#but now that i'm /finally/ free from exam week; i'll be able to be more active on twitter and curiouscat again ^^

[lucy90712]

We need angsty Kenan Yildiz storys!!

"Babe are you going to my match later?" Kenan asked 

"No I'm sorry I can't make it I have work until 5 then I'm going to the library to finish that group project that's due next week" I explained 

"You never come to my matches anymore" Kenan whined 

"I know and I'm sorry but after this project is done I should be able to come to a few more as long as they are after my shift" I said 

"I just miss having you there" he said clearly upset with me 

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"Kenan can you swing by the store on your way home we need a few things and I won't have time between classes and work to go" I said 

"Are you sure you don't have time I'm really busy today" he said 

"I mean I don't really have time" I said 

"I'll find a way to repay you if you can find a way to make it to the store" he said 

"I guess I can I'll have to take all the stuff to work though" I said 

"That works see you later love" he said running out the door 

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"What is it babe I've got training" Kenan said through the phone when he finally picked up

"Can you drive me to campus after you finish training my car won't start and I've already missed one class but I can't miss this afternoon as I have an exam" I said still stressed about the situation 

"Can't you call an Uber or get the bus?" He asked 

"The buses don't run from here you know that or I wouldn't have a car and an Uber is a lot of money we live quite far from campus" I said

"I'll send you the money whatever it is but I've got to go" he said hanging up 

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The tension between me and Kenan has been building up for weeks if not months. He's had a long and hard summer with losing in the euros with turkey and then pre season at Juventus and I've been as busy as ever. I wasn't able to go to much of the euros in fact I was only there for two days to watch one game as that's all I could afford in terms of the cost of going and losing out on money by not working. My parents are not well off at all so I have to pay every cent towards my education and my life in general so I have to work hard to survive. I'm lucky that I love with Kenan now but still I help him pay the bills as I refuse to live there for free as that wasn't how I was raised. 

I'll admit that I'm not home much but that's because when I'm not in classes I'm either studying in the library or working as that's the only way I'm going to get anywhere in life. My work ethic has been instilled in me since I was a child and I pride myself on how hard I work even if it means I'm not home much. This is Kenan's biggest problem with me as he wants me to be home when he gets home and to come to his matches but I can't and he knows why but still sometimes he gets mad at me. Kenan's schedule isn't anywhere near as packed as mine but still I find myself doing a lot for him which is my biggest grievance with him. It just feels like he's never willing to help me out even in the slightest it just seems to always inconvenience him in some way. That bugs me as I don't ask for much but sometimes I just need some support and he never seems to offer it. 

Today has been a particularly stressful day I left before the sun had fully risen and came back after it had gone down. I've had exams most of the day and then a closing shift at the store I work at so it's been a long day. My long day meant I missed Kenan's champions league game which he really wanted me to go to but I did tell him I wouldn't be able to make it. He was supposed to pick up a package before his game and take my car to get fixed but when I get back my car was still in the driveway and there was no package either instead Kenan was just laying on the sofa on his phone. 

"Where have you been?" Kenan asked 

"At school and at work like I said I would be why is my car still in the drive and where is that package?" I asked 

"I got busy so I didn't have time before the match" he said 

"Damn it Kenan can't you do anything to help me out" I yelled finally letting the tension boil over 

"Well your never here so what am I even doing helping you if never get to see you the boys keep asking me if we've broken up as you are never around" he yelled back 

"Look I'm sorry I can't be there every match but my education is important to me and to be able to continue with that I have to work you know my parents can't help me so I'm on my own I'm trying my best and if that's not good enough for you then maybe I'm not good enough for you" I said 

"Well maybe you aren't good enough" he snapped 

"You have to be kidding me Kenan you'd be a mess without me even with everything I have going on I still do so much for you while you'd barely help hold me up if I was falling" I said 

"Then maybe we aren't right for each other I don't need a girlfriend who needs me to hold her hand through everything" he said

"Fine then I'll go" I said 

I didn't know where I was going but I knew I needed to go so I grabbed my keys and slammed the door on my way out. It was dark and I couldn't see much of what was around me but I know the area well enough to roughly where I'm going. I just kept walking taking lefts and rights where I felt like it which is when I noticed someone walking behind me which isn't abnormal but my instinct told me that something wasn't right. To be sure I took a few quick turns only to see the guy still behind me but that could just be a coincidence so then I sped up hoping that would help me lose him but he sped up too. 

That's when I started jogging but that didn't help either which is when the panic sets in and I don't know what to do. The first thing that comes to my mind is to call Kenan but after our argument I don't know if he'll care enough to answer or come help me. I thought about my other options but none of them were going to help me or get to me in time so I had to swallow my pride call Kenan.

Please pick up. Pick up. Come on Kenan for once please just help me. 

"What y/n" he answered 

"I'm being followed I've tried to lose the guy but he's still following me now I'm running but he's running after me please Kenan help me" I said panicking 

"Where are you?" He asked 

"I'll send you my location" I said 

"I'll be there as soon as I can just keep going" he said 

I did exactly as he told me and kept running until I saw a car speeding in my direction which I knew instantly was Kenan. He must've seen me as he stopped the car just in front of me and hopped out. I ran straight towards him and he stopped me by pulling me into a hug and holding me tightly to his chest while I caught my breath. He yelled at the guy who was following me but I didn't hear a word he said I was still panicking and trying to calm down. 

"It's ok you're ok I'm here now" he said 

"Thank you for saving me I was so scared" I said 

"I would never leave you to be hurt by anyone else and I'm sorry for our fight earlier you're right I know you work hard and I could do more to help you" he apologised 

"I'm sorry for what I said too I know I should support you more than I do but even when I'm not at matches I'm thinking about you and the team" I said 

"I have an idea that might make things better and I know you'll try and fight me on it but I think it will make both of our lives so much better" he said 

"What is it?" I asked 

"You quit your job and I'll pay for your tuition and you don't have to give me anything towards the bills that way you can focus on school entirely and you'll have more time to come to some of my games" he suggested 

"Actually if you are really serious and you wouldn't mind then I'm happy to go along with that plan" I said 

"Then it's sorted and I'm sorry I wish things didn't have to get to this point for us to come up with a solution but I'm happy you're ok" he said 

He kissed me then we got in the car and went back home where Kenan helped me write my resignation email for my job and he got me a ticket for their next home game. Weirdly I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders straight away knowing I'd get to see Kenan more and I wouldn't have to stretch myself so thin that I could break at any point. 

[lamoreelovi]

Shion Madarame x Virgin F! Reader

Warning: Passionate sex, lots of cum, cockwarming, pussy eating, mentions of reader getting pregnant, first time, aftercare, nicknames such as babygirl, my beloved and such will be used.

A/N: To my followers here, I am so sorry for not posting omg, just finished our school year and this week was filled with too many dramas and events for me to be able to write smuts again but I'M BACK‼️The gif reminds me of Shion, Idk why, but I hope you guys like this one, I legit still can't get over Tenjiku arc.

Shion seems like a bad boy, he is. Considering how he's a part of Tenjiku and one of the Four heavenly kings at that. But y'know, when you started dating him, you would've expected to get an abusive boyfriend. One that would beat you up and often go to clubs to fuck other women while you watch them, but things were not what you expected and you were glad it wasn't. Shion was the damn opposite of abusive, greedy, and disgusting. He was heavenly, kind, sweet and considerate. Like how he knows you just finished your finals exam today so he took the extra time, skipping his Tenjiku meeting just to help you relax. Even though you rejected his offer and insisted to let him go back to his meeting, he was also stubborn. One of his bad yet good qualities with you. And since you were the kind girlfriend you are, you couldn't say no to your handsome boyfriend.And that's what led you here, on your bed, legs spread and his head in between. His tongue was lapping and sucking on all the juices your pussy would release. This was heaven for you and it was also for him. Your back arched as you grip the sheets underneath you.

"S-Shion.. s'too good.."

You moan out, your voice almost whimpering and cracking due to how intense he ate you out.

"Baby.. keep moaning for me like that.. moan my fucking name, baby.."

Shion spoke lowly, his voice was deep and seductive yet muffled due to being in between your legs

"M'gonna cum, Shion.. oh my god.."

Once you said that he immediately stopped. He pushed himself away from your dripping pussy that was now clenching on air and he stood up from kneeling while you whimpered frustratedly

"Shion.. why.."

You croak out in a small voice, he chuckles and looks at you with list and hunger as he unbuckles his pants and removes his boxers, springing free his hard cock that was already dripping with precum. His cock seemed very enticing, it was big, really big, 8 inch and built like a damn coke can, he had a set of properly trimmed hairy balls that made it all the more sexier. The veins popped out of it and you can see it twitching

"Like what you see, Babygirl..?"

He gave a smug look, chuckling as he pulls you to the edge of the bed, your lower body dangling as he holds your thighs to keep you steady

"Mm, Shion, I.. wait.."

You told him to wait for a moment, he does so and raises his left eyebrow slightly

"Scared, baby?"

"No.. I'm not.. It's just.. I'm.. a virgin.. and this is going to be my first time so please.."

"i know, my beloved, I got you, I'll be nice and gentle hm? You just relax, m'kay?"

Shion asked so nicely that even though you were scared you felt slightly more at ease now. You knew he wasn't going to go nice and gentle, well, not until you finally beg him to go hard and fast. Shion hovered over you, wrapping your legs around his waist as his hands grip your hip to keep you balance and steady. He looks you in the eyes and smiles softly, he finally aligns himself with your entrance, slowly pushing in.He was so big, just the tip already felt like you were full, you whined, sharply gasping as you scratch his back due to the pain.

"It hurts, shion.."

Shion showers you with small affectionate kisses on your neck and face to distract you from the pain

"Shh... It's okay, just relax.."

He continues to shower you with kisses as he finally pushes his whole length in you. You gasp softly at the feeling of your pussy being full of him

"S-so.. f-fucking tight, baby.. relax.."

