#double life save me... save me double life

[yoyoyo-idk]

hey actually i need to double back on this because i keep thinking about the kim dokja of the beginning who still often looks at the novel. like how fucked up is it.

he knows parts of it by heart, his skill allows him to remember it so, so well and he still desperately hangs onto a text file on his phone. things happen and the world is a mess and everyone's dying and there's this guy in a corner hunched over his phone looking at a blank screen. he saves your life (maybe) and he's becoming your friend (maybe) and you're traumatised and that guy's on his phone.

think about the first few arcs, where he's comparing the novel to what's happening and reading the description and thinks "the author did such a good job describing this" and barely listens to what people tell because it's dialogue he's already read and information he already knows. its the whole fucking point of the thing but the disconnect of the beginning is just now hitting me. imagine putting yourselves in danger to get information or food or something and he barely looks up from his phone to tell you "oh thanks. you didn't have to." and you really didn't because he already has a plan.

that combined with the fact that reading has always been an escape for him, a way to cut off from reality means he probably gets completely absorbed in the novel. he's just not living the same thing as everyone else. and that's what this genre of stories is all about, but none quite as much as orv.

tldr:

(PS: also im losing it at the idea of someone telling him "it's cause you're always on that dang phone" whenever he complains they didn't tell him something, or pretends he 'didn't have the time' to warn them or smth. like yeah you cringe loser.)

[emmie-writes-stuff]

So the new chapter is out and GOOD GOD do I have some thoughts and a lot of them don’t make a whole lot of sense but I can’t not talk about this chapter

Firstly, Kaiser looks adorable (never thought I’d say that about him outside of my head but here I am)

Secondly, holy hell my heart hurts

He didn’t deserve this, no child deserves this

The fact that he had to “go to work” and just steal

HE HAS NO SHOES his little feet have got to hurt, or they’ve completely calloused up from not wearing shoes, but even then (speaking from experience) it still hurts to walk on hot ground and rocks and other stuff on the street

Yknow, I understood him hating milk before (because milk is disgusting) but now I get it even more

What a stupid reason to get upset, imma kick this waste of space excuse for a father in the fucking face AND balls because ITS FUCKING MILK

Eat some damn fiber or somethin if you got constipation issues

Who let this absolute scum of the earth reproduce???

HES LITERALTL TWELVE YEARS OLD

All the other shit went down before he was even double digits

But dangerous situations create smart kids, and Kaiser was very smart to start saving his own money

I used to have my own stash in case I ever had to run away (long story, we’re not getting into my family issues in this post, but yeah)

At least he has shoes now, protect those feet plz, they’re what keep you upright and moving

Soooooooo are we gonna acknowledge that he treats the soccer ball the same way he’s currently treating Ness orrrrrrrr

But like, it’s nice that he has an outlet to channel his anger into that isn’t a person (at least for now smh)

It’s really interesting seeing how each of the characters came to play soccer

(Side note: but he throws the ball at a picture of a woman, could he maybe be imagining this woman as his mother?)

His mother also deserves a kick to the face if I have anything to say bout it

I have no words for this

Just, can I steal him? Please? I’ll give him a good life

Fuck the snitches, how dare they

Also, you can clearly see his ribs defined, and that hurts me

I love that he was willing to let go of everything

He was ready to start fresh with getting money, was cooperating with the police, until the soccer ball was threatened

Because that is his most valuable possession

The money doesn’t matter, but the ball is a symbol to him of something that won’t leave him or hurt him

It’s a very small sense of independence and stability in this very unstable and controlling environment

The ball is heavily implied to be the first thing he ever bought for himself, it’s what defined a key part in his life

Taking that away is like taking away his soul, his outlet, and comfort, and Kaiser just couldn’t stand for it

There’s so many more things I’m thinkin and I have way too many incoherent thoughts for tumblr, but these are the ones I was able to clear up and make sense of

This chapter hit very deep and while my past doesn’t involve much physical abuse and struggles to this level, it was hard not to empathize and relate my own experiences with abuse with the ones in this chapter

I don’t wanna get into shit, it’s not somethin I exactly wanna put out in the public, but there’s so much here that I could understand and relate to and it just made everything so much more difficult to read (in a good way I guess)

Just, GOD, why did I have to become a fan before this chapter came out???

