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[builder051]

Here’s the weekly archive fic! And it’s actually one of my faves. :)

[comfortlesshurt]

Smiling 'cause you're used to it (a house that's always haunted)

TWs: Mentions of alcohol use/abuse by a background character, not directly shown. Injury. Referenced child abuse not directly shown. Referenced self-harm and eating disorder that do not actually occur. Emeto/vomiting.

Some of these tags are for future chapters, so you won't see them come up in chapter 1. There's a spoiler dropdown with more explanation of TWs in the start note if you follow the link.

Summary:

The unexpected pain catches Keith off-guard, and rather than landing safely on the other side, he tumbles down the hill, instinctively bringing his arms up to guard his head. On the plus side, he’s made it down the hill in record time with no head injury, and he can no longer hear the footfalls trailing after him. …but he’s paid for that win with the gouges he can now confirm are thoroughly marring his right hand and the sting along most of his left forearm. After he pauses for a shaky breath and brings himself to look at it, he sees how fast it’s leaking blood, staining the dirt beneath him. It’s most definitely not a “slap a band-aid on it and move on” kind of wound.

Pseuds: occasionalvoltronfiction & sickficlurker

Fandom: Voltron: Legendary Defender

Main character: Keith

Side character: Shiro (Chapters 2 through 4)

Relationship: Keith & Shiro (Chapters 2 through 4)

Timeline: Pre-series, shortly after Keith starts at the garrison

Challenges: (@whumperless-whump-event) Whumperless Whump 2024 Day 1: self-done stitches and alcohol as sanitizer (chapter 1), Day 10: forced to work while ill (chapter 2, slightly modified because this is school not work, but it's in the SPIRIT), and Day 16: half-conscious (chapter 3) & bingo board shared by @builder051: self-surgery (chapter 1).

[bookbat1937]

1. Hymn For The Weekend- Coldplay

2. Partition- Beyonce

3. Up- Cardi B

4. Infinite Potential- Murray Gold

5. Buckets Of Rain- Beth Orton

6. From Now On- The Features

7. Good As Hell- Lizzo

8. American Pilot- Glenn Miller

9. Numb Little Bug- Em Beihold

10. Hey Brother Avicii

@1heartfanfics @builder051 @bellysoupset @arathejedi394 @bluesimplicity73

on repeat tag game 🔁🎧

Rules: shuffle your 'on repeat' playlist and post the first 10 tracks, then tag 10 friends to do the same.

Okay so, it's been a week and I'm just getting back around to this so here we go. Spotify On Repeat (No judgment allowed XD) :

Hoist the Colours - The Wellermen, Ebucs, Eric Holloway, Big Brev, Davide Dalmonte, Bobby Bass, Jesse Elkins, Luke G. Taylor

Nobody - Greyson Chance

Glitter & Gold - Barns Courtney

Healing - FLETCHER

shut up - Greyson Chance

nothing but the love - Wrabel

Serotonin - girl in red

The Lucky Ones - Benedict Cork

Out. - Hayden Joseph

I fucking Love You - Zolita

Tagging the active folks that I can think to tag @cinderellasfella @lavenderbucky @relevant-catnik @bookbat1937 @mrsd-writes @glittercake @saganarojanaolt @ruquas @rufferto9 @zenaidamacrouras1

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Natasha Romanoff Masterlist of Fic Recs - Version 2.0 - Page 3

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Updated June 2021

This is not an exhaustive list (and in no order whatsoever) of the brilliant fic that is out there. Please let me know of any i have missed or any recs to put in and I will endeavour to add it. I have not included warnings or ratings. Please make sure you look at the tags, judge for yourself and as always take care of yourself first. (16 authors under the cut)

Andibeth @isjustprogress

Dialogue of Self and Soul - 7-7 series - Clint/Nat - Natasha unexpectedly gets pregnant, but everyone knows that assassins can’t be mothers. // Set Post Avengers: the story a spy who wasn’t made for parenthood, and the journey it takes to go from one extreme to the other. 

