#and yet here i am cancelling on ppl

[getoutofmytardis]

uhhh

[neil-gaiman]

Hi Mr Gaiman!

I always thought if I were to message you it would be about writing advice or to say something nice about your books/media, but I just woke up and am feeling impulsive, and I think your have an influential voice on tumblr and so may be able to clarify this for ppl in regards to the WGA strike (apologies for the presumptuousness, obviously ignore this if it’s not appropriate):

I know that at the beginning of the strike, the general request for audiences was to NOT cancel subscriptions to streaming services, as it would undermine the WGA’s position by reducing a countable audience.

I have since seen - particularly after yesterday’s news - people in the tags encouraging each other to cancel subscriptions so as to not “cross the picket line.”

So, twofold question:

a) is the original stance correctly reported, or just a game of tumblr telephone?

b) /should/* people start cancelling their subscriptions in solidarity, or would this be counter productive to the strike?

Thank you for your time (and your books! But that’s for another day)!

*”should” here means ‘would it be appropriate?’, as opposed to ‘is it a moral imperative?’

The WGA has not called for anyone to boycott any of the streamers or to stop their streaming services yet. It's not "crossing the picket line" to watch something on a network that we are striking against. ("Crossing a picket line" is a very real, specific thing with a real meaning.)

I've seen it being discussed, but until the WGA calls for it, I don't suggest doing it.

[spaceyflowers]

hi!! im still alive!! + updates on this blog

first: i would like to apologize for disappearing without a word for like. nearly a year. im terribly sorry for any worry i've caused T_T;;

honestly i have no good excuse for disappearing like i did especially without reason (not that im obligated to let everyone know my business but i did have a "i wont randomly disappear!" sentiment and yet... here i am) but in a nutshell, its basically: fandom shifts, college, and guilt.

if you want to know about the future of this blog fandom wise;

still going to be a lookism/viral hit blog (havent caught up yet) but most likely wont be as active in the fandom anymore;;; thinking of sticking as a lookism blog until that series ends but who knows when it will so i might eventually just change fandoms 😭

please dont feel bad about unfollowing or anything!! curate what u wanna see with who u follow, i take no personal offense, even if we've been long time mutuals!! ><

fandom shifts will probably be more common; i have this weird thing where i cant focus on multiple interests or i get stressed;; so i get obsessed with one thing for months/years but then once i lose interest and move on, its likely i wont return to it unless something triggers it. thats why i dont think "multifandom" fits me, i'll always be fandom focused, its just the fandom focus changes 😭

p.s. sorry if im being dramatic about this (i feel like a youtuber who got canceled writing an apology 😭😭) i just feel like i owe yall an explanation </3

if you're curious about me, i've left that under the cut;

got into a new interest which made me stop looking at lookism/viral hit stuff -> knowing my blogs are lookism focused, i decided to take a "break"

couldnt get myself back into lookism after my "break" ended -> couldnt get myself back on tumblr

started to feel guilty because i havent been active in a long while

senior year ending, school takes my priorities -> summer break comes, i swear i'll apologize on tumblr but guilt eats away at me and then i have to do college stuff

become a little active on tiktok, start feeling more guilty because im active there but not on tumblr

college begins, get busy with college stuff -> during breaks, swear i'll apologize on tumblr pt 2 but the guilt has piled up so much it feels like the equivalent of when a person cant get themself to reopen their animal crossing new leaf game because they havent touched it in a long time

first college semester ends, winter break starts -> finally convince myself to get over it and start typing all this up

once again im really sorry T_T i was not made for the content creator life bc i cant stay active for shit + i feel so bad gaining followers for one thing but once i move on from that one thing, it feels like im disappointing a lot of ppl even tho i know i dont owe strangers on the internet anything- im just repeating myself now but yknow

oh and for anyone curious: my current fandom is dmc <3

[myjunkisyuzuruhanyu]

I mean, seeing what the ISU Awards has become... do we really want Shoma (and Stephane) to be involved in that mess? It's so... self-celebratory, lol. The phrase "I'll scratch your back if you'll scratch mine" comes to mind. Saw a FS fan who was at Zurich tweeted that the crowd don't even know or care much about the skaters when they were given awards... honestly even Stephane, a Switzerland citizen (!!!) chose to go to Tokyo this week to do dance classes and watch the Paris Opera Ballet. Anyway if people really want to watch a really good ice show, Daisuke's ice show KASSOUYA in Fukuoka was also running this weekend and they allow fancams... from what I can see on X/Twitter it's much better than AOI, sorry not sorry.

KASSOUYA seems indeed a wonderful ice show. The snippets look very cool. I wonder what brought them to allow fancams and if they keep it that way or only because they wanted to promote the show in sns 🤔 In Japan ice shows are growing. I am glad for every opportunity for the skaters.

