#capitalism is inherently exploitative
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rainbowpopeworld · 2 years ago
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vulcanmaterialscompany · 1 year ago
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Touting itself in PR social media as the greatest, most responsible, environmentally-friendly corporation when they are, in fact, the exact opposite of all those things.
They are terrorists who are damaging people's houses through massive blasts that travel a long distance, ignoring any and all complaints from neighbors (because they've bought the corrupt politicians who make the laws and regulations), destroying the environment by bulldozing trees surrounding the quarries they operate, all while furthering overdevelopment.
Furthermore, they are bribing lawmakers and politicians through campaign donations to continue having weak regulations governing the mining and construction industry.
Here is a link from OpenSecrets.org of the money Vulcan Materials has donated to lawmakers.
You don't just have for-profit corporations giving money away; they're receiving a return on their investment, and that's called bribery.
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lilac-set · 3 months ago
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Genuine question, why does tumblr hate libertarians so much? I considered myself libertarian for like most of my life because I cared a lot about civil rights and didn’t really think about economics that much, and then becoming a socialist was like the tiniest shift in my ideology. Like really insignificant. Nothing really changed. Sometimes I call myself a left libertarian instead of an anarchist when I’m talking to people irl because I think it’ll be a more palatable term to them and it’s basically the same thing. Who cares
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knifeslidez · 13 days ago
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"swerfs" should all shut up forever, learn, or die tee bee aych
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the-acid-pear · 5 months ago
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if i was 5% insaner i'd make a post about DSaF and the great gatsby but i havent played the game in months so i'll leave that to someone else
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platonic-cats · 8 months ago
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I hate hospitality I hate work I hate my boss I hate capitalism I hate exams I have school.
I want to roll into a ball and hibernate
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mentoscola · 1 year ago
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i love people who say shit like this and obviously have absolutely zero clue about space exploration. this isn't a ""leftist"" position this is just cultural christianity
the irony of it all is that you're using the internet to post these takes. do you think that the internet would exist without space research?
there are thousands of valid critiques of nasa/the space industry. this is not one of them.
do you have any opinions of NASA being on Tumblr?
the whole nasa worship thing is fucked and the prima facie assumption that space exploration is some kind of humanitarian good is so insane for multiple reasons but the actual effect of any given tumblr account is fairly limited simply by the fact that this website is unpopular and not lucrative
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kienansidhe · 1 year ago
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so listen i fucking hate landlords but! i think we gotta stop making fun of landlords for "passive income" and stick to focusing on the way they, you know, get that income by exploiting people, by withholding the basic human right for shelter from others.
people love to be like oh landlords dont do any actual work like the rest of us, but like? a lot of disabled people cant do "actual work" either. people hate us because we collect ssi (if we can even get through those hoops) without working "real" jobs or creating any value that capitalism cares about. some of the stuff ppl say abt landlords sounds exactly the same. landlords DO suck but the way some of yall talk about them rlly shows that youre still stuck in a capitalist and christian and ableist mindset, where you think everyone should struggle to justify their existence, their right to food and shelter, their right to survive.
personally i think we should ALL get passive income (universal basic income <3) because we have inherent value regardless of how much we work. we just shouldnt impoverish our fellow people to do so!
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genderoutlaws · 2 months ago
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ppl keep leaving comments on that post abt slave labor in the coffee industry basically being like well no ethical consumption under capitalism, everything is equally bad so there's no point in trying at all, checkmate op.
like the realization that there is no ethical consumption under capitalism is, i always thought, meant to be a call to action, reminding you this way of life is inherently exploitative and that's exactly why we cannot accept it as just the way of the world. but i feel like more and more it's used to justify unethical actions and over consumption.
and i'm sorry but i think sometimes you can and should make more ethical choices as a consumer! by and large that's by focusing on reducing your consumption, not buying every single trend you see on tiktok shop on a whim and then discarding it a month later type consumption habits, but i think also doing bare minimum research to try and buy coffee or other luxury goods from reputable farms where the workers are paid living wages is incredibly reasonable. am i crazy like.
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apas-95 · 2 years ago
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As it apparently needs to be restated - race, ethnicity, and nationality are not themselves the basic drivers of history. Political-economic class is.
The European practice of placing African people into chattel slavery was not carried out on the basis of any innate characteristics of 'blackness' or 'whiteness' - those categories did not exist before the slave trade, they were created in support of it. Europe at the time found it would be beneficial to have a class of slave workers for its colonial projects, and it had the military, political, and economic might to subjugate Africa and African people to that end. Had you asked a Prussian and a Scotsman prior to the institution of African slavery if they were both members of a common 'race', they would have found the idea ridiculous - and yet, transport those two ahead in time, and perhaps to settlements in the Americas, and suddenly they were both Whites. Whiteness (and its necessary counterpart, blackness), then, is not some intrinsic quality based on the tone of someone's skin, but a political and economic category constructed to differentiate between those people that could be oppressed and made chattel by the slave trade, and those that could not.
This is true for all these systems of oppression - though they may be divided on supposed lines of biology or locality, they are not inherently based on biological factors, those are functionally coincidental, and are constructed as justifications for a system necessitated by purely political and economic reasons. Nazi oppression of Jewish, and Roma, and Slavic [and etc.] people was not fundamentally based on any inherent quality of e.g. Judaism, but on the economic needs of German capital under the burden of postwar reconstruction and 'war reparations' paid to the victorious powers. It was not blind hatred, but the inevitable result of a society built in pursuit of profit - one whose ruling class held a cold, calculated need to expropriate wealth, weaken worker organisation, and seize and depopulate land to strengthen the composition of capital. It was still necessary for this system to split the population into one group of 'legitimate targets' for victimisation, and one of reassured, protected accomplices, though there were no obvious physical, 'biological' features to base these on - so they were constructed, both through propaganda that exaggerated physiology, and through the appending of obvious badges and marks onto those targeted. Again, these were sets of features, and categories, created to support a system of oppression and exploitation, not the reasons it came into being in the first place.
Again, these are fundamentally political and economic categories, and can only be properly understood as such. If not properly understood as being based, first and foremost, on material interests of classes, then any analysis of them is unstable. For example: appeals to the supposed ancestral claim of zionists to the land of Palestine, and thereby to indigineity, can only be refuted with an understanding that indigeneity is a political and economic characteristic, of relation towards the oppression of a settler state, and not some characteristic of where one's ancestors were born. None of this is to say that race, nationality, etc don't function as axes of oppression - but that they must be understood as manifestations of the existing political and economic material interests of classes that drive the development of history, if they are to be fought against.