I took a heavenly ride through your silence - POST ENDGAME - Natasha dies but wakes up in 2012. CLint/Nat/Laura 1/1

Though I play at the edges of knowing - Clint/nat. Post Infinity war - five times Natasha looked back on her past -   1/1

Winter in the Pub - Natasha/Nebula - drinks in the pub. If only they knew how alike they are.  1/1

Pour like Honey, through the darkness - Nat/Bucky/Clint - comicverse natasha fakes her own death. 1/1

Like a shadow or a friend - Nat/Clint - asexual Natasha navigating the brave new world of shield -  1/1

That would be enough - Natasha/Barton family - one shots/prompts assorted.   57/?

The war can’t touch us here - Nat/Clint/Laura/Maria/Steve - Natasha is born in war but saved by others. 1/1

Laura Barton’s House for Wayward Trauma Survivors - Nat/Laura/Wanda/Bucky/Clint - What do you mean, bringing a few guests?” Laura asks suspiciously.    1/1

We will light up the sky as we burn it down - Clint/Nat - meet me in Montauk. Nothing is ever as bad as it seems. 1/1

We are not all that stares back. Clint/Nat - tell me something true. Natasha holds onto words he tells her. 

And this is how you keep her - Nat/Clint - Natasha helps Clint heal after the avengers 1/1

If we are not spies - Nat/Clint - she’s been running, but he finds her. 1/1

Synergy - Clint/Nat - five times they spent New Year’s Eve together .   6/6

And when we’re there we’ll belong. Series - Clint, Laura and Natasha: a family’s journey, and the long (and sometimes winding) road to love. [Reading order:]

⁃i. i love only that which they defend (main storyline)    1/1

⁃ii. til the clocks run down (expanded main storyline – can be read independently but does slot into the main fic in certain ways, specifically in regards to scene placement, timing, and assumed character knowledge)til the clocks run down 21/21 

⁃iii. for the half of ourselves we have lost (post age of ultron, pre/post civil war) for the half of ourselves we have lost 19/19 

⁃iv. how to feel a tranquil life (post infinity war)how to feel a tranquil life 11/11 

⁃v. moments [the world can’t stop us] (timestamps for clint, nat and laura for this universe, can be read independently of previous three stories) 7/7 

Dancing in the dark turmoil - Clint/Nat - if anyone can find this link?? (You’re my best friend. When was I not?)

Shellybelle @geniusorinsanity

Nor we need power or splendour- Clint/Nat/Laura - a powerful look at the Clint/Nat/Laura - and how they fit together given all pasts and trauma.  18/18

If the two were one - Clint/Nat/Team - five times the team found out Clint/Nat were married - 1/1

All the transparence (in shades of red) - Clint/Nat - Clint’s broken after Loki. Natasha meets him in buffalo. 1/1

If you let me through the door, we can let the world in - tony/team. Tony built the tower - for his friends. 1/1

Like a clock in a thunderstorm - Clint/Nat - thunderstorms and confessions - 1/1

Conversations by other means - Clint/Nat - fight and a good fuck - 1/1

A gift like joy - Clint/Nat - Clint comforts Natasha (non-sexually) after a mission requires her to sleep with someone for information. 1/1

Rarely short on caring - Claire Temple /various superhero’s - Caring for others is not always so hard. 

No matter what she tells you - Natasha - 5 lies Natasha tells. 1/1

Eiluned @eiluned

Read all the smut. Seriously.

Troika series - Clint/Nat/Darcy - the deliciousness of smut - 8/8

underneath and unexplored - Nat/Clint - progression of Natasha’s emotions in 5 parts. 1/1

We make a life by what we give - Clint/Nat - Christmas Celebrations - 1/1

Play it by ear - Clint/Nat - Natasha has a secret, she loves Clint. 1/1

Know Thyself - Clint/Nat - after shield collapses, Natasha searches for who she is. 

The Cat - Clint/Nat - Natasha is stealthy like a cat. 1/1

Two Solitudes - Clint/Nat - Natasha knows Clint. Trust with secrets leads to more. 1/1

Heart Hides a Secret - Clint/Nat - series of 3 one shots. 

