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I think about this a lot...
I just want you all to know, even if you don't see any people in your area with pronoun pins or bright, queer clothing, or with clockable traits, there's a very good chance you're surrounded by queer people who are blending in with the cishets. You're not alone.
Ever since I've started passing, I've had this repeated thought... I'll be in a public place and I'll see someone who's almost definitely queer, and it makes my day, but then I wonder, do they see me? Do they know I'm here? Do they understand that I'm one of them?
To be passing is what a lot of trans people see as the end goal, but, if you're not trying to be stealth but simply not going out of your way to display that you're queer, it can come with a profound sense of sudden exclusion - like you're too passing to count anymore, or like you'll be unrecognizable to your queer siblings
So, for everyone's benefit, I just want to say, remember that there are those of us who don't stand out. Don't assume every person that you don't clock as trans is cis. Don't assume every person that you don't clock as gay is straight. We speak out against cisheteronormativity, but to protect ourselves and remain in the safe bubble of those we expect to be safe for ourselves, we are often times perpetuating it
#i feel like this comes across as a humble brag but i really genuinely don't mean for it to be#this thought has genuinely come to me multiple times and given me a profound sense of queer loneliness#and as someone now seen as a man there's also this abrupt social shift where#i can't just tell a woman her perfume smells nice anymore without it being creepy#i can't compliment a woman's clothes anymore without it coming across as hitting on her#I've been disconnected from not just the publicly obvious queer community but also the community i grew up comfortable relating to#I'm not seen as one of the girls anymore which is good in most regards#but devastating in others#because as a gay guy i feel like there's community there that's hard to access now#i could try to be more flamboyant and obvious but i don't want to force anything that doesn't come naturally to me#and I'm too scared to re-enter that spotlight of queerness by wearing a pin or something#maybe this whole thing is stupid and whiny when I'm just being a coward#maybe i should wear a pin and rejoin the ranks of publicly noticeable queers#i feel like this whole post is just me ignoring a privilege that a lot of people would kill for#but i guess I'll post it anyway#you can join me on my thought journey#queer#lgbt#lgbtq#lgbtqia#gay#trans#ftm
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#to think there will be day i'll be posting anime fanart on Tumblr again#well i guess you can't teach an old dog new tricks#its bit old but anyway#i quite like it#mithrun#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#dunmeshi#dunmesh spoilers#where to post your anime fanart these days anyway#ig doesn't seem to work for me so#mine
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strange fellas
#my art#demon#illustration#oc#ethos#pathos#logos#lino printing fun as hell yippeeeeee#i don't have a scanner at home and i forgor to ask my mom to scan these for me like two days in a row so i just took photos#of the original scans and made do. too impatient. and the paper texture looks neat anyway#how the hell people make intricate line work with lino i do not understand. saw a mutual post a wolf's head lino print the other day#and it was so detailed with thin decorative lines. idk how they be doin it#if the answer is lots of patience and the knowledge you could fuck up at any moment then i guess i'll never hone the art
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Spock looking for whales at the Cetacean Institute!
#I've got a few more photos I'll put in a separate post I think#shoutout my mom for being an awesome photographer#four (4!) people recognized me. including an aquarium employee!!#this is at the monterey bay aquarium for anyone who doesn't know. it's where they actually filmed the scenes in the voyage home!#the guy was so excited he pointed out all the specific filming locations to me#anyways uhm. face reveal I guess. might regret it but that's for future me to worry abt 🤷🤷 feel free to rb#narcissus's echoes#narcissus plays dress up#star trek#star trek the voyage home#spock#s'chn t'gai spock#star trek tvh#star trek iv: the voyage home#star trek tos#star trek the original series#star trek cosplay#the one with the whales
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what, didn't you know most amphibians shed and eat their skin? what did you think was going on there, peppino? this is normal frog stuff. come on now.
many more sketches bc i had way too many thoughts about this to try and illustrate all in a comic. horrid beast fp agenda ❤
#every day i wake up & im like. what is the worst way i can introduce peppino and by extent the audience to something#pizza tower#fake peppino#peppino spaghetti#hey guess what❤ guess❤ im giving up on drawing their moustaches forever#jk i'll start trying to remember again on the next legit comic. but this is a silly headcanon post. so im not gonna agonize over it here#i seriously never remember ever. you've no IDEA how many revisions the others have taken just to make sure i didnt miss any damn moustaches#anyway if youre gonna try and call me out for that style of gif save yourself the trouble. i know. it's intentional. it can be our secret.#fp's lines are 'no no wait it's not-it's just mine!!' + 'do not make this harder.' in the comic; 'sorry sorry' in the image. thanx 4 readin#arting#Popular post#pizzaposting
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Weed smoking girlfriends! But they can just be hanging out if you prefer ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Happy 4/20!
