#definitely am doing better but damn there is still ✨problems✨

[life-is-more-than-just-a-game]

♠️ What a day off of games with the aib males can look like. ♠️

A/N: Sorry, I've been absent for two days now, but for good reason. I wasn't feeling too well mentally and needed some time to myself because something happened that put me in quite a hole ... 🥲

Still, I've been thinking about what I could post here next, so I've prepared a few headcanons that define what I think a day off of games with the male characters might look like. 🙈

I hope that some of you are still around and will read through it. Feel free to let me know what you think about it or if you think any of them might have other interests! ✨

Characters: Aguni, Arisu, Chishiya, Karube & Niragi.

POV: gn!reader

Warnings: Not given.

A g u n i

It depends on what time we are in.

If the beach still exists, Aguni is often prevented from doing anything with you outside if he already occupies the number one spot.

You would have to live with the fact that you would hardly have any time just for the two of you, because someone from his troupe would always want something from him.

If he realises that this is bothering you - or he is annoyed by it himself - he will turn his boys away and say that they should leave him alone for the next 2 hours as far as possible because he has better things to do.

In general, no matter what time loop we are in, I would say that Aguni would adjust to your needs.

I have the following typical scenario in mind:

Nobody said it would be easy with you, but let's be honest: it's the Borderland, what excited yet relaxing things could you do here so far?

Aguni: "So there are no games waiting for us today. Any ideas what you want to do in our day off?"

Y/N: "Uhm ..."

Aguni: "Come on, you must have been in the mood for something."

Y/N: "Yeah, but I really don't know for what I am in the mood for ..."

If you really don't know what you want to do, he would give some suggestions.

Aguni: "We could go to the pool."

Y/N: "Too cloudy for my taste ..."

Aguni: "We can do some sports together."

Y/N: "Now your expectations are set far too high!"

Aguni: "What about fishing?"

Y/N: "Can't we just get some fresh air and go for a walk together?"

Aguni: "..."

Y/N: "..."

Aguni: "You knew very well what you wanted to do, didn't you?"

Y/N: "Without my lawyer, I won't say anything."

A r i s u

If you want to do something, then Arisu is definitely the right person.

The boy is always up for a lot of nonsense and fun activities.

This is probably also because he doesn't want to constantly think about the terrible circumstances that are happening here.

He has got used to life here, but living in constant fear doesn't get someone anywhere and only has a negative effect on oneself.

So, if he is being trapped in a world that could take his life sooner or later, he at least wants to live every day as if it were his last.

You will not regret spending time with him.

He comes up with the wildest ideas, starting with taking a closer look into the various broken buildings.

Of course, he would still be cautious of entering any places just like that- not that both of you suddenly find yourself in a game, because that's what you're trying to avoid today.

You still wouldn't be able to stop him.

Y/N: "A-Are you sure we should do this, Arisu?"

Arisu: "Nope, but you only live once, so let's check this building out- maybe we'll find some interesting things in here."

Y/N: "Would you define 'corpses' as interesting ...?"

Arisu: "Wow, you really managed to ruin my fun."

Investigating the building would include lots of laughter and piggybacks when your feet get tired from all the walking over ruins and debris.

Eventually you find out that this building was a former arcade.

You can definitely pass the time well there.

Arisu: "Would you like a game of billiards?"

Y/N: "I'm going to rip you off so bad, love."

C h i s h i y a

Listen, this boy is a damn lazy piece of shit.

When there aren't any duties don't expect him to do something special.

He has no problem putting his feet up for a day and literally doing nothing.

Feel honored if he spends his time with you at all.

No matter where you both would be, he would find ways to just doze off and relax while you - after all - lie in his arms and enjoy his closeness.

It's nice that he can do that, but you can't.

He would definitely be a great help to you.

Y/N: "We've been lying around here all day."

Chishiya: "Well realised."

Y/N: "I'm bored."

Chishiya: "Then do something."

Jokes on you, no, he wouldn't.

Making you pout is one of his favorite things to do.

Y/N: "But I wanna do something with you today since we have enough time finally."

Chishiya: "We do something, darling."

Y/N: "Idiot, that's not what I meant!"

How could he be bored if you let him get on your nerves so easily?

In contrast to you, he has something to laugh about and something to amuse himself with.

Nevertheless, he would at least agree to a compromise:

Damn, you love the nightlife.

Chishiya: "How about this? We'll use the time now to laze around and in the evening we'll take a look at the neighbourhood together and see which places are damned by games this time."

Y/N: "We don't take part in any games, our visas count enough days for us."

Chishiya: "Who said anything about taking part in a game?"

Y/N: "So, if I let you lounge around now, you will promise me to stay up late with me?"

Chishiya: "That's a deal."

K a r u b e

To me the funniest but most chaotic one.

During the day, at least.

I can well imagine that Karube and you had already planned the day ahead the evening before.

But what would life be like if everything went as planned?

The morning is pleasant. You wake up together and after a intense cuddle-round, you start your routine as usual.

Unfortunately, Karube realizes that he can't find something.

Something very important when it comes to following his routine.

In the end, it all comes down to searching your whole accommodation for his cigarettes.

Karube: "Honey, d'you know where my cigarettes are?"

Y/N: "I don't know where you put them yesterday after you got ready for bed."

I mean, when you do smoke yourself, they can be important for you too ...

If not, well, then you are a very nice and good person!

You can guess where this is going.

Y/N: "Did you found them?"

Karube: "I would have told you when that would be the case."

Y/N: "Sure you didn't throw the box away because you smoked you last one yesterday evening?"

Karube: "I know my pack of cigarettes inside out, there were at least three more in there."

You spend the whole forenoon looking for his damn cigarettes.

You turn the whole accommodation upside down.

Both of you look under every stone.

In every room.

Two times- minimum.

Now he remebers ...

Y/N: "Karube, forget it, you don't have any- ... Darling ...?

Karube: "What is it?"

Y/N: "What's that in your pants pocket ... at the back of your butt?"

Karube: "Uh-... Oh!"

