#d.gray man angst

[pinkisthenewangst]

Hey there! May I request #11 of the tragic quotes for Lavi?

°`🍨: D.Gray-Man x GN! Reader

°`🍨: Observing Lavi 

°`🍨: Prompt 11 - “ There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you. “

Your work as a finder was mainly related to securing the Innocent and gathering information so that the exorcists could successfully carry out their mission. You were lucky enough to accompany Bookman and his apprentice several times, which is why you became friends with Lavi, if you even could call it a friendship. The exorcist was very nice but also a bit childish, but if you looked closely at his face, you could see that his smile never reached his eye. As if the emotions he showed were not real, but only a play while his face was the stage. When you first noticed it, you couldn't take your eyes off him. Everyone was aware that Bookman and his apprentice were only here to document the history of the time, which is why feelings are out of place for them. But you could see it clearly. Lavi longed to show those feelings openly and tell every single story that bothered him.

Ever since you had this discovery, you couldn't help but watch him when you had the chance. It usually started in the canteen. You looked up from your food when you heard a familiar voice. Your gaze usually focused on his face, which is why you usually forget to continue eating. Your eyes followed every movement that took place in his face. Startled, your eyes widened when his gaze turned to you. Caught off guard, you turned your face back to your food as you feel the warmth in your ears. Embarrassed, you put your hand on one ear so no one would see how red it got. You feel his gaze rest on you for a moment before he probably turns back to the others.

The next situation happens during the next mission. The exorcists were sitting in their compartment while you stood next to the door as the finder. Somewhat bored, you rocked back and forth on your heels, in your mind sorting Lavi's various facial expressions into specific feelings. You frowned as your lips pursed slightly. The young man was a great mystery to you, but unfortunately he isn't an open book you could read with a glance. You sighed, but you knew it was a good sign for his future as a bookman that you couldn't see through him. But you knew very well that he was carrying a lot of untold stories that he had to handle on his own.

Your job as a finder now seemed much easier than before, but you still knew that you could be replaced faster than he could. After all, finders aren't there to stand up against Akuma. You shake your head as it slowly began to hurt from the whole thinking you did. Life in the present time was far too complicated for you to be able to find answers. While he is carrying the burden of having to keep everything to himself, you had to be ready to look death in the eye at any moment. A tragic turn of your observation.

°`🍨: i hope you like it ! ovo9 

°`🍨: PROMPT MASTERLIST   

°`🍨: REQUESTS ARE OPEN !

[aubadeempress]

Has anyone at all made a Lavi missing poster?

[isthenextchapterofdgmoutyet]

This has gone way too far with the spread of misinformation.

D.Gray-man was never in danger of being cancelled, what the fuck are you people talking about. The only thing that was cancelled were the BD/DVD release, partially bc Hoshino didn't have time to supervise them.

their source: I made it the fuck up.

STOP HARASSING YULLEN ARTISTS BASED ON MISINFORMATION + SPREADING OUTRIGHT LIES.

The actual translation of Hoshino's words re poster incident:

In any case the anime wasn't going to be cancelled bc of Yullen. 🙃 Yullen as a ship is going to exist regardless, she just doesn't want OOC depictions on dishonest fujobait. Stop overblowing this into a huge lie.

[deinococcvs-radiodvrans]

Looking for a roleplay partner

I decided to try and do a new one because I guess the last one didn’t work. Unless the roleplaying community is slowly dying. 

My name is Blue, I’m 26 yrs old. I’ve been roleplaying since I was in high school so it’s almost 10 yrs. I’m looking for a long term roleplaying partner. 

Fandoms I roleplay: Undertale, Durarara, Gravity Falls, Reverse Falls, Persona 3-5 (including spin offs), D.gray-man, FNAF, South Park, The Owl House, Doctor Who, Welcome Home, and many more, this were some of the ones I remember at the moment of writing this. I also have ocs, if you don’t want a canon fandom.

Here are some ground rules:

Please be 18+, no minors allowed.

Discord only. 

English isn’t my first language, it’s Spanish.

My replies will vary on the mood I'm in if my muse is high I will give long replies but if my muse is high I will give from one-liners to a paragraph at least. 

I tend to reply as quick as possible, unless I’m taking a course or taking nursing classes. Otherwise in ten minutes you have a reply from me. So I’m expecting you do the same (it’s understandable if you are busy, at work,  you don’t have muse at the moment, etc.)

I’m not very picky when it comes to ships I ship from mxf, fxf, mxm, etc. 

I love rping about most anything from fluff to angst. 

When it comes to NSFW content, I don’t do it as much because I really don’t know what to type or don’t know the terminology for said things, also if it gets tooo explicit I will drop or time skip, because it makes me uncomfortable.

We will have our own discord group so we can plot, chat, and rp.

I tend to have 1-5 rps ongoing at the same time, also having multiple characters in the same rp (just to help advance the plot) 

I like to take things slow, not rushing the plot, if you feel that it dragging to much you can always tell me so I can advance it.

IF YOU ARE INTERESTED PLEASE DM ME

[ofdemonsandangels]

20 Questions For Fic Writers

Thank you for the tag @marley-manson!