In a way Shoma is involved in the award anyway. He was in the nominations, even if he didn't win. Not that this award has any sort of negative or positive impact on anyone really. I think Shoma would just deserve more recognition by the ISU. That's all, not that the award itself is worth anything. I guess nobody will be remembered for earning a skating award. Yet Shoma and Kaori not winning against Ilia when Ilia is here for two seasons and did get one title only feels odd. If it's solely on social media engagement well than Adam's backflip gained huge attention at Euros, Kaori's SP last season was literally retweeted by Janet Jackson herself, Livia Kaiser's FS was retweeted by Rachel Zegler and beside that it shows that ISU is not aware of what Shoma did for the sport. OPOI brought another crowd to figure skating. (SOI in the US just got canceled for the season for a lack of interest as it appears btw) But ofc this whole award show is playing into the hand of those ppl who always had a say in skating North America and Europe. Ilia's management is practically involved in the show, so winning an award two times in a row - one which was just invented for him last season - a devlish thought may come to mind 🙃

I think the crowd for an ice show is different than for a competition. At Nebelhorn Trophy usually the arena is more packed for the gala than for the actual competition. Those ppl there don't come bc of the names of the skaters, they come for a fun evening like going to the circus. I also went couple of times to Holiday on Ice, I was also at Disney on Ice (ice shows that come to my hometown are an easy choice to go to). At Holiday on Ice last year Papadakis/Cizeron were invited and I totally chose a date where they would perform in the show bc of them, however in the crowd most ppl didn't know who they were and didn't care. They liked their performance but you could see just a few excited fans. You can see by the reactions to the jumps (which are usually just doubles) that the cast performs there that ppl don't come bc of the sport but bc of the show. They would clap as enthusiatically for a double than for a triple. So I am not surprised the ppl didn't care much for the winners at Art on Ice, most ppl there probably didn't even know them but came for an ice show.

Stephane performed often on Art on Ice so I don't think it had anything to do with that, probably didn't rather fit his schedule. Makes you wonder though if he would have won if he would have performed there. Because very comically all winners were also present at Art on Ice...🙃

Maybe Shoma didn't win because he would not attend Art on Ice at this point of the season 🤔😂 just kidding...

I am not against those ppl that won at all, even happy for Deanna Stellato Dudek, she deserves the world as a role model. Just being the only Pairs skater to even get anything is showing how much ISU cares for all disciplines. Also the nominations of most categories just show that ice dance and Pairs have no value.

[ultrvmonogamy]

How are u? I miss u bestie

hey bestie. rn i'm feeling a bit deflated tbh. i'm sure i'll be fine soon enough, but wow it just seems like there's always something bad happening for me here like one of my blogs is disappearing or an acct is being termed or a former mutual is no longer following me or a current mutual is no longer interacting w me or i'm finding out ppl r talking abt me behind my back n spinning half truths into hideous vileness or i'm visiting a mutual's blog n am immediately nauseated seeing content reblogged from the most duplicitous blogger i know of n who's made claims abt me that r the actual polar opposite of the interactions that occurred while literally echoing words i've personally said here abt striving to be authentic n genuine or i'm seeing a former mutual's response to a question abt following ppl back that talks abt how they don't rly do it anymore bc everyone turned out to be terrible ppl n knowing that i'm probably one of the ppl they think that abt but for bullshit reasons or like i'm having warm n wholesome thoughts towards someone for a split second before remembering that oh yeah wait they think i'm evil now n r no longer one of my few real friends if they ever were or i'm being told to kill myself or i'm finding myself afraid to reply to a question by someone who's been canceled for alleged disgusting things but i don't know if any of that stuff was true bc i sure as hell now know firsthand that ppl r well-capable of attributing motives that do not exist n yet here i am now paralyzed n not responding bc i don't if my once thriving but now v precarious existence here would survive the association of even answering a totally benign question n so also thereby better understand other ppl's resistance to interacting w or implicitly endorsing my content simply for the just-in-case-ness of it all or like a sick, sick individual who last showed up in my world a few yrs ago attempting to catfish me by leveraging the death of someone i cared abt showed up again yesterday either again attempting to catfish me or sending some likely unsuspecting minion to do her bidding (unclear which) n like holy hell, u know? well the main reason i started this blog n started talking here was literally to vent n to be raw n authentic n just own all my weirdness n my conflict n my vulnerability n my perversion n my trauma n my hope n my fear n my stupidity n my experience n my insight n then when ppl completely unexpectedly to me began to follow n interact, my purpose for it expanded to connect w ppl on a real level w the parts of me that i'd let starve or had starved willfully whether out of ignorance or naivety or learned shame or simply fear of being know n to thereby find resonance n all the while to attempt for all that i'm worth to integrate it in a positive way n hopefully thereby facilitate others doing the same n maybe just maybe if i'm super extra lucky n the moths happen to flap their wings in just the right manners at the witching hour while the moon's in the right phase to be able to offer smth of worth to the world in a greater magnitude than i've been able to thus far n well i'm not going to stop trying to integrate n to connect n to be willing to stand up n own my shit until the day my heart stops beating n even w what is now at times such a stentorian din of noise that in moments i cannot even begin to tell what key it's all in or whether there's even a rhythm let alone where the downbeat went i am going to keep trying to improvise a harmony [some of which intrinsically necessitates my silence], it's still the place where i seem most to find meaningful resonance w others who r similarly motivated n similarly struggling but yeah it gets to be a little much sometimes..

but how're u bestie? n why do u miss me? do we not talk? did we ever? do i just suck so bad at replying that an anon seemed a better way to get a response?

in any case, i hope ur well, n i probably miss u too 🩵

p.s. sry i couldn't spare much punctuation what w inflation n the supply chaine n all the crimes against humanity etc.

