#bad news! have to quit the old one

[normalamber]

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[dhampir-dyke]

Had a kinda shitty therapy session w my new therapist and man. She wants me to try 'accelerated resolution therapy' to like. I guess rewrite my traumatic memories? But the absolute fucking fear I feel about it.... Literally everything in my body is telling me NOT to fucking do it. I don't even wanna go back.... idk what to do. I want to get better and not have a panic response every damn shift I work, but something is telling me this is a bad idea.

[bmpmp3]

some day i will actually finish all my half finished cover projects instead of getting distracted and starting a new one., some day .

(propose by naisho no pierced, svp made from the midi they provided lol)

[hella1975]

i got a bonus + raise and ive only been working like 3 months im soso excited sorry i just wanted to tell someone

AH THAT'S SO EXCITING! im so happy for you bestie <3

[spade-club]

Reminding myself that I did all of my goals I had for this year. Even if some of them turned out to be mistakes, I've come a long way in the past half a year especially, and even if I am currently struggling with the weight of it all right now, these achievements are nothing to ignore or take value away from.

[simonstamenovic]

bnedd a new kin assignment for smth that will be terribly for my brain or else ill be terrible for my own brain

[klefaeries]

buddy thats a lot of overwatch are you good

fanfuckingtastic my guy thanks for asking

[oveliagirlhaditright]

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[lhrry]

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[llatimeria]

The fact that my partners workplace is a whole 3 minute walk from where I live is actively driving me insane right now. i want to go and smash some of their shit with a baseball bat rn

[tittyinfinity]

can't stop thinking about the failed-ass conversation I had with the T-Mobile employee the other day

I mentioned to him that I also used to work in T-Mobile customer service. We had a short discussion about the things we enjoyed about the job. But when he asked what I do now, I was too embarrassed to tell him I was disabled.

I told him I'm an archivist. Which isn't a lie! At all! I just do it on my own time. I tried to change the subject, but he kept coming back around to ask about it. So I..... tried to pull it off like it was a real job 😬

Customer service rep: "I've never heard of an archivist! What's that?"

Me: "I save articles, pictures, videos, and posts about current world events to multiple drives, and eventually most of it will be printed off and put into laminated sheets inside of binders so that they're never lost to time." (no lies at all so far)

"Wow! That's so cool! So is this like, through a company or do you do freelance work?"

"I work on my own....... most of what I do is unpaid." (a half-lie... I'm not paid for that but I'm paid by the state for being disabled lmao)

"Oh, wow! So do like, people ever contact you for those resources?"

[oh god. oh no.] "Every now and then I compare and discuss information with people who are looking to do activism or history-based work." (these "people" are just my friends, but no lies here.)

"That is so, so cool! So it's kind of one of those things where you left the regular workforce to do something you felt was right?"

"....Yes! I figured I only have this one life, I want to at least make a difference." (man I'm a piece of shit lmao)

"You opened my mind a bit today! Well hey thanks for recording history, that's really cool!"

"Thank you for being so wonderful to talk to!"

I feel like the biggest scam in the world and I barely even lied😭

[house-in-the-backyard-trees]

For once I would like to work at a place where me calling off doesn't result in a guilt trip. Sorry I'm the only responsible employee there but I was literally hyperventilating at the idea of letting my manager down bc I woke up and instantly started bawling about everything and could not face work. And my stomach has been murdering me from all the anxiety I've been dealing with so I literally can barely function anyway.

[bmpmp3]

a lot of anime opening single b-sides get kinda overlooked but Everyone Should Listen to the b-side of fabiniku’s opening Refrain this song has been consuming my mind for the past 48 hours LIKE listen to it

the weirdass white noise/ darth vader breathing noise in the beginning and the quiet parts, the jazzy drums in the verses, guitar riffs that will make any dad who listens to too much classic rock air guitar his heart out, the vocals at around the 3:20 mark, the fantastical synth melody, THE FLUTE ASS SOUND are you listening to me are you listening to the FLUTE? the WOODWIND INSTRUMENT in the ‘refrain... refrain... refrain...” sections and the DISTORTION on the “refrain“s in the final seconds LISTEN TO ME listen to the woodwind instrument

[sharkieboi]

want to start posting my art again here on tumblr cause i need to share my dnd blorbo stuff and i was like “maybe i’ll use my old art blog wouldn’t that be a great archive of my really old art too!” so i went to check it out and I know we have to let go of cringe to be free but i will absolutely not be posting my art to that account and letting people associate my old stuff with any of my new stuff 😬

[tomatoluvr69]

I feel bad for people in bands who have falling outs bc imagine that one horrific coworker you have and then you quit the job and you’re so relieved to never have to work with them again. But then imagine that for the rest of your life the public never stops haranguing you to get back with that coworker and do one last report/audit/case/equivalent whatever just for old times sake. And you’re like wtf no I hate that guy. Want to check out my cool new job though? And everyone’s like no please make amends with that guy you hate from your old job. And it never lets up until one of you dies

[girltomboy]

Last week my bf and I found out that one of our friends has been talking "seriously" to another friend's ex crush and it kinda shattered my faith in him like not only is this girl barely 18 (?? I think) but she was also the root of some huge drama that happened last year. She started secretly texting our friend and he told our other friend who then stopped talking to her and moved on. He was super broken and disappointed though. And a few months ago she apparently texted him again, this time he didn't tell our other friend, and now they have like a Thing?? And he already said he's been thinking about how to tell friend number 2 about what's been going on, but he still hasn't done it, and their Thingationship is just naturally progressing, like he's been tentatively telling me and my bf about some of their inside jokes or things they tell each other, and I'm like ?? Bruh what the hell are you doing lol. My bf apparently told him that his secret situationship is a bad idea and really unfair to our friend as well who suffered terribly after his friendship breakup last year. And he just agreed and that was it. But nothing changed, so we just figured he's enjoying the attention and connection with a girl which has been so rare for him, but I'm like... does the world end and begin with this one girl who's too young for pretty much everyone in our friend group?Just cause she made the silly decision to text you again doesn't mean you have to disregard any feelings you have for one of your best friends... Not to mention this wouldn't even be the first time he has a Thing with a close friend's ex girlfriend or crush 🙄 Like idk I know they're both single and there never really was anything beyond a simple friendship between this girl and friend number 2, but what do you even get out of a potentially failed talking stage that you have to hide from your close friend...? Idk this thing really shifted my perception of him, I noticed he was still following this girl on insta but I thought it was just a coincidence that they still follow each other after the failed attempt at integrating her into our friend group last year.