#but now that i'm /finally/ free from exam week; i'll be able to be more active on twitter and curiouscat again ^^

[lamoreelovi]

Shion Madarame x Virgin F! Reader

Warning: Passionate sex, lots of cum, cockwarming, pussy eating, mentions of reader getting pregnant, first time, aftercare, nicknames such as babygirl, my beloved and such will be used.

A/N: To my followers here, I am so sorry for not posting omg, just finished our school year and this week was filled with too many dramas and events for me to be able to write smuts again but I'M BACK‼️The gif reminds me of Shion, Idk why, but I hope you guys like this one, I legit still can't get over Tenjiku arc.

Shion seems like a bad boy, he is. Considering how he's a part of Tenjiku and one of the Four heavenly kings at that. But y'know, when you started dating him, you would've expected to get an abusive boyfriend. One that would beat you up and often go to clubs to fuck other women while you watch them, but things were not what you expected and you were glad it wasn't. Shion was the damn opposite of abusive, greedy, and disgusting. He was heavenly, kind, sweet and considerate. Like how he knows you just finished your finals exam today so he took the extra time, skipping his Tenjiku meeting just to help you relax. Even though you rejected his offer and insisted to let him go back to his meeting, he was also stubborn. One of his bad yet good qualities with you. And since you were the kind girlfriend you are, you couldn't say no to your handsome boyfriend.And that's what led you here, on your bed, legs spread and his head in between. His tongue was lapping and sucking on all the juices your pussy would release. This was heaven for you and it was also for him. Your back arched as you grip the sheets underneath you.

"S-Shion.. s'too good.."

You moan out, your voice almost whimpering and cracking due to how intense he ate you out.

"Baby.. keep moaning for me like that.. moan my fucking name, baby.."

Shion spoke lowly, his voice was deep and seductive yet muffled due to being in between your legs

"M'gonna cum, Shion.. oh my god.."

Once you said that he immediately stopped. He pushed himself away from your dripping pussy that was now clenching on air and he stood up from kneeling while you whimpered frustratedly

"Shion.. why.."

You croak out in a small voice, he chuckles and looks at you with list and hunger as he unbuckles his pants and removes his boxers, springing free his hard cock that was already dripping with precum. His cock seemed very enticing, it was big, really big, 8 inch and built like a damn coke can, he had a set of properly trimmed hairy balls that made it all the more sexier. The veins popped out of it and you can see it twitching

"Like what you see, Babygirl..?"

He gave a smug look, chuckling as he pulls you to the edge of the bed, your lower body dangling as he holds your thighs to keep you steady

"Mm, Shion, I.. wait.."

You told him to wait for a moment, he does so and raises his left eyebrow slightly

"Scared, baby?"

"No.. I'm not.. It's just.. I'm.. a virgin.. and this is going to be my first time so please.."

"i know, my beloved, I got you, I'll be nice and gentle hm? You just relax, m'kay?"

Shion asked so nicely that even though you were scared you felt slightly more at ease now. You knew he wasn't going to go nice and gentle, well, not until you finally beg him to go hard and fast. Shion hovered over you, wrapping your legs around his waist as his hands grip your hip to keep you balance and steady. He looks you in the eyes and smiles softly, he finally aligns himself with your entrance, slowly pushing in.He was so big, just the tip already felt like you were full, you whined, sharply gasping as you scratch his back due to the pain.

"It hurts, shion.."

Shion showers you with small affectionate kisses on your neck and face to distract you from the pain

"Shh... It's okay, just relax.."

He continues to shower you with kisses as he finally pushes his whole length in you. You gasp softly at the feeling of your pussy being full of him

"S-so.. f-fucking tight, baby.. relax.."

Shion groaned at how tightly you clenced around his cock, he started moving, a slow pace to help you adjust to him. You could feel your gummy walls clenching around him, you could feel every vein on his dick as he thrusts slowly and gently. He continues his slow pace for a few minutes till you finally tap him two times on his bare chest and he finally moves faster.You moan louder as he starts pounding into you, his cock reaching spots you never knew were even there, your head leans back on the pillow and your eyes also roll back, your hands gripping his arms tightly as he continues pounding your wet pussy"Shion... Gonna cum.. please let me cum.."You felt your stomach tie into a knot as you felt your orgasm near, he groaned and spoke with a growl"Cum on my cock, baby, I'm about to cum too.."He growls as he lifts your legs up his shoulders and into a mating press, you moan loudly at the new feeling as you felt him go deeper than last time if it were even possible.

"B-baby.. let me cum inside, hm? Let me get you pregnant, baby.. wanna see you with my babies."

You were fucked out at this point. You could hear him but could barely manage to let out a response so you nod eagerly, only letting out moans of 'yes please and mhm, yes, just like that.'

As you nod, Shion groans loudly and thrusts sloppily yet faster as he feels you come undone around his cock and he stops and finally cums inside you, his seed spilling inside your womb as you both pant heavily

"I love you, my sweet girl.."

"I love you too, Shion.."

And as you both say your declaration of love to each other, he carries you to the middle of the bed, he lays himself and lets you sleep on his chest. He gives one last kiss on your forehead before he also closes his eyes, embracing you contentedly

I wanna give a shout out to my fav smut creators:

@anonimusunnoaniswriting

@witchywcmans

[yume-x-hanabi]

Life update

Posted on DW, but I figured I could update this blog as well now that I'm semi-getting back into social media...

I've sorta fallen off from the fandom and social media space, because life has been a lot these past few years. To sum up briefly:

- I made a couple of posts about it last year, but I bought an apartment in a new building (construction wasn't finished at the time). Running left and right to choose stuff such as flooring etc, getting things organized on the paperwork side (banks, notaries...), plus the move itself, took me a lot of time and energy. I've been living here full time for 10 months now though, and it's been great. Love the building (even tho it's not entirely finished orz), love the neighbourhood, and it's so great to have your own place. Missy seems at ease here, too, which is important. The balconies' guardrails are huge glass panes that go all the way to the floor with no gap, so that means I can let her out without supervision without fear of her falling/jumping off.

- Work, the main culprit for my withdrawal from fandom. I think I mentioned before that I took on more admin tasks a couple years ago, and while I enjoy the actual work when I get to it, it's a huge huge drain to my mental energy, esp when combined with everything else (class prep, exams, meetings etc). So it's pretty much killed my drive, and my already bad work-life balance just became worse and worse. Like, it's not that I don't have free time (perks of teaching = lots of holidays), but when I do I'm so mentally exhausted that I was pretty much only able to play mindless games like Solitaire or Civilization VI (which became like an addiction lol) or doomscroll on twitter or reddit. I pretty much lost my ability to engage with hobbies, except for the ones below, and I'm trying really really hard to come back and make it stick this time around.

- Speaking of hobbies though, I've gotten really into classical music and started attending concerts regularly. By perfect coincidence, my new place is at a 2-minute walk from my city's philharmonic hall, and I've been enjoying the heck out of that perk. My city's orchestra is really good, and their program so varied. When it was time to choose my subscription for next season, it was harder to choose which concerts not to attend (but a choice had to be made ;v;). Also I'm super stoked because they're playing my favorite symphony next year, I didn't expect to be able to hear it live so soon!

I think this really saved my mental health this year. Like, it's a bit hard to explain, but there's something really unique and relaxing about the atmosphere there. It's a bit intimidating at first, and I was really self-conscious about not making noise at the beginning, but I've gotten used to it now. Mostly, I think it helped me rediscover what it is to just sit down and enjoy the moment, without constantly looking for stimulation to my already overstimulated mind (silly aside, but before that I'd sorta lost the ability to binge a series without mindlessly checking my phone in the middle of episodes. Being "forced" to keep my phone away for the duration of a concert has really helped me recover my attention span). I think it helps my mind rest, if that makes sense? Also there's nothing comparable to listening to the music live in a hall with great acoustics x3

I followed the Queen Elisabeth Competition closely this year, live for a few finals performances when possible, the rest on TV, and it was really awesome. I think in four years I'll get the subscription for the whole finals week :p

- Relatedly, I've also started taking violin lessons. I'd always wanted to learn an instrument since I was a child (loved those mandatory recorder classes we had at school lol), but it never happened (partly because I was too passive as a child to actively ask for it, partly because my parents probably didn't want to have their eardrums massacred, so didn't offer it (wouldn't have said no if I'd asked, but as I said I wasn't good at asking back then)). It took me a while to actually make the jump, because I thought I'm too old now and there's no point, but I finally did with some encouragements from friends and colleagues and I'm really glad I did. Violin is... hard lol. I sound absolutely terrible. But it's also really fun? Like I feel like I'll never be good, but also I've made so much progress since I started. I don't have much time to practice (I aim at at least 10min a day these days, which isn't a lot, but it's better than nothing and it's more important to do it a little regularly than a lot once in a while). I'm really looking forward to the day I'll be able to attempt to play Xillia songs 😄 Also I really love my teacher<3

- Lastly, niece is 3 now and so fun to interact with. It's not always easy, she's very stubborn and willful, but she's also really sweet and funny. Love her ❤️ And she's just got a little sister! who's a very chill newborn, so different from niece#1 lol. I can't wait to see them play together when they're a little bit older.

Anyway, that's pretty much the main things that have been going on the past couple of years. Like I said I'm not sure I can be totally back, I think it's gonna take a lot of adjustment, but this time I really don't want to let another year pass by like that. I'm really gonna try hard to have better balance this time!

[roadkillremi]

SEQUEL to - Please, Don't kill me, Mr.Ghostface

Randy Meeks x Fem!Reader

Masterlist Part 2 on Masterlist

Warnings : mentions Sex, language, mentions dying, mentions Killing, Reader has hallucinations (If I miss anything let me know)

I do NOT support killing

Summary : After the 1996 Woods borrow murders, will you move on? Attending college with some old friends and making new ones. Your past stalking you at times making everything difficult.