Karube: "You found them! That's right, I put them straight in my jeans yesterday so I couldn't forge- hey!"

Y/N: "Yeah, I threw your boxer shorts at you!"

N i r a g i

Oh, my dearest reader-chan, please stay close to him no matter where he goes.

When he has nothing to do, he will go through the city streets looking for people to annoy.

He would look for trouble and find it- even if there's no reason for trouble, he'll just make it happen himself and find his reasons.

I don't know how, but at least you managed to stop him from taking his gun.

That's something you should be very proud of.

However, that doesn't stop him from doing anything and we know that.

So please. Stay. With. Him. Thank you!

In any case, you walk around the area together and check it out a little.

You'll talk about pretty trivial things every now and then, but that's still more pleasant than just talking to each other all the time.

When you meet someone, Niragi is ready to provoke them directly for no reason.

Thank god you had a firm hold on his hand or his arm so you could quickly drag him in another direction to avoid the innocent people.

Y/N: "Oh, look!"

Yes, you also like to pretend to see something that you would find interesting.

… In partially empty shop windows.

The nice thing is that he would still look to something you tell him to look at.

Niragi: "What the fuck should I look for?"

Y/N: "See the rocks there?"

Niragi: "You kidding me, right?"

There could actually be something interesting there.

Well, most of the times at least.

It's nearly impossible but who know?

He will touch his nose and look at you angrily- but not without laughing afterwards at your amiable stupidity.

Y/N: "OH, SEE WHAT I HAVE FOUND TH-"

Niragi: "What is it this time? Another boring and ugly stone you think it's fascinating?"

Y/N: "No ..."

Niragi: "Oh, what is it this time then?"

Y/N: "The tree there."

Damn, he loves you so much for what you are, he can't even be bothered.

[oh-nowo-i-got-uwu]

"Can you fight this for me? 🥺👉👈"

this is just a lil blurb

After sighing for the tenth time in an hour, you were tired over it even. You've been trying to fight this boss... For an hour. You want to cry. You want to sleep... You're so tired..... But you need this item that drops when THIS boss is defeated...

You contemplate, 'Should I ask any of my friends?'. You grab the phone Crowely gave you, should you? Should you ask? Which ones?

Ace? Nah, he'd make fun of you for asking... Deuce? You don't think you've heard him being all that interested in video games. Cater- Nope, nah. You know he's media obsessed, but not towards games. Trey? Riddle? Both a no...

Savanahclaw? Another no. Octavinelle? Again... No. Scarabi- NO. Pom- BIGGER NO. Then you remembered-

IGNYHDE THE TECHS OF NRC!! The other side of coin of media obsessed people!

But the joy was short lived. You know that Idia would be ruthless towards you asking him, in his possible words "Why did you struggle with this???? This shit was so EZ! Lmao noob!!"

Imaging that... makes you NOT want to ask him. But, you CAN ask Ortho!

You quickly find Ortho's contact,

✨🤖✨: Thank you! See you soon!! (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+

✨🦐: ʕ⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴥ⁠ꈍ⁠ʔ

-------------------- Sat. 12:30 am ---------------------

🥲: hey Ortho!

✨🤖✨: Hello [Name]! How are you? :3

🥲: may i ask you for a favor 🥺👉👈

✨🤖✨: Ofc! Also you should be asleep... ):T

🥲: ikik, but im having trouble with a game rn.....

✨🤖✨: Really? What kind of trouble?

🥲: a boss trouble.... 👉👈

✨🤖✨: Oh! Unfortunately I can't help you with that right now, as I'm running an errand for Nii-chan. But I will ask him if he will help!

🥲: nono it's fine! i don't want to bother him ><

🥲: also i don't want him to make fun of me - message deleted

✨🤖✨: He won't make fun of you!

🥲: he totally can, and will don't lie to me please 🥹

✨🤖✨: Uh, yeah... He would... But I'll make him promise to not make fun of you!! (⁠ ⁠T⁠_⁠T⁠)⁠＼⁠(⁠^u^⁠ ⁠)

✨🤖✨: I'll be contacting Nii-chan about your problem!! ｡⁠◕⁠‿⁠◕⁠｡

🥲: please........ no....... ;;

--------------------------------------------------------------

BB(Big Brother)🎮: and an energy drink plz

👾🤖: o7

--------------------- Sun. 1:03 am ---------------------

👾🤖: Brother!!

BB(Big Brother)🎮: AAA what???

👾🤖: I'm going to ask you for a favor!

BB(Big Brother)🎮: y???? 😰

👾🤖: [Name] needs help fighting a boss!

BB(Big Brother)🎮: LMAFO SERIOUSLY???? THEY SURVIVED SEVEN OBS BUT CAN'T DEFEAT A BOSS?!?! 🤣🤣🤣🤣

👾🤖: BROTHER!! 😡

BB(Big Brother)🎮: fine fine whvr... 😮‍💨

👾🤖: Good! 😊 Now go over to Ramshackle to help them!

BB(Big Brother)🎮: ?!?! i didn't agree!!

👾🤖: Now go over to Ramshackle to help them.

BB(Big Brother)🎮: wtf???! hoed you do that????????

👾🤖: Go.

BB(Big Brother)🎮: okok damn 😰😰7

👾🤖: See you there! (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠)

Turning off his phone, Idia leans back in his chair groaning. "Gods... Why me???", he whispers while looking at his ceiling. "Why has thou abandoned me?", he slowly stands up and stretches.

Looking around his messy room for his shoes. Trying to stall, but he finds them under his bed.... He puts them on along with his usual jacket, he heads off.

Dragging his feet, he ultimately arrives at Ramshackle. The building has definitely seen better days, but still better than months ago. He hesitantly pulls out his phone, to type a simple 'im here' to [Name].

He waits for a few minutes, then turns to leave. Before the moment of relief even passed his through his brain, the door opens.

You both stand there, awkwardly staring for a moment, "Do you wanna come in?".

A simple yet welcoming(?) greeting...

"Uh Y-Yeah, sure. Thanks...", as he turns around, you move to the side to let him in.

Once he's inside, "Sooo uh, having trouble fighting a boss?", you looked embarrassed "yeah...". You guide him towards your gaming setup, the screen on the paused menu.

"You setup is shit." he blurts out, forgetting the vibes of awkwardness you both shared. You rolled your eyes in feigned annoyance, "Wow, thanks babes. I thought Ortho promised you'd be nice to me?", "I didn't promise shit honestly," he shrugs.

He sits down on your chair and unpauses the game, and starts to find the boss. "How long do you take from the respawn to the boss?", he asks. "idrktbh 👉👈", you shrugged. "Girl(gn), what?" he turns to look at you.

"Jus-just go that way!!", flustered you pointed on the screen. He looks at you with an emotion you don't want to think about, and follows your directions.

While you and Idia were in your own little world Ortho, with a dufflebag with blankets and pillows and a shopping bag with snacks, places them down near the lounge couch.

He walks towards you and Idia and floats in the air, watching as you and his brother, flirt(in his opinion).

He really hopes you'll be his sibling-in-law after NRC.

[lostmotivation2draw]

Semifinal 2 ✨Opinions✨

Okay so I'll get this out of the way before I'll start yapping. I WON'T BE GETTING IN POLITICAL TOPICS. For me Eurovision is about the songs, not the countries, so I won't be treating any song or artist different no matter the country it's/they're representing.

With that out of the way I'll start :D

We're officially in the middle of the Eurovision week!!! WOOOO 🗣️🗣️🗣️

Yesterday was the second semifinal and BOY did unexpected stuff happen in that semifinal.

✨The big 5✨

• Let's start with the UK. SLAY IN EVERY WAY. The harmonies were incredible and it was so clear that they were having fun with it! While I do think the staging could have been better Remember Monday's stage presence was enough for me. (Also I just learned one of the members played FREAKING JANE SEMOUR in Six!? I'm dying now I love them even more)

• France was actually way better than I expected. I'm always in for a stereotypical french ballad don't get me wrong, but somehow I didn't really connect with this one like I did with the others. But DAMN did Louane did good live! The song gets so much better like genuinely. My only problem is that I was worried about how they were gonna clean up all that. Are they going to pull the same skit to gain time on Saturday like they did in the semifinal? Cause that would be funny

• Germany did well. It definitely was an improvement from the NF and I'm so happy Trynna recovered and is in good health because her voice sounds so much better. That said I think her stage presence isn't really there but apart from that it was good

✨Opinions about each country's performance✨

• Australia did amazing! The visual effects, the acting THE FREAKING BLENDER. While I do agree that at some points it looked like a comedy sketch instead of an actual song for me it actually doesn't seem that bad. Go-jo did amazing like I said and I'm proud of you king 👑

• Montenegro did as expected. Good vocals and power ballad. Nothing really out of the ordinary. That doesn't mean it's bad though, just predictable

• Ireland was so silly in the best way possible, like I could not take seriously the astronauts dancing in the screen. But I love the song and EMMY has such a unique voice. It really holds it together.

• Latvia!? Hello!? I don't know what you did with the staging but it looks cool af. As expected the harmonies sounded beautiful and the COSTUMES. I AM IN LOVE WITH THE OUTFITS.

• Armenia had improvement that's for sure. PARG's performance is so different from the NF but it looks so cool. I love the lighting effects and the treadmill.

• Austria was good. Like not AMAZING but good. JJ's voice is really powerful and it clear that he knows how to sing and stuff. It's just that I'm rarely a fan of ballads

• Greece was an improvement from the NF. I won't comment a lot, the singing was good the lighting effects and stuff were too. It's just that this song doesn't really get to me and I don't really know what people see in it (Kind of a hot take lol). But I still respect it and I get that other people like other stuff.

• I won't say a lot about Lithuania because the performance didn't really change from the NF so yeah. And the song isn't bad either it's just not really my thing.

• I'm so glad the kept the balls in Malta's song, that part was iconic it had to be kept. She sang pretty good, my only downfall is the dress she wore at the start of the song. I just don't like it.

• Georgia was an experience lol. I don't know what I was expecting but it definitely wasn't a bunch of russian-like dancers in the background lol that was so funny for me for no reason

• Denmark had a HUGE improvement vocal and stage wise. Really like how it was staged (Except maybe the first outfit I just think it didn't match that well with the song the getting rid of clothes but oh well)

• Czechia was so cool! (Also I just want to say how cute is that ADONXS went right after Sissal, I love this duo) It was kind of clear that ADONXS was nervous a d the staging was way too simple for this song. But the vocals were damn *chef's kiss* so good

• Luxembourg had such a silly choreography I love it. I also love the easter egg of poupee de cire poupee de son in the screen that was such a nice detail for the fans!

• Israel's stage was REALLY well done, like I like the thing they did for the song with the crystals and stuff. I liked it

• I also wasn't expecting Serbia, idk how I was supposed to expect that Princ would be DRAGGED around the stage mid song, but ok, it somehow slays

• I'm so sad that Finland was censored 😭 Erika was still slaying, duh, but I loved her NF performance so much more! Glad she still has the big ahh mic... That's cool

✨Opinions on the interval✨

You know what? I'll only say one thing about the interval, nothing more just one point.

I ALMOST CRIED WHEN THE 2020 ARTIST GOT TO SING

I THINK I WAS HAPPIER THAN THEM BRO

✨Opinions on the results✨

Let's all hold hands when I say this

Australia should have gone to the final

Australia HAD to go to the final

I cried for twenty minutes it's not even funny

I also wanted for Czechia to go through but I understand it's not the best thing out there

BUT AUSTRALIA!?

I WANTED ANOTHER TASTE OF THE MILKSHAKE MAN 😭😭😭

Pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease Go-jo come back next year

[bereft-of-frogs]

🎉 the return of the friday list

hey remember when I used to do this every week for a bit and then I stopped? well, doing it again because this is my blog and no one can stop me

📚 reading/watching/listening to:

🤖 [ audiobook ] Rogue Protocol - Martha Wells: I am having violent thoughts about everyone who ever hurt Murderbot. We're unpacking so much trauma in this book lol. Got less than an hour left, will probably finish it this afternoon. Someone get this robot a warm blanket and a new season of Sanctuary Moon STAT!!

