#but..

[impulsivexcreator]

Alright, everyone.

I never thought it would come down to this, ever.

But.

I was told I needed one of these by a couple people.

So here it is.

One note on this post is One day I have to stay alive, and promise to not cut myself.

[yoongight]

[heritageposts]

i got some asks about the shade of blue used in the oppa homeless style screenshot (#2c4762), and i tried to carbon date it using some posts from my own cursed archive

[mr-k-a-m-i-g-a-k-a-r-i]

“poke”

[incorrect-musketeers]

Athos: All in all, a 100% successful mission

Porthos & D’Artagnan: But we lost Aramis!!

Athos: All in all, a 100% successful mission

[monkiinart]

wip. the POTENTIAL of this ship is immaculate

[astrobabeyyy]

i am,, almost out of uwu's to give,,, first, travis took them,,, then,, wilbur took them,, and now,,, schlatt took them,,

i am,, almost out,, how and where do i restock on uwu's

[vinbitism]

do you guys even still like these

[707morelikebreakmyheart]

aahhh this request hit too close to home for me and it was really soothing to write about for some strange reason. i know how hard it is to come to terms with your body and how even harder it is to present yourself at such a vulnerable state in front of someone you love but i promise it's okay! you're all gonna be okay and one day, one day i promise you're not gonna hate your body as much as you do now. please believe me! anyways i hope you enjoy this!

(i’ll be sure to do v & saeran soon enough, i’m still working on theirs since i put a lot of more detail into them, i hopw you understand!)

YOOSUNG: -sex was the last thing on his mind within your relationship -alright, that was a bit of a stretch but it wasn't something he was constantly thinking about 24/7 -just to be near you, hearing your beautiful laugh and watching your smiling face was enough -and the way you always presented yourself so confidently made him so very happy and gave his self esteem a boost as well -to be honest he was afraid of asking you about sex so early into your relationship because he'd thought you wouldn't want to be with someone as unmanly as him who had 0 experience in the bedroom -you were so very beautiful and so good with people, the fact you chose him was enough to satisfy even the deepest of desires burning within his heart -that was until one day your cute make out session turned hot and frisky all too soon -he hesitated at first but soon he was groping you all over and started to hike up the shirt you were wearing, which soon caused you to suddenly pull back, the red dusting your cheeks and the lust twinkling within your eyes soon disappearing in mere seconds -yoosung felt a throb of disappointment pound against his ribs as he put distance in between the both of you, now trying to hide his erection into the elastic of his boxers as he cleared his throat awkwardly -"i'm sorry mc, i didn't mean to rush into things. i understand you don't wanna have sex with someone like me-" -before he could even continue he felt a hard slap on his face which caused him to let out a high pitched yelp as he looked over at your teary eyed expression -"you idiot yoosung. it's not you, it's me." -what?? -"i just don't want you to be disgusted by me when we make love. i'm afraid you'll leave me if you see what's underneath. i'm so pathetic huh? i'm so sorry." you croaked out, sniffling slightly as you wiped at your eyes -suddenly you felt the world beneath you disappear and opened your eyes to find yourself on your back, pressed up against the sofa as yoosung laid above you, supporting his weight on his hands that were on either side of your head -"don't you ever say that i'll be disgusted by you. you're the most beautiful person i've ever seen in my entire life honey. you're so confident and brave and you always know what to say and the way you smile at me and help me with so much is amazing. i love you mc, i love you i love you i love you! i'll say it for the whole world to hear! i don't care what you say about yourself you are the sexiest person i know. the way you glance at me is enough to get me going. the chance to see what's underneath would only heighten that sensation. please, please give me the chance to let you know what i really think about your beautiful body and face and everything else. i'm afraid too but i know we can get through this together, and i'll try my best to make sure we both enjoy it. so please-" -before he could continue on with his babbling you wrapped your arms around his neck and brought him down on top of you, now resuming the make out session that you had interrupted -though you were both hesitant you somehow made it to the bedroom -where yoosung tried his best to please you while also letting you know that you were the most beautiful person he knew every second he got the chance -though it was embarrassing to admit it, the morning after it all you did feel a little more beautiful -it was just a small change but one that made your heart soar just as much as seeing yoosung pressed up against you did <3

