#but multis stress me out and make it hard for me to focus

[ofyorkshire]

sees 1 gifset of oliver jackson cohen

the temptation to try writing luke crain bashes me over the head once again. oh. i could write luke. i really really really think i could. i'm so weak for the broken ones who try, and fail, and have to try again. the resilient, bloodied ones who have nothing to lose but find things to hold onto anyway.

[call-sign-jinx]

Endless Love (Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw) - Chapter 5

summary - Y/N Y/L/N and Bradley Bradshaw have had a rivalry ever since they both attended the same academy. Every chance they took, they always tried to one up each other. One day, Bradley takes the rivalry too far and Y/N ends up in the hospital with serious injuries. Will it make Y/N want to get him back twice as worse? Or will it make her realise that this rivalry between them is childish?

warnings - swearing, enemies to lovers, mention of serious injury, traumatic episodes, reader traumatised from what happened, smut, slowburn, seizures, flashbacks

a/n - hi girlies! sorry that i haven't been posting a lot i got writers block 💀💀💀 anyways, enjoy!! xx

I've finally come back to Top Gun, Mav caught me up luckily. Somehow he pulled some strings with Cyclone to let me stay here. I'm glad me and Mav sorted everything out. I still haven't spoken to my mum yet... It's been 3 weeks since she visited me at the hospital.

It's been kinda quiet since me and Bradshaw decided to stop the whole "rivalry" thing. Minus for the arguments between Bradshaw and Bagman. It's been nice in all honesty. Except for when Bradshaw tried to throw a right hook at Bagman. Fanboy stopped him before he could make contact. It didn't end too badly. They just death stared each other then walked separate ways.

Bradshaw was late to the briefing this morning so the only chair left was next to me. Great, although we're civil, I hate having to deal with his fucking manspreading. It's so annoying.

Bradshaw walked up to the table I was at and sat down. I was shocked to feel that his leg wasn't rammed against mine. I looked down and saw that he had stretched his legs out and crossed his ankles. I quickly give him a look then begin to focus on the briefing.

"Shocked to see how little of an annoyance I can be when we're not arguing?" I rolled my eyes with a smirk as I tried to focus on the briefing. "Everyone's going to the Hard Deck tonight, you wanna join?" I turned to look at Bradshaw, my eyes narrowing, smirk still apparent on my face.

"Bradley Bradshaw, is inviting little old me to drink with you and the others?" I place my hand on my chest. Bradshaw is the one to roll his eyes now. "I'd love to. As long as you don't sing Great Balls of Fire."

"Now that is pushing it sweetheart. there must be a compromise we can come to." he has desperation in his voice, with a little bit of humour.

"You can sing it once then. No girl on your lap or at your side cause that is just fucking tacky." I chuckle as I try to multi-task and listen to what Mav is saying. I'm partly failing.

"Is that your way of saying you're jealous? I'm flattered sweetheart, but British isn't my type. Neither is hot-headed." His tone was all but flirtatious. Maybe I should've just continued to argue with him, because the flirty tone he's using is grating. Like, it sounds nice but really weird at the same time because he's never used that tone with me.

"Absolutely not, never. Just because we're civil now does not mean I'm going to have feelings for you. And girls sitting on your lap or basically grinding against you while you sing Great Balls of Fire is the cringiest and most disturbing thing to even look at for a second. So no, I am not jealous. And FYI I don't go for your type either." I cross my arms as I finish the conversation and bring all my focus back onto Mav, who keeps sending me knowing glances which I send away with eye rolls.

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Today was stressful. Very stressful. Stressful enough to need a straight double whiskey when I get to the Hard Deck. You wanna know why today was stressful?

Firstly, I was paired with Hangman. Which is annoying as it is but he thought he led the whole thing when it was a team building exercise. And he kept ordering me which got us "killed" by Mav.

Second, my flight suit had a stain on it so I had to try and get it washed after the training exercise. It didn't come out, so I'm going to order a new one.

Third, Bradshaw could not stop with the flirty comments. It was so aggravating. I wish we were still arguing cause he was actually less annoying than this.

And lastly, Mav kept pulling me to the side and asking if me and Bradshaw were a thing. Oh my days! Absolutely not! Never in a million fucking years would I date Bradshaw of all people! I'd date Hangman before Bradshaw. Actually no. I would not. I have too much self respect.

When I got home, I took a hot shower. It was fucking amazing after the day I've had. After I got out of the shower, I dried my hair, did my skincare routine, put some makeup on, and now it's time to decide what to wear. It was between a nice dress Phoenix told me to wear or my tight black shirt with some nice-fitting jeans. I asked Phoenix and she told me to wear the dress, obviously. But only if she wore one too. Not being the only one wearing a dress.

It was a short black dress with criss-crossing straps and a slit on the right leg that goes up to my hip. It was really nice, I've just haven't gotten to wearing it yet.

I quickly put the dress on because I was running late. I grabbed my purse, car keys and vape before going out and locking the door.

The ride to the Hard Deck wasn't too long because I could afford a closer one when I moved here. I parked my car, locked it, then headed to the door of the Hard Deck. Phoenix was outside waiting for me.

When I tell you the whole bar went quiet when they saw me and Phoenix, it would be an understatement. Maybe it was because we were in civvy clothes? But we headed to our group and all the boys eyes were wider than golf balls.

"What's with the eyes? It's not like we're naked is it?" I said, eyes darting between all the lads. They were shocked.

"Y/N, I think it's cause you're wearing that short dress, they've never seen as much skin on you before." Phoenix giggled before dragging me to the bar.

"Hey Penny, two double whiskeys please." Phoenix asks Penny with a smile. As I look around, I see a man. He's tall, blonde hair, greenish-blue eyes, and he's staring at me. I recognise him from somewhere. It's Thomas! I didn't think he'd be here tonight. He said he was going to go home in England for a bit to see his family.

"Thomas?! I thought you went back to England for a few weeks! What yer doing 'ere?" I walked up to him and hugged him, shocked that he was in San Diego but especially in the bar I usually go to.

"Thought yer could use some company, but guess you're already set aren't yer?" He chuckled as he looked to Phoenix then in a different direction, all the lads were death staring Thomas.

"Yeah, guess so. Want a drink? Me and Phoenix just ordered double whiskies." I guided him over to the bar where me and Phoenix originally stood.

"Go on then, one can't hurt." He ordered himself a double whiskey and paid for mine and Phoenix's as well.

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We've been at the Hard Deck for a few hours and I'm quite drunk, drunk enough to not be able to drive. Which is great, cause I want to go home.

Phoenix and I have been dancing to The Weeknd, Mac Demarco, ABBA, Jerry Lee Lewis (because Bradshaw sang it, yet again), and some other singers that I'm too drunk to remember.

