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Bipolar Essay PART 5

Ian's short movie (part one) open with a voice over and then the first song that plays, aka the introductory song, is SERAPH.

For me, "It's his last conversation with his God as he sets his wings on fire. In those moments when my world starts splitting, it's a question from me as to why it always has to be like this."

This line really **HIT**.

I have literally (in my online journal entries) written, "[God] Why have you forsaken me?" During one of my more debilitating episodes.

Because, ey yo? WHY does it always have to be like this?

Literally feels like we're a shattered teacup tossed to the floor, and now we can't be put back together ever again and we just have to constantly live with that knowledge that our own glass shards are what's killing us.

And yet...."So hold me this one last time" is the last words Ian chooses to end the conversation he has with his God on, and that KILLS me even MORE.

Because, same.

(Lmao. If y'all aren't religious in any sense of the word, you might just be reading this like 'PSHsht' but bare with me.)

God to me is all that is beautiful in the world. He is

hope.

And so what do you think it feels like to be abandoned by hope itself?

:/

Icarus is a very apt metaphor for someone with BD.

Not a lot of people discuss the Hypersexuality aspect of Bipolar disorder.

To the point that even I -- someone WITH bipolar disorder -- had misconceptions about it.

One thing that I never knew was that the excessive sexual behavior, thoughts (and what not) were compulsive and unwanted. "Seemingly uncontrollable."

I learned this about hypersexuality in a podcast, actually -- where the host (who has BD), and a psychiatrist, discuss bipolar things -- hypersexuality being one of the things they discussed.

The host even stated that he once called / texted his family that he was sick instead of going to a get together because he was so horny that he spent that entire day m@$terbAiTing. Like 20 times in the span of a few hours.

(Which isn't healthy, and def. something the psychiatrist said she would hear and go, "yeah. That's not normal.")

The host stated that sometimes he wasn't even turned on at all. But he still felt the compulsion to follow through on the act. (Y'kno, because its a compulsion.)

I don't think these aspects of hypersexuality get discussed enough. I was fr sitting there listening to that podcast like:

Not that anyone needed or wanted to know this, but I am basically aroace (more ace, less aro, LOL) through and through.

Unfortunately for me, I would suddenly have bouts of hypersexuality during hypomanic and manic episodes which caused me a lot of confusion and self-loathing.

Going from absolutely no sexual thoughts, interests, or desires, to suddenly a plethora of all of those things combined with a compulsion to complete such an act ---made me think of myself as someone disgusting and morally wrong on every account.

It was painful too because it's not like I **wanted** to do any compulsive behavior, or to think, or act on any of that nonsense, because I wasn't INTERESTED in those things. I never was! !!!!

Literally the only way to distract myself from that nonsense was hyperfixating on a tv show, book, music, youtube --anything to distract me.

Now -- you see why, "Hypersexuality" is so much more than, "wants to have a lot of sex" or "being overly promiscuous" 🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫 🦆

I feel like the statement "Entering an episode isn't easy" is rather redundant, LOL.

But well and truly.

It isn't easy.

What gets me the most is the uncertainty.

I don't know when a new mood cycle is going to hit. For me -- I'm a rapid cycler. Mood switching happens more frequently than I'd like.

My mood journaling makes this fear and uncertainty obvious. I never know if I'll go to sleep and wake up normal, or more "able", or if I'll wake up zapped from all of my humanity.

When I'm hypomanic I can feel on top of the world -- like I've finally fixed my life and from now on I'll do everything right. I'll work out and eat right, and sleep when I'm supposed to, and read regularly, and engage socially --- blah blah blah blah bLAH.

(You get the point.)

Because that energy never stays. I'll "dip" and soon all I'll be able to think about is the agonizing question of how anyone can stay awake longer than 2 hours without needing a nap.

Literally me after 2 hours of being awake:

When I'm in a depressive episode, I go from being someone like "SENKUU" from Dr.Stone, to straight up being Sleepy Ash/Kuro from Servamp. (My friends have also compared me to Shikamaru.) ....Not that this is anything important 🤪.

For this one, let me expand on Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

OCD can be defined as:

"a disorder in which people have recurring, unwanted thoughts, ideas or sensations (obsessions). To get rid of the thoughts, they feel driven to do something repetitively (compulsions). The repetitive behaviors, such as hand washing/cleaning, checking on things, and mental acts like (counting) or other activities, can significantly interfere with a person’s daily activities and social interactions."

Source: https://www.psychiatry.org/patients-families/obsessive-compulsive-disorder/what-is-obsessive-compulsive-disorder

I bring this up because intrusive thoughts come hand-in-hand with OCD. For Bipolar you can have auditory hallucinations -- like hearing voices, and / or you can have intrusive thought trains that are debilitating.

For me I have mental compulsions.

Often my intrusive thoughts will either be (1) Unwanted sexual thoughts that are disturbing or (2) Blasphemy aka a spiral of intrusive thoughts cursing out God as if its in my own voice

--> These force me to spend hours of my time constantly saying "Shut up" and "Stop" in my head. Doing my best to disrupt or distract myself away from the thoughts. As you can imagine -- that kind of makes it hard to focus on things in everyday life.

I stated this before but sometimes I have to imagine myself fighting my own intrusive thoughts. Though like 0.2 seconds later they start back up and the cycle continues.

This one shouldn't be all that surprising.

Depression can / is one of the constant fears of someone with BP. As it always looms ominously on the horizon like some sh*tty tax collector.

Like tbh -- I'm on antidepressants and mood stabilizers and blah blah blah--- I don't care if the antidepressants are making me hypomanic. I prefer that insanity compared to the depression.