I'll be tagging @seaofolives, @alovelyburn, @white-winter-hymnals, @moonlight-blue-rose, and @shiroganeryo

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Currently six, five complete and one ongoing

2. What's your total AO3 wordcount?

16,145

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Mainly Berserk but I also write for D.Gray-Man and dabbled in SK8 the Infinity

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

A Familiar Canvas ➡️ wild (like young volcanoes) ➡️ say me, wight in the bom ➡️ One of Heart, One of Mind ➡️ Encompassing Lust

5. Do you respond to comments?

I always do!

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably Take Me to the Poppy Field. It's pre-canon ManaCross, so ofc it's angsty, and I do love myself some good ManaCross angst

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Easily One of Heart, One of Mind. It's a Yulma wedding fic and I shoved all the fluff and happy feels into it as possible

8. Do you get hate on your fics?

Not yet and not to my knowledge

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Uhhhhh let's see. Encompassing Lust contains sexual content but I wouldn't go as far as to call it smut. I'd like to write a proper smut fic one day but I'd have to be in the proper mood for it, if you get my gist

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

wild (like young volcanoes) would be considered a crossover by some, but it's really just an au, a Percy Jackson au

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Hopefully not

12. Have you ever had a fic translated

Not yet

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not yet

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

This is hard! Can I cheat and make it a three-way tie between GriffGuts, Yulma, and Matchablossom? I tend to alternate a lot between these three and I love them so much.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

My GriffGuts lovechild au. I've shared snippets of it on this blog before but every time I try to work on it, my mind takes me elsewhere. I still want to finish it though! The question is when

16. What are your writing strengths?

That's a very good question that I have no good answer to. I guess I'm pretty good when it comes to descriptions. And metaphors. I love myself a good metaphor, so when I have the opportunity to add one, I will

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I'd be here all day if I listed off every one of my writing weaknesses lmao. But if I did have to narrow it down, it'd definitely have to be my perfectionism and chronic revisionism. I can't stand it when a word or sentence structure doesn't sit right with my mind. I'll just stare at it for minutes and if I can't find a solution, I'll just straight up nuke the entire doc because everything else starts to look wrong in my mind. My beta readers can attest to this

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

*traumatic flashbacks of all the VLD fics that had Lance speaking bad Spanish/Spanglish*

I don't think writing dialogue in a different language is bad at all, it's just very obvious when the author is 1) a non-native speaker and 2) uses Google translate. Don't be afraid to reach out to friends who speak the language you're trying to write!

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Officially published? Berserk. But first ever? That would be Percy Jackson. It's a stapled five-page, handwritten reader insert fic and I still have it in my room, under my bed.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Oh hands down it's One of Heart, One of Mind. Yulma is a ship that means so much to me and it quite literally defined the way that I viewed queer ships in media. It took me forever to write this fic but that was because I wanted to do them justice.

[readreactrant]

Hello.... If you don't mind me asking, who are your favorite romantic relationship's couples in books/ manga/ anime/movies/tv series (can be canon or non-canon)? Feel free if you want to write the reasons or not of why you love them...Thanks if you want to answer....

Thanks for the ask and damn I'm always so excited when it comes to these so ofc I don't mind, also warning I'm about to kinda go off. It's a pretty long list so I'll only talk about the ones that left the biggest impression on me.

Warning for mentions of twincest, incest and age gaps.

Starting off with the ship that indoctrinated me into the bl life style *drumroll*

Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter (aka Drarry); enemies/rivals to lovers, blond x ravenette, they basically set the precedent for every ship I pick up like a stray cat these days.

Bakugou Katsuki/Midoriya Izuku (Bakudeku): Enemies to lovers, plus constantly on each other's mind as a motivation in one way or the other. I love them so much.

Mikage Reo/Nagi Seishiro (NagiReo): one of my current hyperfixations, mainly cuz they're one of the few ships I have that wasn't introduced as rivals from the start as well as being extremely close canonically. They click so well despite their miscommunication (more like no communication but I'll probably get to that another day).

Gojo Saturou/Itadori Yuuji (GoYuu): Most of my blog will you a clue already lol.

Sukuna/Itadori Yuuji (SukuIta): Number one toxic ship rn, but would you believe I prefer their siblings falling in forbidden love trope?

Mikaela Hyakuya/Yuuichiro Hyakuya (MikaYuu): Found family lovers that will give anything for each other? Sign me up.

Tyki Milk/Allen Walker: I walked into the D.gray man fandom late and I will never not regret it, I need more people that at least know who they are (〒﹏〒)

Eren Jeager/Armin Arlet & Eren Jaeger/Levi Ackerman (Eremin & Ereri): Getting these two out of the way at the same time cuz while I think Eren is undeniably his best self a lot with Armin, I love the thought of Levi being there as his inspiration.

Itoshi Rin/Itoshi Sae: Their beef is adorable but they need to fuck.

Roy Mustang/Edward Elric: I love their banter and they've both been through way too much together.

Bruce Wayne/Clark Kent (Superbat): one is batman the other is superman...Need I say more?

Dick Grayson/Tim Drake: I watched Titans and they had me.

Luka/Adrian (Lukachat): I stopped watch Miraculous at like S3 but these two are the only salvageable treasure from that mess to me.

Sherlock Holmes/William James Moriarty (Sherliam): From Moriarty the Patriot not any other adaptations please. There was that one movie tho. I love how they're constantly teasing and trying to outsmart each other like yeah babes, burn that city down to get his attention.