Me and Phoenix are currently dancing to Great Balls of Fire, as per requested to play again by Bradshaw. Him and that fucking song. It's like he's married to it. Or he can't breathe if it's not playing.

As we're dancing, I feel someone come up behind me. I turned to see who it was and it was just a stranger. He had his hands on my hips and began to basically grind into my arse. the fuck?

"Erm, can you not do that mate?" I stepped away from him, closer to Phoenix. He had this strange look on his face. It made me really uncomfortable.

"Come on babe, just wanna dance with you." His smile was sloppy and sadistic in a way. Gave me the shivers. Not the good kind.

"Well I don't wanna dance with you. So fuck off. Freak." I rolled my eyes then turned to Phoenix with an awkward smile.

"Don't call me a fucking freak you bitch!" He grabbed my arm and yanked me closer to him, his breath stunk of cigarettes and Bourbon. I always hated that smell.

"Get the fuck off of me you prick!" I grabbed his elbow and dug into it with my fingers which made his grip loosen, then I kicked the back of his knee which got him to the floor.

"Touch me again and we will have a serious problem, got it?" He nodded in answer, fear and anger in his face. "Get the fuck out of this bar." He got up and walked straight out, the whole bar giving him death stares as he leaves.

As soon as the door closes Bob comes over to us, weaving through the crowd with a worried look on his face.

"You okay Y/C/S?" He looked at me with worry and sympathy. I nodded my head yes.

"I'm fine Bob, he was just a prick who should listen to people. Taught him a lesson, hopefully he'll learn from that." I rolled my eyes as I took a sip of my whiskey. "Surprised I can still do that, I'm fucking leathered." I chuckle as I begin to dance again.

Bob nodded with a small smile then went back to the others. Me and Phoenix continued dancing until she had to go home cause her friend said her dog needed to be taken to the vet. So I was left to hang out with the lads.

"Hey Y/C/S, you alright? You look really bad." I place my hand on my heart and mock offense.

"Wow Bagman, I cannot believe you could say that. To me of all people. I look fucking fabulous you rat." I giggle as Bradshaw laughs. He'd laugh at anything that insulted Hangman so I'm not surprised.

"Seriously though Y/L/N, you look unwell. How much have you had to drink?" Bradshaw had genuine concern in his voice. I also did not know how much I drank.

"Fuck knows, wanted to have a fun time. I was, till Nat had to go home cause her dog is sick. I really hope her dog's okay. Do you think it'll die?" Just as I finished my sentence, Thomas came next to me and placed his hand on my waist.

"Come on Y/N, let's get you home." He began to lead me out until I felt his hand go lower. Last time I checked, he had a fucking girlfriend.

"One, I ain't going home right now. And two, get your hand off my arse cause I specifically remember you have a fucking girlfriend." i poked his chest in annoyance because his girlfriend is super nice, and pretty. Like drop dead gorgeous. And she treats him so fucking well as well.

"Yes you are going home, yer leathered. And she doesn't have to know if anything happens, can just be between you and me babe." That's it. Absolutely not. Not a fucking cat in hells chance.

"Right, you are a piece of shit for that. i ain't going home and I'm moving out. And I'm telling your fucking girlfriend how much of a shit person you are." Thomas laughed, I knew he could be a dick sometimes but this is just too far.

"Come on Y/N. Firstly, where would you even move to? You don't make enough money for even a small shitty apartment. And second, she won't believe you." Shit, she wouldn't. She's literally head over heels in love with him.

"She will." A voice said behind me, I turned to see that it was Bradshaw. I furrowed my brows in confusion.

"And why's that? She's practically wrapped around my little finger." My face contorts to disgust. Jesus, how did it take me this long to realise he is a complete and utter twat?

"Because in Y/N's bag, is my phone, and it's recording. So she will believe Y/N, because there's proof." All the colour drains from Thomas' face.

"So you best fucking leave now. And I'm getting all my shit in the morning." I look at him with anger an disgust, how could he even think about doing that to such a caring and beautiful girl?

Thomas walked out immediately, slammed the door to the bar on his way out. That's when realisation hit me, I'm now homeless.

"Shit... where am I gonna stay? He is right that I can't afford to live anywhere... Maybe Mav could let me stay with him?" I turn to Bradshaw and he looks like he's just got an idea.

"You can stay with me, until you get enough money for an apartment." Although I was very drunk, that sobered me up quite a lot. Bradshaw was offering to let me stay at his place? I mean, we are civil now, but letting me stay at his home? Jesus, he must really mean it about feeling bad about arguing and the crash.

"Are you sure? Because that's a big thing to offer Bradshaw." I looked at him, unsure myself. But why was Bradshaw offering this? Was it out of guilt? Sympathy?

"Yes. You don't have anywhere to stay. Fanboy only has one room and his couch is fucking uncomfortable. Coyote and Hangman most likely don't want to live with you. Payback lives with his girlfriend. And Bob and Phoenix live with Phoenix's mom. And Mav will probably hate you living with him because he won't be able to have any alone time with the ladies he brings home. So I'm the only viable option." Damn. He must have put lot into this for him to just come up with all that.

“Are you 100% sure that you want to do this? Cause I can just find some place to live I don’t wanna intrude init.” I look at him with concern and uncertainty in my voice.

"Yes of course, helping out a friend, init." He faked a British accent as he said "init", I giggled at him as he pulled a face as well.

"Right okay, thank you so much you don't know how much this means to me..." I have a thankful look on my face. "Please could u come with me to pick my stuff up tomorrow? I don't want to go on my own." He nodded yes. "Thank you..."

"Right, let's get you home. You're so fucking drunk." He chuckled as he guided me out of the Hard Deck with his arm round my shoulder.

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As we got to his house, I began to search the outside. It was quite nice.

We both went inside, Bradshaw helped me as I was stumbling everywhere. He guided me to the spare room and placed me on the bed.

"Goodnight sweetheart." Bradshaw muttered as he got to the door.

"Goodnight Bradshawwwww." I said before quite literally passing out as my head hit the pillow.

[heartkyeom]

as if

sub!joshua hong x gn!reader

word count: 1k

warnings: sub!joshua, handjobs... that's it that's the plot

notes: I'm trying to get back into writing smut again, so I randomly picked a member and this is what came out of it! I am not sorry for how filthy this is lol- thank you @junhui-recs @multi-kpop-fanfics @flowerwonu and @duhnova for proofreading! as always, I hope you enjoy <3

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“Baby, please, be gentle,” Joshua pants out.

You scoff. “Why should I be gentle with you?”

To be fair, he was in a precarious situation. His wrists were tied up against the headboard of your bed with one of your silk scarves, a forgiving material given the circumstances. He could’ve been struggling against rope instead, but he needed something quick since your anger had overtaken you. 

