#anyway back to my suffering
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man, very few things make you feel more useless and unaccomplished than trying to apply for scholarships TnT
#seriously#they ask for so fucking much#and then make you feel crazy for not having done like 90% of it#youre supposed to have done community service and gotten perfect grades and be poor as hell and have an active hand in literally everything#be friends with everyone and personally know a dozen authority figures and have hours and hours to write and film and edit and make project#no wonder theres thousand and thousands of scholarship dollars that go unclaimed yearly#NONE OF US CAN FUCKING MEET THE ASININE REQUIREMENTS#its even harder when youve taken so much time between school#ive counted at least 5 scholarships that ive tried to apply for that require a MINIMUM of 2 recommendation letters IN THIS PAST MONTH ALONE#DO YOU GUYS THINK IM IN CONTACT WITH THESE PEOPLE??#THIS LATE AFTER MY GRADUATION??#dear lord#literally so stressful#i feel like useless trash TnT#anyway back to my suffering#anon rants#school stuff#tw rant#tw rant in tags#anon rambles in the tags
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did you know there aren't any god-like powers of indigestion
#crawling out of my cave to offer this tiny gerry#the guy. the dude. the fella.#i miss him deeply and i'm glad he's sort of back but i. do not trust jonny sims.#and i say this as joyfully as possible#we ARE here to suffer#whatever happens i'll be cheering for him and his totally normal grandmother but you know. never forgive never forget.#anyway i'm limited to 24 frames until i can afford a software update which is absolutely devilish#so i'm just messing around in the meantime trying to figure out how it works! actual animatics soon mayhaps?#also i swear i'll start keeping this place active. soon. at some point. in a near future#tma#the magnus archives#tma podcast#gerard keay#gerry keay#gerard delano#gerry delano#he has too many names#tma gerry#tma gerard keay#the eye#tma fanart#my art#tw eye#tw flashing
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Does anyone remember that ONE Captain Underpants book where George and Harold messed with fucking time travel and met their future selves who were married with kids and had successful careers as comic book creators or was that a fever dream?


I like to imagine that in the canon universe the new Dog Man movie was initially drafted and submitted by George and Harold as a concept, thinking it wouldn’t be accepted but wanting to give it a shot anyways.
⬇️ This was the wildest thing ever to my 11 year old brain btw. So wild that I didn’t even register that Harold is canonically gay.



#I love thinking about the Captain Underpants cinematic universe because it makes absolutely no sense and also perfect sense all at once#the implications that Melvin in the future technically goes fucking MISSING after he suffered a life altering car crash#because he was busy playing megalomaniac back in time at their elementary school#(if we are to believe what happens in the show is also canon)#can you imagine not seeing your elementary school class know-it-all for over like 20 smth years#and then seeing him again at the fucking supermarket as a burnt out half cyborg#anyways I think we should think about Adult George and Harold having adventures too because it would be so fun#the wild adventures of men pushing 30#my favorite#my art#captain underpants#dog man#george beard#harold hutchins#dogman#dogman movie
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#shiguang dailiren#時光代理人#link click#lu guang#cheng xiaoshi#aashi doodles#im suffering rn and want to suffer with others so here's my contribution#lu guang stayed pretty composed on the plane but would that always the case after he wakes up from his cxs is dead nightmares...#lu guang...😔#this was inspired by that one comment in an jnterview where someone asked why lg's bed rails were so high#and i think it was producer who said it was to keep a certain someone from sneaking into his bed but i was like get real#nothing can stop cxs when he wants to do something. and if he wanted to be up there he would go no matter what#anyways lets imagine this as a scene from s1. back when we all had theories that one or both of the boys were trapped in a time loop#we have this scene where lg is having a panic attack and not even cxs is sure why exactly this is happening but plot moves on we h#yeah plot moves on and we shelve this for later and bam. s3 yep lg stuck in a time loop with cxs always dying trauma is confirmed#anyways thats enough from me for now. ima go throw up byeeee
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On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.
