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skrunksthatwunk · 2 months

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actually i'm still thinking about the moral orel finale.

he has a cross on his wall. do you know how much i think about that bc it's a lot.

a lot of stories ((auto)biographical or fictional) centering escape from abusive/fundamentalist christianity result in the lead characters leaving behind christianity entirely. and that makes complete sense! people often grow disillusioned with the associated systems and beliefs, and when it was something used to hurt them or something so inseparable from their abuse that they can't engage with it without hurting, it makes total sense that they would disengage entirely. and sometimes they just figure out that they don't really believe in god/a christian god/etc. a healthy deconstruction process can sometimes look like becoming an atheist or converting to another religion. it's all case by case. (note: i'm sure this happens with other religions as well, i'm just most familiar with christian versions of this phenomenon).

but in orel's case, his faith was one of the few things that actually brought him comfort and joy. he loved god, y'know? genuinely. and he felt loved by god and supported by him when he had no one else. and the abuses he faced were in how the people in his life twisted religion to control others, to run away from themselves, to shield them from others, etc. and often, orel's conflicts with how they acted out christianity come as a direct result of his purer understanding of god/jesus/whatever ("aren't we supposed to be like this/do that?" met with an adult's excuse for their own behavior or the fastest way they could think of to get orel to leave them alone (i.e. orel saying i thought we weren't supposed to lie? and clay saying uhhh it doesn't count if you're lying to yourself)). the little guy played catch with god instead of his dad, like.. his faith was real, and his love was real. and i think it's a good choice to have orel maintain something that was so important to him and such a grounding, comforting force in the midst of. All That Stuff Moralton Was Up To/Put Him Through. being all about jesus was not the problem, in orel's case.

and i know i'm mostly assuming that orel ended up in a healthier, less rigid version of christianity, but i feel like that's something that was hinted at a lot through the series, that that's the direction he'd go. when he meditates during the prayer bee and accepts stephanie's different way to communicate, incorporating elements of buddhism into his faith; when he has his I AM A CHURCH breakdown (removing himself from the institution and realizing he can be like,, the center of his own faith? taking a more individualistic approach? but Truly Going Through It at the same time), his acceptance (...sometimes) of those who are different from him and condemned by the adults of moralton (stephanie (lesbian icon stephanie my beloved), christina (who's like. just a slightly different form of fundie protestant from him), dr chosenberg (the jewish doctor from otherton in holy visage)). his track record on this isn't perfect, but it gets better as orel starts maturing and picking up on what an absolute shitfest moralton is. it's all ways of questioning the things he's been taught, and it makes sense that it would lead to a bigger questioning as he puts those pieces together more. anyway i think part of his growth is weeding out all the lost commandments of his upbringing and focusing on what faith means to him, and what he thinks it should mean. how he wants to see the world and how he wants to treat people and what he thinks is okay and right, and looking to religion for guidance in that, not as like. a way to justify hurting those he's afraid or resentful of, as his role models did.

he's coming to his own conclusions rather than obediently, unquestioningly taking in what others say. but he's still listening to pick out the parts that make sense to him. (edit/note: and it's his compassion and his faith that are the primary motivations for this questioning and revisal process, both of individual cases and, eventually, the final boss that is christianity.) it makes perfect sense as the conclusion to his character arc and it fits the overall approach of the show far better. it's good is what i'm saying.

and i think it's important to show that kind of ending, because that's a pretty common and equally valid result of deconstruction. and i think it cements the show's treatment of christianity as something that's often (and maybe even easily) exploited, but not something inherently bad. something that can be very positive, even. guys he even has a dog he's not afraid of loving anymore. he's not afraid of loving anyone more than jesus and i don't think it's because he loves this dog less than bartholomew (though he was probably far more desperate for healthy affection and companionship when he was younger). i think it's because he figures god would want him to love that dog. he's choosing to believe that god would want him to love and to be happy and to be kind. he's not afraid of loving in the wrong way do you know how cool that is he's taking back control he's taking back something he loves from his abusers im so normal

