#can i be honest and vunerable

[see-y0u-space-c0wb0y]

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[jaal-ama-daravv]

dissecting the mortal romance scene (both routes)

dissecting the graveyard scene dissecting the mortal romance path scene dissecting the mortal emmrich argument scene (all routes) emmrich x rook cinematic (mortal)

lich version dissecting the alternate romance path dissecting the argument scene (lich path) dissecting the emmrich romance scene (lich) mortal vs lich romance path emmrich x rook cinematic

home stretch baby, I have no idea how long this one will be as I'll save most of the nit grit for the master post

ALAS, lets go -

Emmrich, heart made of worry, mind racing a million miles. the relief in his voice, tainted with gratitude. he looks at rook like he has witnessed the sun and moon collide

Path 1 - I almost was. It was baffling.

I actually quite like this path - it has mourn watch specific dialogue, Rook is vunerable, and emmrich is a sweetheart at the end. there isn't much depth here - it feels like the logical dialogue piece, splash of optimism in there. its a refreshing piece for these two, but path 3 holds a mjority fo the emotion and fear and still tops my life in choices for this scene. ill expand below

Path 2 - It's all right. I'm safe.

in this path of dialogue, emmrich seems to have built some resilience and rook wants to push past the emotional side of it. this path feels, very 'lets just move on' if i'm being honest.

still feeling some distance in this dialogue - but this is probably due to the other paths having a more emotional side to them. emmrich also reaffirms to use here again about rook being remarkable in his eyes - their indomitability. and the, 'my love'. Oh he knows how to make us swoon.

Rook smiles at Emmrich.

Path 3 - Thought I'd be there forever.

this has to be my one and only choice in this scene as it represents rook ripping apart their own pride and ego, and allows them to be vulnerable with their love. with the knowledge of rook being stuck in the fade for weeks, this line hits even more harder than before. being teapped for weeks with your own regret, its horrifying. rook getting in touch with their emotions in this path is truly wonderful because emmrich respons with such glee and relief in his voice, he was terrfied. bar in mind the last conversation they had before rook dissappeared was the argument scene, so they both had so much regret and fear. gosh the love these two have.

BUT - I want to point out the mirroing of this scene in relation to Emmrich's fear of death and his lich path. "I was afraid I'd be there forever" and yes yes, I know its the same dialogue in the lich romance but in BOTH of them, it mirrors him somehow. Rook was not afraid of death, but afraid of mourning, and living with regret forever of losing emmrich. Mirroring how lich Emmrich would mourn Rook forever in the event of their death, per the argument scene. i just think its touching even if uninentional

the relief...oh my god the relief in his shaking voice. he is so grateful and ugh. We know emmrich doesn'y get over, and never will get over his fear of death, but being with rook has helped him in some way. even if slightly. He is given into himself being a fool in love and not worrying about how he is perceived as much. its beautiful, even if only a smidge.

Rook smiles at Emmrich.

All Paths Lead To

I AM INCONSOLABLE DO NOT TOUCH MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I NEED NOT SAY ANY WORDS - LOOK AT THIS. THE TENDERNESS. THE LOVE. THE PLESE DONT GO. THE WAY ALL OF HIS FEARS DISSAPEAR LOOKING AT ROOK. THE WAY HE ACCEPTS THE LOVE HE THOUGHT HE WOULD NEVER RECIEVE. THE WAY FLASHES OF MARRAIGE AND A FAMILY DAWN ON HIM IN THIS MOMENT. THE WAY NOTHING ELSE MATTERS BUT ROOK. the way he grunts, TWICe. THE WAY I AM SOBBING ON THE FLOOR. IM GONNA SAY IT AGAIN - SOULMATES. FADE MATES, SOUL BOUND, DONT CARE. INEVITABLE.

anyway

look i can only say it so many times. the guy is obsessed, rook is obsessed. emmrich had so much shame around his besottedness of being a fool in love. emmrich watched his parents die, of course he is terrfied that the love of his LIFE, the person he has YEARNED, DREAMED of meeting for 40 ODD YEARS. the way emmrich is a hopeless romantic, and always has been. the way that this is relateable with each passing day. emmrich dreamed of marriage, and having a close family. but no one shared his affection the way he did. and thank the MAKER no one wanted him like rook does. his heart sparked not with love at first sight for rook, but familiarity, a love which then buried itself deep in his bones, sprouting the love he has always yearned of. his search for an eternal, enduring affection - like how he engraved on their tombstones, "they walk eternity hand in hand"

oh yeah, after the fade to black, its very cute dialogue choices - emmrich wanting to fetch rook some breakfast. Rook comments -

to which emmrich will respond - dialogue varies but has this line regardless. god he is so confident in their eternal love

Option 1 will see a more romantic dialogue as suggested with rook touching his face gently and -

Rook will respond with "I know" and the two will kiss passionately and my heart explodes

Option 2 will have rook and emmrich go to bone zone for the second time - our man knows how to keep it going thats for sure

rook will whisper in emmrichs ear, the two will giggle and laugh and kiss, and he will get on top of rook and then you can see me crying in the corner because i love them so much

usually we go abit deeper with the dissection but honestly, there isnt much to say. and words arent needed here, you can see and feel the love and enduring affection they share for eachother - into eternity.

I'm so excited to share the Act 3 dissection and overal character breakdown of emmrich with you guys soon ♥

[watermelon-jooce]

OKAY dont flame me for this, but heres a Saiki K hot take that I think shoukd be talked about more.

I feel like people REALLY have to start taking what Kuusuke did to Toritsuka more seriously, because its pretty bad the more you think about it.

⚠️Large TW for emotional manipulation and gr00ming undertones. ⚠️

(‼️if you're gonna debate please read all first‼️)

I can't find the specific panels, but what Kuusuke did to Toritsuka was taking advantage of him, he pried on his insecurities.

Kuusuke was seen telling Toritsuka how much "better" he is than Kusuo, how he has better powers, how he should be put on a pedestal instead of stupid old Kusuo.

Toritsuka is seen before hand disliking his own powers. He want's more from them, he wants them to be less useless. Kuusuke knows this, because Toritsuka is honest and probably told him.

Instead of offering help, he pried in on that insecurity. By telling Toritsuka that he's better than Kusuo, that he's more important, Toritsuka was drawn in so quickly. He'd never really been told or praised for his power before, most people not believing him for being a Medium or others saying his powers are useless.

When Toritsuka was finally told by Kuusuke that he was better, that someone finally believed he was better than the person he always compared himself to.

Toritsuka seems easily impressionable, we don't get to see his father much if at all, and we haven't heard about his mother at all. Im assuming he lives in the temple with little to zero family, being raised by the temple instead of his own parents.

He probably lacked good life lessons, Toritsuka always goes to others for help, he begs because its all he most likely knows how to do.

Kuusuke knows this, and he uses it against him. He knows Toritsuka has a grudge against Kusuo for his powers, he knows Toritsuka is insecure about his own, he knows Toritsuka is vunerable with this information.