[golbrocklovely]

Twitter is trying to cancel SnC yet again I see.

If I were SnC I would literally just delete all my twitter profiles except for their channels twitter which I'd then use ONLY for promoting when new videos drop. Just so the twitter fans can learn that they aren't as important as they seem to think they are because those boys are nearly at 12 million subscribers on youtube, twitter is but a mere handful of that subscriber count so it really wouldn't matter if they all decided to stop watching.

(plus the video they're all angry at is actually performing very well, it's already at 2M views on just day 2 of releasing. This suggests a lot of the fandom may not share twitters opinions...)

i don't see snc deleting their twitters, but i do see them continuing to not use them and just letting them sit dormant bc that side of the fandom is too dramatic.

i've said my peace on this 100 times over, but i don't mind saying it again bc it keeps happening and no one over there is getting it lol

not that i'm telling them either since most of them i have blocked or they have me blocked lmao

that side of the fandom has cried wolf one too many times and now expects snc to still listen to them. and look, back in 2020/21, maybe that would have happened. bc twitter held a lot more stock back then. but not anymore. they thought they could call out snc for every little thing and expect them to always listen and for all of the fandom to agree. and reality is that just won't fly anymore.

were there genuine reasons to call them out before in the past (and even now)? sure. i'm not here to argue that. but what i am saying is once everyone jumped over the line in the sand and started getting mean and calling them out for nonsense things, idk what you expected to happen.

it's one thing to complain about content and what's going on in it or that it's taking too long to get new content out. it's another thing to bitch about their gfs and say they shouldn't date them, or in general to bring up personal shit.

where our input starts and ends is content related, and that's it. anyone that thinks they have a say in what snc do in their own personal lives are delulu. it doesn't matter if you believe you have their best interest in mind, your input is unwanted. that's just reality.

also i think a lot of ppl on twitter think they speak for everyone in the fandom but they fail to realize that this fandom has 12 mil ppl in it (roughly). even if one of the louder fans on there has a 1000 followers, that's not even 1% of the entire fandom. that's not even .01%. that's how little the amount of ppl you speak for.

my thing is, all of this complaining and drama started in january, around colby's bday, when the pics of them with the girls leaked. and since then, this fandom and that side in particular hasn't shut up since. and look, obviously not everything is about the girls and not everyone is even complaining about the girls. i'm not trying to cast wide nets here and assume. but… be honest: yall have been complaining for WEEKS about a variety of things, ranging from them having gfs that might be clout chasers to snc not talking about a genocide, and somehow…….. i'm supposed to take any of that seriously??? snc are supposed to take that seriously??? those are two VERY different things, no?

but hey, you wanna be upset at snc for whatever reason, be my guest. i'm not here to stop you. do whatever you want. but at what point do you just accept that snc aren't gonna meet your demands and thus your only option is to leave?? just curious. and are you okay with the fact that just bc you leave doesn't mean anyone is gonna miss you, including snc? harsh reality is snc don't know who you are, and that's not bc you don't deserve to be known - they just realistically don't know you, and you leaving isn't gonna do anything.

but if you aren't enjoying your time here, leave. it's better in the long run to pay attention to something that actually brings you happiness rather than stick around and be miserable.

[averseunhinged]

i am once again sick af and unable to do any of the things i want to do this weekend. so, here's a consolidated record of watch all the things 2024, one of my new year's resolutions, because i'll forget them otherwise, and there's no way i'll sift back through an entire year of blsky chatter to find anything.

saltburn - the best movie ever. you kind of have to understand what you're getting into with it. like if you don't recognize the title sequence font at the beginning and the way it's shot, you might expect too much from it. it's salacious and sleazy and creepy and weird. those are features, not bugs.

true detective: night country e1-4 - love the vibe, love the characters. far north snow horror is a lot of fun and iceland is mind-bending beautiful. writing's a little uneven. sometimes it's clunky and contrived and the dialogue doesn't help the actors at all. sometimes there's a scene that's so well-written, i'll probably think about it for years. also, if you've been tracking christopher eccleston's attempts at an american accent, this is probably his best one yet. it still doesn't sound quite right, but it's better.

rap sh!t - s1e1. this is just not for me. it's structured around a lot of the things i hate about social media. i do think it has something valuable to say, tho, and it's a shame it's been cancelled.

dungeons & dragons - didn't finish this. the way it's written is interesting (probs more so for ppl who have a better understanding of/actual experience with ttrpg), but it's just not for me atm.

the devil's hour - my favorite thing i've watched in a long time. it's very well-written and the way it's structured is fascinating. it plays like horror for the first three episodes and then the back three are just straight unhinged sci-fi mindfuck. the acting's compelling, for the most part, or at least everyone's doing their level best with what they were given. nikesh patel is good, but he kind of suffers from having to be in the same room with jessica raine and peter capaldi, who are acting their faces off, a lot. phil dunster is appropriately hot. benjamin chivers is sympathetic while doing and saying some legit creepy, chilling things. barbara marten is moving as lucy's mother. i'm thrilled it's been picked up for two more series.

perry mason - s1e1. had some moments i was really into, but most of it was meh. full disclosure, this was heavily influenced by the sound sucking ass. there was a lot of mumbling in true noir style, but if your actors are going to make that choice, you really need to back off on the music and ambient noise. granted, my hearing is shit, and i use captions anyway, but if i can understand other things without looking at the screen, it's not 100% a me problem.

the outsider - s1e1. exactly what i want to watch rn. similar vibes to night country and the devil's hour. i'm not up to date on the stephen king universe at all, so i might be missing a lot, but you don't need to know the background to understand it.

