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baeshijima · 2 years

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AAAAA OMG I JUST HAD A THOUGHT AFTER WATCH A VIDEO RECENTLY !! but imagine in streamer au! the boys receive a special package from mihoyo (yk the 'mimo's gift' package??) where it's just a custom bundle of things like merchandises from jenshin, along with other merch from their other games. BUT THERES A TWIST!! like a customary postcard where you, their fave character, thanks them for travelling alongside you or smth AAA JUST A CUTE THOUGHT ABT OUR CUTE BOYS 🥰🥰🥰🥰

NONNIE THIS IS SO CUTE WAITGHKDSGSL

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before we start, the mimo gift package, for those who don’t know, is a box with a thank you letter signed by da wei, 2 bits of merch from each of mihoyo’s games (genshin impact, honkai impact 3rd, tears of themis) and a separate drawer underneath w/ an acrylic standee, photocards of lumi from nova desktop and some merch from houkai gakuen 2/gun girls z. it was given to content creators of all kinds to show their appreciation and gratitude for producing content !!

𝐚𝐥𝐛𝐞𝐝𝐨

he wasn’t expecting to receive such a thing from mhy, but he’s incredibly grateful regardless !!

so when he started his stream and told his viewers it would be starting a little differently this time around, they were curious of course but ready to accept whatever he would put out

so just imagine their shock and excitement when he showed them the mimo gift he would be unboxing live on stream :’D

albedo didn’t know what he was expecting, but a thank you letter signed by the ceo was most definitely not it

felt quite touched by that, ngl

puts the letter neatly back in the envelope and begins the unboxing !!

now, he’s heard of the company’s other games and has basic knowledge on each of them, but not a lot to the point he can name each character so his chat help him out with the names !!

for the honkai 3rd merch he got :

kiana kaslana acrylic keychain

raiden mei badge

omg he got kiamei captains in chat are screaming

for the tot merch he got :

artem wing acrylic keychain & badge

honestly? not that much of a reaction to them since he doesn’t know the games and characters well enough to give one (he assumes from the onslaught of keyboard smashes and screaming in caps that they’re fan favourites of some sort) !!

now it’s time for the genshin merch !!

in the first box he opens, he gets a hu tao mini acrylic stand/keychain !!

has a lil smile on his face bc it’s so cute and he’s just appreciating the chibi art :((

setting that up next to him so his viewers can see it, he moves onto the next box, where he finds a...

oh.

it’s a kaeya badge.

. . .

well, moving on—

nO BUT REALLY HE TOOK ONE DEAD GLANCE AT IT AND PUT IT BACK IN THE BOX 〒▽〒

kaeya truly is a menace to albedo and he won’t tolerate it <//3

his chat is just “KEKW”-ing and some are “D:” at him for this criminal act

he ignores them and moves onto the the mini drawer HJKJDS

but his peace doesn’t last for long bc as soon as he opens it, well,,,

he gets a kaeya acrylic standee

. . .

immediately turns it face-down and puts it back in the mini drawer while chat are losing their marbles once again at this (unfortunate) turn of events <//3

where’s his merch of u :((

also somewhat brushes over the gun girls z + lumi merch since he isn’t well-versed in this area too !!

but then he notices another ??? letter ???

“isn’t there only supposed to be one letter?”

him and chat are confusion

so he opens it to see what it is, only to nearly drop it in sheer shock

dear traveler,

it’s been a while since we last talked face-to-face, huh? i hope you’re not running into trouble somewhere out there in the other nations like you seem to do all the time. i was working on some experiments and suddenly thought of you, so i guess i’m writing to you now!

i’m getting off topic, but i just wanted to say thank you for all the memories we’ve created thus far, and i look forward to many more in the upcoming future!

yours truly, (y/n).

currently has a very proud and wobbly grin on his face as he puts ur letter in a frame to keep beside his monitor <33

𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐞

LITERALLY SO HYPED TO HAVE RECEIVED THIS BC ???? FREE OFFICIAL MERCH ?????

HECK YEA

before he even started his stream for the live unboxing he tweeted out an image of the package with a caption of :

guess who’s mihoyo’s favourite child?

me :)

so when he starts his stream he’s all excited and hyping the unboxing session up, so much so he doesn’t even bother doing an intro for his viewers or for his youtube video and starts opening the box

chat are “KEKWait”-ing like crazy bc no, he won’t wait when u could be waiting in there for him <//3

starts commentating without further notice so his viewers just have to sit there and listen with no introduction whatsoever KJHFLG

so he starts his unboxing by reading through the thank you letter and is just so smug about getting it

fully believes he’s carrying mhy as a streamer for them <//3

props it up somewhere against one of his monitors and immediately goes back to the mimo gift to start the official unboxing !!

for the honkai 3rd merch he got :

durandal acrylic keychain

kiana kaslana badge

for the tot merch he got :

vyn richter acrylic keychain & badge

literally cheered and fist pumped in the air when he got a durandal keychain — one of his honkai mains

ignored vyn and just thought he looked like a doctor of sorts <//3

and now he finally unboxes the genshin merch (crossing his fingers and begging he gets u in one of them)

opens the first box: barbara mini acrylic keychain/stand

blinks at it once while chat are spamming “POGCRAZY” before assembling it and putting it next to the rest of the merch

opens the second box: qiqi badge !!

chat once again “POGCRAZY” while he just resigns and nods in defeat at the fact he lost an irl 50/50 to qiqi and didn’t get u <//3

still thought it was cute tho HKHDL

he’s aware of the mini drawer underneath and the stuff that will be inside it already, so he just goes through the motions with a pout on his lips :((

has a smol smile at the sight of the xinyan acrylic standee tho (she’s one of his favourite charas !!) but still has remnants of a pout at not getting anything of u

well, until he sees a letter that’s most definitely not supposed to be there

hey there, traveler!

it’s been a while since we last saw one another, let alone had a spar with each other, so have me sending you this letter as compensation since i know you’re missing me right now!— “yes. yes i do.”

wait, that’s besides the point. anyway, my reason for writing this letter is pretty simple; it’s to say thank you for creating exciting memories on our travels. i don’t want this to get sappy so i’ll stop here— “no, no, please continue...” but remember that, if you ever need anything, i’m more than happy to help!

your bestest sparring buddy, (y/n).

literally clutches his heart and keels over while chat is losing their mind

u called yourself his bestest sparring buddy :((( actually squealing and banging his head on his desk btw <33

(he put ur letter in the arms of ur plushie so it looks like ur holding it on display for him)

(retweets his og tweet with a picture of plushie!u holding ur letter just to further prove he’s the favourite child)

𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐨

straight away nearly drops the box when trying to hold it up for his chat to see <//3

thought the box design was super cute though !!

no really

he spent a good 10 minutes just straight up appreciating and praising the box before his chat started yelling (though words, ofc) at him to open the box

cried when he read the thank you letter mihoyo included inside

full on ugly sobbing (is currently unaware that he’ll be bawling later on)

before even looking at the other packages he gets up from his spinny gamer chair and goes out of shot

chat’s wondering what he’s up to this time, only to see him return about a minute later with a picture frame in hand and two tissues stuffed up his nose

he’s just really touched ok :((

starts going on an emotional rant about how he’s grateful to mhy and that he’s happy to be part of the genshin community like he’s won an oscar

now he has the letter framed and hanging up somewhere on the wall behind him !!

anywhoodles

he starts to make his way through the lil gift boxes and, even though he doesn’t know their other games like honkai impact 3rd, tears of themis & gun girls z, his reactions to them and their designs are still really wholesome !!

for the honkai 3rd merch he got :

yae sakura acrylic keychain (thought it was that one ’really cool fox lady’ and got really confused on why she was in the honkai merch until chat told him it was yae sakura not yae miko)

kallen kaslana badge

for the tot merch he got :

luke pearce acrylic keychain & badge

thought luke was a very cool and good looking guy

now it’s time for the genshin merch !!

in the first box he opens, he finds a ganyu badge !! (has a massive grin on his face bc he thinks the design is really really cute ><)

the second box he opens contains a—

oh my god

oh mY GOD ?!?”?!?

it was a smol xiao acrylic stand/keychain !!!

was infinitely happy with that bc :

“look! it’s ma boy, xiao!! :D”

also thought the lil chibi xiao was positively adorable and set it up next to his main monitor screen

shakes the box around for a bit trying to see if there’s anything else he missed and the drawer part nearly flies off at how hard he’s shaking it <//3

when he opens it up with chat watching he nearly flings the poor box at the wall and literally leaps into the air with sparkling eyes and grin so wide that someone watching could even feel it

chat didn’t get to see what made him so hyper, but they could probably guess

so when he holds up the standee of zhongli, they all get really confused bc they were sure it was u he got one of ???

“huh? well, yeah, it would be poggers to get one of (y/n), but i never won my 50/50 on zhongli so this means i won his real-life 50/50!”

chat are now too soft to make fun of the fact he used poggers in real-life language

after setting up his zhongli standee beside his mini xiao one, he sifts through the lumi photocards and gun girls z merch and set them aside too !!

chat thought that was all (given some other content creators only got those things so they thought it was finished), but the confused sounds coming from itto make them spam “?????” in chat

as it stands, there was another letter

itto asked chat if there was supposed to be another one, but they said no, so now he thinks he just got special treatment from mhy

and, well, he was right HJKJHLDS

to traveler,

i would just like to say it’s been a lot of fun going out on adventures with you! i don’t think i’ve had this much fun in a long while, and there’s never a dull day with you— “heck yeah there isn’t!!” so i guess i just want to convey my thanks for everything you’ve done, and if you ever find yourself in a tricky situation, know you can always count on me and i’ll be there to save ya!

although i’m not like xiao who will appear at the call of my name, i’m certain i can come just as quick.

your one and only, (y/n).

. . .

it’s pretty silent for a few seconds, and chat begin to worry through their tears bc of that message until an ugly sob from their strimmer breaks the silence

starts wailing and repeating “I LOVE YOU”s at ur letter in hopes that u can hear his love for u <333

takes out mhy’s thank you letter from the frame and replaces it with yours instead

𝐳𝐡𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐢

man took one look at the brown packaging and already knew what was inside it straight away (spoiler: it’s the mimo gift !!)

went into the Just Chatting category for a chill stream w/ the title “Mimo Gift Unboxing Today” and almost instantaneously his community just came flooding in and were so hyped that he received the mimo gift package :((

starts spamming his (Y/N)Nation emote to wish him luck in the irl RNG for u <33

takes 10 minutes to ramble and appreciate the design and aesthetics of the box and his chat are’t even mad about it bc it just means they get to hear him speak more

eventually though, he does open the box and is pleasantly surprised at the official letter thanking him for contributing to the community !!

has a small smile and gently props it up against the lid of the box ;w;

he knows quite a bit about the other games (namely key lore points and the basic premise of them) so he’s not too unfamiliar with the characters in them !!

for the honkai 3rd merch he got :

fu hua acrylic keychain

bronya zaychik badge

for the tot merch he got :

marius von hagen acrylic keychain & badge

like albedo, he doesn’t have that much thought about them but still appreciates the merchandise and effort put into it !!