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elbiotipo · 2 months ago
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I would like to emphasize "will". Capitalism will fall. The inherent contradictions of capitalism make for a class struggle. We live in a period of history where the material and technological conditions can sustain a global socialist society. There exists massive exploited populations that run the world economy, unequally distributed wealth, and tools that will raise class consciousness. The end result will be revolutions and the establishment of socialism across the world.
Again, this isn't fantasy or utopianism, it's the logical consequence of applying the theories of marxism to study our current society. It's not something I made up either, it's something that has been discussed extensively.
There are many details one can agree and disagree with, and it certainly isn't a magical or bespoke process (for this to be achieved there must be political organization, this doesn't happen out of nowhere), but it is, again, the logical consequence of historical materialism: there is a class struggle right now between the working people and capitalists, between exploited countries and the imperial core. The contradictions of capitalism will not allow it to sustain itself indefinitively, and socialism aligns with the interest of the majority. This struggle only has one way to resolve itself; with the establishment of socialism.
Capitalism will be just a phase in human history, probably not even a very long one.
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utilitycaster · 4 months ago
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I think the fallacy that Downfall/Divergence lays bare is that again, Brennan is not simply a Capitalism And Power Bad guy (and indeed, it's fundamentally impossible to play D&D as Power Inherently Bad - it simply does not support that thesis and indeed actively works against it as a game system, regardless of how you feel about the nature of power in real life. It is also pretty much impossible to play as Violence and Murder Inherently Bad, and I think many analyses of actual play fail when people try to act like it could be played as such). The consistent message is that exploitation and failure to care for those less powerful, and a refusal to change, is the problem. And I think that Aeor and Marlath ultimately serve a similar purpose within these narratives.
The truth of the matter is that Aeor and Marlath are negatively affected by the greater powers within the context of the Calamity. While Aeor has consistently been described and portrayed as an isolationist, authoritarian, and warmongering city-state during the Age of Arcanum and early Calamity, presumably circumstances were more preferable to them during a time of terrestrial abundance, even if they were not themselves farming. Whether or not Aeor's response to the Calamity was justified is a matter of debate; but it is undeniable that they were genuinely scared of the gods. Similarly, Marlath was an opportunistic bureaucrat even before he sold others out (and was not rewarded), but he was still living under the tyranny of the Strife Emperor himself, serving as a cog in the machine because it was preferable to the alternative. Fear was the motivation for him as well, as it is for many who become part of an authoritarian regime.
The mageocracy of Aeor and Marlath's actions caused others concern; but both had opportunity to change for the better. Both failed. They may have again been acting from fear and trauma; but in doing so showed them as entities who would sell out the weakest in their community for their own benefit. Aeor focused not on medicine nor helping their fellow Exandrians, but on weaponry and persecution. Marlath's skills in inventory could have been a boon to a resource-limited community, but he chose exploitation. Selena could have kept her knowledge to herself and at least, in her last moments, tried to save her city if not her creation. She did not.
Within the context of the narrative, the destruction of Aeor and the cutting out of Marlath's tongue are not, in my opinion, joyful triumphs. I may cheer the latter - it is in many ways a victory, unlike Aeor which can only be framed as tragic, and also, crucially, it's pretend - but this is someone who was given multiple chances! Hell, maybe Fiedra didn't make the right choice - not that Marlath didn't need to be stopped (as much was said on Cooldown) but maybe there was, in this case, a nonviolent option. However, it's hard to condemn Fiedra either; she nearly died in the woods and was saved by this camp, and to see someone she stuck her neck out for and suffer with for over a week not just plan this exploitation, but assume she'd be in it on it, is a hard pill to swallow.
And so too in that way do Aeor and Marlath serve as turning points for the people who doomed them. The Prime Deities immediately decide to remove themselves from Exandria as soon as they can seal away the Betrayers again, taking no joy in what they've done. Fiedra tells Nez that she and her gang will be protectors, at risk to themselves, after a lifetime of being survivors at times at the expense of others. They change where others couldn't.
I think a lot of people like to assign D&D villains concepts and epithets, like Capitalism or Imperialism or Landlord or Religion, because it feels very good to destroy these things, and very bad to realize that to destroy them is to cut out the tongue of someone who may have escaped the same horrors as you and crossed the same wilderness. Most people do wish this change will come without "danger, fear, or risk on their part" and are dismayed to find there is not a bloodless option. The BBEG isn't just an avatar of capitalism: they are a person who keeps choosing it and won't listen to signs and speeches to change their ways. Similarly, the hero is not just the person who stops them; they are the person who realizes that they themselves are not without their own ways to change.
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foone · 1 year ago
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Me: The thing is I'm not sure it's even possible to do a non-problematic "ethical" factory game at this point. Like, sure you can design it so that genocide and colonization aren't part of your particular game, but so many of the genre tropes are stained with them. There's a patina of colonialist thinking over everything: the idea of untouched nature as being useless except for raw material for your factory, or as a trash dump for pollution. Even if you try to avoid all the negative implications you're still building on a genre which is a fever dream of capitalism: you're playing a one-man colonization and industrialization of unspoiled nature. You're like an incarnation of Columbia, manifest destiny in human form.
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And in many ways, Factorio dropping the ball so obviously (with the "watch out for the natives!" line) was probably a good thing for the discourse about factory games. Otherwise we could have had this entire genre, with all the same unfortunate implications and unaddressed biases, without the obvious pointer that this is a colonialist power fantasy, you know? Factorio said the quiet part out loud, making it impossible to ignore the inherent ethical issues of this genre.
Cali: good points, sure, but my factory game is about kidnapping men, feminizing then, and sexually exploiting them.
Me: uhh. Okay so while you may be trying (like all factory game creators, hopefully) to remove the obvious ethical issues with the genre, that's kinda overshadowed by the HUGE BUCKET OF NEW ONES you've dumped on it.
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winedarkgod · 5 months ago
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something that comes up a lot in pagan spaces both online and irl I've noticed is this idea that nature/the natural world is "preferred" by the Gods, and that they aren't as likely to engage with worshippers in big cities or with modern technology.
and while it is true that nature is extremely important to the Gods, and many of us are frankly isolated from it, it has always felt off to me that people just unquestioningly accept this idea that Nature = Good and Civilization = Bad.
maybe it's because our current society is not structured in a way that allows for a reciprocal relationship with nature, or maybe it's because of some unconscious "noble savage" tropes being projected onto the polytheistic societies of the past.
regardless, when you actually look at the mythology, you find this assumption isn't true. sure, there are deities who may individually lean towards one or the other (Artemis comes to mind) - but generally speaking the Gods engaged with both the natural world and what was, for the time, modern society.
and I love the wild/nature aspects of Dionysus SO much. but to only focus on that side of him, and ignore his role in theater, viticulture and the arts (part of culture and civilization) would be both a disservice to myself and the power of the God.
and then there are Gods like Hephaestus, who may even "prefer" engaging with modern technology. people seem to forget there are like, literal robots in Greek mythology?
here's an example:
"The [mythical first bronze] temple [of Apollon at Delphoi] was the work of Hephaistos, or the legend about the Golden Singers, referred to by Pindaros in his verses about this bronze temple :--‘Above the pediment sang Khryseiai Keledones (Golden Charmers).’"
Pausanias, Description of Greece 10. 5. 12 (trans. Jones)
Hephaestus made Apollo automaton singers for one of his temples?? like that's cool as fuck
(as a side note, I do NOT think the arguments I'm making here apply to AI generated "content" - Hephaestus never made anything that deliberately stole the artwork of humans. fuck AI.)
but my point here is that for most of the Gods, the Nature vs. Civilization thing a lot of pagans hold on to is a false dichotomy. capitalism, colonialism and the exploitation of life have made our current society unsustainable, but civilization itself isn't inherently bad.
we must respect and honor nature. but we also need to respect and honor ourselves.
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aryadelvich · 5 months ago
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Love, Hate Thing - Luigi Mangione x Reader
It's always like that between you and him, constantly competing, you hating him for being so good, and Luigi hating you for never giving him rest. You couldn't stand each other.
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Luigi leaned back in his chair, arms crossed over his broad chest, his piercing green/brown eyes narrowing at you like you'd just declared war. His curls fell slightly into his face, and he pushed them back with a practiced flick of his hand.
You smirked, leaning forward on your elbows, your own gaze never wavering.
"And here I thought you were paying attention in class. Guess not. Maybe if you spent less time flexing your abs for the cheer squad and more time studying, you'd actually keep up."
His jaw tightened, but there was something else in his expression—something that made his usual cocky grin falter for half a second. He recovered quickly, though, flashing that signature smile that made half the campus swoon.
"Funny. I don't recall asking for your opinion on how I spend my time. But hey, if you're so obsessed with my abs, maybe I should start charging for the view."
You swear, if this guy wasn't built like a Greek god, you'd have punched him by now.
But you didn't punch him. Instead, you rolled your eyes, shoving your notes into your bag with more force than necessary.
"Don't flatter yourself, Mangione. Your ego's already big enough to fill this entire lecture hall."
He laughed, low and deep, and it grated on your nerves.
« Whatever you say, Y/N. But I'm gonna win the debate competition." He trailed off, letting the implication hang in the air between him and you.
It's been two years consecutive that he wins this competition, and you knew that it's was your chance to prove yourself and for the same occasion humiliate him.
You stood abruptly, slinging your bag over your shoulder.
"Good luck catching up," you said, your tone dripping with sarcasm. "You're gonna need it."
As your walked away, you could feel his eyes on you, burning into your back like twin lasers. What the hell is his problem? You thought, your heart pounding for reasons you refused to acknowledge.
You've been at each other's throats since freshman year, competing for top marks in every class, trading barbs whenever you crossed paths. It was exhausting, infuriating... and somehow, weirdly exhilarating.
Two Weeks Later – Debate Competition
The auditorium buzzed with anticipation as the final round of the debate competition began. The topic? "Is capitalism inherently exploitative?"
You stood at your podium, pulse steady, determination burning in your chest. Across from you, Luigi leaned against his own, exuding the same infuriating confidence he always did. His sleeves were rolled up, revealing his forearms, and he had that smug little smirk like he'd already won.
Not this time.
The moderator signaled for the debate to begin. Luigi started, his voice smooth and authoritative.
"Capitalism has lifted millions out of poverty, fostering innovation, competition, and economic growth. The free market incentivizes efficiency, rewarding those who work hard and contribute to society."
You let him talk, feigning disinterest as you twirled your pen between your fingers. When it was your turn, you took a deep breath and smiled.
"That's a nice fairy tale, Mangione. But let's talk reality. The wealth gap is wider than ever, workers are exploited for profit, and entire industries thrive on underpaying laborers while CEOs collect bonuses the size of small countries. If capitalism really rewarded hard work, explain why nurses barely make a livable wage while hedge fund managers get rich moving numbers around on a screen."
Luigi narrowed his eyes. "That's an oversimplification. The market adjusts itself. When a system is inefficient, it evolves—industries that fail to provide value either adapt or collapse. Competition forces innovation. If wages are too low, businesses will struggle to retain talent, and the market will naturally push salaries higher. Government intervention only distorts this balance, creating inefficiencies that harm long-term economic growth. The reality is, capitalism isn't perfect, but no other system has produced the same level of progress and opportunity."
"So you're saying child labor in sweatshops is just an inefficiency that'll 'fix itself'?" you responded smoothly.
A ripple of murmurs ran through the audience. Luigi hesitated—just for a second. His sisters, sitting with his parents in the front row, exchanged glances. You caught the small, proud smile on your own mother's face.
Game on.
You pressed forward, dismantling his every counterpoint with cold, hard facts. Every time he tried to regain control of the debate, you had an answer waiting. And for the first time since you'd started competing against him, he had nothing left to say.
When the final vote came in, the judges's decision was tight. But You won.
Luigi stared at the results, lips parted slightly, as if trying to process what had just happened.
"You okay there, Mangione?" you teased, stepping closer. "You look a little... shocked."
He blinked, then let out a slow exhale, running a hand through his curls.
"Huh," he muttered, shaking his head. "Didn't think I'd live to see the day."
You grinned, savoring the moment. "Better get used to it."
"You know," Luigi's voice was calmer now, lacking its usual teasing edge, "I didn't lose because you were better than me."
You turned, arching a brow. "Oh? So what, you tripped over your own ego and face-planted into defeat?"
He let out a short chuckle, shaking his head before meeting your gaze. But this time, there was no smug grin, no hint of competition—just honesty.
"I lost because I didn't even believe what I was saying."
You blinked, caught off guard. "What?"
Luigi sighed, leaning against one of the tables. "I've defended ideas in debates before. Won every time. But today? I couldn't bring myself to mean it."
He ran a hand through his curls, his lips pressing into a thin line.
"I know how messed up the system is. I know that no matter how much you try to justify it, it does exploit people. And the second I started talking, I realized I didn't have the same fire I usually do."
You crossed your arms, studying him. This was... unexpected.
"So, what? You're telling me you lost on purpose? »
"Of course not," he scoffed, shooting you a look. "I gave everything I had. But when you're up against someone who genuinely believes what they're saying? Someone who can argue with conviction? You don't stand a chance."
A slow smirk tugged at your lips. "Sounds like an excuse to me, Mangione."
He rolled his eyes. "Oh, shut up.”
You took a step closer, tilting your head. "You know, the whole point of oratory is to convince people, even when you don't believe in what you're saying."
Luigi's gaze flickered with interest. "So you're saying you could argue for capitalism and win?"
You shrugged. "Maybe."
He huffed a laugh, shaking his head. "That's terrifying."
You grinned. "That's debate"
For a moment, there was silence. The usual sharp tension between you had shifted into something else—something quieter. He watched you with an unreadable expression, and for once, you didn't feel the need to break the moment with a snarky remark.
But then he smirked. "Enjoy your victory while it lasts, Y/N. Next time, I won't go easy on you."
You scoffed. "You didn't go easy on me. You just lost."
His smile faltered for half a second, then he laughed under his breath. "Right. Keep telling yourself that."
Before you could respond, your little sister, darted right past you, running up to him.
"Are you Luigi?" she asked, eyes wide.
Luigi crouched slightly to her level, flashing a grin. "Depends. Are you the little sister who's probably way smarter than your big one?"
Before your sister could answer, you grabbed her by the shoulders and pulled her back.
"Don't talk to him," you told her, voice mock-serious. "He's a racist."
The conversation halted. Luigi's jaw dropped slightly. His sisters, standing a few feet away, whipped their heads toward him. His mother gasped. Your own mother smacked your arm.
"Y/N!"
You snorted, unable to hold in your laughter. "Relax, he's not actually racist. He's just annoying."
Luigi sighed in relief. His father gave him a skeptical glance, and one of his sisters muttered, "For a second, I was about to disown you."
"You're not funny," Luigi grumbled at you, shaking his head.
"You laughed, though."
"Absolutely not." He said with a smile on his face.
"Mm-hm. Sure."
You turned to introduce your mother properly to his family, but out of the corner of your eye, you caught something—Luigi watching you. Not with his usual smirk. Not with irritation. Just watching.
— Summer Break —
The sun hung high over the camp, casting warm golden light over the rows of cabins and the dense forest surrounding them. You adjusted your staff T-shirt, feeling the heat seep into your skin as you made your way toward the main hall for the pre-opening staff meeting.
You had applied to work here months ago—decent pay, free lodging, and a summer spent beside the beach and the soft breeze of summer.
Or so you thought.
The moment you walked into the meeting room, your body froze.
Leaning casually against one of the tables, arms crossed over his chest, wearing the same staff T-shirt as you, was Luigi.
His curls were slightly damp, probably from the heat, and he looked up just in time to see you enter.
For a moment, the room went silent.
Then, in perfect sync:
"No way."
You both said it at the exact same time, staring at each other in disbelief.
Luigi let out a short laugh, shaking his head. "You're kidding me."
"I should be the one saying that," you shot back, still processing the sheer misery of the situation. "What the hell are you doing here?"
"Volontarisme, obviously." He gestured at the staff badge hanging around his neck. "What, you think I came for the fresh air?"
You groaned, dragging a hand down your face. The other counselors were already watching with amused expressions, whispering to each other.
One of the senior staff members, a woman named Maya, clapped her hands together. "Alright, I take it you two know each other?"
Luigi smirked. "Oh, we go way back."
You shot him a glare before turning back to Maya. "We're at the same university, don't know him."
"Right," Maya said, clearly entertained. "Well, you'll have plenty of time to work on your teamwork skills this summer."
Luigi grinned, and you immediately regretted every life choice that led you here.
— Three weeks later —
It had been three weeks since the summer camp started, and somehow, you and Luigi had mostly managed to stay out of each other's way.
Until today.
The staff had been assigned to deep-clean the common areas before the next wave of campers arrived. You were already in a bad mood from scrubbing floors when Maya, ever the troublemaker, sent you and Luigi to restock cleaning supplies in the storage room.
The small, cramped storage closet filled with bleach, detergent, and every cleaning product imaginable.
"Just grab what we need and get out," you muttered as you pulled open the door.
Luigi, of course, took his time. "Relax. It's not like the camp's gonna collapse if we take an extra minute."
You rolled your eyes and grabbed a mop from the shelf. "That attitude is why you lost the debate, by the way."
Luigi snorted. "Oh, we're bringing that up again? Please, you won because I was morally conflicted."
"You lost because I was better than you."
"And yet, here we are, stuck working the same job," he pointed out, raising a brow.
You were about to fire back a retort when the door shut behind you.
Then, the distinct click of the lock turning.
Silence.
You whipped around. Luigi reached for the handle, twisting it. Nothing. He tried again. Locked.
He let out a sharp exhale, then turned to you, scowling.
"You couldn't keep the damn door open with your big ass?"
Your eyes widened.
Then, without thinking, you grabbed the nearest spray bottle and chucked it straight at him.
"Are you serious right now?!" you snapped as he barely dodged it. "We're trapped in a closet full of BLEACH, and you're blaming me ?”
Luigi ran a hand through his curls, clearly trying to keep his temper in check. "I'm just saying, maybe if you didn't take up half the doorway—"
"Finish that sentence, Mangione. I dare you."
He shut his mouth.
You let out a slow breath, pressing your fingers against your temples. "Unbelievable. I'm going to die here. With you."
Luigi scoffed. "Oh please, if anyone's dying first, it's me. You'll probably suffocate me before the lack of oxygen does."
You turned to glare at him. "That can be arranged."
A dozen ideas flashed through his mind—one in particular involving you and a rather strategic seating arrangement—but he wisely kept that thought to himself.
"I didn't say it was your fault—"
"Oh, shut up, Mangione." You pressed your forehead against the door, willing it to magically open.
No luck.
From the other side, you heard faint laughter.
The air between you shifted slightly. The usual sharpness of your arguments was still there, but being stuck in a cramped space with him suddenly made it feel... different.
Closer.
Too close.
You cleared your throat, stepping away from the door. "Let's just find another way out before we die of chemical inhalation."
Luigi smirked, that irritating confidence returning. "Scared of being trapped with me, Y/N?"
You shot him a glare. "Terrified."
His chuckle was low and amused as he crossed his arms. "Don't worry. I'll protect you from the scary cleaning supplies."