You straddled his lap, lazily stroking his cock with your hand until he managed to piss you off again, which earned a swift jerk of your fingers up his shaft. He was recovering from the last time you did that, his eyes were screwed shut and he was already losing focus again. You could feel the veins on his dick tense underneath your fingers, and it almost made you feel drunk on power.

Joshua didn’t let you dom him very often, but he knew he was guilty, so you were testing your limits tonight. Whenever you were given the chance to dominate him, you never tried to put him in too much discomfort. It never satisfied you to see him in extreme sexual pain, but tonight was different.

His precum had coated your hand from the endless amount of teasing you’d put him through, but you still weren’t satisfied.

“Because I’m taking my punishment well,” He grunts, looking at you through heavily lidded eyes. That wasn’t true at all, if anything, he was putting up more of a fight than usual. He had simply lost his stamina once realizing how long you intended to edge him.

“You would be taking it better if you stopped fighting,” You suddenly let go of him to gauge his reaction. He seems to stop breathing altogether the moment you do, his eyes widening slightly.

He doesn’t move at all, simply looking at you.

You promptly return to your previous movements and he groans wantonly, his head tilting back until it hits the headboard. 

“See? You did good, baby,” You take your free hand and suddenly graze your fingertips across his balls, you wanted to test just how much pressure would set him off.

He lets out a strangled moan, causing his back to arch off the mattress. “Fuck,” He sighs.

You notice a stray tear fall onto his cheek and it almost makes you feel bad for him. You would actually feel bad if he had waited for you to come home like you asked him to. He knew you were going to give him the head he deserved after a long day, but he got ahead of himself. 

That’s how you first caught him, cum painted against his stomach with a blissed out expression on his face, moaning that it wasn’t what it looked like.

Thus, you had been finding ways to edge him for over an hour now, seeing how far you could take this without letting him cum. Despite the neverending teasing, he still hasn't apologized, so you decided to keep going until he decided to do so.

“Do you have something you wanna tell me?” You try again, rubbing circles into his thigh to try and help him relax slightly.

“I’m-,” He hesitates, stopping to turn his head into the pillow to keep his composure. You know he’s holding himself back as hard as he possibly can, but you needed to hear it. 

“You can do it, baby,” You whisper gently. 

“I’m sorry,” He whispers. His forehead is covered in sweat, droplets from his dark hair dripped onto his face from the amount of stress you were putting him through.

“For what?”

“Shit,” He clutches the comforter with his fists, physically forcing himself flush against the bed with his remaining strength. You let him go through the motions, grounding yourself onto his thighs as he adjusts himself again.

“What was that?” 

“I’m sorry for cumming without you, I was selfish when you promised to take care of me,” He lets the words fall out of his mouth without thinking, desperately blinking tears out of his eyes as he stares at you. 

“Thank you, love. Do you think you’re ready to cum now?” You muster your last semblance of patience to finally grant him mercy.

“Yes,” He wills himself to give you the answer he knew you wanted to hear instead of resisting once again. 

You finally offer him a slight smile. “Good.”

Your face drops when you decide to stroke him much faster than before, you internally choose to send him hurtling into an orgasm. The mix of his broken moans with the sound of the bed gently shaking underneath you made you feel unstoppable, you brought your finger against his tip and he finally cums violently into your hand.

His cum quickly covers your hand, simultaneously spurting against his stomach until his body gradually shudders to a stop. His deep breaths are the only thing that fill the silence. 

You bring your hand to your lips, licking the cum off your hand as he stares at you with tired eyes.

“Stop being so hot or I’ll cum all over again,” He giggles weakly. You finally crawl up his chest to untie his restraints, and he audibly moans from the release of pressure. 

“Maybe that’s what I want,” You tease. You offer your hand to his lips, and he kisses your skin repeatedly until his lips are covered in his own cum. 

You lean down to lick the remaining cum off his lips and force it into his mouth with your tongue, pushing yourself into the first kiss you’ve shared with him all night.

He kisses you feverishly and you know he’s making up for lost time when you feel his hands cup the sides of your face. He moves his hands into your hair, gently taking hold until he feels a moan from you slowly melt into his mouth.

You finally pull away and he looks at you for a moment before speaking up.

“I won’t do that again,” He promises.

“We’ll see about that.”

[rocksanddeadflowers]

What's one hobby you have that you'd recommend other people try?

Oh I have so many this is hard to answer.... I think maybe just simple hand sewing skills? Just because a lot of it is really easy once you get the hang of it, and it's incredibly useful and multi purpose. You can make new stuff or save your old favorite things! I love mending my clothes a lot (saves money in the long run and saves me the heart ache), and there's plenty of different kinds of hand sewing skills you can learn depending on what you need them for. I recently even learned scotch darning to save my favorite sweater!

(Sewing is probably my oldest hobby too? I remember being very little and denied real sewing needles so I made my own out of Christmas ornament hooks and fixed my brother's stuffies with them and made my stuffies clothes. I got my needles not long afterwards.)

I prefer visible mending for most of my things, but I practice making it unnoticeable too. I've fixed bedspreads, clothes, bags, and all sorts of things! I've also made new clothes and other trinkets out of scrap material, and decorated things too! (<- personally obsessed with patch work things lmao.)

Admittedly if you get into sewing as a major hobby a sewing machine is very helpful, but I still prefer hand sewing where I can bc I find the machine to be a little stressful. I usually use mine on bigger projects to save time, but I mainly hand sew.

Also I know you quilt so I dunno if that was the answer you were looking for lol... I don't know much about quilting but it is still sewing, and really cool to me. (Long arms look terrifying to me however.) But yeah knowing how to sew by hand is really helpful and fun! It's relaxing for me when I have the energy to focus and feels fulfilling. Even if it's not a good hobby for everyone, if it's a skill you're capable of learning, it's very useful.

[sotwk]

Hey there! Since Thranduil's children were all born with decades or even centuries between them, how did that affect their relationships with one another growing up? From a mortal perspective, it seems wild that your much MUCH younger sibling will effectively "catch up" with you both in terms of physical appearance and maturity before too long. Was that a good or bad thing for the king and queen? Were they happy to be parents to an infant again after so long, or each time were they going "oh god I forgot how stressful this was 50 years ago, never again"

Also, does their age impact the princes' standing socially or within the royal family? What about in society in general- for mortals, I can see people being drawn to the eldest the most since they stand to inherit more, but for elves I'm not sure how much that preference might change.

(I'm sorry I just asked you fifty questions in a row- if you've already answered some of them in other posts, feel free to ignore them! Your timeline just got me thinking)

These all ALL excellent points and questions! :) I'll be honest; the (relatively) large age differences between the Thranduilions is not something I thought TOO hard about. I definitely knew that Mirion was going to be a wartime baby (just like his mother), but the rest of them were kind of just random choices I made YEARS ago, when I wrote my first SotWK AU fanfic (Greenleaf's Day Out).