☄️ [ book ] Catalyst - James Luceno: I've had this on my to read list for a long time and thought I'd be ironic. It's ok so far, about a third in. I remain underwhelmed by Luceno's writing of women but it turns out he's not the only one so. Eh. More things not to mention on Reddit (my most downvoted posts have been ones where I’m critical of Luceno, the fanboys LOVE him.)

🌌 [ tv ] The Expanse: I've been annoying enough Expanse-posting every damn day so y'all know where I'm at already and probably more of my feelings than you want. I'm about midway through season 2, everyone is still just a little too mean to each other and bad at their jobs for my tastes, but I'll always have the book versions lol. I think my problem is I just really like it when people communicate and are also good at their jobs, and TV production tends to like when people don't communicate and are bad at their jobs, because it makes for more drama. But idk I personally think that having someone generally competent make a bad decision is better drama but that’s just me. Effects remain unmatched and there are a lot of good things, I just miss my married trauma-bonded ducklings

🛸 [ tv ] The X-Files: Finished season 5! A return to form. I liked season 5 a lot more than 4, I think it took itself more seriously. Onto the first movie tonight. I'm a little nervous about how it will hold up because it is such a trash favorite. I loved this movie when I was a kid, but all I remember about it are bees????

🤖 [ tv ] Murderbot: Watched the first episode last night, will watch the second tonight. Ok so far! Definitely an intro, in that it was just dropping little hints of the deeper plot while remaining relatively shallow in tone. I didn't have as many fears as some fans because I'm not as emotionally attached to the books yet, but it did manage to land on my only one, which was that I felt Sanctuary Moon was just a bit to heavy-handed with the parody. I did feel a tiny bit made fun of. I'm not sure why that is, especially when you compare it to stuff like the fake show in Avenue 5, which I found hilarious, but it was just a tiny bit over the top.

🌿 weekend to dos:

long run + grocery store! (one of my new favorite running trails is right outside the grocery store, it's so convenient)

watch many things including: the first X-Files film (I think they call it 'Fight the Future' now, but when I first watched it, it was just 'The X-Files') -> the new TLOU episode I neglected on Sunday -> second episode that's out of Murderbot -> next up in my Expanse marathon

rainy weekend again so I have some writing things to do including rewriting the last action section that really needs a second pass, a few more edits, and getting this 85k fic at least partially formatted to post. hoping to start posting next Friday, because by the chapter count that will take me to the end of August and that feels very neat. the first couple chapters are ready to go, honestly, it's just chapter 4 that has two lengthy action sequences that are a hot mess right now. short fic rough drafts only after I finish all that. as a treat.

emotionally prepare for ✨ 'corporate team building week'✨ aka do nothing and talk to no one because I'm going to spend 3 days having to talk to a LOT of people and going from 'data entry hermit who doesn't talk to anyone and just listens to audiobooks every day' to 'meet a bunch of strangers and pretend to care about my job' is a bit draining. it is pretty fun though and then everyone scatters back to their various wfh setups and I can return to my audiobooks. I also might go to the good thrift store to find some corporate cosplay lol

🌻 have a good weekend!

[lilyevanstan1325]

✨ Astral Lovers ✨

Chapter 4

Lily POV

A lightning breaks the sky and I am brought back to reality by the rain beating fiercely against my window.

It is still dark outside and another flash illuminates the sky, casting eerie shadows on the walls of my room.

Immediately after, the roar of the shift follows, capable of shaking my soul.

As if I weren't already shaken by myself.

That dream.

For God sake that dream.

I turn abruptly on my left side, grabbing the pillow and then bringing it to my face.

I let out a noise of frustration that is readily absorbed by the pillow itself.

I can't think to anything else.

Steve.

Steve doesn't exist.

And this thought kills me.

I move the pillow from my face and turn towards the night stand, I notice the time marked on the display of my smartphone.

Great.

It's only 3:30 AM and I can definitely say goodbye to sleep.

How can I fall asleep again after what I've experienced?

How can I fall asleep again knowing that I will never see those eyes again?

That I will never see that smile again?

I raise myself leaning on my elbow.

I think about what to do and in the end I decide that maybe it is better to get up.

On tiptoe I go down the stairs, I absolutely don't want to wake up my father.

I don't even know what to tell him.

What would he think if I told him.

You know dad I can't sleep because I think of a man who doesn't even exist.

Knowing my father, he would have me interned in the first available psychiatric ward.

Once in the kitchen I fill a glass with water.

And God help me but I still feel the taste of that beer on my lips.

Ok.

I have to stop.

And also quickly.

My life is already a disaster and another problem, if I can call it that...I don't want that.

I drink all the water with a few sips and then I open the cupboard upwards and take the jar of Nutella that is inside it.

I head towards the stairs that would have brought me back to my room but not before having taken a spoon from the drawer positioned under the hob.

I go up the stairs with my survival kit, as I like to call it, and finally I return in my room.

Once inside I pass the bed and head towards the window where, with some blankets and an undefined amount of pillows, I have created a small alcove all for myself.

I squat bringing my legs under my ass and I sit down.

I bring a generous spoonful of Nutella to my lips as I watch the rain pouring down.

The moment my tongue comes into contact with that sweet cream, I moan with satisfaction.

Who knows what it would be like to moan because of Steve's lips on my body.

Or what it would be like to lick Nutella directly from his skin.

Yet another thunder brings me back to reality and I mentally curse myself for letting my fantasy wander at full speed.

I have to cut this shit out.

Really!

Another flash illuminates the sky and I see his face reflected in the window.

His eyes.

Damn!

I don't know how to deal with this.

I head to my desk and turn on my pc.

The only reasonable thing I feel like I can do is try to think calmly, reasonably and clearly.

So I lick the spoon well and close the jar.

While the PC comes to life I try to calm my heartbeat and think clearly about my dream.

Surely my dream is the oneiric manifestation of the shortcomings in my life.

Of the lack of love.

I need someone who loves me and listens to what I have to say.

Not having anyone who cares about me, it will have led me to project everything I need into a fictional character.

Steve.

What I feel.

That all of this manifested itself through a damn sexy man is another story.

As soon as the PC is operational I already know what to type in the search bar.

Lucid dream.

I scroll through the first search results and then click on one at random.

I read it all avidly.

By lucid dreaming we mean that dream had in consciousness of the fact of being asleep.With the ability to move deliberately.With practice, the lucid dreamer can get to explore and modify the dream to his liking.

Maybe this last part I shouldn't go into.

I don't want to.

I continue with my reading.

The focus of the experience is realizing that you are dreaming.Such dreams are described as experiences of remarkable perceptual quality.

That's why it all felt so real.

Colors, smells, flavors.

Him.

I turn off the PC angrily.

I don't understand where this anger is coming from now.

I should be glad to know that there is a logical explanation for this night's events.

Yet I am disappointed.

Embittered.

Angry.

And above all, I feel stupid.

The light in the corridor turns on, which means it's 5:00 AM and my dad is about to leave for work.

Wishing him was real is stupid.

Stupid and dangerous.

Caught by a moment of madness, I head to the door and go down to the kitchen, where I already know that I will find him fully dressed with his inevitable cup of coffee in his hands.

As soon as he perceives my presence he looks up and immediately brings his gaze back to his work.

I stop on the threshold and he is sitting there at the table leafing through some files.

"What are you doing awake?it's really early.Don't you have an afternoon shift at the bar today?"

"Yes dad, it's just that I couldn't sleep.You know...the thunders"

"Mmh mmh" he murmurs without looking up from his papers.

"I can sit here?With you?" I ask him.

He finally looks up and for a moment I can see the confusion in his eyes.

Feeling that the haste vanishes.

He answers me with an austere nod of his head.

I sit down and with my heart in my throat I begin to speak.

"You know dad, I thought I could go to New York this weekend.Just to visit it and have some fun...Jhon said I have 3 days off this month and I thought I'd spend it like that"

His head jerks up.

He looks at me as he would look at a stain of grease on his favorite tie.

Looking back at his stupid files, he replies with an angry voice "Why the hell are you coming up with this nonsense.We've already talked about it.You don't need to travel.Here you already have everything you need. Museums, shops, green spaces"

"Actually you talked about it.I just listened and obeyed"

I reply in a much more poisonous way than I thought.

"Elisabeth please don't start...not again!"

I hate it when he uses my full name.

It usually means shut up and do what I say.

I get up angrily, rubbing the chair on the parquet and walk out of the kitchen stamping my feet like a whimsical child.

He does not reply and I return in tears to my room.

But as soon as I arrive in front of the door I stop and just turning my head back I exclaim "I hate this place.I hate this life.I hate you.I wish mom had never died"

Steve POV

Five days.

Five days have passed and there are no trace of her.

Gone.

As if she didn't exist.

That night at the bar I waited for 10 minutes for her to come back and then, worried, I headed to the bathroom to make sure she was okay.

But she wasn't there.

I looked inside the bar.

Out on the street.

But nothing.

She was already gone.

It is almost the sunset and an orange light enters from the large windows that surround the training room.

Out of the corner of my eye I see a metal hand directed towards my jaw, I dodge it at the last moment but obviously I'm not focused enough because Bucky uses the other dwarf to hit me on the left side, due to the blow I lean forward and he takes advantage of it to go behind me and give me a kick behind the knees.

The blow knocks me off balance and my back hits the ground violently.

The impact blows all the air out of my lungs with a hiss.

I rest on the ground with my eyes closed, my chest rising and falling in search of as much air as I can breathe in.

I open my eyes after a few moments and find two blue eyes that stare at me between amusement and worry.

"What's up, buddy?Where are you today?"

He holds out his hand in vibranium and he grunts as he struggles to help me to my feet.

"It's ok man, don't worry"

"Bullshit, you know I know you too well and you can't expect me to let it go this things so easily!"

We head to the bench where we sit and I see him hand me a bottle of water.

We drink in silence.

After a few minutes I decide to speak.

"I met a girl a few nights ago.Very beautiful, smart and nice.I'm sure you would have liked her without a shadow of a doubt"

"She's gone.Literally"

"Ok, and what would be the problem?" my best friend asks me with sincere curiosity.

"Maybe you made one of your stupid jokes and she ran away?" Bucky replies back with a mocking smile.

"Really, Buck?" I reply raising an eyebrow.

We smile at each other.

"Seriously man.One moment she was there with me.We were laughing, there was a connection.An absurd attraction.The next moment she runs to the bathroom and disappears.I don't even have her number.I barely know her name"

Bucky watches me for a moment.

He leans his hand of flesh on my shoulder, giving me a few consoling pat.

"Listen man if she's really interested she'll come back.She knows where to find you.C'mon, you're Captain America, it's impossible not to find you"

He smiles at me.

"But if she doesn't come back, well it better this way!She doesn't know what she's missing.And let me tell you that someone who treats you like this doesn't even deserve you"

I look him in the eye.

I know he is honest.

He has always been with me.

I know he understands what I feel.

For a moment, I feel like the old Steve again.

The sick and pathetic kid who needs help and comfort.

"I really hope she comes back..."

Yes, I'm pathetic.

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idk why but your post just appeared on my feed lol but as an ex genshin player and resident hsr player, you'll have no problem adjusting at all! The big diff is the gameplay though. If you're fine with turn based combat and auto-ing battles during farming then you'll enjoy it. I can't recommend it if youre into fast paced combat like genshin and wuwa though. It's more casual friendly, I only login like maybe 4-7 times a month and still get all the rewards. You can also auto clear the abyss equivalent up to like stage 8. For team building, prwyden does detailed guides so you dont have to worry about thinking abt which char pairs well with who. It's a bit confusing at first, but it's not that complicated i think. It's the same dps, buffer, healer etc. roles genshin has. Relic farming is a bit trickier though, you cant do off pieces so itll take awhile to get a good set if you have bad luck like me. Also yeah, the chara trailers, damn I can't believe they got THE Reol for Rappa, that's legendary. Overall, I still recommend you to try it if you still want to!! It's fun if you vibe with the gameplay. We also got a lot of husbandos lately, esp Sunday who's rlly hyped up coming up soon.