You could hear the faint click of his tongue, the sound of him shifting slightly behind you. His body grazed yours, and you felt a shiver run down your spine.
You reached for your phone, only to realize it wasn't in your pocket. Of course. You'd left it in your bag. "Do you have your phone?"
"No," he admitted, his tone clipped. "Left it in my locker."
Silence fell between you, heavy and suffocating. The room was cramped, the shelves stacked with supplies pressing in on all sides. You could feel the heat radiating off him, his presence impossible to ignore.
You pressed yourself harder against the shelf, hoping to put some space between you and Luigi, but it was useless. He was right behind you, his chest nearly brushing against your back.
"Can you not stand so close?" you snapped, trying to keep your voice steady.
"I would if I could," he said, his voice annoyingly calm. "But there's literally nowhere else to go."
The room was suffocatingly small, and the faint scent of his cologne wasn't helping.
"Well, stop breathing down my neck," you muttered, hoping the irritation in your tone would mask the way your heart was hammering in your chest.
He let out a quiet laugh, and you could feel the rumble of it in the air between you.
"I'm not breathing down your neck," he said, his voice dipping lower, "but you do seem tense. Nervous, even."
Your jaw tightened as his words sank in, your irritation bubbling to the surface. You turned your head just enough to glare at him over your shoulder, but immediately regretted it. He was too close. His face was inches from yours, his dark eyes locked onto yours with a mix of amusement and something else you couldn't quite place.
"Back off," you hissed.
"Sure," he replied smoothly, "as soon as we figure out how to open that door."
You rolled your eyes and turned back to the lock, ignoring how your hands shook slightly as you fiddled with the knob. The silence stretched between you, heavy and thick, until you felt him lean in closer.
"Are you always this stubborn, or is it just when I'm around?" he murmured near your ear, his voice low and teasing.
Your breath hitched, and you bit the inside of your cheek to stop yourself from reacting. Instead, you glared at the lock as if it were the source of all your problems.
"Are you always this insufferable, or is it just with me?" you shot back.
He chuckled again, soft and infuriating. "Maybe I just like seeing you flustered."
Your grip tightened on the handle as your heart raced. You weren't flustered. No. That's exactly what he wanted, and you weren't going to give him the satisfaction.
"Don't flatter yourself," you muttered, shoving the handle harder in a desperate attempt to break free.
But in the back of your mind, as you felt his warmth against your back and his calm, steady presence behind you, you weren't sure if you wanted him to move away after all.
And then it happened. You felt it.
A subtle shift against your lower back, a hardness you hadn't anticipated. Your breath caught in your throat, your body instinctively stiffening. No. This was not happening. Not with him.
But it was happening. You could feel him—every inch of him—pressed against you. His breath hitched, barely audible, but you heard it. A soft, involuntary sound that sent a jolt through you.
Neither of you moved. Neither of you spoke. The silence stretched on, thick with tension, and you were hyper-aware of every tiny movement. His hardness pressed more insistently against you, and you couldn't stop the way your body reacted.
Without thinking, you shifted slightly, just enough to feel him more fully against you. His breath caught again, and you heard him swallow hard.
"Y/n," he whispered, his voice strained.
You didn't respond. Instead, you did it again, this time more deliberately. You rubbed against him, feeling the way he tensed behind you, the way his breath came in shallow bursts.
"Fuck," he muttered under his breath, his hands gripping the shelves on either side of you. You could feel him struggling to stay still, to resist the pull between you. But it was too late. You'd already crossed the line.
You pushed back against him again, your heart pounding in your chest. This was wrong. He was your rival. Your enemy. And yet, the way he was reacting to you—the way his body responded to every move you made—was impossible to ignore.
He groaned softly, the sound sending a shiver down your spine. His hips moved against you, almost unconsciously, and you could feel the heat building between you.
"You're not... stopping," he breathed, his voice barely audible.
"You want me to stop?" you shot back, your tone defiant.
“No,” he said between two moans.
He let out a low, guttural sound, his body pressing harder against yours. You could feel the tension in him, the way he was trying—and failing—to hold back.
And then it happened. He came.
You felt it—the way his body trembled against yours, the way his breath hitched, the way he let out a soft, almost pained moan. His hands gripped the shelves tighter, his body shuddering as he spilled into his pants.
The room fell silent again, the only sound the ragged breaths escaping both of you. You stood there, your back still pressed against him, your mind racing.
"Fuck," he muttered again, his voice rough and filled with frustration.
You didn't respond. You couldn't. Your body was still humming with the tension, the heat, the way he'd reacted to you.
And then, finally, he spoke again. "This doesn't change anything," he said, his voice low and firm.
You turned your head slightly, just enough to see his profile in the dim light. His jaw was clenched, his expression hard. "No," you agreed, your voice steady despite the turmoil inside you. "It doesn't."
But as you stood there, still pressed against him, you couldn't help but wonder—was that really true?
You hesitated, your heart pounding in your chest as you felt the heat of his body against yours. His breath was warm on your neck, and the tension between you was almost unbearable. But something in you resisted—this wasn't the time, and he wasn't the one who got to decide when things escalated.
Not like this. Not with him.
You took a deep breath, then stepped back, breaking the contact between you. The sudden distance felt cold, like you'd ripped off a blanket in the middle of winter. Luigi blinked, his expressive face flickering with surprise before it settled back into that infuriating smirk.
"What are you doing?" he asked, his voice low but laced with curiosity.
"I'm not doing anything," you shot back, crossing your arms over your chest. "You're the one who got us stuck in here. So, figure out how to get the door open."
He raised an eyebrow, that smirk widening. "Oh, so now it's my fault? I seem to recall you were the one who followed me into the lab in the first place."
Your cheeks flushed, but you refused to let him see how much his words affected you. "I didn't follow you. I had work to do. You just happened to be here."
"Sure," he said, his tone dripping with sarcasm. "And I just happened to get locked in here with you. Totally a coincidence."
You rolled your eyes, turning away from him to examine the door more closely. "Just fix it, Luigi. I don't have time for your games."
He stepped closer, his presence looming behind you. You could feel the warmth of his body again, and it took everything in you not to lean back into it. "What if I don't want to?" he murmured, his voice so soft it sent a shiver down your spine. "What if I think this is... convenient?"
You whirled around, glaring at him. "Convenient? Are you serious right now? We're locked in a lab, Luigi. This isn't some romantic comedy. This is a safety hazard."
He chuckled, the sound low and smooth, like it was meant only for you. "Romantic comedy, huh? So, you do think about us like that."
