#but we won’t be close

[sun-lit-goth]

I got big romantic and platonic turn offs that I shouldn’t shame myself for cause it truthfully bites me in and around the ass later

[stuckinapril]

how are you so in love with yourself...this is not me accusing you of narcissism or smth i genuinely am in awe of how much you seem to like yourself and be in love with yourself and I try so hard to be like you and do that too but i fail every single time...i really really want to know how I could be like this too because i know it is one of the biggest things stopping me from achieving happiness

Not sure if this is a ubiquitous experience, but for me personally affirmations can only go so far. There’s always been a direct correlation between me doing action-based things and my self-esteem increasing, so I try to keep my promises to myself (study at x time, work out at y time, just doing whatever I need to do even if I don’t have the motivation for it). Someone told me that self-esteem comes w doing esteemable things, and I’ve never forgotten that since. What someone thinks about me (including the gargoyle voice in my head lol) won’t faze me if I have tangible accomplishments under my belt I can refer back to on bad days

[emry-stars-art]

Find the mer au masterpost here 💕

[titsthedamnseason]

it’s finally time for paris n1 YIPEEEEEE!!! it’s our first eras tour date after a mini break AND since the release of the tortured poets department 😱 anything could happen…..so please leave your guesses for surprise songs in the tags / replies and i will be giving all of our winners a shoutout 😊 and psssssst as always if you have any guesses about things she might change up for this leg of tour those guesses are always welcome too

i’m going to guess that she adds a ttpd set to the setlist and that the surprise songs will be paris / so high school mashup and clara bow (??? feels like a mistake to not pull a guess from the anthology but this is what my gut is saying. or fresh out the slammer)

[pixlokita]

I feel like ? I gotta remind people it’s ok to unfollow a blog when it upsets you in any way >> like if I ever do that sure, you can let me know if it was anything I did personally I’d appreciate it but if you just don’t enjoy something it’s ok to unfollow ;w; can’t stress enough how important it is to put your mental health first 👌

[plaid-maniac]

Do you ever think about how there totally could have been an old classmate of Phoenix Wright and Miles Edgeworth in the audience during like turnabout sister or turnabout samurai. Do you think they would realize? Like “hey, were those the guys in my class in like fourth grade? I kinda remember them. Wonder if they remember each other. But it was so long ago, I doubt they would even care.” Meanwhile Edgeworth and Phoenix are undergoing the most insane mental battles where both of them are going “I recognize my best friend across the courtroom and I desperately want to be close with them again.” And “god he is so god damn annoying I wish he would die already.”

[dramaism]

Can you see the mark from where you are at? I can definitely see it. But I doubt you will be this up-close with someone often. Just be careful when you kiss someone.

[xbraveheartx]

To add onto this post you also realize just how… abrupt life at the Monad Charity House started for Carlo? He says “I don’t wanna be here! How many sleeps til daddy gets back? 10 sleeps? 20??” and he’s whining like he really didn’t plan to be there at all.

The girl (pretty sure it’s Sophia) tries reassuring him and calming him and introduces him to Romeo. But you can tell just the entire experience was this… unwanted… unexpected… thing? Like Geppetto just one day packed his bags and dropped him off and never even said when he’d come back. That’s awful, as a kid. The feeling of abandonment must have been so hard.

No wonder he just glares at the painting made of him. He never wanted to be there. He didn’t ask to become a student there.

He just wanted to be with his father.

[sotangledupinit]

i will avenge you

[i-love-def-leppard]

just received heart shattered news and now have to pull myself together and go to work in an hour..

[vampyrsm]

feel like a fugitive hiding in my bedroom holding my door closed so that the gas man can’t see we’ve cut a huge hole in the ceiling of the house that doesn’t belong to us 🫶🏻

[supervisormeero]

Sometimes I think about how wild the workplace gossip at the ISB must be just, like, in general? Because sure, they’re ISB, but they’re human. You know they’re gossiping.

You know those immaculate white-gray halls have heard their fair share about who’s done what for whom to earn which promotion, and who’s having an affair, and who Partagaz’s favorites are even though they really don’t deserve it but I do and here’s why, and who goes out for drinks a little too frequently after work, and who has a stim pill problem. They’re being Imperial-uptight about it and everyone pretends it’s not happening because it’s not professional, but they are gossiping. You can’t sit around a table of people with whom you’re in direct, cutthroat competition every single day, suspicion boiling in every cold gaze, and not.

[newsiesreference]

[yamameta-inc]

More than any other potential effect of Covid, more than blood clotting and POTS and strokes and lymphocytopenia, this is what I’m most afraid of.

It’ll be impossible for us to understand the true magnitude of this until decades later, by which point it’ll be too late to do anything for far too many people.

[marrfixated]

(More thoughts and drafting! Some weird formatting I know but it was all one block in my notes)

Emma is doing just fine. Average. It’s really not so bad.

She’s just been dealing with a lot of change. And with too many things not changing.

Which is… an odd thing to struggle with.

Because she likes hange. Daunting challenges. The unpredictable. Doing new things every day and never being scared of them. And she likes independence.

She had thought so, at least.

After the show, she had been hit in the face with just how… isolated she was. She had only had two friends before the first season, but she had left them behind. Her mother wasn’t doing the best, and she didn’t have any nearby family.

She found herself laying in her bed in the middle of the day most of the time, scrolling through her contacts and old conversations.

Or scrolling through her comments on TikTok.

A few weeks ago, she had tried some stunt involving a motorcycle and an inflatable pool. She probably wouldn’t have messed it up if her hands weren’t trembling.

(She had forgot to check the breaks, and wasn’t sure if they were working.)

(They were.)

The blood dripping down her face and the gash in her lip didn’t sting as much as it did watching the video.

She looked ridiculous, and she probably always did. It was better when she had someone else to do it with. Maybe she was losing her touch.

She didn’t post the video.

She turned back to dancing instead, which did feel less embarassing, despite the constant mocking feedback. Sure, the jokes were “funny”, but she didn’t care about any of it. She didn’t feel the rush, she wasn’t planning every day, and she wasn’t known or loved for anything.

Except for what she lost.

And, the show, to an extent.

-Ugh, she misses the show. She shouldn’t, but as stupid as it sounds, she missed doing crazy things and talking to people. Having a chance of winning. Beating everyone. Being cheered on. It wasn’t always great, but at least it was something. She misses doing something.

And she really misses Bowie. She missed Bowie, but she knows better than anyone that she can’t go back to that. They just- have better things to do now. He probably does.

He’s got Raj- which is great! And she’s happy for him! She’s happy for everyone. For Wayne, however he’s doing, for Julia, despite everything.

And Caleb. For having Priya.

Emma is jealous that Bowie gets to have someone.

Emma is jealous that everyone else gets to have someone.

Emma is jealous that, unlike everyone else, winning the show probably wouldn’t have made her any happier.

She isn’t sure what would.

[emblazons]

Me watching the squad have ship wars in fandoms im only tangential to, but know enough about from said squad to have a (likely half-baked) opinion on: