#but i really struggle to get into the mindset to actually write for him

[prentissluvr]

GUYS IM SO SORRY i should’ve made an announcement or something but i just can’t get myself to write for dean. i took him off the list of characters i write so please no dean requests for the event! i'm so sorryyy aahhhh i just struggle with it so much, i am gonna write the one in my inbox though!! and i totally might change my mind abt this later, but im just trying to keep writing as stress free and enjoyable for myself as possible so that i don’t lose motivation! and the one fic i wrote for dean just sort of stressed me out LOL

[gothicfied]

can you write a squid game fic or head cannons of other characters finding out the reader is struggling with self harm? If so, thank you and I understand it is a sensitive topics and may be uncomfortable to write.

Squid Game season 2 characters x reader who struggles with sh

Featuring: Thanos / Player 230, Se-mi / Player 380, Cho Hyun-ju / Player 120, Nam-gyu / Player 124, Kang Dae-ho / Player 388, Park Min-su / Player 125, Kim Jun-hee / Player 222

(Trigger) Warnings: Mention/Talk about sh, depression, and things of this nature, this is comfort/angst, not proof read (english isn't my first language)

Summary: Basically what the ask says

A/N: hey! I hope this is what you imagined, sorry if some of these are ooc😞🙏

Thanos / Player 230

જ⁀➴ Before he really knew, he'd constantly make your life a living hell, basically making fun of your shyness. He'd make certain comments to which he knew you wouldn't react to or would try to persuade you to vote in favor of the game containing.

જ⁀➴ You'd constantly tell him off and to leave you alone. It didn't really help, though. Thanos would just sit down next to you and talk your ear off about what he wanted to do with that prize money.

જ⁀➴ When you stood up to leave, rollung your eyes at him, he grabbed you by your wrist.

"Hey, where do you think you're going?" Thanos blurted out, giving you an offended glare. "You know, it's really rude to just leave a conversation like that." When you tried to get out of his grip, your sleeves rode up your arm, revealing scars you weren't proud of or wanted him to see. When you realized it, he did too, immediately letting go of you.

જ⁀➴ Since Thanos knew what it meant to struggle with mental health he did actually leave you alone for now. But, after the next game, he approached you again and sat down next to you. "I'm sorry about yesterday." he said, patting you on the back.

જ⁀➴ He related to you in a way, but didn't want to ask you about what went on in your private life. Now you just appreciated that he seemingly didn't overstep any boundaries anymore and even checked up from you every now and then.

Se-mi / Player 380

જ⁀➴ You and her had been a duo ever since she came up to you and complimented your looks. Even if you denied it or not, she'd repeat it multiple times, winning you over with her charm quickly.

જ⁀➴ You two had the same mindset on a lot of things, originally voting 'O', thinking you were able to survive one more lousy game. That game was a death scare. Nothing about it was funny anymore. You appreciated your life too much these days to die like this.

જ⁀➴ When the second favor didn't go your way, both Se-mi and you now voting 'X', you felt helpless. One night, the two of you were sitting on her bed, just talking about your past and how you got to this point in the first place. While Se-mi was more secluded, only telling you that 'there are so much worse things she had to face when she got out' you trusted her enough to tell her about a sensitive time in your life.

"I'm not really secretive about this anymore," you pushed your sleeves up, revealing faded scars along your forearm, "but yeah. It was all pretty fucked up. The whole debt thing didn't make it any better." Se-mi looked at you with raised eyebrows, her fingers tracing the lines on your wrists. "I knew you were strong. Don't worry, we'll get out of here."

જ⁀➴ She put in double the work to protect you — She just wanted you to start a better life with that money and be happy, free from debt and all of it.

Cho Hyun-ju / Player 120

જ⁀➴ Hyun-ju noticed from the start that you were more secluded, more prone to cry, panicked easily. It was clear to her that you were struggling with this situation, perhaps even more than that. She made it her task to help you as much as she could, comfort you and keep you close to her and her group.

જ⁀➴ You'd often rant to her and tell her what bothered you after she reassured her she'd take care of anything possible. Hyun-ju was the anker you needed in this shithole and you just appreciated her very much. Everything she did seemed to be out of genuine interest and not just to gain your trust and abuse it.

જ⁀➴ Accidentally, Hyun-ju did catch a glimpse of the scars you were so desperate to hide. She didn't mention it, feeling like it wasn't her place to comment on it. Her heart did break for you, though.

જ⁀➴ From then on, she made sure to speak softer to you and distract you from all the horror around you.

Hyun-ju hugged you tightly against her chest, her arms engulfing your figure. "Tonight things could get a bit scary," she mumbled into your hair while she rested her face against your head, "I just want you to know now rather than find out later. I'll keep you safe, you know that." You just nodded, reciprocating the hug after a few moments.

Nam-gyu / Player 124

જ⁀➴ When he found out, as you didn't make the effort to hide them or anything, he did refrain from provoking you in any way. Nam-gyu related, as he considered his drug use not to be the best thing he could do to his body.

જ⁀➴ Both of you hung around in the same group, since Thanos really wanted you on his team, constantly giving you compliments and flirting with you. It annoyed him to a degree, scoffing everytime Thanos tried to talk to him about how pretty you were, how much he wanted you, give you the world. In Nam-gyu's opinion, he didn't get you.. didn't get what you went through, at all.

જ⁀➴ One evening before lights out, the two of you were teasing each other about something and laughed together — something that rarely occured amongst the other players.

"Want me to show you something?" Nam-gyu asked you, leaning a bit closer. Chuckling, you replied with a 'mhm' and watched him pull up the sleeve of his jacket, revealing skin tracks along the inside of his elbow. You raised an eyebrow: "Oh?" You took his arm to get a closer look, tracing his skin with your fingertips. "Well, we all have our stories, huh?" The man nodded at your wrists, making you look at them too, like you didn't already know what he meant.

જ⁀➴ The both of you grew close to each other, much to his amuse. He was a junkie, you were depressed.. it's like a disaster in the making. But, you didn't care. He was sweet and weirdly kind to you — Not in the way Thanos was. You made sure to hug Nam-gyu a few times more after that, in case it could be the last time you'd get to do that.

Kang Dae-ho / Player 388

જ⁀➴ You were glad to be on Gi-hun's team from the start, since Dae-ho and you got along really well. As a former Marine, which he was super proud of obviously, he declared he'd protect you immediately after you met, making you laugh.

જ⁀➴ He was kind, strong and funny, but maybe a bit oblivious at times.

During the six-legged pentathlon, you two sat next to each other, cheering the current active team on. Yelling and screaming filled the area as they crossed the finish lind just in time, making everyone erupt in cheers. Dae-ho immediately hugged you with joy, excited to see the five live another day, at least. After pulling back witha laugh, you gave him a small high five with your sleeve rolled back. When noticing scars along your wrist and forearm, the former marine gasped pretty loudly. "What?" you asked with genuine concerning, fearing something was wrong with you. "Oh, I'm so sorry," Dae-ho pulled your sleeve back over your arm. "Dude," he looked at you with wide eyes "it's fine." You needed to hold back a laugh.

જ⁀➴ Dae-ho felt so bad to havs accidentally seen something you've been struggling with, that he couldn't help but apologize profusely. You repeated to him that it wasn't a big deal for you and that you were working on this problem, but he didn't stop nonetheless.

જ⁀➴ You thought it was cute how much he seemed to care for you and how often he came up to you just to tell you that he appreciated you. And Dae-ho did, he didn't just say that to make you feel better.

Park Min-su / Player 125

જ⁀➴ Min-su is just shy over all. When he noticed it, he wouldn't say a thing. He'd be dead silent, maybe even a bit scared to talk to you. He was just scared he'd make it awkward, somehow hinting that he knew about your scars. Min-su was just someone who overthought a lot and even you noticed it.

જ⁀➴ After a bit, it annoyed you — The sudden lack of his presence next to you, the fact that he wouldn't properly talk to you anymore, it was all just weird and confusing. So, you decided to ask him directly.

"Did I do something wrong?" your voice wasn't stern, but Min-su could tell that you were kind of upset. "Ah, no-" he quickly replied back, shaking his head, "it's really not you!" He looked at you with his typical innocent face, making it hard for you to keep pressing him about this matter. "Then what is it, seriously?"

જ⁀➴ He explained what he saw and said that he just felt so sorry. Well, at least he didn't speak to you because he didn't want to hurt or upset you, which was really thoughtful.

જ⁀➴ You'd expect that he would now be the one to comfort you or something, but no it was the complete opposite. Min-su seemed to worried about you and kept asking you how you were feeling or if anything bothered you. You had to keep reassuring him that those times were in the past and that he didn't have to be so worried.

જ⁀➴ It was really cute though, so you let it slide.

Kim Jun-hee / Player 222 (implied fem!reader)

જ⁀➴ Since Jun-hee and you were pretty close in age, you two had found each other right away. You kept telling her that she needed more protection, or at least an ally like you, on her side sincs she was pregnant. You weren't really serious about that, just chuckling when bringing it up, but ut definitely made Jun-hee trust you a lot more. It was a critical situation she was in and she was glad to have you by her side.

જ⁀➴ You even banged on the door in the middle of the night to make the guards take her to the bathroom when she was to shy to do it herself.

