#but i go to a psychologist

[bookwyrminspiration]

god I would be UNSTOPPABLE if I was capable of consistently initiating tasks. just you wait. you'll be waiting a while but just you wait

[sultan-suslik4]

Psychologist: I hope I helped you)

Me: Oh yes, you helped me, I will never forget about our conversation))

Psychologist: Until the next session)))

Me: See you later

I'm on the street too: what the hell was he talking about?..

[shellofhappiness]

The general dialogue between Eric and that AOL girl regarding his philosophy on love has always stood out to me. It's one of the very few moments of vulnerability we've been given / able to find on his character over the past twenty years.

Eric always had his guard up. We all mostly know this from his own writings, no one acts like how he portrayed himself naturally. But, also including the accounts given about him from other people in his life, important or not, before and after passing. Mostly commonly described as aggressive and irritable, yet closed-off and restrained.

Alongside that online exchange, the only other times I can think of were when he called out of work to be there for his sick dog, or the innocent adoration he held toward his older brother, alongside sincere respect for his mother, of course, Reb's "I wish I were a fucking sociopath" Tape, and (arguably) his undisclosed email to his childhood best friend.

He talked about love like he was an outsider. A still figure watching it & whatever shape it may take maneuver around him, but not having the ability to engage. Let alone even acknowledge the fact it could be something of his own as well if he reached his hand out to touch it, but that wasn't even a possibility for him at that moment. Feeling comfortable enough to bring it up, but never to address it directly. Mentioning what he believed, but never outright saying it, afraid to cross a boundary. Though, he was still very careful with his wording despite not feeling confident enough to state his opinion in full. Being just general enough so he didn't risk the girl disagreeing with his words because he didn't give her an opening to do so, but still baring just a bit of his self to her through his ego because it was just the two of them.

Everyone talks about the concept of "love" relating to the case in reference to DK, because it was something that openly consumed him in private, but in a way, I feel the same just might have applied to Eric as well. But, like many other things relating to him, he hid it all away inside of himself. To live is to be vulnerable, and the times Eric was, never ended in his favor. Hence why he conditioned himself to be so isolated from everyone else, emotionally independent.

When Eric did openly talk about his doctrine on love, it was that degenerate & exploitative journal passage in which he wrote in depth about the idea of forcing himself onto certain women in his life alongside gaudy band lyrics. Considering how hesitant he was to directly speak to another girl about love, even under the context they were both being open with each other, the passage was likely written out of some kind of complex frustration. To compensate for how he felt like such a stranger in the face of it, but remarkably knowledgeable when speaking objectively. He wasn't being honest with himself, but still desperately needed some kind of liberation as an attempt to stop whatever feeling of desire he harbored from further stirring inside him.

The passion that stems from hatred is something I'm sure we all know Eric was well acquainted with. I think the hate inside of him masked the love, being overshadowed and making it appear small. It was definitely there, but seldom did it get a voice to speak in comparison to the amount of steam he let out on a general basis.

Eric cared a lot. When you look past the ego he presented to the whole world, he wasn't an individual with ASPD by any stretch of the means. He wanted not to be independent, but his life made him feel that was the only option he could truly rely on with the social instability he faced growing up. He wanted to be seen. I'm sure many people have voiced this before, but it's truly heart-wrenching to think he was doing this big finale act with his best friend, maybe because he had his best friend there to do it with him, only to find out post-mortem that DK didn't hold him to the same high regard. Maybe close, but not at all on the exact same level.

Putting the fact aside both of them expressed fantasies of doing NBK with their own respective "dream girl," DK wanted other options for someone to go through with the date, other actual people in his life, but from Eric's point-of-view, it had to be Dylan. Dylan was one of the very few people in his life, the only one still present with him, that aided his desire not to be alone. To be seen as an individual. To be vulnerable. Under the impression Dylan felt the same way he did, or at least something similar ... and while I won't deny it was there, it just wasn't as significant to the other party.

"What one person calls true love (EH) can be just another cheap thrill to another (DK)."

I'd like to specify that my goal with this post isn't to send the message that they were "gay," nor point out any form of "romantic chemistry," but rather to emphasize how languished love was overall in Eric's life. Also, I think there's an absurdist humor that comes from the irony of him saying this with what we know would follow half at his hands (you know who the other half is).

