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rikiiverse · 1 year

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Boyfriend Jungwon - When he sees you crying

Pairing: boyfriend!jungwon x female!reader

Genre: fluff LIKE A LOT OF FLUFF

warnings: just Jungwon being a sweet af boyfriend, mentions of chubbiness and insecurities

your boyfriend Jungwon had came home from going to the store when he heard sniffling coming from your guys' room

"honey? Are you okay?" he asked gently hugging you as you cried

"I'm upset" you said as you cried he rubbed your back "What happened?" he asked gently as he led you to your bedroom and laid you down on the bed, getting in with you "Is it about the argument we had?"

you shook your head no "I feel insecure.." you said "Why love?" he asked kissing your cheek "Anything I can do to help you? Or make you feel better?" he asked, you nodded "I feel insecure cause I see so many pretty girls especially when we go out and I sometimes think that you're way out of my league.."

"You're the prettiest person in the whole damn world!" he said sitting down beside you

"No one will ever compare to you for me.." he said gently stroking the hair out of your face "I love you, and you're perfect to me"

"Really? Even if I'm chubby? Or if I'm annoying?" You asked. He chuckled softly "yes, love. I wouldn't have you any other way" he said as he cupped your face with both of his hands

"You're a beautiful work of art" he whispered "I'd never replace you for anyone"

"I'm not skinny or pretty like the other girls so thinking about it made me upset" you said, he pulled you against him, kissing the top of your head gently

"Baby" he began "no matter how you look, I wouldn't be here with you if I didn't enjoy your presence" he said as he pulled you onto his lap, stroking your hair, you could feel the love and care coming from him

"I love you, more than anything in the whole world. I never wanna lose you" you smile and snuggle close to him the tears still in your eyes

he kissed the top of your head "It breaks my heart to see you cry. I can't stand you being sad.."

"Whenever you're sad, whenever you're lonely or scared. Please come to me honey" he said softly "I'll be your rock"

"Thank you love... you're the best!" you said

he smiled softly

"I'll be your biggest fan, and number one defender. You'll never face life alone" he said softly "I'm so lucky to have you."

"I'm the luckiest to have such a sweet and handsome boyfriend like you" you told him "Aww, your gonna make me blush!" he said playfully as he looked down at you, his eyes shining with love

"I have so much love for you" he said gently stroking your cheek "I'm so grateful to have someone like you in my life"

you show him your phone, it was pictures of beautiful girls "look at how gorgeous they are.. I wonder if I'll ever be like them" he looked at the pictures "You're more beautiful than any of them." he said softly "trust me, you're the most beautiful woman in my eyes.. nothings gonna change that.. You are the most wonderful person I could ever dream of being with"

you nod and wipe your tears "that cheered me up thank you"

"No problem, love,"

"Just remember that whenever you feel down, I'll always be by your side. No matter how bad it gets, I'll always try my best to protect you" he said softly

"... I'm so lucky that I'm yours" he said softly "Can we go for ice cream?" you say pouting. He chuckled lightly, his cheeks going a tiny bit red from how adorable you were "Sure, what flavor would you like?" he asked gently "Anything for my love"

"Hmmm Mint chocolate!" you said joyfully. He smiled softly as he scooped you into his arms "I'll grab the wallet!" he said as he kissed your cheek and walked out, making sure you were nice and cozy as he got into the car and drove to the Ice cream place.

you arrived at the ice cream place and the cashier greeted you guys looking at Jungwon up and down he smiled at the cashier and gave them the money "Two of the mint chocolate, please" he turned to you, his face turning a tiny bit red as he smiled down at you, giving you a soft kiss on the cheek "You look extra beautiful today"

you were shocked when he said two mint chocolates "you're gonna eat mint chocolate too? But I thought you hated it?" he chuckled softly "I'm getting it for you" he said gently putting his hand on your cheek "You love it, so I'll buy you some" he said hugging you from behind "I want nothing more than to be by your side and see you happy" he said softly "You mean everything to me, and I don't ever wanna see you sad"

the cashier looked at you two "is she your girlfriend?" She asked

"Yes, she is!" He said excitedly as he looked down at you, his eyes shining "My number one girl!" he said as he put his arm around your waist, kissing your cheek "She's the greatest thing that's ever happened to me" the cashier looked in awe "you guys are so cute!" She said

"Akkk! You're gonna make me blush!!" He smiled "I'm just lucky to be with such a sweet girl!" The cashier smiled "It's pretty clear that you two love each other very much! I'm glad to see that some people still believe in true love" she said

you grab your ice cream and walk out eating it joyfully he looked at you happily as you walked outside and started eating your ice cream, "Awhh, you're so cute!" he said playfully as he put his arm around your waist and hugged you from behind as you ate your ice cream! "Is it good?" he asked, his voice filled with so much love! He couldn't ever let you go. You were his everything, and he promised to never leave your side.

"Here baby try some" you give him a spoon full "you'd probably say it tastes like toothpaste but I really like it!"

"Hmmm, lemme have a taste.." he said as he tried some "it's actually pretty good! I like it"

"You pick the best stuff, darling" he said as he smiled and leaned down to kiss your cheek

"You're so perfect" you giggle "you too~ i'm glad I met you" you said

"Me too, darling," he said as he kissed your cheek, "you make my day, every day"

"The minute I get to see that beautiful face, the whole world becomes a little brighter" he said softly as he kissed your forehead, just staring at you and taking it all in, "You're literally my world"

"Can I see your phone? I wanna play games" you say, you had each others Face ID and Passcode which shows how much you truly trusted each other "Sure honey!" He said excitedly he unlocked his phone and let you use it, you felt his complete and utter trust in you, and you smiled as you picked his phone up. "Take your time, and let me know if you need me okay?" he said as he watched you scroll through his phone

you scrolled through Instagram seeing his entire explore page be games and cool sports cars he has a liking for and even food he chuckled as he watched you scroll through the phone "what are you gonna play?" he asked, his voice soft with excitement as he watched you, he loved that he could trust you enough to let you use his phone to look through his pictures on Instagram, it was cute and wholesome, and he sat there and patiently waited for you to find some game you enjoyed.

"Originally I was gonna choose Subway surfers but now I wanna play temple run" you said "I used to love playing that!" he said with a smile "You have great taste, darling," he said playfully "I'll get the game up" he said as he opened the appstore and got temple run 5 minutes later the game was ready and he was handing you the phone "here you go"

"Hehe thank you!" you started playing it while snuggling close to Jungwon on the bench he smiled softly as he looked down at you, his arms wrapped around your waist. "You're so precious, you know that?" he asked softly, as he gently played with your hair, his voice so full of love and care as he looked down at you with a huge smile on his face. "Don't ever forget, I love you" he said softly "I'll always be by your side"

"Mee too~" you said "I'm so lucky" he said passionately "I just want to protect you from the whole world"

"You mean so much to me, more than anything ever has" he said softly.

