#bahai prayers

[this-is-me19]

O God, my God! I have set out from my home, holding fast unto the cord of Thy love, and I have committed myself wholly to Thy care and Thy protection. I entreat Thee by Thy power through which Thou didst protect Thy loved ones from the wayward and the perverse, and from every contumacious oppressor, and every wicked doer who hath strayed far from Thee, to keep me safe by Thy bounty and Thy grace. Enable me, then, to return to my home by Thy power and Thy might. Thou art, truly, the Almighty, the Help in Peril, the Self-Subsisting. — Bahá’u’lláh

Travel protection prayer

[allah-u-abha]

[spokanefavs]

Sunday recalled another anniversary, the public hangings, of 10 Baha’i women in Shiraz, #Iran.

This anniversary — the 40th — begins a year-long campaign led by the Baha'i International Community: #OurStoryIsOne

What can others do to show support? If you know Baha’is, ask how you might help.

Or you can call toll-free 1-800-228-6483 for information about reaching a Baha’i community near you. And of course, prayers are always welcome. Use your own prayers, or choose from a compilation of Baha’i prayers that can be found at the link.

[timwrightt]

[aca-serenity]

[octoberautumnbox]

Dito Muna Tayo.

BINI Aiah Arceta & Male Reader

Categories/warnings: angst, smut, escort, birth control

Word count: 1.1k

a/n: prompt by @i-am-lifeform24! the one in the compilation is in all English but this was the original and I was so in love with this version that I just had to post it too :DDDD the english ver didnt do it justice it killed me to translate

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It came easier than most with him, she could even say it came easy, period. He wasn't like anyone Aiah had ever been with: his gaze was always soft, his touch always gentle, his tone always sweet when it came to her. Of course, she didn't know the alternative; she only knows the him that texts her every first Friday at 5:30 p.m. asking if she's busy that night. And she never is, or, always is, because first Friday nights are blocked off by default for her favorite patron. 

It was a broken record that she never tired of: she dresses pretty, he picks her up, they get dinner and drinks, and he takes her back to his place. He and Aiah are so used to it at this point that he keeps telling her to stop dressing too nice but she just can't help it, she has to look good for him!

~~~

It's the most predictable thing in the world, hopping into his car and letting him rub her inner thigh as he drives. It's absolutely no surprise when he orders the steak for himself and the large poutine for the both of them to share. It's the normalest occurrence when the violin guy hovers over their table with a heart-wrenchingly beautiful melody as he admires her eyes over the candlelight. And it sure as hell isn't anything special when she offers his left arm to cling to as they walk back to his car, so much so that the wine he holds with his right arm makes its way to Aiah's instead. 

“Maganda ‘to, ah, 2020?” She looks over the label, finding a pinot noir brand she couldn't recognize. “Lalasingin mo ‘ko, pararausan, itatapon ‘pag sawa na. Alam na alam ko ‘yang mga tulad mo,” she teases.

“Kailan kita tinapon? Ang sarap lagi ng pinapakain ko sa 'yo, wala kang inaabot kundi lambing sa kama ko, hinahatid kita nang ligtas sa bahay mo tuwing linggo,” he retorts with a chuckle, counting each one on his fingers. He opens the door for her, and she plants a sweet peck on his lips before settling elegantly back into the car.

~~~

It's all the same game to her, yet she can't deny it's exhilarating every time. Her grip is tight around his back and shoulders, her pedicured nails digging into his skin as he parts her pussy lips apart for him. She moans sweetly, “Putangina, sige pa, please…” as he diligently fulfills each of her prior requests. He does everything she asks of him: in front of the mirror, against the wall, in the bathtub, but Aiah's favorite and the one that absolutely has to end each night, bareback missionary on his fluffy bed while she holds him close to kiss, to hug, to whisper her sweet nothings into his ear. 

“Tangina, ang sarap mo, Aiah, ‘di talaga ako magsasawa sa ‘yo,” he says back, and he kisses her neck gently, driving her wild. 

It's all the same game to her, and it's so easy to predict: the neck kisses come when he's close. She feels him throbbing inside her as he pounds her into the mattress, he's going faster, deeper, and she fires a prayer up to whom it may concern that he goes rougher and rougher still, until–

“Tangina, tangina, putang ina!!!” she screams loud, giving herself up in service to his pleasure. He erupts in between her velvet walls, shooting his thick and warm seed into her womb, all the while her pussy milks him for everything he's got. He shuts her up with his lips on hers, and Aiah can't help but return his love; she takes his head in her hands, locking him in her embrace. 