(Sorry for replying late I just found this ask TwT huge sorry )

I am kind of nervous playing it but I really would love to try it even though I am bad in games lmao but I mainly play genshin for the story and I am curious about the HSR story as well and the gorgeous characters. But I do enjoy the gameplay in genshin even though it's difficult for weakling like me sometimes but I want to really try and see how HSR will do for me :D

Thank you for this ask really I appreciate it the info ^-^. I heared so many praises about this game so I will see for myself :D

I heared about Sunday and he is hella gorgeous ✨. Maybe HSR has better husbandos than genshin idk but I really loved them in the trailer even though when it comes to waifus I am huge fan of them as well. They definitely do them more justice than waifus in anime

[memento-morri-writes]

Happy STS Morri!!! I hope you are having a good day/night!

@ink-fireplace-coffee here, so get ready to answer some questions if you don't mind me asking...

If you could only eat one (1) dish or food from All the Queen's Horses, which one and (if its a dish) what is it made of? why would you choose that one?

Do you have any alternative titles for ATQH??? Were you deciding in between more options?

Is there a favorite deleted scene you can show us?

Tells us about a time when you were proud of yourself bc of your writing

Give us 3 (or more) songs that you associate with Duncan

If Nora was a color/place/object/food/element, she would be...?

If you could insert any of your characters in any other universe (think books, series, movies, whatever) which character would you choose, in which universe and, would they be happy there?

tell us about the Moment (tm) when you decided to start writing! Not just this wip but ✨writing✨

Oooh, okay!!! This is fun!! Thank you so much for all the questions, Carmen!!

If you could only eat one (1) dish or food from All the Queen's Horses, which one and (if its a dish) what is it made of? why would you choose that one?

Hmmm... I honestly have no idea. There's these straberry jam pastries that Fallon loves, but doesn't eat much because they remind her of her mom, but the problem is...... I don't like strawberries. So, maybe I'd just want some very fresh hommemade bread, because I fucking love bread.

the rest under the cut!

2. Do you have any alternative titles for ATQH??? Were you deciding in between more options?

I am 100% sold on the title ATQH. I'm never going back. But, when I started writing it, it had a horrible, horrible temporary title that was abbreviated RTQ. (Romancing the Queen) I only even named it that temporarily because I needed to call it something other than "that story in my head", and all I knew was it was going to be a romance. Although I very quickly stopped thinking of it as anything other than RTQ, and sometimes I forget that RTQ actually stood for something, ajsda.

3. Is there a favorite deleted scene you can show us?

Not a deleted scene, but oneshots that take place in the wrong timeframe to be included! I actually have two!! HERE and HERE.

4. Tells us about a time when you were proud of yourself bc of your writing.

There was this short story that I wrote in 9th grade that I entered into a short story contest. My teacher (who was a harsh critic) said it should be in the top 10 for the contest. It didn't make it, but I'm still pretty damn proud of it! Maybe I should revisit it and post it on here... It was a really kind of strange experimental short story about aliens finding Earth, but all the humans are gone, and what they assume about us based on what we left behind.

5. Give us 3 (or more) songs that you associate with Duncan

Oh god, I don't know. I actually don't have a single song I associate with him. It's sad, but I'm really picky about my songs. They have to be spot on perfect or else I won't associate them to anything. I have songs for Fallon and Kris, and for the whole story/certain scenes, but none for Duncan. Which is TRAGIC. I love Duncan. He deserves better.

6. If Nora was a color/place/object/food/element, she would be...?

Nora is definitely purple. I associate her very vividly with the color purple. All of my characters have A Color, and hers is purple, adsjak. As for an element, I'm thinking water, since yk, she's a pirate, and also because water can look calm on the surface, but have very strong currents.

7. If you could insert any of your characters in any other universe (think books, series, movies, whatever) which character would you choose, in which universe and, would they be happy there?

Can I say our universe?? I really just want to bring Kris here and give him a hug, or Fallon and have her be my badass older cousin. Fallon would absolutely rock a pantsuit, btw. I think if she were here, it would be very freeing for her to not have the weight of being Queen on her shoulders. She'd find a way to make herself be able to do something though. Maybe she'd run for office, maybe she'd be a businesswoman, maybe she'd start a charity, I don't know. But she would do something, because she can't do nothing. And Kris would just be happy to be where Fallon is, and also he'd be happy to be out of Oryn.

8. tell us about the Moment (tm) when you decided to start writing! Not just this wip but ✨writing✨

Carmen, I'm going to be honest and say I don't remember. I've been writng my whole life. When I was in 3rd grade, I wrote 42 pages about the Titanic. When I was in 7th grade, I wrote an epilogue to a book we read in class and successfully predicted the plots of the next two books in the seires. When I was in 9th grade, I wrote that short story. But I was never able to get more than a few pages into something until ATQH. Before ATQH the only projects I had ever finished were short stories that were for class. Because I never was this invested. I don't remember learning to read (I taught myself and was reading road signs by 3.), and I don't remember starting to write. I've always done it, even if it was just making up random stuff in my head. When I was a kid, all my toys had to have plots. The lego girls knew a secret portal into the dinosaur world. The little animal figurines had very complicated politics. Everything had a story, I just didn't write them down.

Thank you so much for the ask!! And I'm sorry I don't have good answers for some of these.

