#can I PLEASE have a normal sleep PLEASE

[simplyghosting]

My dreams: hole in my jeans gets patched

My nightmares: 6-foot guy in an orange muppet costume stares through your bedroom window in silent hill fog and tries to murder your family

[hurglewurm]

vent art season babes ! the springtime crazies !

[danwhobrowses]

Okay yeah I wasn't ever gonna be contained with just one post so, Callowmoore stuff that's on rotisserie in my brain from ep.94

Long and deep looks at each other and a hug right off the bat!

When asked by Laudna if they were okay in ep. 91, Ashton deflected with 'say that again?' and 'are any of us?', but when Fearne asks they give a genuine answer and then also ask her how she's feeling, because she's been quiet and they care

Ashton, despite hurting when they're touched and exhausted so the chronic pain is as intense as the first time, still wanting to cuddle with Fearne - and feeling at ease when they do

And like, the way they were trying to articulate it implies that they've wanted to ask for quite some time, but the timing has been off or situations have gotten in the way, and they don't want to wait any longer

But also they don't ask if they can cuddle they ask if Fearne wants to; they want to, but they ask Fearne if she doesn't want to sleep alone, because her comfort is as important or more important than their own

Fearne given her past experiences with people of course thinks they mean the other kind of company, which she notes she does want (so that's not off the table) but asks if they could just cuddle - to which Ashton doesn't entirely deny either, but notes that they're tired and in a lot of pain right now so they too was asking for the same

Also the fact that Fearne, who has been in a threesome inside a corrupted haunted wood, will later flirt with a dark echo of herself, and spooned with a ghost pirate captain, got so flustered about asking Ashton that she just wants to cuddle

Despite the awkwardness they still just laugh and joke together through it, they're awkward but it's in a sweet way

All of Ashton's immediate action the second they realised Fearne was missing - similar to how they wanted to find her after the shard incident but this time in a position where they could take action - no nonsense, no pissing contest with Chetney about her scent being on their bed, "Find. Them. Now."

And then still being soft after seeing Fearne again, because all that matters right now is that she's still here. And another post I saw said it better but, Ashton never seeks to change or 'correct' parts of who Fearne is; she can still follow cute animals just next time bring a buddy along (which given how they were in bed together would imply meaning them), they love her for her, fae and all, they just want her to be safe

Not entirely ep. 94 but given how on 91 Ashton pointed out that they needed to sleep and 'figure out who they wanted to be', and then here ask Fearne to be there beside them so they could have someone to wake up to, it to me at least says a lot about what Ashton has already decided; and how despite both of them having dealt with grief and anger and helplessness by bottling it up, hiding away, and shouldering it alone, this time they both wanted to just feel at ease with each other

[cryptiduni]

“white mourning.”

[nolonger-roses]

Those two only needed some I-saved-your-life typa action and then they were never seen separated by choice

[quietwingsinthesky]

doctor who human!au with multiple doctors but they’re all named by their numbers because they’re all trans and picked them out theirselves.

[venusinsilk]

One thing that my bestie pointed out to me tonight that disgusted me and made me immediately recoil- my behavior has been changing because of the Boy and whether or not he engages with me, and my mood is hinged on whether or not he gives me attention. 🤮 ewwwww!!! Cut that out right now!! Of course it's normal and fine but I don't need that! Especially right now, post breakup, my life is a mess. The sex was amazing but I need to start detaching myself from him because he changed SO MUCH in the past 4 weeks. He played a looooong game to get to me. Bought pastries from me twice in the past year, sent me messages every day, got his tattoos at a shop in my neighborhood, asked me out, and now he barely talks to me. Which is so bizarre. But maybe he believes he can kick back and stop trying because he thinks I've fallen to my knees for him? I really can't try to decipher his behavior nor do I want to. He is pretty immature (hence "the Boy") and if he wasn't so talented in bed I would've stopped engaging with him from the first time we hung out.

Due to my apartment ceiling caving in, I'm couch surfing. He knows this and offered to get us a hotel room this weekend. This is a final chance to see if he can do something an adult man would do, and follow through with a plan. If he doesn't, I'm going to tell him he disappointed me and I don't have space for that right now in my very busy, very stressful life. So he won't be coming back to my apartment after the ceiling is fixed.... and I guess I'll never be invited over to his place because he lives with his parents! Oops 😬 🤭

[thelambthatkilledthewolf]

Thinking about the inherent abusive relationship between an avatar and their fear entity

[bluevaractyl]

I wanna post this story so badly but I still gotta figure out a title and also I promised myself I would sleep in like the next ten minutes. Someone pls tell me to just go to sleep

[weaselle]

i have been house and dog sitting for different people a lot in the last six weeks, so i haven't gotten a good night's sleep in weeks, and this last week i've been watching my bosses place while she's away, so instead of a dog or two it's the ten dogs she's boarding at her house, and i got up to go to the bathroom at like 4am this morning and the room me and the dogs were in had multiple puddles each of diarrhea, vomit and piss and the dogs were tracking it around and my morning has been. frustratingly, grossly, literally.. shitty.

i just wanted to complain about it to feel better. thank you.