"I think you're delusional," you snapped, though your voice wavered slightly. "Now, either you figure out how to open this door, or I'll start yelling for help."
Your heart was racing now, and you could feel your resolve starting to crumble. Why does he have to be like this? You clenched your fists, trying to steady yourself. "Luigi, I swear, if you don't back off—"
"If I don't back off, what?" he interrupted, his voice dropping to a whisper. "What are you going to do about it?"
You spun around, ready to snap at him again, but the look in his eyes stopped you. There was something there—something raw and unfiltered. It wasn't just arrogance or amusement. It was... truth. And it terrified you.
"Why are you doing this?" you asked, your voice barely above a whisper.
He didn't answer right away. Instead, he reached out, his fingers brushing against your arm. The touch was light, almost hesitant, but it sent a jolt of electricity through you. "Because I can't help myself," he admitted, his voice rough. "Because every time I'm near you, I can't think straight. And I hate it."
You stared at him, your breath catching in your throat. "You hate it?"
"Yes," he said, his hand moving to cup your cheek. "But I also can't stop."
His thumb traced a slow, deliberate path along your jawline, and you felt your resistance melting away. This is a bad idea, your brain whispered, but your body didn't seem to care.
"Luigi..." you started, but he cut you off, his lips crashing into yours with a hunger that took your breath away.
For a moment, you froze, unsure of what to do. But then your body took over, your hands tangling in his hair as you kissed him back with equal intensity. It was messy, it was desperate, and it was everything you'd been trying to avoid.
He pressed you against the door, his body pinning you in place as his hands roamed over your waist, your hips, your thighs. You gasped into his mouth, your mind spinning as the world around you faded away.
"You drive me crazy," he murmured against your lips, his voice heavy with need. "You know that, right?"
You didn't respond. You couldn't. All you could do was hold on as he deepened the kiss, his fingers digging into your skin like he was afraid you'd disappear if he let go.
And then, just as suddenly as it had started, he pulled away, leaving you breathless and wanting.
"I... I've never done that before," he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper.
"Luigi..." you whispered, your voice trembling.
He stared at you, his chest rising and falling rapidly. "We shouldn't do this," he said, though his eyes said something entirely different.
"Then why did you start it?" you asked, your voice barely audible.
He hesitated, then stepped back, running a hand through his hair. "Because I'm an idiot," he admitted, his tone laced with frustration. "And because I can't stay away from you, no matter how hard I try."
Your heart skipped a beat, and for a moment, you were at a loss for words. What do I do now?
Before you could answer, he turned away, pacing the small room like a caged animal. "This is a terrible idea," he muttered, mostly to himself. "You're my competition. My rival. This is only going to complicate things."
"You're the one who kissed me," you pointed out, your voice steadier now.
He stopped pacing and looked at you, his expression a mix of desire and resignation. "Yeah, I did. And I'd do it again if you let me."
Luigi's words hung in the air, heavy and undeniable. "I'd do it again if you let me." His eyes burned into yours, daring you to make the next move. The lab felt impossibly small now, the air thick with tension and the faint hum of the fluorescent lights overhead. Your heart raced, torn between the logical part of your brain screaming that this was a terrible idea and the part that wanted to see just how far he'd go.
You stepped closer, your breath hitching as his gaze followed you. His lips parted slightly, as if he was about to say something, but no words came out. Instead, he just watched you, his expressive face betraying a mix of anticipation and doubt. You reached out, your fingers brushing against the hem of his hoodie, and felt him tense under your touch.
"You're not going to stop me, are you?" you murmured, your voice low but steady.
He swallowed hard, his Adam's apple bobbing. "Do I look like I want to stop you?"
That was all the confirmation you needed. Your hands moved to the waistband of his short, fingers fumbling with the button and zipper. He didn't help you, but he didn't stop you either, his hands hovering at his sides, he wasn't sure what to do with them —much like you. It was the first time you had ever been this close to a man. When you finally got the zipper down, you glanced up at him, and for the first time, you saw a flicker of vulnerability in his eyes.
"Don't overthink it," he said, his voice rough but soft.
You didn't. You pushed his jeans down just enough to free him, your fingers wrapping around his length. He let out a sharp exhale, his head tipping back slightly as you began to stroke him, — tasting his previous cum — slow and deliberate. His hands finally found their place, one tangling in your hair while the other gripped the edge of the lab table behind him.
"Fuck," he muttered under his breath, his voice strained. "You're not playing fair."
You smirked, your lips brushing against the tip of him before you took him into your mouth. His grip on your hair tightened, his hips twitching forward instinctively, but he stopped himself, letting you set the pace. You could taste the salt of him, feel the way he hardened further as you worked him with your tongue and lips. His breaths came in shallow gasps, and when you glanced up at him, you saw his eyes dark with desire, his jaw clenched as he fought to stay in control.
"You're—" he started, but his words cut off into a groan when you hollowed your cheeks, taking him deeper. His hand in your hair tightened again, not painfully, but enough to make your scalp tingle. "Oh, you're good at this."
You pulled back slightly, swirling your tongue around the tip before looking up at him. "You sound surprised."
He let out a breathless laugh, his chest rising and falling rapidly. "I shouldn't be. You're good at everything."
The compliment sent a thrill through you, and you returned your attention to him, sucking harder this time. His hips jerked forward, and he cursed under his breath, his fingers flexing in your hair. "Careful," he warned, though there was no real threat in his tone. "If you keep doing that, I'm not going to last."
You hummed in response, the vibration making him groan again. His free hand found its way to your shoulder, gripping it tightly as if he needed something to ground him. You could feel him trembling under your touch, his control unraveling with every stroke of your tongue, every flick of your lips. He was close—you could tell by the way his breathing hitched, the way his thighs tensed under your hands.
"Wait," he said suddenly, his voice strained. "Wait, I—"
You didn't stop. Instead, you took him deeper, your throat relaxing as you swallowed him down. His grip on your hair tightened almost painfully, but you didn't mind. You wanted him to lose control, to let go completely. And he did. With a low, guttural groan, he came, his body stiffening as he spilled into your mouth. You swallowed, your lips still wrapped around him as he rode out the aftershocks, his breath coming in ragged gasps.
When you finally pulled away, he slumped back against the lab table, his chest heaving. His hand fell from your hair, and he ran it over his face, letting out a shaky laugh. "Fuck," he said again, his voice hoarse. "That was—fuck."
You stood up, wiping your mouth with the back of your hand. He looked at you, his eyes still dark but softer now, almost tender. "You're insane," he muttered, but there was a hint of a smile on his lips.