Kageyama Tobio/Hinata Shoyo (Kagehina): I haven't finished Haikyuu S2, spare me.

Kagami Taiga/Kuroko Tetsuya: what's with sports anime and K names, that aside, I don't know but their separation leaves me in tears everytime.

Yukio Okumura/Rin Okumura: Rin cares so much, Yukio stop being a yandere you closeted brocon! I know you!!!

Wei Wuxian/Lan Wangji: I have a thing for broody possessive tops and oblivious bottoms and they were my awakening.

Hideyoshi Nagachika/Ken Kaneki (Hidekane): Receiving Tokyo ghoul spoilers of how things ended kept from finishing the show or starting the manga, what even is the point .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.

Draken/Mikey/Takemichi & Draken/Mikey: DraMiTake is something I'd consume if I find it cuz I read this one precious fic I will forever cherise but DraMikey has way too much angst potential on its own. Tugs my heart to know Draken keeps Mikey grounded.

Baji Keisuke/Chifuyu Matsuno: Kazutora I will never fucking forgive you.

Hanma shuji/Kisaki Tetta: psychotic boyfriends, we love to see it (✿ ♡‿♡)

Reinhard Van Astrea/Natsuki Subaru: They are literally my banner plus he's one of the few people that doesn't give Subaru a hard time (I only watched S1)

Sebastian Michaelis/Ciel Phantomhive: Butler x master, what else do I need to add. I do absolutely adore the thought of Sebastian being cheeky when putting his young master in his place. I also love soft Sebastian, go figure.

Carnegie/Jonathan Sterling: No one remembers Darkside so I won't even dive into it. These two are the reason I'm trying to finish the series right now, book girlies, read Darkside by Tom Becker and come find me please ಥ‿ಥ

Dante/Vergil: It just makes sense ngl.

If you made it this far...why did you lollll, but honestly thanks for reading, talking about ships is one of my things and be free to ask again if you want me to expand upon or analyze any of these, that or if you just want recs. I'm down for anything.

[faeriexqueen]

Caress

Very late submission for D.Gray-Man Rare Pair Week 2023. (Thanks for hosting, @dgrayrarepair!) Day 3 (Wed 10/25): Touch — Rough| Gentle | Pain | Pleasure | Scars Title: Caress. Fandom: D. Gray-Man. Pairings: Tyki Mikk/Alma Karma. Rated: Explicit. Words: 8.7K+. Tags: Fantasy, Dark Fairy Tale Elements, Beauty and the Beast elements, Curses, Arranged Marriage, Lemon, Royalty, Nobility, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Past! Non-Con, Romance, Eventual Romance, Intimacy (Please see AO3 for full list of tags and warnings). Chapters: 1/1. Summary: He should have known to be wary. After all, Tyki was a Noah — someone to be feared. Someone to be cautious of. But, his touch was so gentle. And Alma wanted to badly to be touched. Excerpt:

Fingers brushed against his cheek, Alma looking up. He was somewhat confused, not because Tyki was caressing him — but because Tyki’s touch was so gentle. Tender.  It was nothing like how his touches had been before.

Read on AO3.

[jaystarlightofficial]

Requests (Open)

Hello! Welcome to the request board! Finally made one! Anyways I’ll do character x character and x reader stories! Let me know a specific plot wether it’s long or short, even if it’s just like “Character gets jealous” or something like that is fine.

Below are my rules/my do’s and don’t’s.

Do's:

-I write NSFW but full version is posted on my A03

-For many Animes, games like Genshin Impact, and a few more listed below

-I'll take personal requests/comfort requests! As a trans male and someone with issues beyond that I know sometimes you just need some comfort from your favorite character(s)!

-I take more than just X reader requests! So look out for my posts that say I'II do character × character!

(P.S. Im a multi-shipper so I will ship some character with others, but I will only do the ships I personally like or are ok with writing, even if I don't ship it!)

-I will take platonic requests! But I'll have specific posts for that!

-I do art, so I may make a few doodles here and there but I might make art for requests!

Don'ts:

-I personally don't do yandere unless it's literally the characters personality due to me not being able to write it well- or even for long. I just find it difficult(but this may change in the future!)

-angst only, cause I will cry while making it and honestly don't feel like torturing myself or characters

-Female readers and nsfw for female characters.(Personal reasons)

Now then, what I’ll write for:

-Trigun

-Trigun Stampede

-One Piece

-Dragon Ball

-Pokémon

-Bungo Stray Dogs

-MDZS

-SVSSS

-TGCF

-The Rising of the Shield Hero

-LMK

-That time I got Reincarnated as a Slime

-D.Gray Man

-Eden’s Zero

-The Case Study of Vanitas

-FullMetal Alchemist

-JJBA

-Blood Blockade Battlefront

-Black Clover

-JJK

-The Vampire Dies in No Time

-Demon Slayer

-Blue Exorcist

-Genshin Impact

-Sk8

-Kakuriyo, Bed and Breakfast for Spirits

-Kamisama Kiss

-Dr Stone

-Haikyuu

Sfw is always posted here, Nsfw will be posted on AO3 but I’ll post the link to it here.

[shiroganeryo]

20 Questions For Fic Writers

Thank you for the tag @ofdemonsandangels! Finally got me to babble about writing, eh 😂

As always, I won't be tagging anyone but if you see this on your dash and feel like doing it, feel personally tagged by me!