Five Times Clint and Natasha Slept Together (and the First Time They Slept Together) - Clint/Nat - 5+1   1/1

Scribblemyname @scribblemyname

Merry Russian Christmas - Maria/Nat - Maria wants Natasha as a friend - 1/1

Shall we dance? Clint/Nat - clint took a chance in saving Nat. She wants to find him to say 1/1

Learning Natasha (again) - Natasha/team - Natasha learns how to be around people - 1/1

They died with me - Clint/Nat - Clint says I love you, Natasha responds. 1/1

Remind me how to breathe - Nat/Clint - Natasha has a miscarriage, Clint needs her to live for him. 1/1

Deep in the throes - Maria/Natasha - Maria helps to reprogram Natasha. They become friends.   1/1

For better or for worse - Clint/Nat - they’ve seen each other at their worst. 1/1

Mitigation - Clint/Bobbi/Nat - brainwashing makes strange bedfellows -  3/3

Good with strays - Clint/Nat/Laura - Clint brings Natasha to the farm. Laura is the link to bring her to shield. 1/1

Crazy4Orcas @crazy4orcas

Underneath it all - Clint/Nat - Clint learns about Natasha’s moods through the clothes she wears - 1/1

Just what the doctor ordered - Barton thinks Natasha is perfect. 1/1

Twelve days of Clintasha (with @cassiesinsanity​) - 12 days of Christmas Clint/Nat Style. 

Kiss and Run - Clint/Nat - Natasha runs after a kiss. 1/1

Arukou @arukou-arukou 

Loop - Clint/Nat - even free of the red room she’s not free of the handcuffs - 1/1

That One Blind Writer - @that-one-blind-writer

Tumblr for the one shots which range from Clint/Nat to Bucky/Nat 

Spectral archers @spectralarchers

cute morning texts - Nat/Clint- Natasha sends Clint texts in the morning. Clint doesn’t do mornings -  1/1

Swallow your soul - Clint/Laura Clint/Nat - Clint’s past comes to haunt him. 

Wildechilde17 @transparentlyfallingasleep

In the marketplace or the Main Street you are mine - Clint/Nat - one shots of Clint/Nat - men and women loving each other without being totally derailed by it.     66/66

Flipflop_diva

If it takes three - Clint/Nat/Laura - so the thing is Clint and Nat accidentally got married. Laura’s ok with this. 1/1

If I be worthy (how can this be)- Natasha/Shuri - pre and post iw- Thor’s hammer -1/1

And in the end I’ll always be there - Nat/Tony - he’ll always find her - 1/1

The ties that bind - Clint/Nat/Laura - three decades of Natashas’ life. 3/3- can be read as 1 shots

The hardest thing, this decision I made - Steve/Natasha - Natasha has an abortion - 1/1

On this sleepless night - Tony/Nat - they both can’t sleep, he tries to figure out why she’s not asleep - 1/1

Nowhere to turn except in your arms- Nat/Steve/Tony - 1/1

Miss Jeeves

any way I do - team - tony discovers Clint/Nat got married.

Unbreakable92

warm me by your fire - Bruce/Nat - Natasha needs the warmth she has searched for so long more than ever when a kidnapping brings some violent flashbacks to the forefront.

Miss adoration @adorationamy

aftershock - Natasha/Clint- scenes after natashas brain scramble in ultron -  1/1

Builder @builder051

Nat on Fire Series - Natasha has crap coping mechanisms but she’s surviving the only way she knows how. 19/?

Creedless Assassins Series - Natasha and Clint as they make their way through. 10/?

Mohini @mohini-musing

Coming Home Series - Natasha is taken care of by Clint and Laura. 6/? Clint/Nat/Laura

Salamander

Fragments - Clint/Nat/Laura - “I know you.” “Do you?” Clint takes Natasha somewhere safe. 1/1

[lickstynine]

🎂🎂Happy Birthday 🥳 🎁🎈🎊🎉

Aww, thank you! I haven't been active on here at all, I didn't think anyone would remember 💙

[sevasey51]

Thank you for the tag my love! @astrorogers

I’m tagging whoever, but anyone who sees this feel free to join in!