However, I think the big gaps between their children is very much consistent with the theme of Thranduil and Maereth's life together: endurance and patience in waiting. Thranduil waited 1,500 years from when he first professed his love to Maereth to finally obtaining her sweet "yes" to his marriage proposal. He knew she was worth the investment of his time because they were destined for a long life together. There was no rush for anything.

I believe Thranduil and Maereth actually preferred the large gaps between each child because it gave them time to focus on raising and educating each one. This allowed each son to develop his own distinct identity, personality, and interests. Both Thranduil and Maereth enjoyed their roles as parents very much, even during the infant stage!

The other advantage of the age gap is that the older brothers were able to serve as teachers and mentors to the younger ones. This is why, for example, Legolas is arguably the most multi-talented of the princes. As a child he was able to learn from each one of his brothers, and picked up a broad arsenal of skills and knowledge.

When Legolas reached adulthood, the age differences became almost irrelevant, and the princes "leveled out" to become extremely close and tightly bonded with each other.

Furthermore, even though the princes could not grow up alongside their brothers due to the age gap, they were able to grow up alongside elflings exactly their own age (see: the concept of birth-mates in the SotWK AU). The Silvans of the Woodland Realm were the most fertile group of Elves in Middle-earth, and were culturally very family-oriented. They believed the true wealth of their kingdom is its people, and so marriages and children are far more commonplace for them than for their western-dwelling kin. The birth of every child was celebrated as a great event, and the raising of children viewed as a community effort.

Does age or birth order affect the social standing of the princes? Yes and No. It matters only for Mirion, the first-born and heir to the throne. Thranduil was determined to make clear the matter of succession, to avoid even potential strife among the siblings. He bestowed on Mirion the title of "Caun-i-Conin" (Prince of Princes), which gives him authority over his four younger brothers and a duty to ensure their protection and well-being.

Otherwise, the other four princes are seen as all being on equal social standing, even though they carry different roles in the king's government.

I hope I addressed all of your questions sufficiently. Thank you so much for the Ask, and please feel free to send more anytime! <3

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[sidetongue]

hi! if it's not too much trouble, can you talk a little bit about recall and how you started training your dogs to use it? i'm getting a dog soon and would love to be able to train them to the point i can be confident about their behavior off-leash

Yeah!! For me personally, a lot of our off leash training involved loooots of exposure and desensitisation to different environments and settings. Beach, rivers, parks, hardware stores, work, friend’s houses… hundreds of different places with hundreds of different distractions. Being constantly exposed to fun new things meant that they didn’t get overwhelmed and “switch off” when visiting somewhere novel - because they were already used to weird and wonderful settings.

When it comes to the actual recall training, I start off at home with minimal distraction and lots of rewards. I use the word ‘here’ and lure them over with a treat, OR I would run away and shout ‘here’ to make it a fun chase game. I gradually increased the difficulty by creating more distance (ie calling from across the yard or house) and then when I was confident they knew that the idea was to make a bee line for me, I started practicing in environments with higher distractions.

As a lazy, multi-dog owner I also cheated by starting a lot of off leash training with other well trained dogs (ie Henry and miller, or other friends’ dogs) so the newer dog could pick up on their good habits alongside their own individual training.

As a disclaimer, my dogs don’t have perfect recall 100% of the time. Currently I’m struggling with moby who, after 3 years of having fantastic recall, has decided at our favourite river he will not only ignore me but BOLT up the bank and disappear. After realising it wasn’t a fluke, he has now been grounded to having very very small circle of freedom (he is off leash but can only move approx. 5 metres before I recall him back and reward) and if he gets tired of that game/starts to disengage then he is put in leash jail to reset. To put it into perspective, the other 4 dogs can go essentially wherever they like (up to about 150m) as long as I can see them… so moby has really demoted himself!

Also while I’m rambling, I just reread your ask and noticed you asked not only about recall off leash but behaviour as well. I work very very hard on neutrality with my dogs (walking past strangers and other animals without reacting) so that off leash time is easier to manage. Miller however finds it hard to be neutral around men she doesn’t know, and if left without a cue would default to running and barking at them. In most situations a simple cue and stream of rewards can redirect her to stay with me, but 9 times out of 10 I don’t allow her to make that choice; I just leash her until the person has passed us. It’s not that I don’t trust her, it’s that it’s a potentially stressful situation for her and leashing her takes away that demand for her to make a choice (ie focus on me and get a treat, or bark at the stranger and self-reward). Long story short is their behaviour isn’t perfect, but I implement management strategies to ensure the safety of both them and others around us.

[novorehere]

Hey all! Just wanted to give everyone a bit of a content update.

I apologize for the lack of content for the past… year. I’ve been working through some stuff, and it’s been hard for me to find the motivation or inspiration to write. It comes in short bursts, meaning I’ve been (very) slowly chipping away at multiple projects at once. I just thought I’d update everyone on how things are going and make a list (partly for myself) of what I have in the works, what still needs to be done, and what you can expect from me in the future. Admittedly these are mostly obey me fics but I DO have other things tumbling about in my brain, I promise.

Opposite Day: 2/5 chapters finished, the rest 100% planned and around 30-40% written.

I’ve been sitting on an unfinished chapter 3 for almost a year now, and have written good portions of the other chapters in the meantime. This is the project I’m most excited to finish, and I feel bad for abandoning it for so long. Rest assured, I *am* still working on it, and am extremely happy it’s been so well received.

Untitled Simeon Comfort Fic: 75% finished.

Originally I wanted this written for his birthday (which was in February lmao) but as you can see that did not happen. I’ve got the beginning and end all written out, I sort of went off the script at the end with fun purgatory hall family fluff so the only thing I don’t have written is… actually the eating part. This will probably be the first fic I actually post, seeing as it’s the closest to completion.

“A series of Obey Me Vore Headcanons” Re-Write (Title Very WIP) 2.5/7 chapters re-written

This one I don’t think I’ve mentioned on here yet. I’ve grown increasingly unsatisfied with my original obey me headcanons list that I posted last year when I first got into the fandom. A. Because I hadn’t gotten very far into the story when I wrote it and didn’t get the full scope of the characters yet and B. (Most importantly) I feel like I really didn’t do the characters justice.

Since I originally posted it, there’s been a healthy amount of discussion on depth and nuance in vore media and reducing characters to tropes, etc. I’d like to re-write this series to focus less on physical aspects and “how they eat you” but rather more of an emotional and story driven story of why they eat you and their emotions and struggles that come with it. The obey me brothers are incredibly interesting characters, and I’d like to explore them in more depth and show you how interesting they can really be and why I love them so much.