[perelka-l]

Idk what other fandoms you have outside the Naruto fandom sooo how 'bout Madara

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i know those links on my profile don't work in mobile and idk how to fix that???? but ye i have a handy dandy list lol

Anyway, meme time:

favorite thing about them

He's a big emotional dumbass with dumbassery maybe rivalring his hair he is absolutely horrible and look how far that got him. Also, six paths form. And everything. Man, it's hard to choose. He's a well constructed villain and also it's kinda cool how whole series starts with mentioning that name in hushed voices of disbelief and fear. for a reason huh.

least favorite thing about them

"i only ever use a jutsu once" bitch and yet you used susanoo over 2137 times in this series shut the fuck up and stop stroking your dick in front of everyone's faces

favorite line

ya think i will say it's about the second meteorite. it is indeed, the second meteorite line. I mean. It's that line, it's excellent for a reason.

brOTP

That man has no bros. Honestly. He doesn't. I cannot answer this question, I have nothing in my mind, he canonically literally scared everyone away and nobody wanted to associate with him, he isn't bitchless, he is broless.

OTP

Oh man, where do I start. I will just go for those that I have most thots about, okie?

For starters, MadaIzu. Like, ofc we didn't have much of them shown but a) Uchiha is incest anyway and I will stand by it and b) Izuna was shown to be the only one that stood next to Madara. Nobody, literally almost nobody in this series could ever achieve that, no matter how willing one was - and Izuna was, I assume, entirely here for Madara. Maybe even was one of few people that thought about him, maybe even had him wrapped around his little finger and Madara would do a lot for his little bro. Man.

MadaObi. WHERE DO I EVEN START like I feel like I am going crazy when I start thinking about it. They are connected on so many fields, Obito being his descendant, Madara getting his body, stitching it together (man, there was that one fantastic art with old madara and obito.... doing precisely that), literally putting his hands on this boy's heart and sealing it (POETRY), brainwashing into becoming himself and later using Obito for all his worth, giving him life and choosing when to take it away, and Obito starting to resists like jfc my brainworms. I like them both as also shit jiji and bratty mago. THEY ARE JUST SO GOOD FUCKKKKKKKK I AM GNAWING AT MY HOODIE LIKE A RABID ANIMAL AAAAAA

HashiMada. That's all. Although... I like it a bit darker, not in means of whump and such but I can't help but thing that Hashirama unknowingly stumbled on something that swallowed both of them. Hashirama may have best interests in heart, but he isn't a good person, and Madara... Madara has his own issues. More below.

MadaTobi is nice. I always found it hilarious how similar they are and yet so different, and I like to think that's why they are so appealing together. Those two are not alright but maybe that's why they could have a relationship that would be akin to watching a slow hurricane in a distance. Gorgeous but pity everyone in its path. Those lads have mental issues but both are crazy scientists, and both are prickly cats, yanno?

I FORGOT MADAGAI HOW COULD I SFJKHD YALL KNOW WHY PPL SHIP THIS SHIT AND ME TOO OK

nOTP

nothing comes to my mind atm

random headcanon

A dumbass ace. And he is a dumbass. Well, more like mentally ill, not like those two things cancel out, but he really genuinely didn't question a moment when he heard a voice in his head say "do x thing" and he just fucking goes and does it. If you ask me, that guy even without zetsu around has some real fucking issues that are either exploited (hashi i see you you fucking whore) or misunderstood... And his power makes it dangerous because he can achieve all that he wants.

unpopular opinion

fem madara superiority ganggggggggggggggggg aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

song i associate with them

Some are: Not Worth Remembering (Turk Dietrich Remix) by SONOIO, Tomorrow by Lorn, Sweet Shadows by Daughter Darling, NO FEAR by §E▲ ▓F D▓G§, Mavericks by Johnossi, Arzusun by Niyaz*, Candy Shop by Andrew Bird's Bowl of Fire, Szamar Madar by Venetian Snares, The Elm Guest House by Gefradah, Velvet Divorce by Sneaker Pimps*, Begin Again by Purity Ring, SINKING by Diskette Park, Subterranean and Empires Lost by melodysheep, Voices in the Static by Hybrid*.

