#but unfortunately tumblr sucks when it comes to posting art

[1hellofacookie]

Her job

is...

Beach?

and kissing women

kenjoy

[reilliane]

This is my personal obligatory post and apology for my poofing disappearance- if you're not up to read things like these, then feel free to scroll past! Have a good day/night!

—

the poofing, the poofed, and the un-poofing.

TLDR; Bad stuff happened for the entire past year, stopped college just a few months ago to learn the materials myself and market myself in the graphic design industry soon, and got a whole dose of religious epiphany that threw my life around. Wrote in a different account a few months ago to ease and destress without much expectation. Will continue to write albeit there won’t be many updates, had/have to drop original writing plans [right now focusing on a short story for Wanderer, though it doesn’t mean I won’t be able to write for others when I get the time]. May unfortunately discontinue ongoing AUs but will provide a summary for them [I think it’s only Tyranny-?] Will also open writing/art commissions soon, maybe set up a kofi account, but I won’t be ‘gatekeeping’ any content I plan to post. I’m thinking, if ever, it’d only be standalone specials or maybe nsfw [gosh I’m really saying that?] in kofi, buuut that’s just a maybe. Everything else is free to read of course <3 

A really detailed and long [I MEAN IT, MAYBE 1.3-.5K?? WC] exposition under the cut, but of course, it’s optional to read!

PS. I opened my drafts and had one or two finished works there, I will publish those soon. Get ready. Because they’re angst AHAAAAAAAAAA-

PPS. I won’t be able to respond to everyone’s sweet shucking messages in my inbox forgive me But know that I’M REALLY SO TOUCHED YALL I really didn’t think anyone would look for me that much 😭 Someone said I vanished like the avatar and it’s sending me crumpling to the floor.

ALRIGHT STORYTIME LET’S GO—first of all, I haven’t been on Tumblr for so long, nor have I interacted with anyone and coming back,, the web interface bamboozled me.

Anyway- the past year was roooough, like settling in and getting into college.

From the start, my brother and I have known of our depleting resources but couldn’t stop because of our mother’s insistence and my father’s very.. volatile attitude. Double the latter since he has cancer and has been nothing short of cranky and infuriated for the past years—knowing that the money is facing a downward slope because of his expensive medicines and learning that we’ll stop because of it would’ve,, been terribly bad and that's understating the nature of my headstrong, independent, and prideful father.

There were times when he was very somber about his state, but then mad—it was just a really bad time, but my brother and I finally convinced our mom that we had to stop for real a few months ago because money was just tight. Until now we’re hiding the fact from our dad that we stopped under the pretense that we’re only taking one course for the semester :v

We were very lost and torn.

I knew I had to go out and look for a job, but my brother would be doing the same, too—the thing was that we knew our mom couldn’t handle our dad being sick alone, so my brother opted to be the one to find work outside.

I’m learning materials and courses on my own at home, but finding a remote job without a degree is no doubt near unimaginable with how remote setups are almost nonexistent now. The time was just bleak at home, too, my father would ask for bad things to eat that would worsen his health and then blame it all on my mother when he felt body pains and repercussions—it was just BAD, that wasn't all of it, but I digress. Cancer sucks. 

Just a few days ago, I lost my uncle to the same thing, and now there’s an overall family dispute over who gets what and it feels like I’m living a kdrama fever dream [pls get me out hfasjdkfhdsaf]. I don’t recommend it if it’s not romance lmao.

Things were getting so out of hand and I also couldn’t get back into writing or socializing with everyone in my writing socials—but I still wanted to write without the expectation of being able to deliver as I used to. It was a de-stresser for me, so I opened a new account in ao3/quotev and wrote in.. November or December, I think. It was nice, I got to just type away and post and leave it at that.

I think one of the reasons why I didn’t go to Tumblr for that was because I knew I wouldn’t be able to commit to updates, and I love you guys, I didn’t want to say something and promise it’d be given but then nothing. I’ve done it back then and I just, don’t want to do that :(

Despite how heavy and dark the past year was, however, something really unexpected happened—okay here it goes.

As a child, I’ve been taught about Christian doctrine and was brought up to believe in the existence of a God. I didn’t have my heart in it though, of course not, how was I to believe something that I only knew because someone said it to me?? I did attend church out of duty and had a shallow fear of the greater being, but as an authentic believing person? Naw. 

Not until June at least.

I don’t know how to explain it rather I, out of the want to give my mother the chance to go somewhere she wanted to for Sunday, decided to join her for church. I was ready to just daze off and think about some solution to our problems, but then the sermon spoke to me—you know, that feeling when someone is passive-aggressively referring to you in a complaint or something?

It felt like that, only it felt like that message was something I was meant to hear, and boy I couldn’t believe it—neither did my mother [lol]. She told me how shocked she was when I listened throughout the what, an hour and a half of preaching that I usually just dismiss. 

It’s cliche, but my life really changed after that one simple Sunday.

All my tweeeeenty years of living, I’ve asked if God really is real and whatnot and I never got answered until July of 2023. What really cemented my belief in knowing that he is real, is when I decided to genuinely pray—then for seven consecutive days, the Bible would lead me to a page [like just randomly opening a part of the book after prayer] that answered my questions and/or convicted me of something. I'd wake up every day and an event would happen that would answer my confusion and I'd sit in the night thinking 'no way that just happened', but it did. Boy, when I tell you I thought I was going crazy.

Not to mention opportunities such as baptism and ministry suddenly popped my way when I only had the idea in my head and I kept it to myself. At first, I thought it was just a coincidence, but when it ‘popped up’ more than thrice in a single week, I knew it wasn’t. Think of it as like, the thing in fanfiction when it seemed like the universe was saying something to you. Yeah, I felt that for myself. Mindblowing.

I could go on and on about the other life-changing things that occurred, but this would be so long LOL.

But I never regret coming to faith and accepting Jesus for real that day, and although life is still dark for me these days, the burden feels light. It’s an amazing feeling. He's really changed everything.

I’m not going to force anyone these beliefs—I knew how it felt to be on the receiving end and it could get very annoying, rather I just spoke on it to say how wonderful it was to know him, and it would be nice to let others know about my side in case they'd also take the faith. Who knows?

Also, I think I understand what those people were saying now. Again, I won’t force anyone—just reminding and asking you to try if you want, because it’s amazing. Bombard me in my inbox if you’re interested, but no pushing here, because I’m a firm believer that things shouldn’t be forced if it’s not the right time yet. 

Anyway, that was my source of strength and hope to go through these days—and I believe it’s also the driving force that led me to write this out in.. in Tumblr of all places lol. If someone told me this would happen two years ago I'd laugh in their face 💀

Rather than just getting back into writing and opening my social circle again, there’s that bit in me that wants to say that religious epiphany. That said, I know how diverse everyone is in their beliefs so I’ll say it very tersely that, no, I will not be parading and pushing people to believe this and that—this space is, after all, my space for writing :)

Ah, and nor will I ramble about it like shuck lol, but I will, in private, when prompted. 

With that out of the way, back into writing—I was floored when I first opened Tumblr and saw all the notifications and messages about my disappearance and I could’ve cried, really. It touches me poor heart :sob: and I wanted to thank all of you for such caring messages—I wouldn’t be able to reply to all of them [there were many!

Like maybe more than fifteen or twenty, not even counting the direct messages] but know that I’m very- very grateful for every one of you.

I could crawl out of your screen and hug yall but I won’t because I can’t and it’d throw people off KJHFSADKJFHALJSKDFHA

Life is, again, still hard—and navigating it is still difficult, but I’m managing these days. I can no longer return to my usual days of sporadic updates and teasers lol, but I’m happy to say I will still be writing, though it won’t be my entire focus nowadays. When I open writing commissions for genshin and art commissions, it’d get me going, of course. 

I have to let go of most of my beloved works because I realized that sticking to them would take up most of my time when I need to be out there upskilling and taking initiative to start earning money to support the bills. I still wanted to write though, and in my downtime I even got to watching One Piece and writing a currently on-hold fanfiction for that in Ao3, but fuuully realized that, no, I’m no longer cut out for really long written stuff unless I commit to writing a long piece that would take weeks for it to be published. 

In the end I settled for a single character [wanderer bb] short story that I get into writing without much hassle, and make myself happy, still :) I have ideas for other characters, too, but getting them out to be posted would take longer than usual.

My other AUs, as well, since my focus is just.. God, life, expenses, work, then hobbies. I don’t guarantee finishing them [I think Tyranny? And others, like Smite/Mercy/etc.], but I have in mind to write a summary because I meant it back then when I said the plot was really finished. Sighgisghsighs

Opening art commissions, I’d do that soon—writing, too.

Maybe a kofi account, as well—but I won’t be having any posts I want to be posted to be locked behind some tip or pay. I’m thinking of only adding specials there, specials like, standalone oneshots from an AU, or an nsfw piece. Oh golly, writing that is so beyond me, I think that’s the only reason why if anything is going to be in kofi, it’d probably be the nsfw. I plan to keep this writing blog sfw, still. 

But we’ll,,, we’ll see [dying]

So yeah! That’s.. Everything. For the writing thing, I think I’ll technically just be .. here, lol, with a focus on that story with wanderer. Gone are the 7k worded oneshots, now we’re just around 1.5k unless I commit to the creation. The story is so fluffy too [not angst? Surprising] 

But again, I will write for others eventually—can’t say when, or how, or who, but I will in time. 

I have so many plans in my head about my life, and I’m glad to say going back to Tumblr is a check off the list. I have an original novel in mind, but would you all be interested in such a thing? I don’t honestly know—other than opening commissions, I also plan on a Youtube Channel, but that’s uncertain. A Webtoon for my original plot too is a maybe, buuuut those are just what-ifs. Time will tell!

Those are just my two cents and I don’t regret sharing that—you guys have been with me for so long, even if I don’t really know you all beyond that screen, you all really became a part of my life, too :”)) 

If you reached the end of this post, wow, I’m touched. I hope you all have a good day–oh wait, what do I say? Ah yes.

I wish you all a good mornight [fhkadjsfhiajhgf].

God bless yall sweet people. 

[johaerys-writes]

Do you block these people who spend their time complaining about TSOA, Patrochilles, Patroclus, Achilles, etc etc? Bc before I wouldn't block it unless it was a bot or really unbearable because I thought "ah unnecessary", but then I started blocking more people simply bc they frequently showed up bringing topics I didn't care about and my life on Tumblr became really great. But if you block it and it continues to appear, then idk... maybe your algorithm is simply more infernal than mine

Yeah same, I used to be really reluctant and didn't want to block anyone but honestly blocking and muting and blacklisting is the only way one can have a positive online experience imo and I suggest everyone do it! But unfortunately there are certain topics that are brought up again and again ad nauseum and Tumblr likes to throw those posts in my recommended and FYP pages for some reason, and as much as I block I can't catch everything lol! So like I often scroll in bed in the morning before getting up (bad habit lmao) and then I'll see some random post regurgitating the same tired discourse and it sucks, man! It blows!! It hurts my feelings lmao!!!! Like these are my blorbos you're talking about, be kind 😂 Some are easier to ignore than others, and like I GET that a lot of people don't have the same understanding of tsoa and the iliad and patroclus and patrochilles etc etc that I do and that’s fine, everyone's entitled to their own opinion but like...... a lot of it is based on wrong information or complete misinterpretation of the canon or someone managing to read a passage or event in the shallowest way possible and idk WHY the algorithm decides I have to read these things every few days lmao. I just think it would be sooooo much simpler if we could all enjoy the things we enjoy and not shit on what others enjoy, there is enough room for everyone and no one has to be excluded! If you love warrior Pat for instance and aren't a fan of non warrior Pat, just engage with that and hype the works that show that or better yet create your own art/writing/whatever, without trying to take those that love non warrior Pat down a peg. It's literally so unnecessary and ruins everyone's time. Especially when we're talking about characters who have been around for millennia and there are bound to be hundreds if not thousands of different versions of them. From Homer to Shakespeare to Madeline Miller to Hades game, everyone created their own versions of those characters and they're all valid and no one's worse or lesser. It's simply a matter of preference (or if you're REALLY brave and wrinkly brained you love every single one of those versions and go feral thinking about them and never know a moment of true peace LMAO)

I don’t often talk about it here bc I don't like to spread negativity or start drama or rain on anyone’s parade, and ignoring those posts is the simplest thing in the world (just keep scrolling), but like there are certain topics that keep coming up over and over and over again and I WISH ppl would see beyond that, it's literally not that hard and I promise you'll be soooo much happier for it

[kai-ni]

This is gonna be a hot ass take, but don't post art to Ao3. It's not what Ao3 is for, and it's scummy to writers who put their work out there.

