#autism or not 🙄

[springboggle]

Also my bf didn't come down for Chinese because he shares his car with his family and they used it for something yesterday. I guess he didn't even think to Uber or Lyft down or yknow, use the other fucking car they have.

I ordered myself some Subway with the uber eats card I got from the doggy daycare interview, but I'm just retroactively pissed off. All week I was looking forward to Chinese with him. I treated myself but I'm about to start fucking working soon and Sundays will be my primary off day starting next week, now planning will be even more impossible. And he couldn't even find a way to have Chinese with me or something. Or just come at night and go somewhere else with me. Like, I'm legitimately trying to wrap my head around why he can't seem to find a way to make shit happen ever unless I take responsibility and pressure him to be an adult. No fucking thanks.

[honeynclove]

twst tism hcs but it’s only the popular ones

[macaiv]

I just wanted to share this excerpt of a 2020 (?) interview of Nuno Pinto, former Prema driver coach. Here he talks about Lewis, Esteban and most especially Lance.

Maybe, just maybe, people would be just a even a smidge understanding of Lance. You can critizice him for his ontrack performance but at least try to be objective.

Interview is originally in portuguese but translated using google translate. If you have the time the entire interview is worth the read.

The reason why I included Esteban's part is maybe people can actually learn from him. Even when Esteban had the life and the difficulties that he had, he understood that everyone else also had their own difficulties to overcome, no matter where they come from. If Esteban, of all people, can be understanding of Lance, why are other people seemingly incapable of doing the same?

[joeyclaire]

i feel like i have normie autism but weirdo adhd

[leo-artsssss]

human!Donatello design!! 

he uses crutches to help balance himself out. His back brace is very heavy!!

[northlight14]

@ everyone going back to school, especially all my fellow neurodivergents and specifically those with special interests or hyperfixations, there is no wrong way of revising! It doesn’t matter if it seems “unusual” to other people, if it works for you, use it!!

I just finished collage and because of my funky brain, I can have a difficult time remembering information, especially things like names and specific details. And considering a lot of the classes I was taking required me to remember a lot of different theories, that was proving to be a bit of an issue. Cut to when we were getting up to our A level mocks and my English literature teacher at the time starts going round the entire classroom asking everyone how they revise one by one. Everyone’s saying the usual stuff of “I reread the material” “I use flash cards” “I make notes” etc. All stuff I’ve tried to do in the past but just never worked for me because my brain functions differently. She then gets to me and asks how I revise and I explain that I’ll try and make connections in my brain between the thing I’m studying and whatever my interests are. I’ve always found this to be useful for me because it keeps my brain interested in what I’m studying by using my special interests and also requires me to actively think about and analyse what I’m studying so that I can make those connections. However, my teacher just looked at me with the most condescending smile on her face and asked “does that really work?” Obviously I got uncomfortable and said “yeah it does” but she then proceeded to ask “do you do anything else?” And making it out as if I was an idiot for doing something like that and just making me feel embarrassed in front of the class. Eventually, I just said one of the generic answers everyone else had so she’d leave me alone.

However, I’m petty as hell so when it came to the mocks I used that method to memorise one of my theories for media studies. Cut to that theory being the one that stuck in my head the most, just proving to me that this method my teacher decided “doesn’t work” without actually listening to me, does in fact work for me. Fast forward to my actual A Levels and I used that method again. Ace Attorney had just become my new special interest/hyperfixation so I used that for a lot of the theories. Specifically, one of the theories I linked it to “The Steel Samurai”, a tv show within the Ace Attorney universe. Then when I went into my exam I saw a theory question. For those who don’t know, for theory questions they just ask you to apply a theory to a specific text but they only name the theory, they don’t tell you what the theory includes. While at first wasn’t sure what the theory was and went to answer another question, I then quickly remembered “the steel samurai” and even wrote down “the steel samurai” next to the question as a reminder for myself for when I went to answer it and it helped a lot as a prompt. Once again, the method my teacher decided “didn’t work” was the very reason I was able to answer that question and passed my media exam

Again, it doesn’t matter what other people’s opinions are on how you revise, if it works for you, please use it! You know your brain better than anyone else. Do whatever helps you understand the material and keeps your brain engaged

[imomnba-x07]

Hello hi good morning

It seems we have to remind people once again:

AUTISM IS NOT SOMETHING YOU CAN CATCH, IS NOT SPREADABLE, CANNOT BE CAUSED BY SOMETHING, NOR IS IT CURABLE. ITS A GENETIC DISORDER THAT CAN ONLY, I REPEAT, ONLY BE CAUSED BY THE GENES OF YOUR PARENTS OR CAUSED BY DISORDERS THAT THEY MAY HAVE THAT LEADS TO YOUR OWN DISABILITY.

IT CANNOT BE CAUSED THROUGH MEDICATION, VACCINATIONS, OR SNEEZING ON SOMEONE.

PLEASE STOP

here are two comment I found that made me giggle to alleviate the headache you might now be feeling

[penofwildfire]

Y'know I'm pretty sure obsessively thinking about a lego cartoon all day every day for over a decade to the point that it's a key part of your entire personality and one of the first things people know about you is just. Not a very allistic thing to do. Y'know? You understand me?

[salemontrial]

My mum wont let me talk about lmk for too long

[sardonictxt]

There’s always talk about people who have low empathy for everyone but animals, but never talk about people who can’t empathize/care enough for/about animals. It’s all low empathy is okay and doesn’t make you a monster but god forbid you don’t extend the little or no empathy you have towards an animal, you’re horrible!

[honeynclove]

“alhaitham is a kevinsu love child ” “dr ratio is a kavetham love child” slowly u guys r building a family tree

[awetistic-things]

i want to learn sign language for hard speaking days but my hands aren’t handing correctly

[superpussyking]

I wish people where nicer to people who get lost easily bc the amount of people who make snide comments about me having a bad sense of direction and tearing down all of the confidence I've built up by intentionally getting lost so I can navigate spaces is too frequent. Also it feels infantilising in the way most people bring it up or joke about it

[im-a-lil-bitch-boi]

my mom: ur not autistic, stop

also her: describes aspects of my childhood that r v obvious signs of autism

[lexxieannie]

playing a fun little game called am i in love with them or did they mention my current hyperfixiation one (1) time

[party-gilmore]

absolutely wild learning about my austistic leanings later in life because like

my parents just thought i was “eccentric” and found me rather entertaining, weirdness and all (plus their own probably undiagnosed AuDHD making their benchmark for normal skewed anyway) and my mon specifically was always so “mever change for anyone just be you” from a very young age so i just…

never experienced the concept of masking i guess?

Not as masking, I mean.

i would read accounts from autistic people talking about their experiences and struggles and pressure to conform and masking and the mental effects thereof and i would feel empathy because i “went through similar issues” but i th

i thought i was just being bullied for being Weird. just in general. like kids do. that this was a case of “well this sounds a lot like what i go through, but im not actually autistic so it probably isnt my place to join the conversation.”

it just never clicked that, “um. hi. these are the exact same behaviors you do. and there were moments in your life that almost led you to masking. because thats what it would’ve been. masking. but your dumb ass thought it wouldve just been ‘changing how you act and who you are in order to be bullied less’ which okay TECHNICALLY yes that is an accurate if watered down description of masking too, but.

Then you refused to on principle, because bullying is bad and fuck you and got angry about it to the point of overcompensating and INCREASING your Behaviors (tm) until you completely skipped over one of the key experiences that wouldve helped you identify with other people on the spectrum later in life.”

I just rolled through life like a steamroller of righteous, spiteful confidence that my preferences and actions were nobody’s business but my own and vice versa unless they clearly and directly affected others - so much so that I never actually set any kind of benchmark pattern for the way (NT) people around me act.

So I never had a benchmark for masking.

like im going back through all my memories of friendships that soured because i took everything at face value instead of trying to read deeper into cues. because I would always just say what i wanted people to know, straight up. like if i wanted attention i would ask for it if i wanted them to know i was hurt i would tell them. That made so much sense to me i assumed that was the norm. Because clearly. Thats logical. and obvious. So certainly other people are doing the same.

I got blinsided a LOT by the games my school friends and later some early adult friends played, yeah, but AGAIN (see: steamroller of self confidence) I simply assumed that was THEIR problem, not mine, and just… grieved the friendship and hoped for their sake they’d eventually sort their shit out 🤣

I literally thought they were the ones having difficulty with social contracts and cues and relationships.

Then over the past couple years the more I see accounts from other people in the AuDHD spectrum, like “yeah neurotypicals actually [thing i had been assuming was just an asshole trait for years without questioning it], heres what they really mean and a good script for responding” and “its funny how i [exact behavior i did for years] and no one realized i was austistic till later” im like… 🙃

And the last kicker was the post about food touching with the tag response “sometimes masking your autistic traits ends up more autistic than the unmasked trait” and my gut reactions were, in order:

…why would you bother to mask that, why is the way you eat anyone elses business?

i mean i guess it would ease up the pressure a bit, i got bullied for that too, i can see how maybe you wouldnt want to have to put… up with…

…

oHHHH SHIT IS THAT WHAT IT WOULDVE BEEN. IF I HADNT BEEN SO ANGRY ABOUT BEING ASKED TO CHANGE. IT WOULDVE BEEN MASKING. IF I’D KNOWN WHAT THAT WAS. THIS WHOLE TIME.

its just… its just been a series of months of me shaking my head and realizing my entire life has been that meme like “Am I having difficulties connecting socially??? No, it is everyone else who is wrong.”

🤣 girl help