And once it's all over, he falls to her side to let her breathe. An arm underneath her head, a cursory “good night,” and all the warmth of the world in him are all it takes to rob her of her consciousness. As the world fades around her, he pulls her close to his chest, and the last thing she remembers, like always, is the aroma of his sweat evidencing his satisfaction with her services. 

~~~

Before she knows it, sunshine peeks in from between the drawn curtains. He's downstairs getting ready in a gorgeous casual look that never fails to take Aiah's breath away, and he's probably fixing her a platter of pandesal or a bowl of lugaw or whatever to bring to the car and have for breakfast as he drives her back home. 

Albeit a bit wobbly, she's able to make her way downstairs. Like clockwork, there he is, finishing up her meal and packing it safely for the car, and she makes her way to the sofa and rubs the sleep out her eyes. She wants to say something, but holds back because she knows the tears will follow. Her lips form the shape for the first word, but no air comes out. She repeats in her head again and again, “Pwede bang dito muna tayo?” knowing the answer will always be no, so she never tries. Why go against the program, why ruin such a good thing? 

~~~

She takes a careful bite of the hardboiled egg, and noticeably he slows down before the speed bump at the entrance to her subdivision. In no time at all they arrive outside her house, and Aiah sets her dirty dishes on the dashboard in front of her. 

“Ingat ka,” she whispers, avoiding his eyes. The usual white envelope falls onto her lap, and she hears his seatbelt unclasp and fly back taut. Not giving him a chance, she undoes her own seatbelt and hurriedly pushes her door open, leaving him behind. She runs back to her privacy, swinging open the door and shutting it nearly hard enough to break it. Aiah holds her breath in wait before finally she lets go when his engine roars to life and grows progressively quieter the farther away he gets. 