And I'm not talking about fics with artwork embedded, that's fine. I'm not even talking about comics, because those involve writing and if they're ongoing I can see why they could work there. I'm talking about people that make a 'work' on Ao3 that's just an embedded image (or a collection of embedded fanart) and nothing else, 0 word count.

Ao3 is the ONLY platform FOR writers. You physically can't post longfic on twitter (I mean maybe in a bazillion tweets, but really?) buttt you can post art on twitter all you want. You can post writing on other sites like tumblr, etc (deviantart? does anyone use it anymore? you shouldn't. anyway) but that's not really what people are LOOKING for on those platforms, and writers will ALWAYS be overshadowed by artists on those platforms because art is easier to consume faster, and anyone scrolling the tags there can scroll past art, appreciate it, like/reblog it in a second rather than taking the commitment to read something (that may take hours to consume) and THEN coming back to like/reblog it/otherwise interact with it.

That's kinda just the nature of writing vs art, and it is what it is.

But people come to Ao3 SPECIFICALLY for writing. It's the ONE platform (I mean barring older stuff like ff.net that's pretty much defunct) where people go specifically looking for writing to consume.

'Okay I get it Kai, but one person putting art on Ao3 doesn't hurt anyone or take away from the writers on there, they're all... there.'

Alas, it does.

In a much smaller fandom I wrote in, one of my more successful fics was on the first page of search results for that fandom when sorted by hits (which is the most popular way to sort 'em and really the only way older fics are found), up until a popular fan artist posted a work on Ao3 that was just a collection of embedded fanart pieces (that they'd already posted on twitter and had been seen there and were very popular) and that very quickly knocked my work off the first page of hits. So, my work was seen less because that artist just decided to repost to a platform primarily for writers. Yea, you're gonna bet that upset me.

'Kai you're just jealous their art was better than your writing'

'Kay not gonna deny it probably was. But their art had already been seen/was really popular on another platform that I, as a writer, didn't even have access to. Doesn't feel great for them to come into the writer's space and also then overshadow. Because again, art is easier to consume. it's always gonna be, that's the POINT of having a site like Ao3 where writers can shine. Fine fine, call me cranky for being bumped, but I wouldn't have cared at all if it were by another fic.

'You can sort out works with 0 words you know'

Yea, sure. Does everyone just visiting Ao3 know how to do that? And again, that's not the default. If you just click on the fandom without doing anything, it doesn't.

Now imagine you're not on the first page, and still had a work in that fandom and your work was on page 10 or whatever for that fandom (again it was a small one). You're now on page 11. Very few people have the patience to search that far back, and now you aren't been seen at all because you got bumped by a popular artist. This isn't something that happens on twitter or other platforms - everyone's bound by the silly algorithm / time on twitter, and time on tumblr. it's a LEVEL playing field. it isn't really on Ao3. Yes, there's sort by 'most recent' and that's all fair, but by hits, kudos etc isn't.

So yes, when those sort functions are taken into consideration, artists posting on Ao3 really do hurt writers, and take space away from them, make smaller writers less seen, etc. It sucks.

There's plenty of other places to post your art. I know, there's fewer places to post NSFW works now and get feedback on them (unfortunately) but Ao3 doesn't even host the images anyway... you have to upload them somewhere else! there are other options. Don't take space from writers because sites like tumblr aren't good for NSFW anymore.

Again this is gonna be a super hot take, but that's how I feel and I lose respect for artists real quick when they do this. No shade, I'm not trying to call anyone out, this isn't specifically directed at anyone, just something that I've seen repeatedly and has been milling around in my head for years now. Disagree if you like, but I'm not looking to get into fights in the rbs so.

[dear-alex-chill]

An update

Lately I haven't been active and it's spanned much longer than I intended. I originally thought it was the Team Science Zine sucking up all my energy (that zine was awesome but a beast to make) but I now realize that may have been me trying to convince myself of an untrue reality. I've been exhausted all the time with no time for me. I'm also dealing with more personal issues and being in a period of transition uses a lot of spoons. Hopefully I'll resolve some issues through therapy or other means but it's a lot to balance and I don't necessarily have the resources to take on everything. Unfortunately, art and writing has taken a backseat for the time due to everything going on. It is what it is, I hope to create again one day. However, the end of DAC as an account may be nearing.

I know I've been silent/quiet for months. I know I've not finished anything. I have few WIPs but they're limited in development and not something I want to post. Overall the Dear-Alex-Chill account is fading on all fronts and I'm not sure I want it to revive. I know my stuff rarely shows up in places, in part because of the niche I drew myself into, but also a lack of relevancy in what I produce. I honestly haven't touched digital art in a while, I do miss it. However, I'm exhausted constantly or I'm under the perception I'm too busy to do it, carving time is hard right now. I am considering leaving everything up and just sorta orphaning my account, I would never delete my writing and I don't like the prospect of deleting my art, but actively maintaining a social media like that is taxing and not something I can do right now. DAC might turn into an archive of sorts and when I'm ready I'll start anew entirely with a new name and page. Or maybe I'll come back in a while ready to get going again, I'm not sure.

Some of the lack of desire to revive was a slightly toxic culture. When things blew up around me (not really at me though but like Tumblr? Yk) I felt the need to step back and a part of me just never wanted to return. Moots, I love you guys, you're the reason I stayed so long. But sometimes it's hard to want to engage in a community of people that dislike you and that you generally dislike, it's tiresome. Wacky and Sikyu especially, you guys were awesome to talk to (I'm just mentioning you two specifically because I feel really bad for leaving you guys with no context after months of hyper-dumping hcs and ideas. Anyone I've repeatedly dmed or shared my hcs with and talked to, I do miss you all. Everyone is owed an apology but that's a lot of names to write.) It's hard to stay in a place you don't want to be, especially when you feel you're leaving those close to you, but I think it's of my best interest to step away from DT and TtS/RTA.

To my followers, I'm sorry you haven't gotten what you followed for.

To the anons and haters, cool. Have fun with your lives, I believe in karma but don't act on it, it's not my job to enforce karma, that's the universe's job.

To my mutuals/friends, I haven't forgotten you all and I do think about you. It's just hard to reply or I feel bad reaching out after so much silence. Hopefully I'll be chatty again or return to some normalcy later and I'm sorry I didn't tell any of you earlier.

Overall this just serves as a message/wellness check. I'm still here, I still lurk, but I don't really know if I want to stay active. When I decide to either orphan or revive, I'll let you all know in a new post, but for now here's what's been happening. I love y'all.

See ya later.

(yes this was on insta in slides form, Tumblr hates me uploading more than 3 photos at a time)

[sapphire-weapon]

honestly i don't think the leshley/eagleone fandom is that small (and there's quite a few people in the ship's discord server, i forgot how many though). there's definitely demand for some content, but not enough supply. i find that on ao3 (but maybe i'm wrong), leon/ashley fanfiction gets hits faster than, say, cleon ff, even though they're a major ship. i'd say it all comes down to the weird shame surrounding leon/ashley: there's probably people who are interested in the ship and the content related to it, but very few people actually dare to engage with it, esp if they have aeon mutuals or if their acc is a bit too public

you know, i actually said this to someone earlier today re: the supply/demand thing. my posts don't get zero engagement; you guys are definitely out there -- and, in fact, i get more regular traffic than an aeon blog who basically does the same shit i do (ask-based meta with sprinklings of actual content here and there). and that's actually a little nuts when you think about it, considering how fucked up my schedule is and the fact that i post when the vast majority of people in US timezones are deadass asleep.

but the difference between aeon fandom and eagleone fandom is that aeon fandom has creators. we... don't, really. the reason why i'm basically the only one in the eagleone tag is because... i'm the only one making eagleone content on tumblr, currently. even people who are still making art of leon and ashley aren't tagging it as any sort of ship at all (at least, for the most part); they're just drawing leon and ashley. same thing with gif makers -- the gifs aren't being made with the ship in mind, per se.

without more creators, it doesn't really matter what we call ourselves. no creators means no content. and no content means dead tags.

i just don't know how to encourage people to create more, unfortunately. :\ i can write every damn thinkpiece in the world defending the ship and making it Feel Acceptable to people, but at the end of the day, i can't force anyone to create anything.

hell, i can't even force myself to create anything, most times. you know, i actually started a new little ficlet today at work because we were so dead that i only had two shows. do you think i'll finish it? I GUESS WE'LL FIND OUT.

it just sucks, man. it sucks to know that we're all out there, but that we're too afraid to form an actual community.

[puremadwh0rebabexxx]

About me xxx

Hey babes this is my first Tumblr post here are some cheeky things about me xxx

This page will be safe for everyone hens xxx

୨୧┇Name: Michaelmyerssectretgf (or Mikey lol)

୨୧┇Birthday: 17th October

୨୧┇Nationality: Scottish-French oui oui

୨୧┇Gender: Girl (She/her)

୨୧┇Hobbies: Making edits, Editing YT videos, Listening to music

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╰─ - ̗̀✎ My Favorite...

୨୧┇Food: Garlic bread

୨୧┇Color: Black, red, purple

୨୧┇Musicians:

Lana Del Rey

The Weeknd

Freddie Dredd

Deftones

Kali Uchis

BONES

$uicideboy$

Future

Ethel Cain

Slayyyter

Grimes

Sky Ferreria

(G)I-DLE

Chase Icon

KARD

+ Way More

୨୧┇Movies: I love horror <3

Sinister

Saw

The Black Phone

Pearl

John Wick

The Dark Knight

Terrifier 1 and 2

Shrek :)

Barbie

୨୧┇TV Shows:

Cobra Kai

Hannibal

Superstore

American Horror Story

Good Omens

A Series of unfortunate events

(I need to watch more TV Shows ngl)

୨୧┇Animal: Cats! I am a huge cat person

୨୧┇Fictional Characters:

Pearl - Pearl

Art The Clown - Terrifier

Mark Hoffman - Saw

Roman Bridger - Scream 3

Jason Carvey - Scream 6 (Deserved more screentime)

Quinn Bailey - Scream 6

Tiffany Valentine - Chucky movies

Firefly Fam - Firefly Trilogy

Aemond Targryen - House of the Dragon

Michael Myers - Halloween

Fleabag - Fleabag

Elaine Parks - The Love Witch

୨୧┇My Celebrity Crushes

Dev Patel

Tom Wlaschiha

Ethan Hawke

Mads Mikkelsen

David Howard Thornton

Pedro Pascal

Oscar Isaac

Richard Brake

Rory Culkin

Tony Revolori

+ Way more lol

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╰─ - ̗̀✎ Interests

୨୧┇Likes: Music, Cardi B doing ASMR, Writing, Cats. blocking people on Twitter, drinking lots of coffee, Nice people :), creepy things, Night time drives, Orange juice, Jeremy Fragrence, Gothic things, dollcore too, Trisha Paytas, Lidl bakery, Older men ehehheh

୨୧┇Dislikes: mean people (Aka half the ppl in my school), rain, Chocolate and fruit mixed together, Loud noises (I start crying haha), Feeling left out/Being a thirdwheel, having dry skin

୨୧┇Extra stuff: I love Hamilton :), I am a very sensitive person, I want to become an actress when I leave school, I am guilty of using Character ai 0_0, I have an obsession with orange juice, I am excited for Terrifier 3 to come out, I have never met a celebrity before :(, I am quite quiet irl, I have asthma and eczema it sucks, I collect cat figures, horror DVDs, can tabs and CDs

୨୧┇My Socials: Tiktok: Wh0reforhoffman YT: Michaelmyerssecretgf

Take care hens :)

Michaelmyerssectretgf

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[ohheyitsokay]

some incomplete, unfounded, and unpopular thoughts on the new ai announcement:

I'm choosing (maybe stupidly) to feel tentatively optimistic about it.

one of the things people who are trying to move to other platforms are quickly discovering is that the high likelihood is that many many of the other options are also likely selling your work either over the table but without clear disclosure or under the table.

unfortunately, frankly, I was operating under the assumption that some portion of my things were already being used. does that suck, in a frustrating dystopia way? yeah. but we also live in a world in which I'm acutely aware technology is advancing far faster than rules, regulations, and laws can keep up? also yeah.

secondly, I was also not surprised to hear the announcement because... we know tumblr has needed the money and has been forced to prioritize keeping the website afloat (longterm) over keeping its users happy and comfortable (shorterm). we know that businesses have never been our friend. they need the money, and I truly believe there were worse options for them to get it and worse ways for them to have screwed us over, and it wouldn't been standard to not tell us about it at all.

honestly i wish other platforms disclosed the deals and gave an opt out option. I hope this sets a president for other social media.

so glaze your art, be careful about your posts, toggle off the sharing whether or not it matters, and understand the internet has never been safe. persist anyway. enjoy creating and enjoy your friends and we'll figure it out. keep pushing and pushing for ai regulations and data selling disclosure and all that stuff - read up on it when you get the energy and don't get dragged down when there's too much to fight for. find and support people who have expertise in the areas we don't understand fully and do your best to keep plowing forward.

persist, with passion for what we create and determined optimism for what we can change and apathy for things outside of our control.

I am sure I'm making naive arguments about these things but I simply do not have the time or energy to be devastated every time a company makes a choice that knowingly or unknowingly impacts me. I've got people to love and art to make and I'm trying my best to be educated and make change but I refuse to die over it. this part is just me saying please don't come for me

tl;dr while the new ai deal is discouraging and scary, i do not think it's a catastrophe. and artists (of all kinds) have always and will always persist

[quick-catton]

Hi quick-catton!! First of all I love your page and I love your personality💕💕💕 I also LOVE Saturn and Felix and Oliver just-😫😫😫 I love it every time you post, it makes my day!! Right now I just really need your help. Today I had to go on another account just to send something to my ask box because since I started my account last year, I’ve gotten nothing and it really hurts.

I love how open and freaky you are in your posts and I’m honestly the same way with Saltburn and an anime fandom that I’ve shaped my blog around. I used to be a little calm and collected but you’re inspiring to just let go and let my freak flag fly but the problem is, with my fandom, I don’t think people are going to be very inviting. Like literally the only thing I wanna do right now is babygirl code my favorite anime character sooo badly but I’m afraid I’ll lose all my followers and when I try to I get no engagement.

Like I wrote three freaking paragraphs about how good he’d look with a navel piercing! That was this morning and I got nothing all day but four likes. No reblogs, no comments, I literally had to make another account and send myself some praise for that post just so I could post it to show people that at least someone else agrees with me.

And I know I should give it time but that’s the problem. Some of my other posts like that don’t grow. They just get five likes and that’s it and it sucks because all I wanna do is engage with people that want to see this boy in lingerie or a skirt or goddamn pregnant (told you I was a freak)

I just don’t know what to do. How do you deal that? I’m honestly this close to deleting my account coz it seems like I’m posting to a blank wall and it’s so embarrassing coz everyone can see it. Sorry this is so long! Thank you for quickcatton 💕💕

WAH ANON ur so sweet omg, thank you?? <33 honestly i feel like i don't have good advice because i only made a tumblr for the first time EVER at the beginning of january!!! i am 23 and had never set foot on this app, but i saw that most of the saltburn fandom was here, so i gave it a shot and i've just been learning as i go.

i think that's half of my 'luck' with having a good experience on this app, is that because this fandom is so fresh, it's super active, but it's also a very small fandom (relative to some others) so we're all kinda like a hivemind here LOL, and because of the source material of the movie itself being weird/freaky/psychosexual, we all know that anything goes and the more freaky the brainrot, the better! i'm in other fandoms where if i said half of the shit i say here, i'd be ostracized, so it's really a case by case basis unfortunately </3

ik i yap a lot here but i also hold back sooo much because even tho ik we're all weirdos here, i still get nervous about putting out my writing or not having people vibe with an idea– you're not alone in that, i promise. it helps forming friendships in your fandoms so you know that there'll always be people who you can get hype over ideas with, but i know that's easier said than done sometimes <3

i don't have advice on engagement because i honestly don't look at that stuff (which i know is so annoying to say lol but it's true); i made this account purely to have a place to dump brainrot/art etc and view other people's saltburn content and i didn't care about engagement, i just got lucky to meet some cool people and make close friends through it.

i think if people can tell you're having fun through your posts, they'll vibe with you! it does take time with the good ol' algorithm, i'm sure, but as long as your page brings YOU joy, that's what matters most. people don't have to agree with your takes, life is too short to be vanilla and water urself down for others :^) making fandom friends and gaining interactions will come along with being yourself, but if posting here and running the account feels more stressful to you than it is fun, it's okay to step away too!

if you're on ao3 and sites like that, leaving comments on your fave works can be a great way to get conversations going as well. i met my closest friend on here bc she stumbled across my fic on ao3 and then sent me a message; it was purely up to chance, but branching out and being brave starting conversations with your fave accounts can be a great way to feel more included in the fandoms you're in and maybe you'll meet cool people along the way!! <33

[threadsun]

Thank you for pointing out about the complaints that’s been around with the recent audio. Ngl, I too felt like some people were being self entitled and this is not the first time this has happened. 💀

Yeah, I've blocked a few blogs that generally I super don't vibe with, but unfortunately tumblr sucks so their posts still show in the tags for me :/ and like... idk there's just some people in the fandom where I see the things they say and I'm like "it's sooooo obvious you didn't actually pay attention to anything in the game and just want it all to be the game in your head and are getting upset when it's not."

I see it especially with the way people talk about Ian (especially people who seem to think he took Sunshine for granted, despite everything in the Afterlife section proving otherwise). Like they're just... idk playing an entirely different game I guess? And then getting mad about the real game? Idk how to explain it.