Do you know how much it fvcking SUCKS to have absolutely ZERO energy? To constantly have to nap, but it never makes a difference because like 15 minutes later you'll be just as tired as you were before, if not more?

FR I'm legitimately afraid of who I'll become or what will happen if I get off my antidepressants. Like....when I say "I don't think I could live" (like that) I mean it. And that terrifies me.

Closing up on this part of the PPT, here's (of course) the link to the short movie that these slides reference:

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PPT Essay: [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6], [7] , [8], [9]

PPT Essay Extras: (1), (2), (3), (4), (5)

Visuals of a Depressive Episode: (1), (2)

Journal Entries: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5

[pinacoladamatata]

*respecs Astarion as Thief instead of Assassin* ahhh feels good. Feels organic. Feels Powerful.

[chososluv]

P L U G ! C H O S O

✎₊˚⊹♡ summary: part 2 of PLUG!CHOSO because i love this pair so much (๑>◡<๑)~♡ ✎〰  word count: 3.1k

🏷 tags/warnings: fem!reader, reader has a vagina, weed dealer choso, reader is a big brat here!, choso gets kinda mean, brat!tamer choso, black coded, choso spending racks on youuuu, messy oral (male receiving), choso is whipped and back at it with his big size (height and cock) creaming, squirting, cervix hitting, deep throating, spanking, you cry a lil bc its so good, petnames and praises (ma, mamas), she's kinda proofread but subject to edit at any moment!

⋆🎧✮⋆mini playlist: ⤷ all mine - brent faiyaz ⤷ moonlight - kali uchis ⤷ on my mama - victoria monet ⤷ venus - dpr live

Plug!Choso and you blossom into a serious relationship. The man is committed to you and you knew how badly you had him wrapped around your finger. He would do anything for you at a drop of a dime if that meant your happiness in return, regardless whatever that meant from him. He didn't care. He always put you first.

Plug!Choso who sometimes has to put your spoiled ass in your place. He actually enjoys it and It wasn't like you didn't like it either, sometimes you pushed his buttons to see how much you could get away with before he had you sucking his cock or bent over the sink like a whore. You personally loved when you got to suck his cock as an apology, something about the weight of him on your tongue left you drunk and in a daze. . .

Which speaking of . . .

"Awh — you know how to make it up to me so good, ma." Choso moans, holding your hair back from your face. The sleek silk press you had gotten done made your hair bone straight for a change. Your attitude changed the moment you stepped out the salon chair, acting brand new and that's when you started testing Choso. He saw the way you stared at yourself longer in the mirror and tossed your hair extra dramatically as the day went on. Choso found it cute until that mouth of your started. Your mouth is what got you stuffed full of his cock in the first place.

It started when you went shopping after getting your hair done. You hadn't seen Choso in a while because between you working and with him "handling business," you rarely saw one another. Texts were becoming not enough for you and you just missed your man so bad. It got to the point where you only heard him a few times a day and that's when you began to really miss him. When he finally was finished and free from being tied up with business trips, he came back to you immediately. He was making it up to you by taking you on this shopping spree, but you couldn’t care less. You wanted to feel his girth on your tongue again, but you also wanted him to pay for leaving you alone all those weeks.

So, you decided to be an absolute brat.

Plug!Choso doesn't see it at first. He thought you were genuinely being moody with him until he noticed the longing stares and soft brushes against him. He realized then what game you were playing. He didn't mind though, he only ignored it until that mouth of yours started at the Prada store.

You had a pair of pumps on, staring at your feet in the mirror and you look over at Choso. You stared at him, seeing him consumed in his phone and you let yourself get annoyed. The one time he was not paying attention to you, and you rolled your eyes with a scoff. Choso looked up, seeing that nasty look on your face and he only raised an eyebrow.

"What's wrong?"

"Back on your phone again I see." You said snarkily and he clenched his jaw at your antics. You only turned around, humming nonchalantly before walking back to the shoe bench. Choso got up to follow you and he dropped to your feet before you can sit down. Even though you had just royally pissed him off, he was still being a gentlemen and tended to your needs. You bit your lip, feeling bad for snapping on him but you knew it was part of your game. He gently helped you out of the shoes before placing on another pair that he picked out for you. Delicately securing the straps, he stood up and loomed over you then he spoke.

"You may be my shawty but don't let that fucking mouth get you in trouble." He warned ever so silently so only you could hear. You gulped, pussy twitching at his threat but you stood your ground. You looked at him up and down before sneering.

"Whatever." You rolled your eyes before looking down at your feet, shoes grabbing your attention. You walked over to the mirror, ignoring the glare you feel in the back of your head from Choso. You looked at your feet once more, inspecting the platform heel and deciding on which shoe you were going to get. You walked back over to the bench and Choso is already ready to peel the shoe off of you. He's still pissed, but he tried to hide his grin when you informed him that you were going with his pick over your own.

Plug!Choso who spent thousands of dollars on you despite being furious because he loves spoiling you. You two left the mall with multiple bags — Choso carried them all — and it safe to say you two had a successful shopping day. You two barely said a word to one another, sensing he's still mad about your attitude the whole day but you had your stomach in a knot ready for the repercussions when you two got home.

"You been a brat to me all fucking day." Plug!Choso would say after you two got settled in the bedroom. You were putting your shoes away before taking off your earrings as he griped at you and you rolled your eyes. You don't say anything and you place your earrings on your vanity. He scowled at you, seeing you rolled your eyes at him yet again and he only grinded his teeth together.