This one might take a while to complete, but it’s gonna happen at some point. I‘ll keep up the original half-finished version in the meantime since I don’t want to delete it and ao3 doesn’t allow privating fics without orphaning them. I know it’s ugly in it’s current state, just know I’m working on it and the rest of those chapters will be overhauled eventually.

“Miss Em”: 80% written (kind of)

I’ve had this one sitting in my drafts for a while now. Originally I had plans to start another multi-chapter series but then Opposite Day sort of went to shit so I scrapped it knowing it was way too ambitious. But now I still have a mostly written Mammon fic in my notes app just sitting there and it would be a shame to just…leave it. I’m not sure what I’m gonna do with this one, Maybe I’ll write the Beel companion piece to it that I had planned and just leave it as a 2-parter. Who knows. It’s really cute, and I want to share it at some point.

Untitled Obey Me mini-drabbles: 60% written

Honestly this wasn’t supposed to be a whole thing. I started randomly writing one day on a burst of inspiration and it turned into little mini “scenario slices” for all the characters and I really like how it turned out. I still need to write for two of the characters and polish up some others, but it’s a fun low-stress thing to work on in between projects. Also excited to share it possibly soon since they’re fairly short and shouldn’t take long to finish (but you know me…)

An unspecified ITWOM fanfic: 0% written, 50% planned

For those who aren’t familiar, “In the World of Monsters” is an amazing novel authored by @vore-toast that just recently received a fantastic ending and epilogue (Please read it! It’s fantastic!) And I really would like to write a little something for it to show my appreciation. I have an idea planned out, but details would involve spoilers so I can’t say much. I’d need to ask for guidance on what exactly to include since the things I would like to write about haven’t exactly *happened yet* but I’ve said too much already… hee hee. I don’t know when this fic is gonna happen, but I swear to you it will. And if my original idea doesn’t work out, it’ll be something. I WILL be writing for this series, mark my words.

Heroes Off-Duty. 0% written, ??% planned

Huh? That’s weird... That one’s not supposed to be there. Ah well, It’s not relevant anyway. Carry on.

[pbandjesse]

I just got home from the painted screen class I was taking! It was so fun. I am very excited that I got to do a new skill and they said I did a very nice job.

I had a lot of stress in my body today. I was still really really worried about my ticket and my name. And I knew it would be fine and everything would be okay but it was hard having to wait and having to be okay with letting someone else be in charge of it. There wasn't anything I could do, but it didn't stop me from feeling like I was going to be sick all day.

I woke up this morning and my body ached. I felt slightly less unwell but still not amazing. James was there and was being very sweet. They would give me lots of encouragement and sent me to work with a hug.

I got to camp and felt. Stress. But I was trying to not focus on that. It was hard. I would have my bagel and check my emails and start working on research for the program areas and what we might need to buy or have the volunteers next week do.

When Heather came in I shared with her why I was stressed and Sarah told me that a few years ago an international counselor accidently had "Sammy" instead of Samuel on his ticket and they were able to fix it at the airport and it would probably be okay. But we all agreed that it was better to get it fixed ASAP. James told me that if Paul didn't take care of it by end of day that James would take over and figure it out. They were trying very hard to make me feel secure but man was I not making it easy. Just losing my mind a little bit and letting it hurt my stomach really bad.

But I tried hard to focus on other stuff. I would go and drive the gator to deliver cleaning supplies to all the cabins. And I would enjoy just being outside. It was surprisingly cold but I had worn enough layers to be comfy.

I would drive up to the Alaskans and offered to help Bonnie, the cleaning lady, sweep. And we talked about how messy the group had been. Joe had to fill his entire truck with trash bags! Crazy.

Jeff, the cleaning guy, came in and we had a really nice conversation. He is an amputee and around my dad's age and I was telling him some of the issues with my dad's prosthetic and he said it's crazy that it's falling off. He said to send his good thoughts to my dad and he really hopes it gets better. Which was very kind. He also said he would fight the doctor if his leg fell off all the time. Which is understandable.

I went back to the office next. And started working on reaching out to vendors for the Monkton music Festival. Which ended up taking an hour of research for finding the emails for the vendors because people just keep telling Heather yes on the phone and not filling anything out. And I keep saying we need one central thing. So I worked on that and creating trackable forms and not paper nonsense.

I was frustrated though. Because after I finished my one list of vendors that said yes, Heather asked me to go through a list of other vendors to invite and so many on the list were MLM (multi level marketing) schemes. Paparazzi jewelry, lulu roe leggings, party oysters, luxe, so many more. And we are not inviting those!! It just made me so frustrated.

I went over it with Heather though and we got things settled best we could. I hope next year we have a better system from the start so it's not so frustrated and convoluted.

I would have my lunch late. And as the wedding party for this weekends rental started to show up Elizabeth asked me to go put the new curtains up in the salt mines. Can do. I was slightly worried about scaring a guest but thankfully no one was down there yet.

I got the curtains set. And a guest would show up but they were just there to deliver food stuff to the kitchen. And I only startled them a little.

I went back to the office and made sure I had everything and wasn't forgetting anything. I said good bye to everyone and they all wished me and James safe travels!

It was raining just a little. But people can't drive in the rain and so it added so much time to the drive but whatever.

When I got home I spent some time putting things away. And waiting for James to come home. And when they got back we sat together at the kitchen island. And got word that my name was being updated and everything was okay now. Thank God.

We ate a little dinner. And worked on a knock off Lego pompompurian thing I got. Which was harder then anticipated. But was still fun.

I left at 545 to head to creative alliance for the class. And it was so fun.

There were 11 people in the class. And the teacher was so sweet. He told us all the history of painted screens and we went through the steps. He had a ton of samples and things people could trace and I wanted to make my own. So I did what I always do. And I painted Sweetp.

We had some great talks in the class. And the teacher's granddaughter was there and she was a sweet heart. They would both say my piece was beautiful and made me feel really good about my piece. And I was just having so much fun. I want to do this more! I will have to create a space in the studio for that.

At the end they would put our pieces in little folders and write a nice note to us about our pieces. And they took my picture with my painting. They didn't ask anyone else that! I must have done particularly good!

I left there after sharing about the Old Time Music Festival tomorrow. And went home.

When I got here our neighbor on the other side was just coming home and I got to share my art with him and he was like. Wow! That is so cool and it made me feel very good.

And when James got home (they were at the first night of the old time music festival) they were one beer tipsy and very silly and lovely. And after I told them all about the class we would go upstairs to go over some packing stuff. I will probably redo and reorganize the packing on Sunday but I feel pretty good about it for now.

I am very much ready for bed now. I'm going to take a little shower and go to sleep. Tomorrow will be a long day but I am really looking forward to my first market of the year. I hope it goes well.

