#bc coding is my productive hobby

[draconicsplendor]

I love you indie web I love you Neocities I love you hobby sites held together with duct tape I love you passion I love you whimsy I love you joy

And I am killing SEO with hammers. It’s for the greater good >:3

[mimiiiiiiiiisstuff]

Hi! I'm new to your account, but just binged your "I bet on losing dogs" storyline, and I had a question and concept for you? How much is the reader free to interpret? I'm a theater kid, so I like her hobbies. But is there any specific physical traits you're writing for her? I know you mentioned that we were/are chubby, which is cool, but do you imagine any certain features? Because I'm Mexican American with certain features, so I was curious if you had a certain ethnicity set for her besides being half White/Jewish from Bruce being her biological father.

I also had the same question about Tiffany, because I'm currently imagining the Stereotypical All American girl. Kinda got that Disney Channel actress vibe to her. (Physically). I also had this really messed up though of the reader having to spend YEARS trying to keep in touch her mother's culture and such, learning dishes, traditions, going to local festivals by herself, having to learn how to do makeup and hair styles/products that fit her face and hair pattern. No one bothered to help or teach her. But than, suddenly Tiffany starts to steal those "habits", uncaring if they were very personal to the reader. Than everyone in the family suddenly starts to like the Reader's culture and such. (I had this scene in my brain where the Reader walks in on Tiffany is bragging about some music or dish "she" tried out from the Reader's culture, while the family are all happy and curious about it. Even when the Reader tried to introduce it to the family, everyone declined even trying it.)

I see the Reader so "Your Best American Girl" coded by Mitski.

Anyway I just wanted to ramble, bye!

ok so, I'm trying to be as vague as possible bc reader is supposed to be whoever is reading so there's no in depth description or specific height or build (except chubby in the prologue). i feel like i've basically made reader an OC which i hate but personally when I'm reading a fic, I just ignore things if I don't like them or they don't apply to me which is what i suggest yall do!!

the reader's mother is Palestinian/ Venezualan, like my own mom but you can change it if you'd like. it's important to mention that reader does have Bruce's jaw structure and face shape and shares facial features with Damian as well. It's small things like the ears, the roman nose, even the eye shape, point is that every time reader looks in the mirror she can see shadows of Bruce and Damian on her face. it's kinda like the vibe of "like him" by tyler the creator. I'm middle eastern and hispanic so I imagine reader with darker feautures like tan skin, thick brown hair, arched brows and long lashes but it's all up to you!

reader is very confused because while her dad is white, she isn't. she did try to bond with Damian and learn Arabic with him but he shamed her for not knowing and kicked her out his room, literally. she used to be embarrassed of her heritage when she was younger (courtsey of Tiffany calling her a mutt) but as she got older she realized how interesting her culture is.

she wants to learn arabic but has no teachers and it's a pretty hard language to learn if you don't grow up speaking it .she has no sources to help her and most of the time culture and traditions are things you grow up with and are passed down to you from family. her mom used to speak to her in arabic and feed her dates and sandwiches with olive oil and sugar and make her fried plantians so those things are very special to her, they're some of the only details she remembers about her late mother. so yeah reader is very "Your best american girl coded"

You're so on point about Tiffany, she's your classic all American girl. Blonde hair, blue eyes, long tanned legs and a set of pearly whites. she's the kind of white girl to act like she cares about other races but is secretly racist. you know what girls im talking about! and that prompt you sent with the food eats so hard, I have a scene mapped out with that in the upcoming chapters. I rambled too girl!!! you really got me thinking tbh but let me stop and actually write the next chapter.

[wyllzel]

get to know your tumblr mutuals tag!

i was tagged by @nfly5, thank you laura!! :))

1. what's the origin of your username?

i think wyll ravengard of bg3 fame and lae'zel also of bg3 fame should kiss and fall in love and ride dragons into the sunset (or, rather, the astral plane) together :)

2. otps + shipname

wyllzel 🥰 and vivwall (vivienne x blackwall dai) at the moment for sure!

i'm trying to think of more, but honestly i'm p easygoing when it comes to ships haha i'll take a peek at almost anything that seems compelling 🫣

3. song stuck in my head

"purple lace bra" by tate mcrae for uhhh no reason 🤫 and "feel it" by d4vd for also no reason LOL (🎶 you told me once that i was crazy i said babygirl i knooooowww but i can't let you gooo (away!) 🎶)

4. weirdest trait/habit

i have a growing aversion to cold drinks lol it's starting to feel odd drinking something that isn't hot... that's not that weird though, i think i'm just becoming a grandma LOL

5. hobbies

photoshop!! i like making gifs and edits and such :) i've also been writing a lot more recently which is crazy, i haven't felt this inspired or productive in forever :'D thank you DA lol 🩷

i am also v much a webtoon enjoyer (my all-time fave is "trash belongs in the trash can!" but i'm currently v invested in "nevermore," "i'm the queen in this life," "sisters at war," and "momfluencer"!), but i'll read manga (tatsuki fujimoto my GOAT) and comics (invincible also my GOAT)

6. if you work, what's your profession?

i write internal software documentation which means it's architectural, high-level design stuff... not so much code-specific, but the reasoning behind why software components are organized the way they are. it's not very fun, mostly mind-melting... i work closely w engineers and it's kind of a toss-up whether they'll be nice/patient or think i'm stupid lol

but my brain now contains so many company secrets :^) if you ever have any questions about data storage/virtualization i can possibly help lol

7. if you could have any job you wish, what would you have?

funny story—i applied for grad school, and i've been accepted to an english m.a. program that starts this fall!!! 🥹 we'll see where i go w that, but i'll likely enter education!