They both loved each other as friends, without a doubt, but it's so tragic to think that Eric's closest bond, a connection of love so intimate yet unrelated to direct societal romance, which created a strength so abundant that it started a ripple effect worldwide that still persists to this very day, wasn't quite requited the way he thought it was. Just like every other published bond of his, in his sad little existence.

[hypewinter]

Jazz wasn't crazy. People might argue that burning her childhood home to the ground with her parents still inside would be an indicator of insanity. But how else was she supposed to react after coming back home from college to find out her parents had brutally killed her brother via vivisection?

Dying her hair blonde wasn't crazy either before anyone asked. Plenty of girls dyed their hair when they needed a change. Besides, she could never live with herself if she kept the same hair color as that vile woman.

Admittedly Jazz would have to secede moving to Gotham had been a little crazy but it was the perfect place to start fresh and blend in despite her "quirks". She had even picked out a nice new identity for herself.

Clearly Jazz was not crazy as she had managed to land a job at Arkham Asylum as a psychiatrist. If she were really insane would they have ever hired her? No they wouldn't have.

Jazz was not crazy. She was very much sane. Just like her precious Mr. J.

[elvhenmage]

bethany telling anders in act one that he reminds her of malcolm is something that has stuck with me for weeks so playing legacy in act two with a romanced anders and listening as he calls hawke “love” and malcom’s memory calls leandra “love” is making me sick to my stomach

[ddarker-dreams]

there needs to be a name for the emotion you experience when you can tell a guy's about to turn a normal convo into something real awkward

[skeksismars]

UGHHHHH I wanted Branch's brothers to react to Branch's loss of colour, I wanted them to ask him how was his life, I wanted my dose of angsttttttt 😮‍💨

Likeeeeee imagine them asking how come Branch is greyer than they remember, he was so blue as a baby and him telling them that he went completely grey when he saw HIS GRANDMA BEING EATEN IN FRONT OF HIM and then went completely paranoid holing himself up in his bunker and he tells them he's been sad for a really long time but then looks Poppy in the eyes takes her hand and says that the taught him how to be happy again. And then his brothers feel very guilty because they abandoned him and he was all alone and sad and if they had been with him then he wouldn't have gone grey but they could have helped him process that loss.

And maybe maybe he shows them his bunker when they get to Troll Village (let's get real, he definitely showed them the bunker, he told them about it) BUT he obviously redecorated when he got better with Poppy's help and it's homey and cozy now but when his brothers are exoloring they find out some remains of when Branch was paranoid and they understand a bit of what their brother went through!!!!

[bunfloras]

damn 2021-2022 dsmp twitter fandom discourse really razed people’s friendships to the ground over fictional characters

[artsywitchling]

People are genuinely just trying to drag each other down, I feel.

Today my coworker asked what I did before I started working at the bakery and I told her I studied illustration, but since it can be difficult to build up a whole life as an illustrator this instant, I chose to take on this job instead for now. Then she asked about my age and I told her I’m 28 years old.

She then looked at me belittling. After I asked about what her deal is, she said at my age, I should have it all together. And I fucking hate her for that.

I am not too old. I am taking longer because of my own reasons that aren’t her business. But how dare telling a person you barely even know, that they’re doing something wrong or that they are taking to long!

How absolutely thoughtless can one person be to judge someone after spending just 5 hours next to each other. She has no right to make her assumptions.

I’m just really really angry about that.

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

[kacievvbbbb]

The Seraphim & The Concept of Self

I wonder who picked the Seraphim's outfits cause at first glance when you only look at S-Hawk and S-Snake it feels like there's a standard uniform. then you see the whole group and there's definitely some individuality going on; like S-Bear just wearing a mini kuma outfit, S-Shark with the gi, my man Moria got a little suspender situation going on over there. S-mingo wearing a whole ass hawain shirt. So there's definitely some variety though they all incorporate white in some way. And I wonder if maybe they got some input into what they wore one of the only acts of "free will" they were allowed was choosing whether they wore shorts or long pants which is as adorable as it is sad.