I hope you all have a great night. Sleep well. Take care of eachother. And wish me luck! Good night everyone!

[softersinned-arc]

the past month has been really incredibly draining and my capacity for creativity has been pretty low. i know i don't need to apologize for, you know, having responsibilities off the internet and treating this hobby like a hobby, but ya girl grew up ✨catholic✨ so she feels unnecessary guilt!

the important things to know:

my astoria blog & vex blogs are still active and i'm regularly trying to keep them up & running and with good activity. my rowan blog is still active, but that remains low-activity, and i'll be there when i'm inspired. my multi is moving, and i've put diana back on my multi.

if we were talking before and i vanished, please message me again. it genuinely slipped my mind with everything. if we were plotting, if it was ooc, doesn't matter. i want to continue our conversation! i just have untreated adhd & a lot of stress so my memory ain't great rn.

i have unfollowed blogs that are inactive, archived, or where we just weren't engaging. if i missed a move announcement, or you do want to write or chat ooc, please nudge me!!! i'd love to engage with all of you and i don't want to miss anybody or anything because my brain's all over the place.

i miss writing. i love writing. astoria is my pride and joy and i have never felt better about her character. and i'm hoping that this time next year i'll be saying the same thing. i turned thirty a week ago and i'm kind of loving it. i got a new tattoo that's really the start of a sleeve. i'm working on some personal projects. it's good. at the same time, as i've said before, i have close family undergoing cancer treatment, and am a part-time caretaker for a grandparent with pretty serious dementia. i'm therapying hard because it's very necessary at the moment. i feel lost in my professional life, i feel lost in my personal life, and there are moments when i feel a little bit like i'm hanging on by a thread.

and overall i'm okay? but the sheer amount of stress i'm constantly under means that my body is starting to feel it. i keep getting sick, i never get enough sleep and when i do finally manage to fall asleep i wake up all the time, my focus is absolutely shot. and like... the truth is just that i'm wiped the fuck out all the time. i'm exhausted. i come on here and manage a couple of sentences and then lose my focus. any cr stuff i've managed is because i'm watching cr constantly and even that takes ages to actually make remotely coherent.

the gist is: i'm working on it. i'm working really hard on it. it's not easy nor is it like, a steady progression anywhere. but i'm working on it !!!

[maskednihilism]

//2 & 9 for Munday? ~Starlighttrain

@starlighttrain || prompt! ||

ooc.

2. is it hard for you to write with characters you don’t know/don’t know well?

Oh definitely. I mean for example I tried to rp with a multi-muse blog. And it seemed like they didn't wanna rp their Star Rail character at that time (they wanted to focus in on their OCs or something). Okay cool! But what are they like? Aside from knowing what face claim they used for said OC there wasn't anything else to really gauge who that character is like or how they'd act against my muse. And this is just OCs.

For canon muses, sure I can give a quick Google search but like what if the person's interpretation of the character is different? I might go in thinking they're gonna react one way when they're not how they are in canon.

9. when you look at a new blog, what is it that makes you press the follow button? is it the muse, the aesthetics, the writing–?

Well see that's why I must circle back to my prevs answer. This is why I stress having a bio, so I can see how the mun interprepts the muse and how they see how their muse acts. If they act in a way I don't see working out with my muse, I can't.

Rules too, so I know what to expect and how to conduct myself around them.

However there is times when blogs don't have either and I have to bite the bullet and follow anyways. I don't like having to do that though. But sometimes the "no bio, no rules" blogs have muses I do want to interact with, so thats why I give them a shot.

So it's bio, rules and "do they have a muse I want to see interactions with Sampo?" and "how do they write?"

Other misc. things I look for is how accessible their pages are and of course, ratio between actual writing and ooc posting.

It sounds harsh but I have a life and time is precious. If I wasted on someone who isn't going to give me rps I'll be upset.

[smallblueandloud]

2023 fic roundup

2023 was the year of the comeback. in 2021, i wrote about 25k; in 2022, i didn't even keep track. meanwhile, my total wordcount last year was 119,226 words. while that doesn't come close to my 200k from 2020, i am arguably prouder of last year and what it represented. my writing isn't dead! my abilities haven't vanished! i can have fun making art again :D

as always, the summer was the most productive for me. you can see that i wrote more in the spring than the fall -- this roughly corresponds to how i was doing during those times, lol. i had a Much Better spring semester than the fall. september was very rough, i had a very bad time, and it meant my mental health suffered for the rest of the year. but hey, at least i was writing essays :')

some more scattered thoughts:

i was arguably pretty consistent this year? may/june/july all had about the same wordcount (roughly) and i think that's cool. my goal isn't to be doing NaNos, it's to be writing consistently, so i'm very happy with this

ao3 says i published 67k in 2023. minus the first chapter of something out of a dream, which was published in 2020, i believe that's 65k or so total. i wrote 72k of fanfic last year, meaning that there's about 8k from last year still sitting in my google drive (a rough eyeball at my WIPs folder confirms this). these numbers don't QUITE make sense to me, since i used a fair bit of old material in what i published last year, but i'm not going to think about it too hard

i published fic for a whopping fifteen fandoms in 2023. nine of those were fandoms i'd never published anything for before! i am so, so proud of this stat. i remain multifandom as all hell and seeing that represented in my work makes me really :D

two fics -- be amazed by the sky and i got your back (and you got mine) -- were crossovers! i'd only ever written one crossover before (stay all day in the sun, which i still love dearly) and it was fun to play in these playgrounds (mostly by sticking the librarians into other universes, xD)

i published 25 fics last year! and five of those fics were less than 1k, which i also really love. this year i really tried to let go of my idea that my fics Had to be more than 4k (and super polished) before they could see the light of day. i think my writing has been more fun and less stressful because of that.

i polished off 4 multi-year WIPs last year: but the verse is sweet, something out of a dream, don't wanna see you go (but it's not forever), and all we can do today. it felt so, so good to finally get those out there. the only one i have left from The Great Hiatus of 2021-2022 is éponine de bergerac. i will finish that someday, but i'm letting her take her time, because she deserves it. (i DID make good progress on that fic, which is something at least!)

most popular fic of the year was sit there in your heartache, which. is a spirk fic written right after a relevant episode, so not a surprise lol. the fic that surprised me most is actually the sisterhood of the travelling main character plotpoints -- i kinda expected that one to vanish quietly, but the hatchetfield fandom is WAY more active than i expected! which is very cool :D

the fic with the fewest hits was sidenote, which doesn't surprise me, since the librarians isn't a very active fandom and it's a rareship within the fandom anyway. the people who DID read it were very sweet, so i am very grateful for them. (i'm doing fic with the fewest hits because i feel like it's better to focus on that than What Didn't Get Kudos)

i started 2024 with 5 WIPs. i actually already finished one (and then immediately started its sequel, whoops) (shoutout to the ds9 modern au, i'll make a real post about that sometime). none of these fics are particularly progressed, but i'll keep working on them and try to find the Finishing A Project Dopamine from ficlets if i need it.