"So I've been told," you replied, your voice teasing.
He reached out, his fingers brushing against your cheek. "Come here," he said, his tone softer now. You stepped closer, and he kissed you—tasting himself—slow and deep, his hands tangling in your hair again. It was different from the first kiss—less frantic, more deliberate, as if he was trying to convey something he couldn't put into words.
You could feel his heart pounding against your chest, his breathing ragged, and it only made you want him more.
When you finally broke apart again, you were both panting, your foreheads pressed together.
"So... what now?" he asked, his voice barely audible.
You hesitated, your mind racing. What was next? You were still rivals, still the same people we'd been five minutes ago. And yet, something between you had shifted, something that couldn't be undone.
Before you could answer, the sound of footsteps outside the door made you both freeze.
"Hello? Is anyone in there?" a voice called from the other side.
Luigi and you quickly pulled apart, your faces flushed, as the door swung open. One of the other counselors stood there, looking confused.
"Oh, there you are! We've been looking for you two," they said, oblivious to what had just happened.
"Uh, yeah. We got... locked in," Luigi said, his voice uneven.
"Right. Well, come on, we need you out here for the next activity," they said, turning and walking away.
Luigi glanced at you, his expression unreadable. "So... next time we're alone—"
"Next time," you interrupted, your voice firm. "We finish what we started."
— Sunset —
The air was thick with the scent of pine and campfire as the sun dipped below the horizon, painting the sky in hues of orange and purple. The camp was alive with laughter and chatter, but your mind was elsewhere. Luigi. The memory of his lips on yours, his hands trembling against your waist, lingered like a phantom touch. You couldn't shake it. The rivalry had always been intense, but now it felt like something else entirely.
You found yourself wandering in the beach, where you can heard the sound of the waves and feel the breeze against your skin. The faint sound of rustling leaves caught your attention, and you turned to see Luigi standing a few feet away. He looked nervous, his hands shoved deep into the pockets of his shorts. "Hey," he said softly, his voice almost lost in the rustling of the waves.
"Hey," you replied, your heart pounding in your chest. There was something about the way he looked at you, a mix of vulnerability and determination, that made it hard to breathe. "What are you doing out here?"
He took a step closer, his eyes never leaving yours. "I wanted to talk to you. About... earlier."
You crossed your arms over your chest, trying to steady yourself. "What about it?"
He hesitated, his gaze flickering to the ground before meeting yours again. "I've never done that before. Kissed someone, I mean."
Your breath hitched. You knew he was a virgin, but hearing him say it out loud sent a jolt of electricity through you. "Neither have I," You admitted, your voice barely above a whisper.
He stared at you, his eyes wide with surprise. "Really?"
You nodded, feeling a blush creep up your cheeks. "Really."
There was a moment of silence, the tension between you palpable. Then, without warning, he closed the distance between you, his hands reaching out to grasp yours. His touch was warm, his fingers trembling slightly as they interlaced with yours. "I don't want to stop," he said, his voice low and rough. "I want to know what it's like. With you."
Your heart was racing now, your mind a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions. You wanted it too, wanted to feel him, all of him, but the rivalry that had always defined your relationship was still there, lurking beneath the surface. "What about this?" You asked, gesturing between him and you. "This... thing between us. Is it just about competition?"
He shook his head, his grip on your hands tightening. "No. It's not. It's never been just about that. Not really."
You searched his eyes, looking for any hint of deception, but all you saw was honesty, raw and unfiltered. "Then what is it?"
He swallowed hard, his Adam's apple bobbing in his throat. "It's... I don't know. Something more. Something I can't explain."
You didn't need an explanation. You could feel it, the pull between you and him, the way your bodies seemed to gravitate toward each other without conscious thought. You stepped closer, your chests almost touching, and tilted you head up to look at him. "Show me," you whispered.
His breath hitched, and for a moment, you thought he might pull away. But then his hands were on your face, his lips crashing into yours with a hunger that took your breath away. The kiss was different from the one in the supply room, deeper, more intense. It was like he was pouring everything he had into it, every ounce of his longing, his desire, his need.
You responded in kind, your hands sliding up his chest to grip the sides of his face. Your tongues clashed, the taste of him intoxicating. He groaned, the sound sending a shiver down your spine, and his hands moved to your waist, pulling you flush against him.
Breaking the kiss, he looked down at you, his eyes dark with desire. "Are you sure?" he asked, his voice strained.
You nodded, your own voice shaky. "Yes."
He hesitated for only a moment before scooping you up into his arms and carrying you deeper into the tent. You could feel the soft sand of the ground beneath you, and he gently set you down, his body hovering over yours.
"I've never done this before," he admitted, his voice trembling. "I don't know what I'm doing."
You reached up to cup his face, your thumb brushing over his cheek. "Neither do I. But we'll figure it out together."
He nodded, his eyes closing as he leaned into your touch. Then slowly, almost reverently, his hands began to explore your body, tracing the curve of your hip, the dip of your waist. Every touch sent a spark of electricity through you, your breath hitching as he moved lower.
His fingers fumbled with the button on your shorts, and you helped him, guiding his hands until the fabric slid down your legs. His eyes widened as he took you in, his breath coming in short, uneven bursts.
"You're beautiful," he whispered, his voice filled with awe.
His hands were tentative at first, exploring the curves of your body with a reverence that made your breath catch. And then he was kissing you again—starting at your collarbone, trailing down to your stomach, lower and lower until you felt his breath between your legs.
You tensed, your heart pounding in your chest. “Luigi,” you whispered, your voice trembling.
He looked up at you, his eyes blazing. “Trust me,” he said, his voice steady.
And you did. You trusted him enough to let go, to surrender to the waves of pleasure that crashed over you as he began to explore you with his mouth. His touch was hesitant at first, unsure, but quickly grew more confident as he learned what made you gasp, what made you arch your back.
“Where did you learn this?” You managed to say, your voice breathless. “In a book, uh?”
He paused, looking up at you with a smirk. “Maybe,” he said, his tone teasing. “Or maybe I just know what you like.”
You laughed—a soft, breathless sound that was quickly swallowed by the sensations coursing through you. His tongue was relentless, his hands gripping your hips as he brought you closer and closer to the edge.
You reached for him, your hands trembling as you undid his belt and slid his pants down. He was hesitant at first, his movements unsure, but as your bodies pressed together, skin against skin, a sense of urgency overtook the two of you.
He positioned himself between your legs, his eyes locked on yours.
"Are you sure?" he asked again, his voice barely audible.