8. something you're good at?

uhh i suppose BG3 LOL i beat honor mode twice! 🎉 (i'm still trying to figure out how DA works 🤔 DA2 hard mode is chill idk if i'd ever do nightmare tho 😬)

9. something you hate?

ok it's not rly a "hate" thing but it does irk me when i see fandom claims/arguments that don't cite specific quotes/screenshots/instances lol (the english major in me activates and i am consumed by the thought "🚨‼️ where do you see this in the text 👁️👁️🫵" LOL)

10. something you forget?

the grief 😂🖐️ it creeps up on me! almost cried in my cubicle multiple times this week. haha.

11. your love language?

receiving is probably words of affirmation? giving is probably gifts, i like making silly things for my bestie (eg. fenris keychain lol) and finding weird stickers for my brother 🤡

12. favorite movies/shows?

my letterboxd top 4 are:

everything everywhere all at once (2022) (saw it twice in theaters and sobbed thru both times)

nope (2022) (BRILLIANT movie, so smart)

challengers (2024) (so fascinating!)

lust, caution (2007) (i need to rewatch this one expeditiously)

as for shows, i love succession (2018-23), invincible (2021-), and the twilight zone (1959-64)!

13. what were you like as a child?

apparently very friendly, outgoing, and extroverted! i would just run up to my fellow kids and yap at them?! i do nooot do that anymore lol

14. favorite subject in school?

english/literature!!

15. least favorite subject?

oh man, i was so bad at science, especially biology/chemistry... i could scrape by in physics bc i was decent at math, but it was still awful...

16. what's your best/worst character trait?

worst...??? according to my last annual review, i need to be more confident in the workplace LOL 💀 + sometimes i let my anxiety get the better of me... i think that's just a lifelong struggle thing though, but i know i can improve to be a better friend and such 💪

best... multiple reviews from mom-aged women say that i am a "nice" and "sweet" person so hopefully at least that means i can leave a good first impression haha

17. if you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be?

i'm not a huge fan of what-if-ing personally, but i do wish i were on vacation 😆

18. if you could travel in time, who would you like to meet?

i'm currently very curious about my paternal grandparents... it's hard for me to conceptualize why they got married... and how my dad grew up... i guess i would want to witness some of that??

tagging: hello again haha!! @creaking-skull @andrewknightley @coolseabird @genderdotcom @bladeweave @grey-wardens @maironsbigboobs no pressure again :))

[redrandomposts]

hi it's me 🌦️ again uwu

i have several thoughts to offer and theyre all about r7 ivan vs luka >:DDD

first would be an alt song choice for the round. i was going through my old kpop playlist and exo's MAMA came on and i had an idea. as two of the most popular pets of the season, production would want to make as much of a spectacle out of it as possible esp since theyll be losing one of them anyways. exo's MAMA has that crowd chorus parts (idk what theyre formally called my bad) that would let the audience join in in certain parts like in blink gone. it also has that air of a hard hitting finale, all those booms and powerful vocals that are fitting for the final top 2. the lyrics about humans losing their humanity cld be mocking the apparent "lack" of humanity in ivan and luka (one considers himself 'monstrous' and the other is more segyein than human bc of how hes socialized). MAMA in the song translates to "your majesty", which is a callback to luka's "ruler of my heart", a subtle foreshadowing that the winner will always be luka no matter what.

ok now that thats outta the way, lets go back to the present >:3

HARD AGREE ON UNSHA'S WIFE TAKING IVAN TO DIFF PLANETS !!

also i had this hc where ivan develops a hobby of mapping the skies/stars ? like rapunzel in tangled owo he sends star maps from diff planets to hyuna with coded messages and not-so-subtle questions of "how is till" "how is mizi" etc lmao

hyuna : you know we could break you out and you can see for yourself

ivan : but then who would be your very important off-world scout ?

hyuna : this mf ...

though i believe at some point they will end up on the same planet together and the rebels accidentally catch a glimpse of ivan with unsha's wife ? but they wont know it's ivan immediately, theyd just have a very strong feeling of "that guy looks familiar"

hi 🌦️!

i took a listen to the song and i love it!! 100% agree!

ivan mapping stars and skies but having to simplify and do it twice (one with labels on all the stars (ex. kdj-1864), diagrams, etc, and another without all that nonsense)...

unsha's wife dressing ivan up in cute clothes!! she buys dresses, suits, maid outfits—whatever she thinks will be cute on ivan! and she takes ivan out in these costumes... and the rebellion sees them and are like "what a pampered human he disgusts me why is he sucking up to aliens does he even know what they do wrong."

meanwhile ivan sees them and tries to see if till thinks he looks cute/cool/handsome etc

and unsha's wife wants to show ivan off (aw look at my lil pet, he made the final round in alnst!), but its a breach of contract so she has ivan practice all sorts of things waiting for the day for the contract to expire..

which happens in two years. unsha's wife makes ivan become an inter-galactical idol, and the rebellion sees and till is like, "ivan needs to be saved!"