#i had a really big fundie snark phase a year or two ago so that's part of like. this. but im still not used to actually talking about #religious stuff so if it reads kinda awkwardly uhh forgive me orz idk #maybe it sounds dumb but i like that the message isn't 'religion is evil'. it easily could have been. but i think the show's points about #how fundie wasp culture in particular treats christianity and itself and others would be less poignant if they were like. and jesus sucks #btw >:] like. this feels more nuanced to me. i guess there's probably a way to maintain that nuance with an ultimately anti-christian #piece of media but i think it'd be like. wayy harder and it's difficult for me to imagine that bc i think a lot of it would bleed out into #the tone. + why focus on only These christians when They're All also bad? so you'd get jokes about them in general #and i think that's kinda less funny than orel and doughy screaming and running from catholics lsdkjfldksj #i think the specificity makes it more unique and compelling as comedy and as commentary. but that's just me #like moralton represents a very particular kind of christian community (namely a middle class fundie wasp nest)#you're not gonna be able to get in the weeds as much if you're laughing at/criticizing all christians. but they accomplish it so thoroughly #and WELL in morel and i think that's because it chose a smaller target it can get to dissect more intimately. anyway #moral orel #orel puppington #(OH also when i say wasp here i mean WASP the acronym. as in white anglo-saxon protestsant. in case the term's new to anyone <3)#maybe it's also relevant to say that i'm kindaaaaaaaa loosely vaguely nonspecifically christian. so there's my bias revealed #i was never raised like orel but i like to think i get some of what's going on in there y'know. in that big autistic head of his #but it's not like i can't handle anti-christian/anti-religious media/takes. i'm a big boy and also i v much get why it's out there yknow #christianity in specific has a lot of blood on its hands from its own members and from outsiders and people have a right to hate it for tha #but religion in all its forms can be positive and i appreciate the nuance. like i've said around 20 times. yeah :) <3 #(<- fighting for my life to explain things even though my one job is to be the explainer)

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tatsumi-rin · 7 months

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Moral Orel doesn't seem 100% like a show I'd feel seen in if you don't know me but then I remember the episode with the special ed kids and underneath the usual satire on extremist bible belt religion it reminds me WAY too much of how actual special ed departments treated me and other kids growing up.

Like the writers must HAVE BEEN THERE IN LIFE, man. I'd kill to sit down with Dino Stamatopoulos and find out what the fuck inspired him and the other writing staff that day.

#husbandothings #moral orel #bonus fun tag rant? bonus fun tag rant...apparently #in those departments you are immediately written off as a tragic forever toddler by at least 50% of the staff regardless of your disability #there's good ones but the bad ones bring the fun spicy trauma #it doesn't matter how smart you actually are you gotta draw the sad face on that boy on the comic sans worksheet at the age of 15 #in your free lesson spaces that you got because of reasons #if someone tells me they're a teaching assistant or have “qualifications” in autism and special needs development i immediately distrust #because I have never met a neurotypical person with those qualifications who knows how to treat kids like humans especially autistic kids #funniest part? I was mostly in the special ed department because of my hearing and not totally my undiagnosed autism #and a little because of wonky emotional development from get this...a freaking religious school #like i see adults in the show and i see the headteacher who tried to tell my parents i should forgive the bullies because jesus would #even though the truth is way more nuanced but he just wanted to wash his hands of it #it's funnier than it should be because that teacher would fit right in to this show for that and additional reasons I won't state here #my family were atheists but thought the school would be good #the weird thing is at that time as a little kid I liked the idea of believing in god but nothing that happened proved Him to me #and moral orel hits because it resonates with the fact i genuinely believe religion can do good and it's all about the people #the ones who want to use that faith for good in the world and surviving rough crap and not to do things that would make jesus flip tables #that has stuck with me for over a decade as has the people who felt the show reinforced their christianity #but anyway

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nientedal · 8 months

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wish the megawhiners would stop tagging their fucking hate. go make a "megacritical" tag or some shit and stop being so boring and annoying in the megamind one, ugh.

time to go on a blocking spree lmao.