You nodded, your heart pounding in your chest. "Yes. Please, Luigi."
With a shaky breath, he entered you, the sensation both strange and exhilarating. There was a moment of discomfort, a sharp sting that made you gasp, but he paused, his eyes filled with concern. "Are you okay?" he asked, his voice strained.
You nodded, your hands gripping his shoulders. "Yes. Please keep going."
He did as you asked, moving slowly at first, the friction between you building with each thrust. The awkwardness began to fade, replaced by a pleasure that was unlike anything you has ever felt. His movements became more confident, his body pressing against yours with a rhythm that had you gasping for air.
"Luigi," you moaned, his name slipping from your lips like a prayer. His hands gripped your hips, his touch firm but gentle as he moved inside of you. The tension, the rivalry that had always driven you, seemed to melt away, leaving only raw, unfiltered passion.
He leaned down, his lips capturing yours in a kiss that was as desperate as it was tender. Your tongues tangled, the taste of him mingling with the sensation of his body moving against yours. The world outside ceased to exist, the night fading into a blur of sensations and emotions.
You could feel the pressure building inside you, a coil of heat that threatened to unravel at any moment. His movements became more erratic, his breathing ragged as he whispered your name against your lips. "I'm close," he gasped, his voice filled with need.
"Me too," you replied, your hands clutching at his back. The tension inside you snapped, a wave of pleasure washing over you as you cried out his name. He followed soon after, his body tensing as he found his release, his voice a low, guttural moan against your neck.
For a moment, you lay there, your bodies tangled together, your breaths mingling in the cool night air. Then slowly, he pulled away, his eyes meeting yours.
"So... that just happened," he said, a small smile playing at the corners of his lips.
The reality of what you had just done began to sink in, your cheeks flushing with a mix of embarrassment and exhilaration. “I’ve never tough it will be with you." you replied, your voice barely above a whisper.
— End of summer back to university —
Back at university, it was as if nothing had changed. You still argued in class, still traded barbs at parties, still acted like you couldn't stand each other. But behind closed doors, in the privacy of Luigi's dorm room, it was a different story.
His room was small and cluttered, with textbooks piled on the desk and posters of his favorite bands peeling off the walls. But to you, it was your sanctuary. The place where you could let go of the act and just be with him. You'd sneak in late at night, careful not to be seen, and he'd be waiting for you, his lips claiming yours the moment the door clicked shut.
Tonight was no different. You were lying on his bed, his arms wrapped around you as you traced circle patterns on his chest. His heartbeat was steady beneath your fingertips, and the room was filled with the soft sound of his breathing.
"We can't keep doing this," he said suddenly, his voice cutting through the quiet.
You froze, your hand stilling on his chest. "What do you mean?"
"I mean..." He sat up, running a hand through his hair. "I don't want to hide this anymore. I don't want to pretend like I don't love you when we're around other people.”
Love. The word sent a shiver down your spine. You'd both danced around it, never saying it out loud, but hearing it now made your stomach twist with both fear and longing.
"I don't care what they think," he said fiercely, his eyes locking onto yours. "I love you. I want the whole world to know it."
You shook your head, sitting up to face him. A smile tugged at your lips as your heart pounded in your chest. His words hung in the air, heavy and undeniable.
"You mean that?" you asked softly, searching his face for any hesitation.
He didn't waver. "Of course I do."
Relief and warmth flooded through you, and without another thought, you cupped his face in your hands, leaning in until your foreheads touched.
"Then let's tell them," you whispered. "I love you too."
A large smile appeared in his face.
"No, I love you." He bids.
"Don't start a competition again..."
"Because you'll lose." He adds his smile still on his face.
Thanks you for reading all this ! If you have a request just ask I will do my best ! Which you all the best ! Love.
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Before someone sends a pipe bomb to my house, is it really that horrible and controversial to say that Jimmy was just as much of a victim failed by the same disgusting system as everyone else? While support from loved ones is important, he needed actual resources. We don’t know anything about him beyond that he was struggling, so all we can assume is that he couldn’t hold down a job that was definitely due to his severe mental health issues. There’s nothing wrong with being an advocate for a friend, but it’s incredibly irresponsible to put someone you know is unstable into a literal inescapable environment for MONTHS with people who don’t know what they’re getting into and ripping him away from the possibility of actual helpful resources like intense therapy, psychiatric counseling, and rehabilitation. This man needed to be surrounded by professional and community support systems, not a friend who dismisses everything he does because how is that productive at all? So many people are avoiding this conversation because they believe they’re dismissing what he did by being empathetic in that way and it drives me up the fucking wall.
Although I’m not an obsessive, violent, sociopathic narcissist, it’s painful just dealing with being bipolar, past suicidal deviation, and comparing myself to my best friends who have accomplished way more than me while I’ve been struggling to fill out even one job application. The capitalist system we live in grinds us down to our bones that if we can’t climb up the social ladder, that if we can’t pick ourselves up from our lowest alone, we aren’t worth shit and are weak—which leads to people like Jimmy lashing out on everything and everyone to gain some sense of superiority.
As someone who is extremely passionate about how capitalism has completely obliterated what it means to be in a caring community because of its intrinsic suffocating individualism, its exploitation of the lower class, and how we are chained down to an unforgiving inherent debt for our whole lives, I just find it childish that so many people avoid thinking about this aspect of his character or completely override him from the story all together.
As much as I LOATH him, I can’t help but wonder what could’ve happened if he did get the help he needed before Curly roped him into PE. While it unfortunately blew up in Anya and Curly’s face because they were taken advantage of, is it that fucking horrible to believe that someone can grow and change if given the chance (as long as they obviously don’t hurt you in the process)? It’s the same reason why the prison system—especially the American prison industrial complex—should be abolished because how the fuck is locking someone up for the rest of their lives going to do anything for anybody in the long run? Obviously he needed to be brought to legal justice, but I believe that we should start at the core of why he is the way he is, what will be effective for everybody in the long run, and the possibility of him being reintroduced into society once he gets his mf shit together before people start pulling him this way and that (with boundaries ofc.) I’m a victim of sexual assault and emotional abuse myself, but I don’t want that person to rot behind bars. I just want to heal and move on. I don’t want revenge, I want closure. I want to be able to face that person and know that they won’t hurt anybody else if I am to believe that I myself can grow beyond what happened.
I know that many other creators have expressed the same sentiments already, but I needed to get that off my chest too.
Anyways, this game means so much to me because it touches on societal issues that I care about. Fuck capitalism and may everyone be free from this hell.
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