#beth harmon playlist

[warrier-queann]

Beth and Benny songs:

[giftedpoison]

Me everytime I get pissed off at work and struggle to keep sense: you know what would hit so hard right now? 30 degree weather without a jacket would put just the right amount of shock in my system to level out the crazy

[ambientsoundtrackfan]

I've created the greatest intj vintage jazz fiona apple sade beth harmon solitary intellectual espresso girl who makes her own money to buy wool jackets cashmere dior makeup with existential despair alien eau de parfum cold winter nights sprinkling of bach and tchaikovsky book filled apartment type of vibe playlist

[indiehorrorgame]

i was tagged by @gashpriest to make a playlist based offf each letter in my url let's do it

just pretend by bad omens

eternal blue by spiritbox

when the war came by the decemberists

i know i'm a wolf by discovery of an afterlife

snarky by quannnic

hysteria by spiritbox

soil by quannnic

ptolemaea by ethel cain

i found by amber run

digital bath by deftones

earth death by baths

running up that hill by placebo

move forward by bedroom

am i dreaming by metro boomin

no no no by those poor bastards

i tag @chesapeakeripper @thunk @willowcreaks @crazysodomite @paparoach @dickmaster420 @bouncycastles @nineinchmales @chatenays @knifekiss @kh3finalmix @killdies @jagar-tharns @jtkej @grey-has-rusted @listired @scuntallope @phasmo @unknownhorrors @thewickerking @beth-harmon

[plantfeed]

𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘥𝘶𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘨…    𝐚𝐥𝐦𝐚 𝐩𝐮𝐭𝐧𝐚𝐦.

welcome to marina, ALMA OLIVE PUTNAM ( cis woman, she / her ) ! they are a TWENTY-THREE  year old who has lived on the island for HER WHOLE LIFE. word on the street is they’re currently living in PROSPECT HILL and works as an ARCHIVIST AT MARINA PUBLIC LIBRARY. everyone also says they look a lot like ELLE FANNING. what do you think? ( muse tag.  also a muse tag.  pinterest.  playlist.  long ass google doc.  )

AESTHETICS.

     a red beret nestled on top of bright platinum locks, neck scarves tied around your throat the way they do it in french new wave films, stealing the covers in bed with a lover, running barefoot through the woods in feckless hedonism, eyes that see more than they tell, a silver dagger hanging from an earring, the smirk of success that widens at the sound of another compliment, walking confidently through the campus grounds forcing others to deviate from their paths, the mona lisa smile, a forged botticelli drying on your easel, ophelia floating in the middle of a lake.

CHARACTER REFERENCES.

    amy dunne (gone girl),    lady macbeth  (macbeth),   emily (the devil wears prada),   lily (thoroughbreds),    edie britt (desperate housewives),   beth harmon  (the queen’s gambit),   catherine the great  (the great),   holly mcstay (clique),   audrey horne  (twin peaks),    wednesday addams  (the addams family values).  

BULLET POINT SUMMARY OF A BITCH.

— this is the ethereal but spoiled alma olive putnam (she goes by all 3 names cos she’s pretentious as fuck). a horse girl through and through. pretty and she knows it. the meanest girl at your school that all of the teachers adored n u could never understand why. loves the smell of libraries and listening to french music from a tinny record player in knee socks n pretending she has never seen an iphone. 

— her family own a big old farmhouse with a ranch and loads of animals in propsect hill, and they've employed a lot of the island's farmhands and animal handlers over the years. her mother tends to get drunk and fire everybody when she's stressed so as a result they've gone through quite a lot of staff.

 — her parents are german-american. she was born in marina in a big old farmhouse. her great-grandfather moved to america as an immigrant and worked on a plantation, made his way up cos he could speak a lot of languages and therefore win more people over. putnams have always been good at persuasion. for the last two generations, putnam men have owned the farm rather than worked on it, handled finances, kept the books and stocks, and do very little of the dirty work. the putnam farm is a big supplier in the island's meat industry. they have a competition for “the biggest hog in prospect hill” every summer.

— both of her parents had large personalities, so alma’s never really been shy around adults, even as a kid she’d speak to them in a forthright, confident manner, and because she was always surrounded by adults, she’s always seemed a bit wise beyond her years. up until high school, she didn’t really have any friends. other kids thought of her as an oddball, a grown up in an eleven-year-old’s body, and she thought of them as immature and beneath her. rather than sleepovers, bike rides, and making mud pies, alma put her time instead into bettering herself, learning to speak several languages, learning the clarinet, practising ballet, horse-riding. she was a child who always had to have an activity or project on the go, or she would become listless and nightmarish for the carousel of au pairs and nannies hired to care for her.