And what does he do? He emotionally manipulates Toritsuka into helping him attack Kusuo with the Cat Tank.

Yeah, you could be thinking, well Kuusuke is a bad person mostly in a whole(I could go on and on about why he is the way he is), and that he's bound to manipulate others into doing what he wants, but when you really think about it, Kuusuke is an 19/20 year old adult that took advantage of a 16 year old kid.

Could it be considered that Kuusuke technically groomed Toritsuka? Grooming is not always 'adult takes advantage of a child for something explicit', grooming can be taking advantage of a child for something in return. It's not always for the other, much worse, option, I'm not saying Kuusuke is a kiddy diddler, im saying he groomed Toritsuka to get what he wanted, which was to attack Kusuo.

I have seen someone talk about this before, I can't remember who but someone had mentioned the gravity of it and the strange undertones of what Kuusuke did to Toritsuka, finding a child and taking advantage of his insecurities to get what he wants through emotional manipulation.

I know you could say that 'Kuusuke is about only 19/20, he's not much older than Toritsuka who is 16/17' But that is heavily, heavily besides the point. The point is that Kuusuke is still an adult. Kuusuke is known to be one of the smartest people to live. Toritsuka is a child, and Toritsuka is still in school.

Again, please understand I'm not saying Kuusuke is a kiddy diddler. I don't want people to flame me for 'thinking that.' Kuusuke obviously has a lot of problems of his own, and emotional manipulation is something he is used to doing and probably doesn't even realise he's doing it because it helps him get what he wants.

I can see how its just emotional manipulation, and I am willing to hear anybody out on this and debate(politely), and if i'm wrong I will admit I am wrong.

But AGHH this has really been eating at my brain. Kuusuke manipulating Toritsuka using his insecurities and stuff to get what he wants is just super weird to me. Kuusuke is obviously a more creepy character, and I believe if the anime were more serious it would play a lot more on that fact.

But yeah, this is what I believe what happened. Again, its a really heavy topic so if you guys wanna tell me im wrong you can tell me im wrong and I will hear you out. I was just thinking about it and after seeing one person mention it a while back its been in the back of my mind for a while.

Not saying its wrong to love Kuusuke, I know the fandom is split on him. I personally don't care about whether someone loves him or not, cause one side you can say he got his freak off to his brother, but the other side says he was just excited and not doing anything weird. Kuusuke is a really interesting character and I really wanna do a big essay on him like this soon.

But yeah thats all I had to say, just remember if you guys wanna tell me im wrong you can tell me im wrong and I will hear you out.

(can you guys tell i dont wanna be destroyed)

[koveragewithkiera]

I’ve been kinda nervous to make this, but ever since seeing Sinners, I’ve grown truly in love with these characters and their stories. I couldn’t help but create my own character as well.

🖤 CHARACTER INTRO: Dee Moore 🖤

“Nigga got some nookie for the first time in seven years. Now all of sudden, he got a sense of humor.”

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📌 BASICS

• Name: Delilah Moore (Only known as “Dee”. Only one to use her real name often is Annie. Smoke and Stack occasionally. Stack also tends to call her “‘Lilah”)

• Age: 25-26

• Pronouns: She/Her

• Timeline Placement: Before and During the Movie

• Affiliation: Younger sister of the Smokestack Twins; Older cousin of Sammie Moore

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🖤 PERSONALITY

• Positive Traits: Supportive, Loyal, Honest, Big Heart for Family, “Ride or Die”, Intuitive, Insightful, Independent, Survivor, Intelligent, Resilient, and a bit Spiritually-Inclined (thanks to Annie)

• Negative Traits: Can be impulsive (in an Attack-Dog way), Combative, Violent/Defensive, Doesn’t listen easily (if you’re not her brothers or Annie, and even then it can be shaky), and has reasonable Trust Issues, but they’re still Trust Issues.

• Fears/Phobias: Dying Alone; Losing Her Family; Abandonment (Grew up with Attachment Issues)

• What makes her laugh? Cry? Angry?:

Laugh? Stack (begrudingly) and Annie quite often when they were kids whenever she’d give the twins a hard time. Her childhood and current friends and family, they make her happy in general when everything is going right.

Cry? Thinking about her mother. Missing someone she was never given the opportunity to know. Stack and Annie’s deaths show her harsh vunerability underneath her well-kept exterior.

Angry? Current Mary and the danger she brings. Anything that puts her people at risk. Smoke on occassion (they’re too alike and bash heads more often than with anyone else in their lives). Being lied to/deceived.

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📖 BACKSTORY

Dee ended up (resentfully) running away with her brothers whenever they’d left Clarksdale. As she’d gotten older, she managed to create a life for herself while helping them in their work for Capone (they kept their affiliation with her under wraps for her protection). She currently runs an underground Speakeasy and Drag Club. A strict and reputable business woman (no one knows that the reason trouble doesn’t tend to stay around her because her brothers like to clean it up for her).

She decided to come back home in order to take sure they got everything going good with the Juke Joint. They knew they’d need her help, and after some griping from Stack (Smoke couldn’t convince her to do something to save his life), she decided to give them two weeks before coming back to Chicago.

Similar to her brothers, Dee was forced to grow up quite quickly, especially after the death of their father. She was always younger than her closest friends, but somewhere along the way, she wasn’t able to embrace her “youthful spirit” anymore. Even as soon as she was born into this world, she’d been tripped of her mother’s spirit and guidance, and she was never able to escape the weight that carried on her.

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🤝 CONNECTIONS

• Love Interest: Complicated lol. She reunites with an old friend the night of Juke’s opening though and well… that creates something for her lol.

• Closest Bond: Definitely her brothers, but her bonds with Sammie, Annie, and even Mary are very present.

• Enemies: Dee doesn’t have a habit of making and/or maintaining these, so I suppose the biggest one right now is Mary’s whiteness lol.

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❤️‍🔥 SKILLS AND ABILITIES

• Combat/Defense Skills: She fights like *checks notes* “a goddamn alley-cat” - Smoke. She uses whatever she can to win. She doesn’t care for technique most of the time, but she still has it in her repertoire. She’s slick with a knife and tends to prefer it over guns because they can be more convenient. She had Smoke train her regardless and becomes quite skilled with them as well. But when I say anything is a weapon to her, I mean it. Nails, Teeth, anything. Knee to the balls? Elbow to the jaw? Teeth to the ear? She’s doing it.

• Languages Spoken: English of course; Picks up Italian and a bit of Creole from Annie (can you tell she loves Annie?)

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🎵 AESTHETIC

• Theme Songs: Her absolute theme song is Daughter by. Beyoncé. It’s a more personal song for her. Other songs I would say remind me of her would be:

- Bigger in Texas by. Megan Thee Stallion

- HOW I LOOK by. Glorilla & Megan Thee Stallion

- APESHIT by. The Carters (I see this with her and her brothers lmao)

- Cadillac (A Pimp’s Anthem) by. Victoria Monet

- Question Existing by. Rihanna (a bit deeper lol)

[fuselsstuff]

Why i am so excited to have the Bucktommy storyline

Buck, the wild child, the hot head, overthinker, the talker, always a little much, but thats him, and he is so so loved.