"You're my world, the greatest thing in my whole life and I'll do anything for you" he said softly, his words filled with so much love "being by your side makes me the happiest guy ever."

"I'm glad we met~" you said "Me too" he whispered softly as he kissed your forehead, his voice filled with so much love and care, you never knew how much he loved you. This boy would protect you with his life and you meant the world to him. He adored you. "You deserve the world" he said softly as he lay you back on his arms, his words full of love and care, "you're perfect to me" you smiled and for the first time you pecked his lips he smiled softly as he kissed back, his touch so soft and gentle "Love you…" he whispered as he held you close to him "never forget how much I love you."

"I won't~" you said "Good," he said softly he was quiet once more, but continued to stroke your hair as he looked down at you with a look of love and adoration. He would give anything to spend the rest of his life by your side, he would do anything for you.

He just wanted you to be happy, and feel loved, he wanted you to never forget that the love he felt for you was real. and he wanted you to know you could come to him with anything and he would be ready to help you.

suddenly a girl approached you two mainly Jungwon "hi, I was wondering if I could get your number?" She said looking at Jungwon

"Uhh, I actually have a girlfriend" he said as he stared at the girl, his eyes going a tiny bit red. He didn't like that this girl was talking to him like this. What was she trying to do? He loved his girlfriend, he would never cheat on her or even try to. He'd do whatever he could to be her everything, and make her happy.

and to see someone talk to him like this hurt him. So he put his arm around you and stared at the girl, not backing down. He was ready to defend you. "I don't talk to other girls that way," he said plainly, making sure she knew where his loyalty stood.

"oh" she said he looked at you, his voice soft, "You're all I will ever need." he said as he took your hand in his, interlocking his fingers with yours. "You mean the world to me. And i'll never cheat on you" he said softly "just know that"

"You are my entire world."

"you too~" you responded he smiled softly, bringing you close to him and hugging you tightly, his voice gentle "I love you" he said as he squeezed you tight, never wanting to let go. You were his heart and soul, and he'd never let you go. "No one will ever compare to you ever" he said softly as he ran a hand through your hair gently "please believe me when I say that"

"lets head home" you tell him "Okay, let's go home, love" he said gently as he took your hand and started walking back to the the house, holding your hand gently. "Love you," he said as he kissed your hand gently. "Can I ask you something? I know it's a bit of of topic," he asked, his voice soft. "But have I always made you happy? Or do I need improve anywhere as an boyfriend?"

"you've always made me happy" you responded happily "Really?" he said, his eyes shining with joy. He was happy that he made you happy, he would do whatever he could to continue making you happy as your boyfriend. "Is there anything I can do to make you even happier?" he asked with a soft smile. He wanted the very best for you, he would do anything to make your life perfect and make you the happiest girl ever.

"you've done enough! thank you!" you say "okay" he said softly with a smile "just know that I'll always be here for you" he said, his voice quiet, loving, and calm. "You mean the absolute world to me, and I'll do everything I can to make you happy" he said with a warm smile he took your hand "I'll be there for you, in your highest highs and lowest lows. I love you"

"I love you too~"

END

I made this because I've met people in this past and even now who are super insecure about their body and I honestly feel like everyone is perfect the way they are so whether you're chubby or you're too skinny or you get shamed for anything, don't let those words get to you because you're the most beautiful person on the inside! theres no such thing as "she's perfect" because in reality we all have our flaws!!

#jungwon #jungwon fluff #enhypen #yang jungwon #oneshot #fanfiction #jungwon fanfic #fluff #insecurity #comfort

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measuringbliss · 2 years

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tagged by @headgehug !

top four albums lately... with a challenge that I added for myself... HMM!!!

I'll try to put in albums i never mentioned on here, that's the challenge!

...oh dear.

Metropolis: The Chase Suite (Special Edition) by Janelle Monae: I was aware of Monae's existence, but the first song I really paid attention to was Mushrooms & Roses. It was played in a certain Austrian fast food and I immediately loved the piece and thought I'd better listen to it without crowd noises. I added it to my playlist and that was it for a while. Then the following year (meaning, this year, right now), we got a class on Black Arts and had to do presentations. Ours is on Afrofuturism... and during my preliminary research, I found that she was linked to it. And I also recognized them as part of the cast for Glass Onion -a movie I heavily recommend. A queer artist? I had to delve into her production. So I listened to her first studio album, The ArchAndroid. I really liked it, one of the tracks (which is a reversed bit from her first EP) led me to listen to The Chase and I immediately fell in love with it. The album is short (26:13) so I recommend giving it a full listen, but otherwise, you should at least check out the Violet Stars Happy Hunting!!!/Many Moons diptych.

Halo by Hoops: The album was supposed to be released in 2020 for the band's return, but questionable stuff happened ("questionable" as in "I don't want to delve into this but you're free to Google this") and they disbanded. So technically, the album is only available as a leak. I initially only heard They Say, but the whole album keeps this shoegazy, low-fi, vaporwave, chill music. I think I heard that song in a store about two years ago, but I only just (an hour before finally making this post) listened to its corresponding album, and it's a real treat.

The Gone Girl soundtrack by Trent Reznor & Atticus Ross: It wouldn't be right if no soundtrack made the cut, now, would it? My immediate favorite aspect of the movie was its score. It's electronic, but in a chill way. The melodies are muffled, the constant parasite sounds contribute to the delicate eeriness of the atmosphere, and yet it's a delightful album I regularly come back to. The movie is naturally also a favorite of mine. Recommended: Sugar Storm, Empty Places, Just Like You, Background Noise, The Way He Looks At Me, Technically, Missing. You should actually listen to the whole album (or at least its first two thirds) as it works very cohesively, but I think the above pieces form the core of the album.

Back in Business by Eartha Kitt: For some people, Eartha Kitt was Catwoman (meow!). For other people, Eartha Kitt was Yzma - and that includes me. She actually had a song for The Emperor's New Groove, and it's a banger! So one day, I decided to give her discography a listen. Immediately enjoyed BiB. It's the kind of album you listen to in the evening, in the lounge of your spacious flat, as the window lets the summer air fill your place. I heavily recommend listening to Moon River, as well as maybe Speak Low if you want another track. But naturally, you can't discover Eartha Kitt without listening to *the* track that fueled everybody on the dancefloor, forty years ago.

tagging @frog-in-bog @sagegarnish and anybody else who wanna join in on the fun

#music #janelle monae #eartha kitt #hoops #trent reznor #atticus ross #gone girl #soundtrack #songs #pop music #electronic music #shoegaze #vaporwave #disco #queer artist #vocal jazz

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daisy-dooodles · 2 years

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About me :D

hi, hello! to start this blog off I think it would be nice to introduce myself a little, so here go a couple of basic questions about me...

What's your name? I go by Daisy in English (cause it's way cuter and easier than my original name in Polish lol and I really like flowers). But let's say my initials are MP, that's why I sign my artwork with it :D

What are your pronouns? She/Her

How old are you? I'm 22 years old, living that early 20s crisis lol

Do you have a degree in art? Nope, I went to uni for Romance Philology, cause I really enjoy languages, literature and different cultures too. But I've always liked art too as a side project!

So why this blog? Well, I don't really know what I want to do in life, so I decided to make this to start taking it more seriously as a possible actual job or just a way of having a place less chaotic than my insta to show the art I'm proud of sort of like a portfolio (and maybe even some behind the scenes I never shared...)

And what would you like to work in? I feel like a creative space would be cool. Maybe like editorial work, maybe designing stuff for books... idk, but I like the idea of being able to work on many different things instead of doing the same for years on end...

Do you do original art or fanart? Both. I have many ideas, sometimes I get obsessed with a show or something and want to try making fanart for it, but I have many original ideas too!

Is it traditional or digital art? Well, I enjoy both immensely. Because I sort of moved to Poland from Spain I don't have many of my supplies, so I'm resorting to digital more. I use the XP-Pen Deco 01 V2 tablet to draw. The program I use is Medibang Paint (and I am thinking of buying Clip Studio in the future when I have more resources at hand, cause I heard it's really good!) Unfortunately, my laptop is not great at colours, so I really like Medibang for letting me upload to the cloud and letting me deal with the colours on my phone :D (none of this is sponsored btw, I'm just sharing my experience)

How would you describe your art style? "I'm just trying" lol. I don't have one, I just try new and different things and supplies and programs as I feel like it. Many times it depends on what feeling I want the piece to have, so that makes me try and learn new techniques and I really enjoy doing that :D

Do you do commissions? Maybe a store? No, I don't. I'm not ready for something like that yet. Maybe down the line uploading stuff to pages like redbubble could be an option, I don't know much about how any of this works, I'll be figuring it out slowly

Can I message you? Please do, for anything! You wanna be mutuals and share with me silly posts or about a fandom we share? Go ahead! Do you need advice or vent to someone? DMs are open :D

What fandoms are you in? Well, I was in Sanders Sides for a long time, but I don't really go there anymore, maybe when we get more content I might just jump back in, though I still follow Thomas and check his content when I can cause I still enjoy it! I do enjoy figure skating and follow a bit on Yuzuru Hanyu, mostly Then we have my most recent fandoms I am kinda obsessed with: MDZS and BTS. Yeah, wild stuff. Have I drawn anything about them? Not yet really, I do have one MDZS sketch I'm working on, and a couple based on BTS songs, so maybe soon I'll share those here cause I feel quite proud of them so far :D I do enjoy many other series and films, but I don't think I'd be able to just list them cause it's so random. You can always ask if you need a friend to whom you get to be weird to, no judgement, we all be like that! I ranted about BTS to my bestie who knows basically nothing about them for almost a year now and they still love me nonetheless hahahah

(...yeah, so let's leave it at that for now, will update when new things pop in my head)

see you around 💜

#artists on tumblr #daisy talks #introduction #i ramble a lot #and use many parentheses #probs won't do that here as i did on insta before #it's just tiring lol #but tags are kinda fun...#we'll see what happens...

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cynfuldelights · 1 year

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Depression sucks because it makes the days that were obviously pretty good feel so washed out in hindsight. Yesterday spent my first day with a car again and did the most stuff i've done in months but i feel so lukewarm about it. Really sucks. So, in the spirit of trying to cherish what made today good, I'll list out what I did. Maybe then i'll feel a little better about it.

Getting out of my place: I've spent a lot of the past 8 months inside due to a lack of a car. Getting away from here helps me clear my mind and feel less like a layabout which is really nice.

Went driving by myself: I earnestly do like driving cars, something my internalized hatred of masc shit made hard to appreciate for a long time. Being behind the wheel again has been liberating especially since im getting over a wreck i got in last year.

Took a walk in a park: I love this little local park near by place. It has two ponds that attract lots of duckies and turtles. Summer's my favorite season so I'm really enjoying getting some sun. It helps my mood and eases the boothell of depression on my thoughts.

Went to the library: I used to go to the library a lot when I was a kid and I'm gaining a newfound appreciation for it in my adulthood. I'm currently working through Shigeru Mizuki's Showa: A History of Japan series which I stumbled across in their catalogues and I'm loving them. They also have buttloads of really recent movies on DVD, something a bit easier to deal with than trying to find a good stream or torrent of whatever movie you wanna watch.

Went bargain hunting at a game store/goodwill: At my local game store I ended up finding a 8$ used copy of Eldritch Horror (normally retails for like 50$~) and at Goodwill I found some belts and a bracelet I liked for less than 10$. I really love board games and as a goth girl I've felt ashamed at my lack of belts. So now I get to play cool games and look cool!

Hung out with my roommate: My roommate and I haven't had a lot of chances to hangout over the past while and we got to today. We chatted, watched some anime she had on dvd that we realized was by a director we really like, had a really good time. Hopefully we'll watch more tomorrow/today.

Cooked a hella good dinner: My grandmother (who i'm fighting with rn but w/e) gave us some food and ingredients this past week. I made some mac & cheese with pan fried cheddar sausage and green onion along with some spicy mixed veggies and it was bomb as hell. My gf liked it a lot and said I was really good at cooking and she has enough for lunch for a day or two. I feel really good about making her something she likes.

Watched The Menu with my gf: Sick movie. It was a suspenseful thriller with an expert grip on when to build tension and when to ease it off. It also had a lot to say about the commodification of art by the rich, the ways capitalism's addiction to consumption often tramples the values of the artist, and has really clever and subtle characterization. Anya Taylor-Joy kills it in her role and I'm in love with her outfit in the movie.