Shion groaned at how tightly you clenced around his cock, he started moving, a slow pace to help you adjust to him. You could feel your gummy walls clenching around him, you could feel every vein on his dick as he thrusts slowly and gently. He continues his slow pace for a few minutes till you finally tap him two times on his bare chest and he finally moves faster.You moan louder as he starts pounding into you, his cock reaching spots you never knew were even there, your head leans back on the pillow and your eyes also roll back, your hands gripping his arms tightly as he continues pounding your wet pussy"Shion... Gonna cum.. please let me cum.."You felt your stomach tie into a knot as you felt your orgasm near, he groaned and spoke with a growl"Cum on my cock, baby, I'm about to cum too.."He growls as he lifts your legs up his shoulders and into a mating press, you moan loudly at the new feeling as you felt him go deeper than last time if it were even possible.

"B-baby.. let me cum inside, hm? Let me get you pregnant, baby.. wanna see you with my babies."

You were fucked out at this point. You could hear him but could barely manage to let out a response so you nod eagerly, only letting out moans of 'yes please and mhm, yes, just like that.'

As you nod, Shion groans loudly and thrusts sloppily yet faster as he feels you come undone around his cock and he stops and finally cums inside you, his seed spilling inside your womb as you both pant heavily

"I love you, my sweet girl.."

"I love you too, Shion.."

And as you both say your declaration of love to each other, he carries you to the middle of the bed, he lays himself and lets you sleep on his chest. He gives one last kiss on your forehead before he also closes his eyes, embracing you contentedly

I wanna give a shout out to my fav smut creators:

@anonimusunnoaniswriting

@witchywcmans

[yume-x-hanabi]

Life update

Posted on DW, but I figured I could update this blog as well now that I'm semi-getting back into social media...

I've sorta fallen off from the fandom and social media space, because life has been a lot these past few years. To sum up briefly:

- I made a couple of posts about it last year, but I bought an apartment in a new building (construction wasn't finished at the time). Running left and right to choose stuff such as flooring etc, getting things organized on the paperwork side (banks, notaries...), plus the move itself, took me a lot of time and energy. I've been living here full time for 10 months now though, and it's been great. Love the building (even tho it's not entirely finished orz), love the neighbourhood, and it's so great to have your own place. Missy seems at ease here, too, which is important. The balconies' guardrails are huge glass panes that go all the way to the floor with no gap, so that means I can let her out without supervision without fear of her falling/jumping off.

- Work, the main culprit for my withdrawal from fandom. I think I mentioned before that I took on more admin tasks a couple years ago, and while I enjoy the actual work when I get to it, it's a huge huge drain to my mental energy, esp when combined with everything else (class prep, exams, meetings etc). So it's pretty much killed my drive, and my already bad work-life balance just became worse and worse. Like, it's not that I don't have free time (perks of teaching = lots of holidays), but when I do I'm so mentally exhausted that I was pretty much only able to play mindless games like Solitaire or Civilization VI (which became like an addiction lol) or doomscroll on twitter or reddit. I pretty much lost my ability to engage with hobbies, except for the ones below, and I'm trying really really hard to come back and make it stick this time around.

- Speaking of hobbies though, I've gotten really into classical music and started attending concerts regularly. By perfect coincidence, my new place is at a 2-minute walk from my city's philharmonic hall, and I've been enjoying the heck out of that perk. My city's orchestra is really good, and their program so varied. When it was time to choose my subscription for next season, it was harder to choose which concerts not to attend (but a choice had to be made ;v;). Also I'm super stoked because they're playing my favorite symphony next year, I didn't expect to be able to hear it live so soon!

I think this really saved my mental health this year. Like, it's a bit hard to explain, but there's something really unique and relaxing about the atmosphere there. It's a bit intimidating at first, and I was really self-conscious about not making noise at the beginning, but I've gotten used to it now. Mostly, I think it helped me rediscover what it is to just sit down and enjoy the moment, without constantly looking for stimulation to my already overstimulated mind (silly aside, but before that I'd sorta lost the ability to binge a series without mindlessly checking my phone in the middle of episodes. Being "forced" to keep my phone away for the duration of a concert has really helped me recover my attention span). I think it helps my mind rest, if that makes sense? Also there's nothing comparable to listening to the music live in a hall with great acoustics x3

I followed the Queen Elisabeth Competition closely this year, live for a few finals performances when possible, the rest on TV, and it was really awesome. I think in four years I'll get the subscription for the whole finals week :p

- Relatedly, I've also started taking violin lessons. I'd always wanted to learn an instrument since I was a child (loved those mandatory recorder classes we had at school lol), but it never happened (partly because I was too passive as a child to actively ask for it, partly because my parents probably didn't want to have their eardrums massacred, so didn't offer it (wouldn't have said no if I'd asked, but as I said I wasn't good at asking back then)). It took me a while to actually make the jump, because I thought I'm too old now and there's no point, but I finally did with some encouragements from friends and colleagues and I'm really glad I did. Violin is... hard lol. I sound absolutely terrible. But it's also really fun? Like I feel like I'll never be good, but also I've made so much progress since I started. I don't have much time to practice (I aim at at least 10min a day these days, which isn't a lot, but it's better than nothing and it's more important to do it a little regularly than a lot once in a while). I'm really looking forward to the day I'll be able to attempt to play Xillia songs 😄 Also I really love my teacher<3

- Lastly, niece is 3 now and so fun to interact with. It's not always easy, she's very stubborn and willful, but she's also really sweet and funny. Love her ❤️ And she's just got a little sister! who's a very chill newborn, so different from niece#1 lol. I can't wait to see them play together when they're a little bit older.

Anyway, that's pretty much the main things that have been going on the past couple of years. Like I said I'm not sure I can be totally back, I think it's gonna take a lot of adjustment, but this time I really don't want to let another year pass by like that. I'm really gonna try hard to have better balance this time!

[butevensomharewrite]

Character Talk

So, since I'll be posting the last of my major character design vibe things this WIP Wednesday, let's talk about the characters and the general arcs I'm cooking up. These aren't finalised but they are a general vibe as I'm plotting them right now. This got way longer than planned (and all this with the forewarning that it's in progress, so if you wanna give feedback feel free).

Midoriya Izuku: So, baby boy protagonist. I think in general, he's fine, and I don't mind where he ends up, but I do want to do more foreshadowing towards it earlier. Beyond that, his general arc is moving away from his idolisation of people like Bakugou and All Might (and also his weird possessiveness over Bakugou that canon calls out once in not even a joke and then never brings up again? ok), and taking ownership of himself and OFA.

OFA itself is going to be a little different, it still gives you the base power up to your body when it's passed on, but it also merges a quirk from the stockpile into your quirk, probably chosen by instinct based on the moment you first activate it. I think Float (probably), it's easy to hide as a mutation of Inko's quirk, it's got lots of angst potential in the whole Shimura feels side of things. I also want more interactions and time between him and Shigaraki. LoV has a delayed timeline, so I want to build the relationship between him and Shigaraki over a slower period. I'll be introducing Shigaraki probably as early as chapter 2 (the aftermath of the Sludge Villain) with Izuku still being quirkless when they meet and Shigaraki being a little interested in someone who actually does something rather than sitting around for the heroes.

I want Izuku and Bakugou's relationship to develop into something healthier earlier too. I think some of the issues with Izuku's character stem from this idea that him and Bakugou are rivals pushing each other, but they also sort of stagnate in that because Bakugou has no plot of his own, if that makes sense, and because Izuku gets so OP so quickly, the idea that Bakugou is actually rivalling him is laughable. So I want them to actually be able to push each other and let that rivalry actually develop properly. Bakugou is changing earlier, and also All Might (although only Izuku knows it's All Might not Yagi, All Might's assistant) is training them together like once a week, but it's a bit more like amateur therapy and he encourages them to be open and honest about their feelings even if he has to take them out to some forest clearing and let them yell and scream at each other (you know, like the should have done after the Final Exam arc where they both finally snapped and said enough, and then everyone just brushed it off and moved on. You know when Izuku finally got actually mad at Bakugou, and Bakugou actually said he'd rather lose, both totally ooc moments that should have had serious ramifications on both their character arcs? I really thought we were about to do something there Horikoshi, my bad).

Bakugou Katsuki: speaking of rivals. Every time I try to write about Bakugou it gets huge because he's such a mess, I'll try to keep this brief. OK! So! I think the biggest first point is the difference between making Bakugou suffer because he deserves it and that being his redemption, and Bakugou's suffering causing him to reflect. The two are different. If you've seen the rough design vibes, you know Bakugou has a prosthetic pre-UA, and it is that serious injury and the grief and realignment afterwards that helps spark Bakugou's redemption journey. And while he often frames it as a deserved punishment, as do various other people, I'm careful to make sure the narrative doesn't. Because if I have to explain to you why disability/trauma as a punishment is fucked up, I think there's a problem.

Bakugou is supposed to be a sorta monster society created and then abandoned when they realised what they'd done. Very Frankenstein. We need to show that. We need to see Bakugou in situ of people praising him to insane degrees, to society putting Izuku down because he's quirkless and it's for his own good. We need to see what built Bakugou to understand his position. We also need to see Mitsuki being a bad parent more (note bad, not Endeavor levels abusive, there's a difference). In trying to keep him grounded and disciplined she yells, she gives him the odd smack and she picks apart everything he does for even the smallest flaw or weakness and tears him down, and she inadvertently teaches him violence and yelling is the answer, perfection is everything and getting help is weakness that she will then tear into.

Bakugou's arc revolves around what is a hero and we'll use Stain to do that. His ideal of heroism is strength, a hero overcomes all odds no matter what, and he might suck at being a people person but he can make sure the bad guy is beaten even if it costs him himself. Stain, of course, takes offense at Bakugou, but at the same time doesn't see him as entirely without potential (self sacrifice, even framed in the way Bakugou does, is the kind of heroism Stain and All Might preach) and even canon Stain isn't thrilled to kill kids. They're going to explore heroism together, through their ridiculously high standard of All Might or nothing, to the true nature of Bakugou's glory chasing and morals, to frustration over public image heroes like Jeanist, culminating in moving up Bakugou's moment with All Might in the final war (although adjusted slightly) for a Bakugou and Stain team up against AFO.