He is the little brother of his found family, and in their heads he will allways be just that, so he gets all these backhanded compliments, like

" he doesnt know your an Idiot yet, but he will love you anyway like we all do"

He is such a competent person/firefighters but sometimes he doesnt get taken serious because his ideas doesnt seem thought trough, and it looks like He is just doing stuff without thinking, but thats his neurodivergent brain, people with Adhd sometimes dont have the words for their Plans and Action, they just know it (its like that With my Brain, i dont say everybody is like this)

And then we have his past realtionships,

Abby, she really really liked him, but she had her own demons to deal with, she couldnt be what Buck needed.

Allie, she knew what she gets herself into, so she broke it off before she could really fall for him and i think thats very honorable.

Taylor got Buck, she knew exactly who he is, and she was there for him, but maybe they were to similar, i dont think it would have worked out in the long term.

Natalia, well, cant say much about her.

Our boy just wants to come home to somebody that gets him, not just says that, but really really gets him, shows up for him, takes him seriously and is his person.

And yes we could debate that he has Eddie, these two have a wonderfull friendship, and i admire that. Its deep, its vunerable, they are there for each other, both need eachother, and they trust eachother, its beautiful.

But for now, its exactly that, its a beautiful friendship.

(side note... The will? That doesnt make Buck a coparent, it makes him Chris' godfather basically)

And now to his current realtionship, Tommy. I think its perfect, and the first thing i want to point out, the comunication. Buck is a talker, but no comunicator, if people dont tell him exactly what they think, he is gonna asume what they think, and well, when was that ever a good thing right? There are a lot of examples where Bucks missing comunication turned into Problems.

Tommy does comunicate, i mean... He drive to his loft before his shift, to clear the air. After He kisses him, he doesnt run away, he asks him if that was okay and then asks him out on a date. Do we have to talk about the date? He was smooth, polite and open, he didnt run away before he cleared it up to him "your adorable but i dont think your ready" comunication my friends! The Coffee meet up? " you allready know i am interested" I mean how much clearer can it get? And also that he told him that the Coffee wasnt what he would order, its a small thing but i think its just as honest and important.

And he Shows up for him, Bachelorparty and wedding! He is there because of him. The scene where Buck looks on his phone before Tommy arrives? I could feel those butterflys, *somebody is here because of me* such an amazing feeling.

I could go on and on on how amazing the character choice of Tommy is but then this would get far too long, i am Sure there are a lot of posts that point out why its so cool to have an "old" Character back.

To get back to the start, Buck is loved, he is a Idiot but with a heart of gold, truly a golden Retriever.

But its the difference between *Buck, your such an Idiot, i love you anyway* to *i love you because you are an Idiot, Evan* that makes it for me.

Thanks for reading until here, i needed to get that out, feel free to add points!

But for now i enjoy this mature and hopefully domestic realtionship for buck storyline waaay to much <3

[sketchfanda]

A Little Moxxie Love:Triple M getting Triple X (Verosika Mayday)

Moxxie had always known that in his life and line of work,hindsight was 20-20 but to be honest? H should’ve known no good would come from this but leave it to their employer,the former circus clown that he was,to have this bright idea. Blitzo had decided once and for all the best way to sort out that parking space issue once and for all with his Ex was to have him and his ever spunky wife Millie,in his words more or less, “get her so damn fucking wasted,she’d say yes to anything!! So don’t fuck this up!!” Because oh sure cozy up to lush the pop star succubus with a history of going in and out of rehab due to drinking problems by taking her out to a bar! Pardon his French but such a brilliant fucking idea Blitzo! Is what he’d have wanted to say out loud if he had bothered to. But lo and behold here they were with Verosika freakin’ Mayday at some high end high class club in the lust circle,not on the level of Ozzie’s but an exclusive enough establishment in its own right. And naturally things seemed to be going south as the demonic diva was already well on her way to becoming blind stinking drunk! Unfortunately Millie wasn’t too far behind either, now Moxxie loved his wonderful wife,don’t get him wrong,they were ride or die for each other. But when Millie got drunk? She got DRUNK!!! An when Millie was drunk, well let’s just say she tended to get ideas especially when it came to a personal little kink of hers. The one that was no doubt floating around as an idea she was sure to get in that hazy booze addled brain of hers as he nervously held his red cup in hand, literally stuck in the middle of the popstar succubus and his lush wife as the trio sat on the couch of the VIP room Verosika had secured at this club.As the musical vixen idly examined her empty glass as if trying to see if it would magically refill itself, Millie was practically glued to him,nuzzling him in a way her body language made clear. She looking to be ready to be DTF,Down,To,Fuck. o which of course the Greed circle native imp could only think one word. ‘Oooh crumbs...’

Millie of course was cooing and purring as he half full beer can laid beside her on the seat,tail wagging plafyfully as she hugged her man like a plush toy. “Mmm come on now Moxxie baby don’t be shy..here you are,all so fine and handsome,stuck in a nice ol’ private room with 2 very pretty sexy ladies for company....we could be loud all we want and ain’t nobody could see or hear us...” The sloshed wrath imp quipped,planting butterfly kisses along her husband’s neck to his face,up and down,even giving his horn a sof little lick as she nuzzled him. Not even bothered by the presence of the succubus they were chaperoning,if anything the imp shortstack babe was practically enjoying her no doubt eavesdropping on her. “I just know you’d get her screamin’...ain’t no girl could last before you showin’ them heavn...” To say it was impressive to see Moxxie blush was an understatement, given imps were naturally red but the blush he had now was enough to make a tomato look pale in comparison. His brain torn in a tug of war between his own logic and reason against his libido. The former of course weakening and losing the struggle thanks to his on round of drinking. Now Moxxie wasn’t what you’d call a lightweight,thank you very much,he just so happened to like to try and be careful with how much he drank. But he certainly had enough for his brain to feel vunerable enough for his treacherous libido to take the helm. That familiar rushing of blood to his loins making itself known as the succubitch diva idly threw away her glass, brow quirked as if seeming to take some interest in Millie’s words. Her lucious lips splittin into a grin that bared those gleaming fangs of hers as she moved and shifted her position on the couch. Straddling the imp’s lap with her juicy legs, looming over him as she leaned close like the sensual erotic predator she was, the valley of her cleavage within his line of sight as she made her juicy boobs sway and bounce in a hypnotic manner. Moxxie’s blush deepened as he swallowed a gulp deep down his throat as he mentally struggled to keep the crotch of his pants from giving any telltale signs of arousal, which was easier said than done.