That's everything. So... yeah looking at all that it was a good day. A really good day. I think I can go to sleep a lil easier now

#self care #self love #gettin shit done #i love you #depression

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tema-makes-art-sometimes · 3 years

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Just saw your vent post and I think diving into your self indulgent stuff might help. For me personally, when working on original stuff, that's when I'll think about things like appealing to others/marketability/etc, but when it comes to fandom stuff, the only audience I care to pander to is Me, Myself, and I. Other people sometimes end up liking it, mostly it just goes ignored, maybe a like by a mutual if they see it. I prefer it this way, since worrying about appealing to more people when writing fanfic makes it feel too much like Writing I Do For Work, and I even never use betas for that same reason, it makes it feel too much like Work Writing, when fandom is Fun Writing.

I'm not sure what you do outside of fandom, but you have so much creativity, I've kinda assumed you've either been doing creative work or are studying to go into it--I can see you in a character design shop tbh, I can see Pin being a villain people would just eat up and love or love to hate.

If you're in a creative field, I feel like it's just good practice to go into Work Creative Space and Fandom Creative Space with different intents, if anything for the sake of mental health, as I've been in a very similar place, where silence on my fandom work would make me rethink what I'm doing, make me want to retcon WIPs, thinking "Maybe if I change this to that or this ship to that ship or change this character to be closer to fanon, more people will want to read/will comment/whatever".

You sound like you already very well know this isn't a healthy mindset, so I'm not going to go into that. I'll just say dive into that self indulgence, whether or not you're doing original creative work in the background as a job/part of study. You have great stuff, but audiences can get burned out just like creatives do. Sometimes it's because they're also creatives. Sometimes it's just burn out from seeing so much art/writing/media ALL THE TIME.

Something a professor told me was that if you got to go to an art museum, and you tried to really appreciate each piece, you'd end up exhausted before finishing even one section of the museum. This can lead to the 'mindless scrolling' a lot of the time. Fandom is becoming a large part of a lot of people's lives, but for most people, it's secondary or even tertiary media, and they're already putting a lot of energy into enjoying and appreciating the media they're in fandoms for. (Yes, there are some people who 'set fire to canon' and are in the center area of a fandom, but most people are closer to the sides, occasionally popping in from time to time but not setting up tents, if that makes sense.) So many of those people just don't have the energy to really get involved with a lot of media produced my fan creators, especially if they follow a lot of them and can only comment or otherwise get involved with a few posts/creators at a time. This can be what often leads to some 'visiting' the same 3-4 creators more often than they may go to another creator.

Setting up a place and waiting for more people to filter in can feel exhausting all by itself, especially when you're trying to create more to fill more of that space and hopefully entice more people to pop in and see what's going on.

When you focus on self indulgence for a while, you're not always looking at the door, since you usually don't expect people to walk in (at least, I never expect it), so when people actually do come in and tap you on the shoulder to see what you're working on and if they can see, it can really help offer that extra boost you need.

I really don't think you're doing anything wrong. A lot of artists who don't do what those "How to get more followers" tips still find an audience, sometimes due to the niche, sometimes starting out niche but expanding as more ideas get tossed in. Some artists who by the book, seem to do everything right, don't get nearly as much. There's really not a right or wrong way to create or share your creations. There are just a /lot/ of creators, so a lot of times, it boils down to how people find your door.

These are all really good points so I am going to share. Honestly a lot of my GerCanMano stuff is pure self indulgence but you're honestly right I think I'm probably gonna focus on some self indulgent shinanigans for a bit, and stop worrying as much about getting things out on time and making it perfect

but I do wanna point out this cause it hit me;

I was in school, but I never declared my major so I had to stop temporarily because I honestly don't know what major to be. There's so many things I like to do, but I don't know if I want to make a career out of them if that makes sense.

Like art, I love art and video games, I'd love to do things like animation or graphic design or be my own indie developer, but I worry if thinking about a game like a business slash whats making me money will ruin the creative process. It wont be making things for the joy of making things, it would be for my job because I had to, and idk- that just isn't as fun. Im worried about that mentality sinking in. I like them but idk if I wanna have to take them full on seriously as a career.

I'm trying to get a minimum wage job right now but its hard to find a job right now in the US job climate, especially with the fact that I have to find job willing to cater to a disability I have currently offrecord because my doctor wouldnt listen to me. Which is even harder because Ive had to walk away from jobs before because they wouldnt give me accomedations without doctors recommendation.

I am planning to set up a Etsy shop right now actually. I need to get a printer, but otherwise hopefully soon I will have a store up with stickers and preorders for keychains. One day I plan to get a button press and make my own buttons. I have hetalia merch planned, as well as my ocs. I'd love and have designs for all sorts of stuff, custom tshirt designs- like subtle hetalia fan stuff like pockets on the chest witht he character "sticking out" with familiar hetalia patterns. I have miraculous ladybug stuff planned. My friend gave me the idea of aster's heart as a friendship necklace and I love it, I could imagine all sorts of needle and thread themed pin merch I have a lot of ideas its just designing and making them and seeing if people would buy them.

I dont quite know what you mean by character design shop if thats something different or not, but yes.

Ill save a ramble about pin for a seperate post this ask is long and so is my response so Ill stop

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with-the-same-tattoos · 3 years

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Okay okay let's see here aaaaa

Howdy, I just turned 23, Nonbinary (He/She/They), and I'm 5'2". I have brown & coppery colored medium length cuuuurly hair (like holy shit dats cuuurly). I also have warm dark brown eyes. Also I'm Hispanic (but only know basic Spanish/Tex Mex slang ;3;). And I'm also on the paler side + freckles. I'm not really feminine, but I'm also not really masculine either in looks wise,, But all I know is that I can deadlift alot weight!

My interests are more in the arts/crafts, engineering, helping the community kind of work/volunteering, and nature. Also raised with alot of Hispanic/ native beliefs. I love alota stuff involving mechanical or robotics (I enjoy anything robot related either scientifically or existential story telling related); but I also have a fascination with anything aquatics, birds, and anything floral. I'm pretty goofy/cheesy, awkward, but also colorful (I love dressing in colorful clothing). Steampunk and solarpunk is so cool, and I think horror is such a great medium to express ideas.