ZEN: -ok so zen had a perfect body -of course you would feel self conscious at the idea of having sex with someone who called himself 'god's mistake' -he never bothered you with the idea of sexual interocurse though -no matter how many times he teased you about the beast if he even noticed a slight uncomfortable feature on your face he would back off -you were grateful since you weren't all too confident about your body and it was nice to have time to think about if you really wanted to have sex with zen -(which you did) -zen would never admit it but at times he felt as though he was gonna burst -your cute little face and confidence was just too much for him and the beast to handle -he had spent too many nights out of the week in the bathroom, with a picture of you in his left hand and his pants pulled down to his ankles -after a few months of dating you two were pretty far into your relationship and had only had frisky make-out sessions that led you to having stop halfway through and zen having to take a very very very cold shower afterwards -after a while you decided that you were gonna give yourself to zen because he had stuck by your side even after you constantly pushing him away -so while you two were watching movies and cuddling you made your first move -you were sprawled out on top of him, with your legs tucked neatly to the side of him -you gently put your right knee in between his legs, making sure it rode up near his crotch as you snuggled deeper into his chest -he let out a short little awkward cough and adjusted himself so that your knee wasn’t that close to his crotch -you kept furthering your knee closer and closer when he suddenly jumped back, face flushed red as he sputtered out some excuse about having to go rehearse -suddenly you felt a strong wave of sadness hit you, as your self-doubt and worries consumed your entire being -“of course you wouldn’t want to have sex with me, how could i have been so stupid.” you whispered quietly as you got up from the sofa and made your way to the front door, tears running down your face as you suddenly felt a hand yank you back and then you were sobbing into zen’s chest while trying to pull away -“you’re wrong.” he said in a bittersweet tone as he pulled you back to look at your tear-stained face -“i want nothing more than to make love to you, mc. i just don’t want you to have to force yourself to do anything to please me. how could you ever think i wouldn’t want you babe? you’re so beautiful and confident and god that little smile you always do with your tongue sticking out is the only thing i need. you’re so gorgeous mc, if you’re really ready for me, then please allow me to ravish you and make you my own.” he said in a desperate tone as you cocked your head to look up at him -your eyes were all glossy because of the tears and your mouth was a agape with your eyebrows knitted together -the expression alone was enough to get zen going, and the second you nodded to give him permission he had you on your shared bed, him kissing your neck as you let out high pitched keens at his fast paced movements -after a night of him constantly whispering how much he loved you and your body you felt better, much better -zen loved you and though your insecurities were still there it helped to have him there was well, your own knight in shining armor JAEHEE -after a few years into your ‘partnership’ you and jaehee began officially dating -you were over the moon to be with such a pretty girl like herself -jaehee was just so very beautiful to look at, you loved her beyond words and to now be with someone like her was both amazing and surprisingly sort of sad -you were nothing compared to her -you believed that you lacked everything that she had. -maturity, grace, beauty, and overall everything -it hurt to stand back behind the counter of your shared cafe and watch jaehee receive countless date offers while the most you got at times were people asking about your ‘friend’ -despite the fact it hurt a little to not feel worthy you kept it hidden perfectly, your boisterous and loud nature and confidence being a perfect concealment to your true feelings -things only started going more and more downhill when things in your relationship started getting a bit friskier -jaehee would kiss you for longer and grab your waist a little tighter while you two cuddled -it was hard to ignore the signs that maybe she wanted to move forward in your relationship but you tried your best to pretend they weren’t there -so for a few weeks you ignored her longing gazes and soft touches on your body that left your face a bright flush of red -it wasn’t until one day when you mindlessly stopped her hand from stroking your cheek while you two watched a movie that she broke -she suddenly sat up from her previous laid down position and forced you to sit up as well, now staring at you with a mix of a hurt and determined expression -“what’s wrong?” she had asked in a shaky tone which made your heart drop all the way down to your feet -“what do you mean?” you asked, feigning innocence as you unconsciously fiddled with your fingers -she let out a heavy sigh as she looked down for a moment, as if trying to find a way to convey her feelings properly -“why, why don’t you touch me?” she said, eyebrows knitted together tightly in a worried expression as she reached for your hand which you yanked back in a swift movement -jaehee went silent, only staring at your pulled back arm as she pulled her lips into a tight line and stayed silent -“i, i don’t want to disappoint you.” you croaked out -“i don’t want you to look at what’s underneath my clothes and realize that maybe you don’t love me. it’s hard trying to give myself up to someone so pretty when i’m so bland and boring myself. i just didn’t think i was worthy enough to be with you jaehee. i mean, look at me, i’m just