I also want to expand on Bakugou relationships outside of Midoriya, another area where I think canon could have done more. I think one fo Bakugou (and Midoriya's) biggest problems is the pair of them just can't be separated and it sorta harms them both in and out of universe. He has Kirishima, obviously, but I think even that could use more. There's Kaminari too, who doesn't get enough credit as Bakugou's friend, he was next to him before even Kiri. I want him and Uraraka to interact more too, for both their sakes. I like the idea of the "Bakusquad" but I think it's a fanfic thing that mostly ends up being unhealthy either with Bakugou not caring for them and/or them just being Kirishima's friends, or them ignoring all of Bakugou's boundaries. Early on, I want more of an actual rivalry between Shouto and Bakugou, and I want to expand the Disaster Squad (because talented but awful at peopleing people thrown together is always a great dynamic). And, obviously, if we're keeping the ending, more from both Jeanist and Edgeshot. Edgeshot's sacrifice would have been so much more meaningful if we saw him and Bakugou interact, and/or saw how much Jeanist and Edgeshot liked each other before that one moment.

I also want to take more of a look at the creek scene because as someone with massive anxiety who's actually experience the whole thing where someone offering to help you makes you feel like they're looking down on you, that was fumbled to all hell. Also, for a while it felt like Horikoshi was laying the groundwork for Bakugou realising he was going to become Endeavor if he kept on as part of his arc, and then backed out the further we got into Endeavor's "redemption" so I think it'd like to work that in more.

Todoroki Shouto: family drama, yay! So, obviously Shouto's plot is his family and Dabi. It's another one that I think benefits more from minor changes than a total rewrite. I think the core idea of the Todoroki siblings manifesting varying forms of abuse responses (yes, Fuyumi's response to being in an abusive household is valid, stop acting like it's not, she is the conflict avoidant pacifier reaction) and their family drama spilling into country threatening levels is pretty ok.

So, minor changes, Fuyumi would be a hero, or at least a sidekick. The timelines sort of imply that the first three kids happened on better terms than Shouto, so maybe Fuyumi got training, she's a daddy's girl, she was going to prove herself, and as she grows she gets it into her head that if she can be a good hero maybe she can fix their family. Keep her as a teacher, maybe at UA, they do need more teachers. Dabi, gets ice powers to match Shouto. he's going to be a proper mirror. While Shouto rejects his fire to spite his dad, Dabi still wants Endeavor's attention so only uses his fire. Dabi is also a "vigilante" style villain more in line with Stain earlier on. He wants Endeavor's attention, after all.

Back to Shouto. So, I want to introduce Shouto early, he's in in chapter one, and involved with the Sludge Villain incident. Partly, because I want the main trio trioing early so there's less awkward character shuffling as Bakugou and Shouto seem to take Iida and Uraraka's places, a more even spread rather than ups and downs, I want clear synergy between the three of them in a tough spot so they can work together if they have to (for the record, Shouto is the leader of the main trio, for all Bakugou bitches even in canon he does follow Shouto's orders, Shouto takes control, Izuku is like omg information vomit and Bakugou translates for Shouto and ptoects current quirkless Izuku) (also note this is only allowed to go on as long as it does bc Endeavor is there doing his proud but douchey momager thing), but also I want to establish Shouto's "screw the rules, I'm a hero" attitude nice and early. Because I think we do forget the amount of time Shouto unapologetically is about to throw down with the law because "it's the right thing to do" to the point it makes Midoriya and Iida look law abiding. As mentioned, there's a bit more of an active rivalry between Bakugou and Shouto following the Sports Festival, and also some acknowledgement earlier on that Shouto can be very destructive and prone to overkill without thinking about the consequences.

Uraraka Ochako: my girl! So, I definitely want to give Uraraka some more plot time for a start. As I say, I want there to be a less drastic fall off from early parts to later parts. I want Uraraka involved and there.

So, for a start, we're going to actually deal with the sexism the Sports Festival brought up, Uraraka and Bakugou are going to interact more, be sparring partners, Bakugou is going to treat Uraraka as just another person rather than just a cute girl (the Sports Festival is the first big school event in this timeline, so it's the big turning point for a lot of these things). Since the internships aren't right after the Sports Festival, like in canon, Uraraka wants to work on her martial arts now, and turns to the one person she's sure will teach her properly.

I also think about maybe either swapping her away from Toga as her "main villain" or completely rewriting it. I think the fact that every scene Uraraka's in someone mentions her crush on Izuku, and the fact that her villainy with Toga is frame around crushes and love, doesn't help the idea that she's a shallow love interest, especially with how her money worries were just sorta shuffled away. They made a big deal of "girls can fight boys" in the Sports Festival, and then Uraraka basically only gets girl fights with Toga afterwards, and the whole yandere bisexual girl fight with sexual/romantic undertones isn't the greatest vibe. I'm thinking of perhaps keeping Mustard around, because A, gravity vs gases can be super badass (as anyone who read the original version of Dazai, Chuuya, Fifteen can tell you, not the anime hand holding bullshit) and B, because he's their age, and kind brutally merciless, the guy brought a gun with him, and potentially if we extrapolate from his comments about UA being "pampered" maybe we can assign him a similar background.

Kirishima Eijirou: short and sweet here, because Kirishima's whole thing is actually pretty solid but just need expanding. If I swap Toga out with Mustard, or someone else, for Uraraka, Kirishima is where she goes. Now, that doesn't mean I want the same romance angle. I'm not erasing Toga's bisexuality for a straight ship, it wouldn't be a ship, it would be two people dealing with their admiration and finding themselves by becoming like other people.

More in general, I want to focus a little more on Kirishima and Bakugou's relationship, while Bakugou definitely inspires Kirishima, we don't see much of it going the other way, although I think this is partly because we just don't see inside Bakugou's head nearly as often as others. I enjoy his role in the Overhaul Arc, but I also want to bring Uraraka in there more, so I potential Red Riot and Uravity vs Rappa and Tengai (maybe with Fat Gum, maybe not).

Yaoyorozu Momo: oh Momo. I definitely want to expand on Momo. She should be badass but Horikoshi needed her to be nerfed a lot because she solves a lot of problems. So, we play into the fact that's a naïve sheltered rich girl. She's had private tutors and is book smart, she passes tests with flying colours because she knows the correct answer for a controlled environment. We sort of see this in the Battle Trials, where sure, in the context of text, Bakugou was acting out, but as a villain? Half the MHA villains are acting on personal grudges and don't care about environmental damage. A lot of villains aren't rational around heroes, and lbr a lot of minor villains would get out of there when heroes arrived. So there's an interesting potential here that being sheltered as she is, she almost expects that textbooks are completely accurate and villains would behave as she's been taught by her tutors. And come on being flustered when shit doesn't go how you were taught is a common thing, so it's not out of the question.

There's also the Sports Festival, where we see her struggling with her quirk because she got stuck on her preplanned ideas and didn't adapt, and relied on her quirk. And in her suit. The idea that she first wanted nothing, and then went with a suit that offered very little practical defense, she believes her quirk is enough to protect her from everything. So this goes hand in hand with her self confidence issues, in a very similar way to Bakugou. She had confidence, was smacked down hard and realised that real combat isn't the same as lessons, but where Bakugou gets angry and aggressive about getting better, Momo withdraws and doubts, actually in a very similar way to Kirishima. I think her plot will most be entwined with Iida and Shouto as the other two legacy rich types, but I would like to see her with Kirishima doing his good boi stuff and building everyone up too.

There's also Iida, Tsuyu and Kaminari, but this got very long and their arcs aren't quite as solidly formed in my mind, so maybe I'll talk about them another day or maybe drop an ask about specifics and watch me think things through in real time. So this WIP Wednesday is the last round of starting UA character vibes, and then next Wednesday I've got one of my oldest drafts from the Sports Festival queued up.

[nightimedreamersworld]

Dead Simon Darlings Sunday

Thank you for tagging me today, friends @cutestkilla @fatalfangirl @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @confused-bi-queer @bookish-bogwitch @forabeatofadrum ❤️ your snippets are lovely!

So, now that ELH is finally done, I'm back to my ongoing wip (the super angsty one, not the smut one lol). Sadly, I haven't been able to write at all this week, seeing as in the next two weeks I'll be having FIVE (5) exams, plus 3 group assignments I have to turn in (only one of which I've started...)

Anyway. You won't have to hear me whining about uni for much longer, tho, as the term will be done in two weeks. Then I'm finally free. Literally crawling towards my vacation 😩

For now, though- I'm going to follow the dead darlings trend and show you something I've cut off from this wip. (I honestly hate killing my darlings, but in this case there wasn't much I could do. The end of this chapter just felt flat and stretched thin, so I'll be reworking it with a different POV)

I reach out—in the split second before I touch him, it feels like there’s a current buzzing at the tips of my fingers, just waiting for the circuit to complete. But I pull my hand back before it shocks us both. Baz’s eyes are still closed, so he doesn’t notice. “I mean it, Baz. You’re forgiven. No hard feelings.”  He sniffs. Nods. “You don’t have to be sorry. I deserved it. I deserved much more.”  It’s my turn to shake my head. “You didn’t deserve any of this,” I tell him. He peeks at me through his fingers. “Really, Baz. I’m… sorry about your loss,” I say, and I feel like a deflating balloon as the words come out.  He finally looks up at me. He looks so… defeated. I don’t get it. I’ve been mulling over this for days, the things I’d say. The things that would make him feel better.  (But I guess better doesn’t begin to scratch the surface of Baz’s suffering. It’s like blowing air over a third-degree burn. Like putting a band-aid on an open fracture.)

(It also feels sort of wrong to have this section at this point in the story... like, Simon isn't in the headspace to be thinking like this, yet. So I might re-use some of these lines later on)

Tagging a few friends: @artsyunderstudy @ivelovedhimthroughworse @captain-aralias @whogaveyoupermission @whatevertheweather @hushed-chorus @supercutedinosaurs @stitchyqueer @iamamythologicalcreature @larkral @blackberrysummerblog @valeffelees @palimpsessed @prettygoododds @aristocratic-otter and anyone who'd like to share!

[cruorcrave]

19 December 2024

(TL;DR at the end.)