Honestly, if we were to go on a date or even just to hang out, I would like to go on an adventure with you. To explore around the woods and forage for wild berries and plants. To take you to the beach near here and look at the colors of where the sky meets the sea. Maybe even show you the big botanical gardens to admire the native flowers in full bloom, or maybe you'd much prefer seeing an aquarium to watch the colorful tropical fish swim by. I've been to a place where you can kayak to a destination and be able to watercolor paint there while having a chance to see and even pet the wild dolphins. If anything, I would just enjoy the beauty of life in your presence ~

Also, I may be quiet (but thats because I'm reeeaaally shy) but I don't mind us just sitting together, just enjoying eachothers company ~ ♡

I'm so sorry that this is aloooott

>://0 u r shorter than me...... and strong............ got me by my weaknesses there..... fucking nice DOYA THINK U COULD LIFT ME? ouabshsk. Either way- YEAH!!!! U SEEM HELLA CHILL!!! U seem so explorative & like somrone who I wouldn't mind studying the world w :'0

I fullllon wanna hang out now. I'm especially interested in the mechanical stuff now :'00 i love the idea of robots they bring me sm joy i love the idea that were just like them but also not at all in a way that might help humans expand their minds if we just take our time to understand it & that there is more beings that could soon witness the beauty of this world iM RLY HAPPY FOR THEM

U already hella gave me the coolest hangouts/dates but YEAH, one for u too: old books store/thrift shopping books!!! I don't knlw why bu I just get the "really 80s books w faded photos of marine animals" vibes from u. Maybe we can buy some cheap animal encynclopedias and make really weird art collages 2gether :>

Describe yourself on anon and I'll say if I'd date you

#ask #anonymous #ask games

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intervital · 4 years

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#100BrightMoments On April 7th, I'm going to start #The100DayProject where you do something creative daily for 100 days. Mine will revolve around bright moments where each creation must benefit at least one individual, and they can be my(future)self. Maybe a kind letter, a favorable review, portrait, etc. Something that can brighten someone's day. It doesn't necessarily have to be finished in a single day, but much progress must be done. Me and my future self can't be the recipient more than ten times.

Here are some ideas, and I'd like to do at least 30/42. For fun, each icon is based on the previous task. I really enjoyed doodline hehe:

💡 Fan mail

💌 Zine review

(Stapler) origami

(Book corner origami on a page) mail art [small scale artwork sent via post]

(Stamp) message of hope [mail a positive art work to be hung in the store windows of The Imaginarium of L. Delaney in New Orleans]

(Hung up sign of a butterfly) bookmark

🔖 Ode

(Scribbled lines then by Eileen) junk journal [handbound notebooks composed of junk ephemera like security envelopes, flyers, receipts, greeting cards, stationery, packaging, etc]

✂️ Care package

📦 Legacy The Sketchbook Project [original & tiny sized sketchbook projects for my future children]

(Lil & big ones) Art-o-mat® - Don't Go 'Round Artless! prototype [a hand-crafted small art object sold in converted cigarette machines across the nation. Maybe tiny junk journals?]

(Wooden block with a 💜) video for future ei [message for 5 years from now, when I'm 40, after giving birth, first time I fall in love]

📽️ Prayer

🕯️Time capsule [doesn't have to be buried, but should be sealed and has a written to open date]

(Shovel) @abandonedb2dbc on instagram (my guerilla art project where I abandon (loosely) connected books, lit mags, inspired written works & small gifts. Not sure how it'll work during Covid-19, but maybe I can catch up with the blog & story I didn't do for the last one.]

(Park bench has a ribbon wrapped book with gifts and a 🌼 beside it) The World Needs More Love Letters [a global project where each month you send letters to struggling recipients who could use some light]

(A stack of 📃✉️) book review

(Five ⭐s surrounding a 📗) meal

🍽️ The Wander Society

(⭕ with a ⚡ inside) printable [I'm not a graphic design whiz but maybe I can write up some quotes in ornate boxes? Idk lol]

(Sheet with different shapes) stickers

[My 2 in 1 sprocket printing out a sticker photo] flower arrangement

💐 Journal w/ me [video of me creating journal spread]

💻 Creative prompt

(Try with scribbled lines) underrated TV show review

📺 Sci-fi short film screenplay [an outline or a few pages]

(Potted Venus flytrap) guerilla art [artwork in public, so chalk quotes, zines outside, surprise bouquets, seed bombs. can't go outside unless absolutely necessary so maybe craft some stuff for when I can]

(🗑️ Next to a 📮 with a 🌟 sticker) cairn [artful stack of rocks, usually found in parks or hikes]

(Rocks on top of each other) #messagestoc [100 different messages in a 100 places, think I'm only on 4 lol. I'll just make one and save it for later]

(📖 With a postcard inserted) portrait [can be a photo]

📸 Book dedication [pick a book I wanna gift and write something sweet on the inside front cover]

(Dear --- I love you. Eileen) Rowan Hisayao Buchanan's # tinyisolations [she gives a weekly flash fiction/small art prompt. Randomly selected winners get sent money and also choose another person or charity that could use the help]

(☁️S surrounding a hot air balloon) Spotify playlist

🎵 @thedigitalsala (Twitter & Instagram handle) contribution [virtual Filipinx lit+ festival. Maybe I can read a piece, write a recap, organize a panel, transcribe]

🛋️ Guest blog [no clue where lol but maybe it'll manifest]

{Profile pic beneath ....... Eileen Ramos is a bipolar) video of a reading [preferably of my own work. But it would be fun to read a favorite poem or passage of an underrated author]

▶️ Handlettering [my handwriting is shitty but I think it'd be fun to try to do a quote. I could use the practice lol]

(📝 With a ✒️) Kleroteria [was chosen to write an email to be sent to 10k inboxes awhile ago. I have an idea but need more info & add other stuff. At most 3k characters, no pictures, links are ok, no ads]

📬 verse.press poetry playlist [website where you can create a themed list of poems]

(V icon) column [working on a pitch for a lit website; need to streamline & narrow it down]

(Greek column) FOUND Magazine entry [found magazine collects contributions of found notes. I have something to submit but idk where I placed them. Hopefully I'll come across it]

(Found mag logo) learningtoloveyoumore.com task [70 assignments by Miranda July & Harrell Fletcher which can be take a picture of your parents kissing, write the phone call you when you could have, recreate a poster you had as a teenager, photograph a significant outfit, write down a recent argument]

#100BrightMoments #the100dayproject #100dayproject #my oh mine #to do #doodles #handwriting #list

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I don't think I'll be able to catch up with the High school AU (frickin school). Where do you advice me to start from that isn't the beginning? Basically I don't have time but I wanna read this as you upload xD

Hmm… I think where you start depends on you. I’ll summarize the whole thing for you and you can choose where to start and I’ll give you that chapter number.