[izubabes]

So my test came back positive for COVID-19 I’d be lying If I said I wasn’t scared but as you might remember I have twin daughters both 2 months old and I still breastfeed but my family watches them for me while I’m in quarantine.I need some fluffy Enji x young wife reader who decorate the house for Spooky season.Enji leaves to grab some paperwork from the agency,but really he stops by Starbee’s to get some drinks and comes home to the twins dressed in they’re costumes.✨🕸🍂🎃

I am sending positive thoughts your way, my dear. I genuinely hope this brings you some comfort while you recover. Get plenty of rest, drink plenty of fluids, feel better soon. You got this, love! 💓

I understand the anxious feeling, my own test results came back positive two days ago… :(

“Honey!” you called out, attempting hang up some faerie lights on the walls. It was a task easier said than done. You just needed to reach a little bit higher. “Please don’t touch the pumpkins yet, we’re carving them later. Actually, bring them over here!”

The Number One Hero has never carved a jack-o-lantern before. 

Enji had first told you about his ‘little secret’ while you were both out grocery shopping and he watched you gush about decorating the house. You had suggested placing jack-o-lanterns on the front doorstep which is when the question arose about what you were talking about.

I mean he must have celebrated Halloween as a child, right?

“You’ve never carved a pumpkin before? You’ve got to be kidding me!”

“I don’t find it funny, Y/N.”

“Oh my gosh, you’re serious.”

However, you remembered your husband wasn’t one to joke around and his silence only added onto his annoyed expression.

It’s a complicated but funny memory .

Currently, both of you were sprucing up your home for Halloween or ‘Spooky Season’ as you like to call it, he thinks it’s cute, since your husband had never gone full out festive before. Several lit cinnamon apple candles gave the interior of the house the perfect autumnal scent and a cozy atmosphere. Quiet music hummed in the living room, courtesy of your Spotify playlist.

“Just so you know, I’m done with the outside of the house.”

He walked towards the living room, a pumpkin in each of his arms. “I wasn’t touching the pumpkins,” Enji, somewhat embarrassed he had been caught, attempting to put down the cursed objects and stared it down menacingly, aware of its threat to his pride. 

At least, until he dropped them.

“Damn,” He was busy trailing behind them in an effort to stop their mischief but stopped short when he saw you struggling. “Y/N,” he warned you with a concerned tone, “if you’re not careful, you’ll definitely fall.”

“Hold on, darling. I can do it,” You brushed off your doubting husband in order to prove him wrong. He watched you try to make yourself taller, standing up on your tiptoes while on the highest step of the ladder.

Enji watched you try to make yourself taller, standing up on your tiptoes while on the highest step of the ladder. His taller figure stood behind yours, providing support in case you miscalculated and slipped. “There we go!”

As if on cue, both of your little ones started crying for some attention. They had likely woken up from their naps and wanted to be held by their parents for a bit. You needed a decorating break anyways, but being a full-time mama is a 24/7 job.

“Darling,” you sighed, handing him a bag of fake spiderwebs. He noticed your hesitation as you stood in place and glared at him. “Can I trust you to put these up on the walls while I check on the girls?”

“Of course,” he affirmed, slightly offended that you thought he couldn’t handle it, “what’s the problem?”

You gave a weak smile in return and reminded him of last year’s events of when he accidentally set the webs on fire because they had gotten tangled up. The fire department had to be called and the media published a news story with the burnt front lawn on the front page. Endeavor’s PR team had fun week coming up with an reasonable explanation.

“I’m only kidding, honey,” you giggled, placing a soft kiss on his cheek. “I’ll be right back, okay?”

Enji could tell right away that the house had a completely different vibe than before, it was unfamiliar to him but he found it comforting. All of the hard work you had put into the decorations paid off since everything looked perfect. Now, he wanted to do something special for you in return.

“All right, here’s Haruhi!” You gushed, gently cradling your baby girl in the secured tandem wrap on your chest as she wiggled and squeaked with joy. “Do you want Daddy to hold you?”

The first time your husband ever heard of baby wrapping, he was absolutely horrified. Was it safe? Yes. Was it helpful? Yes. Would he be scared every time you did it in front of him? Of course.

“Come here, sweet girl,” Enji felt his heart swell with love as soon as he was able to hold his daughter and stare at her soft features. It had been a while since he had last held a baby of his own but nonetheless he was overwhelmed with pride.

“Who’s my cute little Hanami?” You bonded with your other infant, giving her gentle kisses while she cooed in response. Chubby little hands gripped your shirt while you whispered loving words to your baby. “My twin flames!”

Hanami and Haruhi were the two beautiful twin daughters you had been blessed with after marrying Enji. He fawns over them any chance he gets. While pregnant, you had everything you needed, on top of being treated like royalty, provided by your doting husband. It was such a drastic personality change, soft and gentle with you, but stern and bold when compared to his engagement with the public.

Being married to a pro-hero made life difficult in terms of being able to maintain personal privacy, however your does all he can to keep you happy and safe. Enji shows his love through gifts and he loves spoiling you any chance he gets. Therefore, he would go get you one of your many favorite things in the world. 

Starbucks.

He needed to find a decent excuse, fast. Scrolling through his work emails would be a good cover. “Sweetheart, I received a message from the office. I need to pick up a report one of the interns processed.”

“Right now?” The cheery expression on your face quickly fell into a upset frown, he almost backed out on his choice. “Could Shouto come drop it off instead?”

“I’d rather not bother him right now,” Enji explained, hoping you’d drop the matter, “he has remedial classes.”

“Shouto?” You chuckled in disbelief, not believing your husband although it was the truth. He watched you pull out your phone, surely in an attempt to text his son, “Remedial classes? There is no way, he’s too smart.”

Before you could send the text message, your twins both projectile vomited onto your chest and themselves. It was to be expected and was normal to you but your normally level-headed husband thought otherwise. 

“Oh my god, are they okay!?” Enji panicked, forgetting his teachings from the online parenting classes he paid for. “Are you okay?”

“Honey, they’re fine,” you calmly reassured, although the expression on your face didn’t match your current mood. “Put Haruhi in here. I had to give the girls a bath either way, go ahead and run to the office.” 

Enji shook his head, worried to step foot outside the house after the incident. “I can’t leave you here alone covered in... uh...”

“Baby vomit?” You finshed, pushing him towards the front door. “Enji, I’ve dealt with worse. I went through labor. I can handle it.”

“But Y/N—!”