As ths pink guard brought you to the womens bathroom, Jun-hee held onto you, clearly being in pain. A few minutes later, you were washing your hands and tried to fix yourself up, looking a bit disgusted in the mirror. "What is it?" Jun-hee emerged from one of the stalls, chuckling. "Man, I look like a damn zombie. Look what this place has done to us." Instead of getting a reply, you noticed that she was staring at your arms, at your scars. You had taken your jacket off for convenience and kind of forgot about them. "Oh, I'm sor-" Jun-hee interrupted you, "No! No, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have stared like that!"

જ⁀➴ Obviously everyone had their struggles, but now her own kind of seemed insignificant next to yours. You were doing so much for her and she didn't even know that you were struggling. She should've thought of that.

જ⁀➴ When voicing that thought to you, you felt bad that you made her feel like that. With a hug, it was all sorted out. Jun-hee cared deeply for you and she could tell that you cared for her like that, too. It was nice to know that someone had your back in a place like this.

[novthewolf]

Hi pls can you write Edward Cullen x sick reader who still tries to go to school because they are worried about their grades? It’s fine if not

Thanks z

Edward caring for you when you're sick and stubborn :

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- Edward had already a little clue about you having a cold.

- He would occasionally visit your room at night, maintaining an obviously respectful distance, and he could hear your breathing through your mouth as you slept.

- It worried him at first, with his mindset, having a flu could be a death risk. And with you being stubborn and refusing to take time to heal yourself? God, he was thankful you couldn't hear his thoughts; you would laugh at his inner panic.

- Worried about your grades? What about your life?! He would fuss to Carlisle, almost begging him to get his whole stock of medicine. He will cure you !

- And you let it brew for days, and not once did he see you clean your nose, take a syrup or pills, or even fricking rest !

- He would follow after you like a lost puppy, as if aftaid you might be blown away by the slightest sneeze or pass out a each corner.

- Now, Edward knows he's cold as ice, he feels it, you feel it, but damn god your forehead almost burned his hand by how warm it was.

- He would litteraly beg for you to just go home and lay down, he promise he will bring you all your missed classes and homework. Just home already !

- But no, you never did, too stress to even fathom it. That's fine, no really, he's just on the edge of a mental break down :)

- Eventually, before he gets too carried away, might it be Rosalie (which would knock some sense in his head) or Esme, but in the end they reassure him. They know Edward still struggles to adapt to the medical evolution since he turned and especialy while having such a fragile human mate.

- Still, he's not letting you throw your health for grades you shouldn't even have to worry about ! You work hard enough.

- So, on one particulary cold day, he would be waiting for you right outside your door. He was sick of it and was determined to get you to rest even if it was the last thing he'd do.

- Of course, he won't show it at first. No, no he's just your freaked out loving boyfriend. With a small back full of medicine hiding behind his back.

- Edward would woo his way into making you trust him that you had nothing to worry about, Alice would get all your lessons and homework and bring them straight to you ! You deserved to heal yourself and be cared for.

- "Come on, love... you know it's healthy." He sighed and rubbed tbe back of his neck, a rare show of his vulnerability. "And... it's worrying me."

- You were feeling so feverish right now and so tired you were wondering how you eyes manager to stay open.

- "But.. I feel okay, I don't think it's not a good enough reason to ditch school.." You grumbled, more to yourself than to him.

- "Y/N." He called out, firmer this time but his golden eyes carrying his lingering fear. "I know you're worried, but the more you push the more you risk to actually fall gravelly sick and then you'd have no way to persue your studies."

- You sighed and glanced away, frustrated. But maybe today.. you could rest for a bit. You had a reading to do anyway !

- "Fine..." You grumbled. Edward sighed in utter relief, like the drama queen he is, and ushered you inside.

- He would insist on you staying in bed. He'll tug you in like a kid, bring you a hot water bottle to warm the bed from the inside and also a cold rag for your fever.

- The curtains are shut, the lights are lowered and sounds are reduced to assure your full rest and peace. Edward will prepare all the medicine you'd need, and spoon feed you the syrup since you were still too stubborn to do it yourself.

- (Yes... He would try to do the airplane with the spoon. No... you will not open your mouth for it.)

- You tried a few times to reach for your book or your phone, to get updated on your homework. But damnit, he was like a sentinelle, he was so quick to look at any suspicious sounds.

- Even once, when he was from the bathroom. "Nope."

- "But I didn't-"

- "Nope."

- In the end, you pouted, the only thing you could do really. But seeing Edwars being so much more relax then he had been in days, you feel a bit guilty. People do care for you, and while I was freaking out about my grades, they were worried for me.

- Edward would notice your troubled gaze and would place a tender kiss on warm forehead. "Stubborn girl..." He smiled warmly.

- You would smile and kiss his cheek in return, a small thank you.

- Edward wouldn't cuddle you, too scared to aggravate your condition. But he would lay beside you, fingers gingerly grazing his cold fingers alongside your forehead as he talked you in hushed tones as he read you your book.

- You heard the notifications and carefuly checked it, not to alarm Big Brother. It was Alice with her cheeky texts.

- Get spoiled, baby girl, it's one of the only perks you get from being sick ! Dang, I miss being sick :c Love you ! <3

- You chuckled quietly before laying back in the bed, Edward by your side, placing à soft kiss on the top of your head.

- He stayed until you fell asleep before leaving you for your well deserved rest.

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[thefluxsystem]

10 mindsets about my DID that have helped my system:

[This is solely for the sake of sharing experiences & supplying food for thought. This post is not implying these takes are the “right way” to view systemhood.]

1. We’re individuals and we’re parts of a whole. We see each other as people in our system, but in a different way than those in their own bodies. We share a brain. We share a life. I’m me, but I’m also him/her/them at the same time. If you take a piece out of a puzzle, it doesn’t cease to exist, right? It’s still its own object. It just doesn’t make much sense when it stands alone. We need each other to be truly complete.

2. Time keeps coming. I know it’s not an unlimited resource, but it’s not scarce either. Okay, so somebody in the system didn’t get to do what they planned today. They’ll do it tomorrow. No big deal. No need to fight about it or stress over “how I’ll ever manage all this”. We’ll simply give it another shot in the morning.

3. Reality is subjective. We’re a very philosophically-inclined system, and I could write books on what “reality is subjective” means. Basically, reality is based on perception. On a societal level, it is based in the common agreement of what something is. If anyone’s perception tests the limits of this common agreement, it is labeled as untrue. This ties into why DID is largely disbelieved; it doesn’t fit in with the common reality (perception) of the average person. So it is seen as fake. And, well, if I’m going to be told I’m wrong for the most basic, inherent part of this disorder… I don’t really care if they disagree with any other aspect of it. My reality is different. That’s okay.

4. There is no original. I strongly believe the Theory of Structural Dissociation. Maybe science will prove it wrong with a more suitable theory to take its place in the future, but it’s what I roll with at the moment. Now, to us, this translates as “there is no original/we were all the original”. We’re Adventure Time fans, so we think of it like the “Mother Gum”. If all of the Mother Gum broke off into people (like PB & Neddy), no specific one of them would be “the original”. Rather, they’d all be repurposed parts of the original whole. (In a less serious way, we like to say “we all came from the primordial personality soup”.)

5. Our body is shared equally. We’ve decided our body has its own identity & “look” that helps represent us as a whole, but doesn’t take after one member specifically. In a gnawingly self-aware way, I know this is a further form of dissociation. But adopting this view changed a lot for us in a positive way. We don’t fight about hair or clothes anymore, we don’t have discomfort around our legal name, we don’t even really have struggles with gender/sexuality anymore. (We identify differently internally, but externally we identify as nonbinary & bisexual. Even if the person fronting at the moment is, for example, a gay man.)

6. Be open-minded to what happens internally. Seems straightforward enough, but we’ve wasted a lot of time trying to “make rules” for each other in the system. The biggest example I can think of is in-system dating. Around 10 years ago, as we became more aware of each other, it became clear that two system members were basically in love. We immediately became defensive. We told them that they couldn’t do that, that two system members being together was absurd & “impossible”. (This view became stronger after discovering online system spaces & “fakeclaimers” that come with it.) Though we regret it now, we shamed those two a lot in the hopes they’d drop it. They didn’t. About 3 years later it became an actual problem. They didn’t trust us; they were fronting & we were coming back to absolutely no memory of it (we usually have a vague idea at least). Eventually, they wrote us a whole thing about how they were going to be together & there was really nothing anyone could do about it, seeing as we couldn’t technically keep them apart. In modern day, we’ve had an in-system couple recently fuse. Upon reflection, we were standing in the way of genuine healing by trying to break up the first two, and we did so solely out of shame. As long as it isn’t genuinely causing harm, we try to be accepting of each other these days. This applies to a lot of other aspects; how system members appear internally, the pronouns and/or identity labels they choose, anything to do with how system members engage with each other, our differing individual perceptions of an event, etc.

7. We don’t have to like each other, but we do have to love each other. Mostly because, if we don’t, we’re holding hatred for ourself. There are certainly members of my system I would never choose to befriend if we were actually separate people, but we’re not, and we don’t get to act like we are. So even though it’s hard, I’m learning to love every piece that makes up “me”, no matter how difficult they try to make it at times.

8. Nobody’s system works like mine except for mine. Meaning, no two systems are going to be alike, and experiences aren’t often going to translate perfectly. This is true for people who aren’t systems as well— everyone’s experience is going to be different, because nobody is wired exactly the same way. Once I took that to heart, it became easier to focus on my own way of being. I could take the pieces of represented/online systemhood that resonate with me & leave the rest (which probably resonates with someone else).

