The Fosters Rewatch Thoughts
S1 E6
Annnnd I’m back with feeling bad for Brandon.
This poor kid was so frazzled for such an important audition.
He messed up on a piano piece he’s been practicing over and over for days and has probably played damn near perfect dozens of times… and he messed it up in less than a minute. In front of a master pianist he wants to impress so badly.
And I think that’s a key part of Brandon’s character. He wants to impress people, please people, be the perfect fill-in-the-blank for… frankly too many people. He has so many people expecting so many things from him, and he’s stretching himself thin. Of course he’s going to mess up. Not just with the song, but in every other area of his life. That’s the stage of life he’s in right now. He’s starting to crack. He’s trying to do the right thing constantly but there is no one right thing anymore. Maybe there never was. His parents divorced when he was 5 because his mom figured out she was gay, and he loves his second mom Lena and he loves the twins they adopted and he was fine with them fostering Callie and Jude and YET he hasn’t had a choice in any of it. We heard him say that very early on, and Stef did not listen. Stef is so loving and she is also so outspoken with her own opinion that she treats like law (heheh cop joke) and she means well but she tells Brandon “you can get mad at me but you can’t walk away” even though walking away when you’re mad can be the best thing for everyone involved. Over and over, his whole life (I assume, based off these past 6 episodes), he’s heard, “you don’t get to do that, don’t ever do that again, you don’t get a choice, well now you get a choice because you wanted a choice, so now deal with your choice” and it’s just… He’s not allowed to do… anything. He’s never allowed to just make a choice, and even when he’s finally given the chance, he’s trying to make everyone else happy, before himself, and that’s impossible. No wonder he makes some of the dumb choices he makes this whole series. He’s never been allowed to make mistakes before, has he? I mean, he has, but his parents haven’t reacted well to them, or they’ve made it clear they expected more from him, so he is trying so hard constantly to not make mistakes. But he does. Of course he does. And he lashes out. Of course he does. And then he apologizes and says it won’t happen again. But do his parents say that to him? Like, listen to how he apologizes to Stef after their fights. He makes himself so small and acts like it’s all his fault and he cares so badly about not disappointing her.
But he does. He keeps disappointing her.
It’s only natural that eventually he’ll just accept it and do what he wants. If you’re gonna disappoint people anyway, might as well do it on purpose.
And you know what? He’s a lot like Stef. When he has a strong opinion or feeling (like the big confession to his parents about his feelings for Callie; aughk I am not looking forward to that; that conversation gives me the hives) he just blurts it out and doesn’t care. And then later, he acts all gentle and soft… Dang. Yeah, they’re definitely related.
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