— upon graduating high school, she was accepted to juliard to study ballet and contemporary dance, but an injury meant she had to turn down her place. she’s still bitter about this and takes every opportunity to bring up the fact tht she could totally have gone to julliard (but maybe she shd have jst taken the charles melton route and done riverdale instead)

— after turning down juliard bcos of said injury, alma went to columbia uni and majored in classical civilisation. she can read ancient greek and latin, but she also speaks french and beginner’s italian. she studied classics cos she thinks it makes her sound smart, but actually doesn’t really care for latin and just loves learning about feckless hedonism and the festivals of bacchus and writing about how all women in myth are literally forgotten or abused for their bodies and the greek fascination with cannibalism. anyway she spent most of her time at uni doing ballet and theatre anyway

— she’s very much a consolidation of every character in the secret history. has a morbid longing for the picturesque at all costs. obsessed with w.h. auden and the beat poets. the film to watch if you want to understand alma is thoroughbreds. there are a lot of parallels between lily (anya’s character) and alma, but she also embodies amanda’s cold disposition and ability to cry on cue.

— ”aestheticism is the only thing worth pursuing and even that is pointless”

— alma’s idea of a romantic gesture: exchanging vials of blood so that each of you can carry a piece of your lover around on your neck with you always, or being gifted a ruby-hilted dagger engraved with her initials. she wants the fucked up kind of love that megan fox and machine gun kelly have. her love language is gifts (sociopath) and words of affirmation.  

— she will put everything else on hold for success. she lets things consume her with obsession. at university, her academic merit and her reputation within the theatre society was all she could focus on. she loves the smell of libraries, the ancient smoke of learning, of feeling like old wine in a new bottle reincarnated from the bones of some old, dead witchy woman who invented a cure for cowpox or somethin. as well as the practical elements of ballet, she loves the theory of it. she’ll read every book she can find, despite knowing u can’t learn a skill like that from a book. she will stop at nothing 2 get what she wants. watch ur damn backs.

— pretentious motherfucker. loves poetry, especially the romantics, loves the morbid poets even moreseo, edgar allen poe, sylvia plath, allen ginsberg, she just loves them all. can’t get enough. her favourite films are like…. wanky artfilm independent european cinema. especially french new wave. loved umbrellas of cherbourg and her clothing style is based a lot around looks in that film.  “what do you think of goddard’s work??” while snorting a line off someone’s sink at 5am on a school night, but you can bet she’ll make it to that 9am ballet class smelling of rose petals, looking pristine and like butter wouldn’t melt on her tongue.

— very intelligent and beautiful and knows both of those facts. loves to play devil’s advocate and growing up she was always an active member of her school’s debate society. humanitarian, vegan. judgemental but takes great care not to appear so. extremely petty and vindictive. must come first. obsessively devours mystery and thriller novels. she herself is a gillian flynn book waiting to happen.

— alma definitely tries to be an enigma. she wants to be mysterious and unreadable because that’s what books have taught her makes women desirable and interesting and cool. very amy dunne in the way she expertly reinvents herself to suit her audience, when she wants to impress

— act like the flower but be the serpent under it. is a user. manipulative. leads people on. will throw another student person the bus to demonstrate her own intelligence and integrity

— heavily involved in the theatre. loves attention. it’s hard to tell if she’s ever genuine. she wears emotions like they’re neck scarves, reeling people in. is she ever honest? your honour, idk

— performance-wise, one of alma’s most commendable traits is her sheer tenacity and lack of inhibition – she is willing to do whatever it takes to climb to the top, and kick as many other people down as necessary on her way there. this unhinged hunger for success was evidenced when alma played tamora in titus andronicus. feeling the presentation of one of shakespeare’s most terrifying women was ‘pussy-footed’ and dulled down for a male audience, alma took matters into her own hands, and during the famous banquet scene where tamora is fed her own sons, she ate a pig’s heart live on stage – receiving both awestruck and horrified press reviews for her performance – and getting expelled from her vermont boarding school. she was 14 at the time.