9. There’s a reason for everything. This kind of ties back into the ‘we have to love each other’ thing. Each component of the system is a clue regarding how to move forward. We had someone in the system getting really uptight & controlling, to a point that it was irritating, but, taking a step back, we recognized it was a response to feeling a lack of control. Instead of simply getting angry at him for how he was acting, we were able to address the problem. My collective self is more laid-back for it.

10. It’s okay not to focus on it all. DID is a part of my life for the rest of it, whether I like it or not, but it’s nice to let it be a background thing every once in a while. Who’s fronting? Who cares. What roles do we have? I don’t know. Who’s this new person in my head? I’ll figure it out later. We’re making it through as a team, and sometimes that’s enough.

[hazshit-hotel-hater]

Moxxie Redesign! (2/4)

You didn’t think I forgot about this did you? ‘,:/

I wanted to base Moxxie off of what his name actually implies, having nerve and determination. Ive almost entirely changed his personality in certain ways. He is still an assassin but he takes his job very seriously and struggles with his inner morals because of this. Being berated by Blitz often leads to him pushing aside his concerns with his job and causing internal conflict instead that he typically only ever talks to these issues about Millie. She is trying to get him to consider therapy but he doesn’t want to lose his “sparkle” (he gives in eventually and goes and it goes fine, this would be around season 2 but definitely after episode 6)

Moxxie also doubles as a medic for any potential injuries at I.M.P (this happens often). Moxxie was also born in greed so he has the more aquatic qualities of a greed imp such as the little headlamp, frills, and gills. And for any fish nerds, yes I know only female angler fish have headlamps, thats the point. Viv has literally no main trans characters so I guess I have to do everything myself. Plus I’m tired of the super straight shit that happened a few years back, Millie isn’t any less straight for dating a trans man. I think Moxxie certainly struggles with his masculinity and also takes his job so seriously as a way to prove to himself that he’s meeting some sort of “masculinity criteria” however he’s fully aware of how silly the mindset is (hes working on it). I think som trans imps may definitely paint their horns like Moxxie, but with certain days I really doubt he gives much of a shit considering it probably gets chipped a lot anyway.

Moxxie still hates his upbringing and the greed ring leaves a sour taste in his mouth, however he prefers to use his knowledge and features from greed in his work. For example, preforming minor surgery under his headlight, it’s goofy as hell and I think any show benefits from some extent of stupid silliness like that. It’s also good for distractions!

Moxxie isn’t always super serious like in this art either, he’s still a bit stupid but still respects himself. Tough nut to crack because of his past but is very kind underneath somewhere.

Heres some notes I went off while working!

- glasses (REQUIRED. Give him those stupid little circle spectacles)

- Get rid of the stupid suit

- Maybe some interesting horn stuff?

- Make him look a bit more like his voice, not sure how to describe this

- Write a boyloser properly

- Probably doubles as a medic? I think he’d be interested in medicine with all that errrm akshully energy he has

- Make him actually look like an adult (I tried)

- More of a fishy tail

- Born in wrath but both parents are greed imps so he has those features + moved back when he was like 6 idk

- Or idk maybe imps change the longer theyre in a certain ring? Could be fun

I have a lot more I could talk about with this guy but I’ll save it for some other posts :3

[leth-writes]

Hellooooo i love your work❤️

Can I request Paul x reader where reader has a facial scar that they are really insecure about. One day, one of the other pack members makes a comment about it, and the reader gets really upset.

🤠-anon

Hello, lovely Cowboy anon! What a cool idea, and thank you so much for the praise! I’m still new to the whole posting my writing thing, so I’m always a bit nervous as to how people will react 🙂

Warning: the character expresses some opinions about their looks that aren’t actually true; obviously, facial scarring doesn’t make a person scary or bad. This is just the mindset of the character, not the author.

You had a scar. It wasn’t a small one; it split your face in half in a jagged, red line, marring your skin and just barely missing taking out your eye. It felt like the only thing people noticed about you; usually it was the first question anyone asked. Everyone always wanted to know what horrific, sordid tale you had, but the truth was even worse: nothing special had happened. It was a bad injury as a child from an accident, though you couldn’t even remember what had happened, you’d been so young. 

Sometimes it felt like that was worse. If you had some gruesome tale, maybe it would distract from the scar and give you some confidence. Instead, all you had was a face even your parents struggled to look at and a huge physical therapy bill.

When you’d met Paul, you’d finally felt seen, like someone knew you for who you were and not what you looked like. He hadn’t even really asked about the scar, he’d been so focused on staring into your eyes. That’s what drew you to him, initially; he looked into your eyes. No one had done that, not as long as you could remember. 

Paul honestly didn’t really register the scar beyond it being part of your face. It was just another feature that defined you as unique, like your expressive eyes or adorable laugh. He hadn’t even thought about how anyone else would react, let alone how you would feel about it. All he wanted was to introduce you, his imprint and the center of his universe, to his best friends, practically his siblings. 

When you expressed concern about what the others would think, Paul assured you they would never do anything to hurt you. In fact, he told you, Sam’s girlfriend Emily had a similar scar, so everyone was used to being polite.

He was wrong.

The first thing Sam said when the two of you walked in was a snarled “Paul, what did you do?!”. He practically leapt across the room, dragging him bodily out the door as he struggled not to shift. The two stood on the far side of the yard, clearly arguing, Paul struggling not to shift. You weren’t sure what had upset Sam, but you knew it had to be serious for the, as Paul had described, normally calm man to be so angry.

The next thing that happened was Jared walking in, muffin hanging from his hand, as he exclaimed “holy shit! What the hell did Paul do to you?”. Then, it hit you. They were talking about your scar. For once, you hadn’t even thought to wonder what they would think about you, Paul’s confidence at their presumed lack of care had rubbed off on you. You realized Sam was convinced Paul had hurt you, had shifted and created the large, hideous crater across your face. All along, he had been wrong; the scar was all anyone would ever see. You couldn’t even meet Paul’s friends without someone thinking you’d had some horrific incident, forever injured by your imprint’s wild temper. 

You opened your mouth to defend Paul, only to slam it shut as your eyes filled with tears, damaged tear duct stinging at the salt. Your face fell, mouth wavering as you tried not to cry, and you flew out the door and down the yard. You raced to the car and hopped in, slamming the door shut and quickly backing out. 

The drive back was quiet and solemn, all alone for the first time in weeks, and you had to stop multiple times just to cry. You should’ve known better than to get your hopes up. By the time you reached your house, you had no tears left to cry. All you wanted was to bury your head in blankets and never come up for air, maybe save the world the sight of your face.

Once you entered your bedroom, you spotted Paul, shirtless, by the window. He radiated warmth into the now cold, dark room, looking sheepish.

“Hey. I’m sorry about what the guys said, Emily’s gonna talk to them and make them apologize. They didn’t mean to scare you off by talking about your scar…” He said, rubbing his arm in thought.

“I-I just thought that, maybe, someone would look at me for me, not my scar! It’s all I wanted, all I ever want, and you’re the only one that sees me! Am I going to be stuck this way forever?!” You vented, hands reaching up to clutch at your forehead in frustration.

“No, no! I promise, the boys will love you; it was just a surprise, is all. Please, just give them another chance,” he pleaded stepping closer.

“And you aren’t hideous. I love your face, scar and all. It’s part of what makes you who you are.” he continued, bringing you into a tight hug and burying your head in his warm shoulder. “If you want, I can beat them up for you, maybe give them a scar and see how they feel?” He joked, smiling at the soft, hiccuping laugh that rang through you. You sighed, further melting into his chest. 

“Hey, how about we cuddle? I can feel your goosebumps,” he teased, dragging you to the bed as you sighed. Laying down, he gripped your leg and threw it over his hip, wrapping his arms around you and rubbing your back. He pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead and traced your scar, whisper-soft. “I love you, okay? Don’t ever forget that.” He sighed, putting his chin to your forehead. You hummed, burrowing in deep, already drifting off. Maybe you would ask him to make the pack train extra hard as compensation.

[lyxthen]

I want to write an essay on how the Book of Bill expertly subverts the "villain with a tragic backstory/antisocial protagonist" narrative by portraying its main character as evil, trying really hard to look cool, and failing pathetically. The book is making fun of him, and that is actually kind of revolutionary, because most stories with evil, pathetic main characters tend to take themselves, and by extension, their protagonist, way too seriously, with way too much dignity, which leads to people misinterpreting them as heroes or idealize them in some way, and then replicating these harmful attitudes. They follow life coaches that will teach them how to be "alpha males."

Bill presents himself as one of these "life coaches," he will teach you the secrets of the universe, he will help you to game the system in your favor, to manipulate people to get what you want, he will free you from the shackles of society and reality itself-- but he is lying. The success rate of Bill's evil schemes is laughably small. He's a manipulator, to be sure, an incompetent one. His dimension rejected him, his friends don't actually like him, throughout the ages humans have found him insufferable, and to top it all off he ruins the relationship with the only being in the history of the universe he has ever truly felt understood by.

And instead of going "gee, maybe there *is* something wrong with me, after all" he doubles down on his harmful ideas. He doesn't have a problem, everyone else is the problem. Nobody gets his vision. They are all small-minded creatures of no value. His failures are always somebody else's fault. He didn't want to hurt anyone, he was forced to. It's not that bad, he's just being silly, he's having a laugh.