“Am i hearing thst right,little man?” Verosika quipped with that melodious,seductive voice of hers,as she was clearly taking delight and enjoyment in rilling up the imp and teasing him like she was right now, her tail moving like a snake as it slithere and wrapped around his waist. Millie looking in with rather eager curiosity,her excitement indicated by the way her tail was wagging. ““You packing enough to get me wet? You think you’re good enough in the sack to make me scream like a bitch in heat? You know I hate your boss so much with a passion but he was pretty fucking decent in bed…” the succubitch taunted and teased,making it clear she was definitely DTF and wouldn’t be reasoned with into taking NO for an answer. Those sharp teeth of hers gleaming in her predatory smile as she continued to hypnotically sway ad bounce her tits in his line of sight. “Well little man, first thing’s first,going to nee to see myself if you’re qualified enough to meet my standards...” she quipped, sensually licking her lips as her tail slithered behind his back, poking and caressing his face with its tipped point. Moxxie could only make a deep gulp, swalloing his nerves as he sideeyed his wife, who looked really eager to see him go through with this before lookin back at Verosika’s big juicy boobs. Her pink skin glistening with perspiration, her pheromonal scent flooding his senses as he once more thought to himself. ‘Oooh crumbs...’

But lo and behold, here was now finding himself kneeling on the silk carpet floor of the VIP room, arms hooked around the succubus popstar’s thigh,plump meaty hips and thighs,idly caressing them with his fingers as Verosika held him by his head. palm flat atop his snow white hair,her thumb idly rubbing his horn and her fingers scratching his scalp as she pushed and pressed his face against her crotch. breathing her radiant scent and not surprising to find she was commando under her skirt. Lips and tongue kissing and lciking away at her pussy as her juices flowed and gushed down his throat. Finding out first hand she smelt and tasted quite like,dare he think, cherry cola? Eating her as she squirmed, deepthroaed moans and cries pouring forth from her, no shock they had a melodical, musical quality to them. She was a musical girl after all, and it was clear he was more than proving he was meeting her standards. If anything he was over delivering as he was passed with flying colours as the succubus felt orgasms coming at her so swiftly that she wasn’t even bothering to keep count. Millie of course was loving every second of this,kneeling on the seat as her busy little hands touched her,groping her tits under her shirt and sliding down the waistband of her jeans to probe and plunge into her own sloppy pussy. Panting as she licked her lips,getting off at seeing the infamous verosika Mayday being brought to ectsasy over and over again by her man. And This was just his oral work!! She knew the succu-bitch would be in for a thrill ride soon as he got that big hot piece of red cooch pounding meathammer of a cock of his out. Verosika of course was in sexual heaven!

“Oooh fuckdamn Little Man, where’d your little woman and that asshole boss of yours hide you huh? Christ on a stick the tours I could’ve had you on hand as my personal stress relie roadie....” The succubus bombshell quipped, her blush noticeable even with her complexion as she surfed and rode the tidal wave of pleas and erotic bliss Moxxie’s quite talented mouth and tongue coaxed out of her. The popstar getting a flash of an idea as she fished out her cellphone, set it to streaming mode to a few key contacts of hers, including the bombshells in her entourage, holding it out on selfie mode as she began to record and spoke to the camera. “Ahhn,hey there bitches, your Queen’s here today to share a fun little discovery...” She purred, pornographic tones in her melodic molasses of a voice as she angled and aimed her phone camera in a way you could see Moxxie eating her out. The imp looking so adorable and so devoted as he was so focused on his work that he wasn’taware Verosika was doing a sudden amateur porn stream to show him off to her equally horny, kinky friends. “Mama’s found herself a new toy who’s not only looking good enough to eat but good enough to keep...” She paused in her lewd singing of Moxxie’s praises, shuddering as her camera shook, indicating she was riding another orgasm. “Oooh hot damn if Little Man’s this good with his mouth,I got to see what he’s packing...here babycakeshold this for me will ya?” With that said, the succubus diva passed her phone to Millie, who smiled adorably and playfully as she gave the audiene a cute little wave. Her golden eyes winkling with mischief as she turned the camera back on her husband and Verosika, who had pried him away from her cooch,a sloppy little web trail of nectar between his mouth and her smooth pink slit, her predatory smile flashing as she pulled Moxxie up to take her spot on the couch. She herself shifted to kneeling on the floor,her chest pressing against his legs as she grabbed the fly of his zipper, pulling it down slowly as her hands fished in for the desired prize she sought at this moment.

Moxxie widened his eyes as he cutely stumbled and stuttered. “W-wait Ms.m-Mayday!! I got to wanr you, I’m a bit of a grower!!” He blurted out, gasping as he felt Verosika’s silk gloved palms and digits on his boxers. The literal sex demon purring before her sensual grin became a graimce. A quizzical brow quirking as confusion came across her face. This wasn’t...was this what she thought it felt like? There was no way was there? She had to know, had to see it for herself as she unbuckled his pants, tugging them down as she grasped both them and his boxers by their waistband, Moxxie eeping cutely in feeeble protest s she pulled them down and off of him. Eyes widening to a point of bugging out, her jaw dropping, face full on blushing redder than an alarm bell as she bard witness to Moxxie’s dick in the flly exposed flesh. Ther it stood,sprining forth to full mast stiffness, erect and twitching with the pulse that signalled a desire to fuck and breed. Sweet Zombie Jesus there was no way she’d ever thought she’d see a dick this big before!! Hell if anything it was an offensive understatement to simply refer to this as a dick. Hands down without a doubt this was a Cock!! In length and girth, from its tip to base with a nice,smooth round set of balls, this was a cheek clapping,pussy pleasing, ass gaping, veiny piece of infernal heaven with this big baby makers filled with their rich,potent cream. The succubus practically felt herself in a sort of blissful trance akin to the kind she and her posse would induce in their victims, a look of awe and arousal on her face, silently panting and gasping with desire as she grasped this newly discovered sexual treasure. Small wonder he had such a hottie like his wife when he had a slab of meat like this!!

Moxxie could only gasp and shudder as verosika took a grip of his cock and started stroking and jerking him off. His groans music to the succubus’ ears as she gave his balls a firm massaging squeeze with her free hand, feeling both awkward and turned on at the same time as his wife sat right beside them and…wait a second,was she recording this on a phone? Oh crumbs thst was all he needed was this sequence of events caught on digital film, unaware that in act it was all streaming to god only knows who verosika picked out of what was no doubt a very extensive and exclusive contacts list. Among them were Keke, Milky, Apple and Coco as the four hotties of ms.Mayday’s entourage hung out at another nearby club, their eyes glued to the screens of their own cells, blushing as they rubbed their slick,wet thighs to the sight and sound of their boss lady looking to get on with that prime piece of Imp meat. Plotting out when they might pop by the IMP office and run it by Millie about getting a turn of their own with her hidden treasure of a man. They certainly weren’t the only ones mind you.