"Y/N." He cautioned to you in tone that rendered a warning yet again. You looked up from your vanity and to him, trying to muster sneer but you went blank when you saw the look on his face. You felt your lower belly tremble and spine tingle at that look he gave.

"Choso." You only tried to continue your facade but you were moments from breaking. Choso saw right through you the moment you had your stunt in the Prada store. You were testing him intentionally and he knew you only acted like this when you needed reminding of who you were actually fucking with.

And lucky for you he'd remind you all fucking night long.

"Do I need to remind you who fucking owns that pussy?" Choso exhaled from the blunt and you bite your lip. Your feel goosebumps up and down your arms and before you can stop yourself you're nodding.

"Maybe." You said.

"Fucking brat." Choso growled before getting up from the bed. He walked over to you, grabbing your face with one hand while the other held onto the blunt. He brought it to his mouth, inhaling as he watched your eyes glaze over with lust and a hint of submission. Your lips were so pouty and glossy, so pretty he almost forgot he was irate.

Keyword almost.

"Cho—" He exhaled and cut you off.

"Nah, don’t ‘Cho' me. you been acting like a brat all day because you want me to fuck you?" Choso's tone was fed up, "Use that pretty mouth of yours that's been mean all fucking day and ask." Oh he's really mad and your stomach is doing flip flops. You feel breathless and know there's an incoming pool of arousal about to drench your panties.

"Cho, please." He curtly inhaled and exhaled.

"Please what?" He glared at you and ran a thumb across your bottom lip. You fight the urge to close your mouth around it and suck.

"Remind me who owns this pussy." You beg, hands reaching out to grab at the gray sweats he changed into. Your fingers were undoing the strings eagerly. He smirked, inhaling from the blunt one last time before ashing it. He decided you're worth his attention and he releases your face from his hold. You missed the warmth from his hands as he walked over to the edge of the bed before pulling his cock out. He sits down, stroking the semi-hard length and causing your mouth to water. You bit your lip as he beckoned you over.

"Come put that mean ass mouth to work first."

And that's how you ended up sucking his cock as an apology.

His length is so filling to have in your mouth. The weight of it, the pretty tip, the soft musk of him, you love everything about having his cock in your mouth. Not to mention the cussing and soft moans that left his mouth above you. You look up, seeing him chewing on his bottom lip. His nose is scrunched up and it highlights those piercings you just adore on him. His pretty nose ring, and now the recently added septum ring you convinced him to get along with you one day. Couple's piercings! You proclaimed, followed with that he would be hot with it along with his nose ring. However you were wrong.

He's so fucking handsome with it.

And with his hair growing out, it frames his face beautifully. He was an adonis falling apart at your own mouth and will. You continue sucking around him, soft hands massaging his balls too and his thighs twitch. He moans, hand pushing on your head as his hips bucked up. You gag around him, rubbing your thighs together as you took more of him in you. Your nose is touching his pelvis and he curses. You continue your apology, releasing him from your mouth after holding him snug in your throat. You gasp, soft giggle occuring. A string of spit connects from Choso's tip to your lips and you bring a finger to your lips, taking the lewd line and lining it with your palm. You take that same palm and wrap it around Choso's length. With your wet hand, you jerk it, finding oxygen in your lungs after recovering from that explicit deep throat. You eye at your work, tip angry red and vein on the underside growing thick.

Your cunt clenched around nothing as you moaned at the sight. You take your bottom lip between your teeth, looking up at Choso who stares at you with hooded eyes. His breathing is ragged as he slowly continues to chase after his high.

"Fuck, mama making me almost forget what I was mad at you for." He chuckles, then sighing at the sound of you giggling from between his legs. His praise makes you learn forward, kissing his tip and then tucking him back in your mouth. You suckle, feeling a pebble of cum trickle down your throat. You remove your mouth after swallowing.

"You taste so good." You moan, looking as you tap the head of his cock against your bottom lip. He moans, eyebrows scrunching as his grip tightens on your hair. He watches you kiss on his tip before opening your mouth. You slide your lips down, looking at him through your eyelashes as you continue to take more of him in your mouth.

"Fuck, y/n." Choso moans, hips bucking up as more precum dribbles out and mixes with your saliva. You hum around his shaft, tongue swirling as you lick along the underside. The fat vein is beating against your tongue and you moan at the feeling, cunt continuing to clench around nothing. You're bobbing your head, hand covering what you couldn't as he continued to curse and fuck your mouth. You remove your mouth after a few seconds, gasping for air, and jerking Choso softly in your hand. You lean down, kissing the underside before sinking down to spit noisily. The liquid landed on his balls and you brought a hand down to massage it in. He groans, hand pulling on your hair at the sensation and you remove your hand to replace it with your plush lips, suckling on his balls salaciously. You savor his musk and taste on your tongue before traveling from his balls back to his shaft and to the tip. You look at Choso, watching him watch your every move.

Nothing prepared him for what you were about to do.

You filthily gathered the spit and cum in your mouth, making Choso watch it fall tantalizingly slow from your lips to the tip. The mixture landing on his slit and your mouth chasing after it, warm mouth back on his cock. You swirl the mixture around your tongue and his shaft, moaning around him. Choso doesn't bother to fight the moan that leaves his lips. He decided enough was enough before he came down your throat.

"Shit," He pulls you off of him by your hair. You moan, letting his cock fall out your mouth and saliva running all down your chin. You look up at him with a fucked out grin, "you done being a brat, baby?"

"Yeah, Cho." You smile, reaching forward to kiss the underside of his dick and he hisses. He tenderly caresses your cheek before speaking.

"Get up here and put this pussy on me."