⭐ How many works do you have on AO3?

Currently twelve. All finished, but there's one in particular that's part of a collection of stand-alone one-shots that I'd like to add more into sometime, hmm.

⭐ What's your total AO3 wordcount?

102,279 words.

⭐ What fandoms do you write for?

At the moment, it's mostly Bungo Stray Dogs (it only took me 7 years to realize I could write fanfic for this one), but I also have some Genshin Impact works and one D.Gray-Man work posted. There's a long, looong doc (38 pages, 16,700 words) in my WIPs for DGM.

⭐ What are your top five fics by kudos?

The Meaning of Sharing Happiness ➡️ To Hold Dear and To Own ➡️ God's play ➡️ Just a Short Break ➡️ A Moment to Cherish

⭐ Do you respond to comments?

I might take a while to get to it, but I always read all the comments I get and am always extremely grateful that people took their time to write something; so I usually worry about giving each reply the proper attention and if my gratitude is translating well into my words whenever I get to reply.

⭐ What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Hmm, I haven't one of these. I only wrote mild angst once and even that got resolved within the specific work. I don't see myself writing anything like this but it might depend on your definitions of what's an "angst ending"?

⭐ What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Definitely New Pages in Our Very Own Novel - my three-chapter wedding and honeymoon fanfic written for dazatsu week this year. I was pressed by time constraints to make it in time, but I poured a lot of love and care into this one, merely because they deserve to be happy and at peace; so many of the moments in this fic are light or meaningful in some way, but still lovely, all the way to the ending.

⭐ Do you get hate on your fics?

Not that I know, thankfully!

⭐ Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I do, have some posted and I'm still rather proud of them! Describing "what kind" is a little hard (no pun intended) because my ideas usually stem from the thought of "I want to see this specific thing happening so I'll make it". I went into kinkier territory once, but in general, I think what drives me to write smut is having the people involved getting down and dirty but in a passionate way, if that makes sense? I like to make their love for each other show in how they handle each other but I also like the couples to be unapologetically into it, show off their sensuality and personality while at it. A good mix of sexy and lovely.

⭐ Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

My brother in Christ, I already have trouble managing people from one universe in only one work. So, no 😅

⭐ Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Hopefully not?! I'd be very upset.

⭐ Have you ever had a fic translated?

If it's been translated by myself, does it count? I translated one of my fics to my native language (Brazilian Portuguese) via voice call with my little sister once, she's still studying English but she was adamant on reading something from me, so I translated that one for her. It was a very fun experience, actually!

⭐ Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not yet and I don't think I ever will; I have such a demanding pacing for writing that I'd overworry about inconveniencing the other person.

⭐ What's your all-time favorite ship?

No matter if it's in regard to posted fics, or in my general opinion, my answer is the same: Dazatsu (Dazai Osamu x Nakajima Atsushi) means the world to me.

Story with this ship began years ago but like I mentioned in question 3, it took me a lot of time to realize I could write for them as well. Every single fic I write for them has a dedication to my spouse in the notes, but that's the most I'll say because trust me, this story is LONG haha

If we're talking about the amount of rent-free living inside my head, then it's a tie between them, ChuuAki (or ChuuSano, not sure which ship name people use mostly nowadays for Nakahara Chuuya x Yosano Akiko) and ZhongVen (Zhongli x Venti from GI). I definitely plan to write more for chuuaki at some point; they all live happily in a three story building inside my mind 😂

⭐ What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

There's a rather extensive GI WIP (for Lumine x Noelle) in my folder that I feel doubtful toward purely because I'm so uncertain about it; when I started writing that one, we were only at the start of the story of the game so things looked very different from now. I'll need to rework and scrap many things in that one...

⭐ What are your writing strengths?

One thing that I put a lot of attention and care into, and that has been praised time and time again, much to my happiness, is character portrayal. I've been told on various occasions that my characterization of the characters felt close to the original to the point people were able to easily picture them doing and saying the things described in my works, how I got their "voice" right and how enjoyable it was to read because of it. It never fails to put a smile on my face, and I've replied to comments more than once saying that these are the best kind of praises I could get from anyone.

⭐ What are your writing weaknesses?

Not sure how much of this is a weakness or simply a personality defect, but: obstination and self-imposed pressure. I won't be able to relax until I have finished a work I feel I must finish, because I'm so used to not having free time for my hobbies that I have this - usually extremely self-destructive - mentality that goes "I must do all of it now while I still have the chance since I don't know when I'll have time again"; which means I tend to get no breaks at all, will sacrifice sleep hours to work on it, and destroy my back all for the sake of a condition my head imposed on me.

Probably not the answer you were expecting, but it's what I struggle with the most; this ride or die mentality born from perfectionism and a little (?) pinch of anxiety.

⭐ Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

If it's a language I can speak, then it's not a problem, though I haven't had the chance to do so (yet).

But here's a random language trivia for you: I tend to think a lot in Japanese for all my BSD fics to make their dialogues as accurate as possible even with the work being written in English - for example, there are certain puns/jokes that exist in English but either don't work or don't exist in the Japanese language, so I avoid adding them; things like these. It's small attention to detail no one but me would know about, but it's something I do because it matters a lot to me.

If it's a language I can't speak, or a cultural aspect I'm unsure of, I either ask a friend or delve into those "Ask A (insert nationality here)" subreddits. It's always a riveting learning experience!

