#but I never do

[miaushii]

i realized i never ended up posting the finished version!!

closeups ⬇️

[kazbrekkerfast]

Joining the train so if this gets 100 notes by the end of jan I’ll start correcting my parents when they misgender me despite me coming out to them and them saying they already know instead of just saying nothing and nodding my head

[little-pup-pip]

Sorry about my disappearance today!! I'm dealing with some family stuff right now, so my posts are going to be a little sporadic for a bit! I'll be back to normal soon!!

[notsocooljess]

man sometimes i wanna kick myself because when a fic idea comes into my head i jot down a few words about it and think “yeah that’ll be enough to remember how i want that fic to go” and it is in fact never enough words to remember it

[ladye-zelda]

Hmmmmmmmm

I should write more Fierce Deity

[uwurakax]

Hi... Is the Its Me Not Her smau discontinued?

hey lovely!

its been so long, ik 😭😭 none of my works are discontinued at all, but i just haven't been writing as much. ill definitely continue my works eventually, i just have other projects being worked on outside of writing/posting; but i'll be updating my works (inc imnh) in the future xoxo

[queer-reader-07]

the way i hate tiktok book recommendations is unmatched.

they're always so shallow. there's no depth, there's nothing earnest about them. it's just tropes and one liner pitches that tell you nothing.

i saw a video that recommended Giovanni's Room by saying it was about "two men who enter an intense love affair in 1950s paris" and like, yes. that is correct. that does happen. and yet, i also feel like it doesn't paint a full picture?

why don't you mention that it's not historical fiction, but rather that it was contemporary for the time it was published in? why don't you mention that it was written by a queer, Black, liberationist during a time when Jim Crow laws were alive and well? i think with a novel like Giovanni's Room especially you can't boil down the value of reading it to one, simple line. to me that novel is a heart wrenching narrative of the fear that can accompany queer love. it's a story that outlines how devastating it can be to know someone loves you but watch them live in denial and marry someone they won't be truly happy with. it's a story about how self loathing can destroy you from the inside out, and by extension the lives of those around you. "intense love affair in 1950s paris" doesn't do anything about that novel justice.

idk it's just. annoying. to watch novels be watered down to one line pitches that tell you nothing. people ask me for book recommendations all the time. and every time i recommend people books i give them a paragraph minimum about why i like the book and why i believe it's worth reading.

[aveil]

my youtube pfp has been will graham from hannibal for like 10 years

[scissorcraft]

i'm GOING to be more open about kin stuff i'm GONNA let myself be cringey on main (here not main but shhshhshshs) im gonna im gonna im gonna -clenches my fist- i'm not gonna chicken out i'm gonna do it i'm gonna talk about it i'm gonna talk about kin memories and stuff and be social on my blog and open up and not get nervous and say nothing i

[extrasentient]

bug horse for af

[awkwardlyaaron]

You wouldn't think i like sleeping by the amount of sleep i get

[running-in-the-dark]

it really kinda feels like I'm just. not a person. and I don't understand what being human is. so I pick one person and collect facts about them and keep drawing their face because if I keep doing those things long enough eventually I'll understand. right? right?!

[wanderingmind867]

I have never been good at writing, but that's neither here nor there. I want to discuss the time I wrote a book series elementary school.

When I was really young, I think I saw Atlantis: The Lost Empire early in the morning (when half awake). Later, I decided to write a story about a Water Dragon. Problem 1 with my story: All my characters were pretty much rip-offs of that movie's characters. My one other problem: I write without using dialogue or physical descriptions (because I am almost unable to write those competently). Thusly, my story read more like a series of instructions. I said people did things but never went further in detail. Still, I like the story. I liked it enough to make like 9 sequels.

As I've aged, I've slowly begun to feel disappointed in my old writing (because I now see all the flaws). My Dad always wanted to type them up and get them published, but I feel too embarrassed to agree. Well, that and it's impossible to read my old writing. I always wrote very messily.

[mordcore]

its not normal to get tunnel vision when hungry???? wikipedia doesn't even list it as a possible cause... the closest thing is syncope (fainting) which i do feel close to every time i get dizzy and tunnel vision like that (aka presyncope)

and it's associated with intense emotions & high adrenaline, which feels vaguely familiar but doesn't explain why getting hungry would cause it

i'm starting to think that getting dizzy and brain fogged and other presyncope symptoms when hungry is also not normal.... certainly is very unhelpful in the obtaining the food process so it seems like it would be an evolutionary death sentence if everyone had it

gods i am so diseased

[bihansthot]

Not surprising that only a couple of my mutuals interacted with my previous post. Not a word from the cool kids clique, or any other MK fans. I guess I’ll still leave my tumblr up so people can still enjoy my master list but I’m done with trying to stay in a fandom who doesn’t want me. It’s so sad for me though I’ve loved this fandom for 30 years, I have loved Bi-Han and only Bi-Han for 30 years but I can’t put myself in my high school mindset and be the loser all by herself that had no friends and got bullied ruthlessly, which is how this fandom feels. I might still pop by and support artists who drawn Bi-Han or in the rare event a fic but other than that I’m considering myself out of the MK fandom. You don’t have to worry about me bothering you anymore or trying to fit in with any of the OCs or trying to encourage anyone anymore. If anyone needs to reach me you can find me on discord Bihansthot#7941

To my lovelies I wish I could have said it’s been fun but I was never part of the fun. I hope all of you and your favorites don’t get bullied by anyone and make lots of lovely wonderful friends, you all deserve them. Be well and take care of each other. Take good care of Bi-Han for me. I’m so sorry I let him down, that I wasn’t enough, I tried my best but my best wasn’t good enough. Take care of yourselves and try and be kind to one another and please don’t leave people out, it really hurts.

Goodbye.

[bilbao-song]

do u ever see a relatively popular post getting reblogged you’re just like wow i am so glad i do not find this even remotely relatable