Finally, the tears fall. She buries her face in her hands and screams a scream that would end worlds, then composes herself while she wipes the liquid pain from her eyes. She opens the envelope: fifteen blue bills and a blister pack of her usual birth control. The sight rips her chest apart, and the envelope and its contents are thrown to scatter all over her foyer. Aiah crumples into a fetal position and tumbles to her side, hugging her knees and wallowing in the dread of missing him not even five minutes after they part for another month. 

~~~

[jezawitha-z]

Life has been really tough lately and idk if i can put it into words. Maraming ganap end ng month of July to mids of August and still trying on how I can share it to my tumblr blog. This kinda a long post and gusto ko balikan itong post one day na masaya, matatag, at lumalaban parin sa buhay.

My heart is full right now as I was able to spend time with the love of my life and his family. Nag church kami kasama parents nya this Sunday lang at di ko talaga napigilang umiyak nung inannounce na yung sa prayer intentions ba yun sa catholic mass. Pinalagay kasi ng mama nya kanina yung name ng mama ko and I was really emotional dahil naaalala ko na naman si nanay. It's been 3 weeks since my mom died and although I'm already coping, di parin talaga maiwasan.

Solid lang din talaga yung support ni bf at mama nya nung mga panahon na yun lalo na emotionally. Sinamahan nya ako magbantay kay nanay since hanggang Thursday lang pasok nya sa work. Yun yung time na nagkaroon ako ng tulog nung nandun na sya at the same time nakakakain na rin dahil walang gana kumain at walang tulog talaga. I'm really thankful din sa mga taong andyan talaga para sakin sa mga panahong akala ko hindi ko kakayanin.

From Cavite - Negros Occidental, naiuwi namin nanay ko dahil andun din talaga halos relatives namin sa side ng nanay ko at para makita na din ng mga kapatid ko for the last time. That was a really tough decision dahil sobrang daming bagay na need iconsider. We're not capable financially dahil ang laki ng gastos kung iuuwi si nanay through airplane man or barko tapos yung per night pa ni nanay sa punerarya.

We're almost in the conclusion of cremation at least yung ashes maiiuwi parin naman sa probinsya. But God is really good na maraming taong tumulong through prayers and financially dahil hanggang ngayon hindi ko maimagine paano namin nalikom yung ganung halaga bigla. Although may nautang din ako but without the help of others, di talaga kakayanin.

Yung bigat ng pakiramdam ko nung mga time na yun sobra sobra talaga. Andito ako sa Pampanga at si nanay naman nasa Cavite. Ako na walang kaalam alam paano mag commute pa Manila or papuntang Cavite pero with God's grace, talagang nagawa ko. Sasakay ng bus na iyak ng iyak, uuwi ng apartment sa Pampanga para umiyak din, babalik na naman ng Cavite another session na naman ng iyak lalo na kapag nakaka receive ako ng mga messages encouraging me to stay strong.

Laging sinasabi ng mama ni bf na for sure happy na rin si nanay sa mga ginawa ko. Malungkot man na for the last time sa mahabang panahon, na ngayon ko lang napakita kung gaano ko sya ka-mahal. My mother was also my best friend, napapagsabihan ko most of my ganap sa buhay dati. Pero may mga bagay na nagkakaconflict kami which leads us na di mag usap for 2 years.

Isinasantabi ko na lahat ng galit ko o tampo sa kanya. Since ako lang yung immediate family nya na andito sa city, halos sakin talaga lahat nakasalalay at bilang panganay na rin. And for the last time, kinausap ko sya and told her na di na ako galit at kahit anong mangyari naman nanay ko parin sya at mahal ko. I also asked for forgiveness because I wasn't a perfect daughter for her and made a decision not to talk to her for a long time. She knows na din naman siguro that I was also in pain sa mga naging desisyon nya that time. Pero nirerespeto ko na din naman yung naging desisyon nya dati kahit na ikakabroken family namin.

Kahit papaano happy na rin naman ako na nakita ko yung tatay ko na alam kong mahal na mahal nya parin si nanay. Although nung unang nalaman nya na wala na si nanay ay sobrang wala syang pake at puro galit or hatred naririnig from him. Pero later on, who would have thought na mag aabot din sya ng malaking halaga ng pera para pandagdag at pumayag din na sa bahay nya iburol si nanay na nung umpisa ayaw na ayaw nya talaga. Sinabihan ko rin naman sya na kahit sa huling pagkakataon nalang, at alam kong pinagsasabihan rin si tatay ng mga kapatid nya na tanggapin, at magpatawad. Nung kadating ng remains ni nanay sa Negros, umiiyak sya at nung mass din, iyak ng iyak din si tatay.