Alexander has intermittent explosive disorder, which is never really specified, and moved to this school because he got kicked out of another one. He meets John, whose painting a mural on the school and wants to fight. John doesn’t and only responds when he ruins his painting, pushing him before ignoring him again. Alexander goes inside and to class, jerk tries to fight him and John stops it because it’s stupid. Alexander gets attached and follows him around until he helps him draw. Same jerk (TJeff) makes fun of John and fights him. Laf (Alexander’s brother, who just wants Alexander to not hate him) joins and they make him leave. Laf and John are friends, John comes over and Alex draws with him. Next day, John tells Alexander that he lives alone (bc its not my writing if John’s dad isn’t a homophobic, abusive, asshole) and nobody else knows. Brief cut to TJeff creeping on Laf, then back to Lams. Alex kisses John. They go to a pet store with Laf (he has a car) and get two turtles (Alex got kicked out bc he got angry bc worker said little ones don’t live, John got that one and one that he liked) and Laf gets a kitten. John joins them for dinner, Alex has trouble eating a full meal. Next morning (Sat) he makes breakfast for him and John and they shop bc John’s taking him to an art gallery. Herc has an appointment at his family’s shop with TJeff and Laf joins for support. TJeff pays to see Laf modelling his suit (Laf had the final say), then to model dresses. Herc knocks him out bc a few creepy comments, Laf takes the blame, TJeff doesn’t do anything about it. John takes Alex to art gallery, introduces him to Mads (business partner) and lets him walk around. Alex harasses auctioneer bc jealous of Mads, then is basically put in time out with John. John saves a pigeon (Alex stans birds). They go to Herc’s place and get drunk, Mullette does the do and John hates the idea. The next morning, they go to the gym and John and Herc lift while Laf and Alex watch, then they get in a boxing ring (John boxed to help with anger issues years before and is undefeated) Alex wants a try and Herc jokes, telling him to picture Jefferson, so Alex punches John in the face and they go home. Alex shows John his secret rat named Pip and makes him lunch. Smaller turtle dies and they have a mini funeral. They go to Alex’s room and talk a bit about John’s hatred of sex (not elaborated on until later) and make out, they eat dinner and sleep. Laf and Herc are on a date (Herc made Laf a dress for it)(dinner and making out in the back of an empty movie before going to Herc’s place). At night, there’s a fox and John feeds it while Alex watches in awe. At school, Jefferson helps Alex answer a question he wasn’t listening to and acts nice, but weird. John has to not be there the next day bc his triplet’s siblings bday, so Alex worries. TJeff tricks Alex into signing up for school play, Laf takes his place. Next class, TJeff tells Laf he wants Alex, Laf roasts him, TJeff calls him a whore for wearing a skirt, Laf takes it to heart and cries in the bathroom. John finds him and makes him feel better, they go eat. Herc tries to make Laf feel better, Alex gets angry because Herc should fight for him, they argue, John and Laf shut them down, Herc takes it well, Alex runs off, John chases him. Alex makes him leave (a difficult task) so he won’t accidentally hurt his feelings. His journal is missing. John finds it. TJeff read it before and tells Alex about it, saying he should have sex and that John learned how to kiss from him. Alex asks John about it. Thaurens was a thing a year ago until TJeff tried to take things too far, his dad found out and kicked him out, John cries over it and unconsciously digs his nails in his arm, leaves. Alex goes with Herc and Laf to talk, accidentally reveals that something happened and tells more so they won’t talk to John about it (it doesn’t work). Alex sneaks to John’s apartment, afraid he’ll hate him for telling everything, and spends the night cuddling with him. Next morning, Laf’s cat kills Pip, he feels awful and tells him before school (John is gone). Alex throws a fit and his phone, goes inside and has a breakdown in class. Laf has his breakdown then, before class, and Hercules comforts him before they go to class. John shows up bc Maria (his side bff) told him about Alex’s breakdown and Alex goes home bc fever. John goes with him and Martha and George, they ask him about what happened and Alex asks for John. He goes and says he was visiting a tree planted in his mom’s honor, leaves to visit his siblings after a while. Laf goes to afterschool drama and TJeff wants to do BMC and be the SQUIP, Laf suggests a vote to get on his nerves, Heathers wins. They’re paired to practice lines before auditions and TJeff threatens his relationship with Herc. They perform Blue (Laf=Veronica, TJeff=Ram and Kurt). Laf goes home and tells his parents what happened w/ Pip when they ask, they let him go to his room. He talks to Herc and goes to the gym with him. He’s bummed bc TJeff and Herc cheers him up, then takes him to McD’s for ice cream. Herc tells Laf how he had sex before he was ready with a girl in Ireland bc past Thaurens made him think about it and Laf tells him about Veronica and JD (TJeff, obviously). Herc pushes his jealousy away and takes Laf home with him, stopping by TJeffs house and honking as loud as possible before driving off as fast as possible. TJeff looks like shit in the morning and John walks with Mullette, all enjoying his misery. Alex is home sick. Laf deals with him in class alone and TJeff complains about how they made his sister stay up all night and Laf almost feels bad. He asks about Alex and messages him himself. Alex gets emotional support and Laf’s old phone from Martha, lowkey thinks TJeff is mean bc he’s like him and asks him to not be mean to Laf. TJeff kind of does and stays flirting with Alex. He makes a deal to be nice to Laf, Herc, + John if he’s “nice” back to him or else he’ll mess with John, Alex agrees to keep him safe. TJeff makes him promise to go over, Alex panics and agrees, keeping it from everyone. He cuddles John more than before, more afraid than before. In drama, they perform Dead Girl Walking and Herc accidentally sees it, keeping his jealousy to himself. They have a talk with John about his mental health and he insists he’s fine, convincing them both. Alex freaks out and goes to his room to message TJeff, John tries to help him, but Alex screams him into an anxiety attack and he has to sit in Laf’s room with Herc and Laf’s cat (Rosie). Laf gets the secret out of Alex and takes his phone, messaging TJeff, who threatens him in return. Alex freaks out and tries to get his phone back to fix it, accidentally hitting Laf in the face. Herc pulls him off and they go back to Laf’s room once he calms down, making Alex explain to John. They assure him it’ll be okay and separate. Lams talks about John’s family and makes out, John show him a drawing of him that makes him cry, and they sleep, and Mullette goes to Herc’s house bc his mom came home from Ireland. She embarrasses him as her son and Laf thinks it’s adorable. TJeff schedules an appointment at Herc’s shop for the next afternoon, they tell John and agree to keep it from Alex. They go to school and TJeff gives Alex a chance to change his mind about breaking the promise, he doesn’t and TJeff assaults John, Laf hurts him before he can hit again and he gives up, going away. Alex panics and admits what TJeff did to a teacher. TJeff asks John to make Alex come back, forcefully, then seductively, admitting