Songs marked with * are 6P specific... Yeah.

favorite picture of them

bitch

[awesomehoggirl]

another reason as to why ppl are cancelling Tubbo is because in the last he's shown some pretty bad behavior and lack of proper education when it comes to social issues ?? For example, when Tommy mentioned the ACAB movement and how it stands for "All Cops Are Bad/Bastards" Tubbo IMMEDIATELY said "no they aren't" in the peak of the BLM and ACAB situations back in 2020-ish. Another instance is when Wilbur tried to explain to Tubbo how billionaires shouldn't exists for many, many reasons, Tubbo somehow managed to disagree with him. Finally, another example is during a cricketcrew stream where Billzo was explaining to Ranboo how there are still Margret Thatcher fans out there and how Tubbo is one (though it is unclear if Bill was joking judging by everyone's reaction. Tubbo was not in the room as of that time).

Tubbo has shown to be kinda disrespectful to minorities in the sense that he's uneducated and is talking on matters he shouldn't be talking abt. He says he'll education himself yet as failed to do so. This especially adds on to the queen situation and how he said it was disrespectful for ppl to joke abt the queens death which came off as disrespectful to BIPOCs who were genuinely affected by the Queen's horrible actions against their people.

While I am neutral on the situation, I understand where people are coming from on both sides. I just feel like when people say "oh some of ygs are overreacting abt this whole thing" it does come off as insensitive to those who were affected by Tubbo's actions.

Sorry this was so long, just had to explain some stuff.

okay i'm really tired and ill today but thought id reply to this lol. i understand where youre coming from with a lot of this i really do. but i come from the same county in england as tubbo and progressiveness in many areas is REALLY not widespread. tubbo is not educated on leftist politics in exactly the same way i wasn't until i was some way through my teens -- and my parents are socialist and progressive themselves. the uk has been under conservative government since 2010. the media holds extremely traditional views: celebrating the police, troops and royal family, bashing 'snowflakes' who dare to be unsatisfied with life here. for centuries britain, especially down south, has upheld a culture of Respectability and Properness and Having Mild Opinions. tubbo's response to acab and the anti-queen jokes is the exact response i heard from almost everyone i have talked to about these topics, be they progressive or conservative. you call it a lack of education, i call it a lack of even knowing that there was something to be educated on -- when you come from a place of privilege, and everyone around you and all the media and the people across from you at the kitchen table are telling you otherwise, issues with the system can remain unknown to you. tubbo's immediate response to acab being 'no they aren't' comes from a place of not knowing a problem even existed. and that is because this was his IMMEDIATE response. his immediate, unconsidered -- and yes, perhaps uneducated -- response. but it was my immediate response too. if you come up to someone and tell them a system they have always been told is Right And Good is entirely the inverse with a single blanket statement, a lot of the time their immediate response is going to be 'piss off, no it isn't'. i'm telling you to see it human, here.

you talk about tubbo speaking on issues he is uneducated on but throughout his streaming career he has been extremely careful to avoid discussing politics. he does not make a habit of 'talking on matters he shouldn't be talking about'. when he does bring up these topics, it's usually a comment or a question rather than a fully-formed opinion or considered argument. i can imagine it was hurtful for people to see someone being misinformed on an important topic which affects them and being seemingly dismissive of their reasons for feeling the way they do, and i in no way want to minimise the upset which those individuals may feel. i was a little bit put out by the initial comments myself. but how many times have we been over the fact that content creators are not pariahs of social justice? the rejection of context, the internet telephone-game distortion and bastardisation of the situation into 'tubbo approves of all the monarchy's actions' 'tubbo hates minorities' 'tubbo is a conservative' for misguidedly believing the most popular opinion in the uk right now? there was no defence of the monarchy aside from a disapproval in jokes about the queen's death, because let's face it the concept of speaking ill of the dead is widely deemed impolite in most areas of the world, ESPECIALLY southern britain! i do think it's an overreaction to accuse somebody of being bigoted or decide their political opinions over a series of uninformed comments which stem from environment, and i don't think it's insensitive to be frustrated with the black-and-white labelling of people basically through word association games. he has clarified that he and his families are not tories, and apologised. whether he's followed up on his criticisms by looking more deeply into them or if he's 'failed to do so', i am not aware -- but keep in mind, it's only been a week. i know i'd like him to look into it more, for himself as well as for others, because one less person believing in the lies of traditionalism sold to us in this country the better.

this kinda looks like a suck-up but i just genuinely think that the enlargement of this situation came from black-and-white thinking and i really hate that. if people can defend other creators who are called what they're not for single ill-considered comments (eg tommy and lesbiphobia) then how is it so difficult in this case to stop, look at the state of the uk right now, and put 2 and 2 together as to why tubbo's immediate responses were what they were? as a good friend on discord put it, people haven't even given him a chance to educate himself because in their minds he should know it by now. but people learn about social issues at different paces and that is normal. i don't think this constitutes 'bad behaviour', i don't think it's cancel-worthy, and i don't agree with it. cancellation is for people who are dangerous. there is no real danger here.

[justalilpearlie]

Sammy IRL rants abt sammike and the fandom. (not directed at any creators, keep it up sammike tumblr nation! /gen)

I wish the fandom knew more abt sammike and it wasnt always. with me forced into another existing character. like no im not the freddy bully, or the bonny bully, or the phone guy, im me.