(is glad he got fu hua tho bc out of all the honkai characters, he likes her the most !!)

but now he goes into the genshin unboxing !!

truth be told, he doesn’t mind the characters he gets since he believes they all have their own unique charms and he appreciates them all (but he would rather get u, and his chat know this very well)

so he opens the first box and !!! he gets a mini acrylic keychain/stand of you !!

his smile and the way his eyes soften melt the hearts of his community and so many ppl clipped it KJHDSJL

attaches ur mini acrylic keychain to his wallet so he can always proudly show u off to ppl when he’s making his irl purchases in irl shops <33

and the next box he opens shows a badge with yanfei !! props them both up beside the letter and honkai + tot merch on the box !!

now taht he’s finished the main part, he opens the drawer to see what’s inside and—

he got ur standee ?!?!!?

*cue zhongli happi smile*

LITERALLY COULD NOT HAVE BEEN BETTER THAN THIS ????

but it soon does when he sees the extra letter, and chat are positively losing their marbles for their beloved strimmer <333

dearest traveler,

how have you been faring? i do hope all is well with you, and that you are taking care of yourself on your travels. it’s been some time since we first met and i can say with absolute confidence that i have no regrets in meeting you. though i may have walked through this world for many millennia, your company is the first i have enjoyed this much in a long while.

thank you for your company and tales of different worlds, and do pay a visit to liyue when you have the chance to.

until then, (y/n).

has such a soft little smile painting his lips as he rereads ur letter :((

zhongli has never been more grateful to have become a streamer than he currently is right now

𝐚𝐲𝐚𝐭𝐨

his package actually arrived during a stream of him soloing bosses with only u in the party (at his chat’s constant request, even though he would’ve done it anyway), where ayaka came in to tell him there was a delivery for him

(don’t mind chat spamming hearts for ayaka’s appearance)

he kept streaming ur solo tho even after she put it beside him <//3

but after he finished the run + yt video, he got to opening the package !! and turns out it was the mimo gift ?!?!

shocker—

was actually quite touched tho !! his chat were very happy, and it was shown in the “widepeepoHappy” + “widekamiHappy” emotes filling his chat box !!

so he opens the box and finds mhy’s thank you letter on top !! he may not explicitly look it, but he was incredibly touched by the message (and the fact he can now flaunt he has a letter signed by da wei himself)

tucks it back into the envelope and sets it to the side while chat are increasingly becoming more and more hyped up

when he sees the boxes however, he gets a little slumped since he doesn’t know all that much about the other games aside from genshin

the only things he knows is : one has women, the other has men.

that’s it.

anywho—

for the honkai 3rd merch he got :

rita rossweisse acrylic keychain

seele vollerei badge

for the tot merch he got :

artem wing acrylic keychain & badge

once again, he doesn’t know much about the characters to give much of a reaction, but his chat seem happy so he supposes he got good ones ???

well either way as long as his chat are happy then it’s fine

now as for the genshin merch boxes, the first one he opens contains a mini acrylic keychain/stand of venti !!

he’s actually quite happy with that and finds it rather adorable

the next one he opens has a badge of kfc diluc !!

ngl, he was not expecting that, but he’s pleased regardless (proceeds to ignore his chat going ballistic at kfc diluc badge HKJHF)

he’s quite happy with them and, although he would’ve preferred getting u instead, he still has hope for the mini drawer !!

and lo and behold !!!!

it’s a standee of u !!!!!

doesn’t even bother concealing the grin slipping onto his face and chat aren’t even surprised considering their strimmer won all ur 50/50s <//3

he sets it up with the most caring touch anyone has laid eyes upon and places it beside his keyboard so ur always there :((

he then sees ??? another ??? letter ?????

when his chat see it they get confused as well bc there’s only supposed to be one (the letter from mhy)

greetings traveler,

has inazuma been treating you well? i know many are grateful for your hand in putting an end to the vision hunt decree, so if you ever find yourself overwhelmed in the throes of people wanting to express their gratitude, know you are always welcome to hide out in my estate; i have already let thoma know in advance, should you ever decide it is too much.

think of this as. . . repayment for all the fond memories we have shared on our journey so far. i hope we can create many more in the coming times, as well.

until we meet again, (y/n).

is currently staring blankly at the letter while slowly reclining back into his spinny gamer chair, while chat are freaking out over the contents of what u wrote

although he may not look like it, he’s actually sobbing inside !!

#omg a convo !?#nonnies !!#streaming dreams #no bc this took sm longer than i thought bc i was trying to personalise each message ;w;#genshin impact x reader #genshin x reader #albedo x reader #childe x reader #itto x reader #arataki itto x reader #zhongli x reader #ayato x reader #kamisato ayato x reader

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shingia · 3 years

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can i req suna,, akaashi and iwa (and anyone else u want!!) getting jelly abt the s/o hanging out with another guy and being touchy (like the playful smacking or smth) without knowing the guy was their brother? angst to fluff bc i want the ✨ pain ✨ if u dont wanna its fine too,,

thanks bby,, love ur works so much! stay safe and healthy 😫💗

✗ HQ BOYS GETTING JEALOUS OF A GUY WITHOUT KNOWING HE’S YOUR BROTHER ✗

me receiving a request : 🥰 the request including suna :🤩 tysmm bby stay safe and healthy tooo <3

-> suna, iwaizumi, akaashi

-> angst to fluff

-> reblogs help a lot <33

— SUNA

• he hadn’t asked many questions when you told him you couldn’t come over to his house in the afternoon. but now, as he was replaying your snapchat story for the sixth time, he really wished he did

• maybe if he had insisted on coming with you, you wouldn’t have let this guy - that he had never seen, for the record - act so touchy with you

• was it his fault for not making you feel special enough ? to the point that you preferred the company of other men rather than your own boyfriend’s ?

• just the thought of this was enough to make a few of his usually well-hidden insecurities bubble up - most of them due to what his friends always joked about « suna doesn’t care enough to be in a relationship, they’ll all run away after a week ! »

• so yes, suna was hurt, but you didn’t have to see that. your opinion on him was the only one he cared about, he didn’t want to tarnish it. well... your opinion and his little sister’s, who burst into his room as he was about to watch your story for the seventh time to tell him that « someone’s at the door ! »

• not feeling like getting out of bed, it took him a few minutes to drag his feet to the door before finally opening it. and of all the people he could have expected to see, you were the last of them

• « surprise ? » you smiled as you let yourself in, not noticing the surprised look on his face as you greeted him with a tight hug. « i felt bad for cancelling our afternoon together, so i asked my brother to drop me off »

• you weren’t even done talking that suna had already recognized the man in the car that was leaving his driveway. his embrace immediately softened, and a smile crept on his face as he felt all his doubts vanish in a second

• « nuh-uh, don’t take your jacket off beautiful, i’m taking you out », he told you, determined to spoil you in the way he regretted not doing sooner

• at his words, his sister almost magically appeared next to you, coat in hand and ready to go. « you weren’t planning on leaving without me, right ? » she flashed you a toothless grin, grabbing both your hand and his to drag you two outside

• suna shared a deadpanned look with you, « of course not... » you both said in unison as she was already leading the way to her favorite ice cream shop

— IWAIZUMI

• iwa’s trust in you was infinite. but something about the way this guy had his arm playfully wrapped around your shoulders didn’t sit right with him

• his practice had ran late and he was exhausted. but he had promised you he would pop over to the birthday party of your childhood best friend, knowing how much it mattered to you

• but your behavior looked an awful lot like an attempt at making him jealous... and it was working

• was it your way of letting him know that you two weren’t working anymore ? were you just too much of a coward to be clear about it ? he hated to think about you that way. and most of all, he cared about you too much to not step in

• « ok now you got my attention » he told you after pulling you to the side. « if you want to tell me something, go ahead, i’m listening »

• still trapped in the euphoria of the moment, you didn’t really understand how upset he was. but maybe it was for the best, because it allowed you to defuse the tension lightheartedly : « i can’t believe i forgot to introduce you ! » you let out as you dragged him back to where your brother was still standing

• his jaw still clenched, iwa couldn’t even bring himself to shake this stranger’s hand, as friendly as he looked. at least not until you spoke your next words : « he was actually telling me how excited he was to finally met his future brother-in-law ! »

• iwa’s lips slightly parted in confusion, you could almost hear the cogs turning in his head over the music. brother? well that explained a lot of things

• « h-hi, sorry i was... miles away » he apologized before finally shaking the hand your brother was holding out to him

• but once the surprise had passed, another word stuck with him : brother-in-law ? as in « my sibling speaks so highly of you that i’m willing to let you put a ring on their finger even though i have never met you yet » ?

• well, it was good to know that your brother agreed with the plans he’d had for you since day 1...

— AKAASHI

• it was not unusual for akaashi to think that maybe he was not good enough for you. but being actually jealous was a first for him

• he had promised himself to never be too overprotective of you. but the facts were here : it was 3am and the only thing keeping him up was this unknown feeling of pure jealousy

• if he had not been in such a hurry when he witnessed your lighthearted banter and playful fighting with this man in the afternoon, he would’ve come up to you. introduced himself. maybe asked a few questions. if

• suspecting that this unpleasant feeling would not go away unless he talked to you about it, akaashi found himself dialling your number in the middle of the night

• used to his thoughts polluting his mind at unpredictable hours of the day and the night, your ringer was always on. which is why you picked up after only two rings

• « hi angel, i’m sorry to wake you up, i just... » he started, the clarity of his tone letting you know that he had not slept a wink. feeling his hesitation, you were quick to reassure him « it’s ok keiji. what’s going on ? »

• « who were you with ? i mean- this afternoon ? i don’t think i’ve ever met that guy and i was just wondering if... maybe i should ? »

• sitting up straight on your bed, you felt a weight being lifted off your shoulders. if this was the only thing keeping him awake, he should be able to fall asleep in the following minutes. « i was with my brother. but i understand why you were confused, it’s a normal reaction so please don’t blame yourself for that, alright baby ? »

• the gasp you heard on the other end of the line made you chuckle. akaashi’s voice was much less tensed now : « well in that case, yeah i should probably meet him... if you’re ok with that »

• « i’m more than ok with that » you smiled, placing your phone down on your pillow « wanna stay on the phone for a bit ? »

• « that’d be nice », his voice sounded sleepy already, especially above the familiar sound of his covers being pulled up to his chin

— ATSUMU

• how could he put that in words ? he didn’t even know if he was allowed to be jealous because he knew how often you had to see him deal with his many fangirls

• and that was actually what bugged him the most : that he might have already made you feel as shitty as he was feeling now

• but atsumu wasn’t the type to sit down and seriously open up about his feelings. besides, it was much easier to look like a needy boyfriend rather than a vulnerable one

• so he resorted to what he was best at : physical touch as a way to get your attention

• sneaking up behind you, he didn’t give you any warning before wrapping both his arms around your waist and pressing his chest on your back so much that you almost had to bend over

• he really hoped you would be perceptive enough to understand that he wasn’t just being clingy, but in need of a lot of reassurance. and luckily, it was quick to come :

• « tsumu, let me introduce you my brother » you chuckled, understanding how and why he had been mistaken

• one hand still on your waist, he used the other to greet your brother. atsumu did not really seem fazed by the news. of course he was relieved to know that he had nothing to worry about, but this little experience had still been very eye-opening to him

• after your brother had left to give you two some privacy, tsumu’s grip on your waist tightened, but in a softer way

• « ‘m sorry if i ever made ya cry » he let out, completely out of the blue. you didn’t really understand the meaning of this, but it didn’t matter. your hand found its way to his cheek that you brushed lightly with one finger, admiring the how it was slowly turning red. « being jealous sucks... » he added.

• « it does », you approved, giving him a quick peck on the nose. « but there’s nothing and no one that you should worry about, i promise »

• a fond smile lit up his face. you looked sincere, and he really needed to hear that right now. quick as ever, his hands left your waist to come and rest on your cheeks. both holding each other’s faces, you stared at the other for a few seconds, wondering which one of you would give in to a kiss first

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chokemeanakin · 3 years

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could i pls request smth where the reader gets hurt on a mission or smth and hides it from anakin until it gets really bad? that trope is my favorite alskdfjk

Sister u have singlehandedly reawakened my whump side. Here you go, with a side of smut in part two ;)

A Helping Hand (part one) - Anakin Skywalker x gn Reader (whump + smut)

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At first, you thought you had just slept on it weird.

The pain had come out of nowhere one day, when you went to go throw your knife at the dummy’s head like usual. A sudden burst of fire erupted from your wrist, and the knife clattered to the floor as you cradled your arm to your chest. You rolled your wrist a couple times, willing the ache to go away. You thought you might have thrown the knife at an odd angle, and maybe sprained your wrist a little from exertion. You picked up your knife and resumed, but a constant sparking pain remained.

An injured wrist wasn’t good-- especially since that was your good arm, your knife-throwing arm. That was your talent, after all; your skills were so precise, the Republic Army recruited you to help out in the war. You were thrust into the thick of things with the clones, serving alongside the Jedi Generals, which was how you met Anakin. Without your arm, you were useless.

You set aside time every night to ice it, and when that didn’t help, you switched to soaking it in warm water and stretching it. When there was no improvement after a week, you debated going to see someone for it. It certainly didn’t help that you were using it every day, training like normal and using it for daily activities. Twisting or bending your wrist in any way sent shooting sparks of pain up your arm, but you managed to hide it around everyone… including Anakin.

It’s not that you didn’t want help-- you just didn’t need it. You had seen clones blown to bits by blaster cannons in battle, members of the Republic Army drag themselves up a bank of debris with two broken legs to continue shooting at Separatist droids, friends that served alongside you shot down fighting until their last breath. You would hate yourself forever if you made a fuss out of a simple sprained wrist.

You were a little surprised when Anakin didn’t catch on, honestly. You began switching to your other hand to complete daily tasks, and you were clumsier and slower because of it. But Anakin was so bogged down by current war efforts you barely had time to see each other, and when you did, it was very quickly just in passing. He had other things to worry about than you, and you were okay with that. However, it didn’t stop the burst of excitement after receiving the order that deployed you to Ecadus-Z, a moon off the planet Leona, where a grand Separatist droid factory was in the making and had to be destroyed-- the same mission Anakin was being deployed on as well.

You were grateful for the time you would get to spend together, even if it was in the midst of a battle. But beggars can’t be choosers, so you met him at the transport ship in the starfighter bay bright and early the day of departure.

He was just as happy to see you, and you sat together in the cabin on the way to Ecadus-Z. It was hard holding yourself back, as it had been far too long since you had gotten to be together alone. As in, really be together. You looked forward to when you got back, as the Council was talking about giving Anakin a short break.

For now, you felt content just being by his side-- even if most of the 501st was there as well.

Once the pilot came over the coms saying you were about to touch down, everyone got out of their seats and began to ready themselves for battle. You would be dropped off in the thick of battle, so you had to come out running if you wanted to make it.

You slung the bag of explosives over your shoulder and clipped your belt around your waist, making sure you had all of your knives, as well as one already clasped in each of your fists. The ache of your bad wrist was dulled by the adrenaline coursing through your veins as the transport ship shuttered, scraping the ground, the clones bringing their blasters to their shoulders. Explosions and screams of dying clones could be heard outside, and Anakin activated his lightsaber, looking at you.

“See you on the other side.”

The doors opened, light spilling into the cabin. You didn’t think, just ran, and prayed with everything in your heart that you would see Anakin after this was all said and done. That you would both get out alive, and that his sidelong glance in the transport ship wasn’t the last you would see of him.

Thoughts like that were only a distraction. You pushed them to the furthest corners of your mind, zigzagging around blaster shots as you made your way to the factory. Your job was to plant the bombs all around the factory as Anakin and his troops cleared the way for you, and then you would meet at the bank of the surrounding river where you would watch the factory go up in flames from a distance. There, Republic ships would be waiting to take you back to Coruscant.

With that goal in your mind, you made it past the Dead Zone in a flat out sprint-- the space between Republic warships and the Separatist factory, where both sides met in a constant spray of fire. You jumped over fallen clones and coughed smoke out of your lungs, making it to the factory in one piece. You used one of your bombs to blow a hole in the east wall, bypassing the entrance where the blaster-fire was heaviest.

Of course, you climbed through the hole in the wall only to be met with a group of freshly manufactured droids. Your knife buried itself in the closest droid's head without hesitation, followed by another and another. The droids dropped to the ground around you like ants, a single blaster shot missing you by an inch. Your arm screamed with each snap of your wrist, but you pushed through the pain as you yanked your steel blades out of the metal of the droids, planting bombs as you hurried along the hallway.

This is the way it went for a while, steadying yourself against the walls as blaster-cannons shook the ground outside, sticking bombs to the structure every few feet, and running into the occasional group of droids that you took out in a similar way to the first batch.

By the time you finished the east wing and were heading to the south, your wrist was pounding with a vengeance. Every step travelled up your arm, intensifying the pain to the point where it was becoming overwhelming-- distracting. You secured another bomb to the wall, but your grasp on the other ones in your bad arm failed, and scattered all over the ground. You cursed and chased them around the hall, picking them up and shoving them back into your bag.

As you reached the last one, something caught hold of your arm, yanking you forward. You landed on the ground, right on top of that arm, and you were sure you could hear something pop. You cried out in agony as white hot pain blinded your senses, rolling on the ground as tears were forced out of your eyes. A blaster shot skimmed your shoulder, and you used your non-injured arm to send a knife flying in the droids direction from your place on the ground.

The throw was off. It hit the droid on the head with the butt of the knife, clinking off and clattering to the ground uselessly. You rolled to the side as another shot missed you by a hair, sweeping the droids legs out from underneath. You grasped its blaster in your uninjured hand, but it fought back, and you forced yourself to use your bad arm to join the other as you turned the blaster in on itself, shooting its head off.

Gasping in pain, you allowed yourself to stumble backward until you hit the wall, sliding to the ground. Your breathing thickened as you assessed the damage, realizing just how bad the damage had gotten. Your entire arm was on fire, from your shoulder to the tips of your fingers. Angry red and purple splotches bloomed from the place you fell on it, swelling to the size of a baseball. You tried to roll your wrist, stretch it out, but even the slightest movement sent searing bursts of lightning through you, unwelcome tears pricking at your eyes.

You blinked your sight clear, yanking the blaster from the droids grasp and hooking it into your belt before heading off again. You couldn’t believe the damn thing had grabbed you. Now, your arm was hurt to the point where you couldn’t ignore it. You clutched your wrist to your chest as you stuck more bombs to the walls, finishing off the south wing and heading toward the west wing. You could hear commotion from far away, and prepared yourself for a mess.

All hell had broken loose. There was barely a west wing to speak of anymore, as the walls had been blown out and droids and clones were fighting elbow to elbow within the carcass of the hall. You were sure that’s where all the explosions had come from, and now you weren’t sure where to even put the rest of the bombs.

A blaster shot landed between your feet, kicking debris up into your eyes. You wrenched yourself out of your standstill, unclasping the blaster from your belt and dropping droids as you hurried to the blue light at the end of the hall. Anakin was being swarmed with droids, dozens of them targeting him from every direction. He was deflecting the shots sent toward him at lightning speed, but you knew he couldn’t keep it up forever. He sent a force pulse out, knocking the droids back into each other, but more replaced them.

The clones were preoccupied with their own battles, and no one was coming to the General’s aid. You fought your way to him, heart pounding in your ears, the pain in your arm pulsing with each beat. If something happened to Anakin before you could reach him--

“Y/n, no!” Anakin caught your eye from behind the swarm. He waved you back. “Don’t worry about me, finish the mission!”

He ducked right before a blast shot could catch him in the head, slashing away at the droids. They crumpled before him in masses, but there were so many. Your blaster shots joined his saber, crippling the droids in heaps around you. In the commotion, the blaster got knocked out of your hands, so you had to go back to your knives. It hurt beyond anything comparable, but you grit your teeth and forced yourself to throw the knives from your injured arm. There was barely any thinking put into it-- you’d rather go through this pain now than deal with a future without Anakin.

You were slow and clumsy, and quite honestly you were doing awful. Only about half of your throws did any damage, and your vision was beginning to spot with pain. Not to mention, your eyes were clouded with tears and smoke, so even if you could throw right, you couldn’t see in order to do so. You lashed out at random, setting knives loose in every direction, hoping they would provide at least some help. As you reached the end of your supply of knives, you couldn’t help but feel like you were failing Anakin. He needed help, but you were too weak to do anything.