And we, as readers, we are horrified at all the bad things he does, but we also laugh. Not with him, but *at him.* He is being constantly ridiculed by himself, and the funniest part is that he doesn't even realize. He thinks he is absolutely acing this.

He isn't.

Eventually, it is revealed that Bill has no idea what he is talking about. That he has been defeated, rendered powerless, stuck forever in interdimensional therapy. The book tells us, "This is what happens to people like Bill if they don't change. They end up with nothing. No riches, no fame, no loved ones. They will be unhappy forever unless they realize there is something about them worth changing and decide to act on it."

This is in contrast to Stanford, someone who, just like Bill, was deeply hurt and rejected by society, struggled to feel understood, and took refuge in a narcissistic (bear with me-) view of the world. Diagnostic labels aside, Ford genuinely thinks he is better than everyone else for being smarter. He is a textbook Aspie Supremacist that swears by IQ tests because it's the only thing that has ever validated him. That's why he gets along with Bill, I think, they really *have* compatible mindsets. Ford really thought Rudolph should've killed the other reindeer. He constantly dismisses Fiddleford in what feels a very classist way (even if he grew up working class himself). Ford isn't manipulative and malicious in the same way Bill is, and I don't want anyone coming at me for saying Ford is evil. He isn't. He might be a bit of an ass, but he has a moral code, he knows that what Bill wants to do is A BAD THING and dedicates his life to trying to stop him. Stanford's biggest flaw is not appreciating the people around him more for their inherent value (not that he doesn't love them! he does!), but he learns, and he changes. He is more considerate of other people's needs and their perspectives.

And by the end, he is happy. He is free from Bill, he has his family, people who will support him unconditionally and will put up with his nonsense because they love him.

Stanford will never find someone who is as smart as him, who has been ostracized the same way he has. But that's okay. He has an inherent value as a person that has nothing to do with how smart he is in comparison to other people. He doesn't need other people's approval to be happy.

That is, I think, what the book wants you to take away. Don't be like Bill. Don't fall for the Alpha Male scam, or eugenics, some new age cult or multilevel marketing scheme, reject the ideas at the base. Talk to your family and friends, touch grass, find a group that shares your interests, but don't dwell endlessly on resentment, and don't follow people that tell you that the only way to be valuable is to be "superior" in some abstract metric, and that they can teach you how.

(As a kid, I almost fell down the alt-right pipeline-- and I am Mexican, transgender, and autistic. I fantasized about blowing up the school every day. I know what the fuck I am talking about when I tell you this.)

They are lying. You don't want to be like them.

You don't want to be like Bill.

[the-s1lly-corner]

What would be the reaction of Alastor, Charlie, Lucifer, Adam, Vox, Husk and Angel to a reader who has diction problems, like where they confuse words for others because they forget the name of the objective and mispronounce it...

Note: I have diction and my friends when we are playing together always laugh at me for doing these things... I just wanted to know

Various HH characters x reader who struggles with words

God I felt this request so bad, I'm bad when it comes to words/speaking them, usually it's the long pause and struggling to actually start saying the word hisshiss.. also sorry for not doing all the characters asked for!<\3 requests are limited to only 3-4 characters <\3

Characters: Lucifer, Charlie, Husk

Notes: reader is GN, admin admittedly does use their experience to write out the readers experience so!! Obligatory his experience isnt universal!

CWs: none

LUCIFER

hes very similar to his daughter in regards that hes pretty patient with you, finishing your sentences is like second nature for him

its a little sweet that he visibly looks proud of himself for helping you out

while charlie will gently try to remind others that youre still talking, lucifer is going to be more bold and just say it out loud that you werent finished

will not tolerate any disrespect thrown your way, he will at minimum give a dirty look if someone is even slightly rude to you

if youre fine with a friend teasing you, its best to let him know that otherwise hes going to be giving the stink eye to said friend the entire time

hes... going to be a little.. confused on it but hes not going to stop you from indulging in the humor

CHARLIE

shes so so patient with you and doesnt push you to try to get your words out faster, sometimes she even offers to finish the sentence for you if a certain word or two keeps evading you

though she will keep from doing that if you express that it makes you feel bad about your struggles, and she'll be sure to apologize in that case

if theres anything she can do to help you, just let her know! shes going to do everything she can to accommodate you- not only because youre staying in her hotel but because you two are close!

makes sure people give you the time to get your thoughts out, and will advocate for you if the conversation is moving too fast before you can speak

HUSK

more often than not hes going to let you finish talking on your own, only really offering to help you find a word if its clearly distressing you

its not so much fear of overstepping, its... something else, its hard to explain... likely because hes so used to being the only one taking care of himself, that he applies the same mindset to others- you can help yourself, you can get the words out

at least he believes in you! thats something! of course he doesnt deny your struggles, thats the last thing hes going to do

will give you the chance to stand up for yourself if the conversation carries on without you, but if it happens over and over... and youre clearly hurting, hes going to snap at the group to remind you that youre still in the conversation

is it a little confrontational? yes, but hes not exactly known for being gentle

[notebooks-and-laptops]

Okay so. It seems I'm in the minority about not liking the Spike-With-A-Soul plot. I've not really interacted with the Buffy fandom before this so its wild to me this is how people view it. Because the thing is...

Buffy is at its best, always, when it rejects the concept of ontological evil Vs good and of all the shows from that era (charmed is a big one that comes to mind) I think Buffy when it got a few seasons under its belt was one of the best shows at rejecting the ontological evil Vs ontological good mindset despite the fact that it's a monster of the week show. Oz, Buffy, Faith, Spike, Buffy, Willow, Harmony, Xander, Riley, Anya, Warren, Jonathan, Andrew - all of these characters are continuously used to show moral complexity, particularly that goodness is a choice and what does it mean to be a harm to others?

And spike epitomises that. He is the monster who suddenly had to deal with not being allowed to kill people; which led him to form bonds (particularly with Buffy and Dawn, but I'd argue he makes bonds with the rest of the Scoobies bar maybe Xander too) which led him into empathy and trying to do good even when it came at his own expense. There is this lingering question by season 6 with spike; if you removed his chip would he go back to how he was in season 2? Would he kill and maime and torture, or would he make the choice to be good just like the rest of the Scoobies have to do daily even when giving in would be easier.

And I think spike would have a wobble sure, very Anya esque in that regard, but I think he'd ultimately just like Anya NOT find it easy to go back to being 'evil' after having his chip removed even without a soul. And the lore implications to that are FACINATING and way cooler to explore than like. Soul = good, not soul = bad.

And also...I know people are like 'he was irredmiable after seeing red so it had to happen so we could like him again' but uhhhh that's actually one of the reasons I DONT like spike getting a soul. It really feels like the writers wanted a cop out, a way for us to go on shipping and engaging with Spuffy and absolve Spike. See he did a terrible thing but he can still be your pathetic little favourite wet man because we gave him a get out of jail free card! And that's just...kinda nothing to me? I mean sure he worked for that soul, did the trials, but it's not the same as actively having to deal with doing a terrible, unforgivable thing and where you go from there. It's just. It feels so cheap. Like they wanted the 'edgy, brutal' scene but they didn't ACTUALLY want the consequences so oops he's got a soul now don't worry about it he can still be your fav little guy. (And yeah, I mean. I do think the writers would have struggled with spike after seeing red if they didn't do something drastic - but if they weren't willing to grapple with it they shouldn't have done it, otherwise it just feels even more ick to me ya know.)

Idk I like season 7 for what it is but I think ultimately it was a backslide from so many interesting things set up in season 6, even willow kinda goes back to having good Vs bad sides rather than just being a complex individual with capacity for both. And spike is the Biggie for me because I'd have MUCH rather had the plot of 'buffy removes spikes chip and trusts that he's become a better person and doesn't need it anymore' than 'spike has a soul now so he's chill'. Also I think it would have made his plot with the first and potential killing waaaaay more engaging if they hadn't been able to write it off with 'but he has a SOUL now'.

(I think a really interesting plot would have been everyone THINKS spike has a soul even spike but it turns out he DOESNT and what the fuck does THAT mean?)

[aristaspark]

Notice how Darius didn't look at Brooklynn's arm?

It's not me who's saying this. That's a conversation that's happening in the fandom that I wanted to talk about because I find it truly...idk, kind of icky, and of bad taste.

I decided to speak about it after having stumbled once again upon a post using Darius' lack of "notice" of Brooklynn's arm as an argument for the ship, but it's far from being the first time I've seen people bring it up.

Don't get me wrong, my problem isn't that they're supporting the ship, even though I believe Kenlynn to be endgame, I can admit that there are elements that could point towards dinostar possibly being endgame, my problem is with this argument specifically, because it looks like the ones using it are purposefully being obtuse, and are missing the point. To me it's a really disrespectful outlook on the work of the writers and their handling of Brooklynn's disability.

For context, Brooklynn explains to Soyona that she doesn't like the way people look at her ever since she has lost her arm. I love this scene. We get an insight into Brooklynn and her struggles, into how she is still adapting to the way people perceive her now that she's "different". The loss of her arm isn't brushed aside, it has lasting consequences that the writers don't shy away from. They consulted people with limb differences to make sure that they'd show an authentic representation of their expericences, and you can see the care that they put into telling that aspect of Brooklynn's story.