Im henry's son. Samuel "Sammy" Emily

I sadly was an outsider to all the bullshit that went on in Hurricane agaisnt my own will. I wanted to know. I wasnt able to do anything about it. I didnt knew how Mike was doing for years. I WISH we had worked together! but that only can happen in a No One Dies timeline.

I just wish to be my own person in the fandom and not made a baby, because in some memories I was even OLDER than Charlie, and Mike was always around my same age! When I say we've known eachother our WHOLE lifes I mean it. When I first saw Michael's face I was probably under a year old. I cant remember because 1. IRL mems can be fuzzy and 2. most ppl dont remember things before age like 3 or 4, but I do know our parents were friends before we were even born, and we played together and attended each one of eachothers birthdays, we were best friends before lovers, childhood bestfriends.

When we grew up we had a fall out, because of his new friendgroup, which I'd join later on anyways (on a particular timeline. because yes i remember different contradicting timelines.), but before that I was always trying to impress him and them so I could spend time with them. When we did spend time together, at first theyd tease me for being the youngest, shortest and weakest, and he'd always go out of his way to defend me, help me when I got hurt trying to pull out some dumb trick to get their attention and a couple times even canceled hang outs with his friends when I was having some issues (wont go into detail, but wanna clarify it has nothing to do with my family, they were GREAT and whoever says Henry Emily OR his wife play favorites f u. that couldnt be more far from the truth.)

OH here's sum memories I love: Taking care of our little siblings (where theyre all fairly younger than us and we were way older than them in comparison. also no one dies au), taking them to the park, staying home with them when our parents went out on date nights, it was great honestly. we all loved staying in having ice cream in front of the TV with a fan (or more), while Fazbear and Friends was on!

Sorry yall, im going a bit loco. I uh. yeah anyways this is a sammike household, i 100% respect other ships but i dont wanna see them here, on this account, so like ik no one has yet but just in case if anyone wanted to know my opinion on other popular ships like jeremike or mike x the other bullies: sammike is better, i am 100% bias and i wont apologize. ive never been more comforted than I am by my boyfriend and seeing anything of us together. even when people get it wrong. SPECIALLY when people getting right [looking at one of my mutuals w the realest sammike takes ever] I JUST. i wont give my opinion on other michael ships, only will say "sammike for the win" and thats all.

Thanks for comming to my TED talk, sorry for the rant, it WILL happen again. most likely.

Sammike content:

[aeide-thea]

unfortunately i am thinking, yet again, about how much people love to look at a shitty thing someone did/said and respond to that with some combination of

(1) framing the act as intrinsically connected to some other aspect of their identity that's marginalized, and therefore easy to activate people's prejudices about: 'karen,' 'narcissistic abuse,' etc.

(2) framing the act as negating some other marginalized aspect of their identity, because they've done something Oppressive so they're no longer entitled to any Victim Points: 'h*rry styles said something stupid and homophobic so obviously we, the Queer Police, were right all along and he's just been presenting gnc for clout...' newsflash, having internalized dumb queerphobic shit doesn't actually rule out yr being at least glancingly in its crosshairs!¹ we're all swimming in deeply toxic waters and sometimes we regurgitate some shit even when it's poisonous to us, too! like: policing the borders of queerness; respectability politics generally.

(3) framing the act as rendering some other marginalized aspect of their identity problematic/suspect: we all understood the concepts of queer time, trans extended/delayed/repeated adolescence, &c, just fine, and (at least nominally) sympathized with those things as being the product of alienation from a queerphobic society and its (cishetero)normative definitions of adulthood, until someone became a pariah who self-described as a 'boy' despite not being a minor—like, whatever you think of the m*rdoll situation, the way people immediately turned around and were like 'wow, this trans person's identity is actually intrinsically an attempt to avoid accountability' really sucked to hear. like, xie was pretty clearly trying to avoid public accountability; we can condemn that without jumping to assert that actually xer expression of gender was (i) intrinsically bound up in that attempt and (ii) fake. plenty of transmasc+ ppl lay claim to 'boy' but not 'man' despite being adults, for a variety of complex reasons, and it's not inherently an attempt to duck out of one's moral responsibilities.²

and (4) a kind of almost-metonymic conflation of the person with the act, such that people condemn them both in a single breath, while effectively letting the systemic conditions off the hook because their viewfinder is too zoomed-in to include them; as a result, once the person's been discarded, so too has the topic. like. i haven't heard a peep out of anyone on here about the evils of complicity with the military-industrial complex since the m*rdoll discourse subsided, even though a few weeks ago it was supposedly unthinkably obscene not to be actively impassioned about that. and it is unthinkably obscene! but it's an unthinkable obscenity that we all seem to be perfectly comfortable resuming our silence on, now that we've cast out our scapegoat. i saw a twitter thread the other day, on the topic of hunter sch*fer's cosigning of transmedicalism, that really struck me because it explicitly concluded by saying, 'addressing this is far more important than cancelling a young trans woman,' and i was really struck by that focus bc it's so real and so fucking rare. like. hunter sch*fer will hopefully learn and grow and stop thinking 'no nb ppl want to transition and that's why transphobia exists.' ana m*rdoll will hopefully get a different job and stop grifting from credulous twitterqueers. and neither of these individuals' personal arcs, whatever course they ultimately take, will have any real impact on the systemic injustices they've respectively supported; and neither will we, because we've stopped talking about them: because we were never really talking about them in the first place.