A droid’s arm caught on the bag around your shoulder, and you cried out, crumpling to the ground against your will. The pain was making you nauseous, and your vision swam as you forced yourself to breath. You could feel Anakin’s panic and fury as he sent another pulsing wave around him, droids flying back in every direction including the one that had gotten caught on you. Broken and splintered bits of droid whizzed past you as they collided with each other. The bombs from your bag had spilt out all around you again, when suddenly through your swimming head, you had an idea.

You scrambled to set each bomb to manual detonation, and then sent them flying into the crowds gathered around Anakin. They exploded, knocking dozens out at a time. You sent them forward, one after another, until you ran out and the pulsing in your arm had you clutching at your wrist in vain, praying for something to relieve the pain.

As the dust settled, you saw the blue light disappear. Anakin appeared from out of the smoke, covered in ash and dust. A few new cuts on his face bled freely, but he ignored them as he knelt beside you.

“What was that all about?” he scanned your body, deciding whether or not to move you. You couldn’t tell if he was angry or concerned, and the thought of him being unhappy with you was paralyzing. You had tried so hard, and you knew it wasn’t enough. Your arm had messed everything up, but at this point the pain outweighed any fears you had, and you really just needed help.

“I’m sorry Anakin, I hurt my arm and I think it’s really bad. I didn’t mean to mess up, I’m sorry--,” you choked. Anakin didn’t wait for you to finish before he was pulling you to your feet, a new wave of blaster shots speeding past your heads, and you realized he was trying to get you out of the line of fire.

He supported most of your weight with his flesh arm, reactivating and deflecting blaster shots with his lightsaber in the other. You stumbled alongside him, legs ready to give out again at any moment. You’re sure that without his help, you wouldn’t have made it out.

As soon as you breached the Dead Zone, Anakin reached for his com and ordered the 501st back to the ships. He ushered you into the first one you saw, a simple model of a Republic cruiser, and helped you into the passenger’s chair before standing before the window, surveying the damage outside.

Hands clasped behind his back, he stood in silence before the window for a long while. Your arm screamed at you, but you watched from your place in the seat as a swarm of clones broke out of the smoke from the droid factory, trickling into transport ships and taking off into the air. Anakin waited until he got word from Rex that everyone was out, and then reached for the detonator in his belt. With the press of a button, the entire factory as well as all of the droids inside erupted in flame, the explosion mushrooming up and out. You shielded your eyes from the brightness of the fire, shaking in your seat as the force of the explosion rattled the cruiser.

Anakin didn’t stick around to watch. He got in the pilot’s seat, lifting the cruiser into the air and out into space. Once he was sure you were safe, surrounded by stars and darkness, he turned to you.

His face was grim, tired, and covered in blood and ash. He paid it no mind as he extended his arm out to you, wordlessy requesting your injured wrist.

You hoped he wouldn’t notice its trembling as you forced yourself to release it from your death-grasp, the one that had sort of stuck to your chest as you ran through the Dead Zone with him. Fireworks erupted behind your eyes as your wrist made contact with his gloved hand. You’re sure he was trying his hardest to be gentle, especially while holding it in his metal hand, but any point of contact was going to hurt like a bitch.

You gnawed at your bottom lip as he carefully turned it this way and that, assessing the damage. His face was drawn down in concentration, that same angry-concerned pout on his face sparking a fear in the pit of your stomach. Was he mad at you?

He brought his other hand up, meaning to skim his fingers over the swelling of your wrist to gage your response.

“Don’t touch it--” you snatched your wrist back to your chest, shrinking away from his touch.

“That bad?” Anakin sighed quietly, meeting your eyes for the first time. Your lip wobbled as you lowered your head in shame.

“I’m sorry.”

You felt his hand come up to cradle your cheek, rubbing some dirt away with his thumb. His voice was soft. “You have nothing to be sorry for; it’s not your fault. Just let me see what’s wrong with it.”

He reached for you again, but you flinched away.

“I promise I won’t hurt you.”

Your trembling was noticeable this time as you lowered your wrist into his waiting hand again. He gently took each finger and wiggled them, asking if it hurt each time. You bit back your whimpers, hitching your breath sharply as sparks of pain travelled up your arm with each movement. He let go and asked if you could make a fist, but even that was too excruciating.

You desperately blinked the new tears out of your eyes. It was beginning to annoy you, but you couldn’t help it. The ugly look of your wrist sat deranged and pathetic in Anakin’s gentle palm, and you could see the bad news in his eyes.

Yup. Definitely broken.

“How did all this happen?” he reached behind you to grab an emergency blanket from the shelf. He wrapped your arm in it and then carefully set it back on your lap. Then, he got to work peeling back the shirt from your shoulder where the blaster had skimmed you.

“My shoulder, I got shot,” you admitted, wincing as he pulled a bit of cloth back that was stuck to dried blood. “My wrist… well it’s been hurting for a while. But then a droid pulled on my arm and I fell on top of it.”

Anakin pulled back to look at you. “It’s been hurting for a while? Why didn’t you tell anyone?”

“I had it under control.”

He sighed again, fingertips ghosting over the skin of your shoulder.

“You got burned pretty bad, but it’s nothing some bacta can’t fix,” he said. His voice was reserved again, eyes not meeting yours. “The wrist, well, that’ll be a different story.”

“You’re mad at me.”

He was quiet, looking at the bundled wrist in your lap. You could see the conflict in his eyes-- he wanted to be mad, but he didn’t want to direct it toward you. He was searching for a way to figure out in his own head before saying something to you that he didn’t mean, something he’d regret.

“I’m not mad,” he chose his words carefully, then shook his head. “I just… I told you to leave me.”

“How could I have? You wouldn’t have left me if the roles were switched.”

“It’s different.”

“How is it different?” Anakin’s responding gaze was weary. You both knew what he wanted to say, but he knew it would hurt you. “I can handle myself.”

“I know you can,” he tucked some flyaway hairs behind your ear, letting his hand linger. “Let’s just drop this. I don’t want to argue.”

“As long as you’re not mad,” you made him promise.

“I’m not mad at you.”

You didn’t miss the last part he added. ‘At you.’ Of course, he’d be directing this at himself. You could see the guilt in his eyes, but it didn’t make any sense. You had chosen to stay behind and help him fight the droids off, and it was you who had broken your own damn wrist. In fact, he had saved your life today when he dragged you out of the crossfire. He had nothing to be guilty for, but you knew he was beating himself up for not doing more, for not getting to you faster, for not noticing your pain.

“I’m not mad at you, either.” If your wrist wasn’t a huge site of concern, you would have hugged him. For now, you settled with gripping his flesh hand in yours and squeezing. He gave you the tiniest smile, and then returned his focus to piloting.

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destinyc1020 · 3 years

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I know a lot of people don’t like her ans to each their own but zs interview reminded me a lot of what t*ylor s*offs talked about too in regards to her anxiety and perfectionism ans the idea of being stuck because you’re so afraid to let anyone down or fuck up in anyway. But ur anons about how tz should approach their rs being oublic made me think of her too bc I think t*ylors finally found a good balance w her rs and the public. They go to awards ans stuff w each other but don’t walk carpets together or seen arriving together. They basically don’t get papped except rare outings unless they’re at the nyc apt and known to be in town. They don’t talk abt their rs but acknledge they’re in one. Etc. Seems like it works for driving down interest bc the intrigue is gone but there’s no flaunting it in public so it’s all very manageable. I think she kind of trial and errored her way til smth worked for her/them and tz might have to do the same. But a lot of the a list couples who have more of a pap following seem to take the same approach so it wouldnt shock me if that’s how tz enddd up (if of course they’re together or remain together or go public at all lmao)

Thanks for this. I do think a lot of celebrities have had to do “trial and error” to figure out what works for them when it comes to relationships and finding that right balance that coincides with their (often changing) fame levels and notoriety. I think Z thought she could handle a rlshp with Tom the way she had with Trevor for 4 years, but she may not have realized that Tom is freakin’ Spider-Man in a MARVEL film. You aren’t going to be able to “hide” a rlshp w/him like she would a lesser-known actor/celebrity. Couple that with the fact that her star was rising due to Spider-Man, and so was his, and so there’s really no way it could have been handled the same. It def wasn’t going to last 4 years, because there are two different dynamics going on. Two different people you’re dating. Two different fanbases. Anyway... I’m glad some have been able to reach that “balance”. I think Z was trying things new on for size with JE. Maybe she found a “sweet spot” who knows?

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celawrites · 4 years

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Day 18

When I wake up in the morning, the day already feels weird. While this could just be me being paranoid, I honestly don’t like the feeling. It’s a Sunday, which means a hangout session with my public school friends, specifically the movie group.

As expected, the groupchat is blowing up with ideas.

Tired: GOOD MORNING WHO’S READY FOR HELL ON EARTH

Clown: SHUT UP IT’S 8AM ES ISN’T EVEN AWAKE YET

Mist: Then we plan without her lMAO

Clown: Where do we go today?

Tired: Park. Or we can find a cute coffee shop and chill

Clown: You’re driving if we do

Tired: sMH

Mist: Roasting waters. I need a new water bottle

Clown: Alright. @ Tired you’re driving

Tired: I hate you

Clown: LOve you too <3

Seen by 2

As I dress and prepare to leave the room, I notice rustling outside my window. And lo and behold.

“sUN?? Z???”

“Uh. Shoot she wasn’t supposed to see us. HI?” Z panics, nearly falling off the tree.

I pull open the window and let the two in.

“Why?”

“Well an anonymous source told us that you’d be going on a date today and we were hoping to get material on this”

“???”

“Don’t ask me. Z wanted to crash at your house for today”

“Then call me like a normal person?? I have plans????”

“Then we’re crashing your plans as well. Don’t even think about going on a date today”

“hUH????”

“No going out young lady”

“I’m single?????”

“Wait. Then Estelle lied?”

“Uh. I guess?”

“You don’t have a date today????”

“Nope”

“Then where are you going? yOU have plans?”

“Hanging out with friends. How’d you guys get here anyway?”

“Our parents dropped us off”

“And you sneak in through the tree?”

“WHy not?”

“Money??? What if you broke the window???”

“Then it’s a win win”

“hA?”

“You gotta stay and guard your house, and you won’t end up on a date”

“I can’t with you”

“Who are you hanging out with later?”

“A couple of old friends. We try to hang out every weekend”

“Can we join today”

“No Z. I’m gonna drive you guys home and then I’m gonna hang out with them.”

“No fair!”

“Says the one who broke into my bedroom”

“Oh by the way. You have a very nice figure”

Time stops. I malfunction, and Sun braces himself for Z’s demise.

“yOU SAW ME CHANGE?”

“IT WAS AN ACCIDENT”

“OH SO SNEAKING UP THE TREE TO MY BEDROOM WINDOW WAS AN ACCIDENT TOO?”