Now that we established that, yes, Brooklynn is struggling with the way she is perceived, let's talk about why I hate what the fandom makes of it.

There are two characters who react to Brooklynn's arm: Ben and Kenji. And from Brooklynn's reaction, we see that she feels some type of way about it, even though she has very different reactions to the two of them, because the two interactions are VERY different.

During the scene with Ben, we can see that Ben's gaze, despite himself, is drawn to her arm. That's mainly because he had no idea that she'd lost it, but since they were both very stressed and there were millions of other more "pressing" matters he should have focused on, it hurt Brooklynn that his eyes kept ogling at her arm. Neither of them were in the right mindset. He was slightly insensitive in the way he approached the subject, which caused Brooklynn to react negatively. But it's never shown as a black and white thing. Ben apologizes and afterwards, Brooklynn is able to focus on something else because she's an actual intelligent and social being who's aware that simply because Ben looked at her arm didn't mean that he thought of her as less than. It was a human interaction, realistic, and in no way was it implanted to say something about Ben and Brooklynn's relationship, to imply that Ben having a reaction made him a bad friend somehow. This is simply realistic.

Now, Kenji. He first notices her arm when she's talking to Ben, and we can see that he focuses on it for a hot second, before looking up at her face. Needless to say that in that moment there's a million things going through his mind. Brooklynn is alive, she's there, Ben knew Brooklynn was alive, she has lost a limb... We can see he is hit by all these informations which are way too much for him to process. It's NORMAL, EXCPECTED that he'd have a reaction to seeing her missing arm. Any other reaction would have been stupid. It's as if your lover left for a few days, came back with a missing limb and you said nothing. This doesn't happen. Them writing this into the show says nothing about Kenji's status as a love interest, he shouldn't have to ignore it to be considered a suitable partner and I find it kind of disgusting that people imply this. His lover has lost a limb, of course it will have an impact on him.

Now, the second time he looks at her arm is when he's finally reunited with Brooklynn. But simply reducing this interaction to "Kenji looks at Brooklynn arm -> Brooklynn scared -> Bad = Darius better" is a thought process I'd expect from a pre-schooler.

Kenji spends a very long moment staring only at Brooklynn, at HER FACE, expressing his emotions (beautiful scene by the way). Then he WILLINGLY looks at her arm. Kenji's aware that she's looking at him and he has already seen her arm, the only reason he looks down at her arm is because he wants HER to be aware that he has seen it, and one shouldn't have to be a genius to understand this. And he looks incredibly sad because, I know that's crazy, but as someone who love(d)s her, this impacts him. And Brooklynn has a reaction, I know that's crazy. But unlike with Ben, she looks scared, not mad. I won't spend too much time on this because I already did a brief "analysis" of this scene, but I took it as either she was scared that he'd see her differently, either it was the manifestation of all the hurt she's suffered (yk, often when you open up about something, you feel the emotions as you tell the story, and to me this could be Brooklynn allowing herself to show someone she's suffering for the first time, as if a silent conversation had taken place. Kenji asks what happened to her arm with his eyes, and all the hurt comes flooding back as she's reminded of everything she's been through).

Now, some people use the fact that Darius didn't even glance at her arm as, idk, a good thing, patting him on the back for it (which, on its own, is incredibly weird to me). Yasmina and Sammy didn't look at it either, but since they're not shipped with Brooklynn most don't care, it's not about disability but about somehow gaining points in the battle for Brooklynn.

But I'm like, you have to purposely being obtuse to use this as an argument. If I was Brooklynn and I was presumed dead for a long time, and when I came back I had a limb missing (implying an immense amount of suffering) I would absolutely want my partner and my friends to notice it ??? ESPECIALLY the person I love?? Actually, if he didn't notice I would straight up hate him because that would just mean that he DOESN'T CARE.

Implying that strangers looking at Brooklynn's arm and her loved ones reacting to her evident trauma are the same thing is wild, but using it as an argument for shipping is worse and, to me, an insult to all the work the writers have done to tackle the subject of disability. There isn't some checklist of people who looked at her arm and people who didn't, Darius (as well as Yaz and Sammy) don't deserve a cookie (or Brooklynn's love for that matter 🙃) because they didn't look at it. Ben and Kenji reacting to her arm doesn't mean that they somehow care less about the fact that Brooklynn's alive or that they love her less than the others, and Darius isn't "special" for not having looked at her arm, because Sammy and Yaz also didn't. It simply means that they are well written characters who react to things in their own, sometimes clumsy way.

What bothers me is that these scenes clearly weren't implanted for shipping matters, but are part of the characters' journeys with Brooklynn's disability, and her own journey. Them being present doesn't somehow put a definitive stain on Brooklynn's relationships with Kenji and Ben, things don't work like that. If anything I find Kenji's scene with her to be very touching, because you can just see how devastated he is for her, and how frightened she is.

It's not the fact that people look at her that hurts Brooklynn, it's the reason and the manner in which they look at her.

Idk to me it's kind of disrespectful to the work the writers did because it's implying that they tried to say Darius was the one for Brooklynn simply because he didn't care for his friend's severed limb. I think there are better arguments to make for dinostar, and less insensitive, than to reduce this very important topic to shipping.

Anyway, thanks for coming to my ted talk 😭

[thequietkid-moonie]

Could you possibly do some scenarios (if you're still doing scenarios) for Peko Pekoyama, Mondo Owada, and Fuyuhiko Kuzuryu (separately) with a shy friend who hides behind them?

Their shy friend hides behind them

[ SCENARIO ] [ Mondo, Peko, Fuyuhiko ]

[ Trigger Happy Havoc ] [ Goodbye Despair ]

CUTEEEEEE!!! This request is so cuteeee <333 annon thank you so much for requesting this, its so wholesome, so cute, so fluffy

I absolutely loved writing this so i hope you enjoy it too 🩷🩷

Mondo Owada

To become friends with Mondo is a bit problematic at first, there was the problem that Mondo didn't understood well what you tried to tell him at first due your shyness, not speaking in a high or steady voice used to irritante him and end up coming across as rude, however with some time and patience you two can actually become really close friends since no matter how intimidating Mondo may look like he is actually kind-hearted

Even after becoming close friends Mondo sometimes still accidently yell at you when your shyness makes dificult for you to speak up or stops you from doing something you actually want to do, but not because he is mad at you but because he feels frustrated, he feels irritated by seeing you struggle so much because he wished he could do more for you, after all, thats what friends are for

Thats why when you end up hidding behind him out of shyness he feels flattered and even proud! The first time have caught him out of guard to the point that he had to ask you what you were doing but when the dots connect in his mind he feels a protective instict inside of him

There is a unspoken deal with you and Mondo where he is fine with you hiding behind him for whatever reason you want and he will not ask and simply shield you, he just feels proud and somewhat comforted that you feel so safe with him so he just let you do it and simply ask you about it when you are more calm (not always tho, once he get used to it he simply dont ask your reasons)

It doesn't matter if you hide because you are feeling shy, overwhelmed or even scared Mondo will shield you without a second thought, although if you feel scare he will get even more protective over you but aside from that he will just make sure to cover you so you can have a moment to try to calm down, he doesn't really mind and don't mentionate, but if you do he will get a little embarrassed (specially if you try to thank him, he just grow even more embarrassed and insist that is nothing you have to worry about before trying to change the subject)

Peko Pekoyama

Peko is a person who is dificult to aproach thanks to her intimidating appariance but she is actually incredibly caring and even quite gentle, she may have troubles making friends but that doesn't mean she doesn't want them

In all honestly Peko doesn't really mind much the fact that you are shy, it doesn't bother her and simply tries to be patient with you when your shyness hinder your freedom to communicate, still it is quite the surprise for her to be able to become friends with someone so shy but she doesn't question it and simply enjoy being with you

Peko simply gets used to your shyness and even become quite protective over you, she sees herself as a weapon and her sword exist to protect the ones she care for, so once you grow close enough to be considerate a friend then her sword will be there to protect you too, Peko herself has the impulse to step infront of you whenever you feel treated or overwhelmed so when you end up hidding behind her it isn't taken as something weird but at the same time it is something incredibly meaningful for her

Peko has the mindset to protect those who she cares for but knowing that you actually know that she is there for you and even relay in her when needed it is quite comforting to her, you have put your trust on her and even tell her indirectly that you feel safe with her, so she will not betray that trust for nothing in this world

Actually it can be a little problematic hidding behind her because Peko takes it too serious, even if it was just because you were feeling too shy and needed a moment to yourself now Peko is acting almost like a bodyguard, making sure no one gets too close and that no one bothers you while you can calm down, and if it is because somehow you feel threaten then she is too close to take her sword and get into a fight

Peko takes it so serious that when you finally feel more calm and are ready to come out again she makes sure to ask you how are you feeling and if you are sure, and even when you confirm she still keeps an eye on you just because she is worried that something really bad have happened, she will apologize for overreacting if you point it out but will also shyly admit how happy she is to know that you trust her that much

Fuyuhiko Kuzuryu

Despite being quite intimidating and short-tempered Fuyuhiko actually is kind hearted and caring, the one who is the most surprised to end up having a shy friend is Fuyuhiko himself but once you two grow closer he makes sure you know he is there for you and that he appreciate your friendship (even if he is too embarrassed to say it out loud)

