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prettyboysmlm · 11 months
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did that just fucking happen
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Some fantasy traveler inventory details (like what they would carry in their bags), based on two of the recent costumes I did.. love finding random little scraps and items and putting them together lol
#it's obvious who's is who's since they match their outfits HOWEVER.. consider if they were switched lol#evil villain looking man carrying around pressed flowers in a cutesy lacy pouch#fantasy costume#what's in my bag#actualyl that would have been funny to make a video. I should make a video#I'm sure someone else has already done this#but like.. lifestyle vlogger type content however I'm dressed in fully costume as some weird elf or something#pulling things out of my bag and showing them to the camera and talking about how they're useful for whatever#but it's all fantasy scenarios and talking like it's very common#'and of course. i know it's a bit cliche#EVERY traveler has one of these. but you know. theyre just useful! thats why everyone has one!' *pulls out a completely unrecognizable item#thats like some weird fantasy world prop and doesn't even explain it because In-world it's normal and wouldnt need to be talked about*#'room tour' video and it's just like 'yeah I sleep on this mat under a bunch of trees uh.. over here by these rocks. at least right now. I#kind of wander around a bit. so'#Like a clothing haul but it's a potions shop haul or something and they ramble about some obscure drama in the potions community and how the#y hard to barter and steal and entire flock of sheep or something just to get one of them. etc. etc.#I could do ones for different characters too like. multiple people from different walks of life showing what they carry around with them.#just like this but more interview sort of vlog format instead of photos#This is where not having much money and not having my own house with land becomes an issue though#I think it would take you out of the illusion if the background was always the same. I can make small sets because there's one blank wall in#a room that it's easy to move all the stuff away from in front of and clear a spot and like hang up fabrics or whatever but still.. hmms#So one of those 'fun idea but dubious about handling the execution' things. also One Of Those Things where without looking it up you're 100%#sure it's already been done and you don't want to look weird since it's vaguely niche. Like if 100 people have done something it's fine but#if only like 3 other people have then you look weird maybe ghhjbj.. or only one other person gods forbid. looks even weirder potentially#Or do people not care about ''copying'' anymore?? idk. I'm not updated with the internet's changing culture. I just have a fear of accidenta#lly doing something like that and then people getting mad even though it's really just that I competely had no idea it had been done because#again.. I live under a rock and am unaware of everything lol. ANYWAY. also would require my face being on video which I don't like. Though I#would be in costume so that helps. I think to be fully comfortable I'd need light modifications to make my face look different. which isn't#hard but is more effort when it has to be translatable in multiple angles. ANYWAY. ghjbhj... Now I think it would be funny actually. maybe#one day. I haven't made any videos (aside from on the gameplay/sims channel) in a long long time actually. hmm'st
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b4kuch1n · 1 year
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langa special
#sk8 the infinity#hasegawa langa#kyan reki#renga#sure. every shrimp is a prawn etc#man. listen. langa is my core ''freaks make the world go round'' baby rn#I have like. a Thesis in my brain abt skateboarding and how its viewed in sk8 and like. deviancy and social norms and#the intrinsic relation between being cool and being a weirdo. gods I did Not shut up at mim abt it last night#or two nights ago. time is fake#fuckign brought up adam in relation to warfred bartosz too that was embarrassing#(for the record my opinion on adam is ''he is too rich and being less rich would literally cure him'')#but yeah I'm laying a bit of ''purposefully thick'' on langa here. its not that the boy doesnt know its that he doesnt care#guy who deals with anxiety by simply not thinking#every day in langas brain he walks into a room full of smashed cups and vases and he like. picks up a few pieces at a time#and puts em on the counter. hes been doing this for months#bet kid has set fire to something in a steel barrel at least once. langa youre a real one to me#anyways! the ''tastes like ant'' thing is real I just experienced it. idk why but I think? oolong caramel?#can smell Really close to the ant smell. it is Very weird#(I did finish that piece of cake anyway. paid for that shit)#last night has been full of events! that I am still digesting. theater very good. hangin out with friends very good too#heres to freaks. makin the world go round. gotta be weird to be cool!#have a good night! I pass the fuck out now. goobaba. tilt ur stage a little bit it makes a world of difference
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carefulfears · 1 year
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thinking about how the ammunition that phoebe uses against mulder in fire is a childhood nightmare that he had shared with her, and how the world only has so much held over him because he shares so generously with it
#this is…….the thing honestly#and this is why scully is Like That when it comes to how cutthroat and protective she is of him#thinking about ‘paper hearts’#and how she tells him that he walked in with his heart on his sleeve#and he did#he always does#he keeps doing it#and it’s not that she wants him to stop#this is what she wants to shield#scully has that kind of protectiveness towards him that you have towards a child that hasn’t been touched by the world yet#it’s very#‘the world is at least half terrible though i keep this from my children’#‘good bones’ by maggie smith#scully in the beginning is like……there is something here that should have broken by now#and she wants to watch him be able to walk into every room with the most hopeful answer and a hand out to every stranger#despite how Frustrating!! it can be and how easily exploited it is and how often it’s used against him#she wants to protect his ability to hope and trust and share so generously with the world#and i adore that about her character because it would be easier for her to tell him to take his heart off his sleeve and open his eyes#she just values that in him so much and she’s so desperate to nurture it and protect it because it’s so special to her#he’s so special to her#and how rare it is that someone whose experienced so much loss and trauma and abuse sees the world the way he does#she doesn’t have to keep the reality of the world from him#he’s seen it his entire life#but he has so much belief in the world anyway#and she’s cautiously running behind#txf.txt#fire