#if i work on this any more you will never see it before the day's out#and if i dont post this today I'll be PISSED. cause i did NOT finish that fic and idk that I Can before the day is out 😔#anyway enough your transfem scott treat everyone im going to go smoke weed and make ravioli now#sp comic#spvtw#spto#fanart#kim pine#ramona flowers#scott pilgrim#ship stuff#sckimona#scott pilgrim fanart#spto fanart#scott pilgrim kim#scott pilgrim ramona#scott pilgrim scott#transfem scott pilgrim#kimona#sckim#scottmona#this almost had... such a caption. idk. nonsense.#this image does have alternate versions. and i am in fact going to make another version after posting this w my personal tweaks for pilgrim#(dyed red ends. i meant to add them before posting but i Forgot and if i make my roommate wait any longer for food he's probably going to +#+ start whining 🙄) (idc really im just being dramatic or silly. ect. you understand i hope)#scott pilgrim comic#almost forgot that. probably forgetting other things! but as you might guess. i am high! so idc
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birthday
#i'm posting this now because i am NOT gonna finish it in time for tomorrow#and i am definitely going to forget it exists if i don't post it right this instant#so. happy early birthday 2 bennett i guess. and happy birthday to me !!!!!!#genshin impact#bennett gi#bennett genshin impact#razor gi#razor genshin impact#rannett#benzor#...vaguely#i have to sneak it into everything#anyway eyeah. i'll finish this eventually ! or Not i dunno#razor looks liek the. sad hamster from that one meme
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I really love how separately Lila, Kell and Holland are literally the most powerful people between all worlds and also smart and resourceful and skilled but. You leave them together in a room for TEN MINUTES and disaster follows
#I don't wanna finish tftop too quickly so I've been rereading fragments of a conjuring of light#and god these three are a mess I love them with my whole heart#adsom#a darker shade of magic#shades of magic#anyway guys I've been drawing Some More Stuff#one is pretty promising so if I have time I'll post it soon <3#the other is a trust the process kinda thing I guess#delilah bard#kell maresh#holland vosijk#shrews ramblings#I also love how separate duos of them seem to be functioning pretty well and they're quite compatible too#but three? together? now that's chaos
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okay, because i saw a poll earlier and i thought the choices weren't clear enough and also the answers i saw to it annoyed me and also i'm curious:
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I am including having watched gameplay of a game and not having played it as having watched the source material
In this context if you are writing fic/making art and you are not being commissioned to do so. This is purely for funsies
You getting into something because you saw a post/gifset/video about it and then watched the source material does not count. That's just how you get into new things.
Goncharov does not count because it's not real. I'll break kayfabe here I don't care.
#polls#look i got really annoyed by reading the tags of the since-deleted poll of people like 'did you forget goncharov hahaha' like.#that. that's not what was asked.#also like. i'll reblog posts of something ive not seen if i think theyre interesting/funny#but i don't count that as like. 'engaging in fandom" necessarily#bc to me at least fandom requires active engagement? and like im not gonna go hunting for like. leverage posts if ive not seen it#i also don't read fanfic like. at all. so i have no concept of how people read it?#like. i last read fanfic like 2 years ago bc i had just finished disco elysium#so people who read fic bc of the like. tropes or whatever like. i do not get it. im happy for you though#anyway. sorry i went insane i love u all#ben leaves the house#or doesnt. i guess in this case. a very Chronically Online Poll
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a quote from the yi city arc in the novel that absolutely kills me every time:
As though someone had just thrown cold water directly in his face or slapped him awake in the middle of a dream, Xue Yang’s complexion turned an exceptionally ugly color at once.
I think it's the "slapped him awake in the middle of a dream" bit. this little ersatz domestic life for all the fucked up at the base of it has been a dream for xue yang, something he's never had before. and now, just with the fact of his name being spoken aloud, even before the final collapse, that's already slipping away.
because the life he's had with xiao xingchen isn't for xue yang; it only exists as long as he isn't himself.
#xuexiao#xue yang#the sad queer cultivators show#anyway. emotional about xy again#this isn't quite headcanon and it isn't quite meta but i guess i'll tag it as the former#aggressively headcanons#important text posts
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"Apologize."