But yeah that's why Moon and I aren't in the patreon discord. Me especially, I'm too fighty and aggressive sometimes and I know I couldn't read the ice cold takes of some of the more active fandom members without starting an argument. I just about keep it together when I see their dumbass posts in the sdj tag, in a discord server... oof.

But yeah, there's like... a specific brand of fans in the tag who clearly feel like they should get a say in how the game goes. Which, no. That's not how it works. Artists create things and you say thank you and either engage with it or move on if it's not for you. If you're not the one giving them their full paycheque then you're not entitled to tell them how to do their work.

I think like... as a freelance content creator (I know erotica and sex work are different from game creation, but still) I know how draining and awful it feels when people who aren't buying custom content try to tell you how to do your work or complain about the things you make. As if you don't have an entire audience and can't cater to all of them all the time. I had the same annoyance when they were pressured to change all of Bo's breeding stuff to seeding instead. They were forced to remove authenticity from a character because people couldn't handle something not catering perfectly to their individual comfort.

Anyway, every time people complain like that, I just like... idk I remember that when it comes to freelancers and artists, each individual member of the audience seems to think they're the person's boss. I wish more people thought about this sort of art the way they might think about... pottery, for example. If you found someone who makes mugs, and you loved everything about the mugs except for the handles, would you really demand that they change the handles on all the mugs they sell? Or would that be a dick move? I think everyone knows the answer to that, but they can't seem to apply that to non-commissioned digital art (games/writing/etc.).

[racfoam]

Honestly everytime I went to your tumblr page you have something new posted. Like I left you for 2 hours and there'll be 3 person who asked you for a snippet and you delivered it flawlessly.. Like honey, are you REAL?? Are you actually not an AI? How can a human be this creative and fast?? It's both impressive AND concerning, like, do you get rest? Don't forget to rest hon!!😔

I'm not an AI. Trust me, no AI can do this. 😤

I'm a real person. I'm going to prove it. Here are some silly memories of kid Rac when I was just a baby capybara.

I like swimming and freediving. I learned to swim when I was 2. I have gotten bitten by a cat when I was 9 but I also took care of stray kittens at that same age 😅 I got a permanent scar on my front lower part of the leg from crashing straight into a stone veranda on rollerblades when I was 10 I think. Idk.

I watched the DH Part 2 in the theaters when I was 11 and it was the greatest cinema-going experience in my life. I always had a crush on Harry. I watched the movies too young (when I was 8) and couldn't sleep from dementors. On the graveyard Voldemort made me hold my breath for the entire 8 minutes he was on screen, that was how scared of him I was. Shipped Harmione big time, they were so cute, especially in Prisoner of Azkaban (PoA Harry is the Harry 8-year-old Rac got a crush on). I didn't read the books until I was 14 and that was only an audiobook of GoF and I only listened to the graveyard scene. But I do remember the US covers. I remember that cover art; the image of Harry, in a sort of red cloak, the background of ruins, reaching his hand out, with the orange colours around him, like a sunset, or sunrise. I remember the sharp letters of Deathly Hallows. I remember seeing Voldemort's skeletal hand right to the left. Magnificent cover.

I think that art of Harry on that cover really stayed with me. I grew up on those US covers even though I'm not from the US. All the libraries had those covers, but with translation to my country's language, even the cover itself, with the font remaining the same. I knew every cover of every book, blue for OoTP, green and purple for HBP, the GoF, too... Yeah, those are the covers I grew up on. :) They're classic.

Unfortunately, all the libraries have now sent them to the shredder because the hardcover got worn (no respect for books sometimes, ugh) and torn. They're redoing it with the newest covers now as they come out and translating those. I don't have these covers at home. I'd really like to have those, but dear Merlin, the shipping cost from US by Amazon is so expensive. I do have some of the DVD boxes from the HP movies, though, so that's great :)

I take hot chocolate as bribery. I was actually pretty tired yesterday (I took a morning shower, big mistake, showers leave me sleepy the entire day) Yes, I sleep and get enough rest 7-8 hours per day. Thank you for worrying 😭❤️ Oh, I wouldn't say all snippets are flawless, but thank you for saying so. I just like writing and sharing stuff with you guys. I’m glad to know people enjoy my writing. I am also slightly avoiding writing nynn 40 cause I feel like it sucks writing-wise.

Sending love to you, anon! ❤️❤️

[kitausuret]

I have trouble with my fanfics. I never really like them and I’m not sure if other’s enjoy them. I don’t get that many compliments or votes. What should I do? I want feedback.

Hi anon! It's always rough when you're feeling down about your writing. For that first part, unfortunately all you can really do is - you guessed it - practice. Keep writing! I know, nobody likes to hear that, but you've got to first and foremost allow yourself to write something that sucks. Just get it out onto the notebook, or word document, or whatever you use. That's always gonna be step one.

Secondly, think about what you enjoy about what you read, whether in fanfic or in other kinds of prose. What about it makes it enjoyable to you? Can you make note of anything that you can adapt into your own writing? Your old language arts and literature teachers probably had the right idea, that the best writers are also big readers. It's all about learning and adapting!

For specifically your own writing, if there's anything you're unsure of, I strongly recommend getting a beta, or at least a trusted writer friend that you can at least use as a sounding board. I personally have never used a beta, but I have people I can go to if I feel stuck on something or need to run a part by someone. Sometimes you can even find them in fandom communities!

Which then leads us to the second part of your ask - actually getting feedback. Now, I'm not sure where you post. I don't recognize the terminology of "votes", so if anyone can clue me in that might be helpful LOL. I personally do not post my fics outside of Ao3 and Tumblr. In the past I've also used FF.net and DeviantART. I have by far gotten the most feedback on Archive of Our Own, followed by fanfiction.net, but again, I don't use the latter anymore. I really like Ao3 so if you don't already, you might try posting there.

I also don't know what kind of fics you write, if it's with popular characters or a rarepair, if it's a huge fandom or a tiny one, on and on. Feel free to come off anon if you're comfortable and we can discuss this further. But I definitely collected my small handful of readers by simply being active in fandom - and by leaving feedback/communicating with other writers. I also would encourage you to look into fandom events, exchanges, Big Bangs, even just fandom weeks! There are lots of low-stress ways to almost guarantee more feedback.