that he only did everything to win him back. John goes to the office with the others and they talk to the teachers. Laf and Alex go home, George is fuming bc Alex almost let it happen, Martha calms him down, Alex tells them everything at home. Herc and John go to lunch and John says he wants to try talking to TJeff bc he apparently liked him, so he thought he’d let him off easy. TJeff sits with them bc full cafeteria and Herc goes away when John says. He offers to leave him alone if he and John get together, but John refuses. Alex talks to A. Burr bc he’s in the political society and he wants to make an art program to surprise John. He and Laf watch musicals. John goes with Herc to his shop to support him while TJeff and John Jay (his pleasant friend) look for prom tuxes. Herc tries to distract him from John, but he ignores him and asks John to model for him, same price as he paid for Laf. John agreed and tried on a few things, then Herc and JJ made TJeff leave. Herc and John have a cool bro moment, then John leaves to babysit Maria’s daughter, Susan. Alex and Laf get slushies and go to the park, Lams trading cute selfies for a bit, and John asks Alex over. They go to the car and Rosie escapes to chase a squirrel. Alex chases her up a tree and gets her. Laf calls her and she jumps back down. Alex climbs down and the tree stabs him with a branch. They go home and Laf fixes his meg before taking him and letting him hang out with John. He and Susan get along, then she goes to bed. Lams talks about their families and cry about their dead moms, then make out until Maria comes for Susan, then they go to sleep. Alex finishes his food for the first time in the morning, distracted by the excitement of meeting w/ Aaron and John’s family later. John secretly follows TJeff’s orders, wearing skinny jeans and giving Alex the cold shoulder after class. They meet in the bathroom and TJeff says John can’t say he loves Alex and he has to draw him a portrait and he’ll leave them alone for the day. John claims he didn’t hear Alex and apologizes, then turns off his phone so he doesn’t have to deal w/ TJeff. Herc finds out and makes John promise to tell Alex. Alex and Aaron meet at lunch and bring in JJ, who flirts w/ Alex bc TJeff said so. John meets with TJeff in the bathroom again and tells him his phone’s “dead”, TJeff says that he can only call Laf bitch for the day. Last period, John gets his phone and texts Alex, apologizing for acting weird, then tells TJeff to meet him to get his drawing. Alex is relieved and TJeff gets angry bc John ignored him on purpose. Lams texts cute messages and TJeff comes in, making John meet him in the bathroom. John lies to Alex and Alex finds where he is on Snapchat, planning to find and surprise him with a kiss (something John had done to him multiple times). TJeff says he’ll leave them alone if John admits he loves him and kisses him, Alex walks in and gets angry, bodyslamming TJeff to the ground. TJeff gets up and kicks him hard in the face, forgetting that John was there and being terrified when he remembered. John shoved him against the wall and held him above ground, making him promise to apologize to everyone and leave them all alone. Herc and Laf get there and TJeff apologizes, then John breaks his nose (like he did when they broke up) and they leave. John takes Alex (still dizzy from the kick) to his house and goes to TJeff’s house to tell his parents what he did. Lucy (TJeff’s sis) tells John how he actually loves him and John gets over his anger, promising to see Lucy more often before going home. His siblings are there, making friends with Alex and they watch movies and eat. Mary (youngest, cutest sis) and Alex have a cute off and Alex gets upset when Mary wins, fighting an anger spell in John’s room. He joins and makes him feel better, then they get messages from Laf and Herc, talking about a partyat his place for his mom the next night. They go back downstairs and eat and play video games, then go to bed. In the morning, rev squad texts about party and make fun of each other, Alex makes Lams breakfast and John makes everyone else breakfast, then Alex goes with Burr and JJ to a cafe to talk about art program plan (holding a freshman dance to raise money) while Laurens 1-5 go to Herc’s shop and John and Laf try on dresses. JJ invites TJeff bc he’s popular and can help. Turns out, JJ drugged Alex to get rid of him (TJeff had nothing to do w/ it), and John was furious, getting Alex and taking him to his apartment to calm down. Alex is high as hell, Burr helps clear TJeff of suspicion. Alex eventually gets to sleep and wakes up sober, goes w/ John to Herc’s for party once he makes sure Laurens 2-5 are home safe. They play a drinking game and John gets wasted, Herc does, but gets sober in shock when his mom says she’s pregnant. They sleep. John is first awake and hungover, makes breakfast and is devastated that he can’t eat bc he shovels down food and his stomach said no. Alex helps him eat and eats his breakfast, they schedule a date for that day and John wears a dress bc why not. They go to the zoo, John feeds cute animals and Alex freaks out when he takes him to the bird house (basically a huge indoor jungle w/ birds everywhere). Theodosia is talking about birds to a crowd, a homophobe makes a scene and Lams are the only ones left when it’s broken up. Theo (reveals she’s an artist) lets Alex hold her bird and he’s frozen in awe, then the bird (Peep) flies into John’s hair, then into Theo’s hair and they thank her before leaving to a pizza place, eating before heading to John’s apartment. Theo accidentally messages Burr for a ride bc Alex told him about her and they talked a bit before, he takes her home and she thanks him w/ cupcakes and showing him her art, which is great. Her asshole bf (Mark) comes home and makes Burr leave. John tells Alex about a great art show during Spring Break in SC and Alex says they can make happy new memories, just like when he was a kid. Lams watches a movie and Alex gives John a massage, then tickles him and John slips it on him, then gets up and they make dinner together, then eat and sleep. Burr, Theo, and her friends (Martha and Francis) talk about the art thing, then about how awful Mark is when Theo leaves, Burr finds out that he’s blackmailing her into staying. He messages Theo on FB with the alias “Sammie B” and they talk about meeting for the art thing, then Martha tells Burr that Mark’s blackmailing Theo with nudes she sent while drunk. Burr promises that he won’t do anything bad and talks to TJeff (he got him in contact with Theo) about everything, keeping it vague, he promises not to say a thing either. Theo messages “Sammie” in the middle of the night, afraid of being alone at home and they’re just cute. in the morning, TJeff says he got a venue for the dance, only available next Friday. Burr tells Alex and they agree that a costume party is best. At school, TJeff finds Mary wandering and tells John, who dragged JJ to the bathroom and broke his nose, only leaving bc Mary, and John takes her home. In class, the three freshman ask Laf to get them a part in Heathers and he agrees to help after hearing a sample of their voices. Theo invites Burr to watch. In the library, the girls shut down TJeff’s flirting and they all agree to a Disney theme. Alex calls John, worried bc he hasn’t answered any texts and thinks he’s hiding something, so he ditches the rest of the day and goes over, learning that John’s father was at the house and hurt him badly. He’s angry, but doesn’t do anything bc John begged him not