"Can you tell me what you were thinking when he was going to kill your friends?"

The clocked ticked loudly on the wall, you fidgeted picking your nails.

"Disgusted, trapped, with myself to be exact. If I didn't say anything I'd get hurt. If I did if get hurt. There's nothing I could do about it."

She nodded scrabbling on the notebook paper.

"And it's said you stabbed Billy Loomis 17 times. Is that correct?"

"I didn't count. I just... Did it. It was either that or die."

"I know."

"I don't wanna talk about Billy." You looked out the window not being able to face her.

"Let's talk about your visions then.".

You nodded still looking out the window with a soft gaze.

"I got a call from your Aunt. She said according to the teacher you started yelling in class. Cause you saw... Them.".

You nodded, "Yes."

"They're dead they can't hurt you."

"I know. But nightmares can't die."

She sighed, "You're suffering from PTSD, it's not strange to suffer after a traumatic event. Sydney, Randy, and Gale are doing fine. Sydneys getting through it maybe you can talk to her-"

"Sydney's rich and popular. She has the ability... To be loved easily."

"You don't know Sydney's life-"

"But I know mine!" You turned to her.

"Tell me about school."

"People look at me like I'm a zombie or something. I mean since someone died the exams aren't a big deal... People think I'm a killer... Ever since Gale... Did a short read of her upcoming book..."

"Self defense is not murder."

"Yes, I know! Still hurts. The only reason I got into college is because of being a victim. I don't even know what to major in."

"Don't you like movies? Major in directing."

"that's Randy's thing. I love movies, but I don't wanna make them."

"just come up with a list and think it through. How's your sleeping been?"

You looked down at your lap, "It's hard to sleep. I have bad dreams and wake up.".

"have you tried a-"

"Routine. Yes. Sometimes Randy spends the night."

She raised her eyebrow, "Not like that!".

"Mhm." She wrote something down.

"Do you think im a killer?" You looked at her deeply. She looked up at you and didn't speak for a moment.

"I think you're an angry child with a rough past seeking the love you didn't have."

"That wasn't my question."

"No, you're not a killer."

"You hesitated."

"This isn't about me. Its about you."

Silence filled the room back up again.

"I'm scared I'll kill again."

You folded your graphic tees into a box. Music played in the background as you packed up. The last week you've been packing for college. Surprisingly Sydney asked to be roommates, you said yes.

Your room was almost empty now, you sat on your bed.

"Finally running away from here?"

Billy appeared next to you, he leaned down to see your face.

"You're not real."

"I'm real to you."

You didn't look towards him, you closed your eyes trying to focus on breathing.

"You can't shut me out!" He yelled.

"Go away, Billy!" You yelled back. Your Aunt rushed in at the sound of you yelling.

"Everything alright?"

"Yeah, just a nightmare." You stood up.

"Okay. Well Randy called, he's on his way. So get ready to pack up his car." She gave a pathetic smile and walked away. You sighed putting shoes on before taking boxes near the front door. Randy pulled up walking in the house, ever since the killing he seemed to peak. He had more muscle and wore shirts that showed it, he even grew out a small beard. He wasn't the only thing that change in the summer though.

People around you took note about how you seemed more free than usual. You got to dress in clothes without Billy saying you looked whorish. Not only that but you randy had sex, a lot. In his car, in your room, even at his work. There was of course close calls but nothing to serious. He got better at sex the more you two did it. Sometimes it was passionate and loving, others were more rough and animalistic.

"God, I'm not gonna have room for all this!" Randy exclaimed mentioning the boxes. You rolled your eyes, "It's everything, clothes, bedding, school supplies, all of it.".

Randy grabbed a box letting out a small huff. You patted his back, "you got this.".

"You better help that boy!" Your Aunt yelled out.

"Yeah!" Randy mocked smiling. You grabbed a box following him to the car. The trunk had all of Randy's bags stuffed into there. He placed the boxes in the back seat. You huffed back and forth between the car and the house.

"That's all of them!" You yelled out to Randy. He slammed the car door shut, "Thank God!" He cried over dramatically.

Your Aunt hugged you tightly sniffling, "Call when you can. Stay safe.".

"I will, I love you." You hugged her back tightly.

Months later

You banged on Randy's door, "Randy Meeks! Get your ass up!". He got drunk with his roommate, Paul last night. He called you slurring his words telling you how much he loves you. He opened the door, "Sorry, I was getting dress!".

"You look like shit." You laughed. His hair a bit messy and bags under his eyes.

"You look amazing too, darling" he said in a British accent.

You walked to class with him holding his hand. Some girls snickered at you as you passed them. Randy glanced at them, "What's their problem?".

"Don't worry about it. You know how some women are, don't grow out of the popularity in high school." You sighed.

"Pfft, yeah tell me about it." He said leaning close to your ear. His hot breath tickling the side of your face.

A frisbee passed by in front of you two, "Couldn't have caught it?! Dick.." some guy said running after it.

"See?" Randy gestured. You rolled your eyes, "Come on Mr.Meeks we have a film class to get to!".

"You know how I get when you call me that." He joked. You jokingly gave him a look, "You'll just have to rub it out in the bathroom.". He smiled hugging you from behind picking you up a bit.

"Or I could fuck you when Paul's gone"

You laughed tapping his arm to let you go. "Poor Paul needs a break from us pounding like dogs in there." You said walking into the building. Randy caught up with you, "Well this dogs ready to pounce.". He sprayed mouth spray in his mouth winking at you.

[nightimedreamersworld]

Dead Simon Darlings Sunday

Thank you for tagging me today, friends @cutestkilla @fatalfangirl @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @confused-bi-queer @bookish-bogwitch @forabeatofadrum ❤️ your snippets are lovely!

So, now that ELH is finally done, I'm back to my ongoing wip (the super angsty one, not the smut one lol). Sadly, I haven't been able to write at all this week, seeing as in the next two weeks I'll be having FIVE (5) exams, plus 3 group assignments I have to turn in (only one of which I've started...)

Anyway. You won't have to hear me whining about uni for much longer, tho, as the term will be done in two weeks. Then I'm finally free. Literally crawling towards my vacation 😩

For now, though- I'm going to follow the dead darlings trend and show you something I've cut off from this wip. (I honestly hate killing my darlings, but in this case there wasn't much I could do. The end of this chapter just felt flat and stretched thin, so I'll be reworking it with a different POV)

I reach out—in the split second before I touch him, it feels like there’s a current buzzing at the tips of my fingers, just waiting for the circuit to complete. But I pull my hand back before it shocks us both. Baz’s eyes are still closed, so he doesn’t notice. “I mean it, Baz. You’re forgiven. No hard feelings.”  He sniffs. Nods. “You don’t have to be sorry. I deserved it. I deserved much more.”  It’s my turn to shake my head. “You didn’t deserve any of this,” I tell him. He peeks at me through his fingers. “Really, Baz. I’m… sorry about your loss,” I say, and I feel like a deflating balloon as the words come out.  He finally looks up at me. He looks so… defeated. I don’t get it. I’ve been mulling over this for days, the things I’d say. The things that would make him feel better.  (But I guess better doesn’t begin to scratch the surface of Baz’s suffering. It’s like blowing air over a third-degree burn. Like putting a band-aid on an open fracture.)

(It also feels sort of wrong to have this section at this point in the story... like, Simon isn't in the headspace to be thinking like this, yet. So I might re-use some of these lines later on)

Tagging a few friends: @artsyunderstudy @ivelovedhimthroughworse @captain-aralias @whogaveyoupermission @whatevertheweather @hushed-chorus @supercutedinosaurs @stitchyqueer @iamamythologicalcreature @larkral @blackberrysummerblog @valeffelees @palimpsessed @prettygoododds @aristocratic-otter and anyone who'd like to share!

[littlegodzilla]

Our Story.

Daryl Dixon x Wife / Daryl Dixon x Reader.

Part 3.

Masterlist.

Warnings: Angst. Drama. Death. Goodbyes. Sad Daryl. Heartbreaking.

Words: 2900.

Summary: She is gone and Daryl doesn't know what to do now.

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Part 3: Lose her.

The first time she passed out, no one gave it a thought. Classes were being intense, criminal schedules and exams had her head racing, barely getting two or three hours of sleep at a time putting her body completely on edge.

"Ya can't do that." Daryl reproached her when he went to see her. "Ya need to eat, sleep..."

"I don't have time, Daryl, finals are next week and..."

"Fuck the fucking exams. I'm ain't gonna let ya have a stroke 'cause yer forcin' yerself on ya like that." He shushed her, she was surprised and smiled, kissing him.

"Thanks, honey, but it's just a few more days and I'll finally be free...I'll finally be going home." She smiled looking at her fiancé, playing with the ring on her finger.

Daryl smiled at her words and forgot why he was scolding her. It was true, after all that time, she was finally coming home, her grades were excellent, the college was very happy with her, she had been promised a most hopeful future, everything was slowly getting on track. 

Daryl had worked like crazy for all those years, earning enough to be able to afford a down payment on a house that could continue to give them the future they longed for. His father died, he never felt too sorry for him, he died as he lived, drunk and with a whore between his legs, the inheritance he left him and Merle were some debts that Daryl had to pay, as Merle had disappeared again and every time he came back into his life it was to get him in trouble or he was looking for money, so Daryl began to think he'd rather not have him around.

"I'm yer brother, Darlyna, yer always gonna need me." He told him the last time Daryl saw him.