“I’M SORRY”

“No you’re not”

“No I’m not. If you weren’t in love with my brother, I would’ve 11/10 asked you out by now. Like who in their right mind would leave a person like you hanging?”

“Sibling goals. I’d steal the man if I had a sister with no mercy”

“Maybe I should take you on a date then”

“Aren’t you a little too young for her?”

“GeTTING PROTECTIVE NOW AREN’T WE?” Z cackled.

“I mean last time I checked, she was into men older than her”

“You make sound like I’m attracted to 40 year old men or something”

“Are you not?”

“I don’t know darling. I mean I do love you after all. I’m pretty sure your age is somewhere around 40 mentally”

“I will actually choke you”

“That’s kinky” Z and I pipe up in sync.

“Both of you are disgusting”

We only snicker in response.

“Wanna go somewhere before I have to kick you both out?”

“Hm? Sure”

“Can we go shopping?”

“Disgusting”

“yOU’RE A GIRL?”

“sO?”

“I thOUGHT GIRLS LIKED SHOPPING”

“I SWEAR-”

“Enough. We can go to the mall and check out anything new. Both of you” he glares at both of us. “No chaos.”

“bUT”

“No buts”

“I hate you”

“Can we throw him out the window?”

“Oh yeah sounds nice”

“You two are insane”

“Only with you”

“What have I gotten myself into” he mumbled.

The three of us walked over to the mall, and started wandering around.

“Cress.” Z grins.

“Hm?”

“Can we dress you up?”

“No”

“bUT”

“No”

“One outfit. plEAAASE”

“Last time you turned me into an E-girl, and the time before that I was transformed into a vsco girl, and the time before that you turned me into an ABG. No more”

“Please? I’ll pick the comfiest sweater”

“We already have a school uniform. What’s the point in having a closet when you don’t need one?”

“I donno. Ask Pebble”

“Please? I’ll pick an outfit that actually suits your vibe this time?” I glare at him.

“You have 10 minutes to put an outfit together for me. No more than that”

“yES. I LOVE YOU”

“Love you too now get going”

Z runs off to grab clothes and Sun sighs next to me.

“You really trust him after you almost ended up in a bikini last time huh?”

“My clothes are starting to wear off at the seams, I need a couple new pieces of clothing.”

“So you trust my brother with it?”

“yeP”

“Don’t blame me when you end up in a tube top and butt shorts or smth”

“I mean I am hanging out with my friends today, it doesn’t hurt to look good”

“And get harassed?”

I pause for awhile. “No. But I trust him”

As I crouch down on the floor, I let the scene before me sink in. I’m crouching next to the wall, and endless rows of clothing racks limit my vision. The floor is a pale marble, and the walls are a quaint shade of baby blue. Sun is on his phone, probably looking at science facts again, and in the corner of my eye, I see Z running over.

“I got it!”

“What’d you get me?”

“Ok so. I got this pure black hoodie, it’s the last one and your size. I also got you a pair of black shorts. So it’ll look like you’re in just a hoodie. It works right?”

“I did need shorts. Hm. I’ll try it on”

“Of course!” I grab the clothes and head over to the nearest dressing room, the two tailing behind me.

When I enter and change. I find that the outfit is nice and cozy. I smile, knowing that I’ll just rip off the tag and pay at the cashier. But for the sake of decency, I grab my clothes and head out.

“You look cute!” Z grins.

“You sure you’re not just saying that because you put this together?” I tease.

“Of course not! You look cute!” Z beams. Sun only hums in agreement.

After paying for the clothes, I text into the groupchat that I’d be driving there myself and drove the two home.

“Call me if you need to wiggle your way out of anything” Sun reminds.

“Or me if you don’t wanna bother him!”

“Yeah yeah. See you guys tomorrow!”

“See you!”

I finally let out that breath I had been holding the whole day. Heading over to the location we agreed to meet up at, I was greeted by the four of them together. My usual order already waiting for me with them.

“I love you guys”

“omG ARE YOU NOT WEARING ANYTHING UNDERNEATH?” Es screams.

“What?”

“You’re wearing just a sweater? Are you trying to get laid? We have enough siblings already please”

“JFKASLD nO. My classmate came over today and decided to help me dress up”

“You look very cute” Mist pipes up.

“Thank you. You look cuter as always”

“nO”

“Ok there’s one thing I can’t stand today and that’s you all arguing over who’s the prettiest and I will say. None of you. So be quiet and let us enjoy this afternoon”

“I hate you”

“I love you too”

The hours fly by, and soon, it’s time for dinner. Deciding on korean barbecue, we head over to the nearest store. In which we destroy our wallets, scream, and have fun. Soon, the time is over, and we all have to head home.

“See you!”

We text eachother when we get home, and I shower and fall asleep. And like that, the day is over.

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szopenhauer · 4 years

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Do you have pockets in anything you are wearing currently? I don’t

Have you ever tasted your own tears? it’s hard not to when you cry so often

Do you hang your clothes outside or put it in the dryer? outside, not during wither tho

Do you like the letter q or the letter z better? Z

Do you do anything weird in your sleep? who knows

How many times can you jump in jumproping? I didn’t jump for a long time now so I dunno if I can jump as many times as I used to - doubt it

Do you like the beach? I like wet sand, beachcombing

Have you ever built a sandcastle? I suppose, I want to do that again sometime

Is there a mirror in the room that you are in? not a hanging one

What color is your comb? one is white and other two are red

When did you pull out your first tooth? I don’t remember

How old were you when you said your first word? same

Have you ever had a pet rabbit? hell no

Do you like the autumn? it’s fine unless weather gets really cold and snowy

Are you good at drawing? a bit

What is your Hogwarts house? Ravenclaw?

Have you ever seen the Percy Jackson movie/s? nope

Ever seen Glee? fragments

Do you like Demi Lovato? Name a song by her. not a fan

Tarzan or The Lion King? Tarzan, from Lion King I only liked Timon and Pumba and I didn’t cry when Mufasa died

Lilo & Stitch or Moana? Lilo and Stitch

Hercules or Pinocchio? Hercules

Rugrats or Powerpuff Girls? Powerpuff girls

Ever seen Pretty Little Liars? no

Baking or dancing? dancing

Sports or shopping? shopping

Blue or yellow? yellow

Green or pink? green

Did/do you go to a public school, a private school, or homeschool? public

Do you have a secret sideblog? not anymore

If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go? if I could teleport once I would save that ability for special occassion like emergency but if I was able to teleport whenever then hmm...

Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced? nah

How would you spend a million dollars? buy an apartment, help my parents, live better *maybe even make a movie?

What’s your pet peeve? I have so many

Do you like paper books or ebooks better? paper

If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick? Moomin valley

If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like? big hahaha

If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick? well I don’t know them personally so it’s hard to say - just choosing based on their look? hmm...

Who do you text the most? my gf

If you had to choose, which sibling would you live with? I only have a sister so... I would prefer not to live with her again, thx

When was your last date? last week

Are there any people at your job who absolutely hates you? if I had a job...

Do you prefer cool, warm or neutral colors? depends

Have you ever taken art classes? I have

Do you know how to work a cash register? I hope I didn’t forget much about it

Fact or fiction novels? fiction

Do you think you’re a clingy person? am I?

Do you enjoy kisses on the cheek? not really

How often would you say you disagree with your parents? often with my mom, rarely with my dad

Have you ever slept with your window open? nah

What color are your mother’s eyes? brown

Do you cry easily? very

Have you ever been into a court room? field trip in middle school

How many necklaces would you say you own? too many as for someone who never wear them.

What time do you plan on waking up tomorrow morning? wish I didn’t have to

Do you enjoy receiving souvenirs? buying them myself

Do a lot of people dislike you or is it the other way around? it’s both ways

What’s the worst part about school? bullying, grade stress, unhealthy eating, sitting all day long, walking there in the cold and snow during winter etc.

Would you ever consider going on a cruise? nah

Do you still act childish most of the time? often

Did you ever enjoy gym class? at times I enjoyed PE

What is your biggest insecurity? dunno which is biggest, I have plenty of them

Have you ever painted a room alone? not alone but helping

Speaking of which, when did you last paint your room? ages ago

Do you know how to garden? but don’t like to

Do you have any bad habits? shitload

How old were your parents when they had you? in their 30s

What is the most amusing thing on the internet, in your opinion? memes?

Do you try to spend a lot of time with family? compared to some people I spend lots of time with my parents

Do you need to clean your bedroom? yeah

What do you plan on doing with the rest of your life? we’ll see

Which decade were you born in? 90s

Are you good at giving advice to people? but not myself

Is there anyone out there who makes you feel completely useless? I am useless

Do you like texting or calling people more? text

Do you have a lot of friends? I don’t really have friends

Have you ever thought of someone as useless? myself for example

Can you count to ten in another language other than your own? english, polish, russian

Does photography interest you at all? kinda

Do you think you’re a good singer? am not

Do you think you have a good sense of style? I have my own style

Do you enjoy reading often? not often

Are you afraid of lifts? I prefer to take the stairs

How exactly are you feeling right now? Why do you feel the way you do? emotionally/mentally bad because of family and health issues mostly, physically my usual so not the best but can’t complain much

Has the last person you held hands with, ever told you that they love you? yes

Which do you think is the worst - saying something and then wishing you hadn’t, or not saying something and wishing you had? saying smth and wishing I hadn’t is worse to me

When was the last time you saw your grandparents? I saw my grandma almost 3 years ago

Have you ever felt really attracted to someone, but been deterred because you found out they didn’t have a very nice personality? omg more than once

Have you ever hugged/kissed someone you’d only just met? hugged, not kissed

Would you ever apologize for something that wasn’t your fault? I do that sometimes

Has anyone ever cried in your arms before? sure

Do you keep a lot of things from your parents? basically nothing

Using one word only, describe the day you’ve had so far. Sunday

Have you been annoyed at someone/something today? I still am Are you avoiding anybody at the moment? you could say that Is rap your favorite genre of music? it’s not Have you ever lasted a relationship longer then two months? yep Is it safe to walk around your neighborhood at night? not for me Are you a fan of heights? nah but I’m not super scared of heights Rate your typing speed on a scale from 1 - 10? almost 10

Do you text more then you talk on the phone? obvi Are you scared to grow old? to get more ill

Do you use a dishwasher or wash dishes by hand? by hand, I hate dishwashers

What is the best pharmacy near you? they’re not that good

Do you use public transportation? yup

How much does it cost for you to laundry (if you use a slot machine)? we have a washer at home

Do you make your bed every day? I’m lazy and it’s unhealthy to so I don’t

Do you save receipts? depends

Do you use re-usable bags at the grocery store? yep

Have you ever burnt yourself with the glue gun? slightly

Wall calendar or desk calendar? pocket :P

Does your home have a basement? it does

How often do you clean? clean what?

How often do you go grocery shopping? often

Ever bought a lottery ticket? few times

Do you gamble? online for free at times

Do you ever sleep on the floor? sleepover

Which room do you stay in the most? mine

Ever worked two jobs or more at once? noooo

Do you live in an apartment, condo, house, or dorm? house

How often do you go see a doctor? too often

Do you have acid reflux? chronic

Do you snore? no

Are you on birth control? I’m asexual and into women

Do you put on make-up in the bathroom or the bedroom? I did it wherever

What is the first site you go to when you turn on your computer? fb

Which email service do you use? wp

How often do you check your email? usually rarely

How old were you when you got your first phone? I was in middle school

Did you own a Britney Spears album? I don’t listen to Britney Spears

What sites are you on? plenty

Does the door to your room have a lock? I wish, it has a funny stuffed/plushie one What type of skin do you have? mixed Ever gotten beer poured all over yourself? luckily not, gross *from what I remember someone poured wine or beer on my shoes once in the store by breaking the bottle and didn’t pay for anything Who’s the last person you had a sleepover with? John Who’s the last person you wanted to kiss? my gf Can you keep a secret? not really When’s the last time you went on a walk? this evening

Do you feel uncomfortable when people you hardly know confide in you? if they use me

Have you ever regretted what you said in drunken conversation once sober? never been in such situation

Is there anything coming up which you’re dreading? it’s complicated

Do you ever do tedious tasks just to keep your mind occupied? I have my usual things/distractions that I do everyday

Have you ever lived with somebody with truly repulsive habits? could say so?

Do you tend to say things because they’re appropriate not because you mean them? sometimes

What was the last thing to fascinate you? smth I saw on the internet?

What was the last thing to annoy you? someone close to me

When did your hard work last pay off? basically never

When did you last feel a need to be alone? almost always?

When did you last REALLY want to go out but couldn’t for whatever reason? covid and my other health problems but also money

Have you ever eaten chocolate for breakfast? nooo

Do you like balloons? I do (don’t worry tho I can do without them)

When will you next go to the beach? *shrug*

If you have pet fish do you bother to name them? if I had fish I probably would name them

Did you ever read the Terry Pratchet “Disk World” books? I hate Pratchett

Do you keep your eggs in the fridge? of course

Have you ever owned chickens? I wanted to

Do you like classical music? at times, some songs

When did you last listen to music? this day

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authorsdenbyorihime-may · 7 years

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How I Write Baybayin (Handwriting and Straight-cut Nib Calligraphy) Subtitle: This is a freaking long-ass post so be warned now

You can read the entirety of this post as is, or you can go straight to the calligraphy portion. It’s at the end of the post (sorry dunno how to link that portion here).

Writer’s Note: First and foremost, I will advise everyone who reads this somewhat master post that I am not an authority when it comes to how baybayin is written, as what you shall be reading is just based mostly on my own experiences on how the characters are written and comparing them with other writing systems that are based on syllables rather than individual letters, like the Japanese Kana and the Korean Hangul, among others. This is because baybayin are not technically letters (individualized, can’t stand alone, only comes either as vowel or consonant but not both, you get the picture), but rather are syllables (i.e. the consonants have free vowels with them lol) that form words.

Also, as far as I know regarding how the baybayin texts are originally written pre-Hispanic colonization era, some of the written texts in the Philippines (or at least, those that survived, or I remember seeing in old history books) were written from right to left, top to bottom. This also coincides with other writing methods in some parts of Asia that also read from right to left. The technique of writing and reading from left to right may be a Western invention, in my opinion so I just did some of the strokes in the baybayin characters go from right to left, except for the straight-cut nib section. Again, I am no authority so I’m just doing what I think makes sense to me, as there is no existing ANCIENT written rules on the stroke order of the baybayin. Other people may disagree with my stroke orders here due to various reasons, but if you’re into what I did then feel free to learn from them, for free. *heart*

This author’s other notes: I won’t be elaborating the history of baybayin here because that would take around (counts how many years I spent in school) 5ever as it basically intertwines with the “current” history of the Filipino people. I put quotes on “current” because every decade or so, some written histories get re-written based on some evidences or what, and I totally respect that. It’s like in scientific papers: legit today, debunked tomorrow. And it’s completely OK, because THE MORE YOU KNOW~

Also this author’s note: I keep calling baybayin alibata, because that’s what they were called when I was a kid and how it was taught by history teachers before the process called “being politically-correct” became the norm. It’s because alibata was supposedly an incorrect term which signifies that the characters were letters based on Arabic, but apparently it wasn’t so.. Yeah. I’m just saying, so the kiddies would know. And if you’re like me who also refers to baybayin as alibata, let’s get a high-five! (Cause you’re also old, but gold =D) Some biased history FTW lol ok let’s get started.

Handwriting Alibata Baybayin Strokes with a Bamboo pen (or Ballpen, or Pencil, w/e floats your boat)

OK, before I start I would be first putting here the somewhat traditional ordering of the baybayin, which is:

A BA KA DA E GA HA I LA MA NA NGA O PA RA SA TA U WA YA

As well as the borrowed/loan syllables (which correspond to C, F, J, Ñ, Q, V, X, and Z were apparently added some 6-7 years ago, in which I didn’t get the memo x__x)

CA FA JA ÑA QA VA XA ZA

OK, now that’s out of the way, it’s time for the actual stuff. For ease of practice and recall, I’m grouping the letters based on how I write them and in turn, their forms. This would make sense as the pictures move along, don’t worry. The forms are built sequentially, I tried making that a bit obvious in the diagrams, but there are red arrows in case I wasn’t that clear. For those that only have one picture or arrows in the sequence, I would be implying that the form is built on a single stroke.

Group 1: A, MA, PA, YA, FA, JA, VA

OK, let’s start with A:

Then MA:

PA:

YA:

FA:

JA:

VA:

Group 2: E/I (more on that later), KA, DA, HA, RA, CA, QA, XA

I’ll start with HA because it’s a foundational stroke:

I looks structurally like E, but only with a vertical stroke on its hat.

It’s because originally, E and I were the same character and whether it should be read as a syllable from the E or I line depends on how the reader would read it and the dialect used in writing the words, like it’s a fill-in-the-blanks kind of thing. It’s also the same with O and U, so if you see that part yeah they look alike. This is also the reason why revisions on writing the E-I and O-U consonants were made, but that would be for a later part. Just be patient for now. =D

Ok, moving on, we’ll go to KA:

DA:

RA:

A short note on DA and RA: In olden times, these two were only one character, and are used interchangeably based on word usage, thus for words such as doon/roon, which both mean way over there one is used for passive and one is used directly (sorry not a speech comm person). This is also the case for marami and ang dami (both meaning “there are many/there is much” but one is active and one is passive. Madami is, IMHO grammatically incorrect. But then again, I’m not a speech comm person so sorry if these are wrong. I’m just saying).

CA:

QA:

XA:

Group 3: O/U, GA, SA, ZA

Just like in E/I, O and U are also structurally similar. To make an O:

To make it a U, just put a vertical line on the right side:

GA:

SA:

ZA:

Group 4: LA, NA, TA, ÑA

I grouped this bunch based on having a downward stroke in the middle of the form. The initial strokes are written as a single stroke from left to right, like in the first group.

LA:

NA:

TA:

ÑA:

Group 5: I have no idea where to put BA, NGA, and WA so I just made a miscellaneous group lol but they deserve just as much love OK?

BA:

NGA:

WA:

How the E, I, O and U lines are written:

In writing E, I, O and U (as in the case for the example below, which is GE, GI, GO, and GU), the original positions of the additional marks (such as the vertical lines for I and U) were kept but in order to differentiate E from I and O from U, the marks were made to be further distinct. For instance, GE is basically GA which has a horizontal line above it, while GI has a dot above it. As for GO, it has a dot below and GU has a horizontal line.

GI and GO can have either a hollowed dot like in the sample, or can also be filled like the samples below. It’s based on personal preference. Also I used G for the samples because it looks nice, fun to write, and most other examples of alibata on the internet use BA as their examples for this portion. Whoops, I meant, baybayin. XD

Vowel Killers: Invented by People who Needed It

I’m not entirely sure why vowel killer was the term used but it does tell it exactly what it does: it silences the vowels in the characters (because baybayin is composed of syllables) in order to make separate letters. It was invented by some Spanish friar who couldn’t properly write the native words because words that have consonants at the end were written incompletely. I.E. the word DOON (over there) was written as DO-O in baybayin. It was such a drag that he decided to introduce the Spanish/Latin alphabet by making baybayin characters that acted as alphabets, which is essentially killing all the vowels and leaving the consonant behind. So instead of using dots, the friar made a cross underneath the symbol which they called a kudlit (for obviously non-secular reasons), so that the words with consonant ends can be written and read as they were. As per the revision that was instated a few years ago, in order to make the baybayin a bit more secular, more forms of the vowel killers were made, which in my opinion look better than the original kudlit, because they look more organic with the forms.

As you can see in the pic of the letter G above, the first on the left is the original kudlit, which is shaped like a cross. The next one has an X, or sinawali (it’s literally based on the patterns of hard, woven rattan walls called sawali which look like X’s), the next one is called a kawil (sorry dunno where that came from) and the right-most one has a pamudpod (which may have come from the word “pudpod/pudpud” literally meaning grinding or repeatedly striking something on a hard surface or on a whetting stone till it disappears or becomes flat/dull, so pamudpod is the surface that makes the item pudpod like a used pencil or eraser. Do I even make sense anymore? Oh well, YOLO).

Stringing them All Together

My personal preference is using a kawil on horizontal writing (left to right) and using a pamudpod when writing vertically. I think the overall impact is better. But then again, it’s just my personal idea. Using any of the vowel killers are, like the filled or hollow dots on I and O are personal preferences, as long as there is consistency in usage.

If you can read the above and understand where the reference came from, you probably also call baybayin as alibata, and we should totally get some tea together. XDD It pretty much means “What is there, yonder?” smth idk but yeah, it sounds like that. Old and formal Filipino/Tagalog.

Langit - sky or heaven, Lupa - ground or earth, Araw - sun, and Buwan (or Bulan in Ilokano) - moon

Soliman - A variant of the name Sulaiman/Solomon

Amihan - the northeast monsoon, the nice wind that brings in cool, dry air around November-March. Or if you watched the old and new Encantadia, she’s the protag. XD

The third sampler is a phrase (I ran out of space it was supposed to be a sentence), and vertical double bars are used to end the sentence. I just made them into diagonal slashes to make them look cool. Also I ran out of space. x__x It’s transliterated as a wailing mom looking for her child: Ai anaku (bunga) - Ah, my child (fruit). No space for fruit so it ain’t there.

Author’s extra rant note: Of course, some early Filipinos didn’t wanna use the kudlit due to being comfy with whatever they had at that time, but eventually they gave in. Fast forward to a century later and the baybayin was pretty much dead, as it was for the next 4 centuries or so. Romaji became the norm (except for some of the native tribes that have their own awesome writing systems), but then again some Filipinos didn’t forget it entire time, as many of the revolutionaries’ battle flags had the syllable KA, which is the first syllable of Katipunan, their group which can also be transliterated as “the entire group of the people who meet and come together”. I can’t say more because this is a long-ass post and it’s not about Philippine history. But we can talk about that if you want. Just hit me up with an ask. Warning though: I might just say “thanks for asking but please ask something else” lol j/k XDD

Writing Baybayin using a Straight-cut Calligraphy Pen/ Dip pens with Straight/Oblique Nibs

For this portion of the post, aside from posting pictures of the baybayin in black and white ink I would be pointing out that the techniques I used here are based on Western traditional calligraphy techniques used by scribes of the past, so some of the stroke patterns would be a lot different from the handwritten strokes above. But then again, if you clicked the link to get here straight away instead of reading the previous portions, well you won’t be having that much problems then. Also I will assume you already learned how to write baybayin so I’ll leave you at that. For the black baybayin, I used a calligraphy fountain pen with a 2mm straight-cut nib from the Visual Deck Set – Calligraphy box, not sure where you can buy it online but I bought mine at the National Bookstore because nobody wants to buy it. (Should’ve also bought the other calligraphy set while they’re on sale. LOL Just saying XDD). The surface is just the back of old calendars because I was just testing the strokes. For the white baybayin, I used a Speedball™ C-2 oblique-cut nib and for the ink, it’s glittery silver poster paint from Reeves™ (diluted with dH2O), and the surface is some random paper with nice surface and sizing which my father got from the office. (Apparently you can’t print anything on it so it aged well there until my father disturbed the papers’ sleep and brought them home. Now I ran out of both the calendar and the weird red paper so business is halted for a bit. XDD) Again, these are all based on how I write stuff so it’s pretty much a personal opinion, it’s not absolute but it certainly works for me so here you go.

Group 1

MA:

PA:

YA:

FA:

JA:

VA:

Group 2:

E/I: I’m just putting I here because E and I basically have the same strokes. To make E, just omit the final vertical stroke.

DA:

HA:

RA:

CA:

QA:

XA:

Group 3

O/U: Same with E/I, I just placed U here because O is practically the same, minus the vertical stroke on the right.

GA:

SA:

ZA:

Group 4

LA:

NA:

TA:

ÑA:

Group 5

BA:

NGA:

WA:

E, I, O, U Lines

Vowel Killers

I didn’t make any full sentences or words because I ran out of nice papers, so maybe I’ll post some next time. Sorry. ._.

Author’s final note on writing using baybayin: I’m still on the fence in using the loan letters C, F, J, Ñ, Q, V, X, and Z because in my opinion apart from having redundancies with some other letters, they were just invented to spell out proper nouns that are foreign in origin. I wouldn’t even spell my full name using baybayin, except my nickname and would just rather use the Romaji/Latin Alphabet for ease. As for using baybayin to write foreign words, well, that can be as tricky as using kana to write foreign words. Both methods boil down to localizing a foreign word into how it would be pronounced based on the original language that the writing system belongs to. For instance, the Japanese waifu (as in “My waifu”) is the Japanized form of the English word “wife”, but because their spelling system is a bit different they had to estimate which kana would be suited to approximate how the word would be pronounced and in turn, be spelled. It is also the same case for some Filipino loan words that got Filipinized (and bastardized because long words are hard lol not kidding tho) such as the word istambay which originally came from “standby” and is now shortened to “tambay” which means “just loitering and doing nothing” or in how the young ones use it now: to hang out with friends (and probably just loiter and do nothing lol don’t kill me ok?). Thus, the usage of baybayin (or kana, or hangul, or Arabic because I think their writing is very lovely or whatever writing system you like that works as syllables more than letters) in writing words from another language would take extra steps such as following the rules of the written language or localizing the word first before writing them in whatever letters or syllables that you want. It’s like using what you have then making do with it/winging it out.

The End!!!! No just kidding. But it’s the last part.

To be honest there are a lot of stuff in the internet about baybayin so I’m not that entirely sure if what I have here is pretty much redundant or not. There are a lot of sites so just use your Googling skills to find what you need, although it may be a bit difficult for readers/users who simply try writing and not understanding the entire language so just use with caution. It’s hard to end up with THAT tough guy who has a kanji tattoo that actually spells “poop” instead of whatever it was supposed to be. I actually saw a guy sporting a tattoo that reads FUUBEN in Japanese, which translates to inconvenience. I lol deep inside but the guy seems happy with that so I just let him be.

Well, I hope this long-ass post helped you a lot, or at the very least the stuff made sense to you and it was worth your time reading. Please leave an ask if you have other questions, I’ll try to answer them if and when I can. Have a great day and may the force be with you. =D

#how to write baybayin #how to write alibata #how i write baybayin #baybayin handwriting #baybayin handwriting stroke order #baybayin calligraphy stroke order #baybayin calligraphy

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stimcourse-archive-blog · 7 years

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Just FYI...

heya! aries here! (formerly mod a) i’m just here to give yall a few friendly lil reminders 😊

first thing! this blog, while being public, is technically a personal blog for mod c and his system. it’s a place for them to collect stimmy things! this space, they just so happen to share it with you!

not only that, but that make it more enjoyable for you! they have an extensive tagging system so you can look for, and blacklist, things accordingly! not only that, but they have A TAG for you guys to BLACKLIST their own PERSONAL POSTS. thats right! so you guys can ignore their PERSONAL POSTS they make on their PERSONAL BLOG! now that’s some really nice stuff right there!

do they need to do all that stuff? NOPE! they can go ahead and tag ABSOLUTELY NOTHING if they so wanted to. hell! if they wanted to COMPLETELY CHANGE this blog, they could do that as well! you might wake up tomorrow and this blog will be a kingdom hearts fan blog! you’ll never know!! its all up to them!

now see, since their space is theirs, they can do as they please on their blog! if they refuse to tag something, that’s their right to do so! if they say ‘hey, i don’t like these certain blogs, so i rather they not interact with me’ that’s also their right to do so! sure, it’s a public site, but it’s still their blog.

like, if someone were to be sharing, say, a cool toy or something, and said ‘i dont want these certain ppl to touch this’, then hey! maybe it’d be great for you to respect their wishes! sure, they can block you, and MAKE SURE you don’t touch it, or you can go around them and go ‘hehehe!! this will show em!’ like some bratty-ass kid going through their backpack while theyre not looking to play with their stuff when they told you not to, and then get caught and have them block you.

NOT ONLY THAT, but! they also have their feelings and thoughts and emotions! if you were to get twenty ppl coming up to you to ask you THE SAME question that you’ve been answering for THE LONGEST TIME, wouldn’t you get irritated? OF COURSE YOU WOULD!

NOT ONLY THAT, but say you put out a notice where everyone can see that answers this question already, but instead everyone COMPLETELY IGNORES IT and just asks you again and again and again, that’d be even MORE irritating, wouldn’t it be? uh, YEAH! it would be!

now, say, on top of all this, you’re dealing with all sorts of things! stress of school, moving out, family issues, mental health issues, AND medical issues. now, you sit back and go to reblog some stimmy stuff for yourself, try to de-stress, and WOW! you see people spewing ABSOLUTE BULLSHIT about you! saying you endorse r/pe and death threats and sorts of unkind things that YOU KNOW you haven’t done! boy! if that wouldn’t piss you off, i don’t know what would!

now, today, mod c had been busy seeing his mother whom he hadn’t seen for MONTHS and would sometimes worry was dead! and yet, he took bits and pieces of the time he could have been spending with her to answer some asks here and there! did he have to? NOPE! but he did anyways!

and since some ppl don’t seem to realize the owners of this blog have a life outside of this blog, he got a few annoying asks about why he wasn’t doing x, y, and z! then, once he answers irritatedly, y’all call him all sorts of things that say a lot more about YOU GUYS rather than him!

seriously, if anything, he’s been absolutely patient with the lot of you! if y’all think he’s being an asshole, then oh boy, you guys haven’t seen nothing yet!

hell! on top of all that, he’s a mentally ill teen that doesn’t always have the energy, empathy, nor recognition of own tone to always be 100% chipper and kind to each anon! sometimes you guys call him an asshole for the TINIEST THINGS, which is so stupid!

seriously! if you guys don’t like the way he runs this blog, and can’t recognize that he’s just one person trying to run his own blog the way he likes, and feel natural emotions (which sometimes are felt in tenfold due to his neurodivergence) then you can seriously just go? he really doesn’t need your bullshit. if you don’t like his blog, then unfollow. no one’s forcing you to stay here. sure, he might be so kind to do things like tagging for you, but to demean him for reacting to things the way he does is absolutely ridiculous!

tl:dr; i’m pissed that you guys can’t recognize that the blog owners are individuals with thoughts and feelings and life to deal with, and don’t need your bs. instead of saying smth rude about them, then unfollow! he doesn’t need you if youre being a dick. if you don’t like something he did, you can go. thanks. 😊

#not stim #mod a #mother ment -#death ment -#rape ment -#long post -#text heavy -#if u blacklist any of this but can see this tags i recommend just checking this over!#it's just a few stuff i'm miffed abt from followers/non-followers #anyways with that i'm going back to my main. dont bother replying to this w a comeback #bc the blog owner didnt make this and the person who did won't be here to answer anything abt it