Bonus:
#a homestuck walks into an antechamber and asks#hey is anybody going to make this dynamic wholly deterministic and thus dubiously consensual by its very nature#ANYWAY bigger ramble below. scroll down like usual#isat spoilers#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#THATS RIGHT WE'RE STILL SHIP TAGGING IT BABYYYY#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#lucabyteart#RAMBLE START: anyway i think loop is wrong here. they have it backwards. as-- in my opinion--#the main reason they could be called back into existence postcanon is because *their* wish for help is still not complete#they still need help. siffrin still needs help. neither of them will ever stop needing help.#they will thus uphold the wish until the end of siffrin's natural lifespan.#that said. what does it mean that loop can be so wholly forced to abide by siffrin's wants?#(assuming the dagger cutscene posession is them being forced to uphold the 'help siffrin' wish via harsh universe logic)#[as opposed to something capricious and cruel the change god did. which feels out of character for the change god to me?]#much like how the island wish and duplicate objects are neutered by simply sliding off people's brains...#is loop subtly ushered toward their wish? obviously it's not a full override (see: the bossfight). but is there any interference?#and if so. so what? does it matter? if they don't notice? is it even real if they don't notice?#and even if they do notice. the universe leads we follow. how much do either of them value their free will in a belief system like that?#the whole game is dedicated to siffrin habitually NOT excersizing his free will. doing things the same Every Time.#Loop ESPECIALLY does this. predetermined predetermined predetermined even in the FACE OF CHANGE. REFUSING. ANY CHOICE.#Maybe they'd even be comforted by having a universe-ordained purpose even if it is subservient. even if its to Him.#(though. i can't see siffrin enjoying the idea that someone is subservient TO them... then all their suffering is his fault...)#loop got into this mess via WANTING too much. no more free will. can't be trusted with it. take it away from them.#but yeah. gets my greasy detective pony hands all over this. and everyone please do remember i like to make characters Outright Wrong A Lot
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Y'all ever think about how insane it would be when Merlin and Leon had to explain to the group about random shit in the modern era? Like:
Lancelot: How do they make clothes so soft in this time?
Merlin, sipping tea not looking up from his newspaper: Plastic
Arthur: I would have thought you would have stopped making up words some time in the last 1500 years.
Merlin quirks eyebrow and looks toward Leon
Leon, already sighing, headache not having gone away since the lot of them rose from the dead: Ok so for this to make any sense you have to know about dinosaurs...
#bbc merlin#merlin#Everyone is back cause I say so!!!#immortal merlin#immortal leon#for the ceo of Merleon this is a merleon post#bbc lancelot#bbc arthur#So I did look it up cause I had randomly heard in passing plastic is made from oil which is made from dinosaurs#It turns out plastic is made from sea creatures that came before dinosaurs#And now I'm losing my mind#Imagine you die#And then theres like 6 extinction events#And some fucking mammal pulls your corpse from the sea to make mother fucking shein cloths#I would haunt us too#No wonder the world has gone to shit#I'd be doing more than making the atmosphere unlivable#But this is a Merlin post#So anyway#leon the long suffering#merlin incorrect quotes
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Starting the new year strong with The Oumoters™ of course, exactly as these things should be :*
+ Some close upsssss because I'm REALLY proud of this drawing<3
#got possessed for a bit and made this#also hey guys im not at all back from the dead im still working hard on my big secret oumoter project#i was just horribly distracted by this for a bit<3#anyway#happy new years everyone may we continue to collectively suffer as the oumota nation<3#danganronpa#drv3#drv3 killing harmony#digital art#kokichi ouma#kokichi oma#kaito momota#danganronpa v3 killing harmony#drv3 spoilers#danganronpa spoilers#oumota#evs (f)arts
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that annoying moment when getting left for dead in the trunk of a car in your 20s comes back to haunt you 40 years later (take a shot every time ford says “stanley”)
#i love making ford look like a kicked puppy#my favorite pastime#i also like making stan suffer then he brushes it off like a joke <3#these guys have issues#anyway context? what’s that ahaha#but idk. i guess in their adventures they get into fights with things and people#and eventually stan gets pushed and locked into a trunk or one of those little freezers that lock on the outside#and he’s in this tiny space and he can’t just push his way out so he panics and forgets where he is for a second#and by the time ford gets rid of the people/things attacking and finds wherever stan went (kind of easy to tell when he’s yelling)#he’s gotta like. ground him or whatever#those 6 fingers come in handy bc he’s just gotta grab onto stan’s hand and let him feel those 6 fingers against his hand#👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼#anyway i lowkey don’t even like the dialogue in this#and ofc the drawings are low quality as usual#but whatever i am Not going back to work on this lol#idgaf take whatever i give y’all guys 🗣️#gravity falls#stanley pines#stanford pines#gravity falls fanart#stan twins#sea grunks#stangst#??? yeahg#my art#rystiart#i’ll have it in me to sit down and make something better one day but today is not that day#also ahem. he repeats please a lot when he’s about to die haha. why do y’all think he hates saying please so much? 😇
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sorry i was gone for a while i just got back from the mountains
#so my body crashed and burned while I was in the mountains#isat#isat odile#in stars and time#day 111#or something i forgot#ok it Has been almost a week now since I got back but it's a funny way to format a return post of sorts#Anyways sorry for literally not posting anything for 2 weeks! It's been a stupidly busy month#I'll still be busy for the rest of this month unfortunately but I'll still try to post something from time to time#in the meanwhile. odile gets a vacation. and a bit of my suffering along the way#edit: I should clarify that I'm alright now!! T'was just a weird few days lemme tell ya.#mayhaps 3 12 hour shifts right before a mountain trip was not the best idea (remember to do exercise sometimes guys...)