Plug!Choso who ends up taking you doggy. You're whimpering as his fat cock hits those spots you desperately craved to be touched these past two weeks. Each time he's entering you, you're moaning lewdly and chanting desperate pleas and praises. You're struggling to form words and between moans you're gasping, breathless inhales from each primal stroke from Choso. He is groaning and slapping his broad hands over your ass to earn cries from you each time.

"Cho—So!" You're whimpering, sliding into a slutty arch and he curses, slapping your ass yet again. Your pretty skin starts to manifest a crimson palm print.

"Fucking sexy as fuck with that arch, mama. Keep that shit for me." He presses a hand into your shoulder blade, helping you maintain it as he continues to pound into you. Tears are forming at your ducts at how good he is fucking you. You needed this for weeks and you were finally feeling it. That tingle in your stomach was increasing and you felt it traveling to the walls of your cunt.

"So big, baby I'm gonna—” You can't even finish your words and you're spraying messily all over him, yourself, and the sheets. He pulls out, rubbing a thick fingers over your cunt and continuing to milk you dry as you cry into the pillow. Your thighs are shaking pitifully but Choso doesn't stop. He only slides his cock right back in and you to let out a scream.

“Yeah," he's chuckling at you, "tell me how good I’m breaking this mean ass pussy.” Choso taunts, slapping your ass cheek yet again and the sting is rampant and so raw. Those tears from your eyes spill and you’re sighing in pleasure when his tip kisses those spots in you again.

“Choso, I’m so sorry.” You whimper and his broad frame leaning over you. He sees the tears running down your face and he moves a hand to catch them. His warm fingers wipe the tears away and he smiles tenderly at you for the first time since fucking. Your stomach flutters with butterflies when you see that soft dom side emerge. How could he not change the pace when his pretty baby was so pitifully ruined? He wanted to scoop you up in his arms right then and there.

“Awh, baby I forgive you,” Choso leans down, bringing his lips to your ear, “did I fuck that stank ass attitude away?” Choso voice sent tingles down your spine and he feels you clench around him at his words. He rolls his hips against your ass and you nod.

“Yes, Cho.” You whimper. He smiles, leaning down to kiss your cheek.

“Good, turn over and let me see that pretty face cum.”

Plug!Choso is so in love with you. He’s on his hunches, holding your waist off the bed as he pistons into you. The brute curve of his dick hitting that tender spot causes you to continue to be consumed with pleasure. Instead of tears, there was a fucked out look of pleasure on your face. He soaks in the sight of you sporting a dumb smile.

"Cho—so big I'm gonna cum." Between his mean words earlier, you sucking on his cock, and his immaculate stroke game, you were seconds away from entering that abyss of euphoria. It wasn't a surprise to him at all. He knew this was something you had anticipated all day -- to be fucked stupid by him. Choso only smiles, continuing to fuck deep into you.

"I know mama that pussy so creamy and tight around me." Choso says, seeing the creamy ring around his cock. Not only that, but your pussy clung to him everytime he tried to leave, not wanting to be void of his thick presence and attempting to entice him to stay. If he could, he would live the rest of his life between your plush thighs and hot, wet walls. His cock only seemed to be made for the way you were shaped and he fought cumming deep in you at the way your walls pulsed around him.

"Cho — cumming!" You cum, the feeling sneaking up on you before you knew it. You threw your back into an arch, wailing as the last batch of tears escape your eyes. You submit, allowing the bliss overtake your body and hijack your senses. Succumbing, your pussy squirts and it catches Choso's attention. He also sees your hardened nipples and pretty orgasm face and he allows himself to join you. He moans, letting his cock swell before pumping you full of his cum he'd been saving for you. You sigh, shuddering as you try to find yourself out of the white hot tension as Choso lays on top of you. His warmth shields you from all things negative and you mewl, burying your face into the crook of his neck. He chuckles sleepily before kissing your shoulder.

"You good, ma?" He asks and and you hum, locking your legs around him to keep his cock in you as you rejoin reality. You feel him softly twitch inside you.

"Mhmm, just hold me, Cho." You dramatically sigh, placing your face back in the crock of his neck and he only laughs. He kisses your shoulder yet again, causing you to sigh and relax fully in his arms. He smiles against your skin and continues to hold you till your thighs stopped shaking.

"I love you and your bratty ass you know that?" Choso says after you two cleaned up. You're curled into him, head on his comforting chest as he smokes the blunt from earlier. You hum, in a post sex daze that solely begs for a nap. You feel your eyelids growing heavy against your will and you only snuggle closer into him.

"I love you and when you put me in my place. So good." You say as exhaustion takes over all your senses and you yawn. Your mind falls blank, eyes shutting, but you hear Choso's next words loud and clear.

"And don't you forget it either, ma."

©chososluv ╰┈┈➤Plug!Choso ╰┈┈➤MASTERLIST!

[kwanisms]

Hello dear readers, it's September which means Kinktober is almost upon us. I have planned for the full 31 days this time, taking my old Kinktober from last year, reorganizing and reworking it to make something new! Details and taglist below the cut!

For this year, I will be writing for all of:

Seventeen

Stray Kids

Ateez

I will also be including the Choi Line of TXT as well as DPR Ian & Woosung of the Rose! The kink prompts, creature list (yes, she's also a Creature Feature!), and dialogue prompts (there are two extra and you'll learn why as you read further) for each day is listed below but the idol will be kept a secret until the day of! Don't worry, if you want to read for only one or two but do not want to be tagged in ALL of the Kinktober pieces, you can sign up for only the groups you want to read for. When filling out the taglist, you will be able to select who you want to be tagged in. Check out the prompts below and the taglist will be linked at the very bottom of the post!