Now, if you're like me, and you're literally creating the tags you want to see in the world, there may not be others that you know of yet. BUT, frequent communication and leaving feedback on works that are maybe similar to your own can help build relationships! I also love joining fandom Discords because a ton of them at least have a writing/fic channel.

Almost every single writer I've traded feedback with, I either met through commenting on multiple of their fics, finding them through fandom tags on Tumblr, or meeting them in a Discord server. Usually one of the above feeds into the other two. It's scary sometimes but putting yourself out there really does lead to more feedback and encouragement.

Finally, you have to accept that not all of your fics will take off. Even the ones you're really proud of. Hell, I just made a post about that yesterday. Typically, it's not that what you're making is bad or poorly written. Sometimes it's just niche. Sometimes it's just not what people click on when they're going through the tag. That's why it's important to, as much as you can, write for yourself.

Bottom line, keep practicing, reach out to friends for feedback, hang out with other writers, and get active! Above all, though, have fun. I know it sounds silly, but when you're doing something for free, please make sure that ultimately you're enjoying it. You have one guaranteed reader: yourself!

[kingdicemrwheezyflowertor]

Good Morning/Afternoon/Evening/Late Night Fellow Flowers!!!

Okay; For those that have followed me when this account was just Poptropica, I finally got back into it after so many months. I ended up drawing 3 things the other night that I wanna post here.

(Also just a Small side note; Yesterday was this main Tumblr Account’s 7th birthday. 7 years I had this Tumblr; Thank you all!!)

Now then! Onto the Drawings. First off; Who here remembers a story that went around on DeviantArt that was called Poptropica DRTI?

If you do; Then great! For those that don’t but/or need a refresher; I gotchu. It was a story 3 people worked on where if Poptropica had an Island that was based off of the Anime/Video game: Danganronpa. (It became 2 stories of Danganronpa Island because of the first story getting popular) It had the Villains of Poptropica be placed into this Island and basically go through what the Anime and Games went through for the first story while the Second Story had Side characters.

Lots of Emotions and lots of Blood were being shown for this Stories. The first Story is the one I remember most because of how it was with the villains of Poptropica. The one running the Island was none other than Zeus in his disguise of Dr.Jupiter. It had bizzare kills; Punishments and many times when reading the story, I have drawn fanart for the story. Their all on my DA so their old drawings and I plan to Redraw them.

ANYWAY!! Getting Side tracked! Drawings of Some Characters from the whole Poptropica DRTI story are here!

I had to look at what everyone looked like and figure out designs for some.

Personally I love how Binary Bard (In the Second picture) ended up turning out. Of course there is Crusher and Crawfish as well but still.

NEXT DRAWING!!!

Those of you who had followed me since my Poptropica days may remember I had two other OCs besides Flowertor Dangeroot. One named Lang and the other being Henry Crook. I figured it was best I brought them back too with Flowertor; Because of this I ended up remembering what I did to Henry Crook.

Henry crook lost his eyes when he was a kid to a Pirate Captain but he knew it wasn’t Crawfish. Since that day; He swore to get revenge on him so as he got older and Crawfish came to his town, He teamed up with Crawfish. Crawfish made Henry crook first Mate and looked out for him every time they would go into battle with a town or other pirates.

Soon enough; They run into the Pirate Captain that took Henry’s Eyes. A big fight occurs and it led to Henry winning against his enemy but at a cost. Unfortunately; Henry had gotten stabbed during the battle and was looking blood pretty fast.

Crawfish (Who couldn’t help Henry fight because Henry told him not to) finds Henry but sees that he’s in bad shape. He pleads and Begs for Henry to wake up but sadly to no Avail. Henry unfortunately passed away from his wounds and Crawfish didn’t have a first mate anymore. He Kept Henry’s scarf he would always wear as a way to remember him by and plans on doing something with the Scarf but for right now: It remains in Crawfish’s possession.

Here’s the Drawing before I forget!

WARNING NOW!! BLOOD AND DEATH!! (Also I’m slowly coming out of my art block so these were my starts; For those that have Commissions from me; Do not worry! I didn’t forget about you all. I will work on your commissions as soon as possible. Perks of Being an artist… not. Art block sucks!)

[monstersinthecosmos]

The only consequence of your wholesome speech about 'curating your own internet experience' and being responsible about what happens to you is that it leans towards borderline victim blaming; haters are not going to stay away once they blocked if they really have it out for you or they want to steal your content; that's entry level knowledge and the global experience with the internet as a whole summed up. Tumblr makes it very easy for anyone to repeatedly come at you no matter how many times you block them. I've had a stalker linger on my blogs even after repeatedly begging them to leave me and my friends alone. I started a new blog and this person followed me. So, tell me how is it so "safe" for anyone to self protect by mere blocking? It isn't our fault if someone makes a new blog and continues to harass us and or steal our art/gifs/content. As someone who claims to have been on Tumblr your whole life you should this all this. It is very simple to get around blocks, especially when they have back up.

These are great points, and you're not wrong, but it isn't what my post was about. I wasn't talking about your or my own safety against dangerous people in fandom, I was talking about the idea of shielding oneself from triggering or uncomfortable content.

I realize context was lost by not publishing the original ask (I thought it was a little too baity for fandom drama) but it was about *me* being the dangerous one. My point is that someone being into kinky shit that you don't like doesn't make that person dangerous, and it's everyone's responsibility to curate their dash to see content they actually want to see.

Unfortunately Tumblr does suck at keeping people safe, you're right. I've had those experiences too, and Tumblr never helped when I made reports. And my only point bringing up the bullies is the irony that I've been targeted and "outed" as a dangerous person, and I'm not, and I'm saying that people who have stalked & harassed ME have ironically tried to claim it was a moral crusade. Advice I have against that type of abuse is a different topic and one that deserves its own post to breathe, and tbh I'm not sure I'm the right person to make that post. I've tried to keep myself safe the best I can and I'm positive that if I tried to share anything helpful that I'd be read in bad faith and have more anons about how I didn't cover every person's unique situation and frankly it's fucking exhausting. There's only so much we can do when operating on Tunglr Dot Com if the TOS and moderation does not give a fuck about us, and that's not something I can fix for you.