You helped him fill the house, you wanted it to be a surprise for her for when she came home from college, knowing her tastes and some of her quirks, you decorated the vast majority of the house, leaving the master bedroom and a few things untouched, leaving something for her to choose from knowing that would make her excited too.

After that night at the secret place, your relationship with Daryl grew closer, he was your best friend, almost like a big brother, you had your own friends that you trusted and felt good about, he never stopped you from seeing them, but when you needed to feel safe and sought advice, Daryl was always willing to reach out to you.

"Michael's a good guy." He told you one day after you introduced him to your boyfriend. "I like him." He nodded and you smiled.

"Yeah, I think... he's special."

"I'm happy for ya, ya deserve it."

"Thanks, Daryl." You smiled and shared a hug.

"Yer sister is gonna freak when she finds out." He joked and you laughed heartily because you knew Daryl was right. "Ya can bring him to the wedding if ya want."

"My sister wouldn't let me go alone." You followed his joke and he chuckled, nodding.

The wedding was a few weeks after she finished college. It was simple, not too many luxuries, her parents helped financially, her father finally gave in to the fact that the youngest Dixon was really trying to become someone better and agreed to let her marry his daughter. The ceremony and reception was held in the backyard of her parents' house, with the closest friends and family, she wore her mother's wedding dress, Daryl was accompanied by her father to get a tuxedo worthy of the occasion.

"I allow you to marry her." He told her. "But I'm not going to allow you to go dressed like this, Dixon."

"Yes, sir." He agreed without putting up any resistance.

He wanted that day to be special, too.

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The second time she passed out was at home, on a random day, Daryl got up to go to work, she had the day off from the office, but got up with him to make breakfast and do some things around the house. Daryl heard the clatter coming from the kitchen as he was putting on his work clothes. He ran downstairs to the kitchen to discover her lying on the floor. He called out her name, ran to her, and held her carefully seeing that she was starting to wake up.

"Hey, hey, what happened?" He looked at her worriedly, she looked confused and a little scared.

"I-I don't know, I was just making the coffee and... and I saw you..."

"Okay, easy, let's get up slowly, okay?" He said holding her, slowly getting up, sitting her on the table. 

"I'm fine, Daryl..."

"No, yer ain't, it's not the first time it's happened to ya, remember?" He stroked her cheek lovingly and kissed her very slowly. "I'm gonna call the doctor, have him give us an appointment..."

"Maybe it's something good, maybe..." She smiled putting a hand on her belly and Daryl felt himself struggling to breathe.

"T-that would be perfect, but we have to make sure, okay? I-I don't wanna anything to happen to ya, or the baby that might be coming..."

"Okay..." She nodded, accepting her husband's words.

"Stay in each, rest, don't overexert yourself. No, don't look at me like that, just listen to me for this time."

She closed her mouth, giving him a sidelong glance, they knew each other too well, to know when one was going to protest, when something didn't seem right. She sighed and nodded her head. Giving up. Daryl walked her to the bedroom laying her down on the bed, the ease with which she fell back asleep didn't please her at all. As he picked up the mess in the kitchen he made an appointment with her doctor to see her as soon as possible. Before leaving he peeked back into the room to find her sleeping peacefully, his heart relaxed a little.

As he got into the car to drive towards the garage he looked up your name on his phone and put the handsfree on.

"Good morning, Daryl." You greeted him after several rings. "You know we don't all get up early like you, right?"

"Sorry, pretty girl, but I have a favor to ask." He said, from the tone of his voice you were concerned.

"Is everything all right, has something happened?"

"Yer sister fainted again this mornin'." He informed you. "It was only for a second, but it's ain't the first time and it's got me worried."

"Did you call the doctor? Do you need me to take her?"

"We have an appointment for tomorrow, I've left her sleeping at home; I-I wanted to ask ya to go and... take care of her while I'm at work." He asked you chewing on his lip, knowing he was asking too much, that you had your own life.

"S- sure, no problem, I'll get dressed and be right there." You assured him, he sighed feeling some relief.

"Thanks honey, I'm sorry to ask ya this, I know ya may have had plans with Michael, but..."

"No, no, Daryl, she's my sister, she goes first. Always." You assured him and he smiled.

"Okay, thank ya."

"You don't have to give it to me, I'll keep you posted with anything." You said your goodbyes and Daryl left for work feeling a little more at ease.

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The news they received from the doctor was shattering, the two of them sitting there in front of the man who looked at them apologetically and pitifully, not knowing how to deliver the information without being too drastic or cruel, but sometimes those things were hard to smooth over. It didn't matter how they tried.

She had a degenerative disease, it had always been there, evolving slowly, quietly, a silent killer.

She was dying.

Daryl could barely breathe as the echo of her and the doctor's voices drifted in and out of his ears. He could only feel the rage building, filling his stomach, how his teeth clicked wanting to scream, but he had to restrain himself, he couldn't let all the anger explode against him, it wasn't his fault. She would ask, make plans, she needed to know how much and how to fight it. Daryl still wasn't able to speak.

"There's medication, experimental treatments, formulas to slow the symptoms, the pain, maybe we could extend his life six months or a year."

Six months or a year. Daryl felt like throwing up.

Daryl held on as long as he could, held on stoically for her, didn't scream, didn't curse, swallowed his tears so as not to scare her. He spoke to her in a soft voice, tried to calm her, to be strong for both of them. He had to resist. He had to take care of her.

But his forts faltered when they told the family, his mother's tears, his father's anger, yelling at him, blaming him for it, Daryl for a moment believed it was his fault, that he had thrown her against her own illness, that if he had given her an easier life maybe she would have held on longer. Seeing you cry was what broke him. The three of you were a team, the three of you understood and cared for each other and now your sister was going to die and he could do nothing to stop it.

He felt the world collapsing in on him and he was unable to hold it.

Not this time.

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Daryl had never seen that someone could deteriorate so quickly, it was ironic, all those years he had never noticed anything, nothing had ever happened, and yet now she could barely move, she could barely stay awake, she could barely eat. Daryl struggled every day to keep her with him, his shifts at the shop decreased, he couldn't stay away from home that long, he knew you took care of her when he wasn't home, but he couldn't put all that responsibility on your shoulders either. It wasn't fair.

"Hey, hey, where are ya going?" He woke up one day feeling movement next to him.

"I have to go to the bathroom, Daryl, if I have your permission..." she sighed wearily.

"Yeah, sure, sorry..." He let her go to the bathroom, but kept an eye out in case he heard anything suspicious.

"The treatment isn't working anymore." He told the doctor one day when she fainted again and had to be admitted. "She's finding it harder and harder to stay conscious, she's in pain, her bones are like glass..." He gasped, lowering his head.

"I'm so sorry, but everything we knew is failing..." Commented the doctor. "Her body can't tolerate anything more..."

He swallowed hard, looking at the man with intensity, he knew what those words meant, but he couldn't accept them, it hurt to hear them. He wasn't ready.

"Daryl, it's okay..." She whispered from the gurney.

"No, it ain't okay." He turned to her, holding her hand. "What else can we do?"

"The humane thing to do would be to sedate her...it would ease her pain, her body would slowly shut down, she'd just fall asleep." He explained to them and Daryl stifled a sob as best he could.

He hadn't allowed himself to cry in front of her at any point, but all that information, knowing what it meant, having to accept it even if he didn't want to. It was killing him too.

"Daryl, listen to me, it's okay..." She whispered, stroking his hand. "It's okay."

God, how could it be okay?

They stayed together for another week, in that hospital, struggling between consciousness and unconsciousness, the sedations helping her, but she resisted falling asleep at all. That morning she was unable to speak, unable to keep her eyes open. Daryl had called everyone knowing there wasn't much left. He stroked her hair gently and kissed her softly on the lips.

"Okay, sweetheart, that's enough." He whispered. "You don't have to fight anymore, you can sleep...you can rest." He chewed his lip holding back tears as best he could. "You can rest now..."

"D...Da..." She gasped trying to call out to him.

"I love you, babygirl." He said goodbye to her kissing her lips again.

The whole family said their goodbyes, under the watchful eye of the doctor who would take care of giving her the last injection so she could rest for good, Daryl didn't let go of her hand until her chest didn't stop completely.

He sank his head between his shoulders, clenching his teeth tightly, crying silently, unable to move from his side. You reached out to him, stroking his shoulders to get his attention, his body jerked involuntarily at the contact and his silent crying became an uncontrollable whimper. You knelt down next to him and hugged him with all your strength, sharing the pain that invaded you both.

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You never thought Daryl would walk away from everything and everyone when he lost her. It had been a hard blow to everyone, but he simply erected thick and high barriers between him and the world, disappearing for everyone.

You insisted on several occasions going to his house to make sure he was okay, you even went to the secret place believing you could find him there like when you were young, but nothing. You found Merle coming and going from his house. He was his brother, alright, but he never came with good news and Daryl letting him into his house wasn't good either.

"Daryl?" You broke into the house one day. "Sorry to barge in like this, but the keys are still where they always are and... I'm worried." You said with sincerity walking through the house. It was dirty, dust, leftover food, objects lying on the floor. It was a mess.

"I forgot they were there..." You heard his voice, hoarse, raspy, as if he had been silent all that time.

"How are you? we haven't heard from you for days..." You insisted but he just shrugged. "I stopped by old Clayton's shop, he says you haven't shown up there for days..." You spoke again, looking for some reaction from him.

"Ain't gotta head to go to work..."

"I know, he understands that too, he says you can take all the time you need, but if you don't plan on coming back... he needs to find someone..."

"Well, let him find someone."

"Daryl..."

"Go away. This conversation isn't going to get us anywhere. Leave." He insisted in an authoritative tone, scowling.

You wanted to object, you wanted to tell him no, but the last thing you needed was to argue, to make him walk further away from everything.