Okay, that’s my ramble for this, bye before I start going on even more tangents

[fersbutterflies]

BE MY VALENTINE?

summary : dazai finds himself in a new feeling. It's his first valentine's day and he wants to make it memorable for you. The problem is he has no idea of how.

genre : fluff

word count : 620

warnings : none

You have been dating Dazai for 8 months now. This was your first year together on Valentine's day. Your relationship was quite unusual. No one had ever expected you to be with him; both of you were so different yet similar. You were the shy, calm type but when it came to Dazai you found yourself like a fish in the water. Things with him were just so easy. It had taken some time for both of you to get out of your shell. Despite his relaxed attitude and charming smile he was nowhere near telling his truth until he found you. You were like a ray of sun in his life and he appreciated you greatly. If he could describe you in any way it would be perfection like an angel who came to save him from his sadness.

"Belladonna you are looking especially lovely today." As usual he was teasing you but this was no ordinary day. As soon as you entered the office you could sense he had planned something. "Thank you Dazai, are these for me?" You said when Dazai grabbed a bouquet of roses in his hands.

"Of course they are for you sweetheart! What type of boyfriend would I be if I didn't spoil my angel?" He dramatically pouted and you could feel yourself blushing and smiling at him. Throughout the day he had done some other things like gifting you a necklace, taking you to a restaurant and wait- why had he taken you to the ceiling?

"Dazai why are we here?" You asked curiously but he only offered you a smile. "Is this part of another surprise?" Of course it had something to do with valentine's day.

"This is sadly my last surprise to you today. So I'm proposing to you the most romantic and memorable gift... a double suicide!" He said cheerfully as he proceeded to give you a warm hug and a kiss on the lips. "My sweet girlfriend, I believe it's only appropriate if we did this together on a day like today. " You were shocked to say the least. In fact when you had gone upstairs your first thought was gazing at the stars with your boyfriend, maybe cuddling, not jumping from the sixth floor like some tragic lovers. When Dazai just saw you open your mouth, his first thought was how he had already beaten half of the male population as the best boyfriend just by asking this question. "How did you come up with this idea?"

"Oh Atsushi and Kunikida helped me, I didn't think they could be so romantic but they have truly inspired me."

"I don't think I can accept this gift today but hey that wasn't half as bad, in fact this was the best day ever." You said putting your arms around his neck to kiss him as the stars were placing over you.

(...)

"WHEN DID WE TOLD YOU TO COMMIT SUICIDE WITH Y/N?!" Shouted Atsushi and Kunikida to Dazai when he thanked them for their "wonderful" idea.

"I remember Atsushi saying: "Oh I know what you should do! Something that is special for both of you, something unforgettable" and right after Kunikida said: "Why don't you look in a book or..." and then I left both of you."

"How was I supposed to know you were going to look on the suicide methods book?"

"Do I own any other books? Besides, I thought that was a brilliant idea."

"Why am I even trying..." Said an already done Kunikida. Meanwhile Atsushi looked at the door where a happy Y/N was telling Yosano a bunch of details she had already memorized by now with how many times she had told her last day.

[iminyourbookshelf]

Qsmp superhero au save me... qsmp superhero au's

Pissa with a loony toon villain Missa and Phil who sees he's trying his hardest to be a villain so he'll just let's him off the hook. Neither of them know the others identity and their kids are close and Missa develops a crush on his daughters best friends dad but also one on the hero he's been fighting? What will he do? (They're the same person)

Supervillain Slime awkwardly keeps running into his ex-husband while trying to wreck havoc. He ends up having to save ElMariana from his own doings so much that people start speculating that this civilian has something to do with this villain. He doesn't. Mariana doesn't know why this guy keeps hitting on him.

Vigilante Tina trying to keep her double life a secret from her girlfriend and daughter, while Bagi just got a new case on yet another demon themed vigilante. Tina gets home with an oddly familiar injury that she makes a hasty excuse on why Bagi can't help her.

[loktauri]

Old double life comic I don't think I'll ever clean up but I really enjoyed drafting the panels and script!

The Alt text has the script, incase my handwriting cannot be read :]

[uncanny-tranny]

Blessing of the knitter/crocheter: may your hands never have cuts, bruising, sores, hangnails, or any other nuisance that would make your craft painful. May your hands and wrists never ache 🪷💛

[colesstar]

”STOP it doesnt matter if this doesn’t fit your theme REBLOG blah blah”

yea well actually

I REALLY DO NOT CARE PLEASE STOP GUILT TRIPPING ME I AM OVERLY EMOTIONAL ITS ANNOYING AND UPSETTING

[cuubism]

every day i go to work and am just so so awkward in meetings 🙂

[this-acuteneurosis]

What's your opinion on Padme's death? On the one hand, I am intrigued at the idea of love unbalancing Padme and Anakin - the parallel of Anakin burning himself alive in his rage and Padme drowning herself in her misery is very poetic ngl. On the other hand, I just sincerely doubt that a broken heart could kill Former Queen Padme "There’s always a choice! To live in fear – is no life at all" Amidala

My opinion on Padmé's death (and really her whole character) is I have written 450K words of what may end up being upwards of 800K of fic about Padmé being allowed to Do Her Fucking Job with her daughter and her staff of strong and capable female friends/associates, and with Padmé growing and changing as a person and facing her own failings and hypocrisies.

My opinion on Padmé's death is Padmé was a prop in the story of the fall of the Republic and Anakin Skywalker. She was silenced meta-textually and ignored textually. She entered the story as a self-actualized leader learning hard truths and making tough decisions and pushing back against people (esp men) that tried to tell her what to do, and was dragged into a vapid position of malicious compliance and inaction. The story tried to take Anakin's whole, "Are you an angel?" bit and cast her in that archetype. But like, not a cool, righteous, furious angel. No no. She's delicate and pretty and increasingly ineffectual in each movie she stars in.

My opinion on Padmé's death is that the prequels, at the time they were done, were supposed to take us to exactly where the OT picks up in many ways. RotS was supposed to end at a point where we weren't left wondering how Luke and Leia were where they were in ANH. The kids are separated, their parents are gone, there are "no" Jedi left, Obi-Wan and Yoda are already in exile, determined to do nothing.

Apparently Padmé has to die because we can't have a Padmé who's going to fight tooth and nail to retain a semblance of integrity in the Imperial Senate. We can't have a Padmé who tries to rally the remaining political leaders of the Separatists now that Dooku is dead and there's a side not run by a Sith Lord. We can't have a Padmé who is actually a founding member of the rebellion. Who helps track down the remaining Jedi and offers sanctuary on her home planet. Who actually stops walking Anakin's path with him and still makes him confront what he's lost with his decisions. We can't have a Padmé who still chooses to leave her children in someone else's care because she wants them to be safe and actually even if she cares about family a lot, that doesn't immediately make her good mother material.

My opinion on Padmé's death is that Padmé dying is a tidy story device to take us from point A to point B without loose ends, and yes it did make me cry the first time I watched RotS. But no, I do not buy the stupid "she died of a broken heart" bullshit. Have you met Padmé? She doesn't take betrayal lying down. She takes you to court, and if that doesn't work, she comes at you with a blaster. "Died of a broken heart." Bah!

[every-thing-is-copacetic]

[thattechnopath]

Listening to the Double Life song by Evil Anvil rn and I just eoudbskak

[clariocosmo]

wait,,, what do you mean this wasn't how the first episode went???

Hello! It’s my first time posting on tumblr so I’m really excited to figure out how everything works and be more active :]

[yashley]

zerxus’ grief rendering him so desperate he begs patia to wipe the entire memory of the knowledge that he tried everything he could to protect his love and still failed …….……. laerryn’s frantic, fervent determination to try everything she can to protect hers

[curiosity-killed]

it feels a little silly to be so happy about something that, currently, just amounts to some free dance classes but I really, genuinely am just so joyful about getting this traineeship

[xelidonia]

Thinking about how scar (assigned vex by fandom) immediately became attached to a pet allay. there's something in that