#megamind #vent post #the takes are fucking rancid #O No it doesn't look like the original!#buddy if you were expecting it to that was a stupid expectation and your disappointment is on you #we live in a time when shows and movies are shitcanned before they're even released #and i am staring down the barrel of a gun labeled TAX LOSS #so uh #FORGIVE me if I'm a LITTLE TWITCHY about the seething morass of negativity starting to make its way over here from the Twit Pit #you could AT LEAST voice some excitement or some acknowledgment of the good stuff or the enormous win this is #if you're already doing that this ain't about you #but jesus h roosevelt christ some of you people are annoying

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crowleys-bentley-and-plants · 5 months

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The Unforgiven III by Metallica should not hit so hard wtf

#set sail to sea but pulled off course / by the light of golden treasure . ok damn #how can i be lost if ive got nowhere to go? stfu this is not okay #and the forgive me. forgive me not wtf #im not okay #ive already been going crazy about part 1 and 2 but i didnt know there was a part 3 and #jesus christ #also my mind's been trying to link this to good omens because of course and this song just perfectly ties everything together #like the different themes in each one but all about forgiveness #“I forgive you” “dont bother” that's what the songs are about you cannot convince me otherwise #yes im going crazy about metallica and good omens but what else is new #maybe one day ill be able to make a semi coherent analysis of this lol #or not #either way i will one day break down and ramble about this #the question is not if but when #lord help me #anyway #ramble gamble

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tsuchinokoroyale · 3 months

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Was soooooo happy with this phase 1 which is what made it so much funnier that I was immediately clapped by his phase 2 😂

#romina is still my fave boss but messmer is a solid second #almost every other boss I would describe as “would’ve been good if their damage wasn’t so overtuned”#my stance if that if I’m consistently losing to a boss with 10/14 flasks left the damage is overtuned #vs me losing to sword saint isshin with no gourds or pellets left bc he was tough enough to whittle me down #fromsoft bros will say get good but think high numbers is big difficulty #an actually difficult boss doesn’t need big damage output if the mechanics are the challenge #I don’t actually mind how relentless the bosses are in ER but I mind how HARD they hit on top of that #dodging a 12 hit uninterruptible combo where each move does like 1/10th of your health? that’s fine.#if I properly time 3 of those dodges I can still make it and it’s honestly my bad if I’m getting killed by that #dodging a 12 hit uninterruptible combo where each hit takes out 1/2 of ur health bar & has a 50% chance for an additional retaliation combo?#I *can* do it but Jesus Christ what a waste of my time lmao #how am I supposed to learn a boss when I can’t get into a flow state bc a single mistake can end a run smh #I just beat gaius and I didn’t even feel accomplished I was just like ugh finally #I feel like 95% of his moves are fine once you work out the delays and positioning #but I kept getting clipped by his charge attack like I would dodge out of the way but once the i frames were finished I’d still get hit #bc I guess I wasn’t dodging a perfect 90 degrees to him and the hitbox for that attack is long as hell #which would be whatever if that move didn’t take out like 2/3 of my health and come out nigh instantly #I don’t even really know the tell for the move bc I beat him before I learned it bc I lucked out on a run where he didn’t charge me a lot #luckily the game is absolute DELIGHT to look at and explore that I can forgive the absolute bullshittery of the bosses #like I just got to the summit of dragon peak and I’m blown away by the design of that mountain #if we’re talking verisimilitude in games how about that whole shebang #no obvious well worn path up to the top of the mountain bc it’s just for dragons who’s gonna be walking up there?#having the player follow a trail of increasingly dense dragon corpses is SUCH a great tone setter #which means I’m probably going to hate bayle but whatever I’m already invested let’s gooooo #tsuchi plays games

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batsplat · 4 months

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(from 2009) everybody in this sport is soooooo committed to drama

#mutual friend trying to set them up without telling them #//#brr brr #not to sound too valentino here but personally i would not forgive and forget i would remember and resent #i get pretending to be friendly with these people for convenience and profit but like?? don't make me talk to him outside of work jesus #curse tag

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archduke-enver-gortash · 5 months

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mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again.#sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all.#imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs!#so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately.#but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when.#like. imagine that. jesus dude.#like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here.#but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

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apocalypticdemon · 3 months

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so i'm finally reading through the terror scripts and i think this was designed to cause me physical pain.