"Okay, but... promise me you'll get out of here, come see us once in a while... please." You asked.

"Sure..." He mumbled through his teeth before you left the house.

You knew it was a lie.

But that wasn't what hurt you the most, what hurt you the most was seeing him with Merle, sold the house, and went back to that old cabin in the woods with his brother, going back to being that Dixon guy he had tried so hard to fight and now didn't seem to care about becoming.

In spite of everything, you tried again to get close to him one more time, the last time before you never heard from each other again. After several months, when the world seemed to be moving again, albeit slowly, you armed yourself to go to the cabin one morning. You clasped your hands together before knocking on the door and waiting. It was a couple of minutes before you heard the door click open.

You swallowed trying not to pull back. Daryl had a scowl on his face, he had cut his hair short, his half blond mane now very short, a light brown due to the change, stubble, he was wearing an old tank top, full of holes and pants that don't look any better.

"H-hello, Daryl..." You greeted him, his frown never relaxing for a moment.

"What are ya doing here?" he grunted in response.

"I wanted to see if you were okay..." You mumbled trying to ignore his tone of voice. "It's been a while since we've heard from anyone..."

"I've been busy." He shrugged. "What do ya want?"

"I was coming to give you this." You said handing him an envelope. Daryl looked at it, opened it and pulled out a card from inside.

"Yer getting married..." He commented without taking his eyes off the invitation.

"Yes, Michael and I... I'd like you to come." You nodded looking sideways at him.

"I can't, I have things to do, I'm gonna out with Merle hunting and we'll be gone for a while." He told you as an excuse.

"Merle... Daryl, I know you're not having a good time, that it's hard, very hard, but... you can count on us, she... she wouldn't have liked you turning into this."

"Into this? Let me tell you something; I am this, I always have been this, and you know what else? She's dead, so she has no say or opinion anymore." He said angrily and you widened your eyes. "So do me a favor, get the hell out of here, forget about me." He ripped up the card under your nose and threw it on the floor. "Stop wasting my time." He growled and closed the door leaving you standing there alone.

Shocked, teary eyed, feeling something tearing inside of you. Daryl was your best friend and yet you felt as if you had irretrievably lost him. After that you didn't insist again, you didn't go near the Dixon's cabin, you focused on your wedding and going on with your life.

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To be Continued....

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Hope you liked it and don't hate me too much.

See you in the next stories!!

Taglist: @green-eyedladywrites @minervadashwood @livingdeadblondequeen @bringinsexybackk69

[songsofbloodandwater]

If I wasn't completely absorved by the exams this next week, I'd be writing that attempt at an article about the Headless King that I've had in my drafts for a while now. I've made some pretty cool findings that really helped me wrap up some ideas and connect some dots, yet somehow I feel like He'll only let me sit down to write it all down cohesively once I actually have all the right puzzle pieces.

In the mean time, I'm just happy because the plants that I ordered a week ago arrived and now I finally have my own little herb garden! (which for someone who's been living on and off in a relatively small apartment for some years now, it's a Big Win)

Being able to bring into my home my most significant plant allies is really important to me because of the concepts of Reciprocity and Right Relation. The idea is that medicine and magic coming from allies that I personally tend to and care for is way more powerful than simply buying the herbs in bulk and awakening them. The Land Tending that I've been doing allows me that kind of Right Relation and Reciprocity with local native species and some introduced ones, but not really with other allies that aren't found here naturally.

As soon as I get some free time I'll have to trasplant them into bigger pots (to get bigger bushes that I can lovingly harvest in more significant amounts) but just having little plant babies to care for, to strengthen my relationship with some ancestral allies that are not native to this region and I wouldn't otherwise be able to care for at all, just brings me so much joy and has done wonders to lower my stress levels these past few weeks, all exams and university drama considered 🫠

[ask-court-genshin]

Which university, huh?

Navina pondered over it for a while. They needed to be careful, but with their lack of memory… They can't exactly be certain if they'll be able to.

That, and the staring from three guys is getting to them. Internally.

Jeez, just pick something! Anything!

"… I think I prefer Amurta," they said, nodding at the three. "I'm sure the other universities are amazing in their own right, but I prefer Amurta over them."

Healing will be very useful, even if I know absolutely nothing about this world. Maybe it can help me when I get back to Fontaine and get more intel on what I'm working with.

"Why are you asking me which university I prefer?" they asked, this time looking genuinely confused.

Is it even necessary for them to know which university I like?

«Tighnari: +20 Points»

Tighnari: There it is, our debate has finally ended. Congratulations, Amurta. Yay.

You hesitantly asked what debate it was.

Cyno: The six of us– including the absentees: Al Haitham, “Kuni”, and Aether– started college in the same year before we are now known in our respective occupations. In those 4-5 years in the Akademiya, we were tallying points on who had the best university in the Akademiya both by objective facts and quick surveys fron people with authority.

Aether?!

Lumine's missing brother?!

Kaveh: And you're the only brave one to end that long argument. But... Why is it kinda anticlimactic...? I mean, compare that to how we use to bet on literally anything just to earn those points before.

Cyno: You all had to rule out Sport Leagues because no one wins against Spantamad in any field. Even chess.

Kaveh: Okay, you know you don't have to brag about THAT chess part again, right???

Tighnari and Cyno laughed. Based on that alone, you had a feeling Kaveh was the chess representative in his batch of alumni.

You asked them why your opinions counts.

Tighnari: Um, I don't know, maybe look at your badge?

The hydro vision in your person glowed.

Cyno: In all these years, you're the only courtier who gave their two cents on this discussion.

Tighnari: Hmm. Royal courtiers are usually so tight-lipped.

Cyno: Remember when Kuni tried to bribe Courtier Ayato to vote for any of the Big Six?

Kaveh: ... You meant “threatened” right?

Cyno: Hmm.

The three went silent.

Tighnari: So, Navina– I think I owe you a favor.

The dean leaned in, his elbows on the table as he stared at you with his full attention.

Tighnari: How about this– if you are as lost as you say, I'll have a luxurious condominium located in the middle of all the unis in your name for the time being– a week at best.

You tried to give your thanks–

Tighnari: But, you see, these rooms are expensive. College in general is expensive unless you're stupid smart enough to get a scholarship or enroll in Kshahrewar–

Kaveh: Aww, thanks.

Tighnari: –where broke people who are forced to study engineering and architecture for free go.

Kaveh: I retract my statement.

Tighnari: So here's my deal: I'll pay for this crazy expensive condominium and it's yours forever, but: you have to study and pass a Gremory License Exam.

Cyno: ...

Cyno: Hold that thought, Nari, are you–

Tighnari: Yes.

The three went silent again. When you tried to ask what it was about, they didn't reply.

Tighnari: I need more elemental-talented people in my beck and call.

Tighnari: Don't worry, I won't force an answer out of you. You have till tomorrow to give me a reply.

Tighnari: Until then, the exit to the garden is actually just behind Kaveh– just follow your left and you'll be out of the maze.

Tighnari: See you soon, Navina.

Current Route: Common route

Tighnari Status: 23/50

Cyno Status: 02/50

Kaveh Status: 00/50

[acidmatze]

I’ll be there for you (Yes, like the Friends theme) Chapter 3

Summary: After being in a coma for two years Vash wakes up, not being able to remember Anything that has happened since he was “a teenager”. How is he gonna adapt to living in a world so strange and unfamilliar? By getting a haircut! (Stampede timeline and set After ep 12 btw)

Pairings: None

Warnings: Hospital setting, panic attacks and existential crises

Wordcount: 3k

Chapter 1 is here

Chapter 2 is here Chapter 4 is here

Vash had an odd dream that night. He was riding a Thomas through an area of the planet he definitely had never seen before. Towards July, whatever that was. He was also followed by someone but had no idea who that was. Except that he was friendly and not an enemy.

So the first question he asked the doctor that morning was:

„What's July?“

„A month. But most importantly, the capital city of No Man's Land. Most of it got destroyed a few years ago but we rebuild it.“

And then followed a barrage of tests.

Blood tests, before breakfast.

A complete physical exam, after breakfast.

In that exam the doctor shone a light into Vash's eye and the staff in the room with him realised they were dealing with a Plant, which the doctor already knew.

For a moment Vash was very afraid and froze up.

The last time someone realised he was a Plant he got locked up.

The doctor already knew but what if the others would panic?

But nothing happened.

The exam continued as if everything was completely normal and Vash relaxed again.

„You are remarkably average for a Plant. I don't mean that in an insulting way. I mean that if I wouldn't have looked at your eyes the others would never have noticed. Your body seems to work just like a human's, only if a bit more efficient. Your blood is also really regular. Nothing odd to find there. Don't worry. We are not going to experiment on you. We just want to make sure you're healthy.“

Then Vash had to lie down in a weird white tiny tube that was loud and uncomfortable and he had to be very very still.

After lunch, which was finally some proper food (steak with overcooked broccoli and mushy fries but better than the glorified broth from yesterday), the doctor performed some tests to check Vash's brain.

He was hooked up to some weird machine and had some weird nubs stuck to his head and had to do various tasks that were pretty boring in a dark room only illuminated by the computer screen and a tiny night light.

And then he was basically free to go.

The doctor shook Vash's hand and smiled at him.

„Everything is looking good so far. I'll go over the details later and tell you more about it if you want. If not then that's fine also. According to the results we have you are in great shape for someone who just woke up from a coma.“

„Okay but what will happen with me after this?“

Vash had no place to stay. Or maybe he had but he can't remember.

The thought of being just thrown out onto the streets into a world he had no idea how to navigate made him so nauseaus he worried he might puke.