⸻ ¹ i haven't actually read up on the latest hstyles nonsense but like. sounds like he said something quite stupid that if you press on it even a little starts oozing homophobia; and it's still true that he's been pushing the boundaries of normatively acceptable men's fashion for a long time now and that the history of musicians doing this has yet to render it hegemonically endorsed. like obviously it gets complex bc at some level being a performer is intrinsically kind of femme-coded (a phrase i truly cannot believe i typed but. it's strutting yr stuff in the hope of attracting social and financial validation. what would you call it.) so you can start to construct arguments abt gender non-conformity in male entertainers being, like, a way of rendering themselves more objectifiable and increasing their appeal to audiences; but honestly i kind of think that's brainrot. like. many many straight women are in fact uncomfortable with male queerness, making it a decidedly dubious strategy for winning over the public at large. do we have to link that post again abt how not everyone is from NYC.

² i mean i do also separately think the, like, legalistic minor-adult moral binary where we're like, 'minors are maybe forgivable, adults aren't' is. weird. it's a sliding scale and adults can atone and minors can do deeply fucked up shit they need to be held accountable for. everything is a spectrum and requires a more complex analysis than this whole Good/Bad. Child/Adult. Not Responsible/Not Redeemable. set of reductive binaries we seem to love so much. ultimately i think we probably ought to offer more adults the sort of corrective compassion we aspire to offer children, that's less focused on dead-end condemnation and more on how to do better going forward.

[piplupod]

what im seeing is that maybe the issue w bnha is yes the sexualization of minors esp girls but also as far as i can tell it's the fandom that ppl are ,,, angry at the show for?? tbh i haven't noticed v much but maybe i just have rly good filtering system on here so i dont come across the shitty stuff as much djdkdl like I've seen a few ppl shipping the students and teachers together (nasty) but then i just add whatever that is to my blacklist on here and it goes away so 🤷 maybe i still haven't seen enough of the show yet or seen enough of the fandom yet but i tend to stick to my tiny corner of enjoying things without going out into more open fan spaces bc im just not into that bc every single fandom seems to get really nasty dhdksl I'd rather just have fun in my own little corner than deal with that

pls tell me if i am missing smth bc im trying so hard to figure out what is going on w ppl hating on or cancelling this anime dhdksl i havent even watched anime before so idk the culture around it except from seeing other ppl be into it in highschool so i feel like i am floundering around in the dark a bit

[kart0]

rant ( not a med update but technically it's day 21 )

yea I'm currently having a mental breakdown and I can't stop crying and I can see that I am spiralling again but I don't know how to stop it

it's like, 22:47pm and like one hour ago my dad said smth like "you dont do anything it's like you're in a extended vacation" and that hurt me so much

like dang he really doesn't think I go to uni at all, he thinks its some sort of summer camp or whatever and he keeps belittling it

yet he keeps asking about my grades and how I should do my best and always be the best and I should always work hard to achieve maximum stuff

so like what is it then

I'm crying so much cuz nothing I ever do will be good enough and I know I shouldn't look for other ppls approval but yet here I am

like if he truly thinks that maybe I should just drop out for real and not do anything so he wouldn't have to waste so much fucking money on his useless kid

in fact maybe I should just kill myself so he wouldn't have to spend anything at all on me

and tonight was supposed to make me happy cuz tomorrows classes were cancelled but here I am with my ruined day and crying my ass off and I'm having a headache and I'll wake up with extremely swollen eyes and not feel good at all

im just so sad

[akajustmerry]

hi merryana !!! can’t believe you’re stuck in an airport for so long ….. properly evil </3 <\3 anyway ! what are some books/movies/shows u think not enough people speak about ? also just for fun, what’s your favourite colour?

hellooo babe! I got out after 6 hours 😭 finally made it to my sister's and am snuggled up with my baby nephew!

I'm not v good at gauging underappreciated things. however these are some random media I wish I saw more ppl yell about

soulmates (tv series) - written by roy kent himself, brett goldstein this spec fic/scifi show lives in my mind RENT FREE. it's a series of stories set in a future where ppl can get a DNA test that tells them who their soulmate is and its INSANELY good. simultaneously some of the most horrifying and most romantic episodes of TV ever.

Preppers (tv series) - just a crazy funny weird show that I adore for its incredible Aboriginal representation and also bisexual diaster representation. Nowhere near enough ppl talk about it despite it easily being one of the best shows of 2021.

Brave New World (tv) - it was literally cancelled because not enough ppl saw its bat shit crazyness for the brilliance it was but by GOD. Best "improved on the source material" adaptation ever made.