Dialogue Prompts

"Don't cover your mouth. I want everyone to hear how good I make you feel."

"Sit on my face."

"Make me" + "God, you're so beautiful when you're fucked out under us."

"I haven't even touched you yet and you're already wet."

"Good boys get rewarded, so behave."

"Is that my shirt?"

"I'm not jealous. It's just that... you're mine."

"I love it when you cry." + "What do you mean you've never cum from sex?" + "Your panties are soaked already."

"Oh no. Not until you beg."

Try to stay quiet for me, kitten. Can you do that?"

"I'm waiting for your permission to let me have my way with you."

"I'm going to have you screaming by the end of the night."

"Lay back and touch yourself, I'm going to watch."

"Aw darling, I almost believe you."

Do you really think you're in a position to give orders?"

"I cannot possibly focus with your damn hand in my-"

"You look so good on your knees."

"I promise I'll be gentle."

"Baby, I asked you a question so if you know what's good for you, you'd better answer me."

"Yell at me again and I'll give you a reason to scream."

"Come here, I'll show you how to make yourself feel good."

"I'm bored, let's fuck."

"Have you never been touched like this before?"

"What? Does that feel good?"

"Baby... you need me that badly?"

Tell me you love me."

"We can't do that here! What if someone sees us?"

"You heard me. Take. It. Off. Now."

"Why are you shaking? You're not scared of me, are you?"

"Were not just friends and you fucking know it."

"Don't act so innocent, I heard you."

The taglist will most likely close at the end of this month, or it might extend into the first week of October. We'll see how it goes but for now, the taglist is open!

[imaginidol]

Hongjoong: Chords and Keys

“Hongjoong,” you quietly knock against the recording room’s door designated for ATEEZ.

“Come in,” calls a voice from inside.

You smile as you carefully creak the door ajar and peek inside. You’re hiding a warmed tea you’d just brewed for your new crush, a usual routine you’d committed to in hopes of helping de-stress his voice between recordings. It hadn’t been too long since you and Hongjoong had started talking, but it was so obvious you were both pretty into each other.

“Thank you so much,” he says as he graciously accepts the mug from your hands. “You’re always the best.”

“Anytime,” you smile, your eyes tracing the papers and equipment scattered about in front of him. “What’s new with you?”

“I’m putting together a couple songs, just experimenting to see what sounds good and what doesn’t.”

“Your songs always end up sounding amazing, Joong.”

The tired boy smiles and lets out a sigh. He puts his head down for a moment on the keyboard, heaving a loud “I’m just so tired!” under his arms.

You walk over to stand behind him, offering a small neck massage as you peered over his lyrics.

He lifts his head and, to your surprise, takes your hands from his shoulders and pulls you forward.

Oof! Your face is now practically right next to his, your hands outstretched in front of you as he gently wraps your arms around his shoulders.

“Stay there,” he whispers, turning his attention to the MIDI keyboard in front of him, “let me play something for you.”

You find yourself now comfortably hugging him from behind as he begins with a simple chord progression, humming out a tune and singing a few lyrics between breaths here and there. The progression and slow singing soon develop into a beautiful song, his eyes closed as he sings every word, each line dedicated to you.

He then plays a pre-recorded track that he’d composed earlier as an interlude and keyboard solo that would be the finishing touch to this song.

“This song,” he said, placing one hand over yours as the peaceful soundtrack plays in the background, “I got inspiration for it from DPR’s song Kiss Me. I hope you liked it, because I couldn’t stop thinking of you.”

He grabs your hands and intertwines his fingers around yours, bringing your palms closer to his chest. He turns his face to yours, his lips grazing ever so gently against your cheek.

Is this really about to happen? Is all you can think in your head as you feel the soft lips of your crush against your skin.

You begin to gently turn to face him, closing your eyes as you invite your own lips to hug his.

The sweet and tender moment grew as each new kiss lasted longer and firmer than the last. You could feel him smiling as he placed kisses against your lips, the corners of your lips, your bottom lip, everywhere.

A couple minutes pass before his phone pings from the desk as a notification ensues, forcing Hongjoong’s focus back to reality.

“I’m sorry,” he says, looking down at the keyboard as the time on the desk clock flashed 11:47pm. “I didn’t mean to get carried away—”

You laugh and finish his sentence by planting a kiss on his cheek, hugging him tighter from behind as you took in every detail of the precious moment.

“How much longer do you have to work tonight?” You ask, looking over his papers.

“I could call it a night,” he responds.

You notice the darkened circles under his eyes, realizing he must’ve been exhausted.

“Hey,” you say, “I have an idea.”

“What’s that?”

“What if you sleepover at my place tonight? I have lots of extra clothes for guests, too.”

He smiles, pulling you in closer for another heap of kisses, his soft giggles answering your questions for the warm, peaceful night with your new boyfriend that would now surely ensue.

more ateez here: mingi yunho san jongho

[ultkpopnetwork]

Time is moving too fast it is August somehow, this month we have 73 songs to vote for!