But that was for much later in Moxxie’s future he was yet to be aware of pending, as right here and now Verosika brought him back to her attention as she began to kiss and lick his cock from tip to base. His veiny alpha Imp dick getting smothered and lathered in saliva and lipstick marks, not even leaving his balls untouched as she sucked and licked on those babymakers. A aura of pink glowing hearts radiating forth from the Succubus diva’s curvy pornographic form as she soon latched lips onto his dickhead, proceeding to deliver stunning fellatio upon his shaft as if his length an girth didn’t bother her what so ever. If anything it motivated her as much as it turned her on, deepthroating him despite any urgent sense of suffocation, hearts glowing in her eyes as she licked,sucked and blew on his cock, drowning it with her saliva as her tongue constricted around it like a snake. Squeezing and massaging it as he found her mouth was a borderline oral pussy, looking to milk him for his milk. Her neck bulging from his size as she came to crave and enjoy his taste. His flavour and endowment in her mind putting any prior conquests or lovers to shame. She could think of some hellhounds who’d feel inadequate, Ozzie could make a fortune just off the dildoes they’d make from a mould of this cock!!

Moxxie could only think ‘Ooooh crumbs..’ as his few remaining meager strands of will power and self control crumbled against the onslaught of Verosika’s ravenous blowjob. Returining the favour from before as he moved his hands to grasp her hair and one of her horns, legs shuffling to shift and adjust as he now stood on the couch seat. Not breaking the connection the sex demon’s mouth held on his manhood before her eyes widened in erotic shock and delight as she found Moxxie starting to buck his hips suddenly! The Imp secret stud proceeding to give her what had to be,for her at least,the most intense facefuck she’d ever received!! And how she loved it!! Arms wrapping around his waist,holding the compact stud close and help him keep his balance, letting him use her mouth as his own personal pocket pussy. His balls smacking her chin, drool spluttering with every impact as he fucked her mouth and throat, Millie keeping the camera on them as the shortstack wife of this sex machine had ditched her pants and thong. Free hand shamelessly playing with her pussy, panting like a bitch in heat at seeing the source of many wet dreams on hell and earth become very erotically acquainted with her man. Verosika of course felt her mind going numb as it overloaded with the rush of ecstasy flooding her nerves. She could feel her thighs soaking,her pussy quaking as it rained down on a growing puddle on the floor. Sweet singing zombie ant-christ, was this guy making her cum from this? Oh who was she kidding, of course he was!!

And she was loving every damn second of it!! Before she felt his cock twitch and pulse,eyes widening as Moxxie held her balls deep,her lips pressing agaisnt his stomach and his balls, as he groaned and before she knew it, it happened. His cock erupting like a volcano, spraying and hosing her mouth with his jizz. Wave after wave of thick,hot white cream dazzling the tastebuds of her tongue,as her throat gulped it all down. The moment it happened,the succu-bitch found all bets were off, as if a switch had flipped in her brain. Some deep primal urge withi her demonic subconcious calling out to her. Telling her to give herself to this alpha male stud of a imp, to mate and breed!! Before she knew it, she found herself naked save for her glves,stocking and shoes, straddling Moxxie’s waist,himself naked, as was Millie. The shortstack killer sitting kneeling by her man,her tail holding Verosika’s phone in her tail as the streaming video function was still running. Massaging his shoulders as she idly kissed and licked his face. Purring as she watched Verosika hold Moxxie’s hands in a firm grasp together as the diva rode and bounced on his cock. Her pink,juicy tits bouncing,her bubbly ass jiggling as she let loose rapturous howls and cries of passion. Relishing when the short imp king stud would meet her eager hips with that genetic jackhammer of his, his length and girth hitting all the right spots,kissing the entrance of her womb as if knocking for permission. Usually the succubus music sensation was the dominatrix but right now, she was a full on bitch in heat, tail intertwine with Moxxie’s own,wings idly flapping as orgasms rocked her sensual form. Yet all she was looking for was that rush of him cumming like a geyser and filling her oven with some buns. Her phone catching every second of it in high definition, not that she even remembered or cared about that or even her image and reputation at the moment.

No for her it was all about getting her new Imp Daddy to keep fucking her much as he wanted and idly wondering if maybe she could make this more than a one off sort of thing. Maybe Blitzo would be open to ideas especially if she included a favour or two like that parking space he valued so much. But that was for a later date, as right now Daddy Moxxie needed her attention. Her viewers getting every single glorious second especially with Millie catching the best sort of angles. Laying witness to Moxxie taking her her from behind, from downward dog to prone bone to doggy style. To Millie being held in a full-nelson by the succubus as they tagteamed the stud,the shortstack hottie unashamed of declaring her hubby sex machine who could get her off like this. To Verosika flat on her back as Moxxie fucked her missionary while Millie sat on the diva’s face, eating her out and showing off her own tongue work. as well as proving she was plenty good at girl on girl herself of course, as she made out with her man. Their tongue dancing together as they exchanged spit,air and raw,romantic passion. Before Verosika was now riding him cowgirl style as Millie now sat on his face,moaning wantonly as her husband’s tongue worked away at her slit and donut hole. Making out with the erotic pop star sex demon in a manner that even the most heterosexual woman would say was hot as fuck, her hands playing with those tits when she wasn’t sucking on them of course. To the shortstack imp bbe and succubus making out with his cock between them as they performed a tandem blowjob titfuck combination assault. The amount of times Moxxie came enough to be counted on both hands with fingers left over yet his shaft not going soft or limp even once in the slightest. The secret imp stud unaware he was about to become a porno viral sensation over night, even after the stream had to cut off as Verosika’s phone went into low power mode to conserve her battery.

Which was all well and good for her as she laid back flat on the couch,Millie laying atop her,arms around each other holding on for dear life as they kissed with sexual thirst and desire. Moxxie thrusting and pumping between where their pussies met before switching between which pussy or ass to fuck. The imp short king shuddering as their combined orgasms he coaxed out of them was enough for him to finally cum, his spunk spraying their stomachs as their holes gushed with excess amounts of jizz. His cock going into a relaxed state,soaked and dribbling with a mix of his seed and the sticky nectar of two very horny demon babes. Who took him into their embrace,sandwiching him as sleep and exhaustion finally overcame them, the afterglow soothing them as their tails intertwined together. The sun rising on hell for another brand new day, and for this trio, the beginning of what was sure to be....a very beauutiful friendship.

[alysinscotland]

Impending doom.