„Well, first of all you will stay here for about a week or so. We won't kick you out like that. We will try to figure out where you were living before you came here but more importantly we will organise a place in a rehabilitation group for you. You have a lot of stuff to relearn and they can teach you.“

And now Vash is sitting on a chair in his hospital room with nurse Karina („No Nurse today, just call me Karina. I'm not working today“) walking around him and fiddling with his hair.

„Any idea how you want it cut?“

„No, not really.“

„Hmmm....“ Karina walks around Vash some more.

It's really making Vash nervous, as if he is put on the spot. He wiggles around a bit.

„I got an idea! It's gonna look great, believe me.“

„Wait! What are you planning to do?“ Vash is ready to jump off the chair.

He's not gonna let his hair get messed up more than it already is!

„I'm not gonna give you a mullet! I want to shave the sides and back and leave the hair on top a bit longer. I think it would suit you and you definitely are gonna look much younger.“

Vash is sceptical but okay. He's gonna pout the whole time though. „But if it looks stupid I will eat you.“

„Ooooh~ I'm so afraid~“ Karina says in a sing-song voice.

She starts by combing his hair thoughroughly.

„Maybe I should give you a mullet after all...“ „Don't you dare!“

The combing feels really nice though.

Vash relaxes a little. The hand that had previously gripped the chair like it's going to launch into space dangles to the side now.

„You look like you're going to purr any moment.“ Karina teases.

„I don't purr. I'm not a cat.“

Karina continued combing for a while.

Before she started Vash's hair had felt kinda rough and gritty even though it was washed and clean. It had also been full of knots.

But after a while now it starts to become much softer.

Karina stops. There is a noise. A low rumble.

„You are purring!“ Karina exclaims and almost drops her comb in excitement.

Vash's eyes that somehow fell shut are now Wide Open and he stops all movement. He kinda wants to jump off the chair and hide under his bed in horror and embarrassment.

His hand is back to gripping the chair.

„Oh come on! This is so cute! I didn't know Plants can do that. I swear I won't tell anyone. Pinky promise.“

Karina holds her pinky out and Vash reluctantly links his with hers.

„I'm gonna get the scissors now and cut it shorter overall before I use the clippers. Also, I saw you're taking hormones?“

Vash freezes up a little.

„You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to. I was just curious.“

„Yeah I... uh... when I was younger... my mom.. thought my brother and me were girls. But uhm.. I realised I'm not. So when I got a bit older I was given hormones. I guess I've been taking them my whole life until now.“

„Oh you have a brother?“

„I don't know what happened to him though. We got seperated as kids...“

Karina is happily snipping away. Vash can't see what exactly she is doing but a whole lot of hair is falling down.

„So you're a transplant.“ „Huh..?“

„A trans Plant. I was trying to make a pun.“

„Oh. Uh.. I guess? Do you know what happens in a Rehabilitation Group? The doctor said I will be put in one.“

„Depends on why someone is in rehab. In your case you will probably do a whole lot of physical therapy. And occupational therapy. Which means that you will be taught how to do tasks independently so you can eventually live alone at some point. You know, cooking and cleaning and washing yourself and such. For two reasons in your case. One reason is that you need to relearn things you knew how to do with both hands that you now have to do with one. Or maybe you get a prosthetic later on and then you will train to do tasks with that. And the second reason is that you have to learn tasks that maybe you knew how to do before you lost your memory but now you can't do anymore cuz to the current you it feels like you never learned them in the first place. And maybe they will also try and see if you can recover a few memories. And you will probably get a therapist so you have someone to talk to. I can imagine that your situation is really A Lot to take in.“

Vash nods.

Karina puts the scissors aside and grabs the clippers.

„I will now trim the hair on the sides and your back really short. But I will cut off less than I usually do and then show you so you can guide me, okay?“

„Okay.“

The clipper starts buzzing and Vash thinks it feels super funny on his skin. Like a massage but much faster.

Both the doctor and Christine said that Vash apparently used to have a prosthetic, a really advanced one.

But no matter how hard he tries he just can't remember anything.

Maybe he will get a new one but that would probably be more simple.

Not that he had any metric to compare it to in the first place.

Karina chimes up again.

„Oki-doki let's have a look. Tell me what you think!“ She walks around Vash with a small mirror in her hand so he can see what she did so far.

„Can you go a bit shorter?“ „Sure can!“

After half an hour Vash has his first real haircut in two years and he feels so much better. Like an actual person.

He feels even better after washing his hair.

„So, how do you feel? What do you think?“ Karina asks after cleaning up the mess she left behind.

„Like a brand new Me.“

Karina giggles.

„That's great. You know what would be even better now? If you had some new clothes. Wanna look at some clothes? We don't have to leave the hospital for that we can do that online. I could get them delivered to my place in two days and then bring them to you.“ Vash is confused about this Online thing but he sits down next to Karina on the bed and watches as she takes the tablet-like thingie off his nightstand and turns it on.

It's not see-through like the ones he knew but otherwise seems to work really similar to the one Luida used. It looks less technical though and more intuitive. It's definitely not used for ship maintenance and other such things.

„This is yours by the way. But I see you haven't used it yet.“

„I don't know what it is used for. We had similar things on the ship but they were for maintenance only.“

„We really need to teach you more things so you can fit in better with everyone else at the rehab. Nothing sticks out more than a young guy who has no idea what a tablet and a phone is and gets spooked by the TV. You also need to get into music or video games or something.“

„Can I not tell them the truth? That I lost all my memories?“

Karina rubs her chin.

„Well... that would probably be the easiest way to deal with this. I bet they have seen weirder stuff there.“

Two hours later and now Vash knows at least the basics of how to use a phone and a tablet.

He also ordered a bunch of clothes.

Karina said he could treat himself and as long as he stayed below 120$$ it would be fine.

And man, Vash really needed everything.

There really were barely any clothes in the backpack he had on him. Just a few pairs of socks, two boxers and a shirt.

Seems like he used to travel light. Really really light. No idea if he never bought any clothes or if they got stolen or thrown away or whatever.

But the new clothes would take about two days to be delivered. So until then Vash has to be careful to not get the clothes he does have dirty.

Sadly Karina had to leave a little earlier, to babysit one of her friend's dogs but she would be back tomorrow anyway.

So Vash is sitting in the armchair in his room and watching videos online about taking phones apart and explaining how they work. It is honestly really interesting. The guy making these videos has a bunch of others about other electrical devices and Vash is itching to watch them all. And then to the side of the video player are even more videos about taking things apart or comparing them to each other.

An hour ago Vash didnt even know there were more than one type of phone and now he wants to watch a video comparing them.

He gets so excited his plant marks are starting to glow faintly which gives the entire room a soft blue hue in the light of the setting sun.

The staff here knows what he is so there shouldn't be an issue with this, right?

„Wow look at this battery capacity! Youre Not going to run out of power during the long bus rides across the Great Desert, that's for sure!“ the guy in the video praises.

Vash stops the video and switches over to his internet browser, opens a new tab (the other one is a history of long-distance communication) and types „bus“ in the search bar.

Every time he encounters a Thing in a video that he has no idea what it is he immediately starts looking it up. He really doesn't want to seem like a weirdo in rehab.

After looking at a whole lot of busses and reading a short description of what they are he deletes his search and does a new one.

„Great Desert.“

He continues this for almost an entire hour and gets completely lost in an article about computer parts (even though he only has a vague idea of what a Computer is) when someone knocks on his door.

It is Christine.

„Hey good evening!“ she greets him.

„Oh! Hi.“

Vash fumbles to pause the video and force himself to come back to the real world.

His plant marks also disappear instantly.

„I have some great news for you. Dr. Nichols and me just had a really nice phone call with the head of the local rehabilitation organisation. He's gonna send someone over tomorrow to talk to you about it. Don't worry we won't kick you out after that. You will stay here until next Monday. It is a pretty big organisation and you will stay there for a long while. So even if we cannot find out where you had lived previously you will have plenty of time to find a new home. They also have an open-ended dorm, should you decide that you like it there a lot. They specialise in mentally ill clients normally but also take on physically disabled people. And since you're a combination of both I think it will suit you fine. They do fun things there as well, it's not just therapy. Every patient that we recommended them to gave us great feedback so I think you will like it there.“

„Oh. Uh... Is it like a hospital too?“

Christine waves her hand around.

„No, no. It's way less formal. No nurses either. Or doctors. The person coming tomorrow will be able to tell you much more but what I can tell you is that in the first phase of your rehabilitation you will stay with others as a group in a dormitory of sorts. It's all small groups, I think around 5-8 people. You get your own room, don't worry.“

Small groups, huh. Vash wonders what he will do there all day. Hopefully there were some people in his age. Though, that makes him wonder what he actually means with that.

What do 28 year old's normally behave like?

Damn, he doesn't even have a job he can talk about!

They will think he's a big weirdo and then he won't have anyone to talk to and will be all alone again and-

„Vash? Hey Vash, please look at me.“

Christine puts a hand on his left shoulder.

His head turns around way too abruptly and he stares at her, pupils blown wide open.

If that startled her then she's not showing it.

„Take a few deep breaths please. And then tell me what made you so anxious.“

Vash tries to slow his breath down but isn't very succesful.

He didn't even realise he started hyperventilating.

„Is this going too quickly for you? Would you prefer to stay here for a bit longer?“

Vash shakes his head rapidly.

„No, that's not..“

Another way too deep breath. His head is starting to feel woozy and foggy.

„Are you worried about meeting other people your age?“ Bingo! He nods quickly.

Christine is rubbing slow circles into his shoulder.

„I understand your worry but... Everyone at those places is not where they are expected to be in life. You know, having a job and a family and living alone. Most people there don't have a job or a lot of friends. That's why they are there. To catch back up with life. Some people are very quick at that and some need more extra time but nobody will judge you for that. I'm sure they will be very happy to have you there.“

Vash's breath is slowing down and the fog that threatened to overtake his brain is starting to lift.