— has an addictive personality. seems unable to do anything in a small dose, she has to let it utterly consume her. with sports, she’s fiercely competitive, ice skates, played lacrosse at school, was is a hockey player. with alcohol, it’s never a shot, it’s a whole bottle – wine or whiskey – she’ll be table dancing before the night’s up and making out with someone she’ll regret in the morning but alma putnam takes no prisoners.

— her clothing style is like…. vintage thrift store but make it preppy. berets and cute hats, neck scarves, large fluffy cardigans or like those leathery jackets with big suede fringes on them, 70s mini skirts and knee-high boots. leotards worn under mom jeans, leg warmers and ballet pumps brandished like a uniform. quite often she’ll be in sports kit, maybe a cute tennis skirt. on the rare occasion when she’s feeling casual she’ll wear a nico / velvet underground t-shirt with a pair of mom jeans and converse, but otherwise, the library is her catwalk.

— relates to ophelia from hamlet and sibyl vane in dorian gray. weirdly obsessed with women who commit suicide. loves jackson pollock paintings and abstract art.

– likes old things. old books, old music, old houses, it reminds her of happier times like when she wasn’t alive. buys all her music on vinyl and has a gramophone because “the sound quality is better” kfdsjj.  has an reel projector for solitary film nights.

– had her first taste of alcohol at 15 and has stayed fond of spirits ever since. likes literature of the macabre, isn’t fond of social media, loves knee high socks, hates glitter, bites her nails, will only take cold showers, and doesn’t drink coffee. loves cats. is vegan.

— closet theatre nerd. goes absolutely feral for hamilton, west side story, etc. knows all the words to humu humu nuku nuku apua'a from hsm2 and definitely idolised sharpay growing up. now she would claim all of that is trashy but catch her crying in the online queue to get west end tickets to legally blonde as soon as they go on sale.

– ethereal wood elf. plays flute and does ballet. her favourite tv shows are making a murderer and dance moms. she is big on tchaikovsky and bukowski. poetry to alma is soup of the soul, despite the fact that the only things she really feels are apathy and mild disgust. her poems mostly centre around ballet, the beauty of violence and her cat.

– have a full bio plus quick facts n quotes n shit for her here but it's for a ballet school rp so. take it with a pinch of salt.

WANTED PLOTS.

– residents of prospect hill who know her, hate her vibe, want her dead, want her family dead, would poison her herbal tea with window cleaning fluid if given the option. alternatively, residents of prospect hill who have known her and her family for decades and they have each other over for dinner parties

— farm hands / blacksmiths / welders / carpenters / ppl who have worked at the farm that alma fucks with. it's like a power kick for her because she knew she could be absolutely vile and was basically untouchable because the moment they said anything back or didn't play into her games she would just tell her parents to fire them. can be quite emotionally manipulative and coercive. also loves to flirt with the farm hands n try to seduce them and has been doing this since she was a teenager. again, i think it's the power trip, and the idea of having a secret with them that nobody else knows about, but like, also being able to use tht against them.

– regulars at the library!! alma spends most of her time in a cage underground (its what she deserves) in the archives so if u have a character who is big into reading or might be carrying out a research project or even works for the police dept / journalist etc - alma's your girl. guards the town records with her little gloves and knows everybody's business. a real rita skeeter bitch if u will.

– didn't go into dancing professionaly but spends a good deal of time at the studio so dance partners she practices with. if there's a local company tht put on shows or smthn then i want ppl who she actually respects and views as competent peers, ppl who she’s constantly undermining to subtly dig away at their self confidence,  two dancers always goin for the same roles hate each other dynamic, i want mia goth / dakota johnson bein cute in suspiria vibe

– people who share her love of the macabre. freaks alliance

– someone she hooked up with or was regularly hooking up with and maybe even caught feelings for and now just flat out refuses to speak to because she doesn't know how to healthily process an emotion

 – enemies to lovers. cant stress the enough. i watched s2 of bridgerton and i am ready 2 yearn. i want two ppl who hate each other so bad and want each other so bad that every time they brush hands i am physically reduced to tears. i want dancing scenes where the tension is so palpable you could cut it with a knife.