..anyways the rebel hideout becomes an ivan fanclub. i dont make the rules. official merch (all stolen, btw) is strung up on the walls and on altars. isaac and dewey are like, whats the deal with him, and hyuna reveals that he's their mysterious mapper (who she recognized when ivan's stage name, navi, is revealed).

till: whaaattt? *falls in love even harder*

its time to write this!! (...not me, though)

[schemelin]

I saw your last mention of btc and I kind of want to know your thoughts on that a little more - I have friends where we talk about this type of stuff that bothers us all the time and it helps us work through it. I get if you don’t want to reply to this because it’s not a private space and just want to think about it, or if you want to use this as a chance to air some things to your audience, but I still hope you consider this:

Do you feel anxious about the popularity? Is it because there will inevitably be people that will hate on it? Is it because there will suddenly be more and more pressure on yourself from outside sources, and then you’ll start to pressure yourself more too?

What makes you really want to share these stories? Is btc more of something that you only had passion for years ago, but now you feel obligated to continue because you didn’t finish it back then and it has an expectant following now? Do you worry about fusionsprint getting popular because you don’t want that to happen to it too? Do you only want fusionsprimt to be like a little side-craft for yourself where you can mess with it whenever you’re up to it, instead of standing on stage and having an audience of people stare and wait to see the finished product?

Are there other circumstances that make you almost want to avoid btc? Was there something you’ve done in the past that’s bothering you about it (bc I’ve seen you mention before that there were things you regret but obv I’m not you so I don’t know for certain), and do you think there’s a way for you to acknowledge that and be able to move on in a healthy manner - either to continue btc or come to grips with leaving it? If what you’re making is suddenly a chore, you’re going to start disliking it, you’re not going to do your best, and you’re going to question every step you take. Is taking off time going to help you be able to return to btc later, or is there a deeper issue?

From experience, don’t set expectations for yourself because people are hounding you and you’re forced to say something. These projects are something you’re doing in your free time. Don’t make it your work time.

~ ✏️ anon ~

Hello! Pardon for any misspellings. I haven't slept very well lately.

Press "Keep reading" for full answer.

Yes, I do feel anxious about popularity, but for different reasons other than fear of criticism and external/self-induced pressure. Those have always been an issue for me and will remain as such for as long as I share my art with people. Now as an adult, I have learned how to deal with these feelings better than I used to. They're not as paralysing to me. I'm less inclined to make my work appealing to the audience, and I hope to one day let go of it entirely. It's far more relaxing that way.

Maybe the word anxious isn't enough to describe it. I simply don't like the idea of my work being on trending, regardless of its quality. That Glamrock Ballora design from 2022 showed me first-hand how fast things can escalate, and also how I'm not fit to be a content creator. Art is my hobby and I want to keep it that way. I want to make art, stay in my own little bubble, and keep interactions with the community very limited. Because of that, finishing Behind The Codes is less of an obligation, and more of something I can work on at my own pace — even if that takes years and everyone's moved on from it. I no longer feel like avoiding it. It's also easier to let go if I ever have to.

My relationship with art projects changed in general. There's this tendency to jump from one project to another, instead of completing one at a time (which presumably would be the ideal). That's why those stay on hiatus until that peak of creativity and passion returns and I'm able to enjoy working on it again. I got into FNAF twice, who's to say it won't happen again some time in the future? Same thing for Fusionsprunt.

As for things that I regret about Behind The Codes: Yes, there are a few. Mostly things I handled immaturely. I think these can be fixed, better expect major changes. Doesn't mean the finished product will be flawless though.

I can't always tell what's the point in sharing stories, but it's enjoyable. So I keep doing it.