[aceofstars16]

It’s 7:30 in the morning and I’m exhausted but I don’t know if I’ll be able to fall asleep again any time soon….

It’s like I was *just* starting to heal from having my heart and trust shattered 3 years ago, and now it’s happening all again, only this time I don’t have the church to go to for comfort/prayer/encouragement. And instead of a friendship I had for 2-3 years, it’s a church I’ve been going to for TWENTY TWO YEARS

I feel like I’m living in the twilight zone, this can’t actually be happening, right?

(I’m not okay, I keep crying and I just want to wake up from this nightmare)

[ebbpettier]

@stitchyqueer i THINK it's "It would help if I could sleep, but I can't, and I don't really have to-- I can just sort of get by, on catnaps and magic."

AND LIKE. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO NOT READ INTO THAT. I'M GONNA READ INTO THAT SO HARD.

@simonsnowichooseyou my thoughts exactly. i'm just stuck thinking about the implications of that. i feel like the sudden loss of it in wayward son DEFINITELY didn't help with the depression, but i'm also imagining him being really, truly fatigued for the first time.

if he's spent years skating by on fumes, with no more magic keeping him wired up, would simon even be able to accurately identify when he needs to sleep? did he get tired in the same way, back when he had magic? can he tell the difference between feeling physically exhausted (like after a long difficult fight) and actually needing to sleep? how unfamiliar was the feeling?

i dunno how well it applies to our boy simon, but if i was him? there would have been at least an 8-hour period where i thought i was dying.

and since the way simon lost his magic was pretty unprecedented*, that might not have been a totally unreasonable assumption. it was probably an option they at least had to consider.

*(we already know magicians losing their magic is 1. possible and 2. something that physically Feels Real Bad, but simon was THE magician, with the most magic. for all they know, that was load-bearing magic and he was hours or days away from collapsing like a puppet with cut strings. t e r r i f y i n g.)

@mostlymaudlin - legitimately, one of my favorite things about simon is that he just does this constantly in his narration

[hellyeahsickaf]

I got those no rinse bath sponges, like the kind they use in hospitals and I should have invested in them sooner. I'm making food right after using them since it saved me a fair amount of spoons. Most of the time I can't shower and have a meal in close proximity to each other. I just hope I can physically eat what I'm making

[twpsyn-who]

Soulmates AU in which when your soulmate is in a situation that can result in their death you get to see through their eyes. Like, I don't know how to explain this- it kind of flashes between what you see and what your soulmate sees. You know those edits where there's a scene going on and there's another one faded in the background happening at the same time? Similar to that. The idea is that you get to see what your soulmate sees too, on top of what you're seeing.

Now, this AU but JeanMarco. With Marco asking the others where's Jean, just for him to start seeing a corpse right in front of his eyes not even a second after asking. Seeing through Jean's eyes as he's trying to get hold of that gear and stuff. And once Jean's safe, once it clicks that you know his best friend is his soulmate Marco can't wait for them to graduate so he can you know tell him that.

Then, you know. That happens. And Jean is so fucking confused because he keeps seeing Annie crying, looking down on him. Only when Annie starts getting off the gear, when his soulmate starts moving around trying to get away he starts panicking, starts moving around faster than before. And maybe he's too late. Or maybe he shows up in time and kills the titan. I don't know. That's not where I'm trying to get, but to the second option AKA Marco pulling an UNO reverse on Annie because he's a smart sneaky bastard like that and being like 'Hey you can't kill me, my soulmate will know it was you' which makes her stop trying to take off his gear. Reiner keeps telling her to do it, Bertholdt keeps yelling about that titan coming closer, but Annie... she has seen things, at some point. Flashes of moments that weren't hers, happening right in Trost- right in that moment. And she didn't give them too much thought until that moment, until it got confirmed that it has nothing to do with her titan powers.

'What do you mean by that?' she asks, because she needs to know more. Because she wants to know more. And Marco starts explaining how it works. Tells them that he has found his soulmate, that they will put all the blame on them for his death. Reiner doesn't believe him, keeps insisting that he's playing them around - he, and anyone born and raised on Marley, has never heard of something like that before, it doesn't exist - but Annie tells him to shut up and to let Marco go. Cue to the plot of any fic in which Marco doesn't straight up die after finding up their secret.

Anyway I don't know man, just,,, We need more soulmate aus for JeanMarco. That's an order.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[meownotgood]

slowly starting to crash... very very tired... hopefully can... get through working this weekend.... and finally have a break...... (coughs and fucking dies)