She died due to heart attack at sobrang nakakabigla dahil ang lakas nya lang tingnan, at ang bata pa ng nanay ko. Dahil nga dead on arrival ang nanay, inexplain naman ni Doc nung pina autopsy namin kung bakit nangyari.

And now, I'm already coping and to move forward para na din sa mga kapatid ko. Mahirap pala talaga maging panganay but at the same time, this is such an honor.

[ziggyevenstar]

yesterday sinundo nya ko samin tapos hinatid sa workkk. we made plans to watch queen of tears after work sa kanila. kasundo nya saken sabi niya binilhan nya ko ng powerbank kase lagi akong empty hahaha. super naappreciate ko yon kase it’s an “i thought about you when i wasn’t with you” moment. anywayyy, his mom was going to be at home so before kami nagpunta don i bought food, kumain na din kami before umuwi sa kanila. so yon we watched na nga tapos kwentuhan with his mom. nasa sala lang naman kami. sobrang dami nakwento ng mama nya tawa lang kami ng tawa. feel ko din i did good, waw confident yarn haha. ang saya ko na nakakakwentuhan ko mama niya. tapos i felt super happy kase sabi ng mama niya punta daw ako ulit don celebrate daw namin yung birthday ko after ko macelebrate with family. minsan din daw kapg anjan yung papa nya grill kami sa labas ng bahay hahaha tita i love you na po. Natatawa ako kase isa lang naman daw standard ni tita, na yung someone for J ganito ganyan— tapos pasok ako don. Natawa ako kase si mama din nagppray na yung someone for me ganito ganyan tapos so far pasok si J. Nagjoin forces prayers nila mama😂 Tapos pala magkakilala sina mama niya pati mama daddy ko. so sabi ni tita at least daw they know i’m from a good family, mabait daw sina mama and daddy. I mean👀,,, pero yon I’ll take it hahaha. super bait ng mom nyaaaa

later kita kami ulit ni J para sa seven saturdays na seminar namin. ang peaceful talagaaaa. stressed nako sa lahat ng aspects ng lyf pero ang peaceful lahat kapag kasama ko sya☺️

*also yesterday lumabas ttpd, and he said let’s listen to the album sa car kasundo nya saken hehehehe

[akonaman]

di na talaga nawala yung sakit ng ulo ko today nakapag advil na nga ay ewan. papa check up na ko bukas para makapag pa reseta ng mas effecrive na gamot. grabe yung pagka tired ng ferson ah. today puro lang ako kalikot at linis ng kung ano ano sa kwarto bukas uli. Sobrang saya kase kapag naayos mo lahat kung di lang mainit ang panahon baka pati buong bahay naayos ko na.

nakausap ko na si om about sa team ko and sabi niya pwede naman daw i disburse na lang if wala pa ring mga pagbabago. Like i really did my best already todo na yun with full effort. I know na hindi sakin yung mali. sa kanila na yun.

Pero naghahanap pa rin ako ng work na kapalit. Ang prayer ko talaga kay Lord na kapag may nag email sakin and nakapasa ko sa interview ibig sabihin will nya talaga na umalis na ko sa current work ko.

So far wala pa rin. Huhu

[santmat]

A History of Vegetarianism and Veganism in the World Religions - Spiritual Awakening Radio Podcast

A rarely discussed amazing history of vegetarianism and even veganism in the great world religions and philosophies:

Akhenaten the "Heretic" Egyptian Pharaoh of the 18th Dynasty, who ruled for 17 years;

Hebrew Bible, First Book of Moses: Genesis;

Yoga Shastra, a sutra or scripture of Jainism;

Bhagavad Gita of Krishna;

Srimad Bhagavatam;

The Laws of Manu, a kind of "Hindu Torah" or Book of Laws;

Pythagoras and the Pythagoreans;

Porphyry, a 3rd century AD Neo-Platonist philosopher;

The Vegetarian Prayer of Thanksgiving in the Epilogue of Asclepius of the Corpus Hermeticum, and the same prayer again, as it also turns up in the Nag Hammadi Library of Egypt, the Gnostic Gospels;

Early Church “Heresy Hunters” that used to require meat-eating on Sundays as a way to discover who the veg Gnostics were in their midst;

Philo of Alexandria's description of veg meals at a Jewish Therapeutae monastic community in Alexandria perhaps related to the Essenes;

The Bahai Faith: Baha’u’llah, ‘Abdu’l-Baha, and Shoghi Effendi -- prophecies of a vegan future of humanity;

Vegetarianism in Islam: The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him), Rabia of Basra, Bawa Muhaiyaddeen and the Sufis;

John the Baptist, who ate locust bean (carob) flour, not locusts -- BEANS NOT BUGS;

And… blessed are the textual variants: the Mystery of the Missing Veg Saying of Jesus found in Luke 21: 34 of the Evangelion Da-Mepharreshe -- the Old Syriac-Aramaic manuscript of the New Testament Gospels but is no longer present in Greek manuscripts.

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[tarajabbari]