„Maybe I had all these things but I can't remember.“

Vash reaches for a tissue and blows his nose.

„I hope nobody is waiting for me to come back. To... somewhere.“

The soothing circles continue.

„Maybe one day you will remember. But maybe not. Who knows if you are even still the same person as you were before.“

„Huh... I don't know... Should I really think about stuff like this in the evening when I have to sleep soon?“

Christine bursts into laughter.

„Probably not. I'm sorry for putting that thought in your head. I hope you can push it away until tomorrow. I hope you can at least remember your family name until you're starting your rehab. Would be awkward without one.“

A family name, huh? They never mentioned them on the ship. Everyone was on first name only basis.

He was just Vash.

Nothing else, just Vash.

He couldn't even „borrow“ Luida's since he also doesnt know hers. But maybe...

„Oh I see you're using your tablet now. What are you watching? Show me.“

[fufukunaga]

sakuatsu | light sleeper Atsumu and his insomniac boyfriend Kiyoomi

Atsumu always wakes when he feels the weight of the bed lighten beside him. This usually means his boyfriend has tired of tossing and turning all night and is now going to the kitchen to get himself a glass of milk.

It's the off season and Atsumu is staying over Kiyoomi's dorm to help him sleep. It seems that studying up late for consecutive days has turned his boyfriend into a perpetual unsleeping zombie.

Some nights are better. Some nights just a little cuddle hits the snooze button on Kiyoomi's body clock and he's out like a light. Other days are like this and Atsumu's heart break at his boyfriend's struggles.

He knows Kiyoomi is tired. He's had a match today (which Atsumu had watched with full on cheering on the stands). And before that was a week of exams. It's a good thing tomorrow is a rare free day. He can't stand the thought of Kiyoomi having to wake up early and go to class with little to no sleep (which is his boyfriend's reality on most days).

Atsumu stands and follows the noise in the kitchen.

He sees Kiyoomi clutching a glass of warm milk. "Can't sleep?"

Kiyoomi nods. "They say milk helps. But it rarely does." He sighs, clearly tired. The bags under his eyes are darker than ever before.

If Atsumu could just hug him to sleep he would. But he already tried that.

"Hey," Atsumu says. "Wanna to go on a date with me?"

Kiyoomi squints his eyes at him. "Right now?" Atsumu nods. "It's the middle of the night."

Atsumu goes back into the room and comes back carrying his car keys. "Let's go for a drive."

"You're crazy," Kiyoomi says.

"Come on, Omi-kun," Atsumu chides. "Yer not going to sleep any time soon, are ya? So might as well do something fun."

"But you need to sleep," Kiyoomi points out. "You don't have to stay up late just because of me. I'll be quiet, I promise."

"Too late for that, Omi-kun. I'm already wide awake. So come on. Unless ya want to be left alone here tossing and turning all night?"

Kiyoomi finally agrees. So the two of them get into Atsumu's car at nearly 2am in the morning. Tokyo city doesn't sleep at night but it's a lot different than it is at day.

They make a drive thru at McDonald's. Kiyoomi gets himself some fries and a burger. Atsumu gets himself some coffee and steals some of Kiyoomi's fries. They eat an empty parking lot and talk about nothing and everything.

After their meals, Atsumu turns on the stereo and puts on soft music. He continues to drive around the city with no particular destination and sees Kiyoomi slowly but surely get drowsier by the mile.

Kiyoomi had always been a passenger princess because he always falls asleep from the lull of the car in motion. Especially after a meal.

After a few more miles, Kiyoomi is already fast asleep and snoring peacefully in the passenger seat.

Atsumu smiles to himself. He'd drive Kiyoomi to the ends of the world if it'd help him sleep. But for now, he makes their way home.

Kiyoomi is a heavy man but nothing Atsumu can't handle. It's a miracle, really— that Atsumu was able to carry Kiyoomi all the way up into his apartment without waking him up.

But he already knew Kiyoomi was a heavy sleeper. It's just the getting to sleep part that's hard on him. But once he's passed out, trust that an earthquake wouldn't wake him up.

He settles Kiyoomi on his bed and settles in beside him and snuggles up to his boyfriend.

Atsumu kisses Kiyoomi's temple and whispers, "Sweet dreams, Omi-omi."

[delicris]

school vent post MWAH

anywaysss... basically, i'm in my final year of "high school" (in quotation marks because i could go on for hours about the czech school system and how it's different from the rest, but no one needs to listen to all that, so i'm calling it high school just so you get the broad idea of where i'm at in my studies) and we choose four seminars and then we take a school-leaving exam based on those chosen seminars. czech is mandatory, then you choose between maths and a second language and the rest of the four are completely up to you. for those i chose biology and geography... i've just gotten home from my first geography lesson and there's... so. much.

but there's already so much to cover in that bio seminar, people always advise you to NOT take it, if you don't want to study biology, or you don't need it for an entrance exam to uni, but i DO need it, so i had to choose it. and i love geo and i'm not much interested in any of the other seminars, so obviously i chose geo as the second one, but i had no fucking idea it would be just as bad, if not fucking worse

we have to teach three lessons in the entire year, which isn't even a full year, and you have to make three different forty-minute presentations to base the lessons of... for bio, you only do this ONCE.

there are obviously tests on the orientation on the map, but there are sometimes over 200 places you have to learn, sixteen of which are actually on the test. and you get eighteen of these tests in total, but each time it's a different set of places

and then there are the exams from the stuff your classmates have had presentations on + the geo basics, which make up five topics that are covered in these exams, but that's a shit ton of materials to learn for a single fucking exam you take several times in that one year

AND I DON'T EVEN NEED GEOGRAPHY FOR UNI, YES IT DOES TIE INTO BIO, BUT I. DON'T. NEED IT.

and i forgot the tests on orientation in media, where you're quizzed on the news of the week. every week. i hate the news, i hate keeping up with it, i find it so fucking boring etc etc

but that isn't all... i'm so fucking stupid that i decided to take up sing language because it's a program from our school, so i don't have to commute somewhere, i just go into a different building, BUT THAT'S TWO MORE CLASSES, WHY DID I THINK THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA??

+ i tutor every week, i'm trying to finish getting my driver's licence and i need to start going to the gym to prepare for my entrance exam to uni because they test your physical abilities as well...

maybe this sounds pretty tame to someone, but i've always had a lot of free time to just sit down and do whatever i wanted and now i've been thrown into this whirlwind and i don't know what to do, i've never had to consider my timetable to make plans, i've always had enough time to study and prepare for any exam, but still get an opportunity to just exist... but i feel like i won't be able to have that now and i don't think i'll handle it well

every teacher expects us to always be prepared, to care about their subject, to make time to learn it all and manage all this, but i just... i know i won't be able to, i know that at some point it'll get bad because i don't fucking know how to organize shit, how to be productive, social and mindful of my needs while staying fucking sane

this will be a hell of a year and i can't wait for it to be over already

[jsuhosh94127]

2023 | 12-29-23 5:16 PM

hi, blog!

ooooh, year 2023 is about to end! so, as a little recap, i'll be posting and jotting some of the highlights, experiences, and learnings i've gathered this year. so, this might take really long to capture everything

ps. please bear with me while we go through together this journey-and i'm already asking for some understanding that there will be grammatical errors as i just typed this on the fleet of the moment. hahaha (while listening to paramore! what a throwback ><)

during new year, i never have ever thought that this year would bring out so many things. but, i prayed and really put my faith and heart to wish and look forward that this year would bring all the unexpected, great, and wonderful blessings. and, well, truly! all good and great things happened. as a summary:

i graduated magna cum laude, like boi!!! that's one of the unexpected things i received. i have these inferiority issues that keeps me from taking pride of what i achieve. whenever i would look at my grades on the portal i need to have peptalk myself that i did my best and really put effort on every points i have.

i passed licensure examination for teachers. this one too. i cried the night after the exam. i wasn't able to enroll on any review center because y'know budget and priorities. i submitted papers and the exam fee a day before the last day of submission. i forgot to take my noa from the cashier and took us a week or so to get it. those days, the review days and waiting days are tooooo long. there are times i would cry myself to sleep and go on work like nothing happened. as all i have are the everyday afterwork review and the 3day in house free review by my alma mater, PNU, who called me as i was endorsed by the dean. anyway, i realized that i really did put effort and prayers and having 90.20 average for the exam is really awesome! (thank you get it-keshi and 7rings-ariana grande for reminding me to always get up and get that bag)

i have a decent paying and a work that i finally learn to love. it all started 4 months before our graduation and my schedule is all free so i decided to work immediately. after our finishing school, i immediately prepared my cv and requirements, look online for school vacancies. then, tadda! i am where i am now. funny thing about my employment process is that, there are some applicants before me and the school is still on the screening process. and there is still one person after or before me, i think (?) but after my demo and interview, the school directress asked me if i am readily available to go tomorrow to start my job. ofcourse, i said yes and yippie yup, i love my bffs now. hahahaha. >< even though i can't even have a me time as they always hug and bug me.

buy things that are pink. buy things for myself, buy things i want buy make up, and continue do my hobby. mag-ganda gandahan all day, every way. hahaha

groceries and things for the fam. this one is more of a breadwinner and ate duties, though sometimes i need to sacrifice my wants, it feels fulfilling to give and see my mom's smile. i luv it so much!!!!

not hesitating to buy and have and give things just because i want to.

learn and try new things! i learned how to do eyeliner precisely and perfectly. i was able to eat on different food shops and try new things (with my bf ofc, because if i don't like it he knows what to do! hahahha :P) i also learned how to handle student and people with special needs. i learned that life to each and everyone of us is different, and that's really beautiful.

new friends and reconnected to old friends.

prayers, talking to yourself, and having alone moments. this helped me during the times i am sick. having muscle pains everyday is really irritating but having mindfulness techniques helped me to get by and being open on your condition will greatly make life a little easier.

forgive. freely and wholeheartedly. myself and those people i need to so i can run free from the hurt. idk, but for me forgiving is a must so i can move and see life in a clearer view. but, yeah, i don't forget and i know the place and boundaries and all. i always say it to myself that when i made a mistake "oopsie, i can't undo it, but maybe i can be kinder the next time around." it may sound cheesy and too optimistic, but talking to myself like a 5 year old kid, heals.

listened to new artists. hindi na si keshi at doja cat lang. hahahaha. i learned to go back and listened to the songs when i was moving on, when i was just barely living, and when i am on my lowest. now, i'm listening to them casually reminiscing each moment. acjkkk, life is so nice. some parts of me healed through it.

being grateful. idk, but being grateful to whatever it is, makes me feel better and knowing that if i can handle this, i'll be able to handle much beautiful and greater achievements or things.

basta, marami pa. marami pa akong gustong ilagay sa true lang. i just can't put it here all. should i make a part two? jk. hahaha. but all in all, i want to give praise to God. for making me safe, protected, provided, guided, and sane this year. there's a lot of struggles, left and right. but, knowing that there is someone or an entity that listens to me and where i can speak to anytime makes me feel less alone. (im not lonely, there are many people i love and loves me.) it's just there are thoughts that i think i always keep to myself, and having times where i just look up and blurt out words, makes me feel more connected.

this is taking too long na ata? reader check, press 1. hahaha. until next year again my friends! i pray and hopefully, we may see life in a greater light. i hope we could list more achievements and wonderful things, do greater and kinder things. either be it small or big, may it sound like a leaf on a river or a tree in the forest, every effort to support, be kind, and do for the love of other is the best thing we can do all year round. most importantly, be kind to yourself. always. love it and help it grow. may we become rich in finances, love, life, beauty, and be hearty as always. may 2024, bring the success we all work and put effort for.

i hope than whenever and wherever we are may we grow and bloom and shower everyone around us with love and kindness!

i love you all! <3

[umilily]

I've came back from war (I finished my school year)

Hiiii it's shoey,, sorry I've been horribly inactive my exams have kicked my ass but I'm free now!! Yippe!! Im still recovering from the mental exhaust of testing so I'll keep my rambles short since my wee brain isn't functioning the best

So! How are you? How have things been going? How's the life of a HimeruP going? (He's gotten 3 cards in less than a week. His birthday is dangerously close. he's due for a *5.)

His newest card... Hes very incredibly charming I won't deny... It really just screams himeru I'm glad he's able to have his coffee,,

hey shoe :) (imagine a dramatic welcome for coming back from war)

don't apologise, i'm glad to hear that you survived! the end of the year is always such a pain, i hope that your exams went well and that you'll get to relax lots now that they're finally over. do you have any plans for the summer?

ah, well, me... i'm still in the middle of the busy end of the semester and my classes (and classmates) are getting on my nerves more and more each day. hopefully i'll be free in about a month. got some more practical courses, exams and reports coming up, but the end is in sight.

the himeruP life is a struggle currently lmao there's so much going on and i don't have much time to play, but at least my luck on the en server continues and i got his anniversary card on my first 10 pull. i don't have much hope for having any sort of luck on the jp server - as always - but what is a girl supposed to do... the newest card makes the brain go brrr, so i'd be very pleasantly surprised to get it with my minimal dia. if i don't... well, he's gonna have to sip the coffee alone, i guess.

the thing that's plaguing my mind a lot more is trying to prepare for the ariadne event, bc i really want to get 5 copies and i have the dia, but i also have my last exam in the week of the event and well... priorites, i guess. currently i'm jut trying to figure out the best time management for grinding. i'll probably sleep for a week after lmao

[14dayswithyou]

Hey babe, did you account get shadowbanned or something? I don’t get any notifications for your blog anymore and your name doesn’t pop up when I search for you 😭😭😭 I still stalk your account but it just makes it harder for me (Ren apologist ✨)

✦゜ANSWERED: I KNEW IT FSFJKSAF 😭💀 At first, I thought it was weird how I didn't have the message feature (which meant I wasn't able to DM people), but then I noticed how most of my posts weren't receiving as much engagement as they normally do. So thank you for letting me know and confirming my suspicions! I didn't even know you could get shadowbanned on here T_T

I've also sent in a support ticket to Tumblr — but until I get a response from them, I think I might just turn the queue off for a while... just to be safe. Maybe my account got flagged for spamming? idk fjkjfksdf :') I'll still be posting stuff manually, but it won't be as frequently as usual.

ALSO THIS IS A PSA FOR MR REN HACKERMAN 14DWY DO NOT READ UNLESS U ARE HIM: FOR EVERY SECOND MY ACCOUNT ISN'T RESTORED, THAT'S ANOTHER ANGSTY AND HEART-WRENCHING PARAGRAPH ADDED TO YOUR BAD END :)

[dommelody]

this fanfic is written while considering all of the characters being adults in another time line where everyone is living a peaceful life so don't come at me with that talk about "OMG THEY'RE MINORS" if u do I'll slap u with the slipper that im wearing lmao , anyways as if u see im hella lazy so im not that active in here, moreover i got alot of exams those weeks but finally im free for like 1 week ? two ? idk for niw im free af,so if someone got some ideas don't hesitate and send it to okay?(especially those hawt characters who seem to be submissive and breedable lol) i think there were few of u who send me some requests sorry for not replying I'll try to respond if ur idea is hella good hehu now even if u want to discuss anything about any topic about anime and stuff just ask haha need sone friends out here *crying while eating banana * shoot that was sus lmao ...

then~ enjoy ~ ♡

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cw: sub!draken , sub!mitsuya , dom!reader, public sex...

"master they might hear us~" mitsuya said with a shaking voice while all you can hear in the restroom were his moans and the lewd sounds u make while fucking him rough which were all covered with music ..

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tomorrow is a holiday so all the gang's division's captains decided to have dinner at a famous restaurant so you decided to go and have fun ,fun in ur own way♡

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when you entered the restaurant there was a big table beside the window, everyone was there and luckily u found a sit right in front of draken and mitsuya ,after u took your seat everyone started eating, laughing and drinking.. both of draken and mitsuya were forced to drink since it was a special dinner to celebrate pah-chin's marriage ..after the talk and all everyone was under the alcohol's spell,some slept and other got to the bathroom ,you started to get bored however seeing both draken and mitsuya fighting the urge to sleep was adorable,then you decided to tease them a little bit,you slided your leg that was covered under the table between draken's thighs reaching his dick then you started to move it up and down until he suddenly hid his face on the table ,with a heavy panting he whispered :"w-we can't do it here t-they will hear u-ahhhng ♡"

"since when did i have to ask for your opinion on each thing i do?,hmmm?" with that cold look on your face draken got red like a tomato ,"look at you draken,what should we do if someone sees you now at this state, do you even know what kind of face you're making~?".

with all that embarrassment and shame he said while trying to stop his moans from coming out:"what are you talking about, something like this is nothi-hmm♡",you shut his mouth with your hand"as i thought you don't get it don't you?right now all i can see is a slutty look that begs for my touch,but you know what? at first i was gonna be nice and gentle but now you will have to endure this erection of yours until we go back home,of course touching yourself is forbidden ♡",he didn't even try to reject your order he just hide his face on the table and started whining like a puppy.

a few minutes later, the other members came back from the restroom, then smiley asked:"did draken sleep already? that's rare!! ,alcohol usually don't affect him easily ,well we drank too much i guess haha,how about you mitsuya?"

"well,me? i'm a bit sleepy and-hnnn-"

"bro you okay? your face is so red "

"i-i'm okay hehe,i suddenly got a stomachache"

"is that so? then be careful if it gets worse just go home "

"y-yeah t-thanks"

however,probably no one was able to know what was going on in there ,surely it wasn't a stomachache but in fact it was your fault,you started touching his clothed dick with your feet ,moreover you unzipped his pants and started teasing his bare skin down there,mitsuya was always your obedient puppy,unlike draken who sometimes rebels on order you give him ,mitsuya will seek for your praise more than anything else .

then you whispered while covering your mouth from smiley who was two seats away from you ,"don't worry sweetheart i didn't forget you ,so i'm giving you all the attention you want ♡." then he smiled with blush all over his face then whispered back :"hng,d-do as you like ,master♡",as soon as he said that you stood up and said:"mitsuya you don't look well so at least let me sit beside you ,so I'll be able to check on you faster that way if you got fever "

"yea i think that will help"smiley said without knowing what was even going on ,poor soul lol.

there was a seat between draken and mitsuya so you sat there and started touching his dick with your hand gently and with the other hand you pretended to check on him by putting your hand on his forehead in front of smiley,then u said :"smiley i think i should take mitsuya to the restroom he's sweating alot ".

"yea please do , i would like to help but im already wasted lol"

"haha thats because u drank to much,you-,oh hes asleep haha,hello? yea hes absolutely wasted lol,so how about we go sweetheart ?"

while smiley slept the other members were already gone everyone got plans for the rest of the night so you were free to speak with mitsuya there without worries ~♡...

u turned to mitsuya telling him to stand up to go to the restroom but we absolutely missed something, well before i started speaking with smiley about going to the restroom ,i left mitsuya's pants open didn't i ?,while his hard dick out ofcourse what to do ?hmmmm?

as expected he was a blushing mess even though hes ur obedient puppy, walking the way to the restroom with his dick out will be hella embarrassing ,btw mitsuya was wearing an overcoat so u got an idea to tease him even more..

