical cut.#well. it's not truly mercy he quite literally gutted him but thats why im putting it in quotes isnt it #OK IM DONE YAPPING. HEART. REBLOG MY POST BOY

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gu6chan · 1 month

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the brief mention that 1.3 leonard could still be feeling some deep lingering grief over his brothers' deaths still never fails to fascinate me tbh like, does he think of the standards he must have lost since their passing and feel guilt? or does he see them in every child he abuses??? does he keep his grief to himself or does he find it a useful anecdote to what must be a countless number of families dealing with loss??? does the green dragon know? does he confide in it????? since leonard seems to be aware of what arioch lost to the union, just how aware is/was she in what HE lost???????? did they have a role in each other's loss? is THAT where their beef came from??????? im going to merge into a wall

#gu6chan's musings #drakengard #drag on dragoon #leonard drakengard #drag on dragoon 1.3 #drakengard 1.3 #on the other hand; i've been obsessed over the idea of doing the 'nothing in life matters 😔' (DOD1) 'nothing in life matters 😎' (DOD1.3)#meme with them because of this #still... why would they give us the base concepts for the 1.3 cast but literally none of the depth for 98% of them (angelus is excused lmao #like you're going to make them edgier okay BUT THESE ARE STILL THE SAME PEOPLE???? WHAT PUSHED THEM TO THAT BC IT CAN'T JUST BE A 'DIFFEREN #TIMELINE DIFFERENT PERSONALITY' THING OTHERWISE YOU LOSE ANY SENSE OF “self” THEY HAD IN THEIR CHOICES IN THE DOD1 TIMELINE ENTIRELY #there HAS to be SOMETHING that made them like this... well caim we pretty much see it #BUT LEONARD AND FURIAE?????? i still stand by it; they fucking took the dragon-blood pill too i just KNOW they did #but that still doesnt answer what the fuck went on with him and arioch #the boring but most STRAIGHTFORWARD answer would probably be something among the lines of #'Oh well she came to the village and he had to drive her out after realising she was literally insane and she's been waiting to get back in #ever since. leonard just kinda knew about the dead relatives bc thats everyone'#but i dont like that explanation as much as the idea that they KNEW because they had some INVOLVEMENT when it happened #(likely unintentional.... maybe? 👀)#also why the fuck does the prologue just casually mention leonard was part of the union but literally never brings up why he's midgard's #most wanted by the time the truly diseased takes place and what led him to (presumably) abandoning it to begin with #....WAS IT SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE DEATH OF ARIOCH'S FAMILY???? HUH??????#ngl im entering conspiracy mode with this but being honest #it almost seems in character and MAKES SENSE that him having something to do with the death of/possible killing of arioch's family would #drive him to where he is by the time TTD takes place #think about it!!! leonard joins the union; ends up driving a woman to literal insanity after involving himself with the death of her family #the guilt causes him to leave the union and seek a life of atonement helping OTHER families whose lives were torn apart by the war/union;#his brothers are possibly killed during his defection??? maybe??? something something #arioch seeks his ass out and spends her time waiting to feed on the village/semi-subconsciously maybe waiting to ruin everything he's worke #for....

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nomairuins · 2 days

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how it feels to randomly get rly overwhelmed and frustrated and bitchy and feel like youre going insane

#like its so dumb i shouldnt be this upset its not just rhe stupid drawing everything is literally wrong . i need everythinf 2 stop 4ever #i want to eat something savory but i cant bc rly what i want is a spambowl but i cant fucking make spambowl bc everybody in the house will #lose their shit that i didnt offer to make any for them <- uncharitable. at most lamp would make a joke abt it. but i also just dont want to #cook. but nobody else can make spam bowls #well lamp can but they prefer when i make them. but we have 4 pieces of leftover spam i need to use up bc theyre jusr in a ziploc #and thats enough for A spambowl. but iii dont feel like it #it wouldnt even be that like. actually no incouldnt thered be too much rice #we only have boil in a bag rn. and 1 bag is for 2 #so if i want spambowl id Have to share w lamp which i dont mind its easy 2 like. yk. 2 spambowl is what i usually make so i can do it pretty #easy. but im like om the verge of tears for no reason so i cant be in the kitchen #'for no reason' well my periods coming up inliterally got rhe notif for it. thats the reason #i need to get back on t i need to get a job i need to graduate. slamming my head into the wall #i feel like now its been too long since i worked and nobody will hire me . man #but i also like. idk i. id probably be better if i had a job bc id have to be but i feel like i cant keeo anything stable #i cant even keep my fucking sleep schedule steady i get it fixed for a week and then i fuck it up #im so tired i wish things were easy. whateber man . i think maybe i just need to sleep

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add1ctedt0you · 9 months

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I am craving for a zcx' modern au, where, after years apart, jc, wwx and lwj encounter again. lwj and wwx are married and after some time, jc starts to hang out with lwj, but only with him (they are kind of exs... Or at least so lwj thinks!)

#Like the point of this au is that shit slowly becomes harder #In every universe wwx has to watch as a kid jc losing his dogs because of him. So that wwx internalizes that he brings nothing but trouble #and pain to jc. So yeah. He's married to lwj but jc wants lwj right? He's taking another thing from jc. And wwx doesn't want to hurt jc.#But he needs lwj too. And he doesn't know how to have both things.#And in every universe jc has to be told by wwx that everything that wwx did was out of duty! So that jc internalizes the concept that wwx #never truly loved him! Because jc is unlovable just like his mom! And his bad temper will force people to act out of duty rather than #genuine affection! and that wwx will lose things for him. out of duty obv #And in the middle we have lwj. Who is pampered in different ways by two men he loves! And then he can only watch as both slowly drift apart #from him. Their worst behaviors shining.#Look. lwj knows jc and wwx worst traits. And he can manage them!#But he has never handled jc and wwx together. While they are together. Because - and lwj never understood this before - jc and wwx bring #out of each other their best and worst qualities. In particular their worst self-destructive qualities #And lwj who isn't good with words and he doesn't know why they are behaving like that - and they don't share with him their problems -#doesn't know what to do #It's a mess. A beautiful fic in my head #Like. Both jc and wwx are carrying yzu and jfm' guilt on their shoulders #jc hates how his mother treated wwx (and it was because of him! Because she was scared for jc's future! And he knows it! )#While wwx hates how jfm ignored jc (and it was because of him! Because jfm found wwx more likeable! And wwx knows it!)#zhanchengxian

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