#anyways no fucking way it was a coincidence

[quibbs126]

So I’m not entirely done with the page, but I just wanted to show off this thing I’m doing right now and also talk about these two (in part because delays means I can’t get my answers)

I’m trying out this thing to see if it helps me with posing (or more accurately drawing humans), where I basically have a shape layer and then that clean sketch layer that becomes my lineart

Admittedly I think one issue is that I won’t meddle with the sketch layer, as in using the enlarge/warp/distort tools, because I’ve deemed this brush one that I can’t do that with (actually I say that with most of my brushes except like one, which is my normal sketch pencil). And become of that I end up having to do most of the work on the clean layer. Which I also refuse to meddle with, but that’s also because it’s the clean layer

Like compare the shapes here with the sketches

I think I need a bit more practice, and hopefully this will be useful in it

Personally I think Peach Blossom has turned out way better, but I plan on drawing more Chocos, so we’ll see

Anyways sorry, I’ll get back to what I was saying with these two

So previously I’ve alluded to me wanting yaoi with Peach Blossom. Well if I haven’t already said before, the person I want him to have yaoi with is Dark Choco. Or even just an interaction between these two, I’d be satisfied with that, especially if it left room for non-problematic shipping

I haven’t wanted to say because we don’t know Peach Blossom yet, and I don’t want to be horribly, horribly wrong, but fuck it, I can’t take another 2 weeks of waiting, I’m saying now. Will I regret this in the future? I don’t know, hopefully not

But anyways I want to point out things about their 2 designs

One thing I noticed particularly when drawing this is that while Peach Blossom is a bunch of light, semi pastel colors, Dark Choco is a bunch of dark colors, even in this form. I know that’s nothing groundbreaking, but my mind’s fixated on these two as a pair, and I like the contrast

Secondly and something actually more interesting, I’ve noticed for a while that they’re both missing one eye, and it’s the exact same one, that being their left one. Sure we don’t really know what the whole flower eye thing is, but I imagine Peach Blossom can’t really see out of it, so missing eye

One of the reasons I find it interesting is because as far as I can tell (at least right now), Peach Blossom doesn’t need to be missing an eye, and yet he is. And this is also the update that finally brings back Dark Choco, who is also missing a left eye

Is this a coincidence? Maybe, maybe not, we’ll have to see, but shut up, I find it interesting

Anyways yeah, I just wanted to share

I’m not sure what their ship name would be since darkpeach is already taken. And I wouldn’t be surprised if darkblossom is also taken as someone’s rare pair of Dark Choco/Cherry Blossom. I mean you could call it yaoi darkpeach or something, but there should probably be a better name

[yikesharringrove]

steve and billy teaching in the same school!! there's these teachers in my school and they work right across the hall from each other. they're always yelling into each others classrooms.

she teaches english lit 101 and he teaches gov 102

"Harrington!"

Some of the kids snickered quietly when Mr. Harrington jumped at the shout from across the hall.

He stared blankly at the last word he had written on the board, the black Expo mark wiggles from where he had jumped at the yell of his name.

He turned around, sighing exaggeratedly at Mr. Hargrove standing in the doorway.

"Kids, excuse my coworker here." He crossed his arms around his chest. "Can I help you?"

"Yeah, you can Mr. H."

Steve rolled his eyes as his husband swaggered into his classroom, leading a line of ninth graders with him.

It's not the first time Billy's interrupted his class with a question about some inane bullshit that launched Steve into an over-excited rant for the rest of class.

Steve's tenth and eleventh graders were already closing their textbooks, knowing their teacher was just about to be insanely distracted for the rest of class.

"The birds n' I are reading The Crucible."

Fuck.

Steve's pretty sure Billy's kids pay him to bring them across the hall for these impromptu lectures.

"Witch hunts. I get it."

"Yeah, you know. Anyway, I'm giving some context to the publishing of the book. The Red Scare in the United States, well, the second Red Scare, as well as the rise of McCarthyism coincided with the publishing of the play."

Goddammit.

Steve's fucking master's thesis was on all about McCarthyism (more specifically, how the second Red Scare was directly linked to the Lavender Scare.) He cited the stupid play in his research.

Billy knows that. They were already engaged by the time Steve began his master's program.

Fuck this guy, for real.

Steve quietly closed his power point presentation on interest groups in America.

"Fine. Mr. Hargrove's class, find a seat. My class, your packet is still due Friday. I'll post the slides after class." He glared at Billy.

Billy grinned right back, his tongue poking out in that frustrating way it has since high school.

"1950s United States. What do you know?"

A few hands went up.

Even Billy raised his stupid hand. Steve ignored him.

-

"Which brings us to the end of the decade. With the early 1960s, we have the reformation in the Catholic Church, known as Vatican ll-"

The bell cut him off mid-sentence, and there was a mad scramble as the students all tried to pack up as quickly as possible, before Steve could keep going.

