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spoopdeedoop · 7 months ago

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these guys also because with the return of the dsmp fixation i figured i had an obligation

#relying less on filters and more on actual colour theory for Once in My Life #my art #mcyt #dsmp #dream smp #happyduo #badboyhalo #c!badboyhalo #c!bbh #c!skeppy #skeppy #bbh fanart #skeppy fanart #iconic skeppy diamond tail i had to keep #dsmp fanart

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daughter-of-lethe · 10 months ago

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Aesthetic: Nesta Archeron pt1

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moeblob · 11 months ago

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If SDV won't let me give my husband a glow ring in game, I'll just do it in art instead !

(Asmo puts it on Shane's middle finger cause he knows when he realizes the ring makes him glow he'll probably get flipped off so it's only fair! He makes sure to give it during daylight though)

#stardew valley #sdv shane #farmer asmodeus♡#i imagine that asmo is like shane shane lets go say hi to gus at the saloon C: we can share a pizza and have water C:#and when they get there emily is just so happy that shane seems happy AND is glowing and its all fine #until clint shows up like since when do you wear a glow ring @ shane and shane is like a what now #and asmo is just SHRUGS i want the light of my life to glow ! is that so much to ask?#so shane just resigns and wears it that night then gives it back once home #hey man love these two husbands they're great

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nametakensff · 20 days ago

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Love reading my psychiatric documents back. The latest one is so fixated on the fact that I currently have 'limited sexual interactions' due to 'my preference to feel comfortable with a person before pursuing a relationship'. Wow what a headcase I am 🤪

#me: i'm struggling daily to keep my head above water. i'm coping but idk how much longer i can just cope?#psychiatrist: so you like...never fuck? that's wiiiild #i'm surprised none of my previous counsellors and whatnot have never written down 'intimacy issues' or whatever #my counsellor a couple of years ago was especially fixated on the abuse from my dad but this one only wrote one line about it #always fun seeing what spikes their interest more #i remember mentioning that my libido has decreased this year due to acute stress and he really latched onto that #'is that why you forgo sex?'#dude if I had sex as often as my libido required it would be a near daily affair even now #but a) i have no time b) i'm an autistic misanthrope c) i've had sex with people i don't care for that much and it sucked #i'm not overcomplicating my life like that. not right now. maybe once i'm settled somewhere else idk #i think he should have focused more on the fact that I gave up chocolate nearly a month ago #but no 🙄 it's all about my volcel swag x #i'm so proud about the chocolate thing lmao let me just drop that in the tags #okay. it is rare that i overshare on here anymore but this one is fine i think #nttalks

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slayerdurge · 3 months ago

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i gotta say i do love durge & minthara just standing in the corner cheering on astarion as he ascends. best enablers in baldur's gate. 💖

#lae'zel was like “no stop this isn't the way” but astarion couldn't hear her because durge & minthara were cheering too loudly #and now that astarion is ascended he and minthara and durge are all just vibing #just constantly praising each other for being terrible & magnificent & plotting world domination together #and lae'zel is finally starting to regret her life decisions i think #which is a smart call because honestly she's fucked #she rejected vlaakith because durge didn't encourage her one way or the other (durge doesn't care who she worships)#but there's no way durge is going to free orpheus. she needs to make use of his ability and then destroy him.#so no one else can ever use it against her once she has the netherbrain for herself #so i don't even know what happens to lae'zel in that scenario #it probably doesn't end well though #but then again it hasn't ended well for anyone else who ever tried to ally with durge #(they're all dead)#technically wyll & shadowheart left the party but the game dialogue seems to treat them as if they're dead #b/c i think it's assumed if they get too far from the emperor's protection then the absolute can get them #which if true means it's kinda crazy shadowheart still left #like wyll didn't know about the artifact yet when he left so that makes sense #but shadowheart must've known that the artifact is bound to durge not her and therefore if she leaves she is essentially killing herself #and yet she still did it b/c she just hated durge that much #god the acts the durge drives people to. smh. lol.#the funny thing is my durge plans to reject bhaal and take the netherbrain for herself #so i think things will actually turn out just fine for minthara & astarion #she genuinely does not mind sharing power with them and would not use the netherbrain to subjugate them #except of course she would not allow them to be able to betray her #but other than that they can have all the power they want #astarion might be resentful since he does seem greedy (the ascended version of him anyway)#but i actually don't think minthara would even be resentful b/c she doesn't seem to mind the idea of sharing power #new dead 3 #lolz #name of their metal band... new dead 3

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vaguely-concerned · 2 months ago