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quick study of that one concept art Vergil by Ikeno because I felt like I needed a refresher on 3V's features
#dmc#devil may cry#vergil#dmc3#dmc 3#devil may cry 3#my art#lads......... im artblocked as fuck#not like as in i cant draw or dont feel up to it but more like my exec dysfunction is so bad it might as well be a full artblock#my wips.... my poor suffering wips........#also i still have backlog to post but uhhhh#its mostly red dead and detroit (whoops completely forgot to post those) and smth dmc that i dont wanna post until june#bc its very summer themed#and while i DO wanna post my other fandom back log#weeeeh im afraid of breaking this dmc streak idk why#my brain is weird#it thinks were in Dmc Mode now and I Cannot Possibly Do Anything Else#i think the specific type of autism i have needs to be studied by scentists#anyway#hope you enjoy the Burgl#this was actually brought by: the fact i was trying so hard to force myself to draw SOMETHING#but i realized every time i tried to draw 3V hes like.#hes become SO far removed from the base model in my style#and i mean. thats kinda normal with art and stylisation and not even a bad thing BUT i really want him to be a bit more on model so#here
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lost as fuck
#hetalia#aph hetalia#gerita#feliciano vargas#ludwig beilschmidt#aph italy#aph germany#aph veneziano#fan art#digital art#artists on tumblr#sketch#doodle#my art#ever since hetalia got a slight fandom revival on tt#i feel gerita calling to me like the mask 😭#anyways life is horrible and im suffering but gerita always has my back#regressing at its finest haha#yes i painted over the bg no i dont care
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⚠️Spoilers for Look Back but I was initially confused about what Fujino and Kyomoto's relationship had to do with pursuing a career as a mangaka. After thinking about it, I interpret it as a narrative device to represent what will come when choosing to pursue art (of any form, whether it's comics, painting, animation, music, etc.).
Think about it, what's Kyomoto's role in the story? She is what got Fujino to take art seriously in middle school, and what motivated her to continue after she initially gave up. However, she's also the only thing in the story that makes Fujino wish she quit art. First, halfway through 6th grade and then later after her death. She serves as Fujino's motivator and de-motivator.
I think the scene of Fujino wishing that she never told Kyomoto to come out (that pursuing art only led to suffering) represents artists' regrets. We literally look back and see an alternate universe where Fujino never pursued art and it has a happier ending. Anyone that pursues artistic dreams will end up regretting it at some point. It's not easy, any artist will tell you that. The story is saying yes, you probably will end up healthier and more stable by giving up your dreams. Because art is suffering.
But then Fujino enters Kyomoto's room after reading the comic from the alternate reality and all of a sudden we get a montage of the happy memories and accomplishments they had pursuing their dreams together. And we realize that, everything we saw of them in the alternate 'happier' reality pales in comparison to this:

The happiest both of them look in that alternate world is when they finally meet and promise to work together someday. They loved art. They loved each other. Giving up on your dreams means missing out on all of that, and nothing in the world can replace it. Because yes art is suffering, but art is also joy and love.