[emersonfreepress]

I just played your game, AND OH MY LORD'S ITS SO GOOD??? ITS LITERALLY ONE OF MY FAVOURITES NOW??? I love your descriptions so much, I don't know whether it sounds weird or not but they feel real. I was able to picture the scenes in my head with ease, which is wow bc its rare lolol AND THE MC CUSTOMISATION!!!! I love it smm the fact you can customise your uniform throughoutly, your responses to stress(?? The thingies in ep3), HOBBIES, fears is saaaujemrkfkrkfkkfk i love itt

DONT GET ME STARTED ON CHARACTERS OH MY LORDFDUAAAHENNFKVKTMFMFKKDFM I LOVE GABE AND KILE SO MUCH YPU HAVE NO IDEA TEHYRE SO INTERESTING AND IM SOSOSOSO CURIOUS ABOUT YHEM, THEIR STORY😭😭😭

I hope you're doing wonderful, THANK YOUUU for gracing us with the if🤍🤍

thank you so much for this lovely comment!! <333 I'm so glad you're enjoying it! I hope to put something out super soon! Writing's been productive again :] It seriously makes me happy that people enjoy the customization 😆 I questioned myself every day putting it together but it came down to what I wanted to play in my own game. I'm glad others like it too it was such a pain in the ass to code lmao

[neurodivergantizzetwitch]

intro post :3

hiii! im violet: a stereotypical AuDHD trans girl-- my life isnt... going well rn, but tumblr makes it a bit more bearable and every little bit helps.

im a trans fem, more specifically i like the term demigirl- which feels like it fits me. im also ace(ish), by which i mean im ace but pretty sex favorable- just don't experience sexual attraction. im also very gay and probably somewhere on the aro spectrum.

oh yeah and my brain is funky. im a peer reviewed (and officially dxed, but im an advocate of self diagnosis) AuDHDer- which informs basically everything i do. i also have a bunch of the mental illness stuff, and have struggled w it a lot. idrk or care what the exact diagnosis is, spend enough time around insane ppl and you learn a lot of the specific labels are pretty arbitrary and a lot of symptoms are shared- i just describe myself as fucked in the head or legitimately insane

also im never consistent w tags- sorry. maybe one day ill try to be but uh... yeah not today. i do tag for potentially triggering content tho- and try my best to be consistent w it, so if you're sensitive to the following and want to follow me for some weird reason id reccomend blocking them:

#cw sex mention, #cw: substance abuse, #cw: abuse #cw: child abuse, #cw: gore, #cw: sh, #cw: si, #cw: disordered eating, #cw: bigotry, #cw: disturbing content,

id also say in accordance w the previous thing i sometimes say things about my life that are "dark" in a way that can cross a line, i don't mean to do this- and i want to respect everyone's boundaries- but accidentally sharing super dark shit is smth i struggle w.

im a committed anarchist, and i will unabashedly post in accordance w those views. i haven't been able to help people as much as id like to bc of the whole being a minor in a fucked up situation with no money energy or time thing, but im trying to do more. If anyone reading this has suggestions- lmk.

i also like a lot of shit. like A LOT of shit- and i get REALLY obsessed w it too, so it is not out of character for me to start posting a bunch about smth i had not known existed until i got obsessed (as mentioned, AuDHDer). what ill post about is just kinda based on what im feeling that day and my interests, but heres some of my favorite things that im enamored w in no particular order:

games:

mtg

minecraft

hermitcraft (which yes is minecraft and no isnt a game but shut up)

hollow knight / skilkskong 🤡

celeste

bg3

metroid

nitw

botw

hades

books

cosmere

the locked tomb

percy jackson

the sandman

six of crows

the hunger games

babel

lotr

everything by ursula k le guin

spec fic, especially non-traditional spec-fic

shows/movies

spiderman across the spiderverse

made in abyss

hazbin hotel

hunter x hunter

the owl house

Pan's Labyrinth (& other Guillermo movies)

i saw the tv glow (my fave)

miyazaki movies

wes anderson movies

animated movies & shows

cinematic/classic movies (not neccessarily old just like the literary fiction genre of movies)

weird/offbeat movies and shows

music

coheed and cambria

mcr

jhariah

girl in red

will wood

pinkshift

jack off jill

paramore

mother mother

the cure

chloe moriando

bauhaus

cardiacs

dead kennedys

femtanyl

lena raine

siouxsie & the banshees

STOMACH BOOK

100 gecs

milk in the microwave

mitski

penelope scott

sungazer

45 grave

other interests/hobbies n shit

drawing

d&d

writing

painting

guitar

bass

drums

singing

music production

game design

coding

animation

character design

video production

poetry

theater (yes im a fucking theater kid did you even have to ask that)

musicals

even though im solidly gen z, i havent really grown up on the internet the same way. some weird combination of my parents' disapproval of it, social anxiety, autism, and not being allowed to use it for years means that ive had this fear of posting stuff on the internet. for so many people like me the internet has been a place to escape and be themself, to me it's more often than not just a reflection of a reality that seems just as scary and ostracizing.

the thing is... i dont have a lot of friends. i dont have a large community really. and i think though there are some ways in which my aversion to social interactions including those on the internet has been helpful, there are other ways it's really isolated me- both from my peers and a broader community of people.

so im trying to put myself out there a little more. this stupidly long intro post is i think just a way for me to commit to that for myself. ive been so scared of doing it all my life, right now i think i just need some sort of outlet to be myself. who knows? maybe i'll even meet some new friends.

[spiritfairer9925]

Hey everyone!!! Im revamping all of my lair and lore and using some amazing templates for my bios to make the whole process smoother, im sick rn so i have time to do this. I keep reminding myself its a hobby and its ok to sit down and just enjoy something.