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it's so interesting that gideon opens his heart so quickly and completely and irrevocably to twig, while regarding mishka -- a parallel little sister/kid figure with some worrying hag magic attached, who also is in a situation similar to and has overlapping trauma with his own; they both have the scars of manacles around their wrists and are exploited for some inborn capacity other people want to make use of -- with such measured distanced distrust. and any reason you want to imagine there makes so much sense! it could be it's just too much like his own situation and he can't go there without getting into contact with things in himself he'd rather not feel or remember. might be instinctive flinch-away from still dealing with what happened to twig (and then jabberwock party wipe horror on top of that as a further attachment anxiety booster -- he didn't see kremy die since he's the first to go, but he sure gets to hear the story afterwards), and not wanting to risk that pain again so soon. twig meeting him at a moment where he was ready to let someone into his fiercely guarded in-group, and mishka didn't? just plain differences in personal chemistry (again... mishka is a lot like him in a lot of ways. perhaps. too much for comfort from some angles)?

if his trauma brain has decided that NO I've got kremy under one wing and twigsy under the other and sorry kid I only have two fucking wings, nothing is ever going to take this from me again while I'm alive to fight for it (the way they took my dad and my home and all those years of my life)... biggest FAIR ENOUGH GID! AS YOU WERE GID YOU DO YOU GID!! in history honestly even if it is a bit unfair to mishka

#once upon a witchlight #legends of avantris #once upon a witchlight spoilers #gideon coal #getting through the last few eps of s1 that I've been keeping as in case of emergency mood boosters awaiting s2 #and this just stood out to me so clearly haha. kremy seems to have a little bit of a softer reaction to her but really MOST of them #have a very '....hmmmmmm😑what is your nefarious deal small child' vibe with her fhdsj. I guess it's natural to have some trust issues #considering the shit they're going through the last fifteen or so episodes I can't begrudge them that #can kremy look at her and NOT see some shade of gideon tho. the old lady trying to get her husband back sure woke something in him #I feel like this must too even tho being kremy he might not necessarily act on it in a way we'd consider like. helpful haha #I love the incredibly stark in-group out-group distinction that exists in gideon's world it's so fascinating #he's SO protective and deeply kind with the people he loves and a borderline monster with people he doesn't care about (most of them)#which means he's not only content but HAPPY to be kremy's attack dog b/c like. it's not like he cares what happens #to people he doesn't care about! check and mate happy gator husbandwife happy life. and yet he loves very sincerely when he does #which is presumably why he finds it so scary. all that and also the cake chad. a deceptively complex man #(kremy has a different hilarious in-group out-group thing going on in that his in-group seems to be literally just him and gid hfkashf #he'll do things because they matter to gideon but I think outside of the two of them there is no one but maybe the unicorns #that kremy would not sell to satan for one corn chip to save his own skin. I love you kremy you suck so bad you are my babygirl <3)

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crispycreambacon · 5 months ago

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Hi y'all. I hope you all are well :)

Happy new year first of all. If you're still here with us, thank you. Thank you for getting through 2024, and thank you for being here. I hope 2025 will be kind to you 🫂

Second of all, I'm not sure if anyone is still here, but if there is someone: I'm sorry for disappearing so suddenly. Life really got in the way due to college, and I can't guarantee this next semester of college won't be very busy for me either. I've been trying to work on my personal life, and part of that was avoiding social media. I'd like to come back, but I'll be reducing the amount of time I spend on here.

If you'd like to know more about what else has happened to me, read on. If not, I wish you well, and I hope you'll still welcome me with open arms.

CW // TRANSPHOBIA, MENTAL HEALTH

If I can be vulnerable for a minute: things have gotten really bad for me last December. I came out to my mom, and it went so badly that I ran away for a little bit. I came back for personal reasons, but now I live with parents who refuse to acknowledge my identity and continue to refer to me with my deadname and AGAB. Moreover, I got triggered really badly at some point during the holidays, and it has led to me realizing I can't keep living like this. I need help.

Thankfully, my college provides mental health services, and from what I heard from other students, they're pretty good. They also provide tests which I definitely need. I can't keep living the undiagnosed lifestyle, y'all, I need to know what's going on with my brain shsldhskshs... I have some clues though. Nothing definitive yet, but I am pretty confident in my suspicions, and whether I'm right or wrong, I just want to figure out what's going on and manage it, start to heal and move on from the trauma I've endured both as a child and now.