crozier was supposed to be drinking to schubert..... god

#it's honest to god so interesting to see what was cut and what was rearranged #but the uh. the descriptions of the emotions that were not to be spoken?#the internal thought processes that can't be precisely conveyed without words?#i am Dying. this is Killing Me.#fucking *schubert*. god.#'it is not romantic or charismatic. it is hard to watch.' SEND HELP #the terror #i wish i had more coherent thoughts but like. jesus christ.#schubert also had some truly wretched parts of his life.#he wasn't able to marry women of higher classes than him. this was bc of a law that prohibited it but he was still restrained by his financ #*finances #a thing that sophia specifically points out to crozier in the show #aside from that there isn't much that i know off the top of my head #but his 'winterreise' is truly depressing. and 'die schone mullerin' isn't much better #actually die schone mullerin might be very apt for this.#the narrative follows a man falling in love with a woman that is beyond his grasp. and eventually ends in him fantasizing about his death.#uh. presumably the singer drowns in a brook at the end.#so! yeah! that one line in the script is making me lose my mind.#i am gonna keep reading them but i also think i will be a very sad puddle by the end of it #forgive the tag rambling. schubert isn't a main focus of mine #but i know a bit about him and a good bit about his music. it's. painful. also schubert died very young. like 31 years old young.#but anyway i guess i will find the damndest of parallels everywhere.

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jacqcrisis · 2 months

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Personal post to get me thoughts down:

Tonight, my mom did a thing that she does sometimes where she has some kind of forced introspection and asks for forgiveness for the things she's done as an abusive, controlling, negligent parent. And I never give it to her.

Partly because the asking of forgiveness and the apologies that precede it never come from a genuine place. I know this. I've heard this too many times and I've never seen change because it comes less from a place inside willing to become a different person and more from a Christian need to pay lip service for what she has been told is a sin in search of absolution without any of the work.

I also dont offer her forgiveness because I don't see it as something that can be or needs to be forgiven. I view my mom's behavior and decisions much the same as I view a hurricane. I can't stop a hurricane from its path or its force or its destruction. Similarly, I cannot fault a hurricane for its very nature. I have no reason to forgive it for what it's done, because what is done is impossible to change and a reality that I experienced and merely something that I am now and have always been picking up the pieces from.

You can't change a hurricane. You don't forgive a hurricane. You repair what happened in the wake of it and you try to avoid the next one when it comes around.

#jacq life #i wondered why she did this #and then she told me after trying to weasel an 'oh mommy i forgive you im sorry for being hurty wurty by your actions' out of me #that she was at church for a class on being a nicer person #oh okay. she needed something to make her feel like she did her homework and is trying to make right for The Lord #cool. sorry mom you always got pissed when i lied so i chose not to tonight #you can ask jesus to absolve of your sins with clasped hands as you plan to do same thing again tomorrow #but i aint jesus.

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rimouskis · 4 months

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sigh someone on twitter extolled the virtues of furiosa and said it was better than fury road. I just saw furiosa. they are wrong.

#the brilliant thing about MMFD was how it needed no backstory.#it required no explanation of who these people were or why they wanted what they wanted #that story gripped you by the throat and pulled you along for the ride and by god you took it #bleh. also I didn't really care for the numbered parts of the story that communicated the passage of time #I guess that's where the “saga” came in but I do think one of my favorite parts of MMFD was that...#it was a contained storyline! there were clearly so many other parts/facets of that world we didn't see #but we didn't need to see them becasue that wasnt the story that film was telling #and I feel like ... I dunno. MMFD was perfect. furiosa was not perfect. furiosa was not needed?#we already knew enough from MMFD about why furiosa had wound up as an imperator #seeing the full story I genuinely don't feel like I gained anything new about her and her character #everything we watch her become (or even begin as) in furiosa... all of it is apparent in MMFD #idk this movie felt extraneous. bummer!#good news is i was really worried about ATJ playing furiosa but she did fine. i have no complaints about her!#anyways anyone who wants to discuss come hit me up in the comments or reblogs or askbox whatever #I wish to dig into this lol #man that tweet got my hopes up. but i did not have the reaction to this that i wanted to have #when i saw MMFD in theaters it was a religious experience. that movie rewired my brain. I'd never seen a female action star like furiosa #all furiosa did was make me want to rewatch MMFR #also jesus christ I just realized I'd been typing MMFD for some reason. lol forgive me I'm on my phone sitting in the theater parking lot #pretend I typed MMFR that whole time

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tarantula-hawk-wasp · 6 months