Besides, it feels productive :) and it's helping me write more. Look!

Template code courtesy of

Im also super glad i picked up so much coding bc now i can edit it and just have fun.

[taintedcigs]

1989 tv review, vault track rankings, my ratings and overall thoughts:

Welcome to New York — okay i honestly can’t believe I hold myself off and started w this. always thought this was a great opener and HONESTLY sounds really close w the og. I LOVE the production, not my fav song on the album though lol, 8/10

Blank Space — THIS SOUNDS SO CRISP OH MY GOD. there's something different from the og BUT I LOVE IT. 9/10

Style — THIS ALSO SOUNDS SO CRISP TOO. god i love the maturity in her voice SO GODDAMN MUCH. always will be one of my favs on this album. YOU GOT THAT!! JAMES DEAN!! DAYDREAM!! LOOK IN YOUR EYE!! just perfect. 9/10

Out of the Woods — the intro is a bit disappointing but this is one of my fav songs on this album SO I WILL LET IT SLIDE!! "OH I REMEMBER" is scratched into my brain FOREVER. 9/10

All You Had To Do Was Stay — THIS ONE SURPRISED ME SO BAD. I KNOW THIS SONG IS UNDERRATED BUT MY GOD THIS ONE IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN OG 10/10.

Shake it Off — serotonin. just makes me so goddamnn happy, THE UPDATED LAUGH IS SOO CUTE I LUV HER. so much better than og, like i swear im a shake it off fan despite not caring that much before LMAO.

I Wish You Would — OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. I TAKE BACK EVERYTHING I WILL SAY ABOUT JACK ANTONOFF AND THE PRODUCTION AT THE END (sorry). THIS IS SO GOOD. STOLEN VERSION DOES NOT EXIST, THATS HOW GOOD IT IS. 9.5/10

Bad Blood — the intro to this SONG is so different. KINDA Neutral about it but the whole song sounds very different !!1 8/10

Wildest Dreams — honestly i skipped bc ive been listening to this one for months anyway IM SORRY. but still 10/10 ofc !!!

How You Get The Girl — ALWAYS ONE OF M Y FAV SONGS. POP PERFECTION. just so FUCKING GOOD AND TV IS PERFECT. GOD TAYLOORRR ILY FOR THIS ONE. (also im thinking a steve fic for this? sorry i have to mesh my two hobbies together im insane) 10/10

This Love — also SKIPPED IM SORRYYY SUCH A GOOD SONG AND IVE BEEN LISTENING TO IT FOR MONTHS ALREADYY !!!

I Know Places — OH MY GOD SO PERFECT THIS IS MY TOP 3 ON 1989 AND... IM IN AWE... the GROWL (lmao) in and we run is PERFECTTT. god so good 10/10

Clean — 10/10. no words. im actually kind of sobbing. just makes me SO sad but relax. such a bittersweet song and i still think about the secret message for this song. "She lost him but she found herself and somehow that was everything." forever engraved in my BRAIN.

Wonderland — WONDERLAND TV AFTER CLEAN HITS SO WELL ALSO ONE OF MY FAAVOOORIES. "didn't you flash your GREEN eyes at me?" GEEEENNIUUUS! the OOOHHH hit so well. guys i just... so good. 10/10

You Are In Love — guys HOENSTLY SO GOOD. but im gonna keep this one short even tho this is also one of my favs img etting so impatient for vault tracks. 10/10 masterpiece im not kidding.

New Romantics — BABY WE'RE THE NEW ROMANTICS. COME ON, COME ALONG WITH MEEE. HEARTBREAK IS THE NATIONAL ANTHEM, WE SING IT PROUDLYYY. another pop perfection. the production sounds so good in these deluxe songs omfg. 10/10 GUYS IM SO IMPATIEN T BYE IM GONNA LISTEN TO SLUT! OH MYG DO

Slut! — "if they call me a slut you know it might be worth it for once" OH MY GDO??? I THOUGHT THIS WAS GONNA BE ABOUT SLUT-SHAMING BUT BLONDIE JUST WENT THERE AND MADE IT A LOVE SONG LMAOO I LOVE HER 9/10

Say Don't Go — im sobbing, ugly crying. and screaming. say "don't go", i would stay forever if you say, "don't go" OH MY GOD IM IN TEARS 10/10

Now That We Don't Talk — "I cannot bе your friend, so I pay the price of what I lost. And what it cost, now that we don't talk" OH MY GOD??? even tho its so SHORT IT HITS SO GOOD HELP ME." And the only way back to my dignity Was to turn into a shrouded mystery" JUST FDUCKING CRAZYYY?? 9/10

Suburband Legends — OKAY THIS IS SO MIDNIGHTS CODED OMFG? the production sounds so mUCH like mastermind and i love that song. "And you kiss me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever" she just gets me!!! 9/10

Is It Over Now? — "Oh, Lord, I think about jumpin' Off of very tall somethings" OH MY FUCKING GOD???? shes so bella swan coded. IM CRYING SHES SO RELATABLE AND I THINK THIS ONE IS MY FAVORITE OH MY GOD. 10/10

IM STILL TRYING TO PROCESS IT WHAT THE FUCK BUT OKAY MY RANKING FOR THE VAULTS:

Is It Over Now? OH MY GOD. SHE WAS SO CRAZY FOR THIS. THE LYRICS?? I HAVE TO LISTEN 2-3 MORE TIMES TO FULLY PROCESS IT. WHAT THE FUCK SO FUCKING GOOD.