#tw eye contact#submas#subway master emmet#subway boss emmet#emmet pokemon#kudari#animation#gif#POV you are Emmet's mirror when he comes home after Ingo's disappearance#anyways fun thing about the shorthand: mouths and eyes rarely go together#it's one or the other‚ though it's usually just the mouth#both is reserved for high action/impact scenes‚ like for the climactic part of a song#just little illustration notes‚ honestly I've been listening to more of the song I used to listen to to find animatic inspo#reminds me that I need to post that one old unfinished comic‚ guess I'll get on that
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the way Percy's friend group is literally -
4 monsters:
half-goat who's technically twice his age
one-eyed brother who's technically half his age
surprisingly lovely giant dog from hell
strangely devoted flying horse who can talk
and an odd assortment of people:
his mama
immortal lesbian who was a tree for a few years
scary buff girl who bullied him a little
autistic kid who radiates death and had a crush on him
nicest demigod ever whom he had a crush on before he... died
allegedly normal girl who now randomly tells the future
autistic girl who tried her absolute hardest to hate him then promptly fell in love with him. now they're soulmates
goddess of hearth
#pjo#percy jackson#grover underwood#tyson pjo#mrs o'leary#blackjack pjo#sally jackson#thalia grace#clarisse la rue#nico di angelo#charles beckendorf#rachel elizabeth dare#annabeth chase#hestia#yes hestia is bestie material#he also has silena stolls and butch but#they aren't really besties#tho butch probably would join the club during hoo#as you can see hoo is irrelevant for this post#but if it wasn't i'd say the list would grow by only 5 people#in order of strength of their respective bonds with percy forged over the course of my hoo rewrite: leo piper reyna hazel frank#cuz for me frank and hazel are annie's besties first; percy's second#reyna's like in a weird limbo - she'd know annabeth first but bond with percy quite a lot as well; even separated by quest#percy leo piper chaos trio where???#in my head ofc#anyway i guess i'll tag it too then#pjo hoo#hoo
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Slay the Princess, more like Slay the Prisoner
I made this drawing a while back because I really wanted to draw in the STP artstyle. I forgot to post it at the time but given the fact that it's his birthday I thought I'd post it today
#milgram#milgram fanart#mikoto kayano#slay the princess au#i guess#it's less au and more of a silly drawing#i haven't really posted anything in a while huh#turns out i'm not the best at managing my time as a college student#i'll figure it out eventually#unfun fact: yesterday i forgot to bring my calculator to an exam and had to calculate manually. that sucked#anyway i was working on an actual birthday drawing but i wasn't able to finish it in time
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He's like when your dog sees you're sad and bonks you with his big square head to make you feel better.
#renruki#rukia kuchiki#renji abarai#bleach tybw#bleach tybw spoilers#this scene was not better than all the other renruki crumbs they cut from earlier cours but it's better than nothing i guess#i did like the BOOP. i'll take the BOOP#hot take but i do not like the TYBW Smooth Flying#i liked it better when they used to have to bounce around from rooftop to rooftop#i guess that's a Living World thing. I'm still not even sure why there is now flying in Soul Society. I guess the Quincy broke the physics#can't have shit in the Seireitei Post-Invasion Rubble#anyway there was a nice rhythm to the bouncing that went well with bantering. very satisfying. i miss it
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when is a post about tboys or transmascs gonna blow up on this website!! my dash is filled with thousand-notes tgirl post after tgirl post and as a dedicated tgirl soldier I love showering in the wonderful words of women but also hey guys you should perhaps say 1 word about me. some day. when you're ready to remember I exist
#or should i just shut up expect nothing like always#men be wanting attention i guess#maybe you should deprive me of this anyways make the little man in me be so lonely. for the bit#anyways guys did you know transmasc people are real and you can TALK about them??!! 😱#knowing this site I'll get my viral tboy post and it'll be about knocking him up or something. no hate btw just sayin!
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remember that i'm ALIVE but minty isn't unfortunately
#zeno's art#ocs#soulstice circus#minty#also do you remember that death game train thing i was working on a few months ago GUESS WHAT I PICKED IT BACK UP!!!#might post some redesigns soon#anyway this sketch is from a few months ago#i'll try to comb through my ibis gallery to find stuff to share over the weeks because when i say INACTIVE i mean prob for several months#like expect things to go back to normal around july-august 😭 if youre from the UK you can prob guess which exams i'm studying for#and you should know that they're a BITCH#anyway zeno out. biology revision in.
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