Because of his family and the way he have been living his entire life Fuyuhiko constantly takes your shyness as innocence wich only lead him to want to protect you, he just sees himself as being so diferent from you that he wants to protect that innocence from the cruel world he knows, so even if he tent to yell when he feels embarrassed or quickly get irritated whenever thanks to your shyness you have dificulties to speak or do some things he is actually trying to help you to gain more confidence on yourself

Even so Fuyuhiko doesn't actually wants to change who you are, he just try to push you a little to gain more confidence to speak up for yourself just so you aren't defensless in the world, and yet he has no problems to speak up and even defend you whenever you are having troubles due your shyness

The first time you end up hiding behind him because you felt overwhelmed and just couldn't get out of your shyness or even because something scared you Fuyuhiko is in shock, its just that a lot of thoughts are running throught his mind to even be able to say something and yet he would snap quick and yell at anyone or anything that is bothering you (before scolding you for simply hidding, specially behind him)

Despite his initual reaction it isn't like Fuyuhiko mind it much, the more it happen the more he grows used to be your shield to whatever is bothering you, and he even end up reaction pretty defensive whenever you hide behind him, he just grow used to simply don't say anything about it until he made sure no one is looking or you two are alone to look back and ask you if you are alright, he cares for you and always gets worried whenever you hide behind him but doesn't want to admit it in front of others

Also, he will not admit it out loud but the fact that you feel so safe with him to the point of hiding behind him is quite comforting to him, it makes him feel like he is doing something good, if you trust him that much then he is not that bad

[martialartslover7]

Neji Hyuga - My Headcanons

I have already spent the past few months or so, writing my own titular, pre-Shippuden, Hyuga clan saga, and now, through a number of interactions with friends and followers on here, and on Twitter, I have gathered a number of headcanons, related to Neji himself. That also took shape for me, while writing the Hyuga Showdown story. Let me run it down.

Neji loves philosophical discussions

His life, as part of the Side Branch, burnmarked him, time and time again, for how often he got beaten down, just for being alive, and bearing a mark, that has done nothing, but repeatedly remind him, how "worthless" he is, according to the Hyuga council. And despite Naruto and Hinata having invoked a feeling of hope in his soul, you just know the nihilist part of his soul starts speaking through him, once he starts quoting famous philosophers, and asking questions about, wether life has any true meaning, whether it even matters, or why humans need the struggle to grow. He is just fascinated over how complicated and nuanced human beings can be, how they face adversion head-on, and choose to either be steadfast and morally upright, or choose to do harm, as a coping mechanism. The same way he used to do.

Neji is really fuzzy about how he presents himself

Neji, in spite of "macho" appearances, is very immaculate and deliberate on how the people around him perceive him. He takes great pride in his appearance, his hair, his skin, his overall posture and form, all of that matters to him, and he isn't even ashamed to admit it, flat-out. This is part in due, how the Hyuga clan generally approaches combat, and the philosophy of "intimidation, through not just discipline, but fashionable dress-codes, and orderly, personal hygiene". Going along with the idea that, you can strike fear and respect in your opponent, if you don't just fight at your best, but you also LOOK the best. That is one part of the Hyuga clan culture that Neji wears, like a badge of honor, and takes great pride in.

Neji is the biggest gentleman, you can ask for

Despite what some non-canon material showed, may it be played for laughs, or just to "slander" Neji's character, whatever, even with the Byakugan granting Neji X-ray vision, being able to look, even through a person's clothing, he never, and I mean, NEVER, uses it to spy on the girls, or look at their underwear. ...Except, maybe for Tenten, but that is to assume that, they are already working towards a relationship, and deep down, she wants him to look, but other than that: Nope. Neji is NOT a Peeping Tom. He is one of the few mature guys in the Konoha 12 group, who always remains respectful of a woman's boundaries. If anything, that title belongs more to Hinata. Because, y'know, she wants get in on some of dat... Fox tail. Know what I'm sayin'? Always beware of the shy ones, they are the most dirty-minded, life itself taught us all that lesson.

Neji is one hell of a bro, too

Not only is he popular with the girls, just for how mature and classy he remains with them, Hinata included, but when it comes to the guys, he is not making them an exception, he is always ready to help out, wherever he could. Even helping the other male comrades, if there is a more complicated problem to deal with, where his opinion is valued by a big margin. I guess you can attribute that line of thinking to how all these years, spending time with Lee and Guy, may have influenced his overall mindset on how to interact with people. Sure, he is stoic, silent and keeping to himself, but when he sees and smells bullshit, he will always be the first one to call it out, without exception, not caring about the feelings of those, who are out-of-the-loop, or the consequences, beyond his control. If Shippuden was actually, you know, GOOD and consistent with the characters, I seriously doubt that Neji would just stand there, and watch Sasuke's character get publically slandered by both the elders, the wannabe-journalists, and the Kage, ESPECIALLY the Raikage, who had the biggest grudge to bear, since Sasuke attacked Killer Bee (even though, that was a clone). But again, if Kishi had cared enough, Neji would have unapologetically sided with Sasuke, all the way through, since he is one of the few, who can truly sympathize with him, outside of Team 7. Not helped at all, by how the Lightning village had once tried to kidnap his cousin, when she was still a child. He wouldn't just stand around and stay silent, because these asswipes were pulling the same tactic that they once pulled on his family. Looking for an easy scapegoat, because it's convenient. He just wouldn't let it happen. He just wouldn't, he is one of the few shinobi, who has actual integrity and moral consistency.

Neji shares the same hair- & skincare products as his cousin

Again, referring back to him caring about his outer image, and how he presents itself, he will always be kindly asking Hinata, if he could rent her hair conditioner, because that long, immaculate mane of his won't be staying FABULOUS by itself. And not just that, I just remember reading one headcanon somewhere else, that he and Hinata keep trading their bodily care products between one another. Neji using Hinata's hair conditioner (I mean, her hair during the Blank Period, I lowkey want to bury my face in that), and Hinata using Neji's facial skincare mask, and you know what? I will stick to that. It just sounds so in-character for them. Dem Hyuga genetics, always looking photogenic without trying "too hard", or, so they say. No, darling! Fabulousness doesn't EVER come for free, damn it! But that also means, Neji is taking huge pride in maintaining that royal mane of his, if you cut it, ruin it in any way, or rip a strand out by force, he will curse you, all the way to your grave. It's just ridiculous, but then again, who doesn't have weird quirks and things one can take pride in, that makes them stand out?

Neji's love language is combing his women's hair

(Artist source)

Once the missions are over, or he is taking a break, and Tenten or Hinata happen to be in his team, or they just hang out in private, Hanabi included, Neji's way of showing how much he loves them all, is by volunteering to comb their long hair. Tenten, Hanabi and Hinata are the only ones to enjoy this privilege of having Neji being their "hairdresser", if you will. And every time he finishes, the girls always return the gesture, combing his long hair in return, too. It's a very one-of-a-kind action, that he purely reserves for those women, who mean the world to him. And yes, that includes Himawari (Screw you, Kishi, killing off Neji was a horrible idea, and no amount of rewrites will ever repair the damage you have done to your own story with the amount of retcons you pulled out of your ass, and what you did to Neji's character, especially post-mortem, so just for how disrespectful his entire death scenario was handled, just out of principle, I will just pretend, it never happened, it's only fair), and if she were alive, maybe even Kushina. He is not serving the Main Branch, he is serving his family, and them alone.

Neji is more of a stay-at-home parent, than Tenten or Hinata

(Artist source)

If there is anything I have truly grown to despise about Boruto, is that, every woman in the OG cast was reduced to JUST the role of a housewife, and barely anything beyond that, especially Hinata. No excuses, this is something, NO ONE, with an ounce of integrity, should have ANY tolerance for. The reason why this is so irritating to begin with, is because, Kishi is not exactly known for having favorable opinions on female characters, right off the bat, so stuff like this, is just annoying and on-the-nose. Not to mention, offensive, too. So, no, let us just get petty, and turn this entire concept on its head. Sasuke, Shikamaru and Neji are the stay-at-home-husbands, who mostly do the housework, while their wives are the core breadwinners. Nuff' said. Because these three, have worked and suffered the hardest (amongst others) in their entire lives, they deserve to just have some peace and quiet at home, keeping their children from making the same mistakes as them. And from Tenten's POV, Neji always felt more like a stand-in housewife, while she is travelling the country to present her inventions to all kinds of science fairs, and selling weapons like a real queen, with toys being the back-up plan. And Neji supports her in that endeavor, all the way through, while he stays at home, and sometimes works as a part-time sensei at the Hyuga clan.

Neji bears the Tiger Fist, while Hinata bears the Lion Fist

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Side Branch members are represented, both in their souls and fighting style, by the tiger, while the Main Branch members are represented by the lions. Just a little fun visual on the side. And the Tiger Fist is more about proactive aggression, rather than a defensive, and slower battle plan, like what the Lion Fist has. Not to mention, it glows green, not blue.

Neji loves weapons and cool-looking toys like Tenten

That one is just for the soul. Neji is fully supportive of Tenten's dream of perfecting the arts of weapon-crafting, wanting to see how far her creativity and inventive spirit takes her, and doing anything he can to help. And like everything, the way to a man's heart, is either, through cool-looking weapons, or toys, that are just the coolest thing ever (transformative action figures, interactive toys, where you can press buttons to see something happen, that just tickles Neji's and Tenten's brain), just from design alone. And their kids will be having a lifetime supply of toys to play with.