Say Don't Go. ALSO?? IM SOBBING?? SO FUCKING GOOOD??

Suburban Legends. I LOVE THIS ONE SM SO MIDNIGHTS CODED.

Slut! ALSO REALLY GOOD. NOT WHAT I EXPECTED AT ALL. A LOVE SONG?? TAYLOR SWIFT YOU ARE A CRAZY GENIUS.

5. Now That We Don't Talk. I LIKED THIS ONE AS WELL. JUST NOT AS MUCH AS THE OTHERS.

OVERALL; I think this is BY FAR my favorite re-recording. I love all of them with my entire heart but THIS ONE IS JUST SO SPECIAL AND IMM SOOO HAPPY TAYLOR FINALLY OWNS IT. JUST A MASTERPIECE. my only ONLY problem is some of the production in some of the songs. i loved the changes. and I LOVE what she did. and I LOVE JACK ANTONOFF FOR GIVING US AMAZING SONGS. but the production sounds a bit off in these songs :(( i think max martin and shellback should've also produced more of them. BUT LIKE I SAID. it has a new vibe and I LOVE IT. (i still think we shouldn't JUST have him on other projects but that is another topic) anyway 10/10 IM STILL SHAKING.

[obsolete-stars-if]

progress update

1st feb 2024

like i wanted to do this year on every 1st of each month, we have a general progress update, what ive been up to, general stats, plans for the upcoming month, how the last month treated me and how i treated this game. lots of personal detail will happen.

january has been the least productive month yet, im trying to not let it get to me, i had to take lots of breaks, my bed literally broke down on me on the 1st and it took over 2 weeks to get the new bed to me. sleeping on the ground made writing so impossible bcs i got chronic pain flair ups, migraines as well as hip pain. it was agony. i did however cleaned my room and got a new bed and this change of paste was really welcome. now that i finally have an actual desk to write on again, I can look outside my window and watch the squirrels while i write, so beautiful. that does mean i didnt finish chapter 7 which is a bummer, but im trying to stay positive. i did publish part 2 in a more rough than usual state, just bcs i needed it out, i wouldve lost my mind if i didnt update it. I allowed myself to take a break from OS since the last update, bcs even if i didnt actively wrote most of jan, i still thought about OS and beat myself up for not writing. And i had some time to work on other things that I plan for the future, others stories i wanna tell some day (im not starting a new wip bcs i will literally never finish anything if i do), and also just, reading and drawing without thinking about OS too much. It were only a few days, but it was a much needed break, bcs since OS went officially online last May, there wasnt really a day where i didnt think about OS.

stats from Jan: I wrote a total of 8.477 words over the 8 days that i worked on this. That doesnt sound much, but its still about 1k words each day. obv the 8,5k words arent the 20k I set out to do in the beginning of January, but im just happy i did something.

The game is now over 70k words long (including code, i wrote that shit imma count it), i know its not as much as other ppls wips, but damn, it feels crazy to me, knowing i sat down, laptop on my lap (in my bed primarily) and just wrote that much in less than a year.

Plans for feb: for the love of god i need to get chapter 7 done. i also set the goal to 10k, since there are less days in february and i know that i might not get the time to write as i will be job hunting, yay. the goal will be adjusted in march depending on if and what job i get maybe. in general im pretty scared of february and march, bcs i will lose the financial aid and im not sure yet how the fuck will i finance myself, since moving back with my mom is a no. and i refuse to open a kofi or patreon. im very against earning money from my hobby and i hope i dont have to resort to it ever. (personal opinion)

Anyway, thanks for listening and lets hope that february will be a good month, ey

[naniwagusto]

ALIAS. i don't like giving out a name on the internet for now except in specific cases AGE. i don't want my age public anymore, but im closing on my 30s in a few ZODIAC. the fish one but i don't believe in any of that unless im using it for fictional characters cuz then i might be able to work it into some story themes (very ironic bc Nozomi Tojo is one of my favs and i loved RPing her) HEIGHT. i don't know if it's 5'6 or 5'7 anymore nobody can seem to agree plus my spine isn't all straight so who knows but somewhere there HOBBIES. tbh i got nothing going on rn (im not gonna publicly disclose it but i am waiting on something BIG, like move to Europe and turn into Lili BIG) so idk if i can call anything 'Hobbies' anymore because 'Hobbies' implies a degree of separation from work you normally do, at this point this shit is 'Activities' that keep me sane: Video Games, Music collecting, physical media collection, electronics & electronics repair, motorcycles, bicycles, cooking, reading (but it's been a struggle to go back to lol), museums, graphic design, photography, videography (game footage + post production programs), language studies, a little bit of html & css coding but that one is hard, learning about film making- other things i would do but i need money to actually go for them and buy the equipment like fishing, metalwork, silversmithing, pottery etc. i developed some health problems over the years that made me have to limit this list as it is right now- i would love to draw but i have to get over my impatience