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werebutch · 24 days
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My mom getting a new place is kinda making me anxious I think she thinks I’m gonna move in w her instead of my dad 😭 and I’m not sure why I don’t want to. Cuz she’s way better. But I don’t. And I feel responsible I think and plus my sisters will never favor my mom over my dad… so we’d live apart. but I’m 20 years old I can live whatever I want. But. But but but
#idk I really like our house too. it’s great. it’s exactly my style. I would miss it LMAO#but again my mom is just.. she’s so much more organized and she and my stepdad actually get stuff done#and take care of themselves. living w her would be more like we’re roommates and not how it is w my dad#who needs to be taken care of and doted on like a child. my sisters too but I don’t think they’d survive living without me at my dads 💀#or they’d be really pissed at me. at the least#my dads house is constantly horrible so messy so so so bad no free counterspace anywhere can barely walk thru the house and cat vomit#everywhere. unless I take care of all of it. I can’t have company over unless I know a week in advance so I can make it look like a normal#house. and at my moms it’s never like that. it’s messier than average sure but it’s never disgusting like that#people are always telling me not to do anything and let my family learn to clean up after themselves but if I don’t it will just get worse#and worse. they’ll wait weeks before doing anything. it’s embarrassing. and depressing. if I let it go long enough I am miserable every day#after being homeless or on the verge of homelessness for 10 years my dad can’t even appreciate the fantastic house we have 😭#he has to fuck it all up. it’s not 100% his fault bc my sisters do fuck all but he DID teach them to be this way. the only reason I do#anything is because I snapped out of planning to kill myself and realized that I needed to be there for my sisters. so I started being like#their parent more and more. but they still never learned to unload the dishwasher or take out the trash without screaming about it.#I’m just very overwhelmed and nervous about this move. I also feel horrible as if I’m disappointing my mom if I don’t move in. I don’t want#to disappoint her any more than I already have..#she is soooo excited about giving me a room the basement so I can have my bunnies there..
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kerizaret · 24 days
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I'm gonna start reblogging the fuck bugs post now whenever it is relevant to me again because of my god I cannot take this but at least I can be funny and remember that tsukasa Gets Me and feel a bit better
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mxwhore · 9 months
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came home early and 😶
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opens-up-4-nobody · 5 months
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#i started the semester off with such a level head but ive walked myself further and further toward i ledge i can feel crumbling#out from under my feet. i sit in small rooms where i feel the stress radiating from my chest down into my limbs. disappating into the floor#it makes me want to run and run and run but im so tired and the sidewalk is icy slick. and i feel like im at the limits of my abilities#and i know every grad student has that worry but what if its true. that i have a void behind my eyes and not enough depth of thought#anywhere it matters. how am i supposed to operate in this system when i can barely string together the words to understand what im reading#and itll never be any easier. what if im at my functional limit? what if i caught fire and burned away to ashes? what if i screamed and#kept screaming until someone told me patch up the open wound in my chest? what if i just stopped?#what if i could just let go of any need to feel like i have a purpose? what if i could just live? and feel the wonder of the things around#me. let go of all my emptiness#move at a pace that isnt breaking my neck. feel anything close to joy or if that's too much to ask then let me at least feel stable. just#for a while. just a little while.#and i know itll b fine. and i know im just being whiny bc things are hard and theyve been hard and theyll always be hard bc i refuse to make#things easy. but i just feel like im standing alone on a beach where the water's been drawn too far back#and i can see it rushing toward me faster than i can run. im just waiting for the tsunami to wash me away to nothing#unrelated
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gatogotica · 1 year
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I love blogging abt prodigal son bc im basically just talking to an empty room
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caluski · 5 months
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The sky is clear the sun is out the birds are screaming and the air smells like a refreshingly chilly spring morning..... Good morning everyone
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and-stir-the-stars · 1 year
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Different anon,but flip the narrative. Replace Gregory with Evan. Put the boy in the pizzaplex, what would he do?
okay so we don't know exactly how Gregory got into the pizzaplex in the first place; maybe he was kidnapped and brought there specifically by Vanny, maybe he was glitchtrap-mindcontrolled and only broke free during a venture in the pizzaplex before Vanny chased after him; we don't know.