i didn't really have any Writing Goals for 2023 aside from doing any writing at all, lol. i think for 2024 i want to try to get more consistent with my writing -- instead of doing x number of words per month (which usually happen over 3-4 Big Writing Days), i'd rather try to write for 5 days out of every week, or something like that. we'll see what i can get done.

in the meantime: thank you guys for listening. i'm proud of what i did last year, and i'm excited to see what happens next year :D

[holyshit]

How do you cope with really anxiety inducing fandom days? And not the good kind like the boys releasing new songs or anything but days where you're dreading the content?

i have a long post about this topic here if you're interested in reading it and haven't already, which i do think goes over a few different pieces of advice and the "lessons" i have learned through taking a multi year fandom break which have helped me learn to enjoy fandom more as a whole and not letting myself get too invested to the detriment of my mental wellbeing. some of that is more of a focus on the long term, so i think my best advice for the short term when there are specific events that are upcoming and making you anxious are:

take a short break. even just leaving for a day or two (especially if you're used to being involved in fandom every day) can give you a ton of perspective about the situation. when you're putting so much of your energy into it day-in-day-out, everything seems much more serious than it is when you even distance yourself a little bit. when i do get anxious these days, the immediate thing i do is take a day off, and i often feel much more detached and able to deal with it with a cooler head once i get back.

if you feel like you realistically cannot upkeep a break and will inevitably check tumblr, specifically schedule something else that is fun or productive on the same day (or if it's something that would span across a long time, for the day(s) that whatever topic/event would be most talked about). it should be something that would take up a good chunk of your day so you don't even have enough time to check tumblr for any lengthy period of time. this can be plans with friends, working on a hobby, binging a tv show, finishing something for school/work, organizing/cleaning your house, etc etc. when your mind is busy with something else, it essentially forces a break and a certain level of compartmentalization which can detach you enough to get a similar level of perspective that a break might give you.

if you don't want to take a break and do not have anything to fill your time with sufficiently, try to avoid your dashboard/feeds and instead go directly to a few blogs/accounts you know do not post things that make you anxious. it's a way to still engage in fandom while not needlessly stressing yourself out.

don't doomscroll!!!! it's hard to avoid sometimes, but there's something about continuously refreshing and refreshing and scrolling and scrolling when you're already anxious that makes everything feel infinitely worse.

be kind to yourself- your anxiety likely comes from a place of compassion and care, which is great, but at the end of the day, you have to take care of yourself. especially since everything here has to do with celebrities who do not know who we are. you don't have any obligation to tough out things in fandom that make you miserable or anxious, and you don't have to be "caught up" on everything to be a good fan. you are entitled to a fun and happy fandom experience, and if that includes removing yourself from certain situations, you can and should do that. back when i was anxious nearly constantly in this fandom, i felt like i had to be involved in everything and keep up with every aspect of this fandom, and once i freed myself from those expectations, that's when i was truly able to enjoy my time here.

hope you're ok and are able to find some relief <3

[cultesdesghoules]

『•• BLOG UPDATE ••』

coming in to clear the cobwebs—

as of late, i’ve been feeling a little bit stressed when it comes to this blog. i couldn’t figure out the specifics as to why until i moved my fire emblem muses to their own fandom-dedicated multi—or at least it helped figure out a specific.

being a panfandom blog scattered across multiple media types is a stressor. it’s made me worry or think too hard on what fandom to focus on for a day / how to spread things out, avoidant in posting headcanons or ooc posts, and it’s also made me unintentionally set some of my friends, ship partners, and partners i have multiple threads with to the side in order to appear thorough; like i don’t play favorites. being on my fire emblem multi gives me NONE of those feelings, at all! so i’m going to very slowly set aside some time to create more blogs that are either dedicated to one specific fandom (i.e. csm or dbd), only one media type (i.e. animanga), or even strictly for one genre (i.e. horror). whenever that happens, i’ll move whatever threads i have onto those blogs.

tl;dr — this blog is on indefinite hiatus due to the fact that i will be slowly breaking things down into specific multimuse blogs, just like i did with my fire emblem blog. the first two fandom-specific blogs i make will be for demon slayer and the elder scrolls. i’ll figure out which fandoms, media types, and / or genres to eventually break down into soon enough.

if you want to plot, roleplay, or just chit-chat on discord in the meantime, my sn is secular haze.#1349

[ventusbane]

↘    independent && private WARRIOR OF LIGHT and CANON MUSES from FFXIV ↘    canon divergent, headcanon heavy ↘    multi - para, multi - ship, ship friendly ↘    mun is 21↑  runs on a GMT +8 timezone

 LIST OF CANON CHARACTERS

GUIDELINES

01. this is an independent, selective and private blog. i’ll only interact with mutuals. due to my lack of time, I may be slow. please understand. 

Please softblock / hardblock if you do not wish to interact anymore. There’ll be no hard feelings, of course. You do what you have to do but please just soft / hardblock to make it clear. Thank you !

WHEN SENDING IC ASKS / LIKING A STARTER CALL, PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHICH MUSE YOU WISH TO WRITE AGAINST. WE’RE ALL SIMPS HERE, NO JUDGEMENT.

this blog is iconless ( for now ) until life becomes less grindy.

THREADS

02. one-liners, multipara are all okay. i lean more towards the latter but i wouldn’t mind doing one-liners either for fun.

03. usually, i match length. but i can also write a lot. i write a hecking lot, especially when it comes to meme in askbox. i ramble a lot. but don’t feel stressed over matching lengths - just give me something to reply to.

04. if you wish to continue a thread from asks, feel free to continue from that post ( since i formatted it that way so that there can be a thread without the ask lodging at the top ).

05. i’m known as a bit of a muse bicycle so i can roleplay any side characters to spice things up on and complement the threads. 

06. i will drop threads if i don’t feel it anymore but i will try my best to let you know about it beforehand and maybe we can either discuss another plot or shake hands and walk away like mature adults if nothing else works. there’s no pressure to continue interacting with me if there isn’t chemistry between the mun either !

CANON DIVERGENCE

07. one of my wols is a shard of hermes rather than azem because i like to mess around like that. however, that does not cancel out amon being the canonically shard of hermes. two can co-exist in roleplays and such. things can always be worked out. 

08. same wol being zenos’s half brother has always been a thing for years ( thanks to eorzea encyclopedia referring zenos as a firstborn ) and it still is. as such romantic shipping is not possible with zenos / emet-selch / varis.