– someone who views her, evil twisted little thing that she is, as a muse. maybe they’re an artist, maybe another dancer, maybe they’re a musician or in an orchestra, but when she dances it fills them with inspiration. i feel like when she’s not limited by the constraints of prescribed choreography her dancing is a lot more contemporary and avant garde, w like, abrupt, violent and jerky, motions. very florence welch choreography, particularly big god, that kinda thing

– jst general carnage and chaos pls. add me on discord n we’ll just stomp somethin out. sorry for this absolute fckn essay!! bt what can u do

[cybercaffie]

OCs as other characters

Tagged by: @just-a-cybercroissant and @bnbc!

Rules: take this quiz and share 5 (or more! or less! the world is your oyster!) results from the top 50 that you feel really fit your oc(s). if you don’t recognize very many from the top 50, feel free to expand into the top 100

Andy

I took the extended version of the test and the result spooked me because they are CRAZY accurate? what the fuck take the long one 100%, these were the first 5 results and I kept them because honestly they were good enough

Beth Harmon - the Queen's Gambit with a whopping 91% match holy f this is crazy accurate, I watched that serie (and forgot about it) way before I sorted out her background or she even existed, I guess it just stuck in some unconscious part of my brain because it's so spot on it's scary, how she grew up and found her escape in netrunning, right down to a lot of physical mannerism :')

Lorraine Broughton - Atomic Blondecounterintel agent , a soundtrack that could be from one of her playlists, set in Berlin (total coincidence but Andy has a fascination for Berlin). What can I say xD

Alex Vause - Orange is The New Black one I would have never made an association with cause again it's been a while since OitNB ended - very similar personalities, emotional conflicts, manipulative skills and reaosns why they became a certain way

Kalinda Sharma - The Good Wife I have never watched this show, so I did some research and I think the vibes are there xD (also hello yes bi prideeee)

Rust Cohle - True Detective one of my favourite shows, at first I didn't get this match but then it clicked - the obsessiveness to the point of self-destruction, nihilism and 'ghosts from the past' are definitely a commonality, and Rust's miserable future is a parallel of what she would have/could have become

yeah I wasn't expecting this good of a matching haha gonna do it for Vincent if I get tagged again

tagging @halsin @lizzy--wizzy @theviridianbunny @zinkleberg @clusterfxckedbysirens and whoever wants to do it really!!!

[camskjdksf]

rating my fictional crushes

draco - 12937293746263/10 i don't find him attractive anymore but bro the 2020-2021 phase was UNMATCHED like u js had to be there😫 bro defined my whole quarantine, literally tanawa ninyo akong wattpad and it's just fanfics of him. i have a whole playlist dedicated to him and i still listen to it

merlin sa katong red shoes movie - 10/10 this is so goofy but like it was another 2020 phase na naka tatak sakong mind, gi force jud nako ako pamilya na tanawon ang movie but it was so bad bruh, giingnan pag nice ang plot pero ang plot kay siya😐😑

gilbert blythe - 10/10 THIS MAN 🙏🙏 im.so glad i decided to watch anne with an e cz bro i was so tempted to discontinue it cz anne was so annoying until he was introduced😘😆 he so pretty bruh he sparked my interest in curly haired guyz

newt from tmr - 100/10 honestly this lil crush in late 2022 was so refreshing cz the last time i had a serious serious phase was like two years before this, and i was so bz with school and life post-pandemic😭 also love this era

beth harmon - 10/10 primarily watched the show bc naa si thomas brodie sangster but bro her😮‍💨😮‍💨 girly got me into my chess phase and now i jus have a chessboard lying around bc i gave up 😭

alosa kalligan - 10/10 idk what caused my obsession w redheads this year HAHHAHSA they say the books were bad but this woman🛐🛐 pirate, siren, swordsman, and princess dude what more yall want😫 the bf was ok but her >>>

sebastian sallow - 100/10 BRUH THE CHOKEHOLD THIS GUY HAD ON ME LAST YEAR😿 idk what it is ab characters sa hp but they always get me back to fanfics and writing bro, ive never even played the game😭 love him sm especially after reading that one fanfic that literally changed who i was as a person

sturmhond/nikolai lantsov - 100000/10 yall i was obsessed w him at the same time as kay sebastian so imagine my fyp at the time😭😭 this one's my fav tho cz omyg i was reading the books which were so boring but this dude helped me get thru it (another meaning sa he def talks you through it)🙏🙏 one of my fav book bfs foreal and the casting was so good bro, also one of my only fictional crushes na dli toxic or psychopathic😆

rafe cameron - ∞/10 i may be biased cz im still in this phase rn but bro😿 it's literally like my draco phase all over again cz they're so similar i love it😭😭 RHAHSGSGAGAGHAHAHAHAHAAGAGAGAGAGAGAGAGAG it's also the first time ive had a crush on the character AND the actor.. bruh some1 put me down