He watched as you eagerly waved from the doorstep, unaware he was out of the house. The twins were secured in their baby wrap, arms waving around with your help. “Come back soon, honey!”

Autumn had arrived much sooner than expected and Enji was secretly glad you had forced him to buy a trench coat when you went shopping last weekend. He was unused to the feeling of being taken care of, he was hero, it was his job to care for others. It was quite interesting to find a spark in life again, he hasn’t felt so validated in a long time.

*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* *✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ*

“Y/N, are we making jack-o-lanterns? Or are you just torturing that pumpkin?”

Pieces of the giant fruit were flung across the table while you wrestled the carving knife into its flesh for the millionth time. Todoroki could only watch in disbelief at the effort you put into attempting to create a face. So far so good, right?

“Ha!” You squealed, pulling the sharp object out and flinging it around. Todoroki managed to safely get it out your grasp before you stabbed him. “I got the little sucker out of there. Check out my masterpiece.”

“Of course,” he played along, hiding his urge to laugh at the pumpkin, “that’s a nice cat.”

“It’s supposed to be a face…” you sighed, wiping your hands off on your apron. Todoroki watched you reached for a platter on the countertop, “Oh well, do you want a slice of pumpkin bread?”

“I’d love some, thank you,” he accepted, taking a seat at the table.

At first, when Enji had remarried he was surprised at how close you and Shouto had become. His relationship with his children was still recovering but he was happy you were able to connect to them.

You sat across from him and smiled before asking the fatal question, “Enji told me you had remedial classes, is that true?”

“What?” He choked on his bread before answering, “Of course the Old Man told you.”

“I was just worried about you,” you reassured, chuckling in order to ease the tension. He was about to explain himself but your babies’ cries cut him short. “Hold that thought, I have to check on the girls. Wanna come see them?”

“Uhm sure,” Todoroki followed you into the twins’ nursery and awkwardly stood there while he watched you check on the girls. “Hi, my loves! Shouto is here to visit.”

You secured them into their baby wrap and motioned for him to come closer, bringing attention to the items in your hands. “I bought these off of Amazon,��� you squealed, shaking the packages. You handed one over while you dressed Hanami. “Aren’t they super cute?”

Shouto softly smiled as he took a look, “Adorable, the twins will look good in them.”

Baby onesies made to look like Endeavor’s hero costume and your own when you were active. He wouldn’t admit it but his father’s merchandise was pretty cool.

“Thank you! I should get some that match your hero costume–!”

“–Is it fun being a mom?”

“I love it!” You answered, buttoning your baby’s shirt. Shouto watched as your infant became fussy. “Haruhi, come on,” You playfully wrestled with your daughter for the eighth time in order to get her to listen, “Daddy will be home any minute, be a good girl.”

“Let me try,” Shouto suggested, gently sliding the onesie on the baby. Haruhi’s hands reached upwards, eagerly wanting to touch his face.

You heard keys jingling at the front door, signaling your husband was home. The baby costumes were supposed to be a surprise so you knew you had to act fast.

“Shouto, can you–?”

“I’m on it.”

You dashed down the hallway to the door in order to stall your husband. Enji knew something was up as soon as he noticed your disheveled state. “Are you alright, Y/N?”

“I have a surprise for you, but you have to close your eyes!” You smiled eagerly, jumping up and down.

“Okay…” he gave you a confused expression, before motioning to the beverages in his hands. “I have one for you too.”

A warm feeling in your chest made you absolutely ecstatic. He had gone out to buy Starbucks for you? Heart eyes for days but you knew you had a better surprise in store for him.

“Thank you, Enji!” You placed a sweet kiss on his cheek before heading back to the nursery. He set the drinks down on the living room table, listening to your voice echo the house, “Wait here and close your eyes.”

“Here,” Enji could hear the smile in your voice but was quickly confused as he heard you address someone else, “hold Hanami and I’ll go get Haruhi. Or hand her off to Enji.”

He was surprised to see his teenage son standing there with his other baby. Their eyes locked before Enji spoke up, “It’s been a while, Shouto...”

“I was just here to see the twins,” he replied curtly, stepping close to the door. He spared you one last glance and a gentle wave, “I’ll be leaving now, Y/N. Thank you.”

“Thank you for the help, Shouto!” You beamed, waving back, “if your friends want to come visit, they’re welcome anytime.”

Enji peered down at his little girl, who was staring his face, before bursting into an innocent smile. He noticed the material of her clothes appeared familiar before the realization hit him completely.

“Is this…?” He whispered, too overwhelmed to finish the question.

“It gets better!” You gushed, sitting next to him and showing him your other daughter’s outfit.

“Those are my girls,” he replied smugly, before leaning his head on your shoulder. “Thank you, Y/N.”

“For what, Enji?” You glanced over at his proud face.

“Everything.”

Enji is known not to be the most patient man in the world but he would do anything to keep his sweet wife happy. Even if it means going along with her giddy antics. You had brought back a fiery light into his life that he didn’t know he ever lost. He felt like a changed man and he was, Enji would go to extreme lengths just to keep his precious family safe and well.

“I love you, Enji.”

“I love you too, Y/N.”

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Scrolling through Twitter that night, a specific hashtag caught your eye. You had to read it again in order to make sure it was real.

Trending #1 in Japan: #DomesticEndeavor

A video of your husband at a Starbucks was uploaded while he ordered the drinks from earlier in the day.

“Venti Very Berry Hibiscus Lemonade and Venti Iced Peach Tea Lemonade,” Enji answered, avoiding eye contact with the barista in hopes of keeping his cover.

“YOU CAN HAVE THEM FOR FREE!” The baristas in the background shouted in unison, star struck faces while they rushed to prepare his order.

“Endeavor maybe a pro-hero but he’s a normal man after all, huh?” The person recording the video giggled, “this is going viral.”

Enji was embarrassed at the fact that more people were whispering about him at the coffee shop and zoomed out there as soon as possible.

The video ended with the employees fangirling and shouting, “HE TIPPED ME FIFTY DOLLARS! ENDEAVOR FOR LIFE!”