Today was pretty alright. I mostly just finished up xmas shopping (took a while cuz my mother had a lot of places to go) but it was made more fun by the fact I finally got my sister's present. I bought her a bag of chocolates as well as a 10-pack of ciders, and I wrapped every item individually then put them back in their respective packets. Hopefully she finds it funny (me and my sisters prank each other with our presents - but we also make sure the presents are actually good and what they wanted, just in the most annoying way possible.)

Other than that, I haven't done much today. I'm trying to get myself into the mindset of drawing/writing/creating even if it's not good. Even if it isn't perfect I should still be creating because it's what I want to be known for and it's what I want to do, it just takes a bit of effort. Gonna try to get a drawing out today or tomorrow.

One of my new tumblr-made friends is being a bit distant and I'm worried about them. I haven't known them for long (literally like a month) so I don't know their habits or anything yet. I'm just hoping I haven't upset them or scared them off, or that something particularly bad has come up in their life. Hopefully they're alright.

The school morning tea was good. My friend picked me up in her car and luckily there weren't a lot of people there. Only about 10 of us from a class of about 75, and it was all people I liked or tolerated. My friend who wants me to be in his upcoming zombie short film chatted with me about it, I saw teachers I like again, I got like three cans of free Sprite, it was great all round. Me and a few friends have another get together some time in the next few weeks which will be nice as the people I hate/cannot tolerate aren't invited. Yippee!

tw discussing s/h briefly

As was probably clear from last night's posting, I relapsed. However, there is a silver lining here. I didn't cut myself or draw any blood in any way. I hit myself and got a small bruise, but it's already starting to fade just a day later, and the headache was gone by mid-morning. I'm dedicated to trying to get to 3 days right now, and then hopefully to a week. Trying to focus on the positives. My longest streak in a while has been 3 days and so I'm trying to break that. I'm still counting hitting (whether against something hard or with the pliers) as a relapse because one, it usually leaves a bruise and gives me a killer headache (sometimes for days on end) and two, it is to harm myself. I'm still struggling with thoughts of.. man, I gotta find a name for this. "drinking" feels wrong - its not that much blood - but maybe "taking" is more accurate? Let's go with that. I'm still struggling with thoughts of taking but I'm trying to acknowledge them and then move on. Rather than ignoring them, I'm telling myself "Okay, I want to do that, but I know I'll only feel worse for it, and even though I don't know what's causing the feelings directly, I know it's a problem and has to do with my mental illnesses, therefore I shouldn't give in." It's worked so far today, if only for today. I still can't help but wonder why I ever had the feelings in the first place, though. I just want them to go away now is all I know. Either way, this approach definitely works better than telling myself "If you give in you'll go crazy and never be able to stop like some freak vampire-hannibal hybrid so ignore the hunger." That definitely wasn't working.

Anyway, wish me luck. 1 day clean as I write this.

Song of the Day: Pieces - Sum 41

Also, I'm going to start putting TL;DRs at the end of my diary posts cuz they're long as shit and ain't nobody got time for that.

TL;DR:

Today was okay. Did Christmas shopping, ready to prank my older sisters. Didn't do much else, want to draw more. One of my friends is distant, I'm a bit worried. Final exam debrief morning tea was good. Relapsed but wasn't as bad as usual. Trying a new approach to staying clean; acknowledging urges and validating them. Trying to get to 3 days, then a week.

Clean since 18 December 2024

[songsofbloodandwater]

If I wasn't completely absorved by the exams this next week, I'd be writing that attempt at an article about the Headless King that I've had in my drafts for a while now. I've made some pretty cool findings that really helped me wrap up some ideas and connect some dots, yet somehow I feel like He'll only let me sit down to write it all down cohesively once I actually have all the right puzzle pieces.

In the mean time, I'm just happy because the plants that I ordered a week ago arrived and now I finally have my own little herb garden! (which for someone who's been living on and off in a relatively small apartment for some years now, it's a Big Win)

Being able to bring into my home my most significant plant allies is really important to me because of the concepts of Reciprocity and Right Relation. The idea is that medicine and magic coming from allies that I personally tend to and care for is way more powerful than simply buying the herbs in bulk and awakening them. The Land Tending that I've been doing allows me that kind of Right Relation and Reciprocity with local native species and some introduced ones, but not really with other allies that aren't found here naturally.

As soon as I get some free time I'll have to trasplant them into bigger pots (to get bigger bushes that I can lovingly harvest in more significant amounts) but just having little plant babies to care for, to strengthen my relationship with some ancestral allies that are not native to this region and I wouldn't otherwise be able to care for at all, just brings me so much joy and has done wonders to lower my stress levels these past few weeks, all exams and university drama considered 🫠

[delicris]

school vent post MWAH

anywaysss... basically, i'm in my final year of "high school" (in quotation marks because i could go on for hours about the czech school system and how it's different from the rest, but no one needs to listen to all that, so i'm calling it high school just so you get the broad idea of where i'm at in my studies) and we choose four seminars and then we take a school-leaving exam based on those chosen seminars. czech is mandatory, then you choose between maths and a second language and the rest of the four are completely up to you. for those i chose biology and geography... i've just gotten home from my first geography lesson and there's... so. much.

but there's already so much to cover in that bio seminar, people always advise you to NOT take it, if you don't want to study biology, or you don't need it for an entrance exam to uni, but i DO need it, so i had to choose it. and i love geo and i'm not much interested in any of the other seminars, so obviously i chose geo as the second one, but i had no fucking idea it would be just as bad, if not fucking worse

we have to teach three lessons in the entire year, which isn't even a full year, and you have to make three different forty-minute presentations to base the lessons of... for bio, you only do this ONCE.

there are obviously tests on the orientation on the map, but there are sometimes over 200 places you have to learn, sixteen of which are actually on the test. and you get eighteen of these tests in total, but each time it's a different set of places

and then there are the exams from the stuff your classmates have had presentations on + the geo basics, which make up five topics that are covered in these exams, but that's a shit ton of materials to learn for a single fucking exam you take several times in that one year

AND I DON'T EVEN NEED GEOGRAPHY FOR UNI, YES IT DOES TIE INTO BIO, BUT I. DON'T. NEED IT.

and i forgot the tests on orientation in media, where you're quizzed on the news of the week. every week. i hate the news, i hate keeping up with it, i find it so fucking boring etc etc

but that isn't all... i'm so fucking stupid that i decided to take up sing language because it's a program from our school, so i don't have to commute somewhere, i just go into a different building, BUT THAT'S TWO MORE CLASSES, WHY DID I THINK THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA??

+ i tutor every week, i'm trying to finish getting my driver's licence and i need to start going to the gym to prepare for my entrance exam to uni because they test your physical abilities as well...

maybe this sounds pretty tame to someone, but i've always had a lot of free time to just sit down and do whatever i wanted and now i've been thrown into this whirlwind and i don't know what to do, i've never had to consider my timetable to make plans, i've always had enough time to study and prepare for any exam, but still get an opportunity to just exist... but i feel like i won't be able to have that now and i don't think i'll handle it well

every teacher expects us to always be prepared, to care about their subject, to make time to learn it all and manage all this, but i just... i know i won't be able to, i know that at some point it'll get bad because i don't fucking know how to organize shit, how to be productive, social and mindful of my needs while staying fucking sane

this will be a hell of a year and i can't wait for it to be over already

[jsuhosh94127]

2023 | 12-29-23 5:16 PM

hi, blog!

ooooh, year 2023 is about to end! so, as a little recap, i'll be posting and jotting some of the highlights, experiences, and learnings i've gathered this year. so, this might take really long to capture everything

ps. please bear with me while we go through together this journey-and i'm already asking for some understanding that there will be grammatical errors as i just typed this on the fleet of the moment. hahaha (while listening to paramore! what a throwback ><)

during new year, i never have ever thought that this year would bring out so many things. but, i prayed and really put my faith and heart to wish and look forward that this year would bring all the unexpected, great, and wonderful blessings. and, well, truly! all good and great things happened. as a summary:

i graduated magna cum laude, like boi!!! that's one of the unexpected things i received. i have these inferiority issues that keeps me from taking pride of what i achieve. whenever i would look at my grades on the portal i need to have peptalk myself that i did my best and really put effort on every points i have.

i passed licensure examination for teachers. this one too. i cried the night after the exam. i wasn't able to enroll on any review center because y'know budget and priorities. i submitted papers and the exam fee a day before the last day of submission. i forgot to take my noa from the cashier and took us a week or so to get it. those days, the review days and waiting days are tooooo long. there are times i would cry myself to sleep and go on work like nothing happened. as all i have are the everyday afterwork review and the 3day in house free review by my alma mater, PNU, who called me as i was endorsed by the dean. anyway, i realized that i really did put effort and prayers and having 90.20 average for the exam is really awesome! (thank you get it-keshi and 7rings-ariana grande for reminding me to always get up and get that bag)

i have a decent paying and a work that i finally learn to love. it all started 4 months before our graduation and my schedule is all free so i decided to work immediately. after our finishing school, i immediately prepared my cv and requirements, look online for school vacancies. then, tadda! i am where i am now. funny thing about my employment process is that, there are some applicants before me and the school is still on the screening process. and there is still one person after or before me, i think (?) but after my demo and interview, the school directress asked me if i am readily available to go tomorrow to start my job. ofcourse, i said yes and yippie yup, i love my bffs now. hahahaha. >< even though i can't even have a me time as they always hug and bug me.

buy things that are pink. buy things for myself, buy things i want buy make up, and continue do my hobby. mag-ganda gandahan all day, every way. hahaha

groceries and things for the fam. this one is more of a breadwinner and ate duties, though sometimes i need to sacrifice my wants, it feels fulfilling to give and see my mom's smile. i luv it so much!!!!

not hesitating to buy and have and give things just because i want to.

learn and try new things! i learned how to do eyeliner precisely and perfectly. i was able to eat on different food shops and try new things (with my bf ofc, because if i don't like it he knows what to do! hahahha :P) i also learned how to handle student and people with special needs. i learned that life to each and everyone of us is different, and that's really beautiful.

new friends and reconnected to old friends.