Click here to vote!

all votes and reblogs appreciated <3

Full June results under the cut

Any song not on here got 0 votes

Red Velvet - Cosmic 70%

Nayeon - ABCD 50%

Chuu - Strawberry Rush 40%

Badvillain 36,7%

Kep1er - Shooting Star 36,7%

Kwon Eunbi - Sabotage 33,3%

Sunmi - Balloon in Love 33,3%

Everglow - Zombie 30%

Cignature - poongdung 22,6%

Wooah - Pom Pom Pom 22,6%

Lisa - Rockstar 20%

Weki Meki - Concidestiny 20%

CSR - Pretty Mob 16,7%

H1-key - Let It Burn 16,7%

TWS - Hey Hey 16,7%

WayV - Give Me That 16,7%

AKMU - Hero 13,3%

Alexa - Distraction 13,3%

Jeonghan x Wonwoo - Last Night 13,3%

Primrose - Freyja 13,3%

Riize - Boom Boom Bass 13,3%

DALsooobin - Extra 10%

DALsooobin - Muck 10%

DPR IAN - Saint 10%

Saay - Domino 10%

Xdinary Heroes - Boy Comics 10%

Nicole - 5!6!7!8! 9,7%

Badvillain - Badtitude 6,7%

Bol4 feat. Giselle - Lips 6,7%

Craxy - Stupidz 6,7%

Epik High - Antihero 6,7%

FTIsland - Burn It 6,7%

Ive - Summer Festa 6,7%

Jimin feat. Loco - Smeraldo Garden Marching Band 6,7%

N.Flying - Into You 6,7%

TWS - If I'm S, Can You Be My N?

Big Ocean - Blow 3,3%

Candy Shop - Don't Cry 3,3%

Corbyn - Before I 3,3%

Ghost9 - Awesome Day 3,3%

Gyubin - Satellite 3,3%

Jea - Why Didn't I Realize

Jueun - Stay 3,3%

K.Will - No Sad Song For My Broken Heart 3,3%

Min feat. Lil Cherry - Prime Time 3,3%

N-Day - One Two Three 3,3%

Peniel - MIoBI  3,3%

Rothy - Happy End 3,3%

Spia - Deeeep 3,3%

Super Junior - Show Time 3,3%

Yein - I Will Be Your Spring 3,3%

[astarionposting]

🌖 [extras] WINTERFALL / DPR Ian

❝ Tell me where I went wrong on the surface;

ㅤㅤㅤSet my wings ablaze,

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤI thought you would barely notice. ❞

last one of the extras from my posts from a day ago!! :)

[theink-stainedfolk]

One to Five Tag

Thank you for the tag @drchenquill

I'll go with Legacy of Creation

One word to describe your WIP:

Intriguing (hopefully lol)

Two lines that are your favorite:

"I didn't create you to be my keeper, Acheron. I created you to be free." "And yet, my freedom is bound to you, Doctor.

"Knowledge without purpose is a dangerous thing, Sophie." "But isn't it through understanding that we find our purpose, Doctor?"

Three songs from your WIP playlist:

I haven't made a playlist yet but here are the songs which would fit this theme.

Dum Dum by Jeff Satur (ilovehimsomuchaaaaaa)

Bury A Friend by Billie Eilish

Control by Halsey

Extra: Do or Die by DPR ARTIC FT. DPR IAN

Five tropes featured:

Mad Scientist

Frankenstein Complex

Obsessive Devotion

Science vs. Supernatural

Unlikely Allies

I'll tag @cssnder @finickyfelix @willtheweaver @ascotwriting @agirlandherquill @leahnardo-da-veggie @illarian-rambling @winglesswriter @paeliae-occasionally

[navillee]

A Rafayel playlist that just makes sense

I've been thinking about some lyrics that fit him so well for weeks, so here's my recommendations for you, raf girlies

Mood - DPR IAN

"As we're drowning in the deepest seas

Bring down the sirens, all give you all of me

As I'm drowning in the deepest seas

Bring down the sirens, I'll set you free."

Blood sweat & tears - BTS

"My blood, sweat, and tears My body, mind, and soul I know well they're all yours This is a spell that will punish me."

Power - Isak Danielson

"I still look at you with eyes that want you When you move, you make my oceans move too If1 hear my name, I will run your way..."

With you in the morning- Carl Storm

"Turn this room Turn it to an ocean Let me float around Eyes closed Like we're dreaming even when we're not."

Heart Burn - Sunmi

"I am getting hot, oh, my! Is it because of the heat? Getting me annoyed, oh, my! I’ll let my guard down once"

Heroine - Sunmi

"You make me crazy And out of my senses Yes, you may know that You make me out of my mind You make me dance And drunk without alcohol"

Bite me - ENHYPEN

"Leave the mark on my neck That it's yours Just come over and bite me Come here and get some Sidekick that worships you That's my destiny Just come over and bite me."

Underwater - Chuu

"This unfamiliar blue light It spreads in my heart My sea unfolds from afar Dive, it pulls me Sinking underneath slowly"

Goddess- Jaira Burns

"Paint me like your french girls, piece by piece 'Cause my body is a temple And it needs some extra detail right here, right now And my name is monumental Say it for me, for me, for me..."

Standing next to you- Jungkook

"We'll survive the test of time I promise l'll be right here Standing next to you Standing in the fire next to you, oh You know it's deeper than the rain It's deeper than the pain When it's deep like DNA Somethin' they can't take away..."

E N D

[hongtyong]

Imagine: being as a “Kiss of Life” member

—

Stage Name: J (to avoid confusions to everyone, despite having the same similar of a name (Julia/Julie), she just chose a single letter of her name)

Birth Name: Julia

Position: Dancer, Vocalist, Rapper, and Visual. (despite having varies positions, she also would (and sometimes participate on helping) direct and edit some music videos)

Face Claim: Daoko

Voice Claim: Ado (tho it’ll vary to various artists)

Birthday: July 19th, 1996

Zodiac Sign: Cancer

Height: 152.4 cm (5’0”) (Approx. real height) *

/ Specialties: Freestyle, Music Instruments, Piano, Ballet, Photography, Editing and Directing.