We're having two different conversations right now and I'm sorry that my post didn't apply to your experience. I was talking about my own experience of being labeled/targeted because of how often I like to talk about Armand's asshole and I think maybe there was a miscommunication somewhere.

[daemion]

Hi! :)

I'm daemion (he/it 22) literally a cat in real life unfortunately sorry

trans (T💉since 3/21/23) and bi lol

I post art sometimes and make nonsense posts.

Name tags are exclusively my original characters. I don't tag any characters for fandoms, as I'm not really in any fandoms.

My interests/hobbies: Writing, drawing, comics/manga, and Video games (splatoon, terraria, minecraft, free mmo type games).

dni: terfs, transphobes, etc. i block people !

My projects:

+: My main project. Currently on my tenth draft of it that makes pretty significant changes to the plot, structure, and characters. It's about a group of young adults trying to find out what happened to two of their friends who went missing.

I really like + and i enjoy talking about it more than any other project. I've been working on it since late 2015 so there are a lot of different versions of it. The most important drafts (ones I talk about the most) are draft 2, 7, 8, 9 and the most current one 10. Draft 6 is also relevant because it is the worst version that has written content. Drafts 1, 3, 4, and 5 most exist as notes and art, draft 1 is entirely physical comics I drew in 2015, so I don't have much to say about them.

If you're curious about any specifics about the project, please feel free to ask questions about it! I'm currently trying to motivate myself to write out comprehensive character information and make full designs for a lot of the characters.

When talking about specific aspects of + drafts I try to tag the draft (example: draft 9 +) and any characters discussed. This is mainly for me and a lot of them are contextualized fully because they're for me, but if you wanna look you can :)

Characters: David, Chris, Valentine, Eli, Clementine, Madi, Olive, Jay, Jaxson, Evan, Vincent, Vanessa, and a few more, but the main ones you'll be hearing about on my blog are the first 5 listed.

She Saw: My comic based on an old draft of +, draft 2. A 3 and half part long story about a lesbian who finds the dead body of one of her best friend's boyfriends and gets sucked into a conflict involving that, all the while experiencing high school and seeing horrific visions. What is complete of it is posted on tumblr and DA as well as a few other comic sites? I believe. If you're interested its @shesawcomic, I haven't worked on completing it since 2019.

If your curious about the + connection, every character in She Saw has a direct analog in draft 2 + character. The main character, who's name isn't revealed until the end of the current part, is Veronica (now Madi) from +, Faith is Valentine, the unnamed boy is Daemion (now David), Terrance is Chris (arguably also Eli, they are interchangeable in draft 2), Mary is Mary, Kate is Kathy. There was an additional character who was not revealed at the time I stopped writing, and was the only character without a + analog, though her situation could be based on a number of characters I've written before. Everything I write is derivative of itself.

Characters: Her (shesaw), him (shesaw), Terrance, Faith, Mary, Kate. (All of them got finished refs this summer :D)

WWW: New project. A comic based on an old draft of +, draft 2, 3, and 4. Unlike She Saw, which sought to recreate the high school segment of draft 2 (a, if I am remembering correctly, 16 page long section) WWW seeks to replicate and add on to the main plot of draft 2, taking into consideration traits added to the characters after that draft. The comic is about Cici who lives in the middle of nowhere on a dairy farm separated from the rest of society until a woman named Juliet comes and helps him escape. Juliet, a woman obsessed with obscure religious groups, practices, and magic, convinces Cici help her work towards her goal of achieving immortality. Unfortunately, when they do achieve something, it's not a glamorous as Juliet described it to be. - WWW is an abbreviation of a test/temporary name that might not stick.

Similar to She Saw, WWW characters also has connections to + characters, but they're really obvious in my mind so i'm just choosing to have that be a funny thing that people who know + characters would notice.

Characters: Cici, Juliet, Sammy.

Seagull: Another newer project. A comic/short story about a half wolf half human man who's sent to work and live on a "lighthouse" in the middle of the ocean to keep watch for "something in the water". He quickly discovers that his lighthouse has attracted a strange angel that resembles the seagulls.

Characters: Jupiter, Seagull (haven't named him yet), Coral

For the 3 projects that are not + listed above, I'm happy to answer any questions! WWW is my main focus aside from +, She Saw is in limbo, and Seagull is kind of a side project.

[queenimmadolla]

I just scrolled through oneforthemoneys posts and holy shit what a mess. I didnt even read it all. I just started writing fics so i have no hate yet. I know its probably easier said than done but can't writers just ignore or block these haters? I cant imagine entertaining these hateful anons to where it drives you out of something you like doing. I understand the idea of protecting your peace but maybe that should start by not even giving them a chance. Writers dont have to answer those dickhead asks. Please keep your peace. You dont owe jack shit to those assholes. You dont even have to explain yourself. I guess i'm just at that age (38 🤫) where im gunna do what i want, when i want, for how long i want. I dont give a shit if u think im too old for fan fics, or if this is cringe. Ya know what i mean? I feel people are so concerned about what other people do. If u dont like something then mind ya fucken business and move on. Go find something that makes u happy. Do i make sense?

Anyway i finally saw the little mermaid today with my kids and i thought of you. (didnt finish it tho cuz these kids wanted to watch minecraft shit.)

Oh, man. How I wish. Trust me when I say EVERYONE starts off with this mindset, everyone comes in here with shields and armor (which is fucked out to have to do in the first place but that’s tumblr) and a headstrong determination to do what you want and ignore the haters. That mindset can last A WHILE, but it does cave, you lose the shield and armor piece by piece and eventually you just stop caring for it, it’s not worth your mental and emotional heath. It goes far beyond anon hate, and unfortunately I suspect you’ll discover that the longer you’re here. It’s pretty sucky as reader, but it’s pretty fucking garbage as a writer, because you see more, are exposed to more and are also more exposed, yourself. It’s like chalk art, you spend all your time crafting beautiful art and someone comes along, intentionally scuffs as much of it away or washes it away. It sucks when you yourself have to wash it away, pick up your supplies and leave the area.

I really hope your experience as a writer, in particular, is better though. I truly hope you can prosper here.

And omg, that makes me so happy! Was my doppelgänger amazing or was she amazing???