[libraryshadows]

oh beth harmon playlist my beloved

[hope-and-roll]

Jolynn Ramsey

"Oh, it's delightful to have ambitions. I'm so glad I have such a lot. And there never seems to be any end to them- that's the best of it. Just as soon as you attain to one ambition you see another one glittering higher up still. It does make life so interesting." — L.M. Montgomery

- Jolynn Jane Ramsey  - Née le 18 octobre 1975 - Reborn  - Américaine  - Sang-Pur  - Bisexuelle  - Ilvermorny, Serpent Cornu  - Anya Taylor-Joy (as Beth Harmon).  ~ Fille d'Edmund et Cecily Ramsey, née Harmon  ~ Mère de Johanna, Flora et Julianne McGraw * Petite-amie, puis épouse, puis ex d'Emeric McGraw  * Amie d'Hypnos Santiago, Azalea Hearst et Cephalus Roseblood à Ilvermorny  Playlist :  Poker face - Lady Gaga  The greatest - Sia  Gasoline - Halsey  All the good girls go to hell - Billie Eilish 

[teenyplantkid]

For weirder asks:

1 14 31

1 - who are your comfort characters? Beth Harmon (Queens Gambit), Mabel Pines (Gravity Falls), Darth Maul (Star Wars), Ashoka (Star Wars), Grogu (Star Wars), Eowyn (Lord of the Rings), Samwise Gamgee (Lord of the Rings), Aragorn (Lord of the Rings), Hercule Poirot (Agatha Christie's Poirot -- David Suchet version), Rory Gilmore (Gilmore Girls), Zuko (Avatar the Last Airbender), Mr. Tumnus (The Chronicles of Narnia), Remus Lupin (Harry P*tter), Neville Longbottom (Harry P*tter), Sirius Black (Harry P*tter), Regulus Black (Harry P*tter) That's a lot, I know, but they're all my babies and I love themb.

14 - do you love the smell of the earth after it rains? yes yes yes yes!!!! specifically the smell of wet moss; UGH yes. 31 - what type of music keeps you grounded?

i don't really listen to music to "ground" myself in the traditional way (as in, meditative music -- but if i wanna meditate, Fia's music is the way to go!), but i will link some of my favorite spotify playlists here, here, and here.

thank you for the asks!

here is the link for the asks if anyone else wishes to ask me questions!

[advilbbt]

concept playlists pt 3!

that all-consuming feeling: for when you're screaming your lungs out at the sky on the edge of a cliff wanting to run away from everything and everyone

beth harmon: for all my queen’s gambit fans! i’m obsessed with her

the avengers: for my marvel addicts! it’s in order according to each avenger (the playlist will be continued in may when black widow comes out)

tangerine glow: my favourite playlist for chill background music to play while studying! mostly artists like keshi, lauv, jeremy zucker, blackbear, and other korean chill songs

some of my favourites from previous posts:

masquerade ball: you and a masked stranger sneak out to slow dance on the roof of the castle, bitch about your exes, and fall in love for the night

songs to kill someone to: you strut onto the crime scene and smile as you take in the sight of the chaos you caused

here are links to part 1 and part 2! enjoy :)

[taste-the-love]

Queen's Gambit

Vasily Borgov & Beth Harmon playlist

SPOTIFY:

Will be updated~

[ilreleonewikia13]

T Q G M E M E - BETHXBENNY PLAYLIST

I bet we’re higher Than the people on cloud nine This connection got me feeling like I’ve known you my whole life, wow Even our shadows know each other in the light So I do, I think of loosing you And you’re right by my side, huh

[dramatic-bard]

So I finished ATYD, I'm a wreck thank you very much, so I did a playlist :) 🌙 wolfstar tears✨

[warrier-queann]

Beth and Benny songs:

[maggotmouth]

𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘥𝘶𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘨...    𝐚𝐥𝐦𝐚 𝐩𝐮𝐭𝐧𝐚𝐦.

            hello sexies !!  i am so excited for this. licks my lips hungrily like barty crouch ( jUUUNIOAARRR ) and screeches at the moon. i’m nora, i’m twenty-six, she / her. i come from the lovely city of sheffield where the arctic monkeys n pulp r from  ( i once met matt helders in a kebab shop and the drummer of pulp knows me by name ).   i’ll be playing alma plus probably a few other sickly children cos i have no chill. bullet points are below the cut, or there’s a biography in the google doc. plot some tasty connections with me on discord  ( zoë kravitz top me#8664 )  i am ready 2 be yearning, screaming, crying, frowing up. the enormity of my desire disgusts me xo

( muse tag.  also a muse tag.  pinterest.  playlist.  long ass google doc.  )

application.