The first Bahá’í House of Worship on the African continent, completed in 1961, is in Kampala, Uganda and has become a well-known landmark. Bahá’í Houses of Worship are spiritual gathering places open to all peoples. It was far from easy to get here. I took a bus from Kenya to Uganda over night, with multiple delays and had to switch hotels three times. But I was able to make it and listen to prayers and choir and meet locals. The stories have been touching and at times funny. One story was the Ugandans were skeptical of the Temple and rumored it had ghosts. There are no ghosts, but it is a very spiritual and peaceful place to visit so please go if you can. #bahai #bahaitemple #bahaihouseofworship #Uganda #kampala #africa #solofemaletravel #solotravel #travel #sightsee #femaletraveler #travelblog #nofilter #nofilterneeded (at Bahá'í House of Worship - Uganda) https://www.instagram.com/p/Co4bSsVtZcg/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[radio-charlie]

Funny to think about how quite a few members of one side of my family are Bahais. You'd never think it, looking at these extremely Hokkien-Chinese people shout-talking in a restaurant. Never been anywhere near Iran before, probably. And yet this faith found its way to them all the way here.

I grew up reading and reciting Bahai prayers and reading stories about Bahaullah. But in my childish mind they were just fun and cool things to do, and the prayer book brought comfort whenever it was close by. That was it. Never really thought to wonder at how crazy it is that these things were in my life at all

[her-ayie]

this past weekend might be the busiest of the weekends i've ever been to their home. bukod sa preparation ng dedication ni jaehabong e sobrang ngarag ni wuv sa work. and i've seen her working many times, pero nung time na naghihintay kami sa samgyup ng table namin, she really looks so tired pero sure na di pa sya tutulog kasi dami niya pang pending sa work. that's one of the reasons i admire her. kasi talagang pinagpray niya yung work nya, and even to the extend na alam nyang bibigay yung katawan nya dahil sa pagod, trabaho pa rin ang iniisip nya. sobrang accountable and responsible. on the other hand, sa sobrang sipag, napapabayaan nya din health nya kung minsan and ayaw ko non. pag nagkasakit kasi 'to halos one week e. yun lang yung ayaw ko.

kaya tuwang tuwa ako nung tumawag si ninang sa kanya nung linggo para sermonan siya. sinabihan siya ni ninang na wag magpakabayani. hahaha! e kasi totoo naman, the more na she's trying to be productive e the more na hindi niya pinapahinga sarili niya. tapos grabe pa yung stress na dulot ng work nya kaya overall ang pagod nya. wala lang, natutuwa lang ako na she's living her answered prayer. yung magkaroon ng trabaho tapos nasa bahay lang. at the same, yung mga bosses nya sobrang bait.

Lord, sobrang sipag po nitong bata ko. possible naman po ang increase at Christmas bonus para sa kanya, di ba? sige na please. thank You.

[x-akari-xv]

KUMAIN KA NA BA?

Sana all, char. Siguro napapapaisip ka bakit 'yan title natin ngayon 'no. Hmmmm 🤔 whaahhaha gusto ko lang kasi tanungin beng kung kumain ka na ba kasi ako hindi pa eh, wala kasing taga eat well 😞 CHARING HAHAHAHAHA

Nakakawalang gana kaya minsan kumain kapag pagod ka (oh ako lang? Haha) kasi gusto mo nalang mag pahinga. Tapos hindi ka makakatulog kasi nga gustom ka so ending mag iisip ka, dahil nga tinatamad ka nalipasan ka na gutom and then boom hindi ka na okay, oh diba? 🤣🤣

Pero sa totoo lang may nakita kasi akong post sa ig sabi don "Physical health is deeply intertwined with spiritual heath and mental health"

Tapos bigla kong naalala si Prophet Elijah. Kilala niyo ba siya? Kung hindi, basahin niyo sa 1 Kings 17 & 19

At dahil nandito ka nalang rin, ikwento ko na diba? Si Elijah, prophet siya. And he denounced foreign cults and defeated 450 'prophets' of Baal (na diyos diyosan nila)

May contest kasi na dapat sasagot ang totoong Diyos sa pamamagitan ng pag apoy nang mga alay sa altar by doing praying.

Ayon na nga, pinauna ni Elijah ang mga tauhan ni Baal since madami sila. So ang ginagwa netong mga team Baal (🤣) kumanta kanta sila tapos sumayaw, nag sisisgaw na paapuyin ang alay nila pero inabot na sila ng ilang oras wala pa din.

So nung turn na ni Elijah, nakaready na lahat ganyan. Nag start na siya mag pray wholeheartedly at sumagot ang Panginoon sa prayer ni Elijah through firing up the altar.

Edi ayun na nga napatunayan na nila na totoo ang Panginoon at legit Prophet si Elijah. Ang ginawa nung mga tauhan ni Baal, nag sitakasan kaya sabi ni Elijah ipapatay silang lahat.

To cut the long story short. Sinabihan ni Elijah ang tauhan niya na sabihin kay Ahab na uulan na at mag punta na sila sa Jezreel. Tapos nung nandon na sila alam niyo ba guys si Jezebel (asawa ni Ahab) pinagbataan ang buhay ni Elijah. Sabi niya “Lubusan sana akong parusahan ng mga dios kung sa ganitong oras bukas ay hindi pa kita napapatay, tulad ng ginawa mo sa mga propeta.” (1 Hari 19:2 ASND )