⭐ First fandom you wrote for?

Officially published and first ever: that would be D.Gray-Man. Though Jesus Christ, I would not show my 15 yo's crazy DGM fic full of nonsense and OCs. There were even ships in there that I can't bear to listen the name of nowadays. How the times change 😂

⭐ Favorite fic you've written?

I'll cheat my way on this answer, because I can't pick just one.

SFW: New Pages in Our Very Own Novel & Healing Touch These two are undoubtely the ones I've gotten the most praise for as well as very, very long comments that had me giggling and kicking my feet like I was a teenager again; but what I like the most about them is, respectively: New Pages: I did a lot of research for New Pages. I actually used Google Maps to trace their routes during their stay in the Ginza Prefecture for the honeymoon, just so I would know if they'd need to take the train or if they could just walk to their destinations. One thing that I've always loved in BSD are the real-life places references, so I went for that: I referenced real-life places as well, and even the hotel I picked was also inspired by a real-life one, located in the same place. I paid a special amount of attention to landscapes and their descriptions and it was as fun as it was exhausting! haha The contents of the fic are still the most important, but the experience of writing and doing research for it, learning more and viewing so many pictures to describe things, was one of a kind. I'll never forget it. Healing Touch: This fic was born from a wish of mine to do a certain character study, and I'm still proud of how it came out. Dazai as a character is extremely complex and we all know it, but I wanted to, at the very least, scrape at the surface of his humanity hidden underneath all those layers - all the while I worked on Atsushi's perception of things and the way he dealt with his own sense of sadness and grief and used those to try and understand Dazai's. I can't really say much about it because it'll just sound like a lot of babbling out of context, but I feel like I did a good job on those bits (it's not the entire focus of the fic).

NSFW: Baring Stripes and Bandages I'm sorry, I'm just a furry. Jokes aside, this was the one time I went for an approach that explored some kinks that aren't too vanilla and I'm still quite proud of how it came out. We - my spouse and I, this fic was born from a headcanon of his - often joke saying it's my magnum opus, and then it's just a kinky fanfic 😂 But I'm still so proud!

[pinkisthenewangst]

°`🍨: D.Gray-Man x GN! Reader

°`🍨: You realize that Kanda never loved you

After three years in the Black Order, you should feel at home. After all, they were like a family, but something didn’t feel right for a long time now. If you look around, you’ll notice how glances lingered on you but they weren‘t glances you would give a family member.

At the moment, you were sitting at a table in the cafeteria to enjoy your breakfast, but today you couldn’t get a bite down. There was a knot in your throat and your stomach turned. You bite your lower lip while you brought your tray back to Jerry. You’re apologetic. As you leave the cafeteria, you notice those looks that burned themself in your back. You weren’t as strong as Kanda, Lavi, Allen or Lenalee, but you’re trying your best. No one really saw how hard you work to become stronger to protect the people of the Black Order and, of course, the innocent people threatened by the Earl.

You shaked your head and lifted your head. You still had to talk to Komui about the next mission. With both hands, you hit both cheeks before making your way to Komui’s office. This mission is not meant to be a long one, nor a difficult one, which is why you should do it on your own. Although you would like to have the company of another exorcist, you will survive the time on your own. After all, there is also a finder with you, which is why you hope that he will have conversations with you.

As you walk to the office, you grab the bracelet around your right wrist. You got this one from Kanda. Although he handed it over with a serious face, you could remember exactly how red his cheeks were. That memory brought a smile to your face. You looked out the window and stopped. Right now, Kanda was on a mission with the others, which is why you won’t see him again until after your mission. It was exhausting not seeing him for a long time, but you knew what you were getting into when you confessed your love to him. No one knows how you managed to get him to return your love, but you don’t want to question it. You’re happy with the current situation.

You stood in front of the office door and raised your hand to knock but what you could hear made you tilt your head in confusion. “Are you pretty sure we should do this?”, you heard Reever’s voice. Slowly, you took a step closer to the door and lied your on ear on the door to be able to follow the conversation better. You could hear a loud sigh and someone getting up from their chair. You assumed it was Komui. He then started talking: “It’s a tough decision, but it would really be best to let her go.” “But at the moment we need every person that can fight against the Earl”, Reever replied. Once again, all you hear is a loud sigh. “I know that’s why the decision is so hard but Y/N would only hurt us more.”

Your breath stopped. You could hear your heart ringing loudly in your ears as you stared shocked at the door. You knew you weren’t the strongest person in the Black Order, but you didn’t know what a burden you were after all. Your hand was shaking, but now there was no turning back. Inside, you hope you heard the wrong name, but the same words kept ringing in your head. You took deep breaths to calm down. Slowly, you knocked on the door and walked in. Inside, you put on a smile while holding your other hand behind your back with one hand. They shouldn’t know you’ve been overhearing them.

After the conversation, you were almost running through the hallways. Your heart started beating faster again. It rang in your ears, but also the world turned before your eyes. Your eyes started to sting and in your room you had to take deep breaths. You leaned against the wooden door and slowly slided down. It all seemed like a terrible nightmare, but you knew how real this moment was. Desperately, you put your head on your knees. How much you longed for Kanda’s closeness. Alone in the quiet, too many thoughts are rushing through your head. But slowly it dawned on you. Those cold glances came because of your weakness. They must have been wondering all the time how Komui still allowed such a weak exorcist to roam the Black Order. Your thoughts went to Kanda. What if he felt the same way ? Was that really love he feels for you or is it pity ? You looked up when you heard someone knocking on the door. You breathed sharply the air in, hoping no one would hear you, even if you could swear that everyone nearby could hear your loud heartbeat.