It's been less than a day since tiktok was banned. and then approximately 12 hours since the app was unbanned by Donald Trump. I have to be honest, at first, i cared very little for this sensational news - I'm scottish and i didn't believe the ban was really going to happen. This news was sooo the boy who cried wolf and it felt like fear-mongering at its finest, to which i would boast, I'm not the one to get baited! But then i saw this for what it really was and it scared me. My algorithm sucked me deeper into the whirlpool of fascism, oligarchy and right-wing media creating a hole so deep that when i woke up this morning, dread filled my chest so full i felt i was going to burst. Is the world ending, or have i fallen this easily into the media trap? It's hard to truly deduce how bad the state of our world is in this era, and on TikTok it's even harder to separate the truth from the lies. But i digress, the (shortest) ban made me truly think whether i even want to be on this app when all i see is how horribly we treat each other and the planet. It's like how my parents no longer watch the news because its too depressing. I used to be appalled by this, exclaiming not everyone has the privilege to just turn the television off, making my current thoughts guilty and hypocritical. it's hard to support a cause that even in the UK feels like a minority. I can feel the politics of places like the USA reaching its claws deeper into the very vunerable politics of Britain (i'll admit also already a conservative state), escalating the rise of right wing supporters, misogynistic, racist and homophobic discourse, striking a sense of doom in me i have never felt before. It is actually mind-blowing to me how so many people i know of or know personally are travelling backwards to ideals of the past. Online I see such a disconnect from people on having empathy or even humanity, and almost worse, there are no consequences for this type of behaviour. Due to this I worry so much for the children of this time who are so vulnerable to propaganda and hateful ideas. I worry for how long our planet will last as i have to sit back knowing i cannot stop the 1% from destroying our home. I worry. Every time i open social media i am shown how desensitised and demoralised people can be and whilst this doom seems to be having a crippling effect on me, social media will every so often (not in the past 24 hours but that just might be tiktok's impressive algorithm!), show me that it is not too late and there is always hope. The people of this world and the world itself deserve so much more grace and kindness than they have been given and I believe that while there is hope out there, there is a bright future ahead. With hope, not all is lost. If there was one good thing from the past 24 hours for me, it's that my beliefs and passion have been reinforced in a way I haven't felt in a long time. Hope will keep me going. I hope love will win.

Alys <3

[azureflamesideblog]

Still thinking about the fact that...Zukos role in this AiTST comic is so small and it makes me wonder what that means? Cause I actually can't really settle on what that is saying.

Ursa and her conversation/s with Azula seem to be the biggest hitting. At the same time being very encouraging Azula to open up and be vunerable, be honest about her thoughts, feelings and desires. The most important, generally speaking even if ALL of them are important. Ty Lee is meant to be a needle or thorn in her side to move her along when that fails/or to warm Azula up to a conversation with Ursa. Mai's part of the conversation seems to be more of a hammer. A shove where Ty Lees is meant to be a nudge, if you will.

Zuko in a way is, almost like a final boss but. He also is, like, the least himself? Unlike the others who talk about their personal relationship with Azula and what it means to her and them, Zuko doesn't really talk about his and Azulas relatonship. Just sums up the spirits thoughts and really just is there to pose the offer of redemption.

So, why? Why doesn't vision!Zuko get at least a small line about what has gone on between them?

Could this be at this point Azula's mind is so scrambled by what she is letting come to the surface, she is just, suppressing things with Zuko? Like she is supressing it so much the vision can't even bring it forward? Might it just be anger? She sees Zuko as angry and expects him to be angry, so when this spirit begins to kinda be over Azula refuseing to cooperate Zuko comes up because of it?

I don't know, can't really make out what this means in the story. If it is one of these or a combo of them. What is everyone elses thoughts?

Now, in a story telling writer way I CAN confidently say I think the lack of Zuko is very intentonal. I think wherever Azula's story picks up next is has got to be with Zuko. Avoiding touching on that dynamic was most def done with intention.

[mayonezroulette]

Feeling a bit vunerable and I want to get my thoughts out about my views about my younger self/Gaara. I might delete this later, but I just feel like posting all this here. Maybe someone will understand how I have been feeling lately or can relate to me relating to Gaara from Naruto...

Don't know if anything will be triggering to anyone so a CW: Venting about my emotions and myself under the cut.

It's general positive emotions underneath but to be safe I wanted to warn everyone before they continue.

So let me start off with a question I know the answer to, but I ask myself a lot anyways. Am I allowed to cry over Gaara? Because I'm feeling with my whole body this caring affection and this wanting to comfort him during this rewatch of the Chunin Exams. Which the whole honest truth is that's me wanting to comfort kid me for letting people define me and not define myself for a long while. Like I identified with Gaara so much as a kid. I viewed myself as a monster and acted out because if others thought I was monster then I'd be a monster. Gaara's whole arc and story helped me feel like I could be loved and maybe I wasn't a monster like everyone said I was. Maybe I too would find a Naruto who would be there for me when I needed him. I still Identify with Gaara a lot too. I'm less jaded then before and I feel less self loathing and feel like I'm worth something now, but they still are kind of there. I still have my doubts about myself, but by God Naruto has altered my brain chemistry so much that it is lessened when I think about that journey both Naruto and Gaara went through. I'm gonna cry at some point about this, but that's okay. I also think it's why I ship the two of them together at least as a QPR because that's what I want for not just Gaara, but for me. Someone to show me that I am capable and worthy of love and so I can love them back just as much. I feel so much right now and I just want to hold little angry kod Tobi and let him know our Naruto is out there. That we can survive anything just like we always have, but we can love and be loved and that we can do more then just survive now. I just want with my full fiber of my being to be soft and full of confidence. To be caring and to be cared for. To love and be loved. To want and to be wanted. These are things I want and I can have I just have to open myself to them and I can learn how. I have it within me and in the end I will be more than okay, I will be love in of itself. Just got to let it happen and take it one step at a time.

People and feelings are messy... They also confuse me a lot. Have had 10+ years of therapy and I'm still learning new things about myself and how to handle my emotions. I learned just the other day that I am more then what people define me as and I am allowed to define myself just as much. Life has taken a lot from me, but it has also given me a lot too. While every year I'm surprised I've made it this far it's a pleasant feeling. I just love Naruto so much and I'm so glad I'm still around so I can rewatch it again and again and again.

Sorry for the messy feelings and being vunerable, but I just want to shout from the roof tops how much I love Gaara and how it feels like it's more like loving myself at this point.

[br1ghtestlight]

does anybody want to hear me analyze zeke and tina's relationship in my fanfic. too bad ur getting it anyway

there are SOME things i cant say bcuz spoilers but in my head zeke staying with tina during his worst moments and trusting her with his emotional vunerability makes sense because he considers her a friend and they're part of the same group but they arent CLOSE friends. they don't usually hang out together one on one and jimmy jr is clearly who zeke considers to be his best friend. he's scared of being vunerable with people he trusts, disappointing them or letting them down and ruining that relationship etc but because he doesn't have a very strong foundation with tina (while not being a TOTAL stranger) she feels safe to him to be open around. it also helps that she already had a negative opinion of him before so he isnt exactly worried about her hating him?? like they're sorta been there done that

and because tina doesn't view zeke as a romantic interest but DOES consider him a friend its easy to be playful and relaxed around him. she isn't nervous or analyzing her every move and she can playfully tease him knowing that their relationship was previously pretty negative but they both like each other now. there's a level of trust there KNOWING they've already seen each other at their worst, that tina was already pretty terrible to zeke and that zeke didnt have a very strong bond with her and laughed behind her back, that allows for more honest communication with each other and a healthier friendship while not making EVERYTHING about the Bad Stuff going on and still being allowed to play around together. tina feels confident around zeke and likes spending time with him without feeling pressured about their relationship, opening up to him in a way that she hasn't with jimmy jr or other boys she likes

zeke very intentionally is more nervous and insecure around the adults who try to help him or talk to him because most of his trauma comes from his relationship with adults and unfair punishment. he's SCARED of bob and linda bcuz he doesnt know if he can trust them, but he has a stronger relationship with tina gene & louise because he's spent more time with them and they're around his own age. he's obviously the closest with tina. his relationship with jimmy jr is complicated because they both keep things from each other and dont Communicate due to not wanting their friendship to change but there's love there and they'll work it out over time

zeke needs more healthy relationships in his life with adults who aren't trying to punish him or talk down to him in some way. he needs an adult who can PROVE that they're worthy of his trust bcuz while he has strong connections with his peers that isnt really going to help him in the long run. he has his grandma but because of her poor health their relationship involves him being more of a caretaker to her than the other way around and he doesnt feel comfortable talking about these things :( poor kiddo