FAVOURITE COLOUR. Blue FAVOURITE BOOKS. The Call of the Wild, anything Shirley Jackson, Ursula Leguin, A Canticle for Leibowitz, Catch-22, Black Beauty, the Stormlight Archive up to book 3 from book 4 on it's been a struggle bc the prose changed imo and book 2 is the best one + Edgedancer, liked Kingkiller Chronicles but im pretty sure it's never being finished, and some of what I got through for Wheel of Time up to book 4 too (im just dragging my feet it's not that the books suck outright but there is some dated shit in there), The Hobbit (i'm reading LOTR too or i tried but it meanders too much for me imo, it's good and i get why it's meandering but god it could have used SOME trimming bc it stops feeling on theme- read later), Gary Paulsen's Hatchet, i loved The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe as a kid but the C.S. Lewis christian propaganda went right over my head lmao, Neverending Story (not the film), Stone Butch Blues, Yusuke Kishi's 新世界より (i have the orig bunkobon but you can only find the novel in ENG online) Koshun Takami's Battle Royale (i own the JP orig and the ENG edition, movie ver sucks movie ver sucks idc), The Canterbury Tales etc etc too many books, but i think the Scythe series is an interesting modern YA too, when I was in middle school i put myself through The Tale of Genji and i think im still trying to really understand it years later idk how much i Like it but it did Impress on me, my fav Shakespeare so far is Othello, one of my fav short stories is Chapter Six LAST SONG. Ashanti - Foolish LAST MOVIE. Er ist wieder da (Look Who's Back) - the jokes are fucking NON STOP w this one then you get deeper into it then to the end and it gets Real and Real and Real and it becomes terrifying LAST SHOW. The Sopranos RECENT READ. Beyond Good and Evil by Friedrich Nietzsche (still reading)

tagged: @bravesung / @viennrose stole from you to expose my mental illness <3

tagging: steal my mental illness

[linophrynelight]

When I show people my bullet journal their primary emotion seems to be... Fear? Everyone knows I'm a weird little control freak but they don't realize how bad it is until I whip out the bujo. Like yes I do color code every hour of my life and I can tell you exactly how many hours of cardio I did this year and how many times I checked my tire pressure or used retinol

I definitely take it too far sometimes and burn myself out trying to be ~productive~ enough. I've been trying to figure out how to consciously make room for more fun in my life, which is tricky bc I need clear goals and solid deadlines or it'll never happen (example 1: this "art blog" I never post any original art to), but I don't want to take it too far and turn my hobbies into more chores...

I'm thinking for 2025 I'll add "artworks made" to my tracker page? And maybe I'll schedule some time to visit art museums -- specific exhibits so there's a set external deadline. Just casually slipping art stuff into my to-do list and calendar so that I'll think about it every week and eventually make space for it. The planning equivalent of putting the recycling in front of my door so I physically cannot forget to take it out lol. Let's see if it works

[akireu-13]

i really like this video on the b4rbie movie. i did like the movie, to clarify. i thought it was fun, i thought some of the feminist stuff was really good. spoilers ahead obv, but i really enjoyed the section where she has a breakdown and talks about all the contradictory stuff women are supposed to be. i liked the section where shes talking to ruth about wanting to be human and to be a woman despite it all. i liked that part of the message was that a lot of men need to fuckin get hobbies instead of their personality being Woman-Liker. i LOVED the songs being camp and mostly actually made for and about the film instead of using generic pop songs (tho the billie eilish song was jarring and took me out of it).

However. i did think it was pretty,,, superficial. some of that was because its a corporate product and there wouldve been restrictions on what gerwig could do. like she cant criticize the mattel board too much, because it would "make the company look bad." like mattel refused to call the movie feminist, and i think theres an aversion to calling the movie anything too concretely subversive, maybe because that turns the "ive been saying this for years!!" aspect into not relatability, but being behind the times, or worse, performative. which it is.