◜          *          :          elle fanning     .     cis-woman    &    she / her    .     you don’t own me     by   lesley gore     .          ━━          the     legend     surrounding     london’s     l’academiae     furorum     would     not     be     complete     without     ALMA OLIVE PUTNAM     .     the     academy's     TWENTY-TWO     year     old     CORPS  DANCER    has     been     with     furore     for     ONE YEAR     ,     oft     described     as     TENACIOUS ,   MAGNETIC ,    INTOLERANT ,  CRUEL      &          has     proved     utterly     indispensable     to     the     company.     in     passing     ,     they’ve     come     to     be     associated     with     THE FAINT MUSK OF CHANEL NO. 5 CLINGING TO THE PAGES OF A LEATHERBOUND BOOK         &               a red beret nestled on top of bright platinum locks ,    neck scarves tied around your throat the way they do it in french new wave films ,     stealing the covers in bed with a lover ,     running barefoot through the woods in feckless hedonism ,     eyes that see more than they tell ,     a silver dagger hanging from an earring ,     the smirk of success that widens at the sound of another compliment ,     walking confidently through the campus grounds forcing others to deviate from their paths ,     the mona lisa smile,      a forged botticelli drying on your easel ,     millais’ ophelia floating in the middle of a lake    .     whether     this     will     be     their     final     curtain     call     is     anyone's     guess          &          the     company’s     worst     nightmare     .          (          as     portrayed     by     nora     ,     26     ,     she / her     ,          &          gmt     .     no triggers, i go in raw     .          )

AESTHETICS.

     a red beret nestled on top of bright platinum locks, neck scarves tied around your throat the way they do it in french new wave films, stealing the covers in bed with a lover, running barefoot through the woods in feckless hedonism, eyes that see more than they tell, a silver dagger hanging from an earring, the smirk of success that widens at the sound of another compliment, walking confidently through the campus grounds forcing others to deviate from their paths, the mona lisa smile, a forged botticelli drying on your easel, ophelia floating in the middle of a lake.

CHARACTER REFERENCES.

    amy dunne (gone girl),    lady macbeth  (macbeth),   emily (the devil wears prada),   lily (thoroughbreds),    edie britt (desperate housewives),   beth harmon  (the queen’s gambit),   catherine the great  (the great),   holly mcstay (clique),   audrey horne  (twin peaks),    ruby  (sex education),     wednesday addams  (the addams family values).  

bullet point summary of a bitch.

— this is the ethereal but spoiled alma olive putnam (she goes by all 3 names cos she’s pretentious as fuck). raised in a farmhouse in vermont, loves the smell of libraries and listening to french music from a tinny record player in knee socks. 

— upon graduating high school, she was accepted to juliard to study ballet and contemporary dance, but an injury meant she had to turn down her place. she’s still bitter about this and takes every opportunity to bring up the fact tht she could totally have gone to julliard. 

— after turning down juliard bcos of said injury, alma went to columbia uni and majored in classical civilisation. she can read ancient greek and latin, but she also speaks french and beginner’s italian. she studied classics cos she thinks it makes her sound smart, but actually doesn’t really care for latin and just loves learning about feckless hedonism and the festivals of bacchus and writing about how all women in myth are literally forgotten or abused for their bodies. anyway she spent most of her time at uni doing ballet and theatre anyway

 — her parents are german-british, but she was born in vermont in a big old farmhouse. big horse girl energy. her great-grandfather moved to america as an immigrant and worked on a plantation, made his way up cos he could speak a lot of languages and therefore win more people over. putnams have always been good at persuasion. for the last two generations, putnam men have owned the farm rather than worked on it, handled finances, kept the books and stocks, and do very little of the dirty work. the putnam farm is a big supplier in the meat industry. they have a competition for “the biggest hog this side of green mountain” every summer.