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why aren’t you with your first love? my first female crush was hetero

were you sad when you heard about michael jackson’s death? no have you ever kissed an ex after you broke up? because we’re together again lol how long could you go without cursing? not long if I’m around people :x did anything annoy you today? mostly my computer and thunderstorm have you consumed alcohol in the past 24 hours? I don’t drink so obviously not have you ever kissed someone who’s last name started with an b? no what were you doing at 8am this morning? sleeping if you were kicked out of your house, where would you go first? I would try grandma and my gf probably maybe my sister? if none of those options would work then I’d be homeless what will you be doing in 3 hours? hopefully sleeping is tomorrow gonna be a good day? what are you going to do? doubt it, nothing much are you satisfied with your life as of now? am not are any of your friends taller than you? of course, I’m very short have you ever gone out of your way to make someone happy? shitload of times who was the last person you took a picture with? my dad or my gf do you wear a belt with every pair of jeans? I don’t wear jeans or belts where did you get the shirt you are wearing? got it from my sister as a gift the last two people you kissed, are they virgins? I only kissed one person in my entire life and that’s personal describe how you feel right now in one word? bad anybody tell you they miss you lately? my gf made a post about it if that counts are you closer to your father or mother? my dad what’s your relationship with the person you talked to last? she’s my mom do you say sorry first? often did you speak to your father today? yeah, like every day what locker number is yours? I never had a locker do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? my bed is too small to have sides do you prefer an ocean or a pool? pool, ocean is more scary do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth? yup do you sleep with your closet door opened or closed? my wardrobe is always closed are you capable of holding down a long-term relationship? we’ll see is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to? at least my father if your best friend made out with your boyfriend/ girlfriend, what would you do? my father? with my gf?... what is bothering you right now? ugh... do you think someone is thinking about you right now? sure do you like when people play with your hair? I don’t care much do you miss how things use to be with someone? absolutely

how are you doing today? sigh... sex ruins relationships, right? could say so

do you think it’s a bunch of bull shit when people say “i have no regrets”? I hate this kind of ppl, stay away! who got you the jewelry you’re wearing? I’m not wearing any jewelry atm do you get scared during scary movies? I usually get grossed out how do you feel right now? *shrug* is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now? I’m fine being alone do you like hugs? depends two days from today, where will you be? either home or or hospital... or dead are relationships ever really worth it? time will show do you miss your past? badly is the last person you kissed older than you? nope, almost 2 months younger what color shirt are you wearing? black and white stripes with a cat shaped UFO and a pug what do you currently hear right now? nothing, I can’t listen to music anymore because my mom is asleep and I don’t want to use my headphones what are you planning on doing after this? maybe another survey

are you gonna be home tonight? yup, unless smth bad will happen then I will go to ER - you never know name the first person you can think of that you know that has a tattoo? I’ve been talking about it today lmfao W. and S. had tattoos do you slam doors when you’re mad? might is your room messy or clean? organized mess do you tell your best friend everything? it’s not possible but I try my best do you think anyone has feelings for you? it seems did your last kiss take place on a bed? I don’t think so are you someone’s best friend? one of best friends, not the only one have you kissed anyone whose name starts with a z? my name starts with z

when you take surveys, are your answers inspired by the person’s before you? I basically never read their answers, can happen accidentally but it doesn’t change anything

are you a “fan” of a lot of things on facebook? been on my old account, that was one of the reasons I created new profile, the only thing I regret about that fact is losing my Criminal case progress :(

have you ever “spoken” to any celebrities via. twitter? Grimes

do you like croissants? noooo

do you get a lot of traffic outside your house or not? nah what does the last jacket you wore look like? blue plaid with grey hood, buttons and pockets

do you eat cereal bars? tried some in the past

are you on any prescribed medication? can’t take any meds currently

how often do you change your bedsheets? rarely because I’m allergic to most of detergents and then I have ever bigger problems with sleeping

if you haven’t already, are you scared of leaving home? if you have, do you like it? just a little

do you know how to look after yourself away from home? (budget, pay pills, feed yourself, cook, clean, do laundry etc.) not everything, I need to learn some stuff yet

do you drink a lot of juice? nope

what would you do if you found an abandoned baby on your doorstep, with a note asking you to keep it and take care of it? it’s illegal...

how many times have you moved in your life so far? 0

do you have a certain routine in the bath or shower? what is it? I bath my shoulders first (unless I wash my hair then my head goes first)

is there anything that you loved a year ago but just can’t stand now? food mostly

what do you do when people give you mixed messages? I try to find out the truth

would you ever eat kangaroo steak? ewww, hell no

is there a chalkboard or whiteboard anywhere in your house? I hate chalkboards, I have magnetic board tho

do you like dried fruit at all? what’s your favorite type? meh

how many times have you been to the ER? at least 3 times how has this past week been for you? complicated

when a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go? walks out HOW and WHY? what do people think about you that isn’t true? long story, dunno where should I even start, plenty of gossips to mention what do you think about internet best friends? why not? how many months until your birthday? half a year does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes? I do that myself but at times it doesn’t make me laugh but hurts me if the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose? summer? if somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to tell you? I’m taken so if we’re not talking about my partner then I don’t think someone should tell me that when was the last time you cried really hard? yesterday, today only slightly and just once could you go out in public looking like you do now? yes last person you gave something to? parents do you believe that if you want something bad enough you’ll get it? pfft honestly, has anyone ever seen you in your underwear? well I was in hospitals, been visiting many doctors, went to school where we had PE, have a family and am in a relationship etc etc etc would you ever shave your head to save someone you love? that doesn’t really help when’s the next time you will kiss somebody? not soon, second half of the next month? how’s your heart lately? physically or emotionally? are you a jealous person? a bit do you wear the hood on your hoodie? sometimes can you successfully blow up and tie a balloon? doubt it where’s the weirdest place you’ve changed clothes? not sure which place was the weirdest what are you doing next week? no plans what was the first thing you thought this morning? I was thinking about my dream (me and some strangers were in an abandoned factory of some sort and there were dragons chasing us but I was escaping and even saved a little girl) would you rather have your nose or tongue pierced? nose ever stayed up all night on the phone? not whole night has the last person you kissed ever been mad at you? she was indeed does someone call and talk to you every night before you go to sleep? luckily not has the last person you kissed seen you cry? few times did anyone see your last kiss? we were one on one have you ever kissed someone who was high? I haven’t do you want to please everyone? no way, it’s not possible anyway anything interesting happen this week? mostly interesting bad

do you still talk to the person you last kissed? in general because at this very moment they’re busy would you kiss the last person you kissed again? we're going to what does that person look like? tall, curly hair, glasses, black clothes have you dated someone who wasn’t good to you? not that I deserve anything good but... would you ever cut your hair 6 inches shorter than it is now? I would be bald :o when was the last time it rained? today last person you cuddled with dies, are you sad? omg

have you ever helped a blind/visually impaired person to cross the road? there was no occassion

have you ever had a letter get lost in the mail, only to receive it months/years later? I sent a letter to my (now ex) friend and she never received it because someone stolen it

do you ever feel disconnected from everyone around you? kinda

have you ever had a stalker? more than once

have you ever had to look after someone’s pet when they were away on holiday? sorta

do you know anyone who works as an air hostess? someone I know wants to work as an air hostess but she’s studying

have you ever found something in your home which belonged to a previous owner? there was no previous owner

^ even if you haven’t, what would you do if you did? would you try and find the original owner? no idea

do you (or does anyone you know) tend to exaggerate any sign of sickness? looks like it

have you ever owned a pet goldfish? no fish, ever

were you ever bullied in primary school? not only primary

have you ever been into any kind of sex shop? online ones count?

when you go to church, do you light a candle for anyone? there were those coin turned on lamp candles in Ełk that I loved but they’re gone

are you/or is anyone you know a really good painter? no one is that good

would you be more inclined to give money to homeless people who play music as opposed to just sitting and begging? that’s true

have you ever traveled by train? if so, do you do it often? at least once a year

have you ever been diagnosed with any kind of heart condition? when I was born

are you homeschooled? if you went to regular highschool, do you think you’d have liked being taught at home? wish I was homeschooled

is one of your parents very much into diy? my mom likes diy but not obsessively

do you know of anyone who is/has been in a coma? -

do you like skimming stones? I suck at it

would you ever want to work in cafe, even if only temporarily? not even temporarily

how much would you to do to get back something which contained your most treasured memories? damn

do you know anyone who is afraid of butterflies? I heard K. is

have you ever been inside a lighthouse? I don’t recall do you have any money from different countries other than your own? several coins if you already have your license, how did you feel on the day of your test? I don’t have my license do you care if you buy things that are ‘made in china’ or not? I avoid buying some specific items that were made in china would you rather swim in the pool or play in a sprinkler? none, am against sprinklers actually if you get your pictures developed, or if you have in the past, do you keep the negatives or just throw them away? my mom kept them

where were you 2 hours ago? home

are you wearing socks right now? almost always

have you been to the movies in the last 5 days? not since high school who was the last person to hear you cry? more like saw that I cried/want to cry, not hear have you bought any clothing items in the last week? mother bought a crop top for me this day one thing you hate about yourself? can’t choose one, there’s more what are your plans for the day? day is over did you have fun today? moment what do you know about the future? that I’ll die someday as every other human being do you have a tan? honey skin is my tan during summer how old do you want to be when you have kids? I don’t want to have any kids! how do you like your soda? I don’t drink soda who was the last person to make you cry? myself? what day is tomorrow? Friday have you ever worn red lipstick? it was the only one I ever used

do you know who bonnie and clyde are? remind me of Sara

are you christian? I am

if so, have you ever read the entire bible? I guess

are you generally attracted to more outgoing and loud people or quiet and mysterious people? smth in between

have you ever cried because you couldn’t be with someone? that was dumb of me

could you ever see yourself going to those college parties, getting drunk, fucking some random person and getting an std? u can apparently get std without parties, drinking and sex

don’t you hate it when things are amazing in other people’s lives and you’re stuck in a hole? very

do you have problems with one - or both - of your parents? with one of them way more

do you sleep a lot? barely

do you like drinking water? whatever

have you ever been to a funeral? 1

do you like writing? when I have smth to write about

are you doing/did you do good in school? got worse with time

do you think moths are bad luck? whaaat? but they’re so pretty! :o

or do you not believe in supersitious stuff? I believe in some superstitions but like five of them or smth

will you date someone that’s not your race? I believe

i hope you aren’t racist… are you? am I? :(

have you ever made yourself throw up? disgusting, not able to do that

do you think you exercise enough? I don’t exercise

have you ever pierced something on your body, yourself? I’m not stupid

Have you ever listened to the same song on repeat for hours on end? that happened Do you like staying in hotels? hmm... Are musicals interesting or boring? annoying, besides Cats What is your favorite scent of incense? I don’t burn it

Can you tune a guitar by ear or do you need a tuner? need a tuner Do you like love songs? oh well...

Don’t you hate it when your eyes burn? it’s awful, got that problem last weeks Have you ever sex texted? I’ve sexted

Would you know who to talk to if you wanted weed? but I don’t want it Have you ever worn leather? fake What is your greatest fear? personal If you could kiss anyone right now, who would it be? my gf What perfume do you wear? none, I hate perfumes Do you smell good right now? I don’t think so What is your favorite energy drink? never tried any and don’t want to

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