"My class," he nearly shouted over the scraping of chairs against linoleum. "Your packets are still due Friday! I don't care that Mr. Hargrove interrupted our time."

"And birds! The rubric is posted on the class page! I want outlines handed in on Tuesday."

The classroom door closed behind the final kid.

"You're a dick."

Billy laughed.

"Nah, you just teach that shit so much better than I do."

Steve rolled his eyes. He sat behind his desk, yanking over a stack of twelfth grade research assignments to begin grading. Billy perched on the other side of his desk.

"Y'know, you could just ask me to come in and lecture. You don't have to interrupt my own class."

"Yeah, but it's fun to wind you up and watch you go. And I think the birds like it when they see that you're passionate about something. Why do you think I always start with The Joy Luck Club?"

"Because you have mommy issues."

"No. Because Ying-ying's story makes me sob like a bitch, and the birds get to realize that I'm a real-life human."

Steve scrubbed his face with his hands, collecting himself before facing his dumbass husband again.

"Wait, you said they had an essay due. What's the essay?"

"Oh, comparing the Salem Witch Trials and the goings on of the U.S. government in the mid 1950s. You know."

"So, you created an assignment, knowing that I would infodump all that shit to your kids?"

"Yes."

"I want a divorce."

Billy laughed, leaning over Steve's desk to kiss his forehead.

"No, you don't."

"No, I don't. I love you. But also you suck."

The bell sounded to indicate the end of passing period.

Billy got off the desk, stretching with a groan.

"Would you be mad if I brought my senior class in?"

Steve glared at him in the doorway.

"What's the assignment?"

"They're presenting on the parallels between 1984 and the current political climate."

Goddammit.

"Bring 'em in."

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

Transcript:

LET'S SETTLE THI- Oh hang on. Hang on, Machine, um.

It's 8 PM I need to take my testosterone.

Sorry I'll just be a second. Uh wait here, alright?

Audio Source

[from-disco-to-disco]

a freight train derailed a few miles away from where we live. people are saying it was hauling ammunition. lmao & lol

[glassedplanets]

still thinking about Worst Possible Timing Bodyswap AU

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

[parttime-creative]

I have no words to describe the brain chemistry altering feeling of reading "House of leaves" at the same time as playing "Control" for the first time.

It is, however, an experience™

[kyouka-supremacy]

I think a lot about how one of tpn's leading themes was “in another world, you and me could have been friends (we'll fight for that world together)” and how bsd literally went “this magic book has the power to tell me there's literally no universe where you and me could be happy together”

[itstimeforstarwars]

I spent a decade fucking around instead of preparing for my future because the world was burning down around me and I figured there would be no future but now that I've lived a decade longer than expected I am begrudgingly trying to plan for a future I don’t believe in because if it's already gone on for an extra decade who’s to say it won't go on another fifty years.

[localgardenweed]

Happy 420 everyone, i hope you all have a epic awesome sauce swagtastic days

[arthur-r]

what’s really embarrassing is my roommate on the phone with his mom saying “yeah i’ve been getting really sloppy i haven’t cleaned in a week it’s terrible” and my side of the room is just like that. all of the time. and i feel guilty but he also hasn’t ever said anything to my face he moved my stuff some at the beginning of the year but has never talked to me about it and i’m also so fucking ill that i just cant really handle adding that to my list while trying to also not fail school. so here i am being a terrible person i guess. did i tell you guys about turtle-person. have i showed my bracelets. i’m gonna go to sleep but in the morning i need to show my bracelets

[sanstropfremir]

So you have mentioned long ago that btses and strays are similar and I was curious how? I see it in their um interesting fandoms. But I can also see similarities with blokb kinda.

well.

rapper leader that supposedly had a hand in choosing members

three rapper unit

marketed as a 'self produced' group

self love + positive reinforcement branding

weekly recurring lives/shows on vlive

huge emphasis on intl audiences to the point where there's not a lot of domestic regard

extremely poorly behaved fanbase of mostly intl fans

vocalists that can't pass muster

overrated dancer

underrated dancer that gets shafted constantly

steep increase in production budget that does nothing visually other than show off how much money the company has

[designernishiki]

sometimes i kinda wish mirei wasn't killed off because boy the divorced exes dynamic with majima could've been so god damn funny

[todayisafridaynight]

Reading Tsutsumi's Wikipedia page... I See... [<- hasn't connected shit]

and if we say yoko had tsutsumi in mind when findin someone to play jo !!!!!!!

[hannibalismos-jaaneman]

is it just the cogs of my brain whirring wildly or was bedelia kinda sorta in love with hannibal too?

[paeinovis]

Most fucked up thing about me might be that Ive always wanted pink hair since I was little cause I watched Naruto and was essentially a Sakura kinnie from day 1 age 7 or something lmao . And then I also accidentally recently followed the storyline where she goes from having bangs to Not