@buckybarnesandmarvel @bubblessunshinehoney @anotherfuckingmarvelfanaccount @f10werfae @haleyhunwritingss @chrisevansonly @lilacevans @yelenasdiary @angelbabydoll28 @velvetcloxds @sheetsonfire @builder051 @specialagentlokitty @reginaphalange2403 ❤️

the sweet amazing @brandycranby tagged me in a fun ✨fanfic writer bingo✨ thanks for the tag angel!!!

tagging writing buddies!! lmk if i missed you bc this shoooouuuuuld be all my writing moots: @nony-bear @starksbabie @astrorogers @roamwithahungryheart @thebookbakery @hansensgirl @foxgloveprincess @worksby-d @celestianstars @twenty-thirty-two @lavendercitizen @super-soldier-sandwich @lfnr-blog-blog-blog @jtargaryen18 @stuckysdumbbitch @phoenix-rising-starbird-one @mianorth @candy-and-writing @wndalovebot @lilacevans @chrissquares @cloudystevie @evansbby @onsunnyside @sweater-daddiesdumbdork @jakeysangel @planetofawe @junipermuses @sweetlilbambi @matchamorphosis @sparkledfirecracker @navybrat817 @chrisevansonly @straywords @munstysmind @1000night @emerald-evans @brandycranby @jamneuromain @stargazingfangirl18

[emetoandotherthings]

I'm doing Whumpmas in July, and day 17's action is to ask a friend how their day is going. How are you, Est? It's been a while, but I think about you often and hope you're doing well.

This is so sweet Laur! 💙

Sorry it’s taken me a few days to reply - I haven’t been on here much lately... I think lockdown and everything else going on has messed with my head - I’ve had a couple of episodes recently, but I’m trying to get back on track and hopefully I’ll get back into interacting/writing on here and the like... 

I hope you’re doing well, you’re so sweet - thank you for the lovely message 💙

[jojowritesstuff]

carol danvers

carol danvers: if you had any superpower, what would it be?

Probably flight. Or being able to move/manipulate things telepathically. That would be hella convenient

[feelingsick]

12 and 50

12. What was your last dream about?  

Est and I have been watching Fear The Walking Dead, so I’ve been having zombie dreams a lot lately lol

50. Left or right handed?

I’m cross-dominant! But I write with my left hand.

[builder051]

for the ask, dark and cocoa!

dark - whats your favourite meal?

Well, I’m predominantly tube fed. I have a safe swallow, but my stomach is largely paralyzed and my colon was removed in 2020. I have a G tube for venting and a J for feeding.

I also have severe food allergies to dairy and soy. Besides prescription formula pumped i to my gut, I orally eat and drink small amounts of liquid or GI soft foods. I tolerate potato soup fairly well (boxed mashed potato mix prepared with double the water), and it’s fun to make it different flavors by adding teriyaki sauce or Italian seasoning or olive oil with salt and pepper… It’s definitely my favorite thing to eat.

cocoa - would you say that tumblr is a fair representation of the real you?

That’s a good question. I have my main, of course, and a couple of side blogs that are dedicated trans lifestyle content and disability/chronic illness chatter.

As for builder051, I think it represents me fairly well. It’s art and writing-focused, and those are two very joyous hobbies that make me happy to engage in and share with others. I’m very happy to have found a niche where my content is enjoyable. H/C and whump with a side of emeto is hard to mold into the mainstream fic audience, and it’s also hard to find what I like to read in there. I know I have more gaps in content lately, and for that I feel slightly guilty. Along with providing heartfelt content to my followers, I like to add some personal stuff in the form of “life updates” and ask games. I regardless of what I post, I love seeing notes and messages from my online friends. That makes me so happy; some of us have been close for 6+ years. That’s longer than I’ve ever had a friend in real life.

[comfortlesshurt]

July 2024 Plans!

I'm trying something new to see if it works for keeping me more consistent, so don't mind me.

Still insanely obsessed with Keith Kogane so uhh... sorry, that's all you're probably going to see from me this month if you read my stuff.