What you heard now not only broke your heart but destroyed your world even more. "She doesn't seem to be there, luckily," you recognised Lavi's voice. At first you wondered why he was there again but you couldn't help biting your lower lip as you repeated his sentence again in your head. You could now hear Kanda's voice: "I hate to agree with you but that's the way it is". You could clearly hear relief in his voice. "I'm tired of pretending to feel something for this person because of the Black Order," every word he spoke stung your heart like he was throwing knives at it. You could hear the footsteps moving away and you threw your body onto your bed. You pressed your face into the pillow until it was soaked with your tears.

The next day you were back at the same table as the day before. This time you held only a glass of water in your hands. You stared silently at the wall while your eyes felt heavy. The whole night you couldn't sleep because you had to process what you had heard the day before. You were clearly not wanted in this family. With a heavy heart you got up, took all your luggage and left the building early in the morning without saying goodbye. All you did was looking at the building one last time before heading to the station. Without knowing it, Kanda and the others were standing outside your room. They had asked where you were last night. When Komui said that you hadn't left the Black Order yet, they searched the whole building for you. Hoping to find you now, they opened your door after knocking, but your room was pitch black. "Oh man, the room looks abandoned, someone should turn on the lights!" said Lenalee as she looked over the shoulders of the boys. Allen turned on the light and all four of them stopped moving on the spot. The room was really empty.

You looked out of the window on the train. Hot tears fell on your lap. You took one last deep breath before the train derailed and took you your life. That same day, Komui arrived with Kanda, Lenalee, Allen and Lavi at the town where the bodies of the victims of the derailment were brought. With permission, they looked at each body to make sure you were not one of them. Relieved, the young men exhaled when they couldn't find you, but beside them Lenalee collapsed. She was on her knees sobbing loudly and shaking her head. At that moment, two men came into the room with another stretcher. There was an arm hanging out, wearing exactly the same bracelet you and Kanda have.

°`🍨: My first D.Gray-man story ! I hope you liked it :D !

°`🍨: REQUESTS ARE OPEN !

[dgrayrarepair]

Welcome to D.Gray-man Rare Pair Week!!!

It’s time once again to give our less popular ships some love! Please join me in celebrating the fifth year of D.Gray-man Rare Pair Week!

Create anything you’d like! Fanart, fanvids, fanfiction, edits, headcanons—anything goes! As long as it’s for a rarepair, it’s allowed!

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D.Gray-man Rare Pair Week will be held Oct. 24th - Oct. 28th, 2022. This year’s prompt theme is TROPES!

(10/24) Fluff – Childhood Friends | Fake Dating | Soulmates | Pregnancy | Mutual Pining

(10/25) Angst – Unrequited Love | Enemies to Lovers | Hurt/Comfort | Amnesia | Forced Marriage

(10/26) Sexual – Only One Bed | Sex Pollen | Omegaverse | Tentacles | Fuck or Die

(10/27) AU – Modern AU | Fantasy AU | Gender Swap/Body Swap AU | Regency/Royalty AU | Magic AU

(10/28) Spicy – Death | Rape/Non-Con/Dub-Con | Incest | Torture | Mind Fuck

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Don’t post until the designated posting dates (but late posts/submissions are more than welcome)!

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favourite colour(s): Black, red, blue, white favourite flavour(s): Savory and spicy favourite genre(s): Grimdark, fantasy, action, xenofiction favourite movie: Probably the Riddick series and How To Train Your Dragon series, idk favourite series: Oof, tough choice. Tsubasa RESERVoir / World Chronicle, D.Gray-Man, Vinland Saga, Wolf’s Rain, RWBY, Arcane, 91 Days, Black Lagoon, Ghost in the Shell, Haikyuu, Noragami, Millionaire Detective Balance Unlimited, Tower of Druaga, Riddick, HTTYD, .Hack//G.U., Assassins Creed, and Elder Scrolls are all pretty high up there. last song: Die Alone - FINNEAS because SOMEONE keeps sending me angst songs last movie: Ghost in the Shell (2017 live action) currently reading: Nightfall / Stormfall / Freefall by Le’letha (aka only the best HTTYD fanfic there ever was, that I’m reading for the 4th time) currently watching: RWBY, BSD s4, Dragons: Race To The Edge currently working on: Too many things to list lol wtf is focus

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[kitty-bandit]

Fandom: D.Gray-man Rating: E Pairing: Lavi x Link Total Words: 43K Tags: Canon Divergent; Omegaverse; Alpha!Link; Omega!Lavi; Heat Sex; Dubious Consent; Accidental Bonding; Secret Relationship; Catching Feelings; Mating; Angst; Open Ended

Chapter 9:

The morning Link stormed out of the secret heat room, Lavi took his first pill. It went down easy, but he hadn’t been prepared for what came after.

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[evil-ontheinside]

Me reading ur tags and seeing detective Conan :O nice!! Were you watching the dub or sub? And have you caught up recently?

I’ve not seen d.grayman, I’ve heard it’s good. but ouran was another one of my first animes!