BUT i also think it really played into the Girlboss feminist schtick. like that in the end they went back to a matriarchy. i dont think the film was saying matriarchy bad, and im not even trying to say that it would be equally as bad as patriarchy bc i dont know nor do i care. but i do think it had that vibe of "men are stupid, right ladies?!? we know best with our woman power ;)" which feels a little weird tbh. even the little comments like implying that a president would NEVER dress like that or a woman would have to be BRAINWASHED to want to be a housewife is uncomfortable to say the least. the final gynocology joke at the end felt really reductive even with a trans woman in the movie. it felt weird for her to go to the queer-coded b4rbies to get help and then they stop mattering when they arent helping cishet b4rbie society. and no butch b4rbies, obviously.

it felt like they were going "see? woman power!! but dont forget to be respectable!!" despite halfway through talking about how hard it is to be respected as a woman. and this is most egregious when they have sasha going on an honestly reasonable and well-founded rant about the negative social impact of b4rbie which is then not really brought up in a meaningful way again. shes played for laughs and its only addressed as a "we hear your criticisms but theyre very silly bc barbie stands for woman power so there. 😊" like she calls b4rbie a fascist and thats a whole joke, which is really fucking weird tbqh.

but my point is that its ok to be critical of the way women are treated and what is expected of women, and its ok to be weird or ugly or whatever!! up until the point it makes you ACTUALLY ugly or tooOo much of a deviant (like dressing in revealing clothing as a professional, or criticising consumerism which is just a silly thing to do because why would you EVER-), in which case you just hate women and make the cause look bad.

anyway, i thought the movie was fun. it looked great, the soundtrack was fun, the casting choices were pretty good, and i liked the real talk about how hard being a woman can be. at the same time, it was a very long ad for b4rbie. it was corporate, and mostly sold a very girlboss, shallow look at feminism. a good entry point for like, men who think women arent oppressed but love their girlfriend enough to TRY to understand, or for middle aged women looking to hear something nice about their existence, or people looking for a fun summer movie with a few funny bits. not a great movie for film nerds or riotgrrls or trans people or anti-capitalists.

[p-s-yokubo]

“Who is he trying to prove wrong?” is a great question! It’s actually one of the things I’m trying to figure out right now bc I want to write a fanfic focusing on Clay’s character but I need to figure out what the motive for his actions is. We don’t see much of his past so it really could be any of the things you mentioned, or something else entirely. I feel most strongly towards the idea that he doesn’t care for himself and is instead focused on others/what others think of him. Because he’s an orphan, it would make sense for him to not value himself— I mean he clearly didn’t have parents who valued him. And also society looks down on those who are poor. I imagine his peers at the academy probably didn’t like him much (or just didn’t care about him.) So the idea that he views himself as inherently unworthy makes sense. He needs to be a productive member of society to be worth something. Which is why he works so much. Every second he isn’t generating worth is a second wasted. A second spent proving how worthless he is. And this all ties into the stuff I said in the tags about the knights code— he views the code as the model he has to aspire to. Because being a knight is what makes him worth something- so obviously he wants to be the very best knight he could possibly be, and the code is the literal handbook on how to do that. I believe he has discarded parts of his own identity to become the perfect knight. Parts of himself that he believed were useless to others. Like hobbies, for example. Clay does not have hobbies. Only knight things. The other knights all have hobbies- but clay doesn’t. That’s just a small example though, and that’s because I also think he’s been doing this for so long that parts of himself are just….fully gone. So gone that we don’t even know what they are because clay himself doesn’t remember a time where he was anything but Clay Moorington - knight of the realm.

So yeah my fic was going to be about him realizing he has no identity of his own left and that he is slowly destroying himself by trying to live up to the unrealistic expectations he’s placed on himself because he views himself so lowly. I have no idea how to incorporate that into a plot though and it’s driving me insane because like the ideas are there I have that character premise and I have a villain for it too like I have all the pieces but I just can’t fit the puzzle together AGH.

Anyway thank you I love clay discussion :)

I was thinking about seasons 4 and clay and wanted to see what y’all’s opinion on this is

[the-eve-codes]

hello! just a heads up, I'm going on a **2 week minimum** (though ideally I'm aiming for 3-4 weeks) pretty much total hiatus from all things jcink coding related. therefore, i wont be replying to discord messages (unless ya know, were actually friends, or we write together), tumblr asks/dms, and resource site messages.

take care and stay safe, and see ya on the flip side.

(reasons in the tags but they're not really exciting lol)

[dexaroth]

i know its unrealistic and nonsense to feel bad bc im not as good as i could be within a hobby bc a hobby is supposed to be fun and occupy your time but i cant for the life of me not feel guilty about not drawing and not improving

like.. i have most of the resources. i often have the time. i have almost a thousand pictures in my reference folder to be used to practice and learn. i have an internet connection to be inspired and learn from those better than me and yet... i just don't feel like drawing. and i mean drawing something grand.. not just the dozens of doodles and oc refsheets i keep churning.. i want to do standalone pieces like i used to and look at them fondly and feel proud of something. but i just dont have the flame to do it for months and months on end

i mean obviously this is much more likely to happen when it has been your primary hobby for over like 7 years contrary to, say, webpage coding which i just started to learn like a year ago. what's keeping me from wanting to draw though? its so frustrating to know you Have the Potential to be a good artist and knowing How you could become more but just.. not feeling like it. and telling urself im gonna draw tomorrow and tomorrow comes and its one of those days you'd rather stare at a wall the whole afternoon and it just keeps going and going and you stay stumped