General Goals:

Get more comfortable with writing shorter fics instead of pushing for record word counts

Work on finding better end scenes for fics

Brainstorm for some longer multi-chapter fics for the future

Newly published word count: 19,920/15,000

Come up with a consistent writing schedule before August

Drafting priority - aim for the minimum viable amount of initial editing (then go back and refine everything in September)

Whumperless Whump Month:

7/1 (emergency first aid) - published

7/3 (like a record, baby) - published

7/10 (your work is never finished) - published

7/16 (say goodbye to filters) - published

7/19 (the whump morning after) - published

7/30 (I don't mean to get emotional) - published

Looking into 1 or 2 more days between the 19th and the 30th, but I haven't picked any yet! (Got sucked into another project and moved on to that!)

Really pushing to finish the days on time for this and move on no matter what at the end of the month. No completionist attempt here!

Bingo Prompts from @builder051:

Addiction/withdrawal - published along with whumperless whump fill

Self-surgery - published along with Whumperless Whump fill

Outlines for 3 other TBD squares, but unlikely to finish those fics in July (I'm short on my projected word count goal for August, so I'm expecting to get these finished and posted then)

Apologize profusely for taking 6 years to get to this

Augusnippets:

By mid-July, decide between path of hurt and path of whumperless whump

Resist urge to say I can do both because I simply cannot

Complete all outlines for chosen path by end of July (did I say outlines? because I accidentally made rough drafts for all of these instead)

Draft the first week by the end of July (I suspect work will be busy in August, so we're getting a buffer ready)

July and August are both planned writing months, but I'm expecting to take September to publish less and focus more on editing some stuff I've posted in the past without polishing as well as I could have. I also think I'll burn myself out if I try to write a ton three months in a row, so this just works out well.

Quick overview of the rest of 2024:

July - Whumperless Whump Event focus

August - Augusnippets focus

September - 1 or 2 short fics and a big round of editing my backlog; start to get a detailed outline on my Klance series

October - Whumptober focus

November - NaNoWriMo (either original fiction or a longfic I've been outlining, depends how I feel by October)

December - probably a heavy editing month (I want to get that NaNoWriMo fic edited so it can start to be published as we ring in 2025, but that probably means I won't publish anything new in November or December)

[i-am-too-sick]

Look at this adorable holiday card I got in the mail from @builder051 ! Laur, you are so awesome for doing this and your personal message on the inside was super sweet. 🥰

[dontfeeltoohot]

Prompt! What if Bucky’s been at a therapy appointment or otherwise separated from Steve for a few hours, and when he gets back home he looks really unwell and Steve’s trying to gently get him to admit what’s wrong without being too negative. Bucky doesn’t feel good, but he’s trying really hard to be positive and doesn’t want to admit it. Bonus points for him having a hard time separating physical and mental health and resisting being ill because he’s ‘doing better’ with his recovery.

Hey love! I hope I did you justice with this. I’m also sorry it’s not too long. Enjoy!

Warning: Mentions of vomiting and ptsd.

Bucky’s head is aching as he steps into his and Steve’s apartment. He’d gone to get lunch with Sam, which had gone better than he’d expected. No Steve to force him to eat what he didn’t want. He managed to get half a bowl of soup and even some crackers down. He’s been working on keeping a list of what his stomach will and won’t tolerate. Apparently vegetable soup can go on the will side.

After lunch, he’d made his way to PT and then therapy. His therapist, Jenny, had let him talk mostly about things he’d wanted to today, instead of delving into more complicated issues. They’d made a goal to continue working on the food list, try two new things and go visit Tony in his lab alone one time this week. Bucky could do that.

As he walks back to the apartment, he feels the soup that’s in his stomach slosh around a bit, making him want to hunch in a little closer. Instead, he swallows and tries to ignore it. The soup had been fine as he’d eaten it, and usually if it’s something his body can’t handle yet, it’ll make him feel sick right away.

His head gives a sudden throb as he moves inside the complex, and he knows it’s the lights. The fluorescent lights that like to make that low buzzing noise he’s pretty sure only he and Steve can hear. He’s been doing so well lately. His stomach has been cooperating, his willingness to tell people what’s going on mentally has been flourishing. The nightmares that used to keep him up so much that he’d be sleep deprived have vanished for the most part. The feeling Hydra is always following him has been eradicated. He’s getting better.