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literally whats all this about literally all the reaching for Judas in the second half of the film... esp going from... jesus brushing him off in the first half... then at the climax at the last supper they meet head on.... and then comes the latter half where jesus keeps reaching and judas keeps turning away..... i am writing essays about touch in this film

like whats all this about

#WHATS ALL THIS #this close to figuring out how to make gifs from yt videos but not actually that close #isaac gets the first draft of all of these essays in his snapchat #im not even saying this as like #im saying this in the direction choices the decisions about how touch and hesitancy and reaching are used in this makes me sooooooooo #they put the work in to building up judas's betryal and then jesus's forgiveness etc like the emotions are so heavily expressed

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sentimentalslut · 4 months

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So I've hit a bit of a dead end in my life where I have no idea what to do or what I want to do. Do you have any advice on how to try and figure it all out?

Also I love ur duncney fics you should be an author <3

listen, anon. i'm 26. as much as i am flattered that you think i have it figured out, i do not. i'm willing to bet i wont have it figured out in ten years or twenty or forty-five. the thing is, i'm fine with that.

so here's my advice:

honestly, just keep living. put one foot in front of the other. find things you enjoy for no other purpose than enjoyment.

you don't have to 'do' anything -- living is about experiences. not every one of them have to have a purpose.

most of being human is drifting around and wondering why youre here. none of us really have the answer. that's okay. that's normal. maybe you'll never figure out what you're meant to 'do'. and that's fine!

the thing that keeps me anchored in the sea of Being Alive All the Time, and the thing that keeps most people anchored, is passion.

step one of discovering your passion, whatever it is, is to allow yourself to discover it. pick up pointless new hobbies and let yourself put them down if you dont enjoy them. read new books. read wikipedia articles for things youve never heard of. go on long walks in new parts of your neighborhood. listen to a new podcast. watch a video essay about something stupid youve always been curious about.

make bad art. paint shitty pictures, draw shitty portraits, write shitty stories. let yourself be bad at things. let yourself be purposeless.

accept the fact that you are human and unsure about your place in the universe -- because those two things go hand in hand. this is the curse of sentience. embrace it.

#sometimes knowing what to do will come to you #but that knowledge isnt permanent #you will always come unmoored #life is not lived in the safety of a harbor but on the open ocean #let yourself discover who you are. and then discover who you are again. and then discover who you are again. and then--#you are not at a dead end. you are at a crossroads #and if you just keep going you'll carry yourself to where you want to go #even if you have no idea where that is #anon #also thank you for reading my fics! see the 'make bad art' portion of this to know how i do it #sorry this is long im currently manic and i had so many thoughts #i am not the pinnacle of achievement my shit posts paint me as #i smoke too much weed and love a drunk ciggie i never do my laundry i dont believe in yardwork #i jump from hobby to hobby i spent too much money i love to cook but hate cooking #im the queen of procrastination i cry in court bathrooms i hold a grudge like its a hand #i cant figure out how to get my dog to listen to me i dont know when to shut up i dont know when to speak out #i forget to wear sunscreen i havent figured out how to forgive my father im a star wars prequel apologist #i dont know if ill ever know what to do or how to do it #i just keep moving forward and find what i need #your life is not a fetch quest for some higher purpose #it's just your life. try not to take it too seriously #ask #mumbles #jesus this is long

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unfunnyaceartist · 1 year

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I'm sorry in advance.

@kandidandi Our prior interactions in a nutshell 😎 minus the one with my demon dog. That one was just for fun. And there's definitely not an image behind him at 70ish% opacity. Definitely not. His name is Phoenix btw.

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coldflasher · 8 months

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not me thinking i'd finally started to find a good work/life balance where i could actually like. write and enjoy working on things that are fun and fulfilling while also keeping my head above water at work (aside from, y'know, minor details like the semi-frequent repetitive strain injuries and eye strain and also the fact my house is an absolute disaster 70% of the time) and then being violently humbled in my quarterly review by getting the worst quality score i've ever had in my 3 years working for the company...