to. Tjeff, Laf, and Burr watch the girls practice Candy Store before their audition, both performances being amazing, and they get the part. Alex is angry bc what happened and tries to hide it by making dinner while John takes a cold bath, then can’t help it and leaves w/o saying anything, leaving his cellphone. John has a panic attack when he finds out that Alex left, not being able to handle being left alone when he said he just wanted and needed him to stay, and messages Laf to come help, accidentally messaging TJeff. He comes and calls Laf when he finds out that John called him on accident, both staying. TJeff knows just how to make John feel better since he helped him when they were dating, so he lowkey implies that he should leave Alex. They stay with him until Laf accidentally brings up Alex’s phone and John panics, so he leaves to find Alex to help him feel better. He runs into Herc and they both go looking for Alex. TJeff takes John to his house ,at his request, to hang out with his sister Lucy. Laf gives up and gets Rosie to spend the night with Herc, she smells Alex and they find out he got a bus and went to the Schuyler estate, writing a detailed description of what John’s father did to him and publishing it on Facebook. They pick him up and yell at him for what he did, then take him home. Herc stays with John, nobody wanting him to stay alone, and Laf takes Alex home, taking pity on him when he starts having a panic attack. In the morning, Alex confronts John and they talk, then argue. TJeff tries to act like the hero, but John isn’t having it and has him stay out while he and Alex argue, telling him that he only forgave TJeff bc he didn’t assault him, John freaked out the second he touched him and broke his nose and he only forgave him and freaked out bc he was previously repeatedly assaulted. They kee arguing until Alex says he can just date TJeff and runs off, John chases him and they make up, skipping school. Aaron got proof that Mark was abusive and got him arrested. Theo thanks him and they admit feelings for each other, so they’re together, but no labels bc Mark scared her about it. Alex and John go grocery shopping with Susan and are very cute and eat dinner together, then they take Susan home and the day ends. The next day, they go to school and John is taken to the local police station for questioning. He lies and says nothing happens that Alex just panicked and wrote that and is let free (his friends have mixed opinions, but John has a reason). Meanwhile, Theo and Burr go to Jefferson Hall (the dance venue) to get an idea of how they’ll decorate and it’s fancy AF, then they go to Mulligan’s and pick their costumes (Theo looks like a queen). They go to Burr’s and his grandma comes and embarrasses him until they leave to take Theo to drama, where they’re getting fitted and Laf and TJeff are having a stupid (friendly) argument over wine. TJeff makes a period joke and Francis almost kicks his ass, but Laf saves him and drags him onstage for DGW Reprise. After, the girls + Laf + Burr have a sleepover at Theo’s, talking about how Martha and Francis think Herc is cute and Theo and Burr make cupcakes and Herc sends Laf sexy (not explicit) pics to embarrass him (it works) and Laf finds out he might be nonbinary. In the morning, Francis (a trans girl) cries bc she has stubble, but Laf helps her shave. That day goes by fast. Laf almost kills Herc telling him he’s his datemate now, not bf. That night, TJeff goes to John’s apartment so he and Alex can work on the dance details. He brings Lucy (who’s kind of spoiled) and she makes friends with Susan. Late at night, Alex + TJeff are lowkey cuddling in their sleep and John takes pictures, using them to make them not fight. The next morning (V day) TJeff takes Lucy to school and takes John to Mulligan’s, paying for his costume for the dance. He takes him home and John gives Alex his present (photorealistic, colored drawings) Then they make out and more. Later, TJeff comes bc John left his wallet in his car and John says he doesn’t have feelings for him, Alex knows its a lie and offers to start Jamilams. They agree and set boundaries and TJeff takes John out to Lucy’s school, he teaches an art class, then they go to TJeffs place and watch a movie, TJeff telling him about why he was so awful and desparate to get John back. They go to pick up Lucy and TJeffs moms bf talks trash about John as they leave, getting Lucy, then taking John to the apartment w/ Alex. Burrdosia has a cute date and Theo gets used to dating a decent person. Everyone working on the dance goes and decorates the hall that weekend, John hanging out w/ Laf, Lucy, Susan, and Maria. Alex is a little jealous of Thomas, but not too much. Thomas and John go on a date the next day, going to a nice restaurant, then to a movie, where John gets drunk. TJeff takes him home, does not kiss him or touch him much bc hes drunk. TJeff brings Lucy home, then goes to John, who shows him his broken rib from his father and makes him swear not to tell. They go to sleep and go to school. Laf takes the girls to get costumes after school and practice, Alex and TJeff get theirs on Wednesday. John offers to get Alexander’s costume tailored bc its too big, but TJeff stops him and does it himself. The next day, John and Laf try on their dresses (queens) and John hangs out with Thomas. At the dance, it’s great and John cries when he finds out about the surprise. He leaves to fix hsi makeup and is taken away by James Reynolds, unable to fight bc JJ spiked his drinks when he wasn’t watching. He almost raped him, but Thomas found them and stopped it, then called the police. John goes to the hospital bc drugs, not wanting anyone but TJeff there, even in the morning, when they went to the gym. Alex eventually came over and hung out with them once John was okay w/ it. Alex gets an anger spell and leaves, jealous of TJeff and sure that John would pick him over him anyday. John tries to chase him and feels heartbroken, unsure of what he did wrong, but sure that he did wrong. TJeff helps him feel better. Alex knows he fucked up, Martha helps him feel better. John doesn’t want to talk to Alex and ignores him, fighting intrusive thoughts that tried to make him hate him and staying home sick the next day, making Thomas go to school. Alex goes home and tries to make it up. Laf seeks wisdom from the kind gay (John) and finds out they’re genderflux, from agender to boy. John calls Alex over and they talk their problems out and have a movie day, Alex wrote John a long ass love letter. They have a cute night and go to school the next day, all talking about their relationship again, then go on w/ life. They watch the school do Heathers on Friday and it’s great, Next day, TJeff’s moms bf hurts Lucy and he takes her away, agreeing with his mom that he should get sole custody of her and takes her away. They go to John’s apartment and Lucy goes w/ Maria during show and during night. John gives Thomas a back massage and they do the do. Next morning, Thomas moves into the apartment next to John’s w/ Lucy, then goes to his last show. They all (Jamilams + Lucy and Susan) go grocery shopping after and deal with a homophobe, then go home and the boys eat and hang out while Maria watches the girls. That Friday, they have a threesome, then go on the trip to SC. On Sunday, John visits his moms grave. The rest of the week, John goes to his art show and has a lot of success. Then they go back. Burr got top surgery over break and Theo was worried bc she didn't know.

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