Because think about the implications that they are dressed to the taste of their adult counterparts, right down to how doffy and mihawk like to open their shirts (except for S-Snake which thank god) but yeah what if it wasn't an allowance of free will but a test to see just how deep DNA ran. If it could influence something as simple as choice of clothing, just another fact for Vega punk to marvel at.

Or maybe the clothes were chosen by one of the Vega punks (I can imagine Shaka doing it) or one of the other various lab assistants. And it's just another way to get them to embody the warlords, to reinforce who they were cloned to be, impressing on them that they are not their own people, their lives are not their own. They are already predetermined; from what powers they get, to what weapons they use, even down to what clothes they wear. Everything reinforces that they are not people, just "better" "stronger" versions of someone else.

Either way, and It might have not have been purposely meant that way because I'm pretty sure Vega punk doesn't really register them as human (which is weird cause he treats stussy very humanly and a whole other can of worms seeing as they seem to be aware and possess a personality to some capacity) it's another way of dehumanizing them, reducing them to the people they are meant to become. They have no "free will" no illusion of choice; they have a predetermined destiny, a pre-determined order, there was never any room for choice even down to the shirts on their back.

[sultan-suslik4]

В кабинете психолога

Психолог: Ну, продолжим... Как вы относитесь к людям, у которых...

Я *перебивает его* Что ты имеешь в виду?

Психолог: Позвольте мне закончить.

Me:Мне жаль...

Психолог: А как вы относитесь к афроамериканцам, азиатам или кому-то еще?

Я: Все в порядке.

Психолог: Это хорошо)

Я: Мы все равно когда-нибудь умрем и сгнием в земле... Так что не вижу смысла делить людей на цвета...

Психолог: Хорошо, что ты не расист, плохо, что все сводишь к смерти.

Я: Кроме того, каждая раса(?) и каждый человек вообще уникален, и неважно, какой ты человек... потому что ты прекрасен по-своему... и каждый заслуживает любви...

Психолог *сдерживает слезы*: Проклятый пацифист... красиво сказано... 😭

[nicoise]

i actually blame blaine's parents for why he's Like That

i bet blaine's parents were decently loving (were genuinely concerned and spent time with him after the school shooting episode) but incapable of understanding him. and even though their view of him is incorrect, they still don't really like what they see (see: getting hands dirty to restore masculinity). blaine grows up being made to feel like there's something wrong with him which is why he tries so hard to sham normal. because he tries so hard, he's also afraid of messing up (silly love songs: "i don't wanna screw this up.")

because he doesn't trust his parents to not be judgmental of him, he stops confiding in them at a young age. this is consistent with how he ends up planning to transfer back to dalton in s4 without telling anyone, how he's so stubborn not to admit his guilty pleasure, and how he picks a fight with kurt about texting chandler rather than admit his worries about kurt going to NYC.

i feel like a major breakdown in his relationship with kurt was that bit in the s6 breakup: "i feel like you're just silently judging me." guess why he's sensitive about that

because blaine thinks that just being himself isn't enough to get people to like him, he goes out of his way to do things for people. he takes on the role of kurt's protector which lasts into s3 (michael slushie incident) and becomes insecure when he can't hold onto it (tested). he sang at the s2 prom even though it's not his prom or his glee club. he helped tina with her diva week thing even though he was sick. you get the sense that in some way helping people helps him feel secure in his self worth.

the distant-but-loving thing with his parents probably also explains why he's terrible at long distance relationships. it's easy for him to assume kurt forgot about him because he's already inclined not to fully trust people's affection for him

[clove-pinks]

girl help, I had a fashion history shitpost escape containment on the Beau Brummell Forbade Men From Wearing Colours website

[marzipanandminutiae]

[TikTok Girlie voice] we’re Crimson Peak fans- we’re gonna read academic articles about anger dysregulation and violence as PTSD symptoms purely for Fanfic Reasons

[coolestguyonearth]

oh so you think this character is mentally ill. ok. thats fine. oh you think theyre a narcissist? do you think that because they show symptoms of npd or do you think that because theyre evil and you think all narcissists are evil. youre not ableist? ok, sure. but are you normal about narcissists? are you normal about cluster-b disorders? youre not ableist but are you normal about mental illness. can you treat people who have them like real living human beings or will you forever project your fear and prejudice on them