some average-“ -before you could go any further jaehee lunged herself at you, wrapping her arms around your torso as she pulled you close to the crook of her neck, in which you silently sobbed as she rubbed your back -“don’t be silly mc, you are the most gorgeous person i know. your cute smile and personality are worth more than any of the most beautiful people in the world. you mean so much to me and if you feel like i’m pressuring you into making love i’m sorry, i was just so excited to get the chance to get even closer to you. i admit that i’m rather surprised that someone as confident and adorable as you is self-conscious though. i promise you don’t have to be afraid though, you’re just as beautiful as me if not even more. i love you mc, i really do.” -with that little speech you cried even more and next thing you know you and jaehee were in your shared bedroom with both of you shyly stripping away pieces of clothing one by one until you were in the nude -after a while of awkward touches and exchange of words you two had a wonderful night of getting even closer -the morning after in which jaehee was cuddled lazily into your side and you were still butt-naked under the sheets was so wonderful -to be next to someone so beautiful while feeling somewhat beautiful yourself was an amazing feeling, one that you would feel constantly from now on -because jaehee would never let you feel self-doubt about your body ever again, for the rest of your life together JUMIN: -jumin and the idea of sex never really came up a lot -sure he would make remarks about wanting to ravish you here and there but he waited patiently for your wedding night to be able to do so -after a few months of being happily engaged came the day in which you two would get married -you were beyond nervous, and it wasn’t because of anything that had to do with jumin but rather yourself -you were marrying the jumin han -a gorgeous corporate heir who had billions to his name, with a long string of woman still trailing after him despite the fact you were constantly being introduced as his ‘loving fiancée’ -it just didn’t feel right to take such a wonderful man out of the world and make him your own -it was selfish, that’s what it was -to make matters even worse you were afraid of what was to come at the end of your wedding day -you two would make love for the first time and you weren’t prepared for that -you felt so unattractive next to jumin, nothing but an average looking everyday person -despite the fact your doubts were eating you alive you went through your wedding day smoothly -only choking up when jumin read his vows to you, and then on the kiss -it was a sweet and small ceremony, one that made you feel the luckiest person in the entire world -to be in justin's life, to be known as his partner was all that you had wanted and more -so why did you feel so icky? -in every reflective object within the area of your wedding you would catch your reflection and feel your heart drop, little by little through the course of the entire day -you didn’t look like you belonged, despite the fact it was your wedding day -maybe it was how poorly your hair had been done, or maybe how much you were slouching, or- -before you could continue on your silent rambles of self-doubt jumin snapped you out of it -“my love, our limousine is here to take us to the hotel room. i can’t imagine how tired you must feel so i suggest we go as of now so you can get some rest, and so we can spend a little bit more time together before the end of this beautiful day.” -your heart fluttered at his words and you simply nodded, now saying goodbye to everyone who came as you stepped inside the car and soon arrived at the hotel -after a few silent minutes of you two settling into your hotel room you finally took a look into your surroundings -the lights were dimmed and there were rose petals scattered everywhere in the room, some shaped a heart on top of the king sized white bed -before you could even process it all you felt jumin suddenly hug you from behind, his grip around your waist tightening slightly as he made his way to the bed you were staring at just a moment ago -he was kissing your neck and you accepted them graciously, tugging at his tie as a way to distract yourself from the million and one doubts digging at your gut sharply -when he made his way to undo your top is when everything came crashing down -you pulled yourself away from him and let the tears that had been building up fall, one by one until you were a sobbing mess -jumin pulled back, fear and confusion shining in his grey orbs as he tried his best to calm you down -“what’s wrong mc? i’m so sorry i didn’t even ask for your permission i just assumed since-“ -“it’s not your fault.” you whispered out hoarsely as you looked up to meet his scared face, you felt the final pieces of your heart crumble as you noticed how glossy his eyes were -he was on the verge of tears -“i’m so sorry jumin. it’s not you i swear it’s just, just my body i don’t want you to be disgusted i don’t want you to be disappointed. god you’ve had such beautiful woman come up to you and offer you so much and yet you’ve still stayed with me and i appreciate that so much but i just know that i’m not meant for someone as beautiful as you.” you blubbered out, more tears pouring down your face by the second -“why would you ever think that about yourself?” jumin asked in a shaky tone as his sadness and confusion quickly bubbled into anger -“mc listen to me, and listen to me closely. you are the most beautiful person i have ever come across in my 28 years of life. your smile your hair god even your morning breath are all so very lovely. the women who’ve come up to me have all been nothing but ugly, on the inside. despite the fact they may be what you call ‘beautiful’ on the outside their radiance is outshone by the