prayers, talking to yourself, and having alone moments. this helped me during the times i am sick. having muscle pains everyday is really irritating but having mindfulness techniques helped me to get by and being open on your condition will greatly make life a little easier.

forgive. freely and wholeheartedly. myself and those people i need to so i can run free from the hurt. idk, but for me forgiving is a must so i can move and see life in a clearer view. but, yeah, i don't forget and i know the place and boundaries and all. i always say it to myself that when i made a mistake "oopsie, i can't undo it, but maybe i can be kinder the next time around." it may sound cheesy and too optimistic, but talking to myself like a 5 year old kid, heals.

listened to new artists. hindi na si keshi at doja cat lang. hahahaha. i learned to go back and listened to the songs when i was moving on, when i was just barely living, and when i am on my lowest. now, i'm listening to them casually reminiscing each moment. acjkkk, life is so nice. some parts of me healed through it.

being grateful. idk, but being grateful to whatever it is, makes me feel better and knowing that if i can handle this, i'll be able to handle much beautiful and greater achievements or things.

basta, marami pa. marami pa akong gustong ilagay sa true lang. i just can't put it here all. should i make a part two? jk. hahaha. but all in all, i want to give praise to God. for making me safe, protected, provided, guided, and sane this year. there's a lot of struggles, left and right. but, knowing that there is someone or an entity that listens to me and where i can speak to anytime makes me feel less alone. (im not lonely, there are many people i love and loves me.) it's just there are thoughts that i think i always keep to myself, and having times where i just look up and blurt out words, makes me feel more connected.

this is taking too long na ata? reader check, press 1. hahaha. until next year again my friends! i pray and hopefully, we may see life in a greater light. i hope we could list more achievements and wonderful things, do greater and kinder things. either be it small or big, may it sound like a leaf on a river or a tree in the forest, every effort to support, be kind, and do for the love of other is the best thing we can do all year round. most importantly, be kind to yourself. always. love it and help it grow. may we become rich in finances, love, life, beauty, and be hearty as always. may 2024, bring the success we all work and put effort for.

i hope than whenever and wherever we are may we grow and bloom and shower everyone around us with love and kindness!

i love you all! <3

[14dayswithyou]

Hey babe, did you account get shadowbanned or something? I don’t get any notifications for your blog anymore and your name doesn’t pop up when I search for you 😭😭😭 I still stalk your account but it just makes it harder for me (Ren apologist ✨)

✦゜ANSWERED: I KNEW IT FSFJKSAF 😭💀 At first, I thought it was weird how I didn't have the message feature (which meant I wasn't able to DM people), but then I noticed how most of my posts weren't receiving as much engagement as they normally do. So thank you for letting me know and confirming my suspicions! I didn't even know you could get shadowbanned on here T_T

I've also sent in a support ticket to Tumblr — but until I get a response from them, I think I might just turn the queue off for a while... just to be safe. Maybe my account got flagged for spamming? idk fjkjfksdf :') I'll still be posting stuff manually, but it won't be as frequently as usual.

ALSO THIS IS A PSA FOR MR REN HACKERMAN 14DWY DO NOT READ UNLESS U ARE HIM: FOR EVERY SECOND MY ACCOUNT ISN'T RESTORED, THAT'S ANOTHER ANGSTY AND HEART-WRENCHING PARAGRAPH ADDED TO YOUR BAD END :)

[roadkillremi]

SEQUEL to - Please, Don't kill me, Mr.Ghostface

Randy Meeks x Fem!Reader

Masterlist Part 2 on Masterlist

Warnings : mentions Sex, language, mentions dying, mentions Killing, Reader has hallucinations (If I miss anything let me know)

I do NOT support killing

Summary : After the 1996 Woods borrow murders, will you move on? Attending college with some old friends and making new ones. Your past stalking you at times making everything difficult.

"Can you tell me what you were thinking when he was going to kill your friends?"

The clocked ticked loudly on the wall, you fidgeted picking your nails.

"Disgusted, trapped, with myself to be exact. If I didn't say anything I'd get hurt. If I did if get hurt. There's nothing I could do about it."

She nodded scrabbling on the notebook paper.

"And it's said you stabbed Billy Loomis 17 times. Is that correct?"

"I didn't count. I just... Did it. It was either that or die."

"I know."

"I don't wanna talk about Billy." You looked out the window not being able to face her.

"Let's talk about your visions then.".

You nodded still looking out the window with a soft gaze.

"I got a call from your Aunt. She said according to the teacher you started yelling in class. Cause you saw... Them.".

You nodded, "Yes."

"They're dead they can't hurt you."

"I know. But nightmares can't die."

She sighed, "You're suffering from PTSD, it's not strange to suffer after a traumatic event. Sydney, Randy, and Gale are doing fine. Sydneys getting through it maybe you can talk to her-"

"Sydney's rich and popular. She has the ability... To be loved easily."

"You don't know Sydney's life-"

"But I know mine!" You turned to her.

"Tell me about school."

"People look at me like I'm a zombie or something. I mean since someone died the exams aren't a big deal... People think I'm a killer... Ever since Gale... Did a short read of her upcoming book..."

"Self defense is not murder."

"Yes, I know! Still hurts. The only reason I got into college is because of being a victim. I don't even know what to major in."

"Don't you like movies? Major in directing."

"that's Randy's thing. I love movies, but I don't wanna make them."

"just come up with a list and think it through. How's your sleeping been?"

You looked down at your lap, "It's hard to sleep. I have bad dreams and wake up.".

"have you tried a-"

"Routine. Yes. Sometimes Randy spends the night."

She raised her eyebrow, "Not like that!".

"Mhm." She wrote something down.

"Do you think im a killer?" You looked at her deeply. She looked up at you and didn't speak for a moment.

"I think you're an angry child with a rough past seeking the love you didn't have."

"That wasn't my question."

"No, you're not a killer."

"You hesitated."

"This isn't about me. Its about you."

Silence filled the room back up again.

"I'm scared I'll kill again."

You folded your graphic tees into a box. Music played in the background as you packed up. The last week you've been packing for college. Surprisingly Sydney asked to be roommates, you said yes.

Your room was almost empty now, you sat on your bed.

"Finally running away from here?"

Billy appeared next to you, he leaned down to see your face.

"You're not real."

"I'm real to you."

You didn't look towards him, you closed your eyes trying to focus on breathing.

"You can't shut me out!" He yelled.

"Go away, Billy!" You yelled back. Your Aunt rushed in at the sound of you yelling.

"Everything alright?"

"Yeah, just a nightmare." You stood up.

"Okay. Well Randy called, he's on his way. So get ready to pack up his car." She gave a pathetic smile and walked away. You sighed putting shoes on before taking boxes near the front door. Randy pulled up walking in the house, ever since the killing he seemed to peak. He had more muscle and wore shirts that showed it, he even grew out a small beard. He wasn't the only thing that change in the summer though.

People around you took note about how you seemed more free than usual. You got to dress in clothes without Billy saying you looked whorish. Not only that but you randy had sex, a lot. In his car, in your room, even at his work. There was of course close calls but nothing to serious. He got better at sex the more you two did it. Sometimes it was passionate and loving, others were more rough and animalistic.

"God, I'm not gonna have room for all this!" Randy exclaimed mentioning the boxes. You rolled your eyes, "It's everything, clothes, bedding, school supplies, all of it.".

Randy grabbed a box letting out a small huff. You patted his back, "you got this.".

"You better help that boy!" Your Aunt yelled out.

"Yeah!" Randy mocked smiling. You grabbed a box following him to the car. The trunk had all of Randy's bags stuffed into there. He placed the boxes in the back seat. You huffed back and forth between the car and the house.

"That's all of them!" You yelled out to Randy. He slammed the car door shut, "Thank God!" He cried over dramatically.

Your Aunt hugged you tightly sniffling, "Call when you can. Stay safe.".

"I will, I love you." You hugged her back tightly.

Months later

You banged on Randy's door, "Randy Meeks! Get your ass up!". He got drunk with his roommate, Paul last night. He called you slurring his words telling you how much he loves you. He opened the door, "Sorry, I was getting dress!".

"You look like shit." You laughed. His hair a bit messy and bags under his eyes.

"You look amazing too, darling" he said in a British accent.

You walked to class with him holding his hand. Some girls snickered at you as you passed them. Randy glanced at them, "What's their problem?".

"Don't worry about it. You know how some women are, don't grow out of the popularity in high school." You sighed.

"Pfft, yeah tell me about it." He said leaning close to your ear. His hot breath tickling the side of your face.

A frisbee passed by in front of you two, "Couldn't have caught it?! Dick.." some guy said running after it.

"See?" Randy gestured. You rolled your eyes, "Come on Mr.Meeks we have a film class to get to!".

"You know how I get when you call me that." He joked. You jokingly gave him a look, "You'll just have to rub it out in the bathroom.". He smiled hugging you from behind picking you up a bit.

"Or I could fuck you when Paul's gone"

You laughed tapping his arm to let you go. "Poor Paul needs a break from us pounding like dogs in there." You said walking into the building. Randy caught up with you, "Well this dogs ready to pounce.". He sprayed mouth spray in his mouth winking at you.

[littlegodzilla]

Our Story.

Daryl Dixon x Wife / Daryl Dixon x Reader.

Part 3.

Masterlist.

Warnings: Angst. Drama. Death. Goodbyes. Sad Daryl. Heartbreaking.

Words: 2900.

Summary: She is gone and Daryl doesn't know what to do now.

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Part 3: Lose her.

The first time she passed out, no one gave it a thought. Classes were being intense, criminal schedules and exams had her head racing, barely getting two or three hours of sleep at a time putting her body completely on edge.

"Ya can't do that." Daryl reproached her when he went to see her. "Ya need to eat, sleep..."

"I don't have time, Daryl, finals are next week and..."

"Fuck the fucking exams. I'm ain't gonna let ya have a stroke 'cause yer forcin' yerself on ya like that." He shushed her, she was surprised and smiled, kissing him.

"Thanks, honey, but it's just a few more days and I'll finally be free...I'll finally be going home." She smiled looking at her fiancé, playing with the ring on her finger.

Daryl smiled at her words and forgot why he was scolding her. It was true, after all that time, she was finally coming home, her grades were excellent, the college was very happy with her, she had been promised a most hopeful future, everything was slowly getting on track. 

Daryl had worked like crazy for all those years, earning enough to be able to afford a down payment on a house that could continue to give them the future they longed for. His father died, he never felt too sorry for him, he died as he lived, drunk and with a whore between his legs, the inheritance he left him and Merle were some debts that Daryl had to pay, as Merle had disappeared again and every time he came back into his life it was to get him in trouble or he was looking for money, so Daryl began to think he'd rather not have him around.

"I'm yer brother, Darlyna, yer always gonna need me." He told him the last time Daryl saw him.

You helped him fill the house, you wanted it to be a surprise for her for when she came home from college, knowing her tastes and some of her quirks, you decorated the vast majority of the house, leaving the master bedroom and a few things untouched, leaving something for her to choose from knowing that would make her excited too.

After that night at the secret place, your relationship with Daryl grew closer, he was your best friend, almost like a big brother, you had your own friends that you trusted and felt good about, he never stopped you from seeing them, but when you needed to feel safe and sought advice, Daryl was always willing to reach out to you.

"Michael's a good guy." He told you one day after you introduced him to your boyfriend. "I like him." He nodded and you smiled.

"Yeah, I think... he's special."

"I'm happy for ya, ya deserve it."

"Thanks, Daryl." You smiled and shared a hug.

"Yer sister is gonna freak when she finds out." He joked and you laughed heartily because you knew Daryl was right. "Ya can bring him to the wedding if ya want."

"My sister wouldn't let me go alone." You followed his joke and he chuckled, nodding.

The wedding was a few weeks after she finished college. It was simple, not too many luxuries, her parents helped financially, her father finally gave in to the fact that the youngest Dixon was really trying to become someone better and agreed to let her marry his daughter. The ceremony and reception was held in the backyard of her parents' house, with the closest friends and family, she wore her mother's wedding dress, Daryl was accompanied by her father to get a tuxedo worthy of the occasion.

"I allow you to marry her." He told her. "But I'm not going to allow you to go dressed like this, Dixon."

"Yes, sir." He agreed without putting up any resistance.

He wanted that day to be special, too.

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The second time she passed out was at home, on a random day, Daryl got up to go to work, she had the day off from the office, but got up with him to make breakfast and do some things around the house. Daryl heard the clatter coming from the kitchen as he was putting on his work clothes. He ran downstairs to the kitchen to discover her lying on the floor. He called out her name, ran to her, and held her carefully seeing that she was starting to wake up.

"Hey, hey, what happened?" He looked at her worriedly, she looked confused and a little scared.

"I-I don't know, I was just making the coffee and... and I saw you..."

"Okay, easy, let's get up slowly, okay?" He said holding her, slowly getting up, sitting her on the table. 

"I'm fine, Daryl..."

"No, yer ain't, it's not the first time it's happened to ya, remember?" He stroked her cheek lovingly and kissed her very slowly. "I'm gonna call the doctor, have him give us an appointment..."

"Maybe it's something good, maybe..." She smiled putting a hand on her belly and Daryl felt himself struggling to breathe.

"T-that would be perfect, but we have to make sure, okay? I-I don't wanna anything to happen to ya, or the baby that might be coming..."

"Okay..." She nodded, accepting her husband's words.

"Stay in each, rest, don't overexert yourself. No, don't look at me like that, just listen to me for this time."

She closed her mouth, giving him a sidelong glance, they knew each other too well, to know when one was going to protest, when something didn't seem right. She sighed and nodded her head. Giving up. Daryl walked her to the bedroom laying her down on the bed, the ease with which she fell back asleep didn't please her at all. As he picked up the mess in the kitchen he made an appointment with her doctor to see her as soon as possible. Before leaving he peeked back into the room to find her sleeping peacefully, his heart relaxed a little.

As he got into the car to drive towards the garage he looked up your name on his phone and put the handsfree on.

"Good morning, Daryl." You greeted him after several rings. "You know we don't all get up early like you, right?"

"Sorry, pretty girl, but I have a favor to ask." He said, from the tone of his voice you were concerned.

"Is everything all right, has something happened?"

"Yer sister fainted again this mornin'." He informed you. "It was only for a second, but it's ain't the first time and it's got me worried."

"Did you call the doctor? Do you need me to take her?"

"We have an appointment for tomorrow, I've left her sleeping at home; I-I wanted to ask ya to go and... take care of her while I'm at work." He asked you chewing on his lip, knowing he was asking too much, that you had your own life.

"S- sure, no problem, I'll get dressed and be right there." You assured him, he sighed feeling some relief.

"Thanks honey, I'm sorry to ask ya this, I know ya may have had plans with Michael, but..."

"No, no, Daryl, she's my sister, she goes first. Always." You assured him and he smiled.

"Okay, thank ya."

"You don't have to give it to me, I'll keep you posted with anything." You said your goodbyes and Daryl left for work feeling a little more at ease.

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The news they received from the doctor was shattering, the two of them sitting there in front of the man who looked at them apologetically and pitifully, not knowing how to deliver the information without being too drastic or cruel, but sometimes those things were hard to smooth over. It didn't matter how they tried.

She had a degenerative disease, it had always been there, evolving slowly, quietly, a silent killer.

She was dying.

Daryl could barely breathe as the echo of her and the doctor's voices drifted in and out of his ears. He could only feel the rage building, filling his stomach, how his teeth clicked wanting to scream, but he had to restrain himself, he couldn't let all the anger explode against him, it wasn't his fault. She would ask, make plans, she needed to know how much and how to fight it. Daryl still wasn't able to speak.

"There's medication, experimental treatments, formulas to slow the symptoms, the pain, maybe we could extend his life six months or a year."

Six months or a year. Daryl felt like throwing up.

Daryl held on as long as he could, held on stoically for her, didn't scream, didn't curse, swallowed his tears so as not to scare her. He spoke to her in a soft voice, tried to calm her, to be strong for both of them. He had to resist. He had to take care of her.

But his forts faltered when they told the family, his mother's tears, his father's anger, yelling at him, blaming him for it, Daryl for a moment believed it was his fault, that he had thrown her against her own illness, that if he had given her an easier life maybe she would have held on longer. Seeing you cry was what broke him. The three of you were a team, the three of you understood and cared for each other and now your sister was going to die and he could do nothing to stop it.

He felt the world collapsing in on him and he was unable to hold it.

Not this time.

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Daryl had never seen that someone could deteriorate so quickly, it was ironic, all those years he had never noticed anything, nothing had ever happened, and yet now she could barely move, she could barely stay awake, she could barely eat. Daryl struggled every day to keep her with him, his shifts at the shop decreased, he couldn't stay away from home that long, he knew you took care of her when he wasn't home, but he couldn't put all that responsibility on your shoulders either. It wasn't fair.

"Hey, hey, where are ya going?" He woke up one day feeling movement next to him.

"I have to go to the bathroom, Daryl, if I have your permission..." she sighed wearily.

"Yeah, sure, sorry..." He let her go to the bathroom, but kept an eye out in case he heard anything suspicious.

"The treatment isn't working anymore." He told the doctor one day when she fainted again and had to be admitted. "She's finding it harder and harder to stay conscious, she's in pain, her bones are like glass..." He gasped, lowering his head.

"I'm so sorry, but everything we knew is failing..." Commented the doctor. "Her body can't tolerate anything more..."

He swallowed hard, looking at the man with intensity, he knew what those words meant, but he couldn't accept them, it hurt to hear them. He wasn't ready.

"Daryl, it's okay..." She whispered from the gurney.

"No, it ain't okay." He turned to her, holding her hand. "What else can we do?"

"The humane thing to do would be to sedate her...it would ease her pain, her body would slowly shut down, she'd just fall asleep." He explained to them and Daryl stifled a sob as best he could.

He hadn't allowed himself to cry in front of her at any point, but all that information, knowing what it meant, having to accept it even if he didn't want to. It was killing him too.

"Daryl, listen to me, it's okay..." She whispered, stroking his hand. "It's okay."

God, how could it be okay?

They stayed together for another week, in that hospital, struggling between consciousness and unconsciousness, the sedations helping her, but she resisted falling asleep at all. That morning she was unable to speak, unable to keep her eyes open. Daryl had called everyone knowing there wasn't much left. He stroked her hair gently and kissed her softly on the lips.

"Okay, sweetheart, that's enough." He whispered. "You don't have to fight anymore, you can sleep...you can rest." He chewed his lip holding back tears as best he could. "You can rest now..."

"D...Da..." She gasped trying to call out to him.

"I love you, babygirl." He said goodbye to her kissing her lips again.

The whole family said their goodbyes, under the watchful eye of the doctor who would take care of giving her the last injection so she could rest for good, Daryl didn't let go of her hand until her chest didn't stop completely.

He sank his head between his shoulders, clenching his teeth tightly, crying silently, unable to move from his side. You reached out to him, stroking his shoulders to get his attention, his body jerked involuntarily at the contact and his silent crying became an uncontrollable whimper. You knelt down next to him and hugged him with all your strength, sharing the pain that invaded you both.

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You never thought Daryl would walk away from everything and everyone when he lost her. It had been a hard blow to everyone, but he simply erected thick and high barriers between him and the world, disappearing for everyone.

You insisted on several occasions going to his house to make sure he was okay, you even went to the secret place believing you could find him there like when you were young, but nothing. You found Merle coming and going from his house. He was his brother, alright, but he never came with good news and Daryl letting him into his house wasn't good either.

"Daryl?" You broke into the house one day. "Sorry to barge in like this, but the keys are still where they always are and... I'm worried." You said with sincerity walking through the house. It was dirty, dust, leftover food, objects lying on the floor. It was a mess.

"I forgot they were there..." You heard his voice, hoarse, raspy, as if he had been silent all that time.

"How are you? we haven't heard from you for days..." You insisted but he just shrugged. "I stopped by old Clayton's shop, he says you haven't shown up there for days..." You spoke again, looking for some reaction from him.

"Ain't gotta head to go to work..."

"I know, he understands that too, he says you can take all the time you need, but if you don't plan on coming back... he needs to find someone..."