Mga teh, partida prophet na si Elijah pero natakot pa rin siya. Kaya ang ginawa niya tumakas siya at iniwan ang mga tauhan niya at nag lakad nang napakalayo papunta sa Beershaba.

Syempre super pagod na niya umupo siya sa ilalim ng puno. Punong puno na siya ng emotions, kasi nga natatakot siya tapos wala pa siyang kain and for sure nauuhaw pa siya, kaya nag pray siya.

Nakakawarshock nga prayer niya eh. Prayer na sana bawiin na ng Panginoon ang buhay niya. AND ITO PLOT TWIST

After niya mag pray nakatulog siya. Tapos pag gising niya sabi niya "ay buhay pa rin ako?" CHARINGGG 🤣🤣 hindi 'yan yung nangyari ok hahahaha

Nung nagising na siya sabi nung Angel na nakakita sa kaniya "Bumangon ka at kumain dahil malayo pa ang iyong lalakbayin" tapos kumain nga si Elijah and then naging okay siya. (Basahin niyo nalang kasunod ng chapter 19 para hindi na ako mag kwento ems)

And that's it. Kaya ko tinatanong kung kumain ka na ba eh kasi baka mamaya gutom ka lang tapos gusto mo na agad mamatay (kabag lang 'yan beng)

Nkatulog ka na ba? Kasi baka mamaya tulog lang need mo para maging okay ka eh.

Dahil walang exception sa takot. Kahit na si Elijah na propeta ay nakaramdaman din. And that's okay. But don't dwell in it. Don't live in fear. Sabi nga nung Angel kay Elijah diba "malayo pa ang iyong lalakbayin"

And yes, malayo ka na at lalayo ka pa. God is on your side and He knows where to send you exactly in what you need.

Pero wait lang beng, hindi pa ako tapos. (Dami kwento kimdei 🤣) kasi nga beng mayroon ding miracle na ginawa si Jesus na related din sa story ni Elijah.

Sa Luke 8 naman 'to. Kung saan Jesus heals the death little girl. Siguro madami na nakakaalam ng kwento na 'to. Pero ito nga,

Si Jairus 'yung daddy nung bata. Since famous si Jesus dati (i mean hanggang ngayon naman lol) nag ask siya na puntahan 'yung bata sa bahay para pagalingin.

To cut the long story short, nabuhay nga 'yung bata tapos alam niyo ba sabi ni Jesus "give her something to eat"

Kaya tatanungin ulit kita, kumain ka na ba love? (Hahahahahahaha practice lang)

Dahil totoo na kapag hindi ka okay physical ay affected ang spiritual. Katulad ni Elijah na pagod physical at emotionally takot ay damay din ang kaniyang spiritual kaya gusto na niya mamatay.

Katulad nung bata na mahina physical (patay na nga eh) ay mahina rin spiritual.

At katulad mo na baka kulang sa tulog kaya tinatamad mag devotion o kaya naman kulang sa kain kasi malungkot at natatakot.

Tingnan niyo kung gaano kaaffected ang tatlo kapag ang isa hindi okay. And i tell you today

The Lord see's all your labors and fears.

And He's telling you na mag pahinga ka. Naiintinidhan ko beng na minsan talaga ay may mga pahinga na hindi na dadaan sa tulog at kain.

Pero one thing that is for sure, kapag lumapit ka sa Presence ni Lord nang ikaw, walang halong pag papanggap, marerealize mong may peace pa rin pala basta align ka sa Presence Niya kahit super hirap ng life.

Hmmm, how i wish i could hug everyone that's not okay today. Kung pwede lang sabay sabay tayo kumain eh why not. Eh kaso kumakain lang ako kapag nahihilo na sa gutom charot 🤣

And may points lang ako na gustong ibigay sa inyo ok

It's okay to take a nap -

iba pa rin kasi kapag may tulog kang kumpleto. May natural blush on hahaha joke. I mean, diba, iba feeling kapag may tulog ka hindi ka irritated tapos sobrang ganda ng tingin mo sa paligid mo kasi nga napahinga mo ang physical body mo.

Kumain ka -

I'm not forcing you to eat right now kung hindi mo talaga kaya. Pero don't forget to eat once you're good okay?

Kapag gutom tayo diba ang hirap tumawa kahit na sobrang funny naman talaga ang joke ng kaibigan mo?

And same goes to, hindi mo maiintindihan ang gustong sabihin sayo ni Lord kapag gutom ka spiritual. Do your devotional, talk to God, read your Bible and pray. Alam kong mahirap makabalik agad sa momentum pero beng, you don't have to understand everything. And that's okay (John 13:7) 🤍

Simpleng points lang 'yan pero sobrang halaga. Kasi kapag okay ka spiritual nag rereflect physical and emotional. And sa mga story na, naishare ko we can receive an assurance who God is and what more He can do to our life once we rest.

Today i pray that you will not feel guilty everytime you rest. Go treat yourself, have fun being alone, honor your small wins. But please acknowledge that God is always on your side

Tuloy ang buhay kahit mapait. Matulog tayo okay? 🤍

[ariesinwanderlvnd]

Thank you, 2022! Tara, 2023!

Life can sometimes seem so fast talaga and minsan it can be reaaaally slow. Di ako makapaniwala na tapos nanaman ang isang taon. I don’t have anything in mind to say kaya kung ano nalang maisulat ko ang ilalagay ko dito.