If Evan were to be kidnapped and brought there by Vanny, I'm not sure things would work out in his favor. There's no way he's overpowering her. I think the most chance he would have in that situation is if Vanny wasn't in her A-game at the time; either she got distracted and allowed Evan to escape, or she got cocky and made a mistake.
But if we're talking about an Evan who just gets dropped in the middle of the pizzaplex at night (either after escaping Vanny, or through time travel or mindcontrol shenanigans), then honestly, I think Evan would get through it just fine.
Would he be hella scared throughout the experience and have nightmares and trauma afterward? yeah. But I do think he'd be able to survive.
A lot of Gregory's difficulties in his night at the pizzaplex were because he was trying to escape. He kept moving throughout the pizzaplex, moving between one possible exit and the next, drawing more and more attention to himself and getting himself into more and more trouble as he went. He was on the offense through the entire night.
But as fnaf 4 showed us, Evan is more of an 'on the defense' and not 'on the offense' kid. He tries avoiding Mike, and he tries holing up in his room and not letting any animatronics in rather than going after them before they can get him. Honestly, I think Evan would hole up in a hidden spot and refuse to come out until the pizzaplex is open again and he'd be just fine. Even if the animatronics and Vanny are looking for him, the pizzaplex is HUGE. Finding a little kid who doesn't want to be found isn't going to be an easy feat.
Of course, Evan tends to assume the best of people, so if he didn't have any reason to suspect Vanessa (which could be anything as obvious as seeing her with the mask/knife or as subtle as picking up on her having similar mannerisms to Vanny or overhearing Vanessa say she wants him "dealt with"), then it's possible that Vanessa might coax him out only for Vanny to kill him. Buuuut, on the other hand, Vanessa's personality comes off as abrasive, to say the least, in Security Breach, which Evan would hardly find comforting; he could decide that it's best to just wait for the place to open rather than come out, anyway. Or he might have just picked up on the fact that Vanessa is out to get him. It could honestly go both ways when it comes to whether Evan would trust Vanessa.
And now for THE question on everyone's minds when it comes to an au where Evan is the one in the pizzaplex: how the heck is this child reacting to Glamrock Freddy?
I mean, obviously he's terrified. A giant real life manifestation of his greatest, most abused fear standing right there and towering over him?? Evan is NOT having a good time.
But the Glamrock animatronics have phenomenal AI. I would be genuinely surprised if these guys didn't have protocols put in place to calm down any kids who are scared of them (scared little kids don't put any money in Fazbear Enterteinment's pockets, do they?). I don't know if Glamrock Freddy would actually be able to get Evan to calm down and maybe-kinda trust him, but it sure would be fun to see him try.
I mean, it would take Evan completely by suprise; this kind of thing would probably have never happened to him before. The more basic animatronics that we see in all other fnaf locations wouldn't have any ''don't frighten the kids'' protocols or dialogue in their programming (their ai obviously isn't as good, and putting those protocols in place isn't as intuitive in such small locations where the animatronics are so basic and rarely even leave the stage). And no one wearing the animatronic springlock suits would have been allowed to talk; just like modern day mascots, it ruins the illusion for all ages if the animatronics' voices are constantly changing as the person behind the mask changes, too. No animatronic is likely to have ever tried comforting Evan before. Well... to be honest, few humans have ever tried doing that for him, either. It would be a new experience in more ways than one.
Whether Evan begins to trust Freddy or not, there is NO way this kid is ever willingly hopping inside Freddy's chest cavity XD
(though, it would be interesting to see Evan hiding inside Freddy's chest cavity because his options are 98% likelihood of dying in an animatronic vs 100% likelihood of dying to Vanny; then Evan wakes up inside Freddy's chest cavity, and the thing that gets Evan to trust Freddy is that Freddy actually listens when Ev says he's scared and doesn't trust Vanessa...)