And so the end of the story where Fujino goes back to work isn't her moving on. She tapes the comic strip in front of her to remind her of Kyomoto, to remind her of why she got into comics in the first place. Basically, Kyomoto IS art to Fujino. A life with her means experiencing both suffering and joy, while the life without her means having none of that.
I might be wrong about this, like maybe Fujimoto just wanted to tell a mangaka story with doomed yuri (valid) HOWEVER i like my interpretation so im sticking with it.
#sorry sorry sorry i just have Thoughts#and none of my friends have watched this movie so I dont have anyone to talk with about it#anyway this movie made me cry and gave me emotional damage. 10/10 highly recommend#i wanted to tag their shipname but i cant bc its literally just fujimoto's name why did he name them after himself im laughing#using a doomed love to represent artists' suffering and joy is genius btw#not everyone knows what its like to pursue art but everyone has that one person they loved (romantically or platonically) and lost#my post#Look Back#look back movie#look back spoilers#look back analysis#ayumu fujino#kyomoto
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bens... and 10s...
please schedule let me design more aliens //
Petrosapien piercings are inspired by this super cool take by @whatudottu
#this time i didn't mean to disappear - hiatus was totally on accident lol#i should probably stop announcing reappearances#ANYWAY i hope you enjoy these low-quality alien scribbles - ill get my mojo back soon#currently in love with the necrofriggian design... i should give them a name...#yeah there's Minecraft in here i couldn't help myself#art#digital art#doodles#doodle dump#fanart#ben 10#ben 10 fanart#ben 10 alien force#ben 10 ultimate alien#ben 10 aliens#diamondhead#petrosapien#necrofriggian#big chill#four arms#tetramand#ampfibian#armodrillo#amperi#talpaedan#end my suffering
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day 11 || need to queen out with this diva
#daily gi-hun#art post#ohh s3 gi-hun i cannot wait to see you#sorry that ive only rlly been posting doodles. taking poison damage for some reason#Happens#anyway back to gi-hun#poor guy is about to go THROUGH it in s3. as if he hasnt been through it enough already#yall hes abt to come back a whole different even more fucked up guy#jun-hee and hyun-ju are checking on him after he wakes up and hes already actively dissociating#i wonder if theyll do anything with the wound gi-hun got during the rebellion when he was grazed by a bullet#lol itd be so funny if that started festering#on top of everything hes also just suffering altered mental status from a gross ass untreated wound#if gi-hun makes it to the final game again i think he deserves to crash the fuck out#in-ho im gonna beat u to death with a slab of concrete for the shit ur putting gi-hun thru#sorry i have a disease where i must bully in-ho whenever possible#hes in my top 10 sg characters but the way show my love for his character vs gi-huns is sooo funny#i see gi-hun and im like good morning beautiful 😊😊 and then i turn to in-ho and say I Hope You Had Nightmares.#seong gihun#seong gi hun#squid game#squid game fanart#my art#doodle
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you don't remember what she looks like?
#hidden hands au#fnaf au#henry emily#charlie emily#charlotte emily#fnaf henry emily#fnaf charlie emily#fnaf charlotte emily#fnaf fanart#fnaf#five nights at freddys#five nights at freddys fanart#my art#i am not dead!!! (cries)#my tumblr is being weird rn but i peservere!#anyway i am back with henry and charlie angst. enjoy#or not (we are all suffering together here)
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💖 Caption this
#fnf#friday night funkin#friday night funkin fanart#fnf fanart#fnf girlfriend#fnf boyfriend#fnf gf#fnf bf#friday night funkin girlfriend#friday night funkin boyfriend#bf x gf#boyfriend x girlfriend#do they have a ship name?#oomfie said one iirc#blueberry#that's cute tho#my mind has been full of ship art ideas idk why#BOYFRIEND N GIRLFRIEND MY BELOVEDS#They're so dumb but they also love eachother trust me#we're so back with bright colors#i think so lol#can you believe the bg took longer than the drawing itself#i like to make me suffer#i could easily do a simple colores bg but my ass cant do that it feels illegal#ANYWAYS#exploding y'all with my mind#now gotta kms#yayyy :3#epicexplosion#KurokkePostingLol
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