Sorry for being kind of cringe in your asks, detective Conan was one of my big special interests for a Long time lmao

(Having said that…. A detective Conan byler AU would be So Good tbh)

It was on TV so I watched the dub version! We just watched it whenever it happened to be on at the moment so I'm really not caught up on anything or ever had a good grasp on the overarching plot tbh and I was also scared as hell bc I was like 10 when I first watched it lol (I also watched inuyasha pretty much the same way just a bit later!)

I really like d.gray-man but that might be bc it's one of my first anime haha the manga is also not anywhere near finished and my favorite character has been missing for 10 years now :') but I like it! Ouran is so funny, especially the german dub bc it's just so silly even compared to the original dub

Oh that'd be hilarious. Will and Mike literally living under the same roof but still pining and missing each other. But also the angst of the whole thing, though I guess it wouldn't work as well for Byler if they're still childhood friends bc they would instantly recognize each other (I just looked it up and Ran and Shinichi are also childhood friends??? How does she not recognize him??? The mysteries of anime lol)

Maybe this could be more of a funny romcom where they try to solve some mysteries and also somehow have to figure out how to get one of them to grow up again. I don't even know who I would want to be deaged but probably Mike bc he'd be so mad and grumpy about it the whole time

and don't worry, not cringe at all :)

[bisexual-bookman]

In a Stranger’s Home

Fandom: D.Gray-man

Pairing: Tyki Mikk/Kanda Yu

Tags: Royalty AU, Angst, Forced Marriage, Unrequited Love, slight Tyki/Lavi

Summery: "He could feel another crack slice through his heart. He was shaking, his vision blurring as he felt his eyes burn. He drew in a deep breath, trying to calm himself as his chest felt like it was being crushed… crushed between two boulders until he would be on the ground broken and bleeding, the hurt leaking out of him for all to see."

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“But your majesty–“

Kanda slammed the door closed to his suite, effectively cutting off the voice of his advisor. Of course, that didn’t stop the tenacious man, the advisor’s insufferable knocking following Kanda as he paced the length of the obscenely large room. Only with a vase being thrown at the door and a shout from Kanda to go the fuck away did the advisor finally leave.

Finally, Kanda was alone.

He paced the length of the room, his footsteps heavy. For once, the grace that had been instilled in him since he was born was thrown aside due to the turmoil of emotions inside of him. Betrayal was first and foremost, the bitter emotion making him feel sick to his stomach. His insides twisted painfully, making him want to throw up the meal he had just eaten.

Anger was a harsh second.

He could feel his heart beating painfully, his blood pumping throughout his body. It made his movements aggressive, wanting to do nothing more than to walk up to that bastard, to both of them, and punch them in their stupid faces. Hurt them the way he was hurting.

Kanda’s agitated pace slowed; his footsteps were not as heavy but the sharp twists at the end of his line belayed his residual anger.

Hurt.

It was making him clench his jaw painfully, teeth grinding so as not to spout the pathetic things he wanted to say: how could you do this? I thought you were better than this. I’m your husband aren’t I?

How could you hurt me like this?

Kanda abruptly stopped. Pinching the bridge of his nose, he let out a weary, bone-deep sigh.

Deep down he knew it would end like this. Their marriage was nothing more than a political gain for both their kingdoms. War was constantly on Tyki’s borders and Kanda’s kingdom had one of the best armies. Tyki’s kingdom was much larger, more space for agriculture, therefore able to feed Kanda’s citizens and armies. It was a mutually beneficial agreement.

No feelings attached.

God, how he wished there was no feelings involved.

Kanda reached up to give a light tug to his bangs, an unconscious movement that was the only tell of his anxiety and troubled mind. Walking over to the large-windowed doors, Kanda pushed them open, stepping out on to the balcony.

Leaning against the railing he breathed in the fresh ocean air, so unlike his own kingdom’s polluted air; it was filled with smoke and exhaust and dying embers floating up into the always grey tinged sky. Here, you could see for miles… could see the entirety of the surrounding city, even to the fields beyond that, and the glittering of the ocean on the horizon. You didn’t have to peer through smokestacks, see nothing but mountains or have the constant ringing of the blacksmiths in the background.

Kanda ran his hand along the warm, smooth stone of the balcony railing, so unlike the cold and harsh stone that made up his kingdom’s palace. Even where they lived was different. They were different.

Maybe too different.

A harsh noise left Kanda as his hands tightened, the skin across his knuckles turning white.  

Their marriage might have been arranged, forced, but the feelings Kanda held now for the tall, dark-haired man were not.  

Tyki, at first, had irritated him to no end; the other man’s generally cool and uninterested attitude towards everything, how he was so informal with his subordinates, even to his citizens, his lax attitude towards the constantly looming war on his borders…. It all drove him mad.

But as they had started spending more time together –much to Kanda’s initial dismay– Kanda had noticed that it was all just a façade the other man put up.

His indifferent demeanor was to cover up how hurt he was that his kingdom was suffering, to bury down his anger over being handed a kingdom on the brink of war, while his brother ruled an idyllic kingdom.

His informality came from a wish of wanting to help his citizens. A show that they could trust him, see him as a person that they could come to with their problems rather than an imposing, untouchable figure.