/ Education: Texas A&M University (Bachelors’ Degree in Fine Arts)

/ She is the oldest member of Kiss of Life.

/ She’s part of the LGBTQ+ community and has said that she’s a bisexual.

/ She does all she can in her time donating to the causes in the world.

/ According to KISSYS, she is the shortest member of Kiss of Life. She is also the only member of the group that has tattoos.

/ Whether having long hair or short hair, she has the smallest face.

/ She is the quietest member, but she can be upbeat. She also have the biggest appetite so she likes any food, except spicy food. Though she is the quietest member of the group, she only communicates them by whispering their ears. But if a host speaks English, she’ll most likely be more comfortable if someone aside the others speaking English. But she’s more than happy having them translate to her.

/ On September of 2023, it was announced that J was going to be on hiatus due to a family emergency. She was not on social media for 3 months till she made a post in November assuring everyone that she’s okay and reasons why she took the time off was because was not only a family member had passed away but her mother had gotten sick and she had to take care of her and be back home in Texas just to be with her family.

/ On March of 2024, it was announced that J is returning to the group from her hiatus.

/ On May of 2024, it was announced that she is currently working on making a solo debut album.

/ According to the fans and netizens, it was rumored that her and Christian Yu (known as DPR IAN) were spotted walking around in Australia, holding hands.

/ On June the 1st, 2024, it was confirmed by both of the artists companies that both artists are dating.

/ Her ideal type: She said that she doesn’t have any type, as long they have a nice appearance and personality. But also said “if they have a nice smile, that’s a bonus!”.

—

hello hiiiii it’s been,,,, awhile since i’ve last posted something in relating to an extra member in a group thing😭

i’m hoping to do more of these soon!!

and if you see some things that are familiar, yes i just copied and paste it on here so- yea i’m plagiarizing myself LMAO

©️ hongtyong, 2024

[cococharm]

DANGEROUS DESIRE - christian yu

you once lived a privileged life , until a family scandal sent it crubling down. now, working as a cocktail waitress at Club Venus. you're drawn to christuan yu, the head bouncer. you suddenly enter a world of fight clubs, friendship, lingering relationships, and dark past.

─────────────── - pairing: bouncer!dpr ian x fem!reader - genre: written, fluff, romance, friends(???) to lovers - warning: this series is FICTIONAL and does not depict any of the celebrities real life actions - an: my inspiration came from the story "Once Perfect" by Cecy Robson. - status: ongoing ───────────────

profile 1 | profile 2 | club venus/extras

ONE TWO THREE FOUR FIVE ─ to be continued ─

main masterlist

[struggling-intuit]

na jaemin

an 18+ headcanon || of his bad influence

dpr live || kiss me

wc || 0.3k

warnings || MY NEXT TRICK WILL MAKE ALL THE MINORS DISAPPEAR; pussy licking, ass licking, exhibitionism, implied fingering, jaemin wants a reaction out of you

Jaemin is a bad influence on you.

You never know what the man's going to do, mischievous as he is, and you often find yourself egging him on through all those little games he plays.

You really shouldn't.

Nana already knows he has you wrapped around his finger, and he plans to make full use of that. This means dragging you in for endless rounds of his favorite type of fun — exposing you.

Jaemin's the type of man who will laugh like a demon and then make full-on, serial-killer eye contact while he eats you out under the desk.

You're on Zoom in a work meeting.

Be careful here. If he doesn't get the reaction he wants, he's grabbing you by the thighs and pulling you to the edge of your seat so his tongue can reach your... other hole.

Yes, this is the same guy who "eww"ed and laughed at you when you brought up anal. You didn't actually buy his teasing, did you?

I would say that Jaemin is a pervert with a purpose, but his various degeneracies are simply for the fun of it.

These nasty things he does to you in public? They're really fucking fun.

Imagine the delicate movements of his fingers as they reach between your thighs in the back of an Uber. His knuckles brush at your knee and float upwards, eyes laughing at your shocked expression.

Why so nervous? You're the one who asked for this.

Those fingertips prodding at your barely-contained heat have you speechless, which is good since you need to be extra quiet for ten more minutes.

Better hope the driver isn't watching through the rearview mirror.

click here for main masterlist

and here for nct masterlist

the transition from voice kink era to hand kink era is actually insane

[changbeens]

Here's A Little Get-To-Know-You Tag Game!

Tagged by:@insoeng, thank you mel 💚

Name(s): bee

Pronouns: any idc

Star Sign: cancer

# Of Siblings & Fun Facts About Them (if you have any): one sister. a fun fact about her... she once "accidentally" flashed pete wentz

# Of Pets: a niece and a nephew?

Fandoms: skz i guess, i dont typically get super involved with fandoms beyond making content

Favorite Color: green and red

Favorite Song: right now its welcome to the other side by dpr ian

Favorite Author: i dont have one, i dont know how to read

Hobbies: making gfx and gifs, collecting little cards with a boy's face on them

Favorite Holiday: does my birthday count as a holiday? it should....

Do You Have Any Partner(s)?: yep 🥰

Fun facts about you/anything extra you wanna share!: my degrees of separation from ur faves is less than you think oooo cryptic

Tagging: @hwiyoungies @snug-gyu @hongamon @cheekyquokka @agibbangs @chanrizard @hwichanis @seungmoes @go-saeng @dancerachanation @noonaracha and anyone else who wants to (no pressure ofc)

[kpopjust4u]

24 days of Advent, 24 days of Kinkmas

Posted: 1st - 24th December

Genre: Smut (Minors DNI) - Under the Cut

Warnings included with each scenario. 