And this is it. Just felt like doing this, because I felt like it. Because I can. All this for the Neji fandom, and a certain friend of mine, who knows, this was long overdue. And if I managed to make your day, thank you, you're not welcome. I did this for me, not for you...

...Wink.

@nejihyugamyreligion 😉

Anyways, smell ya later!

PEACE.

[maxrowave]

an alternative characterisation of doctor/allen that's been sitting in my brain for a little which was meant to be more faithful to the canon. It takes inspiration from the out-of-makeup version of the cast Worthikids has given, and literally every one of them, Allen looks angry or nonchalant. So I began playing on the idea that out of makeup he's the complete opposite, and there's this switch in character. For the sake of cohesion, I'm going to refer to Doctor as when he's in the makeup/costume and Allen when he's out of it. Partially because I headcanon Allen using Doctor as a way of some sort of coping mechanism.

This Allen is dead panned or sneering (as the most expressive he will ever be), I do not think he keeps the accent in this one with a normal voice. Just like my other version of Allen/Doctor, I do think Doctor as a persona was created as an outlet for Allen. I'm considering the possibility that he is simply apathetic due to an upbringing where emotional expression wasn't a part of his life. Doing theatre really acted as a catharsis for him, where he was able to release all those pent-up emotions.

But I think it's still something he'd struggle with, maybe it's just society's cold attitude to anything against the grain, which makes Allen feel the need to be this muted person. Doctor as a separate alter ego over-compensates for all of that, and I think that really shines with his portrayal in the show. He pulls this ridiculous accent, he commits himself to bits, strange classic metaphors. I think that one scene where Doctor's differentiation in voice of Doctor vs Allen especially lends itself to this characterisation. When he's Doctor, Allen doesn't exist anymore, so in truth, that is technically his *real voice*. How this differs from my previous characterisation of Allen (The one portrayed in Silence. And im gonna be honest, they're actually not that different in terms of psychology but i digress), is that he overcompensates through everything. He's this pretentious individual who can't stand being normal because he's insecure about being insignificant, so Doctor was meant to be an outlet for his ideal self. That line begins to blur as to whether that was just a persona or his most unapologetic self this entire time. New characterisation of Allen is like that because of the exact opposite reason: he's a conformist. And I would lowkey love to get my hands on some writing where there is that clash in identity rgrrhhrraaahrhr

SO NOW WE'RE AT THE PART EVERYONES HERE FOR, HOW DOES THIS CHANGE THE CESDOC DYNAMIC? I think to compensate for Allen's apathy and nonchalance, I'd interpret Cesare as more faithful to the show as well. In a lot of my writings and interpretations, Cesare still remains a very mysterious, omnipotent figure who lurks (he's more toned down, essentially). So I think Cesare & Doctor would otherwise be faithful to the show, it's chaos meets chaos, they go find awful food together and make abominations. Cesare and Doctor however, I think Cesare would act as a role model because he's so unapologetic, where Allen still scrutinises himself over every emotional indulgence he has. But then it'd make for an equally awkward situation where Cesare also distances himself from emotional connections. There's this massive potential for miscommunication and misunderstanding because none of them will take the initiative. Overall though, Allen and Cesare would still be a nice match since they match eachothers weirdness, Allen is the only one who can tolerate Cesare for long periods of time. And Cesare, he's been emotionally distant for like a millennia, I think he'd recognise that in Allen and would be empathetic since they essentially have the same mindset. Ok end of rant, now for final words. Am I going to draw this new dynamic more often? Eh probably not, but I think it's still a fun character study. Would not be opposed to doing some writing but I feel as though writing as a medium of art is not as well enjoyed in comparison to, you know, physical art. So it depends if people want it. alright thanks 4 reading if u see this.

[sweetenerluvss]

Here’s proof Juvia doesn’t bring Gray happiness. He says he has to sacrifice his own happiness, (or at-least implies that) by prioritising hers instead.

This is really sad to see honestly, considering just how little Gray seemed to care about himself throughout the show. He’d constantly try to throw it all away to use iced shell because of his guilt due to Ur saving him in a sacrifice.

And you know who had to go and mess it all up and bring Gray right back to square one? JUVIA

As you all may probably know, Juvia sacrificed herself for Gray in alvarez arc. The same thing that Ur did for him when he was little.

Honestly finding these panels was really hard for me, not out of difficulty finding them but just by looking at them. Gray is shaking. He Is never one to shiver but he is absolutely terrified and traumatised right here. This is the death of Gray’s character, right here is when it happened. He was taken back to that awful feeling he had as a kid, where someone died because of him. Again. 

This right here in my opinion is where Gray really starts to believe this was his fault. Juvia’s happiness, Juvia’s safety, Juvia’s life is all his responsibility right in this moment. He sees it as all his fault. If he had just loosen up, if he had just listened to everyone else, if he just had tried to care like Juvia did maybe she’d still be here. Thoughts like that would be running through his head. Resulting in why we see Gray’s character completely flip by the time 100YQ rolls around.

Juvia tells him that her life belongs to Gray. Meaning it’s his responsibility now, obviously he is having trauma relapse from when Ur died so he starts trying to prioritise Juvia’s happiness over his own. Even if it makes him depressed. He believes, Juvia’s happiness matters more because of his guilt.

That’s why by the end of alvarez arc we see him try to flirt with her, out of guilt. Out of thinking he owed her better. Finally Juvia gets what she wants from the man and all it took was traumatising him. Gray hesitates with flirting with her too, because he knows it isnt him. It isnt what he really wants to say. When he flirts with Lucy, we see him smirking because he feels comfortable and its what he wants to say. When he does with Juvia, he’s frowning. He always looks away. Because he knows it’s not true to him.

That’s why instead of complimenting Juvia we hear him say this ‘maybe it should be mine’ regarding her scarred body. He believes Juvia’s body is his responsibility, and that’s why he says this. It’s not flirting, it’s his way of revealing his mindset through trying to appease Juvia. Juvia says she belongs to Gray, and he finally believes that. He finally believes that scar on her is his fault, and thats why he tells her to remove it, because it reminds him of his responsibility to her and his guilt.

Here we see Gray’s wide eyes of discomfort. His prolonged silence. He’s obviously uncomfortable, in fact he can’t even look at Juvia for very long. It reminds him of the fact he’s not being true to his own happiness, sacrificing his joy for hers. But because our ice boy is so compassionate and guilt ridden he does so anyway. 🥲

And here we see him flirting with Lucy! He’s actually looking at her, and smiling. He looks happy. He doesn’t have to look away because he likes what he sees and he wants to look. It’s respectful, it’s cute and most importantly its authentically him. There’s no wide eyes of hesitation, no anxious frown. None of that, Gray just says that line with no struggle because it’s what Gray really wants to say and this in my opinion will always be the superior Gray. When he’s being himself.

Not once does he take his eyes off of her, not once does he stop smiling, and honestly it warms my heart to see and i’m glad to end this heavy post on a good note. After seeing Gray act so… sad the first half of this post I really needed a pallet cleanser. So I’m leaving this little rant post here, I feel very heavy emotionally after writing this just thinking about the trauma Gray goes through. It really is a tragedy. He’s not allowed to be happy as long as hes with Juvia because he knows its not what he wants. But, unfortunately 100yq gray is completely blinded by guilt and Juvia’s manipulation so I doubt we’ll see the old Gray back anytime soon.

We miss you Gray, please don’t let Juvia turn you into her monster of a self!

[qwuilty]

what are some of your newer headcanons for p1 dude? i really love your take on him!!

AAAAA thank you so much, i would love to talk about them! Admittedly its more so going over past ones ive had and reconsidering, also im still waking up so apologies for any awkwardness but! some details but some ive had are:

- Kind of considering that his mother could have been somewhat mormon or at least a more intense denomination, Arizona is right below Utah and though the general location of Paradise is further down (i generally think of it as being near the actual original town of Paradise or Tucson and Bisbee), i still think he could have been raised there or nearby.

He had little connection to it, more so feeling a moral obligation and being physically forced there by his mother, but that sort of guilt and shame focused teaching i think could have had a strong impact on how he talks about God in modern day. As an all seeing force that knows when you do wrong and will keep tallies unless you repent over and over.

- I think his parents would look similar to the couple near the coffin in Redux, the red hair was a reccessive gene down his mothers family tree, making him stand out like a sore thumb between the two of them.

- I also shifted my personal backstory headcanon for him, more so that he had more military experience than i thought before. He had a fairly good work ethic in school and got good enough grades, hense the "His classmates voted him most likely to succeed" line from the advertising. However, as his parents could not afford to send him to college and he struggled in the workforce after school to try and raise money for it, he had fallen to military recruitment as an opportunity to help pay for his education that he thought was going to change his life.

Enlisted in his 20s, unfortunately for him at the cusp of 1990, around the time of the Gulf War.

He had survived, by technicality. Besides wounds and some aches, he made it out alive, but the person he was had died out there. I lean more towards this because of how ingrained military terms are in his journal, specifically near the end, and his mindset that he has to be humanity's soldier in a way. It's all he was ever good for out there.

- By the time he got back, he had no more drive to persue his education and the government had paid him a grand total of Jack and Shit in benefits, hense his living conditions in general. He had very little to survive off of, more so surviving paycheck to paycheck, and could hardly even imagine getting into a better situation. In the end, it was practically all for nothing.