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theclosetedskeleton · 9 months
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me staring at my DAD when he said "if i see you have any f's during these 10 days.. things are gonna be bad. and by that i mean youre gonna get your tv taken. And youre gonna get no privacy. Meaning im going to take your door away" when i just wanted to go downstairs and get a fucking granola bar and NOT remember that if i fuck up once at school my privacy vanishes
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theygender · 18 days
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What are you talking about. Exactly zero of these things are essentials
#i hate new cars sm man 😭#i cant even afford a car payment rn but i know i need to get a new car asap#bc my 11 year old ford exploder keeps having parts fail on me and also theres a concerning rust issue going on#so im looking into car options a lil bit so i can maybe get an idea of whats out there#once im done with my payments on like braces and other stuff and hopefully have a bit more wiggle room#and i was already not liking the idea of looking at New new cars bc like#i want buttons man. i dont want some touch screen bullshit thats gonna distract me while im driving you know?#i got spoiled with my 2003 and im worried what its gonna be like if i have to get a New car#so im looking into new car options for literally 5 seconds and immediately find this#'well the interior is made out of shitty fabric but at least it has essentials like [things i absolutely dont need or even want] :D'#like. everything there is completely unnecessary. and fucking ALEXA??#why would i want muskrat to be able to spy on me while im driving. wtf is this bullshit#maybe ill just need to look into used cars specifically but its always such a crapshoot#last time i bought a used car secondhand i ended up with something that broke down literally two days after i bought it#(only reason my current car was good when i got it was bc i bought it from my grandma)#i guess maybe a used car dealership might be better bc then at least i would have some accountability if they sell me something shit?#but i dont even know where to start looking when it comes to finding a used car that i would like...#and i dont exactly just wanna walk into a dealership clueless to see what they have there. i wanna be prepared so they cant fuck with me#idk. still gonna be a while until i can get to that point anyway#rambling#edit: just realized alexa is bezos not musk. but fuck em both i dont care. two heads of the same hydra
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toastsnaffler · 24 days
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ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.
#just got home and went to put my shit away but my flatmate was in the kitchen and i got suddenly so mad i had to walk back out#not going to do or say anything while im this upset. i need to be a lot calmer before i can even be in the same room as her#like okay. so originally it was just the two of them getting drinks and theyd rather it was just them bc i dont drink. thats cool#it wouldve been difficult for me to join them after work bc travel. and ik theyd done this before just the 2 of them and had fun#i can fully respect that its why i said no and stuck by that decision when she asked again#but to not mention she was taking the day off work and btw i just found out that BOTH of our other old flatmates joined in too#to not mention that they were travelling that entire distance and that it wasnt just drinks it was a whole day out together#thats just mean. why wouldnt you tell me that why did none of them say anything.#and the fact they did the exact same fucking thing last weekend too i didnt know about that at all#like i need to stop trying to justify it. im allowed to feel unwanted and excluded bc thats exactly what theyre doing.#im tired of feeling like other people dont want me around. i know i can be difficult and annoying sometimes. but im really not that bad#and we're meant to be friends!!!!!! like youre supposed to like your friends. and want to spend time with them. or at least i do#and yeah everyones annoying sometimes thats just part of being alive ur supposed to tolerate it if ur friends#im allowed to want to feel like im wanted. im allowed to want ppl to care abt me. that shouldnt be too much to ask for#but the overwhelming message im getting at the moment is they dont want me around. and when i am around them i feel like they dont listen#to me and that they dont really care how i feel unless it directly involves them or theyre responsible for it#i feel like they dont see me as a real person that exists. only a version they have in their heads and they base all their assumptions and#decisions off that version instead of directly communicating with me. and constantly avoid me under the guise of 'giving me space'#when im upset or having a difficult time and most need support from other people. i just feel really unseen#and ik that part of how i feel IS exacerbated by insecurity and depression. like they do care to some degree#but also a lot of it is evidenced in the way they act towards me. mainly my roommate bc shes the person i interact with most#and personally i find the most direct ways of showing u care abt someone are showing up for them. and making them feel seen#and maybe not everyone feels the same way. but thats how it works for me anyway#so to repeatedly exclude me and avoid acknowledging that ive been having a difficult time is the opposite of that to me#which is the point im trying to arrive at... sorry ik ive probably said similar things repeatedly the last few weeks but i feel like its#crystallising a bit like this is the core reason why im so sensitive and reactive atm and why i got so upset by it#idk. not tonight bc im still very emotionally raw but maybe tomorrow if im calmer i should explain that i was upset + why to her#i avoid doing that so often when im upset bc i dont think theres much point in having a conversation abt it unless u expect some kind of#resolution from it. or if you want an apology but idrc abt being apologised to the crucial thing is what theyre going to do different#and i love her but shes very resistant to changing her behaviour bc of other ppl being upset by it. and like i said before she has
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parme-san · 1 month
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😐 gary i need the luxury of privacy
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