fact they are nothing but greedy gold diggers. my love, your radiance of how good of a person you are on the inside and out shines so brightly and enhances your beauty a thousand times and more. god mc i love you and want nothing more than to make you mine, please give yourself to me and realize your confidence and everything else that about you is so very beautiful. i love you.” -fUCK you wanted to cry at how sweet his words but instead you silently nodded, tears pouring down your face one by one as you let out a small laugh and nodded to which jumin took the opportunity to laugh as well, soon connecting his lips with yours -after a wonderful night of a dozen promises and love making you woke up to find your heart still fluttering -your confidence was now even bigger than it had been before, because now you had the most beautiful and encouraging man besides you to tell you that you were worth something every day -what else could you have wanted more than that? SAEYOUNG/707 -holy shit this kid was already on top of you since day one of your relationship but when you pushed him away even just a tiny bit he would immediately back off, apologizing if he was coming off too strong -after a few months of being a couple you realized he was getting more and more antsy, he would avoid you and try to not to get too close to you -even when you cuddled he made sure his arm was lazily laid across your waist rather than wrapped around it tightly like it usually was -you were confused and also afraid, had you done something wrong?? -you both seemed so happy and now it all seemed to be going to shit -was he pushing you away again? -you couldn’t even let yourself relax for a single day with the one thousand and one thoughts that ran through your head every minute of every hour of every day -after another night of your poor excuse of cuddles and a shitty rom-com you decided you were finally going to confront him about all your feelings -before he could run back into his office and continue working you grabbed his hand and pulled him back, now looking up at him with determination in your eyes -“what’s wrong?” you asked, voice shaky as you gripped his hand a little -“what do you mean?” he asked in a bland tone, a stoic expression plastered on his face -“you’ve been ignoring me.” you said, trying not to let your voice crumble any further than it already was -“i know i have. isn’t that what you wanted?” he asked, voice remaining stoic but his eyes gleamed with pain and a sense of uncertainty -“what are you talking about saeyoung?” -“every time i try to touch you you walk away. at first i thought you needed time or that you just didn’t want to have sex overall and i was okay with it until you just started leaving me hanging. you didn’t even say anything and it’s hard to control myself around someone like you who’s so vague about what they want. just please let me know if it’s me or you or whatever the hell because i’m tired of pretending i don’t wanna hold you tightly and love you as much as i can.” he stated. -you felt your stomach drop and a lump from in your throat -“of course it’s not you saeyoung, it’s me.” you stated, the lump in your throat getting bigger and bigger every passing second as you felt your gut clench with every word you let out -“so you don’t want to have sex? because if not that’s fine i just want to know what you want.” he stated, reaching out to you slightly as you pulled back harshly which caused his face to fall -“i do but i don’t! i don’t want you to see what’s underneath and realize you could do so much better and it sucks to have zero confidence within myself enough to have sex with you. god saeyoung i love you so much but i want to keep being selfish a little bit longer and not let you see the dirty truth of what’s underneath. i want you to keep loving me, for who i am on the inside. i, i want to keep loving you, for as long as i can.” you said sadly, as tears fell from your eyes one by one as you felt saeyoung crush you with a hug, he remained silent as he stroked your head as you clutched his hoodie -“you’re so silly mc, i’ll keep loving you even if you turn into a 50 foot fire breathing dragon. as long as you’re still mc i’ll love you. i want you mc, i want every single part of you that you’re willing to give me.” he whispered, the last part a little huskier than the rest as he gripped at your waist suddenly. -“please let me be selfish.” he said, tipping your face up to meet his glazed honey hues -“okay, be selfish.” you whispered as you felt the floor from underneath you disappear and before you knew it you were on the bed, with saeyoung laughing slightly as he attacked you with kisses -“i promise i’ll make this the best night of your life mc!” -“sAEYOUNG I LOVE YOU BUT PLEASE STOP KISSING MY NECK IT TICKLES-“ -after a strange but nice night of lovemaking you woke up to saeyoung clinging onto your waist and a strong need to pee -despite how uncomfortable you were you stayed within saeyoung's arm, your heart fluttering at the sight of his sleeping face and that he quite obviously still loved you -all of your doubts and fears disappeared one by one and soon you were left with a feeling of lightness on your shoulders, no heavy weights holding you down any longer

[yoongight]

[baanrili]

SPOON if you wanna make me hate the villain you gotta stop making him so attractive

LIKE

I'M

TRYIN'

REAL

HARD

BUT

G O D

[faustusgoetiaphile]

maintenance

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[demonphannie]

every time dan and phil take a picture with a kid they smile at each other and dan squeezes phil’s arm lovingly

[ricciardoe]

👁👄👁

[lesbianmity]

SPINEARL STANS DO Y'ALL STILL EXIST???

[0lympian-c0uncil]

Artemis: you're so cute, just so precious. *Cups Athena's face* you must be protected at all cost.

Athena: ... I'm the fucking Goddess of War