"Well, let him find someone."

"Daryl..."

"Go away. This conversation isn't going to get us anywhere. Leave." He insisted in an authoritative tone, scowling.

You wanted to object, you wanted to tell him no, but the last thing you needed was to argue, to make him walk further away from everything.

"Okay, but... promise me you'll get out of here, come see us once in a while... please." You asked.

"Sure..." He mumbled through his teeth before you left the house.

You knew it was a lie.

But that wasn't what hurt you the most, what hurt you the most was seeing him with Merle, sold the house, and went back to that old cabin in the woods with his brother, going back to being that Dixon guy he had tried so hard to fight and now didn't seem to care about becoming.

In spite of everything, you tried again to get close to him one more time, the last time before you never heard from each other again. After several months, when the world seemed to be moving again, albeit slowly, you armed yourself to go to the cabin one morning. You clasped your hands together before knocking on the door and waiting. It was a couple of minutes before you heard the door click open.

You swallowed trying not to pull back. Daryl had a scowl on his face, he had cut his hair short, his half blond mane now very short, a light brown due to the change, stubble, he was wearing an old tank top, full of holes and pants that don't look any better.

"H-hello, Daryl..." You greeted him, his frown never relaxing for a moment.

"What are ya doing here?" he grunted in response.

"I wanted to see if you were okay..." You mumbled trying to ignore his tone of voice. "It's been a while since we've heard from anyone..."

"I've been busy." He shrugged. "What do ya want?"

"I was coming to give you this." You said handing him an envelope. Daryl looked at it, opened it and pulled out a card from inside.

"Yer getting married..." He commented without taking his eyes off the invitation.

"Yes, Michael and I... I'd like you to come." You nodded looking sideways at him.

"I can't, I have things to do, I'm gonna out with Merle hunting and we'll be gone for a while." He told you as an excuse.

"Merle... Daryl, I know you're not having a good time, that it's hard, very hard, but... you can count on us, she... she wouldn't have liked you turning into this."

"Into this? Let me tell you something; I am this, I always have been this, and you know what else? She's dead, so she has no say or opinion anymore." He said angrily and you widened your eyes. "So do me a favor, get the hell out of here, forget about me." He ripped up the card under your nose and threw it on the floor. "Stop wasting my time." He growled and closed the door leaving you standing there alone.

Shocked, teary eyed, feeling something tearing inside of you. Daryl was your best friend and yet you felt as if you had irretrievably lost him. After that you didn't insist again, you didn't go near the Dixon's cabin, you focused on your wedding and going on with your life.

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To be Continued....

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Hope you liked it and don't hate me too much.

See you in the next stories!!

Taglist: @green-eyedladywrites @minervadashwood @livingdeadblondequeen @bringinsexybackk69

[dommelody]

this fanfic is written while considering all of the characters being adults in another time line where everyone is living a peaceful life so don't come at me with that talk about "OMG THEY'RE MINORS" if u do I'll slap u with the slipper that im wearing lmao , anyways as if u see im hella lazy so im not that active in here, moreover i got alot of exams those weeks but finally im free for like 1 week ? two ? idk for niw im free af,so if someone got some ideas don't hesitate and send it to okay?(especially those hawt characters who seem to be submissive and breedable lol) i think there were few of u who send me some requests sorry for not replying I'll try to respond if ur idea is hella good hehu now even if u want to discuss anything about any topic about anime and stuff just ask haha need sone friends out here *crying while eating banana * shoot that was sus lmao ...

then~ enjoy ~ ♡

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cw: sub!draken , sub!mitsuya , dom!reader, public sex...

"master they might hear us~" mitsuya said with a shaking voice while all you can hear in the restroom were his moans and the lewd sounds u make while fucking him rough which were all covered with music ..

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tomorrow is a holiday so all the gang's division's captains decided to have dinner at a famous restaurant so you decided to go and have fun ,fun in ur own way♡

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when you entered the restaurant there was a big table beside the window, everyone was there and luckily u found a sit right in front of draken and mitsuya ,after u took your seat everyone started eating, laughing and drinking.. both of draken and mitsuya were forced to drink since it was a special dinner to celebrate pah-chin's marriage ..after the talk and all everyone was under the alcohol's spell,some slept and other got to the bathroom ,you started to get bored however seeing both draken and mitsuya fighting the urge to sleep was adorable,then you decided to tease them a little bit,you slided your leg that was covered under the table between draken's thighs reaching his dick then you started to move it up and down until he suddenly hid his face on the table ,with a heavy panting he whispered :"w-we can't do it here t-they will hear u-ahhhng ♡"

"since when did i have to ask for your opinion on each thing i do?,hmmm?" with that cold look on your face draken got red like a tomato ,"look at you draken,what should we do if someone sees you now at this state, do you even know what kind of face you're making~?".

with all that embarrassment and shame he said while trying to stop his moans from coming out:"what are you talking about, something like this is nothi-hmm♡",you shut his mouth with your hand"as i thought you don't get it don't you?right now all i can see is a slutty look that begs for my touch,but you know what? at first i was gonna be nice and gentle but now you will have to endure this erection of yours until we go back home,of course touching yourself is forbidden ♡",he didn't even try to reject your order he just hide his face on the table and started whining like a puppy.

a few minutes later, the other members came back from the restroom, then smiley asked:"did draken sleep already? that's rare!! ,alcohol usually don't affect him easily ,well we drank too much i guess haha,how about you mitsuya?"

"well,me? i'm a bit sleepy and-hnnn-"

"bro you okay? your face is so red "

"i-i'm okay hehe,i suddenly got a stomachache"

"is that so? then be careful if it gets worse just go home "

"y-yeah t-thanks"

however,probably no one was able to know what was going on in there ,surely it wasn't a stomachache but in fact it was your fault,you started touching his clothed dick with your feet ,moreover you unzipped his pants and started teasing his bare skin down there,mitsuya was always your obedient puppy,unlike draken who sometimes rebels on order you give him ,mitsuya will seek for your praise more than anything else .

then you whispered while covering your mouth from smiley who was two seats away from you ,"don't worry sweetheart i didn't forget you ,so i'm giving you all the attention you want ♡." then he smiled with blush all over his face then whispered back :"hng,d-do as you like ,master♡",as soon as he said that you stood up and said:"mitsuya you don't look well so at least let me sit beside you ,so I'll be able to check on you faster that way if you got fever "

"yea i think that will help"smiley said without knowing what was even going on ,poor soul lol.

there was a seat between draken and mitsuya so you sat there and started touching his dick with your hand gently and with the other hand you pretended to check on him by putting your hand on his forehead in front of smiley,then u said :"smiley i think i should take mitsuya to the restroom he's sweating alot ".

"yea please do , i would like to help but im already wasted lol"

"haha thats because u drank to much,you-,oh hes asleep haha,hello? yea hes absolutely wasted lol,so how about we go sweetheart ?"

while smiley slept the other members were already gone everyone got plans for the rest of the night so you were free to speak with mitsuya there without worries ~♡...

u turned to mitsuya telling him to stand up to go to the restroom but we absolutely missed something, well before i started speaking with smiley about going to the restroom ,i left mitsuya's pants open didn't i ?,while his hard dick out ofcourse what to do ?hmmmm?

as expected he was a blushing mess even though hes ur obedient puppy, walking the way to the restroom with his dick out will be hella embarrassing ,btw mitsuya was wearing an overcoat so u got an idea to tease him even more..

"mitsuya come here, if you stick to me with ur closed coat they wont notice right ?,come here sweetheart ,or~ do u want to be left alone like draken over there ?''

after hearing that mitsuya stood up and started walking while sticking his dick thats only covered by the coat behind u which is almost rubbing ur buttcheek ,just imagine him walking shyly behind u panting like crazy and all .....what a show 🖤

u got to the restroom and quickly found a stall and closed the door then,"mitsuya suck my dick,will u ?"

with this order he turned red but on the same time his body was honest because as soon as u showed your dick he started leaking precum, "enjoying the view from down there aren't u ~"

while he was on his knees u slapped him with ur dick getting a lustful look from him then u grabbed his head and started fucking his throat roughly ,quickly without mercy,then finished inside his mouth,while his face was a mess with ur cum he was panting and letting out some moans ,then when u realized .. u said :"pfft,seriously mitsuya ? did u come untouched while i fucked your throat?,i guess you're on heat lol ,what a slut ~♡,well unfortunately i didn't bring condoms so i can't give u what u want sweetheart,so let-??, mitsuya~, i see~ u are definitely in heat~"

after being told that u cant do it there he sat on the toilet while spreading his legs to u while getting out a butt plug from his hole then as soon as it was out his hole were leaking with some lotion he seems to have been preparing his hole for his master how naughty~♡.

"mitsuya u gave me an idea , do u know what u got urself into? " , then u got down alittle bit and whispered on his ear "im gonna fuck u so hard, ill fill u up with my cum and then since we're doing it raw ,we can't leave ur hole leaking with cum in from of others dont we?,sooo,we're going to plug your ass with all of my cum inside without wasting a single drop. and we will have u walk in public and in front of our friends with that hot cum inside ur belly ~,don't worry if we get lucky maybe u will get pregnant Haha♡ ",with u provoking him he started whining like an impatient puppy while squeezing his wet hole ,then u gave him what he wanted ,u slide ur dick in one go inside him,getting the lewdest look from mitsuya " master im so full with yours ♡,fill me up more pleaaseeee ♡"

"mitsuya you're definitely drunk ,but well im happy to see this side of u hehe,then lets get serious and finish it quickly before smily wakes up,what about draken ?,hes definitely jealous right now getting even harder while imagining us fucking in the restroom, haha maybe he came just from imagining about that♡"

u grabbed mitsuya's thighs then started fucking him dumb going in and out like there is no tomorrow then u leaned down kissing him to make him lower his moans which were filling the restroom, u tried then to pull from the kiss thinking that he needed some seconds to breath ,but then mitsuya suddenly grabbed u back ," master if u dont kiss me im afraid that ill get louder,ahnn-♡"

" i see~,our mitsuya cant help it but to feel so good when i fuck him roughly~♡♡"

then u held him up and made him face the wall after that u fucked him from behind while the lewd sounds are filling the restroom...

but i guess that wasnt a problem to worry about since the music was loud

then, u picked up the pace even rougher and faster while mitsuya was a drooling mess while his eyes rolled back from the intense sex u are having ,then u bited his neck leaving a kiss mark on it then u came inside of him . as soon as u finished, u said smirking ," haaa,that felt amazing sweetie ,but i think u shouldn't waste a drop of my cum ,right?, now show me what a good boy you're and plug it urself ♡"

as soon as u said that mitsuya grabbed the plug and put his knee on the closed toilet then he lifted his ass up then started inserting it while panting like crazy ,half of it was of course because of the intense sex u had but the other half was because u were staring intensely at him plugging himself just the thought of being seen by u while touching himself turned him on..

then to avoid accidents like having someone enter the restroom while u were in there u helped him dress up and then quickly got out safely hehe♡..