Movies

Nude Tuesday (2022) - best comedy of the year easy. Best if you go in as blind as possible, it's streaming on Stan and it's so full of weirdness and heart and polyamory. Not enough ppl screaming with me about bisexual wellness cringefail cult leader jemaine clemet

The Grey Zone (2001) - huge mood pivot but I recently watched this film for the first time after watching a video essay about how it was made and it truly is one of the most harrowingly honest yet compassionate portrayal of life for Jews in Auschwitz I've seen. The cast is stacked too, and I can't believe its a film I'd never have heard of if not for a video essay. I can't believe it's not mentioned alongside other unforgettable Holocaust films.

Sirens (2022) - doco about Lebanon's first all woman metal band. It's literally like we are lady parts brought to life! These women are amazing. It's coming to hbo Max I think and its so good I need more ppl to see it so bad

Books

Gonna do a little self promo here and say not enough ppl are talking about my stories that were published in history making anthologies by First Nations and Black authors this year. Go to your nearest bookstore and buy the 'This All Come Back Now' and 'Unlimited Futures' anthologies and read my stories as well some other great stories and poems from Black and Aboriginal authors!!!

Klara and the Sun by Kazuo Ishiguro.... I just need more ppl to read this because I wanna talk about it more with ppl because it's such an interesting scifi novel and I have questions I wanna ask ppl!!!!

Also my favourite colour, at least atm, is emerald/Forrest green! But I also love silver and burgundy and deep yellows. thank you for asking 🥰

[jimmycartersufo]

stayed up later than I intended but today was such a bad mental health day/bad day in Maryland and Baltimore and I am not gonna let myself punish myself for staying up late when I had soooo much awful anxiety and dread today like?

Anyway it's been aost 24 hours since the collapse. my brain still hasn't fully processed it. not sure how traffic getting to work will look like and by the email our director decided to send out to us (girl why are you making a statement about this) it's gonna be a weird fucking day tomorrow esp when we have an "all colleagues breakfast" aka we don't want to do an all staff meeting because you asked us basic questions that exposed how little we respect u and ur lives but here's some fruit and pancakes teehee

praying that ppl don't cancel reservations unless absolutely necessary and praying we don't get shitty and weird calls :)

and I'm not even thinking about the actual work and tasks I have lmao my brain is NOT THERE YET but thankfully I have a box of monster rehab in the trunk, a pack of 20 and I've only had two I think Sooooo that's gonna be my lifeline for the week

also looking fwd to Easter bc I got John some cute things and I am a bitch that loves a basket and he also got me stuff at 5below and I'm excited also love love love my husband sooo much he doesn't like deviled eggs, does not eat them but he learned to make them so he can make them just for meeeeee. this man also doesn't enjoy pickles but loves to make them. I knowwww the dude that made love languages is shit but can making deviled eggs be a love language please

OK I'm procrastinating and I've been in pain all day esp in my hip the kind that radiates down the leg and I took a muscle relaxer so hopefully I can sleep. gonna try to leave early, already have my outfit planned out, already have lunch made just need to make breakfast and that's it.

Hopefully I don't have nightmares but all I can think about is Baltimore and those workers who were literally doing the most important work, all immigrants. I love you so much.

[officialtayley]

Whoever wrote that “! They are a BAND! They make MUSIC! We shipped two of them bc it was cute! GOD. Ugh. Bye. This is officiallytheworst.” is taking me out 😭 ash, people that hate your blog are weirdly obsessed with you cause they could just move on and block you but instead they always write you a goodbye message calling you rude but also talking shit about you in the same message which is just ?????

If y’all wanna fight paramore fans that actually hate hayley just go to instagram comments, tik tok or twitter. This blog is one of the few places where fans can give genuine criticism and still be a fan. What’s with people acting like we’re all trying to cancel the band here when we’re just confused and disappointed by their recent actions 

it had me laughing hard like i couldn't even be mad cause it was just funny. i'm fine with people thinking i'm the worst or whatever, it doesn't bother me anyway cause i've thought it about myself plenty of times so idc.

the thing is, with the pmore fanbase i've always, always felt like you cannot have an negative opinion, even on songs people get stupidly defensive if you dislike no friend for example, but it's been this awful since AL onwards. none of us here hate the band, nor do we hate hayley, unless she does something very awful i don't think i could ever hate her honestly, i've been a fan since 2007 and that doesn't just go away. but i've always had moments like right now where i've felt disappointment, and it should be okay to just fucking talk about it, yet it never is.

i also get that some ppl prefer a place like this so they can remain anonymous and just vent cause god forbid you do that on twitter or somewhere you have an identity, everyone is on ur ass in seconds. like you said, these anons/people should go after the ones who genuinely, very clearly hate hayley and/or the band, you can find them very easily and you can go defend them there. also, i am very sorry but other than the baby and last hope moment there's nothing much to talk about with tayley like aaksjsjsjs what exactly am i meant to talk about? i struggle with asks that are imagining shit about tayley cause i'm not very imaginative and that's prob the autism but i don't like answering & it potentially coming off fake sounding so yeah.

plus it's not like anyone really wants to talk to me about anything else anyway or ask questions or some shit different idk like lord the moment i talked about kpop i had someone insulting kpop immediately so yknow (tho i have the synastry asks & message i need to do still sorry to the ppl who asked my brother has been taking up my time these days 😭 but i enjoy that so i shall get to it later)