IF, times comes when i write with writers of these characters, i won’t push this plot on you, and i will always ask permission before mentioning it.

09. at any case if you strongly prefer me to omit the above two backgrounds in our threads, let me know. as long as you’re polite about it, i’m flexible.

SHIPPING

10. multi-ship, and is generally alright with most ships. feel free to chat me up if you find that our muse has chemistry / has potential to develop good chemistry. note that i require mutual plotting and interactions between muse and mun for a ship to happen.

NSFW

11. yes, i am over 20 but i most likely will not be writing sex stuff with just anyone off the bat. main reason being i am not very motivated by it. i do like to write the foreplay though but anything that comes after is pretty hard to interest me unless it’s with a shipping partner.

NO-NOs

12. please don’t come to my dms with passive aggressiveness and uppity in regards to how i write my character. for one, this is canon divergent and headcanon heavy. i don’t care that much about sticking to canon to a tee. i love to bend the lore, twist the rules around and entertain to the best of my creative abilities. i only focus on making myself a very happy writer and hopefully someone a very happy writing partner. if you're not a flexible person like me, then i'm not the writing partner for you.

14.  mun =/= muse, this goes without saying. but if my muses becomes a bit too much, just let me know nicely and i’ll try and dial them down. your comfort is important but don’t be a jerk about it.

15. i also don’t really care for drama or what people do with their blogs. life is too short for all that nonsense, yeah? if you are hurt, you can vent to me if you want or need to but otherwise, i don’t engage in fandom drama.

16. no god-modding, obviously. and try not to have your muse know things that my muse wouldn’t tell anyone. some of my muses are pretty tightlipped but i assure you that opening up this tuna can is not that hard and a bit of a writing can make the tuna sandwich all the more tasty. 

17. I have massive social anxiety, coupled with a lot of other shit with my mental health so I will be selective with who I will continue to thread with. If something bothers me, I’ll let you know nicely and gently. If we still don’t click, I’ll have to drop threads or plotting ( though I will still be open with working things out ) but again, I’ll let you know nicely and gently. Please be open to that possibility!

i have discord and i’m all willing to share with mutuals. just hit me up!

[herooffire101]

I should explain in more depth of my head canons for Cats. I’m what you would call more of a multi-verse shipper. I have like, a basis, for them, and I create little changes of how they would go. It’s the reason why I’m so okay with different head canons different people have. I see the different head canons and I create stories using them in my mind. It’s the same with books, actual books like the Dragonriders of Pern. I read them and I can see them play out in my mind. It’s rare to occasionally I will find a story that I try to read and I cannot because the contents I don’t like and don’t enjoy. I can and will put down because no, I don’t like how it’s going. This is why I like Tuggoffeles in certain ways because it has to fit into how I see the characters, especially if Bombalurina is painted as the enemy. I’ve read some of these and I have put them down because I don’t like how they are going. They are hard to swallow. Yes, I have different versions of how each cat has a relationship with each other. Yes, I have AUs of my AUs. Will I ever write them? No. Only one-shots and short chaptered stories I can deal with because I struggle to put words together in a meaningful way. In school, English class was my most stressful and hard class. I cannot put what I see in my head into words occasionally. It takes me a while to put the words into a meaningful way.

For example of one of my head canons, I have Bombalurina as the granddaughter of Gus the Theater Cat because I have it as she inherited his ability to draw attention to herself, focused on her eyes. As cats, Gus sees details, of magic, through illusions, and little quirks that make him such a successful actor. Bomba inherited a stronger version of his magic eyes. Thus, she can see through most, if not all, of Macavity. She recognizes that he’s physically hot, but even she can see that he’s distrustful. She, and Demeter, are the most like Grizabella, because of her ability to draw attention to herself and her magic eyes. This is a plot point why in my AUs that Macavity wanted to have both Bombalurina and Demeter. They have the spark of magic that can allow them to have the heirs to Old Deuteronomy. Yes, she does have issues with Grizabella. She’s compared to her a lot, and it made her focus on not being like her.

The grandfather-granddaughter relationship between Gus the Theater Cat and Bombalurina is one of my solid head canons. How it is actually up to interpretation depending on what I want from these AU stories. In one such AU as an example, Bombalurina is the daughter of the poly-relationship of Jellylorum, Asparagus Jr, Skimbleshanks, and Jennyanydots (two of them are her bio-parents. I can expand on this later). There are two interpretations with this, one where Demeter is her sister, one where she is not, thus allowing Demelurina ship to happen with Bombatuggoffeles (with both AUs). Both of these are great interpretations with story within them, playing off of the different relationships that are present in multiple sources.

Another example that I don’t see often (or I’m not looking in the right place, this is always a possibility) is the relationship between Bombalurina and Plato. No, I’m not talking about a romantic relationship, I don’t see it. I’m talking either a friendly or familial relationship. Platoria is still main. I can go in depth on this, though not for now. I look at fanfiction and other people’s head canons, and I get inspired.

I’m willing to talk about more of these AUs in detail some other time, but I felt like I should explain more in depth of my Cats head canons.

[cinnbar-bun]

i’ve started my first fully multi chaptered fic !! YAY!!! i hope this is okay i just wanted to ask for some advice but please feel free to delete my ask habibti no hard feelings wallah 💕 but i’ve been struggling sooo much with dialogue and making it flow esp when the characters so emotionally repressed too 😫 and just making it interesting and adding details ig ?? but i’m like why am i doing this if it’s a small fandom but UGHHH i’m just. idk i’m going crazy😭😭

Djjdjdj relatable, truthfully, habibti, all you need to do is take a deep breath. As a writer, you’ll be reading your work over and over and over and over and over and over- you get the idea.

By the time you get it out of the drafts you’ve most likely read and pondered the dialogue about a good ten times. It’s sounding stale because YOU have seen it so many times that it all blends together.

My advice? Take a break from the draft. Come back to it after a few hours or even tomorrow. By then, you’ll stop having ‘draft brain’ and you can appreciate your work more than if you continued rereading your work in one sitting. Ask a friend to beta or read it for fun too. Majority of the time, they’ll like it way more than you yourself believed because you got stuck in draft brain.

Another thing, especially with emotionally repressed characters, focus on actions. In general, it’s a good tip to remember because it’s not like your characters are just… standing and doing nothing for the entirety of a chapter. What are they doing in between dialogue? Are they taking a drink? Fiddling with their hands or a pen? Not even looking at the other character? Focus on that! It gets the point across and helps their personality show where their words don’t.

I hope this could help you a bit darling!! Just stress too much and remember to take breaks. Wallah this was not a bother at all and I’m happy to give my amateur advice and opinions! And if it’s possible could you send me a link so I can read it habibti 🥺👉👈?