— both of her parents had large personalities, so alma’s never really been shy around adults, even as a kid she’d speak to them in a forthright, confident manner, and because she was always surrounded by adults, she’s always seemed a bit wise beyond her years. up until high school, she didn’t really have any friends. other kids thought of her as an oddball, a grown up in an eleven-year-old’s body, and she thought of them as immature and beneath her. rather than sleepovers, bike rides, and making mud pies, alma put her time instead into bettering herself, learning to speak several languages, learning the clarinet, practising ballet, horse-riding. she was a child who always had to have an activity or project on the go, or she would become listless and nightmarish for the carousel of au pairs and nannies hired to care for her.

— she’s very much a consolidation of every character in the secret history. has a morbid longing for the picturesque at all costs. obsessed with w.h. auden and the beat poets. the film to watch if you want to understand alma is thoroughbreds. there are a lot of parallels between lily (anya’s character) and alma, but she also embodies amanda’s cold disposition and ability to cry on cue.

— ”aestheticism is the only thing worth pursuing and even that is pointless”

— alma’s idea of a romantic gesture: exchanging vials of blood so that each of you can carry a piece of your lover around on your neck with you always, or being gifted a ruby-hilted dagger engraved with her initials. she wants the fucked up kind of love that megan fox and machine gun kelly have. her love language is gifts (only sociopaths will relate) and words of affirmation. 

— she will put everything else on hold for success. she lets things consume her with obsession. at university, her academic merit and her reputation within the theatre society was all she could focus on. she loves the smell of libraries, the ancient smoke of learning, of feeling like old wine in a new bottle reincarnated from the bones of some old, dead witchy woman who invented a cure for cowpox or somethin. as well as the practical elements of ballet, she loves the theory of it. she’ll read every book she can find, despite knowing u can’t learn a skill like that from a book. now she’s at furore, all she can focus on is working her way up the ranks to become a soloist and then a principal dancer. she will stop at nothing 2 get what she wants. watch ur damn backs.

— pretentious motherfucker. loves poetry, especially the romantics, loves the morbid poets even moreseo, edgar allen poe, sylvia plath, allen ginsberg, she just loves them all. can’t get enough. her favourite films are like…. wanky artfilm independent european cinema. especially french new wave. loved umbrellas of cherbourg and her clothing style is based a lot around looks in that film.  “what do you think of goddard’s work??” while snorting a line off someone’s sink at 5am on a school night, but you can bet she’ll make it to that 9am practise smelling of rose petals, looking pristine and like butter wouldn’t melt on her tongue.

— very intelligent and beautiful and knows both of those facts. loves to play devil’s advocate and growing up she was always an active member of her school’s debate society. humanitarian, vegan. yes it is possible to be both a vegan animal-rights activist and a sociopath, i have met them

— judgemental but takes great care not to appear so. extremely petty and vindictive. must come first.obsessively devours mystery and thriller novels. she herself is a gillian flynn book waiting to happen.

— alma definitely tries to be an enigma. she wants to be mysterious and unreadable because that’s what books have taught her makes women desirable and interesting and cool. very amy dunne in the way she expertly reinvents herself to suit her audience, when she wants to impress

— act like the flower but be the serpent under it. is a user. manipulative. leads people on. will throw another student under the bus to demonstrate her own intelligence and integrity

— heavily involved in the theatre. loves attention. it’s hard to tell if she’s ever genuine. she wears emotions like they’re neck scarves, reeling people in. is she ever honest? your honour, idk

— performance-wise, one of alma’s most commendable traits is her sheer tenacity and lack of inhibition – she is willing to do whatever it takes to climb to the top, and kick as many other people down as necessary on her way there. this unhinged hunger for success was evidenced when alma played tamora in titus andronicus. feeling the presentation of one of shakespeare’s most terrifying women was ‘pussy-footed’ and dulled down for a male audience, alma took matters into her own hands, and during the famous banquet scene where tamora is fed her own sons, she ate a pig’s heart live on stage – receiving both awestruck and horrified press reviews for her performance – and getting expelled from her english boarding school. she was 14 at the time.

— has an addictive personality. seems unable to do anything in a small dose, she has to let it utterly consume her. with sports, she’s fiercely competitive, runs track, played lacrosse at school, was is a hockey player. with alcohol, it’s never a shot, it’s a whole bottle – wine or whiskey – she’ll be table dancing before the night’s up and making out with someone she’ll regret in the morning but alma putnam takes no prisoners.