#im genuinely mortified #like i know i bitch about my job a lot #but im genuinely pretty good at it #my last 3-4 quality scores have been really good. like. top end of the office average #and suddenly im 5 errors away from being given an official warning... so that's not great #to give u some idea. the lower the number the better the score. my last quality score was a 4. today i got a 25.#i have no idea how this happened??#part of me is like... has there been a mistake. cos idk who edited that paper but surely it wasn't me. did i read it with my eyes shut?#my scores usually do take a dip in q4 cos i don't handle this time of year very well. but not THAT much of a dip jesus christ #my only saving grace is that if someone does that badly they do a few extra checks to see if it's a one-off #and on the next one they pulled i got a 6. which does make me look somewhat less bad #i ended up averaging out at a 14. so like. im still embarrassed but i reckon that's forgiveable #still. that's gonna be a fun Q4 meeting next week

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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Okay I hadn't rewatched The Eye Scene in quite a while but

The absolute Symbolic Powerhouse that is this shot:

2. Jo mockingly switching to a Kansai accent for a sec? I never noticed it before but GOOD GOD. Also very cool for Tsutsumi since he's a Kansai native but never gets the opportunity to speak it, even outside of his roles.

3. This isn't even anything I just have Mine's dialogue embedded into my DNA sequence at this point, but. The similarity in how he and Jo structure the start and end of these sentences.

1.) dawg its the way he carefully cradles his hand after puncturing a bro's eye in it's fuckin with me truly and thoroughly

2.) IT IS REAL GOOD AINT IT THE BIT'S SOOOO... i actually didnt know tsutsumi was from kansai but that explains why it sounds so good the few times i've heard it

3.) it COULD be Not Anything but it also COULD be SOMETHING... like another addition to my Mine/Sawashiro cork board....

#snap chats #i just got sent a four-page comic comm info sheet so forgive me. if i seem Deceased. even more goldfish brain than usual #thats going to be a thing i have to read tomorrow morning my eyes feel so laggard rn...#in any case tho.... Eye Scene is still good.. its good Genuinely and for reasons im too inept to expand upon #and also it still makes me laugh cause fuckin anything does at this point 😭 casually pat a dude after mutilating someone stop thats comedy #lord nooo i cant keep my eyes open.. i wanted to do things tonight but then it was too cold so i couldnt draw #but now my eyes are too heavy to write anything thats laaame #and NOW my head hurts. i am simply bitching in these tags what else is new 😭#ok real my head hurts i gotta wrap it up. ty for giving me a reason to rewatch this scene like five times I Also havent seen it for a bit #every time i replay y7 i let like Max five scenes play out in full and of COURSE this is one of them #but i Also 2x haven't had the chance to replay y7 For A Bit 2x.. would def love to soon..#ok bye fr. im not beating the stereotype of saying 'good bye' and then sticking around for five hours at this rate jesus CHRIST

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bronanlynch · 10 months

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obsessed w the choice to have reinhard & hilda hook up for the first time in the context of. reinhard is having a breakdown over his guilt at the death of his boy best friend like. very heterosexual of him, I'm sure

#also like. it is so funny to me that people ship this as like. them being In Love and fluffy etc etc like. the vibes are extremely Not That #they fuck bc he's having a breakdown. she leaves before he wakes up and looks terrified when he comes to see her #he gave her a military position and wanted to make her prime minister and every time she correctly disagrees with him he hates her for it #she's the closest thing he has to a friend but he can't forgive her for not being kircheis so he marries her instead #he brings flowers bc it's what mittermeyer did bc he's following a script bc he doesn't know how to do any of this #(this being. heterosexuality. having any kind of normal relationships with people. functioning in society)#she canonically doesn't feel like she understands how to be a woman #oh my god are they the 'he's gay she's a lesbian their marriage will change your perception of love' couple #wait no also. his reason for proposing. jesus christ his entire concept of gender & relationships is So shaped by what happened to annerose #he feels obligated to marry her now but also. as if marrying her isn't just another way of trapping her into that kind of role #like she's can't be ur official military advisor or ur prime minister. she has to be Your Wife. and i cannot see her being happy w that #like it would get her what she wants (advancement for her family) but oh my god at what cost #sorry these tags are just. my running commentary of the ep now anyway losing it at reinhard saying “can kircheis forgive me for marrying”#ok i was gonna make fun of him being like “he never got to marry before he died :/” like. i really don't think that was a priority for him #but i do also think given the opportunity he would've married annerose. mediated desire and all that #dreaming.txt #e watches logh

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