The war was the worst of them all, keeping him up to the early hours of the morning, unable to sleep from the constant worry over whether his kingdom would survive, if his people would survive. Kanda had lost count of the number of times he had awoken in the middle of the night, feeling the loss of Tyki’s presence in bed, his side of the bed cool to the touch. Kanda would find him on the balcony overlooking his city, face draw tight with anxiety and worry, only to hastily throw up his indifferent mask when he heard Kanda’s quiet footsteps.

Seeing the other side of Tyki, the one he rarely showed people, caused the small bud of affection Kanda felt in his heart slowly bloom to a breath-stopping feeling of love.

It was a feeling that he thought Tyki reciprocated. It was something they hadn’t talked about, Kanda having a hard enough time understanding his own feelings in his head, let alone vocalizing them. He found that Tyki was the same. Someone who valued actions over words, so when Tyki attitude towards Kanda shifted from apathy to all of a sudden showering him with gifts-

“This is a journal from an acclaimed General. I thought it might help you in your war room.”

“I brought these plants back from my visit with my brother. Look, the colour of the flowers, I thought it would match well with the others in our room.”

“I’m glad the outfit I ordered from the tailor looks so good on you. I figured that the colour would make the blue more noticeable in your eyes.”

“Here, it’s a new sheath I requested for your sword. I had them engrave red lotuses on it. Those are your favourite, right?”

Paired with the subtle touches – a large hand on the small of his back during a party, a whisper of a touch brushing hair out of his face, a knee pressed against his during council meetings, a warm hand on his hip as they slept-

It all made it seem as though there were mutual feelings.

But now…

Now Kanda wasn’t so sure.

Tyki pressing someone up against the wall, fingers combing through a shock of red hair as their lips locked together, mutual sounds of pleasure coming from the pair as a leg curled around Tyki’s hips pulling him in closer, closer–

Kanda’s fists thumped against the stone of the railing, the dull throb of pain barely noticed through the fog of anger and hurt that settled over him. He could feel another crack slice through his heart. He was shaking, his vision blurring as he felt his eyes burn. He drew in a deep breath, trying to calm himself as his chest felt like it was being crushed… crushed between two boulders until he would be on the ground broken and bleeding, the hurt leaking out of him for all to see.

“Kanda?”

The intense feelings only increased with the sound of Tyki’s voice calling from inside their room. Kanda closed his eyes, sucking in a deep breath trying –by God was he trying– to prevent Tyki from seeing him this way.

“Kanda, are you in here?”

That thought gave Kanda pause. Tyki didn’t deserve to see him this way. If Tyki really did feel nothing for Kanda –a thought that nearly send him into another fit of gasping breaths– then Kanda would only show Tyki what he wished for the other man to see. Tyki didn’t need to be privy to Kanda’s thoughts, his feelings, his heart.

“Oh, there you are. Are you okay? One of the vases is in pieces near the door.”

Kanda took a deep breath. The feeling of being crushed didn’t lessen, the boulders on his chest still weighing down on him. But now, now they wouldn’t hurt him. Now he would use them to keep Tyki away, use them as a barrier to prevent the man from ever getting close again.

Kanda’s shoulders relaxed. He forced his pained expression away. He stared ahead with an emotionless face, save for his customary scowl.

Yes, he decided as he turned to face the oblivious man, he would play a good husband. Do his part as the kingdom’s military leader, be there during council meetings and assemblies with other kingdoms.

He could wait.

Wait, to see just how he could hurt Tyki. Hurt him til he was the one laying on the floor gasping for breath; tears in his eyes and doubts in his mind, wondering what he had done to deserve such pain.

[frelonshi]

Introduction & Rules

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You can call me Frelon, Guepe or Abeille (or any bug name in french, I'm curious what you'd come with). I'm an adult, and write for adults. I won't go hunting minors, but I'd appreciate if minors don't interact with my content, at least the smut/nsfw ones. I go by he/him, sometimes they/them. If you're curious about anything, feel free to send an ask.

Rules for requesting

For the content: I'm interested in writing everything, from tooth-rotting fluff to the most heart-wrenching angst and the filthiest smut. I will only write headcanons and MLT (Most to Least), no one-shots for the moment. I don't write underage, scat and parents/children incest. You may request as many characters as you please, but I won't necessarely write them all. I mostly write for reader/characters (it can be poly); or just general character headcanons. I generally write for gender neutral reader, so don't hesitate to tell me if you want a gender/sex in peculiar.

For the posting: You feel sad because you sent your request a year ago and I haven't answered? Don't worry dear, I'm not ignoring you, I'm just very busy and a slow writer in general. I don't like getting reminder, though. I understand it can be frustrating, but the more I'm pushed (even if I know there's no mean attentions behind it), the less I get into a writing mood.

For the requesting: I may refuse any ideas I don't feel skilled enough to write or don't feel to. I'll delete it with a notice (to distinguish from the one I'm simply slowly working on). Also, I love details! It's a bit difficult to work only with "chubby!reader" or "tall!reader", tell me about what aspects you would especially like to see explored!

Fandoms

I mostly write for Naruto and My Hero Academia but I also venture towards FullMetal Alchemist Brotherhood, D.Gray-Man and Saint Seiya: The Lost Cancas (only Albafica, Aldebaran, Manigoldo, El Cid, Degel, Kardia and Asmita). I also write for Arcane and The Witcher.

I know other fandoms, so don't hesitate to send an ask about a fandom!