— her clothing style is like…. vintage thrift store but make it preppy. berets and cute hats, neck scarves, large fluffy cardigans or like those leathery jackets with big suede fringes on them, 70s mini skirts and knee-high boots. leotards worn under mom jeans, leg warmers and ballet pumps brandished like a uniform. quite often she’ll be in sports kit, maybe a cute tennis skirt. on the rare occasion when she’s feeling casual she’ll wear a nico / velvet underground t-shirt with a pair of mom jeans and converse, but otherwise, the company campus is her catwalk.

— relates to ophelia from hamlet and sibyl vane in dorian gray. weirdly obsessed with women who commit suicide. loves jackson pollock paintings and abstract art.

– likes old things. old books, old music, old houses, it reminds her of happier times like when she wasn’t alive. buys all her music on vinyl and has a gramophone because “the sound quality is better” kfdsjj.  has an reel projector for solitary film nights.

– had her first taste of alcohol at 15 and has stayed fond of spirits ever since. likes literature of the macabre, isn’t fond of social media, and loves knee high socks and glitter. she bites her nails, will only take cold showers, and doesn’t drink coffee. loves cats. is vegan.

– although she’s only been an official member of the company for a year, she used to go to a boarding school close by and often visited the furore campus on her lunch hour to watch them dance in the hope that she might one day become one of them. she ended up going back to the united states to attend julliard, dropping out due to her injury, and then attending columbia. coming back to the u.k. was simply her path because she had nothing better to do. she missed the city, the way she’d romanticised the rain and the fog and the suffering she’d found there, so while she’s relatively new to the company there may well be people who remember her visiting it as a child.

— closet theatre nerd. goes absolutely feral for hamilton, west side story, etc. knows all the words to humu humu nuku nuku apua'a from hsm2 and definitely idolised sharpay growing up. now she would claim all of that is trashy but catch her crying in the online queue to get west end tickets to legally blonde as soon as they go on sale.

– ethereal wood elf. plays flute and does ballet. her favourite tv shows are making a murderer and dance moms. she is big on tchaikovsky and bukowski. poetry to alma is soup of the soul, despite the fact that the only things she really feels are apathy and mild disgust. her poems mostly centre around ballet, the beauty of violence and her cat.

wanted plots.

– obviously dance partners n the ppl she practices with every day. i want ppl who she actually respects and views as competent peers, ppl who she’s constantly undermining to subtly dig away at their self confidence,  two dancers always goin for the same roles hate each other dynamic, i want mia goth / dakota johnson bein cute in suspiria vibe

 – enemies to lovers. cant stress the enough. i watched the new bridgerton and i am ready 2 yearn. i want two ppl who hate each other so bad and want each other so bad that every time they brush hands i am physically reduced to tears. i want dancing scenes where the tension is so palpable you could cut it with a knife.

– someone who views her, evil twisted little thing that she is, as a muse. maybe they’re another dancer, maybe they’re in the orchestra, but when she dances it fills them with inspiration. i feel like when she’s not limited by the constraints of her school choreography her dancing is a lot more contemporary and avant garde, w like, abrupt, violent and jerky, motions. very florence welch choreography, particularly big god, that kinda thing

– principal dancer who sees potential in her and is mentoring her to make her way up the ranks.

– costume and make up people who flat out refuse to work w her bcos she’s such a bitch

— hook ups. exes on bad terms. chaotic five night stands where they thought they were in love and then the drugs wore off. in college she used to hook up with anyone who paid her attention but now she has to really like your vibe to have sex with you because she just thinks so highly of herself like no one deserves this. no one gets this. prefers to have sex with ppl she despises than ppl she actually likes bcos the thought of developing feelings for anyone is frankly sickening to her

— she can’t drive and has always relied on public transport and is probably too stingy to pay a professional instructor for lessons when she has friends who could do it for free so someone to teach her to drive though they’d have to have the patience of a saint because she’d change gear and start screaming and ramming her hand on the horn.

— if there are any other catholics in this joint hit me up. despite getting up to some right shenanigans almost every saturday night she’ll usually be at church on sunday morning. i’m imagining her sneaking out of a hook up’s house n they’re like where are u going it’s 6am and she’s like it’s sunday? i have to go to church? the virgin mary is my muse?

– add me on discord n we’ll just stomp somethin out i’m zoë kravitz top me#8664