- He doesnt talk very much, im really terrible with voice headcanons but i think he could sound something like Shaky from Red Dead Redemption 2 (im sorry but youre gonna have to take southern drawl P1 out of my cold dead hands-). Not as intense of a stutter, but i think he still struggles with speaking, even before deployment.

He has to mentally rehearse before he speaks to people since he was, frankly, completely shafted socially growing up by both his peers and family. I think he's able to get his speaking voice out better in writing, he has time to think about his words and adjust them, but the ones on paper and the ones he says tend to not match.

Has trouble with finding a good volume when speaking (either mumbling or accidentally speaking too loud when in a quiet place), almost running out of breath at the end of conversations, getting caught up on his words, and speaking very bluntly. (For a more joking idea of what i mean, basically the clip from Legends of Avantris of Torbek finding out what he sounds like, except P1 is painfully aware of that disconnect!)

- Champ is a rescue, more so a mangy runaway that P1 had found and had felt an obligation to care for until he found his owner, but no one stepped up. In the end he had become P1's dog and though he was another head to take care of in the house, taking care of him kept him more grounded with purpose, desire to make sure Champ was safe. He made the dog house outside in the Home level, clumsily so, but Champ still likes it.

- I think he would smell mostly like dust, mothballs, sweat, and light hints of gunpowder residue. The house he has is incredily old and shoddily made so he has no proper working washing machine and has to take trips out to the laundromat when he can clean his clothes, usually at the dead of night to avoid the people there.

- In terms of physical headcanons, i like to think he has hazel green eyes like the other dudes, more so sunken in with heavy eyebags, light freckling over the face mixed with acne scars. His hair tends to get greasy pretty easily and hes not great at taking care of it, so it gets messy and even tangled often. Personal hygyine is just kind of, yknow, a lesser priority to him than surviving day in and day out. As ive probably made painfully clear i heavily lean towards the base concept art for how i see him, so longer face with a bulky body and big ol forehead.

- Disenfranchisement with the government started arguably at a young age as a lower income american but especially after his return from deployment. He hadnt started full guns blazing conspiracy of course, but it had more so bubbled up from the pot. How they treated people like him, the Waco incident, rising tension in the news (of which he was very caught up on, unfortunately), it wasnt hard for him to build on the idea that the world was going insane when it was beginning to decay around him.

- The people of paradise were mostly ambivalent to P1 before he went postal, some thought he was alright if a little weird, he had some acquaintances from work who said he was nice enough, about the only thing they could think about him. When his behavior turned sour and closed off as the stress of in and out employment in a dead end town and forclosing made him rougher to handle, most elected to step back and avoid him. Ultimately, it had become kind of a unintentional push futher for him, how people averted their gazes and got nervous talking to him. That something in the air was changing.

- People back where he grew up tend to have nicer opinions of him, that he was a fairly sweet boy if a little shy. The people there have some small if shallow memories of him being someone willing to help, nice enough when you could talk to him, a bit weird but seeming like he had a good enough head on his shoulders since they had a more surface level understanding of him. To Paradise it was almost an uncomfortable but inevitable tragedy but people back home were truly shocked, those being most of the testimonies in the ads.

- Definetly internalized a bootstraps mentality, more so for himself far more than anyone else. The idea that these dips down just meant he had to push past and become "better" again, but it felt like every time he got himself back up, he lost his grip and fell deeper and deeper. He had a lot of resilience and drive from it, but at the dire cost of his own self preservation, self esteem, and sense of when to quit.

- I think he would have liked reading when he was younger, its just that later on he fell out of the habit and struggled to find time to with juggling work and homelife with empending doom. I could see him being into stuff like historical nonfiction and fiction, mystery thrillers, classics from the past. He prefered things that got him to get the mind working but he'd take doctor seuss if it got it to shut up when it was overrun.

- I kind of lean towards, for lack of better words, Boomer ass fashion for him with the usual jeans and boots with a tshirt and maybe a nice buckle, but i think he has a sense of envy for the goth look people usually associate with him. The idea of accepting that feeling of disconnect, revelling in being seen as weird and uncomfortable, even if it was "satantic" to his peers. But he could never commit to it, too many eyes on him, how they would have laughed. He always said he would have when he got older, more confident, but we know how that ended.

- Slightly indulgent but i think he would enjoy some classic rock and folk, the older idea of "dad rock" with that 70s and 80s focus. Cassette and vcr warrior, mostly bootlegged off of public broadcasts and radio stations since the official releases for this kind of stuff was pricy. It was easier for him to record things, even if it was awkward to do so, to save a little.

- Touch adverse is a fairly common one i agree with, he cant gauge people's intentions well and is fearful of at best light mischief at his expense and straight up attacks at worst. This means he tends to tense up or flinch at sudden touch, "overreacting" to it because it comes without him being able to recognize its even happening. In the case he is willing and comfortable enough (good luck with that </3), it shows more in subtle things like putting a hand on people, standing closer, unclenching a little, even gently resting his chin on someones head since hes pretty tall. It feels very light for others but its a larger step for him.

- Overall i just generally lean more towards a more stoic interpetation since i felt some of my past ideas of him leaned too soft for what feels like a very tough external shell, but i think inside he's still very vunerable. Easily moved by the world around him even if he can stand firm against the current. And all of that just kind of cummilated until it exploded over and we got the events of postal, a resistance to change, growing distrust in the world and fear of the horrors outside his door, immense finanical and emotional stress, the feeling he was sinking deeper and deeper as the world got crueler, and the eventual forceful removal from his only place of true solice.

[sugar-crash]

🏎️Turbo (Wreck-It Ralph) x (gn) Reader🏁

(Platonic Aroace Reader Edition)

(Picture’s not mine!)

(Sorry for dropping off um… Back at it again I guess, I just took a small-ish writing break so I can draw more, they’re not anything WIR related... :))

- Firstly, as well all have come to know about Turbo, caring for others isn’t exactly something’s he’s known for, especially at the height of his popularity, so when you come to him with your struggles… He’s not willing to hear you at first, thinks everyone else’s problems are minuscule to his… Even though most of the time his problems are HIS fault.

- But if by some miracle you get him to listen (which may be because you have known him long enough) … He might comfort you, even when he does it can barely be seen as comforting you... He’s just standing there…. Menacingly.

- Though I do see him relating to you to a degree if you share with him the complexities of being aroace, I personally headcanon him being on the ace spectrum— I just don’t see him being a very sexual person (though the idea of this weirdo getting it down is very funny to me) or even the most romantic, that’s just how he is, he has different priorities as you can already tell.

- I think as he’s “comforting” you he’s seeing parallels to your experience with his own and on the outside he’s cool, he’s fine, on the inside??? Crisis. But with the small smidgen of decorum he has at the time for you he doesn’t let you see his inner turmoil, sits next to you as you talk, being silent for once in his life.

- After you tell him about your struggle and let him know you like him enough to trust him, makes him realize you aren’t just some friend he occasionally hangs out with— You’re someone who appreciates him enough to be vulnerable, and that rocks his world a bit.

- He’s not used to having a connection that deep with someone else. Like. At all. So, it really strikes him when you not only level with him but you also share a mindset that’s close to his own. Most of the others aren’t that open when it comes to their opinions about something that doesn’t go with the status quo of their very existences—

- So having someone that genuinely wants his comfort over something like this is not an not only new, it’s refreshing to know someone is like him in that aspect.

- Which shows in the way he treats you later on, he gives you some slack in situations that if it were anyone else he’d be so cruel lol. Nice to have someone in his corner for personal reasons rather than the surface level.

- Honestly having a friend who at least can parse an aspect of himself that many just don’t understand is definitely something he needs and in response he does at least attempt to be there for you as you express your feelings and the frustrations that come with it.

- Fortunately (or unfortunately) Turbo is well acquainted with that feeling, and the more you guys connect over this he may be able to give you advice,,, But that advice is absolute shit so be advised.

- He’s certainly not the best person to be talking to about this, but not the worst. Surprisingly. I think you guys as friends would be… A bit unhealthy because Turbo is like the mean girl of the game arcade, putting you down, making you do shit for him, things like that.

- But at least mean girl sometimes grow out of that shit, At least they have a reason, he doesn’t. He has everything at the height of his popularity but I do see him always wanting more.

- Depends on you but adamantly denies it and says YOU are the one that needs him, and actually believes that, like lying so much to the point where actually believes it. Which is something he definitely does down the line as King Candy.

- Some of part of me wants to give him some credit, cause he does try, but at the time there is a high chance he will use the fact that he’s been there for you when you ranted about your woes against you as means to guilt trip you when you catch him on his bullshit.

- Uses whatever sliver of information he can to turn things around into his behavior, even as he’s comforting you, gently nudging ideas into your head as if they were innocuous in nature. And over time he just gets better and better at it the more comfortable you get with sharing things with him.

- All the while he’s convincing you what he’s saying is for the best of you, that’s what friends do right?

- Keeps your secrets and junk, he knows what it’s like to have secrets and at least can give you that decency.

- The type of friend that like sits there and give you like a drink and a burger after you finish sharing what you wanted to say because he knows how draining it can be.

- He’s very complicated, both comforting and harmful, but at least he makes you feel seen when you tell him I guess.

- Turbo does value you as a friend but, that doesn’t spare you from being a pawn he can use to climb up into more beneficial positions in situations.

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