I hope this update will suffice. I'm eternally grateful for my friends. They have kept me from absolutely losing it, and they have stuck with me at my worst moments. I love them so dearly, and if they are reading this: thank you :)💞

And to everyone else, thank you for taking the time to read. I'd love to know how y'all have been, so please let me know. I love you all. Please stay safe, and may life bring you the happiness you deserve 🫂

#update #mental health #chris p fried what?!#to the tag readers: hello :) I'll try to not talk too much in the tags and keep things in the actual post #but here's a little something for you: there's a possibility i may be plural o+<#i'm unsure but there's a chance i have partial did and i don't want to dismiss that. especially when there are voices in my head #sigh... oh also ocd. that's another thing i'm suspecting. specifically primarily obsessional ocd (aka pure o ocd)#gosh i really thought autism adhd depression and c/ptsd were the only things plaguing my brain and my life went “lol. lmao even.”#all of this is speculative. i'll update you once my initial tests come back and maybe i can afford an appointment to a psychiatrist.#i hope so anyway. that is all. thank you for reading again.

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whirlybirbs · 6 months ago

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not to be insane on main but listening to the vacant mirrors playlist makes me so deeply nostalgic, it feels like someone is wrenching my soul from my chest.

#i know i’ve said it before but this fic is so special to me #like. man i really got a c-ptsd and GED diagnosis and didn’t know what the fuck to make of it #and it was like. everything. all at once. and the routine of writing and pouring out these mannerisms and feelings #and. bucky bucky bucky. my angel boy.#FUCKKKKK #do you ever want to hold a time in your life in the palm of your hand

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six-improbable-things · 4 days ago

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I hate netflix so fucking much. The fact that fucking str*nger th*ngs gets renewed over and over again, even in face of people boycotting it, but shows like Lockwood & Co and Shadow & Bone get axed after one season, despite both being well-received and the latter holding the #1 most-watched spot for WEEKS, if not months after release... It makes me want to start breaking things.

(This is mostly about L&C, but after seeing S&B get canceled, I lost all hope for any netflix show ever reaching completion, given S&B's huge success.)

#one of my friends finally convinced me to watch the L&C tv show after I read the books a few years ago and loved them.#and it just makes me so upset. Especially because my copy of The Screaming Staircase had a foreward by Mr. Stroud talking about #how excited he was to see his characters and world and location come to life. How happy it made him and how much he loved the adaptation.#and going from reading that to finding out shortly thereafter that the show was canceled...#especially when to cover all the stuff in the books they only would have needed two more seasons...#god. It makes me so heartbroken.#Truly it was one of the best book to screen adaptations I've ever seen in my life. It was wonderful.#and they barely even gave it a chance. The cancelation was so soon after the release.#I saw a post once talking about how there's no such thing as cult classics anymore because things that aren't IMMEDIATELY #HUGE successes get binned and in some cases scrubbed from streaming services altogether.#and it makes me so upset. Especially in this case reading the author's genuine joy and excitement about it.#anyways.#fuck netflix #morrigan.text #rant #rant tw

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scoliosisgoblin · 8 months ago

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Smith family doodles

#I'll make more doodles of them #this is once Jay rejoins the family again #weird dynamic #he's kinda salty with Rick (understandable)#but C-137 never had a Jay so he's like huh who tf are you #IT'S THE LEGO MOVIE SCENE #J: you ruined my life! R: how could I ruin your life? I wasn't even there #they eventually have an emotional conversation ig #and Rick's like I would've loved having a son but I'm glad I didn't have you cause it would've been harder losing two kids and a wife #also Jay instantly would've become friends with Morty #or at least he would've surprise adopted him (mainly cause he reminds him of himself)#Summer and Morty fight over Jay sometimes #Jerry would've been intimidated by Jay me thinks #the Beths love Jay fr #rick and morty #my art #rick and morty fandom #rick and morty fanart #void #rick sanchez #rick sanchez fanart #jay sanchez #jay/jacob #beth smith #Beth #jerry smith #morty smith #morty prime #morty #summer smith

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lavampira · 4 months ago

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love how mothers will overreact to the most innocuous comments and make you feel like the worst person in the world for it lmao

#i’m pretty sure she got into it on the phone with my abuela before me so endless cycle of maternal bs am i right #augh i was in a good mood today for once too :c whatever #the life and times

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knittingwithhighlighters · 6 months ago

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There are three selves inside of you. The first self wants to get an Evil (TM) outfit change and sing yourself a badass new theme song (preferably something a little more hard-hitting than "How Bad Can I Be?" from The Lorax, but you get the drift). The second self wants to become your own version of a Buff Santa Claus (also TM) and use your big muscles to dole out presents to the world's children and pets. The third version of you wants to curl up into a ball and cry, metaphorically (and maybe also literally).