What I felt about 2022, naubos talaga ako. I’m the type of person na (I feel), always composed pero earlier palang ng 2022, naputol na ang tiyaga ko. Ayaw ko na sana maalala nangyare pero kasi ang path to peace is being okay what happened in the past. So ayun, binantaan papatayin ng sarili kong Nanay ang empleyado namin dahil sa wrong information na nakuha niya sa chismis. Imagine that? It excruciatingly painful yun para sakin. Of course that eventually led sa decision ng Papa ko na umalis nanaman na bahay. At ako eventually also decided to leave ng bahay. Umalis nako ng bahay noon kasi I felt kailangan ko na isave ang pangarap ko maging CPA. While I was in Baguio and stayed there for 4 months, nagreflect ako mabuti as to where I want to go and want to do. Completely lost na kasi ako talaga at that time. Akala ko makakapag review na ako mabuti pero kailangan ko narin harapin yung possibility na this could be really over for me sa journey ko sa pagiging CPA. Before 2022 ko pa naramdaman na parang I’m done already pero tinry ko parin iworkout. So nagdasal talaga ako na mabigyan ako ng direction and dream ulit. After continuous na prayer at reflection, I decided na mag abroad. Most of the year, eto yung inasikaso ko at ginawa ko talaga best ko para malakad mga papers ko. Asang-asa na rin ako makaalis by December sana kaso maaga ko rin nalaman na delayed ang alis dahil sa gipit na ang deadline ng school. I was kind of dismayed. Bakit ganun? Sobra nako nag suffer pero wala parin. Pero delay lang naman so there’s HOPE parin naman.

What also disappoints me yung how manipulative ang Papa. I thought he was very supportive para makapag abroad ako pero sinuportahan lang ako para sa kanyand devious plan para ‘mabuo’ ang family namin. Gets ko naman pero the more he force us to be united again, the more lang na nasisira. Nakakainis yung pa-victim type of attitude and all that. Disappointed talaga ako sa parents ko in general. Kahit na financially nila ako sinuportahan sa lahat hanggang sa pag aabroad ko, disappointed ako in a sense na after all these years na nag aaway sila, sakanila parin centered ang problema. What I mean is that, after all these years nga, ano pa ba ang importante, sino manalo sa conflict na ginawa nila or ang well-being ng family namin? Well, lo and behold, gusto parin nila manalo yung sarili nila sa conflict. Kaya I don’t believe we are way near of fixing this. Samahan mo pa ng pakialamera(ro) na kamag anak. I feel they destroyed my joy ko sa learning. So much pain talaga.

May mga time na bago ako matulog, napapaiyak nalang ako kasi ang gulo-gulo ng buhay ko. Sometimes I ask, will I still make sense of this? With all these being said, I acknowledge naman na I am not alone. Lahat ng tao nag struggle ngayon taon. Suffering per se is relative. Ang pinaka challenge talaga dito, how do you keep the faith in God? How do you still keep your values in tact amidst all the suffering? Kinakabahan din ako. Ayaw ko rin naman igive up mga values ko para lang makuha ko gusto ko. I guess, 2022 is still not my time. Not my chance. Not my biggest break. 2023? I’d like to believe na maybe eto na pero I also want to make a decision every single day to decide what’s best for me and let go of the things na kailangan at hindi naman importante.

Prayer

Lord, what a great year. I know, sounds sarcastic pero what constitutes a ‘great’ year po ba? Hindi naman po necessarily buong taon happy and successful diba? We could be great kasi we survived another year. And with that po Lord, thank you! I couldn’t say that or emphasize that enough. I don’t know what this year will bring but as long as we always have that faith, we’ll be okay. Lord, strengthen my faith pa po. Sometimes I do feel like I’m on the brink of giving up already. Grant us always your wisdom. May we live in peace and with all the humility. Amen.

[kanoooto]

Road to BM 🇦🇺

So saan tayo magsisimula? 🥹

It started with New Zealand (hihi! ok kinilig) I prayed and applied for a job in Wellington. It went well naman until sinabi ni Lord na not for me. I prayed and tried Planit both in NZ and AU pero syempre sinabi ni Lord na not for me. Honestly, I prayed and tried for a lot of stuff and i'm so confused back then pero yung direction was really NO, stay in PH and prepare.

Then pandemic happened 😷 (talagang stay-put) sabi ko kay Lord, di ko muna iisipin yung gusto ko kasi baka selfish desires yun pero talagang kasama sya sa prayer items ko since 2020. Unfair sa God's best kasi sya yung nawala sa prayer item (hahahaha!) pero again, I prayed and tried pero talagang NO yung response. I clearly know yung ibig sabihin nung NO and I continuously praise Him for that. Kaya naman I moved on and talagang all out ako sa work, sa ministry and family (aka being extra all the time!)

And then 2021 came, kasama sa personal P&F ko talaga yung "next steps" Sabi ko "Lord, i'm ready for the next challenge whatever it is" minsan talaga you need to be ready when you prayed something like this kasi talagang macha-challenge ka (hahaha!)

So yung first step talaga is saan? Ang selfish target ko talaga is NSW, ACT, QLD and VIC (minimal lang sa WA and TAS, no sa NT) kaya I researched skilled migration requirements muna. Isa isa akong nag cross out ng states depending sa need nila kasi pandemic pa din kaya nawala sa list ang TAS/ACT kasi low employability, sa QLD naman need ng proof of funds (haha!) and WA naman need ng job offer. So natira sa list VIC, NSW and SA. Sabi ko Lord, gusto ko sa NSW or VIC kasi andun majority ng connections ko 😭 I never considered SA talaga pero alam ko na may leading talaga si Lord for me to check it (ewan ko ba!) that's when I started watching Adelaide walking vlogs (hahaha!).

Anyway, sa lahat ng states for skilled migration, dalawa lang ang need English and Assessment (pfffft!!) So May 2021 nag english test tayo sa Makati ng naka faceshield and facemask (imagine the struggle) I got Proficient 🙌🏼 not the result that I prayed for pero I have peace knowing na natapos ko sya and alam ni Lord na I gave it my all. Now the exciting part, skills assessment 🫣 grabe yung requirements lalo na pandemic pero talagang test of patience. Imagine lodging ng May and getting the results ng July with appeals pa! (tsk tsk!) pero it still ended with a favorable result grabe ang galing ni Lord!

In the zone na ko nito actually kaso may ibang plans pa pala si Lord sa akin. I lodged my expression of interest ng July 2021 pero di pa sila open for offshore applicants so ang wait time ko guess what? 1 year 😅 I officially lodged it after a year pa talaga (imagine my english and assessments di nagamit for a year!!) Sabay sabay ko nilodge for NSW, SA and VIC ng August 2022. As usual, di ako pinapansin ng NSW and VIC kasi andaming high pointer pero I kept on praying and being extra sa work, sa bahay and sa ministry. Honestly, di na ko super eager sa journey na to kasi tanggap ko na talaga na baka di ito yung direction ni Lord sa akin (full surrender na din) then September 1, 2022 came (also my 14th sa work) I received a pre invite from SA HAHAHA! (sa state na hindi ko pa kinoconsider at all). Di ako mapakali but sabi ko kay Lord "let's do this!"

So I submitted my application tapos after a week may congratulations na agad! ⬇️

Yung crucial part was receiving an invitation from home affairs feeling ko nun there's no turning back na talaga kasi may visa fee na hahaha! 🫣 plus imagine having 60 days to accomplish everything? plus training for runs! halo halo yung emotions ko nito hahaha! But if you know me, of course...procrastination 😐 it took me 55 days to accomplish yung visa application (nag vietnam pa ko hahaha!) eto yung Lord "let's do this!" pero parang wait lang po please?

After submitting I have to do biometrics and medicals. Mas short ang deadline ng biometrics so I low-key went to Makati. 1000 pesos lang dala ko dito buti less than that amount yung fee 😅 reality also hit me here na andaming pinoy na gusto mag abroad.

I scheduled my medicals after a week sa St Lukes BGC and guess what? hahaha! I'm flu-ish that day 🤒 kabado ako kasi mahigpit sa x-ray ang Australia - sabi ko Lord talaga namang of all the days haha! But kidding aside, it went through smoothly naman bukod sa mahal na food sa loob ng hospital haha!

then, THE WAITING GAME BEGINS... Ang nasa isip ko lang nito - may work ako, may ministry, I need to be present sa family (always!) and run trainings. Yung waiting ko became as normal as it can get kasi pinrep na ko ni Lord sa waiting.

February 22, 2023, lunch time - I randomly checked my personal email before mag lunch. I noticed na it's from home affairs pero ang subject may "ceased" and syempre as a kamote without reading the whole email nag assume na ko na di approved sabi ko talaga "Lord, di approved pero thank you kasi kasama kita sa journey na to sayang lang yung visa fee pang-car na yun eh hahaha!" then I took lunch.

Si kamote nanood ng showtime, nag lunch and then nag resume sa work. Ready na ko basahin ng buo yung email kasi para may closure then I noticed may isa pang email tapos may attachment 🥹

Yung puso ko nito daig yung nag half marathon kasi either granted or refused yung result. Sabi ko "Lord, this is it!"

DUDE andun pa lang ako sa we have granted sumigaw na ako! I called peeps agad, family - di na ko nakapag work hahaha! Nag shutdown na ako then natulala ako sabi ko "Lord, thank you pero ano gagawin ko now?" di pala ako nag ready sa road to goodbyes 😭