[koocycle]

Hey, love! I absolutely enjoyed reading Over Wine <3 When it comes to fanfictions, drama series, and other forms of entertainment, I'm a sucker for marriage angst. It's a lot more enjoyable when it is written very well 😉.

Your writing style is what I always look for because it just really brings the characters to life. So many writers focus in making the male lead a flawless person for the sake of fan service, which to be honest I find to be so tedious to read, not to mention their cringy dialogues. I'm so glad there are still some writers like you that gives their characters so much personality and is able to show some of the overlooked realities of marriage.

I do respect a writer's free will to mold their characters based on their own beliefs, but I do feel a great sense of admiration to those like you who evidently puts so much time and effort in your works and most importantly isn't afraid to write a lead character that has a reflection of a real person. Fanfiction writers, well, writers in general, should not solely build their character's personality on the fandoms' romanticized view of the celebrity, but also on the reputation of the real individuals who they share the same role with. Can I just say, I'm delighted that you didn't wrote him as the typical misunderstood husband and make it appear that the female lead was the only one at fault.

As I finished reading the first chapter, which is also the first work of yours that I've ever read, I immediately have high expectations towards your next chapters and I'm confident you won't disappoint! You know how to pace your story and immerse your readers in certain scenes. When Y/N learned about Jungkook's promotion, I almost felt the way her blood froze. By the way, I love how you played with the element of suspense at that scene. And although I enjoy reading angsty scenes, I still am weak to the intimate interactions of the characters, both their sex scenes and display of affections and vunerability towards each other. I'm quite curious how you're going to build the leads' character development.

Do take your time in completing Chapter 2, art should never be rushed ☺️. Oh and do forgive my grammar, English isn't my first language and I just really wanted to express my satisfaction towards your writing. Do you mind adding me to your taglist?

oh my god this was written so beautifully for me i can’t thank you enough 🥹🥹 i nearly cried reading this because really, you touched my heart with this one

marriage angst always hits bulls eye for me and i’m so happy to hear it does the same to you! really, you saying you enjoy my writing style so much to the point that you feel like it brings characters to life is a huge compliment, and you don’t know how much encouragement that brings me!! and i’m so glad you found admiration in the writing of jungkook! he was definitely something else to write and no, not always had i agreed with the things i made him say or do, but i feel like that’s what made him so fun to write!

thank you for the reviews on that particular scene, it was actually my favorite to write! (i always LOVE reading reviews on specific scenes) you make me all warm and giddy on the inside thank you bby 🤍 i’m adding you right now. your english is flawless!

[sharp-rosee]

i thought your comment about being polyphobic was a joke and i laughed for a moment until i saw the next angry comment and i got second hand embarrassment just reading that. how are poly not ashamed of their weird knee jerk reactions? like relax and learn how to take a joke 🙄 they wanna be oppressed so bad

Honestly it's a half joke half not lmao. I really can't stand them 😭

I still hate hookup culture, but I can respect that people are honest about it. And I hate it for the damaging things it does (treating sex as transactional and not something that is extremely vunerable). But poly people * can't * admit that's what they're doing because they want to make it palatable or because of internal shame.

BUT they always tie it back to sex, so they reveal what its all about anyway. They never talk about a deep romantic feeling or deep connection or friendship they have with their romantic partner... just that they uhh like how their partner is.... uh... they have Sex!!!

[riearchivistfornow]

Get Real: Authenticity

English 9AM 2016.06.05

Get Real: Authenticity

Take a reality check in the area of your faith.

Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

Your faith should be your reality. Is your faith your reality? That's the crux of getting real.

1 Corinthians 15:9-10 For I am the least of the apostles and do not even deserve to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God. But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. No, I worked harder than all of them—yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me.

"By the grace of God, I am what I am"

Are you who you are? Everyone wants authentic things, you want the real thing. That's where our society is in an interesting spot. "The world craves authenticity, but creates forgeries. As much as there is a great desire for authenticity, there is an equal demand for forgeries."

We want people to think that we are the real deal. In our quest to have authenticity, we choose forgeries to make others think that we are authentic. It seems like the way to survive in this world is to put on a facade. "If you want to say something and have people listen then you have to wear a mask…."

BANKSY

"We all wear masks, and the time comes when we cannot remove them without removing some of our skin."

We graple with the question "Who am I?". Who are you really?

Casting Crowns

"When will me reflection show who I am inside?" – Mulan "Reflection"

Paul answered the question beyond it, Paul states that "I am who I am." We cannot find ourselves by looking in ourselves, because we are not trustworthy. We cannot find ourselves by looking in ourselves, because we did not create ourselves.

Jeremiah 17:9 The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?

We all have a light inside of us, that is from God. How people look at the light, is from the way that we live our lives. An authentic life is where the case of the the lamp is clear.

"We need to be real in our walk and our talk, otherwise unbelievers will think that we believers are unbelievable."

1) Be open. It is okay to be vunerable. We need to stop hiding and to reveal ourselves to God. Being authentic is not something special, it is something normal. We should be open and authentic. We don't want to let anyone see how vunerable we are.

"If you want to say something and have people listen then you have to wear a mask. If you want to be honest then you have to live a lie." – BANKSY

It is scary to remove our masks, it is scary to be vunerable. Sometimes we think that the best thing to do is to close up for the rest of your life.

"We're never so vunerable than when we love someone -- but paradoxivally if we cannot trust we cannot find peace love hope and joy."

When you seal yourself up, you end up carrying all the hurts for the rest of your life. When you open yourself up, you might be vunerable but better still you can be healed.

Jesus Christ Himself put Himself in a vunerable spot so that He may die for us.

Philippians 2:5-8 In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage; rather, he made himself nothing by taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to death— even death on a cross!

Jesus was always open. He never pretended how He felt.

It is okay to feel feelings.

Matthew 26:38 Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.”

"What happens when people open their hearts? They get better."

2) Be accountable Allow your authenticity to be measured.

Authenticity must be measurable.

Accountability is the act of us being accountable about what we do.

Accountability is not about control, it is about community.

James 5:13-16 Is anyone among you in trouble? Let them pray. Is anyone happy? Let them sing songs of praise. Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church to pray over them and anoint them with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise them up. If they have sinned, they will be forgiven. Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.

James 5:19-20 My brothers and sisters, if one of you should wander from the truth and someone should bring that person back, remember this: Whoever turns a sinner from the error of their way will save them from death and cover over a multitude of sins.

Accountability is a beautiful thing. We cannot do what we do if we are not accountable.

Galations 6:1-2 Brothers and sisters, if someone is caught in a sin, you who live by the Spirit should restore that person gently. But watch yourselves, or you also may be tempted. Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.

Proverbs 27:17 As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.

3) Be humble. Leave your pride at the door.

Humility is what will allow us to change for the better.

True authenticity requires humility.

"The truth is jard to swallow when you're choking on your pride." – Michael Lee Aday

1 Peter 5:5-6 In the same way, you who are younger, submit yourselves to your elders. All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, “God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.

Psalm 25:8-9 Good and upright is the Lord ; therefore he instructs sinners in his ways. He guides the humble in what is right and teaches them his way.

"True humility is not thinking less of yourself, it is thinking of yourself less." – C.S. Lewis

1 Thessalonians 5:11 Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.

Pride leads to shame.

Proverbs 11:2 When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.

We are born to be made perfect in Christ, not to fake perfection.

[aropodcastfuck]

ramble/venting post ignore if u want

tw some depressing ranting ig

im so fucking lonely all the time. i love my friends so much but im like physically unable to actually be vunerable or emotionally honest with any of them and i know its because of stupid family trauma stuff but god it feels like ill never be able to actually connect with anyone. my family never loved me, not really, they barely know me let alone understand or connect with me in anyway. i always think im over it, ive moved on, that im making my own way and finding my own life building a community and connections on my own without them. but it always comes back to being a lonely sad little girl who just wants someone to take care of her and say that everything is going to be okay, that im loved and understood and that i dont need to be scared anymore. but i am i always am and im so scared that its too late and im just broken. that ill never be able to change the way i feel, that ill always be lonely and its my own fucking fault because i cant let anyone in, i cant let anyone see me struggle or suffer because its too risky. its not safe, the only one i can trust is myself and theres never been any proof otherwise. i dont trust the friends i have now, not any fault of theres ive just never had friends who didnt eventually leave me or get sick of me or hate me and im always anticipating the switch so i never let my guard down. it feels physically impossible sometimes, and even when i try to share its always through some mask some lie some bullshit because theres no one i can trust because no one could ever possibly know me and love me. this is so stupid and i feel so pathetic like why cant i just connect with people like everyone else i dont understand whats broken in me i feel like ive always been like this and i dont know how to fix it.

for obvious reasons i dont feel like i can say this to anyone so its going here so i can get it out of my head

[rickie-the-storyteller]

Happy STS!

What’s the most self-indulgent element (trope, character, scene, etc.) you’ve written in your main WIP? Or in general?

What makes it self-indulgent?

Sorry for the late response… I was planning to answer this question as soon as I got it, but it really made me think haha

I don’t know if the stuff I’ve got in mind as answers really count as “self-indulgent” or not… to be honest, I don’t really go out of my way to be self-indulgent with my writing when it comes to characters/scenes/tropes etc. Unless you count me trying to write sequel/spin-off stories for my standalone stories lol. That’s one of the reasons I have yet to post most of my other stories… I never feel like they’re completely finished.

I suppose that looking back through my stuff, I could maybe think of a few elements of my characters/works that could be subconsciously self-indulgent in a sense…

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The fact that my main series is centred around a group of rebellious teens could be me trying to live vicariously through my characters. I don’t know… I’ve never been the rebel type. I’ve always been the quiet, sensible one. That’s how I’ve been known as throughout my student life lol. I don’t know what being a rebel is like (and I occasionally worry about not portraying it well in my writing), but I’ve always wondered about it.

Stephanie (on surface level) is the confident badass icon I wish I was in real life lol. Like, she has depth as a character and we see her weaknesses and how vunerable she can be outside all that, but she just has that strong, feisty energy that I just admire so much. She’s a strong independent woman (even though she’s still a teen).

Elise, as well (And by extension, Brelise). Ok, so I put a bit of myself in all my characters… but I’d say that the three girls sort of represent three sides of my personality - Steph is a confident boss, Alice is the insecure one that tends to feel like an invisible outcast to others, and El is the cheerful brainy one. I gave El most of my personality traits, but I also think that I could have made her a more idealised version of myself. Like, in real life, I’d say I’m more of a mix between Alice (insecure and sarcastic) and Elise… I’m an introvert, but Elise definitely has more people skills than I do lol. I’ve always been kind of a loner at school, and she has a group of friends (and gets along well with most people in school generally) That’s just one example. I’m awkward around people. Elise is much more confident (even though it’s in a more quiet sense, especially in contrast to Stephanie’s louder, bolder and more energetic confidence). And she’s WAY more upbeat than I am, too. Maybe when I was writing El, I was trying to think of how my school life would be like if I had come out of my shell sooner and let others in more… I probably would have been a lot less lonely haha (other than social skills, though, she’s basically me. I typically do well in school, I got good grades - though I don’t get As all the time - and I work hard. I also read a LOT. Often late into the night… it was part of my bedtime routine lol). As far as her relationship with Bret is concerned… well, I personally have never been in a relationship. Ever. Like all throughout high school… nothing. I’m about to go to university in September. But I digress. Just because I haven’t dated anyone before doesn’t mean I’ve never liked anyone before, though. I think I have mentioned before that I think Brelise is me subconsciously giving El my bad boy phase lol (I’ve completely grown out of it now hahaha)… as Lane Kim from Gilmore Girls says, every girl has to fall in love with a bad boy - that’s the rule. Not that Bret is just another “bad boy” character… I really wanted to try and make him more than that. But yeah their relationship definitely fits the “good girl, bad boy” trope. Which, now that I’m saying it, could be the reason I love writing for them so much!

Ben. Just Ben as a character. Steph’s long distance boyfriend. In The Misfit Manifesto, Ben really doesn’t have a lot of focus time, but the time that he does get is just him being a really good guy. He’s such a sweet boyfriend to Stephanie, and you really feel his presence even he’s not around. I think I was trying to imagine and create the perfect boyfriend when I was writing him. Only for him to be given a proper arc in the sequel that’ll completely ruin that perfect boyfriend image that he had in the previous instalments lol.

The fact that I include romantic subplots at all is self-indulgent… half the time, it isn’t even necessary. I write lovey dovey crap all the time. My main WIP was supposed to be a break from all that. Steph’s Crew was originally meant to be a YA/teen drama with some aspects of mystery/crime thrown in here and there. I didn’t want to add any romantic elements to it at first (except for Ben. He was still going to exist, there just wasn’t going to be as much of an focus on their relationship). But I had to. Because I love love! 💗

I’m sure there’s probably other things I could add if I thought hard enough… but I’m going to leave it there for now.

Thanks for the ask, @sam-glade!

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