"mitsuya come here, if you stick to me with ur closed coat they wont notice right ?,come here sweetheart ,or~ do u want to be left alone like draken over there ?''

after hearing that mitsuya stood up and started walking while sticking his dick thats only covered by the coat behind u which is almost rubbing ur buttcheek ,just imagine him walking shyly behind u panting like crazy and all .....what a show 🖤

u got to the restroom and quickly found a stall and closed the door then,"mitsuya suck my dick,will u ?"

with this order he turned red but on the same time his body was honest because as soon as u showed your dick he started leaking precum, "enjoying the view from down there aren't u ~"

while he was on his knees u slapped him with ur dick getting a lustful look from him then u grabbed his head and started fucking his throat roughly ,quickly without mercy,then finished inside his mouth,while his face was a mess with ur cum he was panting and letting out some moans ,then when u realized .. u said :"pfft,seriously mitsuya ? did u come untouched while i fucked your throat?,i guess you're on heat lol ,what a slut ~♡,well unfortunately i didn't bring condoms so i can't give u what u want sweetheart,so let-??, mitsuya~, i see~ u are definitely in heat~"

after being told that u cant do it there he sat on the toilet while spreading his legs to u while getting out a butt plug from his hole then as soon as it was out his hole were leaking with some lotion he seems to have been preparing his hole for his master how naughty~♡.

"mitsuya u gave me an idea , do u know what u got urself into? " , then u got down alittle bit and whispered on his ear "im gonna fuck u so hard, ill fill u up with my cum and then since we're doing it raw ,we can't leave ur hole leaking with cum in from of others dont we?,sooo,we're going to plug your ass with all of my cum inside without wasting a single drop. and we will have u walk in public and in front of our friends with that hot cum inside ur belly ~,don't worry if we get lucky maybe u will get pregnant Haha♡ ",with u provoking him he started whining like an impatient puppy while squeezing his wet hole ,then u gave him what he wanted ,u slide ur dick in one go inside him,getting the lewdest look from mitsuya " master im so full with yours ♡,fill me up more pleaaseeee ♡"

"mitsuya you're definitely drunk ,but well im happy to see this side of u hehe,then lets get serious and finish it quickly before smily wakes up,what about draken ?,hes definitely jealous right now getting even harder while imagining us fucking in the restroom, haha maybe he came just from imagining about that♡"

u grabbed mitsuya's thighs then started fucking him dumb going in and out like there is no tomorrow then u leaned down kissing him to make him lower his moans which were filling the restroom, u tried then to pull from the kiss thinking that he needed some seconds to breath ,but then mitsuya suddenly grabbed u back ," master if u dont kiss me im afraid that ill get louder,ahnn-♡"

" i see~,our mitsuya cant help it but to feel so good when i fuck him roughly~♡♡"

then u held him up and made him face the wall after that u fucked him from behind while the lewd sounds are filling the restroom...

but i guess that wasnt a problem to worry about since the music was loud

then, u picked up the pace even rougher and faster while mitsuya was a drooling mess while his eyes rolled back from the intense sex u are having ,then u bited his neck leaving a kiss mark on it then u came inside of him . as soon as u finished, u said smirking ," haaa,that felt amazing sweetie ,but i think u shouldn't waste a drop of my cum ,right?, now show me what a good boy you're and plug it urself ♡"

as soon as u said that mitsuya grabbed the plug and put his knee on the closed toilet then he lifted his ass up then started inserting it while panting like crazy ,half of it was of course because of the intense sex u had but the other half was because u were staring intensely at him plugging himself just the thought of being seen by u while touching himself turned him on..

then to avoid accidents like having someone enter the restroom while u were in there u helped him dress up and then quickly got out safely hehe♡..

"hey guys u are lateeeee,heyy i think draken has fever he was mumbling alone with a low voice while panting heavily ,hes definitely in pain having a high fever,i tried to help him but he was weirdly agressive and stopped me right away ,well sorry guys i have to go angry is waiting for me outside sooo take care~"

u answered:" yea u too be careful on ur way home, and dont worry I will take a goo~d care of draken "

after smiley left draken lifted up his head to u , damn that hungry look on his face with drool from his red lips~ ,when he saw u, he let out some low panting sounds as if he was whining like a puppy waiting for attention ,then he grabbed u down from his sit and kissed u a real quick but deep kiss :"master ur so cruel having ur way with mitsuya while letting me here alone suffering from this erection",then u leaned down to reach his ear then whispered:"did u have fun while imagining lewd stuff about us ? hmm ,ur soo naughty draken " then u bit his ear ,while squeezing his left nipple which was covered with his shirt ,then he let out a low moan and as soon as he realized something ,he hid his face down and told u with a cracked voice :" u c..can go alone i..ill foll..ow u after i p..pay t..the bills,hmm♡", as soon as he finished talking , u sat beside him and slid ur hand below the table to quickly insert it down his underwear then as u thought he came from just those touches from u..:" u really keep surprising me teddy bear, pfft u came just from that haha, how can anyone believe that our strongest vice president is a slut seeking my touch,how cute~♡,well u will have to walk all~ the way home with that underwear of yours which is a mess with ur cum,well dont worry when we get home u wont need it anyway ~,i wont let u sleep tonight~"

then u were about to get out of the restaurant which was luckily almost getting ready to close up ,since there's not alot of customers there ,u payed the bills while mitsuya and draken sticking to u from behind

then the worker there noticed :"umm are they okay their faces are red ,maybe fever ? "

"yea i think so also they drank too much thats why haha ,right ? draken , mitsuya?"

while customers were all gone u started touching their butt from behind while speaking with the worker,then they said while trying to smile to them :"ye..yes w..we dran..k too much hehe"

" i see please take care then , i think u should take some medicines too, to get better, please come back again~"

then u replied :"yea,then we will be going, we will come back again~"

then u lifted ur hand and stopped teasing them then they quickly followed u,well it was night so i think no one will notice right ?

"hey , umm.. i mean what did u do with mitsuya ?"

"hmm ~ ,why don't u ask him then ?, hehe"

then he turned to him ,previously ,he didn't focus on mitsuya that much, but now seeing mitsuya's lewd face , that red face which were luckily hidden by the night's dark sky,he got it right away..

"next time don't let me alone like that i was lonely and scared ,that piece of shit smiley freaked the shit out of me ,when he stood up trying to check on me"

"damn we should drink together more often ur so drunk who thought that I'll get to see this honest and cute side u ,haha but well, that must've been scary , sorry maybe i pushed u too far but you know that was a punishment so its normal, maybe I'll reward u when we get home for finishing the punishment as i ordered, well ,u came even though i told u not to tho~lol"

"SHUT UP, WILL YA "

"but ur blushing ~", "IM NOT"

then you passed a hot night with ur precious partners, however, that'll be another story to tell♡..

[amakumos]

hiatus!

i know i made an announcement a couple days ago about me going on a break, but i figured this one would make it more official since i've posted chapter 10 of go figure!

turns out, my hiatus might be longer than i had originally wanted it to be. due to my midterms coming up in late may, i have to study a lot over the next month in order to get my grades up (my main motivation is ltrly going to 4cc 2023 but like. At least it is motivation!) and i'm not sure if i'll have Tons of time to be able to push out consistent updates like i have over the past five months. i'll try my best to pop in and post a couple chapters maybe in a week or so, but i can't guarantee my full return to tumblr until maybe early june. i know i said i'd be gone for hopefully a week and a little less, but now knowing my exams are coming up, i'm sorry that i might have to be gone for a little longer T_T

there are other reasons for my hiatus as well. i have barely any motivation to write (when it comes to oneshots, at least - but writing smaus has also become quite tiring lately) and seeing the constant negativity on my dash just makes me want to take a step back from this app for a bit. honestly, my break is long overdue - i've been pushing out consistent smau updates ever since i joined tumblr (i think it's been five months) with zero breaks and i guess i've finally reached the point where i need to put this whole thing on pause for a bit.

hopefully i'll be able to post at least a little bit while i'm preparing for exams, and i'm sorry that i'll be gone for a little bit longer than expected. i'm also sorry to have to put go figure on pause for the time that i'm away, but i hope you all r still excited to see what comes next for our ynhoon !!

i hope to see you all soon!! feel free to pop into my asks anytime, i'll respond when i hop onto this app occasionally ^_^ <3

link to navi!

[theesteemedladydebourgh]

Hey Ange, really, really excited for the next chapter. Any updates? Thanks again for writing such a beautiful fic ♥️

hi lovely! so re: updates, there's been lots happening with school recently, and I've got multiple big final exams coming up in beginning-mid May.

I really wanted to finish April before I reached those and I've been trying to do that—writing in any spare free time and going from lectures to Scrivener—but I've realized that it's just not possible to do both at once and not see a serious decline in quality on either end (and also for me not to burn out in exhaustion). Exams start in a week and a half and I'm entering intense revision mode (and there's still at least half of April left to finish), so I don't think that getting it out before is a goal I'll be able to accomplish.

The good news is, I'll be done with the semester and starting summer break as soon as I'm done with these exams! TFTDC 6 will definitely be updated by the end of May! (based on my schedule I think a good tentative date might be May 26?) I know that's a long ways away, and I'm sorry about that ❤️ BUT, really good news is that I'm off for summer after this so chapters will be a lot more frequent and I'm tentatively aiming to have the whole fic finished by the fall, but we'll see how achievable that is!

thank you all so much for reading, and in the interim time between now and Ch 6, I'll be popping on here periodically to post snippets/answer asks if anyone has any questions and theories 🥰