Once he’s in their apartment, he goes and drinks some water, remembering how one of the neurologists had explained that water helped headaches. He drinks the eight ounces quickly and wipes his mouth with his sleeve. Bucky can hear Steve in the living room, talking on the phone to someone, presumably Nat, with how his tone is slightly teasing. Or maybe it’s Bruce.

He moves into the living room and the smile that’s on Steve’s face falters, and then he’s saying he’ll call Nat back. Bucky’s confused about what’s going on but he feels good about the fact he’d known it was Natasha.

“Bucky,” Steve says in that overly cautious tone that Bucky’s grown to become nervous around. He’d used it a lot more in the beginning, and he thinks it’s been about a month since he’s heard it. It sets his whole body on edge and makes his stomach slosh. Clenching his jaw, Bucky manages what he hopes is a smile.

“Hey, what’s up Stevie?” He asks, going and sitting down next to him on the couch. Steve shifts and worries his lip with his teeth.

“Are you feeling okay? It’s fine if you’re not,” the blond says in a soft tone. He puts a hand on Bucky’s shoulder.

“I’m fine, I feel fine,” Bucky says because- well because he should be fine. He’s happy. He’s not had any ptsd issues today. He’s done things his therapist encourages. He doesn’t know why he feels so suddenly bad, and it’s frustrating to him. He feels so bad that even Steve can tell apparently.

“Buck-“

“Steven, I’m fine. Really,” he interrupts. He’s about to get up but then Steve’s palm is on his forehead. His first instinct is to pull away but he ends up leaning into the cool touch. When did his face start feeling so hot?

“Oh Buck,” Steve pets at Bucky’s hair as the other screws his eyes up.

“I shouldn’t feel like this!” Bucky erupts, pulling back finally. “I shouldn’t feel sick! I’ve been having a good day! I didn’t even have a nightmare last n-“ Bucky suddenly stumbles off the couch and into the bathroom. His knees hit tile and he’s expelling everything he’s eaten the past 24 hours into the toilet. His head throbs and he shivers, suddenly freezing.

Steve walks in and puts a hand on his guys back. “Bucky, sweetheart,” Steve says, voice barely above a whisper. “You’re definitely running a fever. You’re sick. This doesn’t have anything to do with mental health,” he promises, pulling Bucky a little closer once he’s stopped heaving for a few minutes.

Bucky doesn’t quite understand, but he lets himself be held and tries to keep thinking about Steve’s words. He’s sick, this isn’t a mental health setback. He’s doing okay, all things considered.

[emetoandotherthings]

57 and 63 for the questions :)

Thank you so much Laur - hope you’re keeping safe 💙

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of? - It was actually a demonstration for my Brownies 😂 I’ll post it so you can see

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons? - Ooooh, I’m a dinosaur girl! 

[jojowritesstuff]

snowboarding and jon snow

Snowboarding: Your favourite wintery/holiday movie? 

I... don’t have one? Not bit on movies/TV in general. I live a bit under a rock when it comes to that.

Jon Snow: If you celebrate a winter holiday, how early do you start getting excited? 

Technically celebrating Christmas but it’s never been that great with relatives and stuff. Used to get really excited about Christmas when I was really young and still living at my grandma’s place. We had this wooden Christmas pyramid thing that spins when the candles are lit and that plain out fascinated little me. I still have it, found it almost entirely destroyed in the attic over a decade after my gran passed and spent years trying to get it back together. I finally did it this year but it’s non-functional now because the heat of the candles would literally melt it away because of all the hot glue holding it together but it at least looks like it used to, it’s still my favourite little thing about this season.

For the past, seemingly forever I didn’t really celebrate Christmas, It’s become more of a hiding from people until it’s over while pretending it’s just a day like every other.

[feelingsick]

builder051 replied to your post: I’ve gotta cover an art class next weekend and I...

I love giving tutorials on my mosaic art style. It’s super easy to scale beginner to advanced. You can draw a shape or trace something (animal shapes are fun), then use a ruler to draw triangles or just a bunch of lines inside the shape, then color them in piece by piece. Darker colors look further away, and lighter ones look closer, especially if multiple shades of the same color family are used.

Ooooh, I really like this idea, too! And it'd be easy enough to explain, I think. I might give this a try! Thank you, Laur!