> WEEK 1:

🎄Day 1 - Stray Kids Felix x Reader

Cum play: Who doesn’t love a little treat on their first day of advent. You certainly do when Felix treats you early.

🎄Day 2 - ATEEZ: Wooyoung x Reader

Bondage: When decorating the house with Christmas lights turns into you tying Wooyoung up with the spare set.

🎄Day 3 - NCT: Jaehyun x Reader x NCT: Mark  

Threesome: Tensions are high when you “forget” your presents for each of them, giving them something they could never forget instead.

🎄Day 4 - GOT7: Mark x Reader

Brat Taming: It’s the season to behave...or not. It didn’t take a lot for Mark to switch when you tested his patience over Christmas party planning. 

> WEEK 2:

🎄Day 5 - Monsta X: Minhyuk x Reader

Toys: Is it Christmas day already? Minhyuk suprises you with a little present that has your legs shaking uncontrollably. 

🎄Day 6 - Day6: Young K x Reader 

Edging: When drinking hot chocolate whilst watching Christmas movies turns into something else that would make Santa blush.

🎄Day 7 - EXO: Sehun x Reader

Oral Fixation: Sehun gets a little wound up when you wouldn’t kiss him under the mistletoe, putting that pretty mouth of yours to good use. 

🎄Day 8 - Seventeen: Mingyu x Reader  

Creampie: Christmas pudding wasn’t the only thing that you were getting filled with this Christmas. 

🎄Day 9 - Pentagon: Kino x Reader 

Mirror Sex: You admire yourself so much in your reflections through the town’s windows, Kino turns this into something for both of your pleasures.  

🎄Day 10 - Block B: Zico x Reader 

Dry Humping: When getting bored at the Christmas party, you and Zico find something else to perk yourselves up. 

🎄Day 11 - Vixx: N x Reader 

Master/Sir: After a hard working month at work, your boss suprises you with something a little extra special, a bit more than a Christmas bonus. 

> WEEK 3:

🎄Day 12 - SF9: Zuho x Reader x Hwiyoung 

Cuckholding: When his date doesn’t go to plan, Hwiyoung gets something extra special to spend his Christmas holiday with you and Zuho. 

🎄Day 13 - 2PM: Nichkhun x Reader 

Marking: When you have a secret santa off a secret admirier, Nickhun can’t help but get jealous and makes sure that whoever it was, knew you were already taken. 

🎄Day 14 - SuperM: Ten x Reader 

Lingerie: Too cheer him up after a hard time over the holidays, you try on something a little special for him.

🎄Day 15 - SHINee: Taemin x Reader

Face Fucking - What does that mouth do other than sing those pretty little carols? Taemin bursts with the need to find out.

🎄Day 16 - U-Kiss: Kevin x Reader 

Wall Sex: Oh how pretty you look pressed up against the wall in your Mrs Claus outfit as Kevin is anything but nice. 

🎄Day 17 - KNK: Youjin x Reader 

Fingering: Naughty or Nice? Youjin makes that decision of you for himself, as his fingers do all the magic. 

🎄Day 18 - BTOB: Hyunsik x Reader 

Videotape: What’s Christmas without having a little keepsake of such a good time? This is the Christmas you’ll never get the chance to forget. 

> WEEK 4:

🎄Day 19 - TXT: Yeonjun x Reader

Exhibitionism: What’s a night out with friends to watch the lights without your boyfriend being desperate to have them shine over you whilst he’s fullfilling his needs?

🎄Day 20 -  ASTRO: Rocky x Reader

Vanilla Sex: 1st Christmas together, how else to celebrate that giving each other a little something to celebrate the holidays?

🎄Day 21 - Wonho x Reader

Thigh riding: Oh how you looked so god in your Christmas party dress, making Wonho slowly lose his mind as you use his thigh to not ruin such a pretty outfit. 

🎄Day 22 - DPR ian x Reader

Corruption: Of course, he couldn’t help himself from tainting you with his deepest and darkest desires when it’s a season to be good. 

🎄Day 23 - Eric Nam x Reader

Praise: A long day of shopping turns into something more entertaning to keep your spirits up, and of course, you behave so well

🎄Day 24 - Woosung x Reader

Degradation: Claiming to have been so good all year to the Santa at your mall, Woosung makes it evident that it’s all a facade. 

~

Tags: @ateezreactionsandscenarios, @trashlord-007, @fanfictrashlord-007

[honeydewtual]

Get-To-Know-You Tag Game!

Tagged by: @kimkaitual thank u <3

Name(s): Rhiannon (Rhi for short!)

Pronouns: She/They

Star Sign: Aries/Pisces cusp! but I just say Pisces

# Of Siblings & Fun Facts About Them (if you have any): 2 brothers & 1 sister. I am the youngest :3

# Of Pets: 2 cats, Pounce & Josie <3

Fandoms: kpop is the main one ig, but whatever else i rb too

Favorite Color: purple & black

Favorite Song: I'm gonna list a few >~< Tangled in the Great Escape by PTV, Blue on Black by Kenny Wayne Shepherd, Put Your Records On by Corrine Bailey Rae, Scaredy Cat by DPR IAN

Favorite Author: I don't have one bc I don't read as often as I should lol

Hobbies: making gifs, dancing, baking

Favorite Holiday: Halloween ! I love picking out costumes

Do You Have Any Partner(s)?: no......

Fun facts about you/anything extra you wanna share!: I did percussion in middle school band. I got to play a full drum kit for our concerts!

Tagging: @duovxq @mizugucci @strhwaberries @haechtual @fruitz @jeeu @odeblr @wonhos-fabuloso (only if u want to!)