"hey guys u are lateeeee,heyy i think draken has fever he was mumbling alone with a low voice while panting heavily ,hes definitely in pain having a high fever,i tried to help him but he was weirdly agressive and stopped me right away ,well sorry guys i have to go angry is waiting for me outside sooo take care~"

u answered:" yea u too be careful on ur way home, and dont worry I will take a goo~d care of draken "

after smiley left draken lifted up his head to u , damn that hungry look on his face with drool from his red lips~ ,when he saw u, he let out some low panting sounds as if he was whining like a puppy waiting for attention ,then he grabbed u down from his sit and kissed u a real quick but deep kiss :"master ur so cruel having ur way with mitsuya while letting me here alone suffering from this erection",then u leaned down to reach his ear then whispered:"did u have fun while imagining lewd stuff about us ? hmm ,ur soo naughty draken " then u bit his ear ,while squeezing his left nipple which was covered with his shirt ,then he let out a low moan and as soon as he realized something ,he hid his face down and told u with a cracked voice :" u c..can go alone i..ill foll..ow u after i p..pay t..the bills,hmm♡", as soon as he finished talking , u sat beside him and slid ur hand below the table to quickly insert it down his underwear then as u thought he came from just those touches from u..:" u really keep surprising me teddy bear, pfft u came just from that haha, how can anyone believe that our strongest vice president is a slut seeking my touch,how cute~♡,well u will have to walk all~ the way home with that underwear of yours which is a mess with ur cum,well dont worry when we get home u wont need it anyway ~,i wont let u sleep tonight~"

then u were about to get out of the restaurant which was luckily almost getting ready to close up ,since there's not alot of customers there ,u payed the bills while mitsuya and draken sticking to u from behind

then the worker there noticed :"umm are they okay their faces are red ,maybe fever ? "

"yea i think so also they drank too much thats why haha ,right ? draken , mitsuya?"

while customers were all gone u started touching their butt from behind while speaking with the worker,then they said while trying to smile to them :"ye..yes w..we dran..k too much hehe"

" i see please take care then , i think u should take some medicines too, to get better, please come back again~"

then u replied :"yea,then we will be going, we will come back again~"

then u lifted ur hand and stopped teasing them then they quickly followed u,well it was night so i think no one will notice right ?

"hey , umm.. i mean what did u do with mitsuya ?"

"hmm ~ ,why don't u ask him then ?, hehe"

then he turned to him ,previously ,he didn't focus on mitsuya that much, but now seeing mitsuya's lewd face , that red face which were luckily hidden by the night's dark sky,he got it right away..

"next time don't let me alone like that i was lonely and scared ,that piece of shit smiley freaked the shit out of me ,when he stood up trying to check on me"

"damn we should drink together more often ur so drunk who thought that I'll get to see this honest and cute side u ,haha but well, that must've been scary , sorry maybe i pushed u too far but you know that was a punishment so its normal, maybe I'll reward u when we get home for finishing the punishment as i ordered, well ,u came even though i told u not to tho~lol"

"SHUT UP, WILL YA "

"but ur blushing ~", "IM NOT"

then you passed a hot night with ur precious partners, however, that'll be another story to tell♡..

[fufukunaga]

sakuatsu | light sleeper Atsumu and his insomniac boyfriend Kiyoomi

Atsumu always wakes when he feels the weight of the bed lighten beside him. This usually means his boyfriend has tired of tossing and turning all night and is now going to the kitchen to get himself a glass of milk.

It's the off season and Atsumu is staying over Kiyoomi's dorm to help him sleep. It seems that studying up late for consecutive days has turned his boyfriend into a perpetual unsleeping zombie.

Some nights are better. Some nights just a little cuddle hits the snooze button on Kiyoomi's body clock and he's out like a light. Other days are like this and Atsumu's heart break at his boyfriend's struggles.

He knows Kiyoomi is tired. He's had a match today (which Atsumu had watched with full on cheering on the stands). And before that was a week of exams. It's a good thing tomorrow is a rare free day. He can't stand the thought of Kiyoomi having to wake up early and go to class with little to no sleep (which is his boyfriend's reality on most days).

Atsumu stands and follows the noise in the kitchen.

He sees Kiyoomi clutching a glass of warm milk. "Can't sleep?"

Kiyoomi nods. "They say milk helps. But it rarely does." He sighs, clearly tired. The bags under his eyes are darker than ever before.

If Atsumu could just hug him to sleep he would. But he already tried that.

"Hey," Atsumu says. "Wanna to go on a date with me?"

Kiyoomi squints his eyes at him. "Right now?" Atsumu nods. "It's the middle of the night."

Atsumu goes back into the room and comes back carrying his car keys. "Let's go for a drive."

"You're crazy," Kiyoomi says.

"Come on, Omi-kun," Atsumu chides. "Yer not going to sleep any time soon, are ya? So might as well do something fun."

"But you need to sleep," Kiyoomi points out. "You don't have to stay up late just because of me. I'll be quiet, I promise."

"Too late for that, Omi-kun. I'm already wide awake. So come on. Unless ya want to be left alone here tossing and turning all night?"

Kiyoomi finally agrees. So the two of them get into Atsumu's car at nearly 2am in the morning. Tokyo city doesn't sleep at night but it's a lot different than it is at day.

They make a drive thru at McDonald's. Kiyoomi gets himself some fries and a burger. Atsumu gets himself some coffee and steals some of Kiyoomi's fries. They eat an empty parking lot and talk about nothing and everything.

After their meals, Atsumu turns on the stereo and puts on soft music. He continues to drive around the city with no particular destination and sees Kiyoomi slowly but surely get drowsier by the mile.

Kiyoomi had always been a passenger princess because he always falls asleep from the lull of the car in motion. Especially after a meal.

After a few more miles, Kiyoomi is already fast asleep and snoring peacefully in the passenger seat.

Atsumu smiles to himself. He'd drive Kiyoomi to the ends of the world if it'd help him sleep. But for now, he makes their way home.

Kiyoomi is a heavy man but nothing Atsumu can't handle. It's a miracle, really— that Atsumu was able to carry Kiyoomi all the way up into his apartment without waking him up.

But he already knew Kiyoomi was a heavy sleeper. It's just the getting to sleep part that's hard on him. But once he's passed out, trust that an earthquake wouldn't wake him up.

He settles Kiyoomi on his bed and settles in beside him and snuggles up to his boyfriend.

Atsumu kisses Kiyoomi's temple and whispers, "Sweet dreams, Omi-omi."

[amakumos]

hiatus!

i know i made an announcement a couple days ago about me going on a break, but i figured this one would make it more official since i've posted chapter 10 of go figure!

turns out, my hiatus might be longer than i had originally wanted it to be. due to my midterms coming up in late may, i have to study a lot over the next month in order to get my grades up (my main motivation is ltrly going to 4cc 2023 but like. At least it is motivation!) and i'm not sure if i'll have Tons of time to be able to push out consistent updates like i have over the past five months. i'll try my best to pop in and post a couple chapters maybe in a week or so, but i can't guarantee my full return to tumblr until maybe early june. i know i said i'd be gone for hopefully a week and a little less, but now knowing my exams are coming up, i'm sorry that i might have to be gone for a little longer T_T

there are other reasons for my hiatus as well. i have barely any motivation to write (when it comes to oneshots, at least - but writing smaus has also become quite tiring lately) and seeing the constant negativity on my dash just makes me want to take a step back from this app for a bit. honestly, my break is long overdue - i've been pushing out consistent smau updates ever since i joined tumblr (i think it's been five months) with zero breaks and i guess i've finally reached the point where i need to put this whole thing on pause for a bit.

hopefully i'll be able to post at least a little bit while i'm preparing for exams, and i'm sorry that i'll be gone for a little bit longer than expected. i'm also sorry to have to put go figure on pause for the time that i'm away, but i hope you all r still excited to see what comes next for our ynhoon !!

i hope to see you all soon!! feel free to pop into my asks anytime, i'll respond when i hop onto this app occasionally ^_^ <3

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[theesteemedladydebourgh]

Hey Ange, really, really excited for the next chapter. Any updates? Thanks again for writing such a beautiful fic ♥️

hi lovely! so re: updates, there's been lots happening with school recently, and I've got multiple big final exams coming up in beginning-mid May.

I really wanted to finish April before I reached those and I've been trying to do that—writing in any spare free time and going from lectures to Scrivener—but I've realized that it's just not possible to do both at once and not see a serious decline in quality on either end (and also for me not to burn out in exhaustion). Exams start in a week and a half and I'm entering intense revision mode (and there's still at least half of April left to finish), so I don't think that getting it out before is a goal I'll be able to accomplish.

The good news is, I'll be done with the semester and starting summer break as soon as I'm done with these exams! TFTDC 6 will definitely be updated by the end of May! (based on my schedule I think a good tentative date might be May 26?) I know that's a long ways away, and I'm sorry about that ❤️ BUT, really good news is that I'm off for summer after this so chapters will be a lot more frequent and I'm tentatively aiming to have the whole fic finished by the fall, but we'll see how achievable that is!

thank you all so much for reading, and in the interim time between now and Ch 6, I'll be popping on here periodically to post snippets/answer asks if anyone has any questions and theories 🥰